hey look, its one of these.
Why do people insist on coming here and asking stupid questions that can be answered by a quick google search? It's not fucking hard, people. Literally all it takes is the most basic possible research skills. Anyone can do it in ten seconds.
regardless of what other people think, say, want me to think, shit is good right now and it's only gonna get better. dunno what to tell you all.
people not wit it can hit it.
to you,
you know, its always been you for me. I really can't explain why, it's not even really a conscious choice, it just is and always has been since I met you. it's like a vibration somewhere in my chest; it started as a cacophony of confused beats like an artsy jazz song and has become a low bass tone that I leave alone. it has hurt me, it has distracted me, its damn near destroyed me... though if some of the greatest thinking minds of history are to be believed thats part of the essence of love lol.
I say this cause I saw a woman that looked like you today, again. there's a silhouette forever burned into my mind, a hair color, a look, a voice. a feeling I haven't found since. and for a second I thought i saw all of it in a silver TT.
It started me thinking, what if you were here? what if we met today? it feels like things are finally coming together and I wonder if the light I've found could match the one you always seemed to have now. I wonder if you still have the same look in your eyes that felt so contagious?
I started thinking that I need you in my life, or someone very much like you, because the mark you made on my life never went away... though perhaps it was too soon for things to line up right.
well that's all the time I have today for this. I've got a lot to do, too much to get sentimental and weird.
I hope that you are living the absolute best life.
>>16946481
My husband had a red audi tt when we met. He had wanted a silver one but they only had red or something when he bought it.
>>16946481
he gon keep ballin'
>>16946491
lol whut? I'm confused as to what's happening.
more to the point, silver is like the most common color for literally any year audi in any model, did he just not look around at all?
I understand nothing in this post
All I ask of anyone is that they be genuine with me. Even if you don't like me, I don't give a fuck, be genuine.
>>16946520
I don't know if the dealer made a mistake or what but it was a great mistake the red was beautiful but a fucking cop magnet
It gets harder and harder to live every day. I take 5 meds and they're not doing a fucking thing. I'm spiraling. I think I'll be dead within the next couple years.
>>16946566
Are you me?
Just this minute I agreed to keep a sexual relationship "casual" because he's getting back with his wife.
That's how fucking desperate I am for dick.
I'm moving back to the bay area for work. For a couple months, I'm going to be living at home while I look for a place. The problem is, a girl I'm on weird terms with is going to be a five minute walk away, and still hangs out with my old coworkers. I feel shitty already leaving a super great gal in la. It's gonna be a downer.
>>16946571
I am my own individual sad sack-of-shit self.
>>16946481
Funny how we all can relate to this post. I myself was enamored with a gent who sparked all the facets of my very being and inspired me to my wits end. He still inspires, I couldn't hold a candle to the flames he surrounded himself with. He deserved the best, and I honestly I'm a mess. He has always been nice to me but I get really really nervous when I see him. I can't say what I need to. I can throw spittle at everyone but him. I guess it's okay now that we both have great counterparts. He has always given me panic butterfly shock, lol. I hope one day we can be friends though, he saved my life.
>2 roommates do fuck all
>Am acting like a personal maid for them
>Ask them politely to do shit; it goes in one ear and out the other
>They then bitch at me when house isn't clean
>Today locked out for 3 hours calling them, no answer
>After 3 hours one walks out the door and gets in his car to drive off without saying a word
I want out so fucking bad holy shit, but my girlfriend who lives with me says "We can't because the rent is cheap and we can't fuck over one of said roommates who is our friend." Basically one giant guilt trip and finance trip prevents me from pulling strings and finding a new place to live.
I really wish I were horny right now.
I just want to edge for hours and feel really good.
>>16946698
Perhaps I may be of service milady
I really have no clue how to tell my parents that i'm moving out of state without them getting offended or mad.
>>16946369
I posted here a few months ago about a girl I now disliked greatly got pregnant and was planning to have the baby despite me telling her I never wanted kids. Well by the grace of the almighty heavens, she lost the baby. I am so grateful for this, and I am now here to warn you all that no matter how much you love or trust your partner do not trust them fully. They can easily go back on their word and fuck you over hard. And men specifically, never leave it to females to not get pregnant, if you really don't want children like I do than get a vasectomy it's the only sure way.
Wow I ordered something from walmart.com almost a week ago and the tracking says it hasn't even left the state it originated in yet. WTF
I have no idea how to be happy.
>>16946619
Feels you. Some fuckboy has my fucking heart on a string, too. Sucks.
>>16946804
Get this normie out of here
REALLY NEED A PISS RN
>>16946807
You think I'm a normie?
Wow. I'm really flattered.
>>16946822
Fuckboy is normie language
>>16946829
What would be an edgier term?
>>16946835
You're a normie so use your own terminology
>>16946807
Are you a fuckboy?
not in touch with my feminine side..angry
>>16946836
I don't think there is any other place in the world where I would be considered remotely normie.
>>16946837
No, I'm a pure angel
>>16946846
I want a pure sex angel.
>>16946851
Sex is only reserved for people you love
>>16946836
>>16946807
>>16946846
Go back to /r9k/ you robot fuck.
>>16946854
I love sex angels.
But when I love someone they don't love me.
>>16946919
I'm not a sex angel, I'm an angel of vengeance
I am so caught up in my lies and delusions that I can't even see straight anymore, it's consuming me. I don't have the energy for anything because all of my energy goes to feeling worried and anxious about made up problems. I don't even know how I should begin to fix it. I've felt like this for so long and now I can't hide it anymore. I don't know what to do or where to go or who to talk to, I just feel so alone and scared. It makes me pissed that I sit here in my room all day and waste my life doing nothing. I try so hard to think of things to motivate me and promote happiness but it all just feels empty. I feel like I will always feel this empty.
You ended it over a year ago, and I now have slightly more than a year clean.
Is this really what you wanted? Was I so wrong about you?
C'est la vie, I suppose.
>>16947023
You gotta talk to someone. Someone you can be honest with. A close friend, a family member. Probably a therapist. Other people can help you put your made up problems into perspective.
>>16946925
You think I don't know that already? I'm not stupid.
>>16947071
It feels like shit.
My boyfriend told me during a semi-fight (just an emotional discussion about some dumb shit from the past that he brought up but we did need to work out) that he feels like I sometimes use my depression and anxiety issues to be emotionally manipulative with him. I asked him about it later after we were calm, and he said he was sorry he said that and it was shitty and he didn't have any real examples for me. And now I don't know if I really am being emotionally manipulative without realizing it (and am horrified by that idea and would want to correct any such behavior immediately) and he just doesn't want to talk about it anymore, or if that was just something he said when he was upset with me, in which case...that's pretty shitty and emotionally manipulative of him himself. I don't know what to do or think.
