I hate women now
I'm done with this. I've been led on for years. I've been lied to. I've been told to "Deal with me still talking to my ex daily or leave, I don't care pussy, but don't you DARE even mention the names of your exes to me"
I've been told "Drive into a wall you fucking loser my life would be so much easier without you bothering me, and I'll go fuck my ex whose cock is way bigger than yours" when days before I was told "I know I can be a bitch but I love you so make sure you fight for us because you're the air I breathe and I need you forever"
I've been ignored for days on end, I've had my number blocked, I've been called shit in bed and then if I make even minor suggestions like "Maybe clean your pussy a bit better after we've been fucking all week or I won't want to eat you, it smells like cum and I don't like cum" I once again get called a pussy loser and am told I should be grateful I have anything
I've had pictures of other guys dicks sent to me and told me to "Go cry about it you fucking baby, I'll be fucking that" in response to me wanking off to porn occasionally while she's bitching at me and withholding sex and saying we're done with and she doesn't want me
I've been brought up and down on an emotional roller coaster, I've been hit in the face, I've been left alone in hotel rooms as she drives away insulting me and then bitched at the next day for not begging for her to come back, just a little bit more than I did, so it's my fault she didn't spend the night
Why do I bother, why the fuck does anyone do this, why the fuck am I even alive? Why the fuck am I even alive? Why can't I experience joy in life without her? Why can't I just be not only happy, but at the very least in non-agony, just neutral? Why can't I at least be fucking neutral
Are all women like this? Why can't anyone just love me as much as I love them?
>wasting time with roasties
>>17363652
>I've had pictures of other guys dicks sent to me and told me to "Go cry about it you fucking baby, I'll be fucking that"
Who else here /diamonds/?
Anyways OP, is this just one girl? Just dump her and move on for fuck's sake, she's clearly a psycho. There are decent women out there, but you have to leave your current crazy gf.
>>17363673
I'm fairly certain he was telling stories about different girls.
>>17363684
One girl who I am deluded into thinking is the love of my life
Because when it's good, it's FUCKING GOOD. FUCKING AMAZING
I think she has bipolar or borderline personality disorder
When she loves me, SHE FUCKING LOVES ME and it's the most amazing I've EVER, EVER, EVER felt. But when she hates me, SHE FUCKING LITERALLY WANTS ME DEAD.
Sorry for caps. I am in so much distress
>>17363698
Help me
>>17363913
Break up with her.
>>17363698
>>17363913
Why do you think you want someone like this? Healthy people wouldn't put up with this.
You already seem to have accepted that your need for her is irrational. That is a really good start, seriously. But to truly move on, you need to understand more than having a simple concept of "this relationship is bad." People who have that understanding and nothing else (often women in abusive relationships) stay in their dysfunctional relationship. *why* do you feel you need her? What are you feeling when you make the decision to go back to her? Where does that come from?
These are tough things to think about, but necessary to actually break off for good.
>>17363913
Bro, block her, get her out of you life quickly and just go through the majority. Talk with other girls who are interested in you and fuck them. When you get over her and she comes back into your life you'll realize how much of an idiot you were for even giving her the time of day to begin with
>>17363953
Nobody's interested in me I have no friends anymore I stopped being social 100% when I was with her for the past 4 years. I never did anything anywhere ever except with her and I lost all my friends. I fucking hate myself. I have nobody left she got mad and wouldn't let me talk to my friends
Omfg kill me
>>17363961
k, where do you live?
>>17363698
Experienced BPD dater here. Lasted 3 years. Every day was something new. Trust me when I say I understand exactly what you mean. Luckily my relationship ended. We're still friends though. She's gotten better over the years but it's still no hope. At the moment I have 0 interest in girls. My BPD ex basically broke me srs. Don't see a recovery happening any time soon. Cut her off if possible. Take your loss. Just focus on yourself.
>>17363939
Healthy people is what they thrive on. Mostly healthy and shy/ nice guys mostly
I'm telling you e-bro... I just worked a 9hr shift... I'm tired as shit... I don't care about helping people too much honestly... but I went through what you're going through... basically verbatim... it was hell. you need to end the relationship. You won't listen to me. Because when I asked for help here and someone gave me this advice I didn't listen. 3 years of my life wasted bc I thought the person giving me advice didn't REALLY understand. You can stay friends but stop the relationship. I pray for you man lol don't end up like me
>>17364746
I feel like due to her personality (whether she has a disorder or not) of extremes, both extreme hate and extreme love, I'm addicted to that extreme love, and with a more stable, steady girl there wouldn't be that extreme hate and extreme love, just a bit of hate and a bit of love. But I want the extreme love but that can only ever come along with the extreme hate that I can't manage
I feel like she's a drug and I will never be able to quit her
>>17364778
You're right dude she is a drug
It's just gonna fuck you up tho man
There's no winning
>>17364778
Just rememver she's capable of dropping you and being ok but you'd be really sad
>>17364782
Yes there is a way to win.
