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Yeah it's another suicidal post among the many others please be patient with me. So last year I was doing pretty good, I had a miserable abusive childhood that I'd started dealing with I found lots of people suffered like I did and still muddled through life, I came to terms with my sexuality and I was doing okay. I had a job I didn't hate, reconnected with my friends after a depressive slump and I was hitting the gym thanks to /fit/. Then on new year's I was sexually assaulted by a friend. January 1st he found me while I was passing out on a bed after the party. There was no penetration Andi got away but I was violated. I went to the hotline for it they helped me come to terms with it, helped me forget the guilt and urged me to file a police report. I told someone I thought was my friend and they said if I didn't press charges they would tell everyone what happened. So I told her I would and instead I cut off ties with her I couldn't bear the thought of people finding out about this I stopped talking to that whole group of friends and when I reached out to someone I thought I could trust again they were more concerned with their own social problems and just didn't seem to care about me. I blocked the guy who did it from everything erased his number he did apologize came at me with a bunch of excuses and the people at the hotline told me to save the texts to use as evidence but I couldn't. I couldn't even go to therapy at the local support group like they said to. I wanted to wash that whole day away and now I'm more depressed than ever. I don't know what to do. Shame keeps me quiet and self loathing makes me want to kill myself. He's out there still drinking with our friends and having a great time. I'm so sacred that if they find out that they'll all say it was my fault that they'll think less of me. I just want to die and I'm scared and unhappy. How do I live?