What's on your mind anons ?
>>22538559
He's horribly attractive, and there's something appealing about knowing that you're about to inflict horrible damage to yourself through dating this person. He makes you feel terrible, he's dangerous, and you can't help but feel attracted to it.
You know he's raised a fist to his mom and pushed his sister down stairs and the cuts on his hand are from when it's gone through a wall. It's somehow tragic, and you foolishly traipse into this relationship knowing that you can't tame him, that you'll be one of many, but you still want to try.
You still have some vague hope that he will conform for you, be different for you, and when he tells you that you are different from the others. And when you get your heart broken you almost cherish the pain because it's what you deserve. You choose destruction over kindness because it's what you feel you deserve.
An invisible version of self-harm that perpetuates for months when he tells you that you were nothing to him, tells others you're a loon, and tells his friends he hates you so much that he wishes you dead.
I am stupid stupid dumb dumb dumb.
>>22538573
Has Brandon finally lost it?
>>22538623
literally me
>>22538573
Because that bitch cheated on me I can't get back into the swing of things. It's been two years now but dammit I haven't even talked to another girl like I did with her. Why is it so hard /soc/? I'm not an ugly guy. Is it high standards? I just want to move on and find another girl.
>>22538559
I miss her so much, also I want to CHANGE the world idk why maybe cause the world can change me in the process, I'm such a loser and failure God I hope I can make something of myself one day
Lost my Virginity yesterday. I still can't believe that I lost it, I want more sex now.
I've been trying to get out of a toxic friendship for months now, but every time I try to get out, she uses her innate ability to cause boners to reel me back in. She doesn't knowingly do it, but she's so unstable that I can't just up and cut her out.
>>22538559
That I might have a sexual addiction. I fucked my wife twice today and have masturbated 4 times tonight since she went bed. If I don't have sex for a few days I feel like I'm crawling out of my skin and going crazy. I think I need to see my doctor or something. I hit periods where I can't take it anymore because it feels like it takes over my mind. I don't have rape fantasies or anything like that but just the desire(and unfortunately I'm successful a lot) to fuck lots of girls. I've been with 4 of my buddies wives, 6 of my wives friends, 2 interns at work, 2 of my direct reports and countless randoms over the years. If my wife knows she doesn't say anything but at this point I have to think how does she not know right.
I cant not believe my eyes how the worlds full of filth and lies, but its plain to see the evil inside of me is on the rise. looking around were living with the lost and found.
I really love my gf and want to make her happy, but I am too whipped to tell her to give me a little space and let me just bum and play video games one or two days a week.
Also that I secretly want to be forced into being a pet then drilled in the ass and stuffed full of a cute femboys cum.
I don't know if I'm in love with this girl, or I'm just really shallow and she's really hot.
Need to decide if she's worth sticking around for.
What do ya think, /soc/?
I secretely enjoy other people describing how they'd fuck the shit out of my girlfriend. For some reason it turns me on even though I'd obviously never go for it IRL.
>>22540334
have a wank and then think about if you actually like her
>>22540344
I feel more or less the same afterwards.
I have trouble wanking to her tbh, it's really hard to imagine a girl that hot naked. My brain can't process that degree of perfection.
And that's way more info about my wanking than I'm sure you ever wanted, /soc/
Been with a girl for almost a year now. Lost my virginity to her, but she like got over sex? She lost hers to me too, so I guess it just wasn't for her... idk. I want more sex, and I've thought about cheating, but I'm not the type of guy that attracts a lot of attractive women. :\ Doomed to suffer perhaps? I mean I could break up with her esp since she has panic attacks if I so much as try to cuddle, but when we first met we messed around in my bed naked quite a few times. Either way I'm doomed to masturbating.
Im a guy and I was molested as a child by a girl slightly older than I was at the time.
Now I cant handle the thought of someone else bringing me to orgasm. Im a virgin and probably always will be because of horrible trust issues with the opposite gender.
Had my first date on Saturday night. Thought it went okay but haven't heard from her since so I assume I just didn't fit her profile.
Starting a 12 week gym routine tomorrow so I'll be ready for law enforcement in January.
My hair has been annoying the crap out of me because I looked like a piece of shit with a buzzcut back in school but what I do now only looks good for the first week after a haircut.
>>22540295
This plus, I said goodbye to one of my closest friends I've had last night, bad feels, but I feel its for the best.
>>22540382
This. Except one night when we were both wasted I told her that I wasn't sure if I just wanted to bang her or if I liked her. Then we both agreed that we were adults and that it wouldn't ruin our friendship. Next day lost all feels for her. Not even sexually frustrated any more. This being said, would still bang if given the chance.
