>>17355420
Then you should move on, do something.
Go to the gym, improve yourself to get ready and meet new people, go out with your actual friends and get distracted, work.

Strangely it was not other girls, but growing up and realizing she was a terrible person that made me get over her

>>17355492

same here. much truth.

she got fat, is still lazy and unproductive, complacent. I knew that wasn't for me. byebye

>>17355556
I suppose this is what is going to happen in my situation as well.

All my first ever really does is smoke a lot of weed and just hangout with friends. A lot of things in her life were just handed to her.

I find it's more a confidence thing more than anything.

I was similar to you OP, thinking about all the great times we had and now you're a piece of shit and she's off living and loving life.

Probability dictates that there is thousands of girls out there that will actually be better for you, you simply just do not know about them.

The more CONFIDENT you are the more you will live in the moment and embrace every day's millions of opportunities and fun to be had. The more you will meet your friends, the more you will chat to strangers, the more happy you will be to be yourself and most of all you will be indifferent to what happens in your life.

This state of mind is hard to achieve, in fact is what a lot of spiritual teachers try to teach. However it is possible.

Be indifferent to the circumstances of your life, this is where true happiness and confidence lies.

I kissed three girls over two nights the other night and suddenly those feelings of my ex were gone, because I saw how bright the moment and future was.

Get out of your own way.