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I just want to die. I just want to feel loved.
Someone please just end the suffering. I just want the pain to go away. I just want to die
>>17315425
Does this really belong on /adv/?
>on my chest
>>17315448
>I just want to die. I just want to feel loved.
Those are kind of contradictory, anon.
>>17315458
In my opinion, it does belong here since it's meant to help people by giving them someone to confide in, who can listen, sympathize, comment, and give advice if needed.
For most people, that someone is a close friend, a family member, a priest, etc.
For us, it's anonymous.
>>17315458
This thread also acts as a sort of general for minor problems that don't deserve their own thread.
Don't you fucking dare come back. Don't you fucking dare text me unless it's to pick up your shit.
You've done this before.
Don't you fucking dare come back to me again.
I love you and I don't even know your name I wish you knew me I wish I knew how to talk to you I wish I saw you more often than just in one class I wish I'd die
I think I'm just going to go a whole year without talking to anyone. I mean really, what's it ever brought me? 99% of conversations you have with anyone are bullshit. They're built off this stale humor, where everything you say has to be witty somehow or it doesn't belong. I don't want to crack jokes, I just want to fucking talk about something. Guess I won't be doing that anymore.
You ignored me all day today... I'm so afraid you're disconnecting from me.
Drinking myself to sleep tonight. This could be my new thing - if only drinking a pack of beer every night didn't cost so much.
I love you. So much. Please don't leave.
I accidentally stiffed a reasturant $20.... I feel like shit
>>17315483
Man if you want to have good conversations with people you gotta play the game. You don't have to constantly come back with witty comments. You're probably just thinking to hard. Try and ask questions and respond by saying what first comes to your mind
>>17315548
That's all it feels like, though. Listen in to any conversation with young people and it's all just a flurry of jokes. There's no room to talk about anything else, except for maybe politics, and I hate politics.
Today I got fired from my dream job for being absent too often in the aftermath of a very painful injury. And said injury is also going to make it hard for me to find a new job during the next 2+ months of recovery. Hooray.
>>17315539
Honest mistakes happen, you'll feel better after the next time you go to eat and spend money there.
>>17315483
Yes, it's tough finding people you can really converse with. Cutting yourself off won't help though.
Stop telling me the right one will come to me. I am believing it less and less every time.
I kind of wonder if it would be better to pull the plug on my relationship sometimes just because I can't stop thinking about the horrible shit that has happened. it's almost like I want to find someone else but I would be giving up the best friend I've ever had, and I know it wouldn't be possible to remain friends afterwards.
Long distance relationships suck. I want to hold someone. :(
There's this girl at my work who I have started developing feelings for. She's very sweet and has a pretty good sense of humor. I really want to get to know her, but I'm pretty sure it's impossible. I'm 21, about to start my last year in college/university and she just graduated high school (I think she's 19?). Not to mention the fact that I'm still going to be working at this job for at least another two months and know these kind of relationships can really fuck things up. I don't know if she sees me that way either.
Despite all of this, I can't stop thinking about her and it's driving me crazy. I don't know how to move on from this. Thanks for listening guys.
I wish I knew why people were pathological liars.
Look at this shit.
I met some guy at a hospital, added him as a friend, then he unfriended me.
I asked why he did that, he didn't explain.
So I offered an explanation and he thumbed it up.
Then almost two months later he sends me a crazy message telling me we discussed it arms length, while talking about killing things?
What the hell? I screen shot the entire chat box and took video of it just in case.
Am I missing something?
I can't stand the success of my friends, I have to feel superior to all of them otherwise I hate them from a distance
>>17315483
Someone finally said it :) I feel the same
>>17315841
It seems to me like you should consider ending it if you are starting to focus on the negative aspects of the relationship. I had a similar experience last year with my ex where a lot of bad stuff between us and her past were really starting to weigh on me and I wasn't happy anymore. I hesitated to pull the trigger and let the relationship go on because she was one of the few people I liked hanging out with.
It will definitely suck ass to lose someone you feel that close to, but if you let the bad feelings rot you from the inside, you might not see your partner as a friend at all. maybe you need to have a heart to heart with them? I hope you can fix things. Good luck.
I love you.
And I do not know what else to do.
Or rather I know I should just burn the bridges between me and you, but I don't want to.
I really wish this all wasn't.
I might need to end it another more definite way, as it seems this is all I live for, and it clearly can't be more than suffering while rejoicing from afar at your serenity.
You know how I feel towards you. You know things will not change.
I hope to reach that same certainty and just quit.
Quit life.
I CAN NEVER KEEP A GIRL LONGER THAN 2 OR 3 DATES
This keeps happening.
>Meet girl (usually from OKC)
>Date 1 and 2 go well, we are texting in between
>Suddenly radio silence
>A while later the "sorry I don't think it will work out" message comes through
This has happened dozens of times over the last few years. Literally like 30-40 times. Never seen a girl more than 3-4 dates.
Why is this happening?!
>>17315986
Are you being too assertive or needy?
Are you dressed normally?
>>17315947
his last message makes no sense but you come across as a huge sperg in your earlier ones
>>17315993
>you come across as a huge sperg in your earlier ones
I was trying to be semi-formal while supportive because when I met the guy he was suicidal.
How are you supposed to talk to those people?
Sidenote:
I never thought I'd say this, but I no longer give a shit about suicidal people.
Everyone one of them I've met is a complete nutcase that makes no sense and doesn't care if they're not communicating or being fair to other people.
>>17315991
Dressed normally, yes (i.e. decent shirt with fairly normal trousers)
Needy - I doubt it. Assertive - probably not, what do you mean?
My mind is always empty when I talk.
I dont have any questions, dont know any answers and generally always feel like getting a blank.
I usually pre-plan conversions and try to remember these plans, but I cant actively think when I speak.
With writing its different. I always have an image of what I want to say and actually feel like Im thinking.
Why cant be abolish verbal communication
>>17315999
Does your "decent shirt" have any patterns on it?
Because then it's weird, not decent.
As for not knowing what assertive means...
Are you telling them what to believe or the way things are? Are you controlling conversations?
>>17316003
No, just an ordinary shirt. People often compliment me for wearing a nice shirt. Most of my shirts are just fairly decent shirt from fairly upmarket shops like Charles Tyrwhitt or something.
>>17316003
>Are you telling them what to believe or the way things are? Are you controlling conversations?
No, not really...conversations are more discussions, yes occasionally we will have diverging political views but who doesn't?
I tried to talk to him about our relationship and how I was still not ready. He said he's too emotionally invested. I don't want to hurt him, but I still want to focus on myself. I guess it'll be okay like this.
My life is an endless web of lies
>>17316075
Well, at least you know that webs can be taken care of. You could work on that
>>17315984
Christ people like you are so pathetic.. Like theres only ONE person for ya. Stop whining about quitting life and just quit if you're such a bitch.
>>17316123
Not them, but do you not feel the sadness in the impossibility of it? Sure, you can say that they'll move on, and sure they will one day maybe, but they're forced to only because the result they want is impossible. So yeah, one day they'll be able to walk on without their feelings weighing them down, but the outcome is still a negative.
Of course it's natural for someone to feel sad about that. Even more so when it's a separation from someone you cared about a lot.
I have 3 girls that are interested in me. Im in a relationship with 1 of them but i still fuck with the other 2. I dont love any of them i just like to feel loved. what do?
>>17316143
kill yourself ofc
>>17316123
And your point is...?
That people who sleep around are so cool instead? Yeah, loving deeply is pathetic, and definitely nobody is allowed to search for their own happiness in such a, for my limited and unique experience, non-existent thing.
Where the hell does your anger come from?
Why do you despise who looks for happiness in ways different from yours?
You are a moron for thinking that people different from you should just kill themselves.
People are different, feel different things, and pursue different happinesses. Search for the myers brigg test just to have a very simple insight of how people can be different (and that still doesn't scratch the surface of how different we might be, nor why).
