The only girl I've ever had feelings for told me it was ok that I was shy, and then left me for someone else precisely because I was shy. It brought up a lot of trust/confidence issues and I developed chronic depression as a result but I decided not to let it affect my future and applied for a Master's programme. The tuition fees put me even further in debt, and I just about manage to cover my basic living costs by working a shitty part-time job with long unsociable hours. I don't have enough money for a social life, and I work/study so much that I don't have time for one either, so I've been feeling pretty lonely and sad. The only things I look forward to are surfing the web for a few hours if I get time in the evening, and visiting my family for xmas. Yesterday I came home to find someone had broken into my flat and stolen my laptop, meaning that I'll now have to spend xmas working extra hours in a job I hate to pay for what I already owned.
I'm not trying to say that I'm the worst off in the world, I have many things to be fortunate for and I know plenty of people have it worse. It's just been so long since I actually enjoyed being alive, and I don't know what to do. All my effort goes towards not folding under my shitty circumstances now so that I can have a better future, but no matter how hard I work my life doesn't improve - it only seems to get worse as I get older and more independent. I don't know what to do to help me reconnect with happiness again. Any ideas?
>I don't have enough money for a social life
Nigga what
Just go to some party's or get a new hobby where you can meet some people, money is not a requirement.
I suggest this a lot, but I really suggest people start lifting weights. It's not a magic pill, but the exercise really makes a huge difference in your overall mood. You feel better and more confident in yourself.
>>16552634
>Go to some party's
Ok, who with? Most of the people on my course don't live at the university, and have social lives at home. The people I live with are mostly foreign students (mainly Chinese) who don't socialise. Even if I did get invited to a party, I don't have enough money to buy alcohol or pay to go to clubs afterwards, which is what most people do at around 10-11pm after a party.
>>16552637
Gym membership was the only thing I allowed myself to splash out on at the start of the year, with money I'd saved up working over the summer. I go 6 times a week, and am probably in the best shape I've ever been in. It does help a little bit mood-wise, but I've been a regular gym-goer for more than 5 years and have exercised all my life, so it's not made any real difference for me recently.
>>16552612
Hey man, similar situation. Except I'm in the US where my major (English) is making a shift from Rhetoric and Composition into Gender Studies, a hapless anon like myself is obviously not cool with that idea. I have literally no friends except for my professors and members of my band. All of which live 50+ miles away and have no interest in coming to see me. I also work a shitty part time job and drive a car that is falling apart completely. I also don't get invited to parties (even within my major because I won't ascribe to Virginia Woolf's clan). Trust me, your life is shitty, but it could be way worse.
>>16552693
Yeah it's not like I think I have the worst life ever or anything like that, I've just caught a few bad breaks that's all. I'm sure plenty of other people live lifes similar to mine and are happy, I just don't understand how they can be. What's there to be happy about?
>>16552788
You're preaching the choir. I feel like we lead pretty similar lives. How old are you?
>>16552824
23, how about you?
>>16552997
I'm 20. I feel like we've still got time to turn it around, but that there would be no point. It sounds dark, but I already know my life will end in suicide. It's more of a question of when.
>>16553006
Well I'm not at that stage yet, and hope I never will be. It would hurt my family too much, I could never do that to them. If I get to a place where I lose all hope, I'd just sell everything I own and devote my life to some stupid grandiose cause because - fuck it, what have I got to lose?
I hope you choose the same sort of thing, suicide isn't the answer.
>>16553051
Maybe that's the difference between me and you. I don't really have anyone who cares about me in that way.
>>16553071
Well that's tough - I didn't choose to have a loving family, I just got lucky with that at least. I still don't think that means suicide is a good idea though. You have nothing to lose, so go out and do the things you'd never have considered doing. If you're going to throw your life away, at least do it while you're having an adventure.
>>16553098
Any ideas?
>>16553109
Go to Africa and build a sustainable business empire, or die trying.
Go to Alaska and attempt to live completely freely and self-sufficiently.
Wallow in your misery, become an alcoholic, and turn your experience into a great work of literature
It's your choice really.