I just recently got jealous of someone that i thought i had gotten over for a month and a half now since we ended things. Wasnt even a huge deal, we fucked around but not much else, but now im stuck between letting it die, preserving the friendship, and telling her how i feel and its fucking with me a lot more than it should. I just dont know how she can act as if shes over it and come off as indecicive as she does sometimes. But lately i find myself wanting those times that we had back, where we used to laugh and talk about things and be fuckin dorks together. I know weve had problems since then but i wanna make it rightt, because above all, i just fucking give a shit for this girl. And i dont know if she does or if shes even worth my goddamn time. Makes me sad. I was looking foward to seeing her soon..
I'm trying casual sex again for the very first time in 5 years (the last and only time I tried it I couldn't handle it and was left with some bad scars) and I'm already starting to recognize the same kinds of feeling sthat got me in trouble last time. We've only hooked up twice and I think about him all the time. I fantasize about sex and hanging out with him at least 75% of my waking hours even though I'm an incredibly busy and active person. I wake up and think about him. I feel like I can't control myself. I'm definitely developing feelings.
He's a great, attractive, interesting guy and is so sweet to me and satisfies me sexually but I just crave his attention more than anything.
Could it be that I just fall for everyone I hook up with because my standards incredibly broad? Or is it a coincidence and I'm just actually hooking up with really awesome people every time because I have great taste and attract great people? OR is this just what lust feels like and I need to relax a little bit.
I want to learn how to handle casual sex what is wrong with me?! I don't want to be a slave to relationships anymore.
>>22540393
absolutely break up with her.
>>22540334
Have you been in love before?
>>22539006
You're not a failure. You need to ask yourself where your definition of 'making something of yourself' really comes from and think hard about why that is.
>>22540669
>Have you been in love before?
Yeah, but I mean, it feels different every time. I could write a giant wall of text about it, but nothing about this particular girls makes any sense based on what I've learned from other experiences. I don't understand anything that goes on between me and her.
>>22539018
Gratz, how old are you vs him/her.
What would you rate yourself /him/her?
Im wondering why I got into a relationship with a woman that has a ton of health problems, both physical and mental, and can't have aex with me because she isn't in the mood ever. Also she doesn't clean for shit. Yesterday I did dishes which had been piling up for weeks as well as laundry. Starting to think that being single again might be a wise move.
I've been on cam and webcam chatrooms countless of times, a lot of them compliment me on my skin, the clarity, how I look good naturally, etc.
They don't know that I'm a Professional Makeup Artist. Even if my webcam was 4k you wouldn't be able to tell.
My face is actually jacked up.
I put on movie quality makeup every time I go on webcam, I have at least $20 on my face on the lightest application.
>my weight
>how to get rid of my cold
>how I need to go to sleep
>Alex
>missing mum and dad
>want my water bottle but id have to move
>I really really need to sleep
>what am I going to wear tomorrow
so much on my mind and I need to fucking sleep fam. SMHHHHHH
>>22539532
sometimes you have to. The poison seeps in and your life can get thrown upside down in a second. Good luck friend.
>>22540393
She may be cheating on you
or she feels guilty and thinks you should wait till marriage.
how old are you both?
>>22540589
That is horrible and shame on her I'm sorry you had to go through that and deal with the after affects. Hopefully one day you will be able to find someone you trust enough to understand and easy you into it.
>>22541006
god dammit lewis..
There is a girl who I'm talking to who I am starting to like. I hope maybe one day it can progress further.
>>22541065
Don't call me that
>>22541072
at least i am not name dropping m8.
are you ok or still feel like a trainwreck?
>>22541006
Alice?
>>22541096
yeah thats her :^]
>>22541090
I don't only feel like one, I just genuinely am a massive train wreck
>>22541106
I dont have anything to offer you, at least nothing new, but as i told you before, this is not a place to come for sympathy. You can do better than that.
>>22538559
That I might be thrown away again. There's a girl who looks a lot like me only really skinny and prettier and younger and he's going to have her over next year and then the past four years won't matter anymore.
I should just get a puppy or a bunny and give up on relationships.
>>22538559
I fucked my wife's sisters over the weekend now I'm pariond that one will tell Im pretty much a ducking ball of stress right now fml
>>22540853
>My face is actually jacked up.
Probably from your pores clogging from so much makeup.
>>22541061
Yea thanks nobody ever wants to ease into it and I dont really know how to bring this up without freaking someone out.
I like to lick my gfs asshole when she's asleep.
I've been talking to 2 camwhores (one former) on kik and don't know what I'm doing I think I'm friendzoning them both. How to be forward and not be so platonic even though they live on the other side of the continent?