I personally don't get why people like you are happy with multiple partners, or simply don't care much about any of the ones you have been with, but I am not going to tell you to go fuck yourself because of that.
I am going to tell to go fuck yourself when you decide not to tell your new partner about your stds, or when you cheat out of the thrill, possibly ruining someone else's life forever, cause otherwise that'd be pathetic, like theres only ONE person for ya.
>>17315425
I can't have sex. I'm completely unable to chill, so everything is wound up so tight, I feel searing, crippling pain every time someone tries to stick anything up me. It's the worst pain of my life so far, although given I have not been shot before. Attempts to make me aroused and chill out, are greatly avoided because I fear how arousal forces your mind to relinquish control of your body. I have these conflicting feelings of really wanting to be aroused and have sex, but when it actually happens beyond mild arousal, my mind freaks out about losing control.
I've seen articles on sex therapy and special escorts to help people with these issues. But that feels like cheating. I really want to fix my relationship, but I don't know how to explain "hi I'm going on a "vacation" to a county more sexually sane than this upright Puritan shithole (which is probably what screwed me up to begin with). But yeah, I'll be gone for a few mad weeks, to have considerable amounts of sex with a complete stranger paid to slowly make me actually open up via five hours of slow and skilled foreplay. Which I cannot expect the both of us very inexperienced folks to do. Anyway, I hope you don't dump me over this. I want to state that i will cut all contact with this person afterwards, but I still don't think that would change your mind and sell you on this idea"
I had a dream that brought up and made me realize that, as much as I may have denied it, I have feelings for my best friend. We both have partners tho. She's going out with my friend. The distant between us seems to be growing for unknown reasons. I can't stop thinking about her.
I have been wanting to kill myself so fucking badly lately
I just had a dream about hanging out with my 2 cousins when I was a kid.
I really miss doing things with them so much. I wish I got to grow up with them, I was always so desperate to hang out with them, I looked forward to hanging out with them and talking on the phone with them more than anything... My dad was in the military so we were always far away and moving and I only got to see them for like 2 weeks at a time one or two times a year
Now there is noone who will do anything like that with me and they are completely different people now and I am not that different than I was back then! I would still stay in the same crack in the wall downstairs and play weird pillow games and talk about sucking eachother's fucking toes if I could
We would only get to hang out a couple times a year, but god I was always sad when they left or I had to go. Hanging out with them was the best parts of my childhood even though it was not very often. The rest of the time I was friendless or being mentally abused by my parents.
I miss those days so much and don't think I got enough of them, I think my room is a reflection of that. It is the room of a regressed person and it is kind of obvious. And also I kind of dress like a fucking little kid. God I am fucked up. I just wish someone would play with me now like I used to back then. Why do people have to grow out of that stuff??
Now all anyone ever wants is sex. Just sex, sex, sex. It is always people acting like they want to hang out but they actually want to date or fuck me and I want to be people's friend but they don't want that. They blow me off or ignore me no matter how nice I am and don't like to do anything fun.
I want to fucking die. GOD, I wish killing myself wouldn't effect my parents so much. I have been like REALLY wanting to just nonchalantly blow my brains out lately. I hate this so much.
>>17316068
You have to stop with that mentality before you hurt him more than you intended to.
>>17315425
I have my brothers funeral today. I'm scared and I wish I had told him happy birthday when I had the chance
>>17315425
I'm in love with a guy and I'm too afraid to ask him out. I think he likes me, too but I'm bothered that he doesn't do shit. He did say he is afraid of asking girls out because he was rejected a million times and that he is afraid of even talking on facebook, but come on dude. I'm not even worth the try?
>>17315944
Shit man I'm pretty much in the same boat. I really like the job I'm working, but this girl I work with brings feelings out of me that I didn't think I had. Not those "Damn she's hot, I wanna fuck her." more of a "I want to grow old with this person." I don't like this.
I'm masturbating, because I don't know what else to do.
>>17316344
Omg sorry for your loss man
I'm 18, I hate myself I have no motivation to do anything. I don't have my license I've had one job which I don't have anymore. I have like 19 or 18 dollars and a 18 dollar gift card to my name, my parents are telling me I should get my shit together but won't help me, I'm talking to some chick that's 26 but she has a boyfriend and that makes me feel like even more shit I try to just talk to her in a friendly way but she always brings it to more than friends I only keep talking to her cause I haven't talked to a girl in a long time and she's the only one that shows interest. I'm thinking about selling my Xbox and running away I'll only have like $120 but I don't really care, I don't want to be home anymore. I lost where I'm going with this so that's that. Thanks for listening
I can't even think about sex but that's all he'll be wanting to do.
This breakup is the worst I've ever been through. We were engaged and very happy, up until out of nowhere you said you wanted to part ways. I was floored and spiraled down into the worst state I've been in for years.
Last night, it hit me though. As I looked back through pictures and conversations, it dawned on me that you never even loved me. Now that I think about it, you were about as immature and inconsiderate as you could be. You never tried, and you mooched off of me. I made sure you always had food to eat, gas in your car, or whatever else you needed. For Pete's sake, I even bought your textbooks.
Yet, nothing was ever returned. You were content to lay there and let me take care of you, while in turn treating me like crap. Remember the time we planned to have coffee together that one morning? I do. I got on campus an hour and a half early just to spend time with you, because you asked me to. Then of course, you forgot and went back to sleep, and left me standing outside of your apartment in -6*C weather, trying to call you or find you to see where you were. You didn't answer. I stood out there freezing for nearly 30 minutes before I just gave up and left. You didn't even feel bad about it.
And you know how I have a thing about birthdays; how I was always ignored and forgotten on my own birthday; how I spent most of my birthdays crying alone in my room; how I always try to make sure that whichever friend's birthday it is, I try to do something to make them feel special. Then when it was my best friends birthday, and I tried to throw him a little surprise get together with all of our friends, you discouraged me. Said that I was doing too much and that it was unnecessary. Well fuck you, your attitude is unnecessary. Everyone deserves a Happy Birthday.
But you know what? One day, I will meet some wonderful person that will make me laugh; someone who won't use me or forget me in the cold and will remember my birthday too. I'll meet someone who will love me.
>>17316342
I told him I wanted to date other people still, which is what I was doing when I first met him, but he just told me he loved me and that when I dated it fucked him up. Thing is we were never a couple?
I have some good points going for me but I feel like I have still wasted my chance to be as good as an average person and I feel like I will always be a low tier loser from now on.
Mother and I have hyperthyroidism, one sister has hypothyroidism and unknown regarding the other sister. Brother died thanks to a thyroid storm while suffering from hyperthyroidism. This is funny to me for all the wrong reasons. I wonder if I can exit the same way he did.
I don’t want to be your girlfriend, yes it's because the sex was bad. What the fuck you're not even a virgin, two pump?! So disappointing. Also you're bad at oral.
>>17316552
If you were never a couple why are you so worried? How do you feel about him?
>>17316651
I'm worried because we're very close and we even have an apartment. We just do everything together
>>17316696
Yikes that sounds tricky. At least you were honest with him. Sounds like he's kind of got you trapped emotionally.
>>17316712
I just don't know how to go about being my my own person independently and him understanding that is what I want without him becoming depressed
>>17316712
Thank you for listening though. It's good to know I'm not crazy lol
I really want to text this girl i like but i have no idea how to, i dont even know how i should say "hello" or what to talk about after that, ive never done this and i really dont want to mess this up, but i have no idea how to text someone i dont really know THAT well, specially a woman.
>Tfw 18 and had consensual sex with a 15 year old
Am I a bad person?
>>17316247
haha wow
>blaming america for being insane despite everyone else having no problems having sex
>thinking getting a hooker will help
>instead of working things out with your partner you want to go fuck strangers
I don't even know what to say
>>17316362
>I'm not even worth the try?
