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2016-04-04 07:13:47 Post No. 16994786
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2016-04-04 07:13:47
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I have a gambling problem. I'm 31 and I've struggled with it since I was 19 playing online poker. I ran myself into $35K credit card debt and $0 to my name by the age of 23. I would gamble every penny the day I got paid and would live off something like $18 for two more weeks.
Wasted many years of my life working my ass off paying off all my debt while still gambling every extra penny. Debt gone. My life isn't quite as hopeless. I try to pay all my bills first. I have a good paying salary position (at a casino). I have a 401(k), borrowed a grand from it to gamble... lost. Every bit of extra cash I have gets blown in the casino. It has been like this every week for so many years. 12 straight I guess.
It's tough. It's ruining my life. I end up in desperate situations where I'm stuck. I'm intelligent, good looking, charismatic, but nobody really knows how I'm dying on the inside.
Tonight I blew $320 in about an hour. The amount is irrelevant. It was more than I had to lose. I'll be living off of about $28 for the next 12 days. I'm used to it.
When I think about how much $ I've blown in the last 12 years. Hard to put an exact amount on it. All of it..
It just kills all my time, prevents me from being able to do anything. I know I just need to stop, but that clarity mostly only comes through after I've already fucked things up.
Any advice? Looking for something a little deeper than "stop gambling."
tl;dr Gambling addict doesn't learn. 31 and wasting life.