>lonely
>too autism to start or maintain friendships
>spend most of my time fantasizing about being in good friendships and being back in high school again
>everything tastes bland
>music doesn't have an appeal anymore
>can't stand to play vidya games for more than 5 minutes
>can't watch anime for more than 5 minutes
This has been going on for several years now. I just want this feeling of emptiness and loneliness to go away, and i'm sure this is happening because of my depression.
I've tried making a tulpa for the past couple weeks but i've been going nowhere, so I guess tulpas were just a meme.
What do I do? At this point I think suicide is the only option.
find a passion
>>16668871
And what is a passion, exactly?
How about joining a club. Martial arts, Go, chess, w/e interests you the most. And once you have that you can socialize a bit..
>>16668876
something u enjoy doing/excites u
theres like infinite hobbies that u can do
and im sure being dead is pretty boring desu
>>16668891
I'm sure being dead feels like nothing, no boredness, no happiness, just nothing desu.
>>16668859
>tulpas
Yeah, I think everyone who claims to have found success with tulpas are either roleplaying or actually insane.
Try to find a new hobby, like others are saying. Make sure it's something productive and rewarding, like exercise, playing an instrument, or making some sort of craft. Try to make internet friends.
>suicide is the only option
No, OP. You're stronger than that. Keep on keeping on. I believe in you!
Seek therapy
>>16668859
smoke crack
>>16668876
In similar situation. My job is my passion. I struggle when at home still though
sounds like you've tried everything but friendships. you need them, unlike popular opinion. just give it a try, you may not succeed the first few times. be honest. there's people out there for everyone