You probably aren't. But if you like him, put on your kid gloves and make a move on him. Did you know you can start dating or whatever without actually asking someone out?
>oh anon i'm not feeling well pls take me home
>whoops i fell into your arms look deep into my eyes
>>17315548
>respond by saying what first comes to your mind
Protip: don't do this.
>>17316362
Part of any human relationship is helping the other person when they need it. Picking up the slack. Watching their back. Protecting their weak points.
Sometimes this is serious, sometimes it's as little as going to the pharmacy to pick up some excedrin when they're having a migraine.
You're frustrated that he hasn't made a move yet. But why frustrated at him, and not yourself?
I'm not gonna sit here and pretend like everything in my life isn't my fault, A good bit of it is. Doesn't make it any easier.
I've been single for awhile, after being caught in a loveless relationship which I burned the bridge to because I couldn't stand being with her anymore.
I'm less than moderately attractive, not in shape. I go to to the gym regularly, but I can't help but think it won't help. I have programs If ollow and do homework, but, again.
Just about every girl I've dated either has been insane, or not been able to deal with me (because I'm insane, insecure, fat)
My mother is dying from type 2 diabetes neuropathy. every day i hear her crying out in paain, and can't do much but try to regulate her diet.
In terms of a support group, I don't have one. It's not just a body issue that i'm not dating, b ut I don't think anyone deserves to be with someone who might break down at a moments notice.
Pic related, middle one is me.
>>17316783
To be honest I'm scared of him. I've been rejected before and have come to the conclusion that maybe women shouldn't be the one to approach. But then again... I dunno, kind of need more courage to ask him. I hope I can gather the courage.
>>17316751
You don't sound crazy. You sound like a person who cares.
18 year old friend of mine wants to have a baby with me.
Im 29, and i want it too.
Idk what to do
i can't live with this amount of pain and sadness
i am just begging for relief
>>17316933
do it
>>17316907
>I've been rejected before and have come to the conclusion that maybe women shouldn't be the one to approach.
If women actual think this way, feminism was a mistake. Do you realize how often guys are rejected? Even for hot guys, it's like batting averages; if you get one out of every three you're a fucking rockstar. Man up, you pussy.
>>17316933
do it lol
>>17316939
whats wrong
>>17316955
I'm not a feminist, though
But yeah, women are scared of rejection even more than men. Probably because the preassure has always been on men to approach, we never had to deal with any of it, really.
Guess I should man the fuck up. I mean, what is the worst that could happen?
>>17316962
Rejection, obviously. It's just a little ego bruise though, it's no big deal.
>>17316970
Yeah, it's not
Guess I should stop being an autistic fuck. It's just that, everyone around me seems to think it is desperate for a girl to make a move. But fuck 'em, they're boring.
>>17316979
Sounds like a plan
Tell us how it goes
>>17315425
I'm lonely and afraid that I'll never have a family, and end up dying alone.
Still playing LoL.
I'm trying so hard to stop being so angry. I will replay arguments I've had with people from years ago and get so angry I start punching things. How can I learn to deal with conflict in a better way and not let petty fights from the past bother me so much.
I buy nice things. I can afford it because I am not poor. I don't do this out of any reason other than I like it. It looks nice to me. I enjoy the alcohol and food I buy. Nice picture frame? Marble top table? Some nice glasses for scotch? Sure why not. It's not made in China plastic shit and it will last a while.
But every. single. fucking. time. I bring someone over to my place they comment "oooooh fancy" when really it's NOT FUCKING FANCY. I've been to Paris, I've been to fucking Rome, I've lived in 5 star hotels for months on end at points in my life. That's fancy. Why the fuck does anything that isn't a made in China piece of shit have to be fancy to you fucking cunts? Fuck sakes I hate that word I am triggered I have unresolved childhood issues.
>>17317293
Also I'm an alcoholic
>>17317293
neither paris nor rome are fancy by any stretch of the imagination
you have nice things- they are complimenting your home in a short, relatively accurate way
don't sperg out you fucking nigger
>>17317446
I didn't mean the cities themselves I meant certain places in them you autist faggot.
Yesterday, I asked a coworker out to do something this weekend and she said yes. I was really excited and pumped. She seemed the same way. I gave her my phone number and told her to text me so we can discuss the exact details.
Well Saturday is almost over, and still haven't received anything from her. I've received other texts today, so everything is working on my cell phone's end at least.
I think I've been, for all intents and purposes, stood up. Which really sucks and I'm pretty depressed right now. Why wouldn't she just say no thanks if she didn't want to hang out?
>>17317449
kek okay dude whatever
enjoy your internet fantasies
>>17317460
>i was a passive beta and my crush is getting railed by a real man
why don't you have her number?
>>17317460
because she's a fucking flake
be thankful she let you know this much this early so you can forget about that idiot and move on
>>17317461
>Internet fantasies
My only fantasy is stuff my thick cock inside your asshole and fucking the shit out of you, literally. I want to fuck you until you have diarrhea faggot. Yeah, what's up? You a homophobe?
>>17317467
that's gross, you faggot
no wonder you need to lie online to make yourself feel like less of a disease infested, mentally ill freak
Man what a cis gendered gullible loser you are. Also nothing I've said is a lie besides wanting to fuck your ass. I'm just bored.
I saw my crush driving down the street while I was heading home from work.
I then spent the last hour tracking her phone (or trying to anyway) to see where she was.
I feel disgusting and sick. I've never wanted to be that type of guy, but something came over me. I hope she never finds out.
>>17317461
>why don't you have her number?
I didn't think there'd be any issue with her texting me. She seemed as excited, if not more excited, then me for this. In fact, in the past few months, she's been the one initiating contact with me first in the office, which is the reason I even asked her out.
>>17317465
Yeah, I'm pretty much done with her pending I don't get a text by the time we return to work.
>>17317484
>I didn't think there'd be any issue with her texting me
that doesn't answer the question- you're interested in a woman, so why didn't you get her number?
being passive is repulsive in a man
>>17317490
It does answer the question, retard. I didn't get her number because there weren't any signs that she wouldn't text me if I gave her my number.
If you want to be this edgy, go to >>>/b/ or something.
Being in this relationship was a mistake. I fell for the false image you built for me and caused me to dedicate all this time. Now I'm just considered one of the group essentially, despite me not being able to do my own thing without being criticized, bashed or lectured. I feel as if I should treat you the way I treat my job once I'm bored with it; I should be looking for a new partner to replace you with. I most likely will end up taking this path and simply just leave you. I want to talk to you about this, but you always want to turn the conversation around and try to be the one in control and explain why it's ok for you to do something that I am not. Fuck this shit, my life can't handle this.
>>17317497
>edgy
you're the one who fucked up lad.
and no, it does not answer the question.
>like woman
>want to fuck her/date her
>talk to her
>make plans
>don't get a way to contact her
>???
>retard alert
>>17317507
Again, it does. It's not a good reason, but you asked why I didn't get her number. And that was my reasoning (as faulty as it may be in hindsight) for not.
Regardless, this says more about how she really sees me, so it might be better in the long-term regardless how much it sucks in the short term.
>>17317529
>, this says more about how she really sees me,
no, it doesn't. it's not normal to do what you did.
if i guy gave me his number after asking me out i wouldn't text him because he couldn't even muster up the balls to get my number after he asked me out
you probably didn't even ask her out on a date, just some beta shared activity as sterile and sexless as your love life
>>17317538
Except she's the one that said "give me your number." That and along with the way she acts around me didn't lead me to believe that this would happen.
And no need to respond. I know what you'll say:
>Muh beta male only does that
>Muh she's getting fucked by an alpha right now...I know, I learned all about it from virgins on /r9k/
2/10 troleing attempt
For non-trolls, how should I approach this when we return to work?
I remember reading a thread a while back.
We laughed at the OP, who had posted a picture of his texts from a girl, he asked who she was, and when she answered he texted an overly flamboyant and not-at-all conspicuous "HI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!".