I have a gorgeous girlfriend, wealthy family, good friends, I'm good at the sports that I play, and I'm leaving to go to prep school after this summer, but as mature as I want to be and as much as I want to have a future, I feel that I will never overcome the fact that death is inevitable, that God may or may not exist, that there's nothing on the other side. Am I wrong?
>>16947108
it's a valid concern. lots of people try and use their illnesses as excuses to get things their way. maybe he was wrong about it, but it wouldn't hurt to try and be more self aware.
There is this girl i know she is half-white/half-asian type, when i was around 12 years old back in 2000. we were really good friends because our family would have get togethers and hang out. we played around a bit and almost ended up having some sex/experimented a bit if you get what i mean. we were decent frineds back then. 4 years ago i learned she was in my area/town and i tried contacting her and friending on fb. but it didn't work and it backfired and she did not respond at all and in a few weeks i noticed she was blocking me cause i couldn't see her profile anymore. i kind of dropped it and was like well... i tried.. i'm too busy to be looking into this anyway cause i was military and had other shit on my mind. but now i'm out and i'm still in her area, things have been un-eventful. now i'm thinking it's awkward to be around a girl i was really good frinds with as a kid but not be able to contact or get with her. i recently found her work email and after some internet research i know where her address is and where she works (i.e. her work email) what should i do? do i stand a chance?
These dreams about you are killing me. Am I ever going to get over this and stop hating myself? I already said last time I vented that it's my fault, and I'm facing reality rather than turning away from it, forcing myself to just deal with it. But how do I at least numb some of the pain?
Nobody cares about me. I'm so lonely. I want to be held and fucked and loved but nobody will. They just fuck me say they'll call and don't.
This last guy said he liked me enough to want to "take it slow" and then -- never called me.
I wish I was dead.
Look _________ I am crushing on you hard. You are incredibly cute and you come across my mind more times than you should.This is embarrassing since I can't tell if you are friendly or genuinely interested. Please give me a sign.
>>16947122
Dude... I feel you. The thought of it scares me so much. I just wish I could believe 100% in God regardless of whether or not there is some higher power. Instead, I just have to worry about something I can do literally nothing about. Awesome.
It's OK, anon, you're not the only one. Honestly, hearing someone else say the same thing is somehow kind of comforting despite changing nothing.
>>16947153
I totally understand that and absolutely am going to pay more attention, but I'd appreciate it if he could give me any real examples as I already try to be very aware of how I'm treating the people around me for this exact fear, and the fact that he sort of backpedaled away from it makes me wonder if it's something I genuinely need to be stressing about as much as I have been ever since he made the comment, or if he was just looking for some way to hurt me during a heated discussion, in which case that's pretty fucked up to use a person's mental health issues against them like that.
>>16947158
No. Don't contact her. And definitely don't go to her house or something. Blocking you was her no. Do not actively seek her out. Move on.
I hate how life gives you opportunities when you're not ready!
Every time I hook up with a girl that I have any sort of feelings for I usually feel worse after unless there's a lot of communication between us / some sort of bond formed.
That is to say, I think that I can't avoid my desire to be emotionally attached and close to (pretty much) everyone that I hook up with, which blows because that desire is counter to popular culture here in America and counter to women's expectations of me.
>>16947198
There are billions of people in this world I'm sure you can find someone out of that messed up bunch.
My School Is Doing One If Those Shave Your Head For Cancer Things And The 8/10 For Looks And 11/10 For Personality Is Doing This And Says I Should Do It Tomorrow So I Don't Know If I Should Do It Or Not Do It Trying Either To Impress The Girl Of My Dreams Or Get Fucking Laugh At By Every Person At My School. Help Please And Sorry For Any Grammer Errors
I love you T.
>>16947271
I'm sorry you feel that way, dude, and that there pressure on you to treat sex a certain way. There's nothing wrong with wanting a connection with a partner, and I'm sure there are plenty of girls who feel the same way. Maybe try dating someone older? Or not having sex with someone until you're in a relationship with them instead of hooking up with someone you kind of like? Good luck.
>>16947282
I'm a T. Likely not your T, but thank you. I love you!
I love you dearly but sometimes I question if the love I have for myself will make it so one day I won't be able to handle your inconsistency.
My heart aches to not be worthy of love on a more consistent basis.
You're the alternative that I can't have and almost don't want. I'll take your currently unrealized potential and relationship inexperience over chronic illness and having to reshape everything about myself for the medical needs of another I love but I'm horribly burdened by.
I don't want you around. Well, I do, but it only serves as a horrible reminder of other possibilities that I'm passing by. And mainly because I feel like that's the right thing to do. Even if that's unhealthy for me.
I'm one of those girls who's never dated anyone ever. Too picky about men, too picky about women, and I care more about drawing art of my imaginary partner to even bother start looking.
I lost my friend girl to work on erotic art.
I think I'm doomed.
Stupid, stupid, stupid.
Can't help anyone, too broken to not be scared to be fixed myself. I try as hard as I can and fail when the people I love need me to succeed.
Stupid.
I think I'm going to finally bring up to my doctor that I'm depressed and anxious and that I want to try meds.
I can't live like this anymore
>>16947348
Are you at least good at art?
>>16947380 When I'm not making trash cheesecake porn, I can do some fine art sketches and portraits.
Nobody I show my fine art to really cared, so I keep going back to sexual fulfillment art online instead. I think I'm better than beginner but not naturally gifted enough to break into my own.
Pic related is my art.
Yess, it's here! No Game No Life Vol. 4 showed up in the mail today. Holy fuck, this LN is great. Just gonna spank one out as quick as possible & then go read more of it. I love obsessing over Shiro. She's one of my favorite lolis.
I am so sick of waking up every Saturday to immediately feel like shit because I know the next 6.5 hours of my day will be spent sinking time into being the only guy at my store who actually cleans anything. I'd rather stay at home, sit in the basement, and code/watch anime. I hate to go out & look into people's scary, angry eyes & attempt to answer "Where is obscure brand name item x?" questions. I've got more money than I know what to do with, but this is my first & only source of income. I'll focus on getting an internship at an IT department, & assuming I land one, quit my job the week before I start so I can focus solely on working a paid, full-time internship. At least there, I'll be doing something I enjoy & answering to company employees instead of customers.
Everything feels useless and my life has no direction. I don't want anything anymore. I feel fine mostly, just apathetic and seriously lacking in motivation to do anything, even something like playing video games. Most days there is a moment where I break down and start crying over how much I hate myself or how everything is purposeless and then I hate myself more for doing exactly that. Is this depression?
