>>17146293
Just bumping to see if it works, I'm interested too.
Don't kill yourself by the way, it's bad.

>>17146300
Why is it bad? People die everyday in much worse circumstances

Yes it would work but you should know that you aren't a burden. I've been in that exact situation and only found out after years of medication that my view of everything was so distorted from what it really is. You should stick it out, you're only 23 and there are advancements everyday in mental health.

>>17146303
I was making a joke, that apparently wasn't funny.
I'm waiting for the answer as well, this very image is the way I'm intending to go out.

You're going to inhale that helium and vomit because of the anti-inhalants they put in them because losers Huff it. Then you'll be $100 poorer and even more depressed. See a therapist and get on medication.

>>17146307
Thanks for your response anon
Medication helped you? I only hear bad things about going on medication for depression/anxiety
I have crippling low self esteem which just makes everyday living so anxiety provoking and exhausting
I don't know how I can handle it
I've just cut most people out of my life
But then there's work/study etc..

>>17146323
Anti-inhalants? Really?

>>17146327
Damn, that's relatable.
Medication did some bad shit to me too, but In the end, I may or may not be in a better place that I was in the very start.
Doctors do listen if you tell them you don't want any, though.

>>17146339
Thanks for your input anon.
It's kind of nice to know someone else can relate
I hope you keep getting better

>>17146293
>Would this method of suicide work?
Not anymore. Nowadays most commercially available "helium" is actually heliox (as scuba divers call it): a mix of 80% helium, 20% oxygen. As you might guess from the fact that scuba divers have a name for it, this stuff os breathable, even if it's not the same atmosphere you're used to (which is still about 20% oxygen, but most of the rest is nitrogen). This was done specifically to prevent people from committing suicide this way.

>I'm tired of being a burden on others around me I just want to end my existence
You do not want to end your existence. If you did, you would be dead. What you want is to end the pain, and this is totally reasonable; where you are mistaken is the idea that death is the only way out.

There are real solutions to this: solutions you can live with. But you need help. More help than this board can really provide. Call the hotline. They can help you.

>>17146346
I kind of feel like I won't, I'm in a place I feel like I've been ever since before I've started being "treated" and that the doctors were only running in circles doing bullshit.
Right now, I feel like I can't try anything because I won't be able to make it, because everything I tried failed. Whenever I do try something, I just stop trying after a very short while, which is what I've done my whole life.

Thanks for the kind words anyway, appreciate it.

Go to psychiatrist. They'll help you for sure. I'm 20 and i had a great loss at 12 years old. For 6 years i couldn't find the reason to live. I had no goal. I had friends then, but they all betrayed me. I still have no friends, but I got myself a goal. Thats what keeps me alive. We'll die anyways, why die sooner if justing hanging out in this world could be more fun. Don't imagine the world is built around you. Its big and fun to explore, go have sex, drink, eat steak, taste octopus, watch tentactle porn. There are so many stuff to do

>>17146327
The medicine wasn't without downsides. I had to switch between 3 different medications until one worked and when it finally worked I lost my ability to orgasm in under two hours which in my opinion is totally worth it to be somewhat functional and improving daily. Also I tried to stop the medicine cold turkey at one point but my brain almost cried. Apparently you're supposed to talk to your doctor and they make a "taper" plan where you reduce the dosage over time until you aren't dependent on it anymore.

Even if you aren't able to give anti depressants a chance you should definitely talk to a doctor about anxiety medication. My general care doctor helped me by prescribing Xanax which has allowed me to overcome a lot of stressful situations and was also the only reason I managed to see a therapist and open up to them. The SSRI isn't magical overnight transformation though, once we found the right medicine for me it was mostly small changes like noticing the color of the grass being a nice green or the sky being blue instead of Grey and music was also pleasant sounding instead of just noise. And those are just the small things there were even some moments where I just laughed for the first time out of nowhere nothing was even funny at the time it just kind of happened.

>>17146357
Thankyou anon for you're informative and understanding reply
I think you're right about everything
Thankyou so much
I think I will get help
I'm in a lot of pain but the idea of hurting the people I love causes me even more pain
I think if it weren't for that fact ending my life would be an easy decision

>>17146357
I didn't see this message.
Fuck.
There goes my escape plan.