I vaguely remember the OP asking if he fucked up.
He did.
But, during the gruelling, grinding day in the shithole warehouse, the one ray a sunshine in there, a manager, the only one that actually seems to work with the colleagues, and the woman of my dreams, popped around the corner.
She was coming up to me to ask me to do something. I... I had my own "HIII!!!!!!!!!" moment. I realised after she had the biggest grin on her face that during my five years working there, I had finally accidentally revealed how eager I was to see her, and how happy it made me.
I smiled and laughed abut it, though. Because instead of bottling everything up and being an emotionless drone, I had actually managed to show some affection, without even thinking or worrying about it.
On another note, there is this other girl at work. She is reasonably attractive, however something about her face just reminds me of sharks. Thus, I've nicknamed her, in my head, as "Sharkface".
I got a few funny looks when I caught her looking at me, and thought "New meaning to sleeping with the fishes", and laughed seemingly randomly for seemingly no reason.
I spent the rest of the day thinking about bait jokes for sharkface.
Shit, I forgot to mention I could harpoon her.
It... It's been a good day.
>>17316075
You're life is an endless anime show you weeaboo
Something has always felt missing with you. Nothing feels right. I don't know why, maybe we should just break up. I feel like you're not husband material and to be honest, I want to get married soon.
>>17317561
>For non-trolls, how should I approach this when we return to work?
Ignore it, and pretend you didn't make plans. Distance yourself from her, since she obviously isn't interested. After all, she has your number. If she wants to talk she'll call.
>>17316002
I feel your pain, anon
>Find out yesterday my position is being outsourced to another state after next week
>Get stood up by coworkers I thought were my friends
>>17315947
>>17315947
>>17315997
Do you even try hiding your identity? You left A.'s full name visible when he accepted your friend requested. Easy to find profile and confirmed based on the info on the top of the conversation. He had his friends list open so all I had to do was to narrow it down to all males (since he called you brother) with their first name starting with C, so that's about 6-7 guys and then compare the ratio of the length in pixels of your grey bar hiding your name to A.'s same grey bar (since you hide the names with the exact same length of grey bar which means you only hide the name without any blank left). So based on the ratio, your full name has 12-13 characters, blank included. That narrowed it down to two, Chris O. and Craig F., of which Craig F had a hip replacement surgery 4 years ago, usually performed on older people who have osteoarthritis, therefore much lower chances of using 4chan. Plus your fedora-tier beard would match a 4chan user. Also compared ratios of pixels of the rest of the text to your hidden first name when he replied later to confirm your first name. So be very careful of what you post on the internet Chris.
>>17317810
From experience, co-workers are the fakest friends you'll ever have. Forget them.
i broke up with someone. both she and i have depression (she also self harms), and she broke up with me because she wanted me to "get better" and no matter what i said she didnt listen to me about how i was already doing so. what do?
>>17317818
Thanks, it's all I can do at this point. I'm kind of glad I'm being forced to leave and today just gave me another reason to be.
Woke up this morning, had mutually pleasant sex with my wife, had a normal relaxing Sat. We watched movies most of the day, didn't leave, and jointly cared for our kid with no one doing the majority of the work.
After the first movie, she wanted to watch a movie I wasn't interested in, so I decided to either go play with my son or watch a movie in the bedroom to not take the tv from her (since I'm a gamer and use the main tv very often).
When I got to the bedroom, the combined rainy weather, cool, dark atmosphere and cool soft bed put me to sleep near instantly.
Note, I have sleep apnea, and it has onset because of my weight over the past year. I've also been doing p90x to get the weight off and it's helped some already.
She knows I have sleep apnea and that even though I go to bed at the same time, I am always tired and prone to light depression that I handle well and rarely need to talk about but when I do I sit down and lay down my cards, and she usually makes me feel better.
How do I very bluntly get across how disrespected and hurt I feel that she was insensitive and assholish about my sleepiness?
Later in the day I was watching a movie with her and kept dozing off, pretty much all day near the end of movies or when they were slow I'd drift off since I was sitting on the couch comfortably, and she started out just poking me but by 4pm she was just outright rude.
>>17317943
Right on. I think when I leave my current job I'll Do the same.
Hell, the "friends" I talk to are currently at a pool party and I didn't hear shit until I saw pics.
I have the urge to break a girl's heart and destroy her emotionally. I hate that I get this way when I'm heartbroken, but the normal shit doesn't seem to work for me.
>>17318040
Don't do it anon. It's a vicious circle.
Just posted about this but here it is again. pls help
So I really like my best friend but at this point we're basically SIBLING zoned. I've had a growing crush on her for about 2 years and last night I finally let it slip. I was crying real bad because I knew she COULDN'T like me back. She has some trouble with feeling and identifying her emotions and romantic feelings are a mystery to her. So now she feels guilty for not noticing when I'M the one with a crush.
Anyway, I've pretty much decided to not push her or talk about it ever again unless god willing she likes me back.
She's more touchy now too....
Is she flirting?
Do I have a chance at all?
How should I act around her?
>>17318043
I never do it because my conscience always prevents me, but part of me always wants to drink some tears to replenish all the ones I've shed.
There's always angry shitposting, I suppose.
As sweet and cute as the shy, somewhat beta nerdy guy I'm into is, I wish he would actually text me first. I'm about 99% sure he's into me, he just doesn't interact with people via technology at all.
>>17318071
If he's beta, you might have to text him first. Just to get the ball rolling. After that let him take initiative
>>17318035
I'm sorry to hear that but I hope things get better for you at your next job. At least you have people here to vent to until then.
My wife has been lying about her heroin addiction for three years. I know she's using, but for the sake of our family, I stay quiet and let her lie to my fucking face 20 times a day. We can't pay anything, we can't even talk because she is so unstable. I have tons of evidence, but I'm afraid to confront her. She's sitting right next to me.
>>17318090
He's never dated a girl before and he's never really had a girl officially ask him out or anything. So yep, I suppose he would be considered beta.
Yeah, usually, when I text him, he texts back pretty quickly. It's just I feel awkward sending him "Hey! What's up?" for the third time in a row.
>>17318123
Hmm do you come off flirty in any way? How Do your conversations usually end?
I've cut ties with just about my entire family because I realized they were all fairly shitty. I feel such a mess of guilt and loss inside, and what's worse is how hard it is to open up to anyone I'm close to about what's eating at me.
You can try but I've been through the same shit you have. Good luck.
>>17318137
>>17318137
I honestly did not get his number until about three weeks ago, but we were becoming close for like three months before that. Usually, we text for a while and then when the conversation gets staleish he'll stop texting back. One time, he quit texting back but then texted back the next day apologizing for not answering. The other times our conversations have ended is because we ended up meeting in person. We haven't really flirted over text, but in person, it's a totally different story.
I'm sorry for being such an idiot. For months it was obvious you liked me, but I never paid attention because I was trying to hook up with this girl. This girl who happens to be engaged. The conversations I had with you were great and easily a lot better than with that other girl who you really don't like. I have started to like you and you have been distancing your self from me. I know why your doing this and I kind of agree but it still sucks.
>>17318167
So from what I gather, in person you two are fine. You flirt, talk, etc.
But the issue is him not initiating texting? He might just be bad at it.
From experience, I'm garbage at responding. But in person, it's different. It's better.
I wish I could peek inside your head for a second and see if you like me or if you like her. Because every time I think about it, I think I'm not even close to her, I think I'm way worse than her lowest point, and I think I am not worthy of having anyone. And she's so much better than me, she does the things you like, and I only do the things I think you need. And you don't open up to me, you're never serious with me, with anyone, and I don't know if you are with her, I hope to God you are not with her. And when you talk to me you joke, and I'm fine, and when you mention her you become someone else, someone I never spoke to, and I'm crushed. And I wish you knew that every time you do that I end up sitting on my bed, crying well into the morning. I don't want you to settle for me. I don't want to ask, because you would settle for me. I wish I could just know, just know for sure, so I could be with you, so I could forget about you, so that something could change.