I don't want to go to a therapist. I don't want some stranger to talk to me with some formulaic pretense of caring. I don't want medication, and I don't want to be declared mentally ill and judged for it. And deep down I don't even really want to get better.
I have no goals and am indecisive as fuck. I try to not make decisions for myself whenever possible. I have lots of ideas of things I could pursue but little to no real motivation that doesn't fade out in a day. My life for about 5 years has been like that quote from a book I've never read but vaguely remember, "I'd rather not". I will have to get a job within the year, or something. I am not scared because I have faced hardly any severe consequences for my lethargy yet. But it's coming and it feels like a meteor slowly drifting towards earth with a dragon dildo at the end ready to impale itself on my asshole. My only hope is that fear will drive me to do something before it's too late.
I want to go back to my life as a camgirl because I KNOW he'll never find out, and it will be my way to reclaim my sexuality.
>>16947509
That's a real, authentic, feel. I respect you for feeling it. I respect you for noticing it. And I respect you for sharing it.
You make me feel special when you what to get laid. The rest of the time I feel like I don't exist in your mind.
Oh but by the way...it was weird the other day when you said you actually didn't delete what I asked you to delete, but then the next day when I asked about them you said you had deleted them. I reminded you that you said they are still in your possession. Of course you quickly retracted your statement about deleting them. I'm not gullible. Denial is just a strong thing. Are you a liar or just drunk?
>I feel better I guess
>>16946481
Your initials or theirs?
I wish you stayed where you were. Having you to think about, to wonder about, is a nuisance I thought was gone for me. Everything feels different and as if nothing changed and it's confusing. I hate this position.
>>16947651
I wish I stayed there as well.
>>16947658
Doubtful you're my person. Hope your situation gets better too.
>>16947694
I hope yours does also ;-;
Why is every woman on online dating fake as fuck. They always ALWAYS have some shitty past or thing that theyre hiding that always comes out after we meet or talk
>hehehe yeah my roomate is awesome HE really helpd.me out
>yeah my abusive ex
>oh yeah i remember my lityle drug phase with some coke
>Yeah sometimes i dance on the weekend
Every time its these awful deal breakers for any sort of long term commitment. Can i just meet one cute non-psycho chick online?
my only hope now is that it gets so bad that I'll get depression for real and i'll have to see a doctor before i kill myself, or worse, do nothing at all
>>16946369
I'm sick and tired about people getting up me and my wife's ass about having kids. We do not want any. We never want any. We are happy with the lives we have and just want people to understand our choice.
I have no idea why, i tried to be like "we can have both universes", "it doesn't matter", "DC can make good movies too", "let it go man"... and stuff like that... i tried to think openly about DC having their own good movie universe, but now that they apparently failed (as the critics say) i feel... i feel good... i feel good for their fail and idontevenknowwhy... and it makes me feel guilty, lol.
wait a while ... and maybe die
or...
I write to you because I can't kiss you.
>>16947791
Respect
>>16947791
yeah, like we need any more of uses, well done. They're over rated, you might not even like them. Think of all the money you'll save and kinky sex parties you can go to instead.
i met someone who made such a huge impact in my life that i realised living without them would be so difficult for me to do. They're so amazing to me, that I didn't want to live in a world without them. Bu they ended up hurting me and now we dont talk. I'm hoping he reaches out and tries to apologise and fix things..cause i shouldnt have to reach out when I was the person being hurt.. but.. i just wish i could go back to the past
>>16947733
>male roommate with platonic relationship
>sometimes dancing
The problem isn't the girls, the problem is you.
So I was friend with this guy for like 2 years, we did everything together and he was what you may call my "best friend". After the death of two important family members I was trying to look for support with this person and everytime he just distanced more and more everytime I talked about it. I finally managed to talk it all out and he just basically said "lel, it's not as if I care for you or anything, everyone likes free shit"(Whenever we went out, I used to be the one who payed for everything, guess it was my fault too in the long run too for doing dumb shit like that)...
It was just surprising, I even managed to tell him he was a cunt for everything that happened but non of it matters now, we don't even talk anymore. I'm not mad, It's just that the drama that happened last year ended up screwing everything up. Sometimes I'm happy because I managed to tell him to go to hell, but even I can't deny that some of the happiest moments and memories happened when I was friends with him. Guess I'm just stupid
>>16947956
Is he aware he hurt you? Did you tell him fully how he'd made you feel?
If not, then tell him. Make sure he knows.
If he is aware and he still won't apologize, then forget him. He's a cock and he wasn't worth your time. Sometimes we misjudge people and let the wrong ones get too close to us.
I just want a petite blonde gf I can love and spoil and have kids with
IS THAT SO MUCH TO FUCKING ASK
there's no solution. People that do something bad but we can't say or pay elsewhere but she has the money and
what the fuck.
I miss being held.
But I don't even just miss the act itself. I miss it with him. Anyone else could hold me, but it would never be the same. I miss him holding me the way he did two years ago.
I miss his strong arms wrapped around me. I miss feeling safe and secure. I miss when we'd be curled up in bed or on the lounge, and he'd give me back tickles. I miss him playing with my hair while we cuddled.
I miss the gentle kisses on my forehead, on my lips, on the tip of my nose, on my collarbone, wherever he could reach.
I miss the warmth radiating from him. I miss being half asleep at 3am and feeling him pull me closer towards him until there's no space left between us.
I miss waking up in the morning being entangled in each other, our legs, our arms, our fingers intertwined from one of us reaching for the other's hand at some point during our sleep.
But, more than all of that, I miss him holding me because he wanted to show me he loved me.
I miss him holding me because he genuinely wanted to, and because he loved it too.
I miss him holding me because he wanted me to feel his love emanating from him. I miss him holding me, not because I enjoyed it and felt safe and loved, but because he wanted me to literally physically know that he cared for me and loved me.
God forbid if he ever reads this, and then ever has a chance to hold me again purely because he wants to and wants me to know he loves me; I don't even know if I'd be able to believe he was doing it to tell me and show me that, because I'll just think he's doing it because I enjoy it, not because he really does want to show me that he loves me.
But, he probably doesn't even love me anyway.
angry that I did do what they ask you to but you shouldn't really as the people that help these things will hurt you because of it?
Will we ever get together? I'm such a coward. Shoot me down, Sarah. I'm ready to crash and burn.
I'd suck his cock with you if you wanted.
Just to spend some time with you.
>>16948002
Initials?
"Don't do things you'll regret, anon."
