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Serious depression
2016-04-02 21:54:34 Post No. 16988966
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Serious depression
Anonymous
2016-04-02 21:54:34
Post No. 16988966
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I've been really down on myself lately. I'm in sort of a no-man's land as far as my state of mind.
I'm a 28 y/o male, and I think the main source of all my depression is my failed marriage and never having gone to college.
>Marriage
I don't know. I married the first girl I slept with, I enlisted to take care of us, we had a kid, she met someone else online, divorced me, has since remarried and my daughter doesn't even know my face anymore.
I feel like I'm stuck providing for a family without being part of it. I love my daughter but I'm not even sure where she fits into my life.
I don't feel like a person, I feel like a resource.
It's like I have acknowledge having a kid, even though I don't have a kid, it's like I have a lifeline to a failed life which only serves to make me feel miserable.
>College
I really regret not going to college. Not just to get a degree. Always wanted to go to University of California @ Irvine, maybe do some meaningful research, join a frat, enjoy being young.
I think maybe that's what all this is about? I never got to enjoy a life of my own, and now I feel like I'll never be able to.
>Feminism
This is probably a related issue but I've just been feeling a lot of anger/disgust towards women in general. Any time I hear or read feminist rhetoric I think of how hard family/divorce law has shit on me because I'm a man, and just the higher standards and accountability men have in general and my skin fucking crawls.
A side effect of this is I've gotten really good at "faking it" with women until I've gotten it in, and then I just want them out of my house. This isn't who I want to be, but I just find it very difficult to trust women anymore.
How do I get over this?