>>16993471
Have you considered donating whole blood in advance for the tax you're likely to put on the bloodbank when you inevitably fuck up your suicide attempt and need upwards of several litres of blood to recover?

Get your good parts out before you fuck up someone else's day.

Seek therapy, seek help from family and most importantly seek Christ

Look to friends, family, mentors, hobbies, passions, anything that peaks interest. Psychiatric help can work wonders.

It couldn't hurt, op. That's reason enough.

>>16993621
I haven't bought insurance yet and am kinda worried it will mess up the premium calcs

>>16993498
This. Although I'd go to family first before a therapist. Therapist as a last resort, since they may try to put you meds or some crap.

Christ will save you though if you call on his name. Sometimes the help may not come till later, but he'll be there.

Also great OP image. The dog looks so embarrassed of its owner.

>>16993640
I could go to a government hospital and get diagnosed I guess. And I would feel pretty stupid if Christ asked me why I didn't seek modern medical help

Yes, psychiatric help would be helpful.

See a psychiatrist; see a therapist. They can save your life and make you actually happy.

How to find a mental health provider: http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/mental-illness/in-depth/mental-health-providers/art-20045530
How to find a therapist: http://www.webmd.com/anxiety-panic/guide/how-to-find-therapist
Dealing with suicidal thoughts: http://www.helpguide.org/articles/suicide-prevention/suicide-help-dealing-with-your-suicidal-thoughts-and-feelings.htm
A list of suicide hotlines (organized by country): http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html
Psych Central - Do You Need To See A Therapist: http://psychcentral.com/therapy/

>>16993670
Scored a 26, making an appointment today

Thanks guys