I just used the topic to say those words to myself
ALL I'M ASKING IS THAT YOU DON'T DRINK, DON'T SMOKE, DON'T DO DRUGS, DON'T HAVE ANY TATTOOS, AND DON'T HAVE UNNECESSARY PIERCINGS
WHY IS IT THAT EVERY GODDAMN GIRL I MEET FROM MUSEUMS TO CONCERTS CAN'T FOLLOW A PURE LIFESTYLE
>dude chill out bro it doesn't mean anything
IT'S MEANS SHE'S EITHER AN ADDICT OR A SPUR-OF-THE-MOMENT RETARD AND I DON'T WANT HER TEACHING MY FUTURE CHILDREN BAD HABITS
I love you all the time
Sweet love
>>16948015
Those people like piercings and tattoos the same way you like museums and concerts. They just like them on their body.
If you want a 'pure girl', try a church, specifically evangelical or Catholic.
>>16947613
so far as I know she's a long ways away and could be married at this point, who knows. also probably doesn't come on here. I really don't know why I come on here other than the fact I don't want to go through the pretentiousness of starting a blog, or worse a vlog, but feel the need to write crap that no one gives a shit to hear occasionally. this is my dumping ground for thoughts with no outlet, don't read too much into it. unless your middle initial is M and you hate your middle name, you're from cali, and you think eggs are gross. then uh.... idk, that'd be some impressive coincidence and if you have any desire to talk you have my number.
I have to wake up for work in 4 hours. but i made that personal deadline damn it. probably end up doing this again tomorrow night. sheesh, this is why most people fail, most people aren't willing to do this kind of shit.
>>16947979
It had gone on for a while and he knew and occasionally he felt bad but it kept happening, and he purposely tried to hurt me as much as possible by saying something incredibly vicious on saturday night, but i stood up for myself and defended myself and let the people around him know what he's been doing. He came back at 1am sunday begging for my forgiveness but I wasn't able to move on so quickly, I was so hurt and still am. He is aware he hurt me. I think both of us are hurting now, because we really cared about each other and were such close friends. I wish I could go back to that.. He isn't the type of person to reach out to apologise properly. But I wish he would. I wish I'd get a message from him asking to see him in person so he could make it up to me. That would really mean a lot to me.
>>16946380
Because human input from actual humans at the moment under anonymity is better than Yahoo Answers.
I feel like a constant disapointment to my parents despite great grades. I never had time to socialize so I never really learned how to talk to people outside of a structured environment like school or clubs. I feel like all of my problems could be solved by killing myself, but I could never bring myself to do that. I feel bad about how I seem to ignore people when in fact whenever I talk to people I either don't know what to say or I'm busy doing something trivial. I love this girl, but she probably has a bf, and if he's who I think he is, they're great together. I don't know if I'm actually in love with her or I'm just attaching myself to her because of the total lack of a social life I have, which seems selfish. My ex texted me out of the blue a while ago, and I don't know how to feel. I thought it felt...good? to talk to them, but it also felt hollow, cause it almost seemed like it was a different person texting me. I hope I see them in person soon.
Fuck, next week is gonna be busy
Fuck, _this_ week is gonna be busy
i need a break
why am i up it's tomorrow
I loved you, but I need to leave you. I'm not saying it's entirely your fault, but we had a toxic relationship from the start. All the bright and happy memories can't make me ignore the horrible miscommunication, insults and threats. I think if we stay together you might actually kill me.
I can't get along with your mother, I tried really hard but you get mad at me when we don't click... you blame me for everything. You get mad at me for a past that didn't even involve you, you put me down constantly to feel better about yourself. You tried to leave me several times, but came back after a few hours, saying that you didn't mean to go. You came up with apologies way too late, not when I needed you to listen...
I have nothing left for you, I can't feel love, just a manipulative man. And you ask yourself why I don't want children...
I don't want to end up being a single mother, or worse, you involving the children in our fights, but it wont come that far.
Goodbye.
I felt whole for a fleeting year but the obvious succession to that has left me just as empty and confused as I've always been.
I experienced what life is like when you don't want to kill yourself every single day. And now it's gone, and I don't know that I'll ever get back to it.
I would suspect banging the secretary who was putting it about, and being made red with envy at her further slutery as they in their sick heat conspired to met out a vigilante treatment to wicked paying doggerels who deserved all they got for £350 a course. What next? Mayhap I'm wrong but, it lands square.
Hey Sarah :D
>>16948096
You have a limited amount of time left mate. Don't waste it bashing yourself.
As for my confession:
I don't know if I like you, T.
Don't waste your time, P.
Meanwhile he found a way to charge double and do half the work. The only flaw in that being if the dupe noticed the judicial extra work being meted out. Would she honour her professional ethics?
It's maddening because it always comes back to if they just remove one person it all goes back to normal like it never happened. No matter what I do there is always an interest in destroying that person. As long as they get rid of Bobo, they can do what-ever they please. Damn! For someone to actually give a fuck.
Ah tis no use, let's have a glass of squash with these new tablets of mine. And have a think.
I can't cope any more. Let me out.
>>16947509
I feel you, man
I've been on antidepressants for a week and I don't think they're doing anything. I'm still suicidal af and still have no motivation to get out of bed.
Made an appointment for a therapist, but I don't really want to go. The thought of someone caring about my problems because my parents are paying them to really upsets me.
I want someone who genuinely cares about me and is by my side when I need them.
>>16948296
Antidepressants often take 4 weeks to work, I'm sure they told you that.
Also therapists DO care. If they didn't want to help you they wouldn't be your therapist. They're not in it for the massive amount of cash they aren't making. My husband is a therapist. He chose it as a career (after almost completing a much higher paying degree), because he wants to help people. Honestly. Sure, he has clients he doesn't like as people, but that doesn't mean he doesn't want to help them. He does.
>>16947202
*sigh. Idk why I bother asking, but Initials?
I wish I had some loyal friends that weren't complete retards
>>16947957
Dancing was codefor stripping in case i didnt make that clear and im not a cuck so im not going to date a chick who rooms with non family males
>>16948348
>non family males
Hahaha are you fucking kidding me?
You do realise that there are so, so many people who room with the opposite sex, right? Just because they live together does not mean their relationship is more than platonic.
>>16948358
>muh platonic friendship
Woman/cuck detected
Why is it that I only feel loneliness when I'm forced to interact with people at work and such all day every day?
If I'm alone for indefinite periods of time, I fucking love it, content as shit. But being forced to interact with people all day, I just come home and lie in bed and feel fucking horrible.