I've been posing as my crush on /soc/ for a few days, trying to see what they thing about her. She has gotten the widest spread of ratings that I've seen. Anywhere from 2/10 up through 11/10. (She has a very Love it or Hate it way about her)
Also, I have been giving guy with low self-esteem moderately high, to boost their confidence. Hopefully.
It is now officially two weeks since my last drink. I've been short and cold to everyone these past two weeks and hardly smiled. I've hated every second of these past two weeks and been annoyed by every last word I hear.
Today I typed out something facetious and dark, but humorous. Despite how depressing a reflection it was, it made me laugh a bit. I shared it with a couple if friends, and they both found it hilarious. At least I'm still funny, I suppose.
I'm so sorry for the mistakes I've made, the foolish things I've done, and I do everything I can to make up for it, and I do everything I can to care. I don't care if you don't want to be with me, or don't find me attractive enough, I'll always be there to catch you if you fall, and I'll always love you, like everyone else I've ever loved and still do.
>>17318219
Post her here friend.
>>17318268
Just look over in /soc/ on the rate threads. You will easily be able to ID her.
Thin with Shorter hair.
>>17318268
>>17318272
Actually. Fuck it. Here she is
>>17318291
It's the short hair. Short hair is polarizing.
Personally, I fucking abhor short hair on a woman.
>>17318298
I guess. For me, I like short hair on a woman with her build. Actually, Long hair does not work for her.
But if a girl is on the curvy, to chubby side, I would rather that they have longer hair
I have thought about my ex girlfriend every single day since we broke up over a year ago. We broke up because I was going to college but she still had another year of school to go. We texting every single day even after we broke up and remained 'best friends' until around March when she suddenly cut all contact and refused to talk to me and I want to die every single time I see a picture of her or wake up and realize I dreamed about her. Oh yeah and she is coming to the same college as me starting in August with the same major as me so I will be seeing her every single day and as far as I know she could hate me. I would drop everything I have to be with her and she doesn't even think about me at all. What do
I'm falling for a girl I'm meant to be helping get over or get back with her shitty boyfriend. He treats her like shit and is currently groveling a shitload and she's coming back around to him. But it's not my place to tell her she's better off without him because i feel like I'm bias because of how i feel about her. Plus i feel like a hypocrite. I'm single because my relationship was rocky and another guy came in and did the shoulder to cry on thing and took her from me. I feel like i'd be doing the same thing if i told her how i feel.
>>17318291
I think that's fucking weird and if she ever found out she would beat you to death. Grow up man.
i had so many dreams i wanted to make come true with you. just little things too, like inviting you over during the holidays and just chilling in jeans and a t-shirt on my huuuuge lounge, watching movies all night on the 70" tv with popcorn, hot chocolate and heaps of snacks until we fell asleep. taking you to the local park at night when its empty and blasting music on your speakers, then collapsing in the grass and watching the stars. working my ass off for the next 12 months to get money together to travel with you overseas- when i graduate i was planning on travelling, i would've loved to have gone with you. we could've listened to so much music together like we used to, you could've come over to my place and listened to my records and i'd come to yours and listen to yours. i always wanted to come over, get it on, then lay on your floor listening to godspeed you black emperor's lift your skinny fists like antennas to heaven, staring at the ceiling with our hands together. i had so many fun, simple but satisfying dreams for us to do together. little things, yeah, but they would've made us both so happy, and you gave up on me.
Harry, you fought with me long and hard for over 3 months. I can't do it anymore, and you know I can't. You made it clear you don't want me in your life, but deep down I hope you come back to me some day, just, don't hurt me next time- right?
-will.
>>17318321
Yea... I know it is.... I am gonna stop...
>>17318291
Damn I missed it. I think I found her on the rate threads tho. She's cute.
>>17318365
Denim shirt? She is seriously like an 9 for me
But Yea, I removed it as if someone who knows both of us stumbled upon it, it can easily be tied to me.
>>17318378
Might stumble upon it. I know that some lurk b.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
>>17318198
Yeah, I'm the same too, I've always been garbage at texting. I was going to just straight out tell him that I like him more than as a friend (though I'm pretty sure he's picked up on this by now), but I want to do it in person so obviously I have to text him first to set up a meet-up of some sort.
My friends think I'm just a bad driver and it's funny but I drive recklessly because i secretly hope I'll crash and die
>>17318326
Conroy?
I don't think i'm gonna find somebody that truly will love me. Not that i'm obsessed with finding the one I will be with together, but I don't think somebody will fit me in the long run. I change personalities like the flip of a coin when i'm getting bored, and my "phases" although pretty fun for everybody, can be hard to keep up with.
I'm not a bad person, not in any regard. I'm not all junked up in the head, i'm not even that bad looking, i'm just different, and I don't think i'll find somebody just as different for me.
Can someone please tell me it's all going to be okay?
>>17318540
It's gonna be alright dude
>>17318540
Only if you tell me the same, lol.
Everything is going to be all right, Anon.
If I can move beyond the love of my life leaving me, a crippling drug addiction, a near fatal incident that left permanent physical and psychological damage, and a generally fucked life... You can do anything, Anon.
It is going to be all right.
How do I get over my emotional dependency issues? When I like a girl, I like them for years. I can't get over them.
Well yeah, sorry we couldn't get laid tonight because I'm a fucking loser who's afraid to buy a condom in the store. I feel so fucking stupid right now.
Drifting apart after 8 years feels really weird. Like I'm not mad at you, but I can't be with you, and you aren't mad either. Usually I'm used to seeing breakups being horrible and messy but I think we both see what's happening and are just accepting it.
I'm boring and I'm tired of it. My attention span is too short for me to develop hobbies that I can make small talk about, or even to binge watch popular shows like Game of Thrones so that I can talk about it. Maybe part of it is that I feel like it would be dumb to force myself to have interests just to be able to talk about having them. But at the same time I'm miserable with being such a seemingly dull person.
I'm too apathetic to care about the state of the world or my country, which is extremely unattractive to many people, especially since I'm at college and my peers are all ambitious young people with a zeal to change the world to fit their ideals. Good for them I guess, but I can't really get behind any of it, I just don't care enough.
I recently reached the realization that the one skill I thought I had, writing, was illegitimate because I can't think of creative ideas. Even throughout grade school when I was praised for my writing ability, it was only because I took inspiration or even directly stole themes from other things I read (I read at a more advanced level than my classmates and read a lot of old/obscure shit which is how I got away with it). But I can't do that anymore. So now I'm left with no knowledge except video games and memes, which are both too niche to consistently impress people (especially girls).
I just wish something would catch my interest. I'm tired of being so wishy-washy and aimless.
I think I want to be a teacher.
>>17318049
>She has some trouble with feeling and identifying her emotions and romantic feelings are a mystery to her
Where the fuck do i find a girl like this
I'm the same
I wish I could be a better support for you, mom. I know you're suffering from watching grandma losing to dimensia and grandpa struggling to cope with it. I wish that you're siblings/my aunts and uncles could better understand what you're going through and would help you more. I feel worthless a lot of times because all I do is listen or tell you it's going to be alright. I want you to be happy, and I try not to let it show, but when I see you just standing there, away from dad and you're eyes tearing up, I feel my throat tighten. I try to maintain my mask of confidence, but I've slipped several times now, and I don't know how well I'll be able to comfort you when they finally do die. I wish I could better comfort you, but I guess for now, all I can do is listen to you and let you destress as much as you can until the next wave comes.
I'm a big ball of depression, frustration and 1/8 of a teaspoon (note: the measurement for a pinch) of anger.
