I do not have the diagnosis, but I'm on the border of having autism and/or asperger. I'm a few point below the line of actual diagnosis of autism. It's a mess I never got to the bottom with.

> How does it feel having no emotions?
It feels pretty empty. I feel like there is something wrong with me, but at the same time I know nothing else because I have always felt like this. Sometimes I wonder how people feel and why they act the way they do, but I really can't get my head around it. Other times I feel like a normal person. It differs in circumstances and mood.

> Did you ever wanted to hurt a person because it would look funny?
I have (with a bit of seriousness) thought about raping women, murdering people I don't like, abducting people, and doing a school massacre. Partly because I was mad/angry, being lonely, and partly because I was curious about it and a part of me thought "what the hell, im curious, lets try it".

> Or do you like seeing others in pain?
I personally do not like seeing other in pain that much, but I can be indifferent about it. Honestly I'm not sure if I have gotten good at simulating feelings or if I feel real empathy/sympathy. If I literally SEE someone in pain, if they're right up in my face, my immediate reaction would be somewhat "normal" I believe.

> What if someone you know died, would you cry or rather laugh because you simply dont care at all?
My grandma died some years ago (it was my first and so far only funeral), and I have shed half a tear about it. I sat at the funeral and was really uneasy about what to feel. My sister, mother and aunt cried buckets and I was a bit bored, honestly. I had said my good-bye, I was happy for grandma so that she didn't have to live anymore (she made it clear that she was finished, although she was not in pain).

I'm hoping someone with real asperger answers this thread though.

FYI: asperger syndrome it not real.

I don't think you get what it is, though. It's not the case that we "have no emotions". It's just that understanding what causes certain emotions, especially in other people, doesn't come naturally to us. I'd understand that I was upset because my brother beat me at videogames or whatever, but I WOULDN'T understand that me gloating when I won would make HIM feel bad, even when it was explained to me.

That's when I was really young, though. What is it like for me today? Mainly, I just can't pick up very many social clues, or understand the faux pas that other people do naturally. I'm NOT an antisocial person, I actually have a fair number of friends and family members that I'm around a lot, and interact with them normally. The difference is that all of the rules of interaction and socialisation that I know are entirely based on KNOWLEDGE and CONSCIOUS THOUGHT, and it took YEARS for me to learn how to not be a complete asshole all the time (not because I was ever malicious, just because I never understood that things like interrupting or belittling were things people didn't like).

And I still don't understand a ton of things. Just the other week I was really confused because a good friend of a younger family member was in the car with us, talking about torrenting things, but he didn't get how to do it safely and I (without thinking) started joking about how dumb he must be, how easy it was, and on and on... that's what people do on TV, and everyone's laughing and having a good time, so it never occurred to me that he wouldn't like it. But I apparently went way overboard. I do that a lot, according to my family. I just don't know where the boundaries are, what people are and aren't hurt by, what I should or shouldn't do in emotional situations, and a lot of the time I think I'm being polite when I'm actually being very inconsiderate. I'd like to go into more detail but honestly I'm not sure I can because I don't really get it, it's just what I've been told.

(cont..)

this is so scary honestly, omg.
Like I couldnt ever imagine hurting someone or else.

>>17216535
lol of course it is

>>17216560
(cont)

And yes, I do sometimes fantasize about killing some people, or stealing to get what I want, and don't really see much wrong with it. I don't want to see people in pain, I just find it hard to care about other people when I think I can see benefits for myself at the other end. I think people with toxic ideologies should be silenced, not because they deserve suffering, but because the rest of the world (mainly me) shouldn't have to put up with their bullshit.

I do NOT want to hurt people "for fun" nor would I laugh at someone in real, actual pain, ever. That's not asperger's, that's being a psychopath.

When people die, I care less. I do feel a sense of loss if that person had a lot of life ahead of them, and could have made the world better, but if I feel like it was their time to die... it just doesn't matter to me so much. I cared more about the death of Monty Oum than I did about my own uncle's death, because he was a depressed alcoholic with nothing much to live for and nothing to contribute to the world.