Maybe it's not exactly loneliness, I think what I miss is my own company. I have no time to just be by myself right now. So I stay awake in bed for way longer than I should every night just to have some time to be conscious with my thoughts without having to acknowledge other people.
>>16946683
>tell your roommates to fuck off
>tell your gf to pack her things and move with you or fuck off
Quit being a cuck
>>16947233
>when you're not ready!
You will never be wth that attitude.
You are ready, if you really want to take the opportunity you will take it and not sit on your ass
so I've been having this situation occur while masturbating that my thoughts will kinda swerve towards thinking about sex with other women and it really finishes the job. It's like I struggle until I start thinking about women. The problems are a)I'm married and yes my sex life with my husband has gone to zero pretty much and b)i find i have little in common with the vast majority of other women and can't seem to get along with them (my mommy was mean to me)
i don't want to overthink it and just assume that this is normal, am I doin' it right?
>>16948015
You could stop being such a faggot and accepting the girl for who they are, instead of asking the girl not to have fun.
Or do this >>1694803, seems like the place for you. I mean, who the fuck goes to concerts sober?
>>16948411
Why feel horrible once you get home then, instead of while you're with people? Shouldn't you feel good once you're home and by yourself if you were missing being alone?
Maybe you're okay when you're just alone, but when you interact with people it's a reminder that you're not connecting in a meaningful way, or in whatever way it is you want. But who knows, I just like to pretend I can be a psychologist on /adv/ sometimes.
I wish I could be hated by everyone I know, that way nobody will miss me when I'm gone.
>>16948449
>Why feel horrible once you get home then, instead of while you're with people? Shouldn't you feel good once you're home and by yourself if you were missing being alone?
I dunno. I'm working this out as I go.
I do feel great on the weekends when I have actual time to do shit. During the week I have time to watch some TV with my family so they feel like they've seen me, then pretty much wind down and go to bed.
I don't have time to do anything meaningful with myself so I'm dependant on shit like interesting things happening online, and when there's not much going on it's just me killing time until tomorrow. I guess I'm not used to depending on others for entertainment, and how it feels when that's not happening.
you know sometimes these deliriums whilst utter gibberish may well be actually the real. Who could tell?
The dude I love basically just told me tonight that the reason he's being an asshole to me lately is because he has feelings for me but is ashamed of being gay and wants to "fix" himself by never speaking to me again. I'm his only friend. I feel shit.
Do you remember the last walk we had? And how the light blue skies illuminated the greeny trees all around you? I had never seen anything more beautiful. I was so in love with the idea of being yours. So infatuated with your mind and soul.
I remeber those days from what feels like an eternity ago, as time has passed my heart has healed but i still find myself dreaming of you, wondering where you are now and how youre doing. Everything that happened was toxic and doomed from the start and i suppose that plays its role in me still dwelling on the past. I dont think ill ever see you again. And i dont know what im gonna do about it. I can either stay in this fantasy where i hold onto the hope that we will one day be together- or i can accept the truth and move on rationally.
Fuck you Bernie Sanders
Please answer me back!
You're the reason why I'm still alive, why I'm eating again, why i had the strength to try and get my life together. But you're also the reason why i bought myself an X-acto knife yesterday. I plan to cut myself for every lie you told me, for every time opened myself up to you thinking its what you truly wanted. for every time i tried.
I've realized you no longer care. Which is why I'm not going to bother you with my troubles anymore, because they honestly stopped being any of your business long ago.
I'll just casually repeat myself, I mean who doesn't do that?
Can't stop thinking about Jon. Need help.
>>16948582
Fuck you Hillary Clinton
>>16947991
Initials?
>>16948699
What is his last initial?
>>16948709
I think W.
Being an observant little shit makes me feel like a creep sometimes
I fucking hate all you cunts, im too angry t
I find it so difficult to talk to females. It's not even because I want to jump on them at any chance, it's because I feel that they would think I'm a creep. I don't want a partner, I just want a friend. Why do I think like that, it makes me so awkward it hurts. God help me please.
>>16948750
Just talk to them, you already have a no so you have nothing to lose, could always become a yes.
I'm 28, working an okay job and am wondering if it's just too late for me to get an education. Still wonder why the hell I didn't do shit after all this time, I've just wasted it.
Please stop running in my head, stranger. I need to fucking study
>>16948002
>>16948133
Go away, nerds
Quit saying my name
>>16948052
>yahoo answers
That is not even a good place to get your information from. Jesus christ, /adv/, what the fuck is wrong with you.
Why do the people closest to me let me down the most?
Boyfriend has been really mean to me lately...
>Snaps at me randomly
>Gets mad over everything
>Makes everything out to be my fault
I believe it's me, because he was never like this before, I must of changed along the way and made him like this, I love him and don't want to leave him, but I'm going through emotional pain every single day with him.
>>16948990
It's nothing to do with you, he probably just wants out of the relationship.
>>16948990
Sounds like he's stressed out about something, sit him down and tell him about how you feel
>>16948998
This could also be the problem
>>16948990
Talk to him about it, and have an honest conversation about how it's making you feel. You'll only regret it if you don't
>>16948976
Because you have the highest expectations of them.
I really don't know how to express how I feel now. I don't know what exactly I did wrong. But, I'll do whatever it takes to make it right. Somehow...
I was at the college we used to attend, where we shared a home, earlier. I was with friends that had business on campus, and then we stopped for lunch.
It was... odd, as I had not been in the area since you ended it. I felt somber for the duration, and I don't even know if you still live there. I haven't posted in a while, and I don't know why I am now.
I was hoping to catch a glimpse of you, and I really wanted to see those stupid dogs. Bah...
Thank you for making me smile and laugh this morning, it may not seem like much, but it made a world of difference to me. I miss you. I wish we could do this every day together. Thank you, sweet love
You beautiful soul, you, please be mine. I'll romance you so hard.
>>16948998
he wants to fuck another stacy
just dump him
let him learn on his own, and you can get someone else easier than he can
fuck him, haha, let these millennial cunts weep over the effort they have to put into mating
I just wish people would stop shaming me for being a NEET. Because I tried everything to get a job and I even have a college degree and military experience
I wish people would stop saying I need a g/f/SO/ life-partner. Because I know at this point in my life there's no one right for me out there.
I wish people would respect my decision to take my own life
>tfw your longtime friend hits on your sister and she's not ok with it and I'm not ok with it and I haven't seen him in a week and when we meet up everything's gonna be fucked
Life's funny sometimes huh
i am so mad. so frustrated. i can't speak my fucking mind. my bf has a fight tonight and he told me that he doesn't want me to come and see him like this. i can totally understand that. but today i was texting with him and i find out that he is taking his female friend, who (surprise, surprise) also is his ex, instead. when he told me i could feel my stomach turn and 3 hours later i am still tensing with furry. and i can't open my mouth and tell him to not see her again. i don't know what the hell is wrong with me... oh my god i need to vent so bad.