I have tachycardia and had to go off my antidepressant and temporarily stop getting electroconvulsive therapy, because they don't know why it's happening. I was having a cardiac workup last Wednesday, but it had to be rescheduled because my dad, the only person who could drive me there, had a sudden court date come up (he's a lawyer, and at the mercy of the judges he works with). So now I have to wait until July 18 until I can get any kind of serious treatment for my depression.
It's been over a month and a half since I last had ECT, or since I've been on an antidepressant, and I hate it. I'm just watching myself deteriorate and I can't really do anything about it. I was hoping the new medication would put me into remission (ECT had already halved the severity of my symptoms) so I could start college again in the fall, but nope! Now I have tachycardia instead and won't be able to do that.
I sleep all day and watch TV all night, because I have hypersomnia now (when off medication, my depression symptoms cycle and are not stable and symptoms come and go a lot.) and can't manage my sleep cycle, though I'm still trying to. But what's the point of trying anyway? I'm still going to be a depressed college dropout who does nothing all day, because I can't even function enough to do daily self-maintenance tasks like brushing my teeth and taking a shower every day. (Yes, I should brush 2-3 times a day, but I am a bit beyond that point of functioning.).
Why try? Why am I even alive? What is the fucking point?
i'm feelin pretty bad because i realized i have feelings for my best friend, been trying to ignore them but now it hurts too much.
I have to tell her, even if I already know what her reaction will be, i can't keep it inside much longer.
I'm so scared guys, i don't want this to end our friendship.
every day is a battle between fear of death and wanting to die. i wonder what will happen when im no longer afraid. Will i commit? can i ever surpass fear?
>>17318142
That's a problem I can relate to. Open up here, man. Strangers are better than family.
I don't like my life. I've seen some bad shit, and it's changed me as a person. Recently I found out I'm really sick, some of my organs are failing. I have to sleep 10-12 hours a day to stay at a normal level; I can't work because I'm too weak, I'm not sick enough to be considered unable to work.
My life is over. I'm not happy, and at this rate I'm gonna die in the not too distant future anyway. If I continue this life, I'll die surrounded by people I hate, in a town I hate, as a worthless burden; an idea I hate.
I'm going away travelling. I don't really intend to come back. In some ways, I'm at peace, in others, I'm a little scared. I'm weak, and frail, and dying, but I'm not going to die having seen so little of this world.
>>17319207
Hey, maybe you´ll do better in a next life, friend.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9QysAkZbTI0
this is something i do behind my girls back but it feels too good to stop
i pay my girlfriend's younger cousin for massages
when we first started i wore shorts under the towel and she never got close to my higher thigh or pelvis area but one time i chose not to wear anything and asked her to do my thighs and felt my hard on once now when she gets to my legs she always makes sure I'm taken care of
and my girl has no clue
>>17319351
Thanks. I keep getting all these little signs, I don't think I'm supposed to die yet. I'm not really fussed. It's probably me seeing things that aren't there. If it's not, I don't think I'm fussed about being defiant.
Maybe I'll get a fun life next time.
Tried my best to be myself but no one understood me and was isolated from everyone even my family.
>>17315425
My long term boyfriend is a total attention whore on social media. Not like, posting a bunch of selfies and shit, but he acts 2edgy for attention. Not necessarily even the attention of females, but I guess he not so humbly brags about shit constantly. Obsesses over what I tag him in, and things like that.
In real life he's not like this. But his instagram self bugs the shit out of me.
I have never been able to do a single conversation with a girl without losing my spaghetti and I hate myself for it.
She of course didn't respond to me after this.
Keep it up, I can confidently say you're doing the hard part for me. I loathe your new personality, and I detest his need to draw attention to himself to the point that he even talks about himself just to reply. He's never hidden it, even months before you knew him. He'd see his name in an image before and call himself cute.
You two have fun, I can safely say you've turned the feelings I had into distain because your personality changed and his is the personality of an attention seeker. You would no doubt claim he's not like this when with you, but that doesn't change a thing, you're both acting more and more disgusting the more you need to flaunt shit. Or maybe you're so blinded by your emotions for each other that you're perfectly fine with it.
It ultimately doesn't matter. I kept my word to never turn my back on you even after all these months, even after it no longer mattered. It doesn't matter now, and instead I will do so. I refuse to let you occupy a single thought of mine again. I dislike your personality and I dislike his. I really, really dislike the fact he unknowingly talks shit about people I'm fond of for reactions from them, too. Of course, you would never have noticed that, but teach him that his actions are not actually hidden when he makes the mistake of letting people spot him.
I'm a calm person usually, but never speak to me again. That includes any point in the future, no matter how much time passes
I don't know what the fuck I am doing with my life.
I'm getting sick and tired of the women in my life trying to dictate how I live. Who the fuck do they think they are?
Leave me and my husband alone you two-faced cunting mini-dictators. I don't fucking call you and nag you for not having any kids, and my daughter is too young to go on a transatlantic flight, THAT IS MY JUDGMENT BECAUSE SHE IS MY CHILD, YOU FUCKING RESPECT THAT.
It's like they have no more men to bludgeon with their power-tripping bullshit so they gotta come to my door step to get their fucking jollies.
>>17318219
I have actually posted on our situation her in the past.... (her friend that is overly sexual, and other shit)
So... if you've been around you'll know the deal
>>17315479
What happened?
Ive see a few other people over the last 8 years but it's never become more, and I haven't been involved with anyone for years now and I never have feelings for anyone but I need sex, and I don't want to fuck randoms, there's a man I've been in love with since I first knew him but he thinks I'm crazy and that I want to friend zone him, yet he knows how I feel for him romantically, I've had enough of everything, I need to get away from myself, he'll never want me or feel the same, once he did but he likes the game, I can't stand anymore
Aloneit
>>17317482
Why would you do that?
>>17318219
W w what the hells wrong with you....why are you doing this?
The fuck was that dream?
>Be in School (Cross between my College, HS, and MS)
>Class is taught by my 5th grade teacher
>Be outside in middle of winter for class.
>Class involved learning how to clean a firearm
>I misplace my assigned firearm
>At end of that part, we go into a building for some odd critical thinking exercise
>It involved free food as payment (One guy received a Martini glass and plate of Olives)
>My right shoe begins coming apart.
>Somehow I pull the tounge out, and the shoe gets tighter
>So I take it off and ask a friend if I can find a new pair
>I have a major crush on that friend. We'll call her M
>M is unable to find a new pair, so we just go and sit down.
>We begin BS'ing about shit, and she asks what I thought about the Tattoo removal that she was undergoing
>We really begin hitting it off, I could feel something in the air
>She begins drawing on random papers and talking about shit
>Her friend, R, shows up, and asks to sign my cast (I was still wearing a heavy ass winter coat)
>I tell him I don't have a cast, and he leaves it.
>Does not talk to M or I for the duration of the dream
>Instead he begins talking to a girl from my HS, and starts hitting on her. (She is a cam whore now)
>>17319735
It doesn't matter, anon.
>>17319762
I can tell it's not you, but if it is text me, and I'll explain...
I'm sorry I'm such a fuck up.
I don't want to let people down anymore.
I just wanna hang myself and be done with it.
It's been 3 years and now I'm ready to go
I love my girlfriend so much that I've started worshiping her as a goddess, I've even started praying to her. She doesn't know yet and I'm worried that she'll make me stop when I tell her, which makes it awkward praying to her about it. But I hope that she'll decide she wants me to continue.
>>17319991
A lot of women don't like to be worshiped, so it's best to just treat her like your best friend.
I've been in that kinda situation before, but after a while, when I started treating her as more of a person than something to be worshiped, we actually got way closer.
So the best way I can describe it is, if you want to get to heaven, just make you and the angel equal, hahaha
>>17319991
I love him to adore me
I adore him so
>>17320006
Well she's a bit different. You see, we're both pretty fucked in the head. Without going into to much detail. She knows I'm obsessed with her, I've apologized for my jealousy and obsession but she told me she never wants me to stop being obsessed, even going so far to say she wants me to continue being more obsessed. So my thinking is it's possible she'd come around to the idea since she loves being obsessed over. I already call her my goddess but she thinks it's a nickname. One she likes.