The point is that, no, I don't want to hurt people, and I don't like seeing people hurt. It's just that I have a hard time telling what will and won't hurt people, emotionally at least. It sometimes takes a while for me to understand when something I did was wrong. In the moment, nothing ever matters except what I want (unless I actively try to consider other people, which I do most of the time).

>>17216579
I'm the only one with diagnosed Asperger's so far in this thread (my two-art post is above). I think this guy
>>17216508
Might be a high-functioning sociopath, which is entirely different. I know a fair few people with asperger's, some worse than me, and they aren't like him at all (mostly they talk about not understanding their family/friends and feeling lost and bewildered in most social situations).

>>17216508
You are definitely a sociopath, not an autist. Everything you're saying matches sociopathy, not asperger's.

>>17216601
>>17216607
>sociopath
That's a new one. Could be true, but I doubt it. Docs never said anything about it. What I wrote was me when I was in my mid-teens. I was very unstable back then. Nowadays I have no desire/plan/idea to hurt anyone and I know that what I thought of is fucked up. I relate to some of what >>17216560 said, but not all, and from what I read on Wikipedia I'm not really a sociopath. Maybe I just phrased myself poorly. Or maybe I am a sociopath after all?

Answering because the spergs seem to be getting a bad rap in here, thanks to some nutjobs who are trying to masquerade as spergs
>>17216451
>hi everyone, I wanna ask if you have asperger syndrome and how do you feel about it?
I have the aspergers and it doesn't feel great. Luckily I'm intelligent and hardworking so I've been fairly successful in life. But it would have been a lot easier to get where I am if I wasn't constantly doing dumb/thoughtless shit in social situations.
>How does it feel having no emotions?
I don't know if it's possible to answer this.
>Did you ever wanted to hurt a person because it would look funny?
Not really, hurting people is not good. I enjoy physical comedy involving someone getting hurt but I think that's pretty normal. To be more specific, Shows like jackass are funny to me, but shit like gore videos/bumfights is just depressing and unappealing, for reasons that are probably obvious to most non-psycho people.
>Or do you like seeing others in pain?
No
>What if someone you know died, would you cry or rather laugh because you simply dont care at all?
I don't really care unless I'm forced to confront it. I'd rather avoid things like funerals or talking to bereaved people, but I get sad when I'm in those situations.

>>17216451
>How does it feel having no emotions?
That's wrong, I have emotions and sometimes I even feel overwhelmed by them to the point of having a meltdown.
When I feel some intense feeling like anger or happiness I can recognize it just fine, but "milder" feelings are so hard for me to recognize and I rarely show the appropriate response in any case.

>Did you ever wanted to hurt a person because it would look funny?
Or do you like seeing others in pain?
No, but I wanted to seriously hurt people who bullied or have done bad things to me or my family/friends in the past. I genuinely believed that they deserved punishment and wouldn't feel bad at all if they got hurt.
If people who have done nothing wrong are visibly in pain though, I start feeling distressed and sometimes I can feel really bad even when I can't 100% empathize with their pain especially if it's emotional more than physical.

>What if someone you know died, would you cry or rather laugh because you simply dont care at all?
If it's close family I would feel devastated and completely lost, if it's just someone I know it depends, but I would never laugh at it. Sometimes I feel worse for the people who are suffering for the person's death than for the actual deceased person.
If it's a famous person I simply don't give a fuck 99% of the times.

Hope this will be helpful to your "research"(?).

>>17216728
I just realized I forgot to answer this question:
>I wanna ask if you have asperger syndrome and how do you feel about it?
I do and I feel like my life would have been so, so much easier without it. When I start feeling obsessed with something I literally cannot think of anything else and it fucking sucks.
I feel little need for social interactions though, sometimes it's more of an annoyance than a pleasure for me. Also, I feel quite happy that I'm a bit "different" from the others, I always get the feeling that normal people always try to deceive me or are always trying to hide something.
I only wish that I could do something good in my life.