>>16949669
>tensing with furry
>>16949678
>furry
kek
ok, yeah my bad
>>16949657
>shaming for being a neet
people still do that?
my condolences, but fuck them m8
the only people who matter are the ones who dictate how you'll live
It's as simple as a time and a place.
I still don't know what I'm doing.
I'm still in love with the wrong person.
...and that's Wednesday.
Goodnight!
I want to die saving someones life. I wish this wish of mine would come sooner than later.
This is stupid. We're both obviously dying to ask the other out, so what's the hold up? I know what mine is.
It's getting worse. Almost every song I hear makes me think of you. The smallest things remind me of you. I'm driving myself to the brink of madness with this feeling. If I could let go, I would, and I've tried, but somehow, you have a hold on me.
Let's make this happen, please.
I'm sick of feeling like I'm fat. I'm not but its dictated my life for ten years now. I just want to be happy with my body.
I'm not even actually on the lemonade diet cleanse yet, I'm on the day before where you're just drinking OJ, and I'm already miserable and jonesing for a cheeseburger. This does not bode well for my fat ass, but I'm going to do my best.
>>16946369
Thank you! I am obsessed with this girl, her boyfriend is actually autistic and ive started blaming the length of which they're going on her, being mean to her and i cant fucking control myself! I am an asshole, i don't deserve her but i try anyway. The person she is going out with doesn't even like her but I do. Ive been trying to keep my feelings about her bottles up for ages and holy fuck was this nice to let out.
Thanks OP
>>16950043
Underage and autistic
>>16950043
>why won't this girl i've got a weird obsession with and have been treating like shit pick meeee
>>16950063
Yup, this is the shrilling reality
>>16950061
is 21 underaged? How could you assume something from a mindless rant?
why is life so fucking shit
my stomach feels all fucked up half the time, I get nervous and anxious about everything, can't sleep properly, I don't trust anybody, so goddamn lonely, fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
>>16949669
>need to vent so bad
>in THE vent general
>stops venting
Woman possessed with furry, gentlemen, kek.
mom called me and told me grandpa is in hospital again
dad called an hour later and said grandpa is in coma, and that there's almost no chance of him waking up again
>>16950084
The writing itself, the vocabulary, and what was written.
You guys are assholes. Thanks. Thank you and you and you. !!Congratulations!!
>>16950102
Fair enough, but I was just letting out what has been bottled in, its bound to come off immature.
>>16949591
Really? I can't wait!
>>16949918
Initials possibly?
I am consumed with rage. I think I always have been I just created a smile out of pain. Like a joker smile. I am hatred. i don't talk with people any more, unless I have to at work. I barley leave my room. I need drugs or just to straight up kill myself. I hate you all, ever human on the planet including myself. Forgive me if i kill myself soon i just can't even.
>>16950085
I feel ya
>>16950207
Ow the edge
>>16950219
I am the edge master sick of all this PC bullshit. I'm edgy and angry as fuck. I would probably be worse if it wasn't for the fluoride in the water.
Well, how can I do anything if I don't know how you feel? You never let it get that far. I'm not going to take a risk that can potentially destroy me. You know how I feel. So, the ball is in your court.
But, then again it was probably foolish of me to ever come here.
It's been almost a month since we talked.
Today is the first day since then where I've wanted to talk to you just to see how you are.
But if you haven't tried to talk to me, I know I shouldn't.
>>16949377
Initials?
>>16950240
Can I ask for the initials?
>>16950099
Sorryt o hear that man
>>16949918
I agree. So..a walk?
>>16950247
Maybe they don't talk to you because you don't talk to them.
Hey, I'm sorry for giving you the cold shoulder every time I walk by you.
I'm crazy about you and when I see you looking at me intently I just lock up and pretend you don't exist.
You probably think I hate you, I'm too proud and stupid to tell you the truth.
Good luck and hang in there, you're amazing.
>>16950283
We dated for almost 2 years and broke up. We talked a bit after the break up until she said she couldn't handle it and that she wanted space. Last time I reached out to her she ended up screaming at me on the phone something I couldn't even understand and hung up.
I don't think she's waiting on me to do anything.
That's comforting to here...
Do you see why I wouldn't continuously try to contact you though? Lol you won't even greet me back and I don't even greet people in the first place. It's a damned if you do, damned if I don't type of situation. I'm not trying to get blown the fuck out over the Internet and become known as some obsessed freak for actually trying to comply to some shitty "courting ritual" once in my life.
What am I doing? I have made such a mess of my life and hurt a lot of people along the way... How do I make it stop. Every other aspect of my life besides socially I am thriving. I can't seem to figure that part out. I keep up an appearance that lets others close to me think I'm okay and I can care or connect with them but as genuine as it may seem-it's not. I oddly care so much about what happens to the people in my life who shouldn't matter as much and destroy those who do.I feel so guilty but don't know how to turn it off. I want to blame my fucked up past but I can't use that as an excuse anymore. Time to grow up and figure out my shit, but how?
>>16950260
Come on now...
Why don't you stay with me? Why you prefer to stay with your ex-boyfriend and not with me? I don't know what is wrong with me... I love you. I love you more than anything else in this world, and you don't wanna stay with me. You said you loved me, said that cared for me and that will stay with me until the end. So where are you know? Where are you when I feeling like shit and nobody gives a shit about me... I don't know what to do anymore. I'm just here writing stuff in a website that you will never know...
I'm tired of fucking hypocrites, even though I am one. I'm tired of myself, and I'm tired of everyone else too. I'm ready to end it all at this point. But why do people have to be so fucking insensitive? so ignorant? I'm probably just overthinking everything
>>16950294
Nah dude, she's fucking some other hole now.
Nobody respects me and I've had enough. Walking into that hellhole everyday and people expect me to smile and socialize. They're all too ignorant to realize that I am mentally above them. I have no time for their insufferable bullshit. I always look angry and when people ask me why, I say I'm just tired. Technically, I'm not lying; I am always tired because I am sleep deprived by my horrible thoughts at night. I need to talk to people in real life but nobody understands.They really don't. Nobody I know can relate to feeling like they are constantly numb, and if I dared to ask them how they really felt they would just lie. Nobody tells the truth. I don't tell the truth. There is nobody who I can share my sick fantasies with, people just think I need fucking counseling when really all I need is a friend to listen. But no, who's going to fucking talk to me? who is going to talk to the weird psycho kid? Oh god no, you wouldn't want to risk your precious little social lives just to make someone's day slightly less miserable. Well maybe if someone would just take one for the team and fucking be nice to me, then I wouldn't be so mad. All you have to do is smile, or say 'hi'. One fucking word is all it would take, but you just can't do that. Too proud, huh? Well one day it's going to be too late and you're going to wish you would've respected me.