>>17320026
Oh, so if you're both ok with it, and it doesn't hurt your relationship/affect your personal life in a negative way, have at it, man
>>17320033
Thanks anon.
>>17320037
No problem!
As long as you know she's not trying to use your deviation for her own gain, or like I said, it comes to affect your personal life, then you two can definitely be happy the way you are.
To the anon who suggested Models by Mark Manson, thanks.
I've read another book like this and it was helpful. The point to take away from these books, and the intention you should read them with, is not to learn how to pick up girls, but rather to improve your character and self as a person. Getting girls may just be a side goal you have from becoming a better person.
Please don't ghost me. You showed me I could still care for another person, you told me you'd be there for me too. And now you've been gone for half a month. I miss you so much.
I am honestly curious as to what my parents will think if I get with that girl.
As far as my parents know, she is Half Polish, 1/8th Irish, misc White otherwise. While in reality, she is 25% Black. (Though visibly, she looks completely white)
My parents are kinda "Racial Purists"
>>17318562
>>17318558
Thank you. I hope it will be alright for you too.
I just finished 9th grade and wont see my class anymore. There were these 6/10 twins (girls) that made the shittiest days bearable.. and i dont know how im going to keep my shit if they arent in my life anymore. Im too much of a beta to ask them out to do something.
AHAHAHAHAHA YEYEYEYEYEYEYEYAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jC2ZY2loo74
FUCK YEAH! WE'RE ALL GONNA MAKE IT PEOPLE. STAND UP AND WORK ON THE SOLUTIONS TO YOUR PROBLEMS.
oh man, goin to the gym to celebrate. FUCK YES!
is this living? this is fantastic. just the fucking best. its like, its like starving for months and then getting a massive delicious steak put in front of you. it's almost too much.
>>17318540
It will be alright. Everything comes to pass
>>17315539
go back and make things right. why not. you'll feel better, and they'll like you a lot. you will forever be remembered in that establishment as a good person and may find that the rewards for that honesty are things like free shakes or something. who knows. or just really good service and people remembering your name.
You got no control over me. I´m done being afraid. I´m gonna start lifting weights again, going to sports, getting a job, getting my life back together etc.
You made me feel fucking worthless and now I am gonna prove that you were always wrong .
When I look the stuff we had now you were always abusive piece of shit and didn´t really care to stay in touch coz you got a new flavor of the month.
I´m done pretending to belong somewhere and am just gonna live this life to the fullest. You can´t hold me back anymore. I wont let you. It´s over.
>>17318540
>>17320286
hey, listen.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1_uNMy20qAI
>>17315665
Depending on where you are, you may be able to sue
>>17320315
FUCKING YAAAAAASSSSS ANON. YOU CAN DO IT! it's gonna be hard but it's gonna be so good when you look around and realize that you feeeeeellll gooooood.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U5TqIdff_DQ
I am SO feeling the FUNK today. alright gym time, remember anons, you've all got it in you to succeed. focus on solutions not problems, work hard, achieve your goals, and love yourself.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AoATQO82k-k
I don't care about the "if they love you then they wont make you wait" bullshit. Have you not been through hardship? My first 18 years was all abuse and neglect. I had to raise myself. I have more important things to worry about than who loves who and who did what. I don't have family to fall back on. I am it. I am my family right now.
Fuck people. It's not like I haven't communicated this to anyone. I don't know what you're doing but I have future goals. I'm not opposed to dating but it's not my priority and don't judge people for that??? This is so frustrating.
The Moon
>got criminology bachelor's degree recently
>25 years old
>realize you don't want to work in law enforcement or law too late
>have no experience
>weak physically and mentally, afraid of failures so much that i'm anxious to do anything
i am so depressed because i have no idea what to do anymore. i have almost no skills and i need to start working soon.
i just want to have a car, comfortable life and a job that i like doing, i have no big ambitions ...but i have no idea what i would be good at and be happy doing it
please help
>>17320399
same :(
>>17319403
If you wanna keep your gf then stop. Maybe ask gf to massage you. If you want her cousin then go for her cousin
Guys i really need your help pls
Fuck i think its going to be too late come on guys
>>17320431
tell me anon
>>17320443
fucking tell meee
I'm such a selfish asshole. I'm sorry. I will stop.
>>17320399
well you got a degree that you can leverage into a huge stepping stone until you figure out what the hell you want to do. I'd take that. it doesn't have to be forever, but that's a nice stepping stone to whatever you want that you've got in front of you.
>>17320387
God, you're starting to sound like a miserable careerist. You really need to let go of some of that pain, it does nothing but weigh you down. You do realize how young you are right? You can afford to slow down a bit and learn to love life again, you're already much smarter and more diligent than your peers.
>>17315571
You'd hate talking to me then, I think I use humour to prevent people from getting too close. It's not hard though, what do you want to talk about? I've had deep convos with people, I don't know what you seek, but if you would like to specify, mabe we can help
>>17315676
I'm not gonna lie, the right one won't come to you, you have to look for her, he might not even exist, all you need someone who likes yu back, and someone in whom you can find comfort and peace, and there ar ots of ople like that. just be open don't go out with a closed mind encased in only one type of person
I wish you were more comfortable talking to me about things.
>>17316009
>>17316010
No one just suddenly wants to stop seeing you, but you have to know what's wrong since it has hapened 30-40 times, and since you sem to be able on carryig 2-3 dates as opposed to 1, there's gotta be some pattern, dig deeper, seek for the pattern
>>17316428
I sincerely hope you do find that person, you deserve it
>>17316638
2 pumps? wow
I believe I suck at sex too, not because I last 2 pumps, I just am fat and have not many moves and as I grow older I just become more self conscious about it
And I also realize girls don't want to teach a boy how to fuck
I understand what you want, if he can't give it to you, let him know, it's not worth it
>>17316766
ink of this, if you don't really know her, you're not messing anything up, just say hi, ask her about music, or pay attention to what she likes and see if you have it in common, just don't become someone else
She doesn't give a fucking shit, why should I?
More alcohol.
More drugs.
More cutting.
Lets go.
>>17316907
why are you scared of him?
have you talked to him? if so, has he shown any interest, is he friendly towards you?
answer this and I'll try and help
>>17320431
>>17320444
Say it mane, nice dubs btw other anon.
>>17317467
pfff, you're a hilarious, use it in your advantage, ttell people they should see your big house, your heliport, your classic carrs, don't take yourself that seriously man, you're overthinking over nothing
>>17317471
lost at the reply too
I swear to god I want to hurt myself in front of her to see if she'd even care
I'm intoxicated by a girl . We are friends but I wish we were more. I'm sleeping poorly because for now it's not going to happen.
>>17318562
if that is all true...
holy fuck. most people are ruined by just one of those experiences, and end up killing themselves.
if you wouldn't mind answering a few questions...
1. why do you think this person was the love of your life? so many people out there...
2. how spaced apart were these events? this sounds really familiar.
3. which was the most difficult to go through, get over, or whatever?
4. seriously, how? that really seems like a ridiculous amount of terrible shit to live through.
Love is such fucking bullshit
Whipping yourself over something someone else said and shit
Its fucking bullshit. I hate it. I wish I had become emotionless when I was a lonely man. I wish I had become numb. I wouldn't be as happy but I wouldn't be in such pain.
Every year I get depressed when my birthday nears. I have few days left to my birthday. A couple hours ago I had a huge argument with my mom. Also my relatives were at our house today (not when argument happened) and she spent the time with them while I was staying in my room all day. I don't have anything to say to that, this is usual for us. She's spends her time with my relatives all day but she can't have a conversation with me for a couple minutes. The moment I start talking she goes crazy. This really breaks my heart.
