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Gambling Addiction is Killing Me
2016-03-22 05:13:24 Post No. 16944424
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Gambling Addiction is Killing Me
Anonymous
2016-03-22 05:13:24
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I have a gambling addiction.
Even though I have a decent job, I live paycheck to paycheck, even eating rice, drinking water, and eating a friend's left overs to get me by so I have money to gamble with.
It's actually betting that I've always done - I love the rush of the risk of putting my money up. Even though I have what they call a gambling addiction, I've never been to a casino.
I kind of quit cold turkey for almost two months until I ran into an old coworker that I know plays poker. He and I aren't friends but it was a known fact that I had a gambling addiction at that job. I asked him if he would teach me. He agreed and even acknowledged in the conversation that he knew I had a gambling addiction.
He, myself and two of his friends came over to my apartment where they taught me poker. I was losing because they were teaching me as we played and they weren't giving me advice on how to play well, just the rules.
It became obvious partway in that they were doing this because they knew I had an addiction, I was an easy mark, and they knew I would let them clean me out. They said things like, "You can't quit can you." One of them described the fact that I kept playing as, "bizarre."
I paid them via PayPal and an ATM. I gave up my TV, Xbox One and games, and an Alienware desktop computer that was given to me as a gift this Christmas. I'm writing this on a six year old laptop that computer had replaced.
I want to meet them again next time I get paid. I am more worried that I wont have enough to make it as intense as that first time than I'm worried about how I'm going to eat this week. Having my bank account emptied, a credit card maxed, and my electronics raided didn't hurt bad enough to want to stop. I'm deep in regret.
Even though I know I'm getting drained by them, I won't hurt my chances of doing this again by confronting them.
What's my rock bottom? Do I accept this and run myself into the ground until something clicks and I can stop?