Hey /adv/ i have an addiction to traps that is out of hand and destroying my identity as a man. Every time i fap to them i hate myself for it and feel immense shame afterward, and always tell myself its the "last time".
I am not gay as i am not attracted to men in the slightest, what gets me off is self inserting as the trap but i am always disgusted by it, however when i am horny i must self insert and it really gets me off.
For backround i have zero self esteem and clinical major depression and social anxiety, and was addicted to porn for years before developing this fetish.
Am i just a delusional fag or is there a way out of this. I would rather commit suicide while im still a man than become a sissy trap but i keep getting closer to that every time i fap.
Im not even feminie i have huge shoulders and a jew nose.
Just stopping jacking off to traps.
>>16923060
I've tried but I can't do it, I'm hooked.
I was Jerking off 3 to 4 times a day for years before I slowly started getting into traps. First I would just lurk the threads, and when I fapped to them at first I fantasized about fucking one not being one.
>>16923045
There are men and there are women. You're a man, you fap to men, thus you are a fag.
No shame about it.
>>16923120
Fags at least have a certain dignity.
I'm not attracted to men, I'm attracted to my own narcissistic desire to be a beauty queen.
So what? Fantasizing about this shit seems to be common enough among dudes so I fail to see the issue here.
As long as you don't end yourself, you'll get over it. Remember that. I have little more to say. Oh, and don't take life too seriously.
Fantasies are just that. Don't sweat it. Everyone has weird sexual fantasies. Although I suggest taking a good introspective look at your sexuality. I recently came out and I felt so much better when I just accepted who I am. Porn addiction is a real problem though.