I really don't want to live. I wish there was an easy way to kill myself. I can't get a gun and don't want to be stabbed to death. My dilemma is I believe I still have a potential to help myself, be successful, then help others in the end. Then I can finally kill myself after all that.
Cut off a friendship of 6 years because it became toxic for both my friend and me. But now I'm missing my friend a lot. I want to go back, but I know for sure nothing good would come from doing so.
Annoyed that I'm being a little bitch about it and not moving on more quickly.
I think I'm falling out of love with my girlfriend. All she does nowadays in point out what I'm doing wrong in our relationship, spend time on her phone when we're together, and string me on guilt trips for wanting to pursue interests of my own.
She's a flaky person with her friends, and will make plans and bail on them in the same day. She doesn't think I'm affectionate, though I feel that I am. I can't make compromises with her, and she doesn't trust that I'm putting my 100% into our relationship, whatever the fuck that means because I'm basically her lost puppy dog at this point that she can drag around with her.
Not sure what to do at this point because money is tight and I can't move out on my own. Some days I wish I had stayed single.
I pull my hair out with worry over her EVERY FUCKING DAY and she doesn;t give a FUCKING SHIT about me
>>17320902
I know this feel as well.
>>17320639
Thank you I know thats what I need I think I was just frustrated bc I saw something.
It's almost that time of the year again. I think about you a lot, lil bro. You were my best friend. I still dream of you, you know. Us both running on that field, resting by the shack. It's been 8 long years, and I don't think it'll ever get any easier. Be safe wherever you are.
>>17320987
Did your brother die?
>>17320670
I like talking about things I'm interested in, like music or literature or anything worth thining about. Small talk is so incredibly mundane that I hate every second of doing it. What's even worse is talking to other people my age and having to force myself through a series of internet memes. I hate that shit.
I have a crush on my friends roommate
I hate it when shit like this happens
I am pretty depressed. I probably shouldn't be, since I am white, American, pretty smart [spoiler]95/99 on my ASVAB[/spoiler], not starving, and have a job.
That being said, my spine constantly hurts [spoiler]about 7/10 on the pain scale, 10 being flayed[/spoiler], my family probably doesn't love me since they have mostly torn me down my entire childhood, I have no friends, no car, no license, and I live in my Uncle's basement.
I am planning on going in the Navy in November to be a Nuclear Technician, and I've always enjoyed learning, but I feel empty and sad. Nothing really seems to matter. I don't want to have children, because I would be an awful parent. I feel like an awful person, because I masturbate to terrible shit, and have urges to hurt people. I never do, but the fact that I desire it makes me feel bad.
What can I do to feel less awful?
>>17320798
Yes, it is all true.
1. I am older, and more experienced, than most here. There was simply something about her; what we experienced together, the sacrifices made, plans for the future, and so on. Factor in one of those incredibly rare connections that a person is lucky to find even once, and I knew.
2. It all happened in the span of a few months. Obviously, events had been leading up to this for some time.
3. Her, easily. I would not say I am over her, but have come to terms with reality.
4. My life has, mostly, been one horrifying event after another. You either face these things, and become a stronger, better, man, or allow the pain, and suffering, to consume you.
It does change you, though, but such is life.
>>17321126
Addendum: I don't want to play video games, or masturbate, or even really be alive. I don't want to neck myself, because it would leave a mess, my family may be distressed by it, and I have the slightest hope that things may get less shitty eventually.
How does one achieve happiness?
What should i do if im a bad person?
Im just fucking terrible, i dont progress, im lazy, im a parasite, i think im better than everybody else but im the worst of all, i dont do anything for me or others.
I dont have the balls to kill myself, so i just keep leeching from those who still care about me, just to fail them, it seems like i dont really care about anything, even tho i feel like i do but i dont do anything about it.
i dont get it.
i dont want friends, or love, sex, anything but at the same tame i want it all, but it would still make no sense, theres no meaning.
im not a good person and i have never been one.
i have always manipulative, i cant help it.
i dont have any abilities, i cant even sustain myself.
doing that would mean a life of wage slavery.
whats the idea if im still going to die?
i really dont get it, nothing is genuine, why? why should it be?
human beings are disgusting, animals are disgusting, plants are disgusting, art is disgusting.
why am i even talking about this?
Should i get therapy? is paying to some idiot going to help me? how?
I feel fucking awful. I've violated my own personal moral code.
I'd been attracted to you for quite a while, even though you're married, and as of recently have a kid on the way.
I shouldn't have done what I did last night, and I knew even in my drunk state that I was making a mistake. But I did it. I sucked you off, the only satisfaction I received was making you come (but that's something that gets me off, making my SO get off. But the thing is, /you're not my SO/.) Going nearly four months without ANYTHING of sexual pleasure from your wife, I felt bad. But it wasn't my place to do anything. Even though you paid for the entire night we had together, which was amazing, I shouldn't have done it.
Everything we did last night, the cuddling, letting me nearly fall asleep on your shoulder while watching that movie I can only recall half of. I remember how your ring hurt my hand as I held it, but I didn't care at the time. Just holding YOU felt so good. And I /really/ enjoyed your fondling and you touching me. Maybe a little too much.
You may not consider it cheating, but I do. If I were your wife, and I found out about what happened, I don't even know how angry I'd be. How the feeling of knowing I can't trust the man and father of my child.
I feel awful knowing that I was involved with you, cheating on your wife. But I feel even more awful knowing that part of me wants to do it again.
I can't tell anyone how I'm feeling because I'm so ashamed of myself.
Yet here I am, telling the entire world while I down a bottle of Parrot Bay Rum.
I'm rather young but have a girlfriend who's a couple of states away. I love her and I can't see her. It sucks.
>>17320940
There's a lot of misinformation floating around here. Have a little faith, yeah?
>>17321262
Don't feel bad. His wife is the one who screwed up, not him, and definitely not you. I'd say do it again, as long as you're okay with him never leaving his wife
I hung out with my crush today and I ended up getting so helplessly horny that I'm sexting my ex and touching myself. I'm just terrible.
>>17321402
Interesting.
I don't really get horny when I'm with my crush. I can't even fap to her. Nothing.
Not sure if I am lucky or cursed.
>>17321404
I know that feel
>>17321368
I'm sure if this were to continue, it'd more than likely be only be for the duration of her pregnancy, but even before the pregnancy, she controlled when they had sex. If he was in the mood and she wasn't, tough shit. I've never experienced blue balls, but I imagine it sucks ass. Hell, he came within about 30 seconds of my mouth around him.
I don't know how right this is, but I feel like if you're married to someone, you two should be doing shit together like sex. Especially sex. And knowing how stingy she is with it really pisses me off. Sure she doesn't have to give him head (apparently most everything makes her want to throw up.) but damn. She couldn't expect him to go nine plus months without any sort of sexual stimulation, could she? I'm sorry, but that's down right evil. My thinking's augmented with alcohol and my pregnancy fetish, but still.
I really want to do it again, and maybe even go further than me giving him head. All the shit he goes through, he fuckin' deserves it.
>>17321412
Yes
You're correct
You sound like a good person
>>17321416
Hehe, I like to try to think of myself as a good person with a good moral compass. Do whatever you want as long as you're not hurting anyone else. I just gotta get myself out of this funk.
>>17321368
>>17321412
So withholding a man's god-given entitlement to stick his penis into things is the mortal sin, not the adultery. That really clears things up. How are things in your pig sty, otherwise? Fucking animals.
And stop trying to justify being a fucking slut. That is all you're doing. Normal people would've suggested marriage counselling, but you're a filthy fucking homewrecking slut. And you did what filthy fucking homewrecking sluts do. Stop lying to yourself and stop lying to everyone else here. Fucking skank.
i love you but i don't know if you love me back. i don't deserve you. my life is going nowhere.
>>17321416
Yeah, moral relativity, relative to the satisfaction a man feels, of course.
That's so fucking gross.
