I'm a max level introvert with terrible self esteem who honestly almost never feels lonely, no matter how long without social interaction (besides customers) I go. As long as I can talk to people on the internet, I'm happy.
But I decided that I need to stop being a bitch and to get a boyfriend. Even though I would honestly love to be alone my whole life.
So when this dude from larp asked me out for dinner, I decided to go for it. I got drunk beforehand (I always get drunk before dealing with things I don't really wanna deal with :^) ) and actually had an enjoyable time. Met him again for coffee (sober) and it was kinda awkward but still pretty darn nice.
Then we just saw the new Civil War movie. I drank before hand but it just made me tired instead of drunk... And I really didn't have an enjoyable time in the slightest.
I have a really hard time enjoying real people. I have husbandos who I adore, but idk man, 2d is just so much better. Plus I feel like he wants more then I can give, kissing and stuff makes me uncomfortable and I'm a virgin who really doesn't like to masterbate and only really thinks about sex with 2d dudes. Should I just stick with it, or just accept the fact that I shouldn't date people.
Sorry for rambling.
If you'd rather fantasize about pictures for the rest of your life, then more power to you. You don't owe it to anyone to become a normie.
But if you want to come out of your shell and start to date, since it seems at least some guys are taking interest in you, then go for it, but ease into it slowly, I guess. And try not to become an alcoholic to do it.
>>17141441
Just talk to him about all the issues you told us.
>>17141449
being a normie is the goal. And after tonight, I don't think I wanna meet him again while drunk...I had a more enjoyable time while sober.
>>17141456
I feel like I could only really do that through text. But that's the rude pussy way to do it :/ Though I should probably let him know about my "super low sexdrive" issue or just get some female viagra shit.
>>17141441
try anxiety medication instead of getting drunk. Talk to your general care provider.
>>17141441
You're like a female version of me. Except I'm getting rid of the drinking before events meme, because it's a terrible way to go through life
>>17141486
This is incredibly embarrassing stuff and I understand why you don't want to talk about it in person. But he already likes you enough to be physically intimate, so he will probably be okay with more emotional intimacy.
>>17141495
drinking is cheaper and more enjoyable. Plus I don't really think it has anything to do with anxiety... I just don't want to be a boring socially awkward mess, and I'm normally at my best while drunk
>>17141498
aaay my nigga. Yeaaah, I feel like if I was sober for the situations, I would have a better grasp on how I really feel about it.
>>17141441
Aren't you that femanon who had this obsession with Sephiroth and 2d dudes having gay sex with each other, also wanted your boyfriend to pretend to be one of your 2d guys?
If you're still struggling with intimacy in relationships, sounds like you should consider therapy for these mixed feelings.
>>17141534
god no, I actually have taste.