>>17216508
>having no emotions
>Partly because I was mad/angry, being lonely

>>17216560
>>17216592
Another diagnosed sperglord here. You sound exactly like me. Pro tip if you haven't done it already get a psychology textbook or something similar and learn how to read faces and body language. It'll make your life so much easier.

For those of you who don't have Asperger's Syndrome, and want to know what it's like, imagine being the thing from... The Thing.
>Constantly trying to emulate something you will never be
>A dark evil musters inside of you and it pains you to the point of relapse

>>17217191
Yeah, it's weird how much I empathise with the other people posting in this.

Jeez, I even forgot about the whole "fixating on shit" thing. It's crazy how much I do it; it drives people crazy. Once I hear "going to chinatown" mentioned ONCE when people are kinda floating out possible weekend plans, I can't let it go even when everyone else decides on other stuff.

Even worse is when it's like "maybe, we'll just play it by ear". Like, no, I want to know EXACTLY what we're doing and I want it to be CHINATOWN. I won't be able to let it go.

I know this is a troll post, and I can't believe I'm honoring it with a response, but here goes.

I'm literally, legitimately autistic and I'm pretty sure I feel the same emotions that others do. If that hot-pink electric tingling in your chest and guts that makes your pulse quicken and the air in your nostrils feel tinged with ice and adrenaline is falling in love, then I've fallen in love. If that phenomenon where the thought of a person's smile or laughter is practically sepia-tone in your head, and you feel warm and comfortable just thinking about them, and you like them so much that you would still rather sit next to them and seethe when you're angry with them than say goodbye is being in love, then I've been in love. If that feeling in your chest that actually resembles pain in your heart and causes the space behind your eyes to feel white-hot and cold and watery at the same time while your throat just clenches up on you is grief, then I've felt grief.

I don't want to see anyone or anything hurt. I love everything. It grieves me to think of anybody or anything being hurt, even people who have actively tried to murder me. I watch the ground where I tread because I think that even the life of the smallest insect is worth it. I don't think the idea of hurt is funny. I think that it's wonderful that eyes exist to see the world, and that ears exist to hear it, and that mouths exist to speak and hands to interact and feet to carry us, and the idea of doing anything except loving and healing those things is abhorrent to me. It scares and sickens me that I ever thought of doing violence to anything as precious as a head or a hand.

>>17218757

It pains me deeply that people can't see past my mannerisms and past the look on my face and know that all of these things are happening inside me. I count myself lucky that I have words, because I've met autistic people who I could tell felt and experienced things very much the same way as I do, as intensely as I do, and who didn't have the capacity for expression that I do, and who therefore must have been confused and overwhelmed and hurt much more than I am. I assume that since sounds and touches and such affected those people the same way that they affect me, they must have a very rough time of things, particularly since their requests for people not to overwhelm them with sounds and touches and such must have been taken less seriously than they would be coming from me.

It hurts like a motherfucker that anybody would think of me or people like me as soulless or without feeling, and it hurts like a motherfucker that anybody would think we're just imitating what we've heard when we say, "I love you." I know that I'm different and that I experience things very differently, but I don't think any of us are so inhuman that our love or our joy or our hurt is any different from that of anybody else.

I don't want to be tapped or traced with a finger or held, but I do want to nuzzle and scratch and squeeze because I love. I don't want to stare into anybody's eyes, but I do want to be near them and speak with them, because I love. I hope that telling people I love them too often doesn't cheapen it, but I say it anyway because anybody can die at any time, and I would always want that to be the last thing I said to anybody in my life, no matter how much they hurt me.

I am not a soulless robot, and that fucking hurts, OP. I know it shouldn't, but it does.

>>17216451
>How does it feel having no emotions?
You might want to get your own head examined.

>Did you ever wanted to hurt a person because it would look funny?
>Or do you like seeing others in pain?
>What if someone you know died, would you cry or rather laugh because you simply dont care at all?
No.