What video game do you think of when you see this picture?
Skyrim
Depression Quest
CD-I Tetris
The one I never made.
>>344830452
Why not?
>>344830887
I'm too busy protesting for the poor black community in their time of need.
Witcher 3
Kaer Morhen to be exact
War Thunder
>>344830887
Life, and I, just didn't work. My most driven and relentlessly creative era (as in it was what I based most of my thoughts around), was also when I was the most crippled by chronic pain, health problems, etc. I couldn't learn the proper skills, I couldn't bring a number of elements together yet, and I eventually went down the rabbit hole into madness and ended up in a mindset where I was "waiting for nothing", and just experiencing, waiting to finally fizzle out and die off. I became a bit scrambled at best, and this contributed to a lot of a game I have in mind as I write this.
Anyway. I conceptually near fully developed, gameplay included, a total of 7 games. 3 of them loosely relate in the same universe, but it's subtle and someone having played all of them might or might not see the connections. If they did connect them, and the other games existed, they might also reason they're part of the same universe (though they really aren't for me).
One game I've been iterating on for the last 15 years. Back then some part of me knew I wasn't capable of finishing it. Although I have the skills to create now, I'm a bit of a different frame of mind and have a lot of other stuff to do. I don't care so much anymore. The one that image reminds me of however, I will have to return and create, eventually. It'll likely haunt me for the rest of my life if I don't. It's the key to reconciliation.
Sorry for the long answer. It could be more concise. I haven't slept for 34 hours at this point.
>>344832343
Wow you sound like a huge fag
You should greatly consider taking your problems to a place that cares
Kingdoms of Amalur
>>344832493
The poster asked "why not". I responded.
>>344832807
Did you ever consider that you put him in a position to ask? You're obviously just an attention whore.
>>344832951
This is an anonymous imageboard. If he felt an obligation, it has no hard basis in anything other than himself, and is solely his problem / deal to decide how to act on.
You can't escape dualisms. Accept it and move on.
>>344833224
Yep, definitely a queer.
>>344833282
You're just mad because you feel powerless in your everyday life.
Good luck.
>>344828935
Myst.
Sorry.
>>344833442
This is coming from a poofer crying on an anonymous board about first world problems.
>>344833528
What a dumb poster.
>>344833442
Pic related
>>344833698
Stay mad fag.
>>344833789
Don't know. Think this is the same person though.
>>344828935
crysis
>>344832343
There are ways to produce a game such that it's always more refined. There's a way to refine the mindspace.
>>344828935
Kerbal Space Program
>>344828935
Skyrim
>>344833852
I'm just sitting here, eating kava and caffeine, listening to Halfaxa. Learning some Russian. I'm more or less devoid of stress. Talking about and compiling my history put a few things together in my mind. Make no mistake, I'm not talking to you, I'm talking -at- you. Best case scenario you generate something worth harvesting.
You might want to honestly self assess and think what you're really experiencing right now. If all is well and you're deriving value from your behavior, as dumb and obnoxious as it is, continue on. Otherwise I think you might have something to consider.
>>344834051
same
School Days
>>344834446
>>344834295
All of it's stored in my head. I've left it open to loss and distortion deliberately. Aside from a few notes I still have around. I have most of it associated with so many other memories I could probably reconstruct anything on the chance I would lose it after all this time.
Only 3 of the games are remotely viable to work on myself. One I'd have to work on alone. It would take 3-4 years at a minimum. But things are beginning to fall into place.
>>344833442
Who is this dick juice masseuse?
Nothing.
No game will look that beautiful.