>mfw I'm getting good grades
>less and less shy and nervous overall
>I have more money than before I went to college so I can afford to hang out with friends in bars and restaurants and becoming more and more fashionable
>literally the only thing I need to be more of a normie is a bf and a summer job
>teachers from high school and college fully support me and want to recommend me to several good companies once I graduate
Feels awesome, I love it. People don't treat me like shit or talk shit behind my back anymore now that I have money and that I'm not depressed anymore. Although the bf part is annoying, I think I have a crush on a guy who probably dislike me idk.
>>16950398
>tumblr
>bf
The JIDF never sleeps
>>16950398
Go and talk with him. You will never know if you don't talk with him. And tell that you like him. u-u
>>16950425
I feel like justice needs to be dealt
>>16950388
Give me a chance.
>>16950430
Lead the way! Cause I'm lost as
>>16950441
I'll send you to hell
>>16950445
Are we not already there?
>>16950285
Initials?
>>16950448
No, but when I'm done with you I'll make sure you beg for it
>>16950465
What did I do that was so bad? Plus I'm definitely living my hell already.
>>16950474
You existed
I'm 23 years old and don't want to grow up just yet. I'm torn because i have two different plans for this summer.
One is to move cities, get a new job and work my ass off, possibly feel like i'm doing something useful with my life.
The other is to drink the summer away like always.
I just quit a job where i worked 2am-4pm sometimes for like 2 euros/hr, and want to rest for a bit
>>16950509
Basically
>>16950369
Already know for sure that isn't true but 4chan's obsession with the cuck meme strikes again.
I applied for a job working in a national park and I really REALLY hope I get it. It pays less than my current job and is only seasonal for this summer, but I don't care I want to work outdoors again so badly
please god
>>16950559
Good luck anon, that job sounds nice
Enjoy playing it with him next month. For my own sake now, I'm going to stop myself from noticing what you do and refrain from thinking about it all. Even venting just serves to make me feel worse, not better. All I can take from it all is to learn from my mistake to avoid repeating it in the future. Be happy, stay well, and enjoy yourselves.
It's a whole new level of pathetic that I come to these threads just look for posts that could be written by the one who I'd like to say something like it.
I have no idea what you're thinking and it's killing me here. I don't know if you're acting reserved because that's the way you are, or because you've decided that the easiest way to let me down easy would be just to pretend nothing happened between us. I don't regret anything I've ever done, least of all you.
My father recently told me he was a victim of rape and i feel so trapped and weird about it. I cant tell my friends of family because i know itll start shit but im constantly worried about him.
>>16950559
I loved the seasonal thing. Great experiences. The work will probably suck at times, but if you are like me, you aren't there for that. It's all about where you are and the people you meet.
>>16950654
Initials please?
I'm going through it right now. I hate myself for liking The Beatles. I hate how I have an infatuation with some.of the most popular music ever created, giving off the impression that I'm vapid and boring. The cultlike mentality of their fans terrify me.
Thank you for destroying me. Thank you so fucking much.
>>16950811
You're welcome
If you care for me enough to want me to move with you to another state. Why are you moving in the first place?
You fucking idiots drive me nuts. Holy shit, Every fucking day of my life i am trapped around the most incompetent idiots i have ever met called my fucking family. Jesus, We moved to get away from my three, count em, 3! mother fucking drug addict brothers and yet you still let one of them (the oldest) come and fucking set all day on our couch but continuosly spout "oh he can't stay here dur i don wanna violate my lease but he can come here he can come here and eat id never deny my children dat right durrr" Yet three years ago when the other... FUCKING FAGGOT.. barely disturbed you you kicked him out. To you this 35 year old horribly addicted drug addict is your pride and joy still, you treat and speak to him in such a better manner then you have ever fucking spoken to me or any one else. I am trying in school, I am trying in classes to get ahead but it is so hard when i live in a house with someone who is so fundementally fucking retarded that all they have ever known is making children, poverty, and sadness. It makes me so fucking mad that you say "he knows he can't stay" then you instantly follow it by "he needs a place just for tonight" WHAT THE FUCK EVER. It will obviously turn into him staying here long term like always because you are a fucking push over. And then there is my 11 year old sister that is so spoiled she won't eat shit like bologna because "thats poor people food" In the past year my struggling family has bought her three fucking phones over and over because it is never good enough for her and her fat, retarded, almost half a century old father (my mothers boyfriend) spoils her because it is easier to spoil a kid then be a father. The same man was caught watching real life dog pornography and pregnant 12 year olds yet he is still somehow accepted in this household and we still let him live with us even though he is a dumb redneck, wannabe retarded fucking nasty borderline pedophile that is so fat and fucking retarded he has shit his pants 5-6.
>>16950333
Just give him the initials you fucking cunt, you insinuated enough.
>>16950509
Tits or gtfo already, you second-rate JLH.
>>16950859
>>Continued
He constantly shits his pants and is so dirty and nasty the second he had a computer he hit on three dirty, landwhale redneck bitches on facebook and was going out with one at the time yet my mom still let him back in. Also the constant fucking being mouthed to by a FUCKING CHILD about my life and how much of a piece of shit i am or anything she wants and my fucking mother is literally like "oh she tell dah truf girl she aint got no filter dat good" I do nothing to these people literally being a transparent as a ghost and being at school most of the time (pre-college, College) I don't do any drugs other then smoke tobacco and yet i am treated like i can't do anything and that im retarded. The fucking day of me starting my first day of ninth grade all those years ago my mother looks at me and says "Ill be so amazed if he graduates" and she has continued to say horribly, self destroying shit my entire life, from the time i was a child to the time now i have been subject to mental and emotional abuse of the level that i was taught to always be ashamed of everything and that i was a failure. THIS IS YOUR FUCKING FAULT. The edipus complex between her and my 35 year old, scabbies covered older brother is sickening to say the lease, the fact she has an uncanny care for him is fucked considering me and my other family members never have even seen an ounce of any form of affection just further being taught anything we do in life should be confronted with pure shame and that we need her and without her we would all die like my father did.