Dump the bitch!
OP I've been where you're at. It fucking sucks. It literally sucks the life out of you. GET THE FUCK OUT! I dated this one bpd bitch for 2.5 years and she abused me to the point where I considered killing myself. She almost broke me man. Don't let that happen to you.
t.anon who been single for 6 weeks, feels good
You'll find another girl who will love u dude
>>17363652
>I've had pictures of other guys dicks sent to me and told me to "Go cry about it you fucking baby, I'll be fucking that"
Fuck, man. Can't imagine how you came to terms with that. I mean, I have a distant relationship and I'm afraid that one day when I hear a ring of her message I'll open it and see her riding someone else's dick. My condolences.
>>17363652
Similar situation here, but not nearly as extreme (as in the lows weren't THAT low).
It ended about four hours ago (after 6 years) so I'm not really sure whether it's for the best or not. But I understand how you feel, it's like an addiction but the drug doesn't even make you feel better half of the time.
Shit sucked, but it was literally the only good thing I had going for me in life, and I have no idea what the fuck I'm going to do with myself now. If you've got something else you can latch onto OP, then you might consider ending it.
>>17363652
if a bitch is saying any sort of these things you sock her or find another way to put her in her place. imagine if it were a guy saying that, you should want to tell them to fuck off or fight them.
shit man, that's horrible. I probably would too if i was in your shoes. All i can say is not all women are like this, but you should probably take a break from women for a long while. That kind of hurt takes a while to fade away
>>17363652
So why did you stick around with this bitch? One instance of that would have been grounds to leave, yet you let her keep walking all over you.
You kind of are a pussy loser when you do that. Stand up for yourself. Have a backbone. There's no shame in standing up for yourself, even if it means losing someone close to you - if you have to stand up to your own girlfriend to get her to stop shitting all over you emotionally (and hopefully not physically), you probably shouldn't be dating that particular someone.
Seriously.
Go find your balls, wherever you left them, and leave that whore, you pathetic sack of shit.
>>17364936
>>17364929
>>17364921
But deep down inside I know she loves me
She's even acknowledged that she has meanness issues sometimes and has said if I love her I would accept that it's how she is and deal with it
>>17364951
I'm not even sure whether to keep insulting you or to feel sorry for.you for being such a delusional fucking moron.
>>17364951
Look, maybe she does. But it doesn't matter.
This relationship is unhealthy for her and it sure as fuck is unhealthy for you, you NEED to end it.There's nothing stopping you from still loving her or being her best friend but you CANNOT continue this relationship. Trust me, I've been there.
>>17364970
But I'd be giving up on the very ideal of love
I know I'm stupid
God help me I'm unsaveable
>>17364951
>has said if I love her I would accept being treated like absolute shit
Bruh, just get the fuck out. This is your typical abusive relationship cycle.
>>17364987
If all else fails cry your eyes out and then cut off all contact. Do something, anything, to get them off your mind.
>>17364951
Deep down inside you're asking why, and you're wondering if all women are like this.
They aren't. You don't have to stay with her. And you're kind of a moron for staying with someone who demeans your self worth on a daily basis. Leave. That will show that you are in control, instead of it always being the other way around.
"Love of oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance."
>>17365032
Yeah sick of jacking off and sick of talking to myself in my fucking head
I want my soulmate back, I want the girl I could tell fucking anything, absolutely anything. I want back the girl I could happily do nothing with but sit and talk for an entire day, days on end, years on end if I wanted to
I want my fucking life back, she is my air. Kill me
>>17363698
Break up with her. You already know it's a problem and you're being a moron posting about it instead of doing what's necessary.
>>17364951
I'm sure you could find someone just as loving sans the insanity and the abuse.
You don't need this, it's making you unhappy and souring your vision of women.
>>17365198
I doubt it
>>17364746
God, all my this.
It's a hell of a ride, but it's not worth the damage it's doing to you. Experience talking here too.
>>17364987
Why the fuck did you even make this thread?
>>17365334
Lonely
>>17365334
Attention-whoring, it seems like