>>16950859
>>last part
My mother and her boyfriend are nearing and over 50, and yet they lack a car, have never had insurance of any kind until now, have zero financial security and always bum rides to go anywhere. My older siblings which i love are sometimes unable to give them rides as they have lifes at which times she starts insulting them and freaking out because someone won't taxi there inept asses around. My family was so poor starting out yet she had eight kids and finished off with a ninth one in 2003. Fucking truly amazing the amount of idiocy, Impulse, and sheer arrogance i have to motivate me to never ever live like this or force my children through the same things.
>scratch ass
>few minutes later
>pick nose and eat booger
every fucking time
today is my birthday and I burned everything that reminded of me of who I was when we were together. I roasted marshmallows and made s'mores. I drank a lot.
If you are as innocent as you say you are then I will jump off a bridge. You are a piece of shit and it shows. Fuck you. You don't deserve my everything.
I fucked up my community college GPA by being extremely sick for three years. I don't know if I can successfully transfer anymore.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y62OlGvC-bk
>be me
>life going great
>finally gonna ask girl to prom
>get ideas for friend
>make poster ad candles set
>girl is a half tracy, definitely a tracy among st her orbiters and those in chorus
>friend and girl friend help me
>ask tracy's sister help
>she says yes, though warns me she has turned down a few guys already
>actually helps me and tries to figure out what she is doing
>texting last night /w her
> planning thursday night
>she comes home and sister goes to talk to her
>I guess she interrogated her or some shit for 15 minutes and comes back texting sorry three times and says that she found out that she is planning on going with a "friend" and that she didn't find out sooner before I did everything
>not upset, but annoyed and slightly disappointing in myself for not acting quick enough
I'm over it now but she was gonna be a good catch m8s, 8/10 traditional qt3.14 and was actually very pleasant to talk to. Guess no time like the present. I want to pull a chris from dead poets society, not that I think shes going out with a chad, I have enough confidence to do it anyway.
Should I do it for the thrill or just find some random broad to go with? I don't like much other girls, and no, I don't have oneitis for her. She just happens to be my first choice.
It still hurts that you left. I think it always will. Did you know that I thought you were my soulmate? I think it hurts the most because I KNOW you were looking so hard for yours, and I know I never told you, but I had spent my life looking for mine, too. I had just given up - and then when I met you, and fell in love, I was ecstatic, elated. I thought after giving up that I had finally found the one.
And then you abandoned me.
I wish I had never met you. You didn't fucking deserve me. I could have dealt with wanting a soulmate but never finding one. But I feel so fucking empty, so alone now that I found the person I thought I belonged with and they abandoned me. I was ready to give you everything, I was ready to live my life with you and you threw it all back in my fucking face.
I hope it haunts you. I hope you wander the rest of your fucking life looking for your soulmate. And I hope in all your darkest, most vulnerable moments there is a little voice in your head that tells you: You found them, and you threw them away.
How could I have ever thought I was going to marry you? How could I have ever dreamt about children, grandchildren?
God, I hate you so much. I hate you so purely, so completely. There is nothing left in me for you anymore but hate. I hate that you left me sadder, more tired. I hate that before I met you I was wild and free and now I feel like a ghost. I hate you, I hate you, I hate you so fucking much it makes me sick.
What's the difference between friend or foe? It seems like some people are trying to lead me into some trap to get back at me. It's pretty obvious. Maybe they actually do care about me. But I think if they did they would just be honest with me and not try and turn my life into some sort of spectacle or fiasco. That's what I would do for someone I cared about. That's what I tried to do and they took my words as some type of war. You have mouths to speak! Speak your piece! But, no you don't want to do that because you take it as a loss. That's why you hide. Even if it's something we disagree on we can just disagree. It doesn't have to be a problem. And of course you could flip my own rhetoric on me. I'm sure you will. I only react to your "reflections" negatively because they're done out of spite and not love.
>>16951009
So when you guys call me coward again, do spiteful passive aggressions, or lie to my face remember that I always came to you first. I always tried to be upfront. I always tried to grow and learn from my mistakes. I tried to be an adult and communicate. I always wanted you to succeed. I notice little things all the time and don't say anything. I've never done anything malicious to any of you, not even out of anger. I did blow up once out of anger after you tried to belittle me because I disagreed with something you said but you only broke the straw on the camel's back. It was a shit day. Some people are spiteful. Insecure people think everything I say is directed at them. Especially my tweets because only the people close to me know my account anyway. Then they react to them without ever really knowing what that statement was in relation to me. What it meant to ME or why I SAID IT. But I guess it's my fault right? For not overflowing with joy when another person shows up and expects me to act a certain way. To entertain some type of image they have of me like I'm a monkey. To tell you my life story that's only filled with pain that you can't even relate to. Then call me a downer or edgy when you see a small glimpse of what I carry. Then when I ask for help no one knows or it's just "emulate me. You'll be a better happier person". I thought I was weak. I did for a little while. But I realized now, just now, that I will succeed. If I'm meant to be alone I'll be alone. But I won't give up ever again. This is the worst I've felt in a while, honestly. I've learned today what it all means to me. What's left that's real to me. What I need to cherish and nurture. I actually think about two of you actually care. But I'm sure I'm wrong. We're just too "different" like you say.
>>16951015
Anyway, this is it. I'm done with this place. I feel like it's poisoning my mind and I'm already having enough trouble focusing and staying motivated. This time I'll do it for myself even though it's boring.
Look for me and you will find God.
>>16951007
I feel that
I want to stop being a piece of shit in my mid-twenties living off daddy's money, but I don't know how.
>>16950966
What the fuck kind of shit is that to say to someone?
>>16950388
Found the next Elliot Rodger.
Have fun dying alone faggot.
I can't stop thinking about having anal sex with women. How fucking I can't stop, I want to have it so bad but I cant find/get girls. Fucking I loose my shit when I see a very nice ass. Dick diamond hard and want to just release everything. Facesitting, assworshiping, eating ass, assplay, slapping, spanking, assjob, bitting cheeks, kissing cheeks, lapdancing, hardcore and forced anal. I FUCKING LOVE WOMEN'S ASS!!! BUT WTF DO I DO?!
I just can't stop thinking about my friends wife. My head knows it could never happen but I can't help but have feelings for her
>>16950187
I'm M, he's J. Doomed.
>>16950267
I love walks. You're on.
>>16946563
Red cars in general are cop magnets
>>16951237
find a girl who will let you put your dick in her ass, obv. In my experience, it's pretty much any girl, you just have to be smooth about it. Pretty much any girl I've slept with more than once I've gotten to assfuck, so I think you'll be ok bromie.
>>16951237
>tfw ill never find videos or picture collections of girls in yoga/tight pants masturbating on staircase railings or door knobs