Ive been lately just hooking up with girls that arent really even my type just cause i want to get laid. Lately ive been thinking that i actually havent been interested legit in someone in a really long time. I don't know what to do about it.
Im ahving some sever insomnia lately, last night i jsut went for a walk around 4am around the neighbourhood. I feel like i'm waiting for my life to take meaning or some twist. Don't have a girlfriend, been chatting with a girl which i kissed but never passed from there. Don't know where to meet new people and im bored in a still unkown city for me (been living here for 4 years)
>>22538559
Will I ever pass, will I ever be pretty, will I ever have a normal life, with friends, a boyfriend or a girlfriend...
>>22542780
well you need to find out what you want then
>>22538559
Suicide. Lel?
My mind? Just the fact that I have no reason to keep on living, but I can't kill myself because death isn't any better than what I'm stuck in.
Suggestions for or against?
>>22542824
just start anew. i almost did that. i have a little bell inside my head that didnt let me die.
i have attempted suicide. but that something just kept me from not doing it. like a person holding back the razor. the solution i discovered was change. on a small or a big scale. even taking a bag of stuff and start walking through the country.
just do what you do NOT do up until this point
>>22542838
That's leave. But sadly, there are too many chains holding me here. Guess I need to start burning bridges...
8:50am, been up all night drinking and doing coke. I can go through an 8ball in a night these days.I've perforated my septum
and i keep doing it.
>>22542848
yeah but thats the secret. i had a plan disappearing from everyone and start a new life. going into another country, stealing people. etc. but i guess im just too spotaneous and crazy
>>22542858
>spontaneous and crazy
If your a guy, that's depressing.
If you're a woman, that's very.. unexpected.
Every person in a tri-county area either dislikes me or ignores my presense to such a degree that even if I try talking to them, they give me 1 word answers and walk off to do literally anything else.
It really is time to move on... literally and figuratively.
my life is rapidly reaching a point where my best impression of a functional adult just isn't gonna cut it anymore and i don't know what's gonna happen after that
>>22540640
initials?
Pizza. Fuck do I ever want some pizza right now. I think I'm gonna order.
>>22542651
Take you're time to get to know someone before you bring it up. Start by saying you would like to be blunt about something that happened in you past. Ex: "you know how I don't get really sexual? Well.... I hope you are understanding and I can trust you to keep this between us". Keep your chin up anon. You will find that person one day that takes care of you in a sweet and understanding way (>'.')> *hugs*
i have a full time job and go to school but i'm homeless and already have a shit ton of bills piled on and i cant get financial aid because my family refuses to give me the information so i've been barely squeaking by with what little i have
part of me wants to turn to prostitution or porn
the other part of me wants to kill myself
I just got out of a relationship of sorts and I'm still not 100% sure it was the right idea.
Also, I'm kinda tired of having a large penis.
lonely
>have gf
>accidently fucked housemate
>feel kinda guilty
>>22543313
I just want a person who understands if I dont want to be sexual right away. I had this one girl who I saw one time. She actually made this even worse because she was very sexual. I stopped talking to her because she would get pissed that we didnt have sex.
Why do I attract sexually aggressive women?
>>22543453
>>22543453
>accidently fucked housemate
Yeah, I hate falling down the stairs naked and landing onto my spread housemate who enjoys cleaning in the nude,
i want to die
>>22543585
hahahaha
>>22543620
Fuck off.
>>22543620
you and me both buddy
>>22543585
I kind of want to greentext it
>live with gf and another couple
>after a year, me and gf moving to different place as she has job in different city
>Final sunday night in the place, gf already left becuase of new job, I leave on tuesday.
>Im chilling in living room having a few beers, browse /ck/
>other couple in bedroom having a massive row.
>Think she hit him
>When im taking a shit, he storms out slamming all the doors
>I return to my beer and /ck/
>She eventually comes out, starts drinking vodka
>Offers me a shot, so sure why not
>Listen to her talk about her relationship problems for an hour
>Shes drinking quite a lot
cont
>>22543657
>She isnt very hot but Ive always wanted to fuck her
>When no one is home i masturbate in her bed with her panties in my mouth
>Anyway, shes drinking, ive had a few beers and a few shots
>Suddenly shes on top of me kissing
>Next thing we are in her bed
>Hand between her legs, shes already dripping, im hard so no foreplay, straight to fucking
>Kinda drunk so dont feel like cumming
>Slamming her so hard
>After around 15-20 minutes of this I think shes kind of realiesed whats going on
>Shes fucking me just to get back at her bf
>The realisation is real
>Shes too far gone, a huge orgasm rips through her body
>hot as fuck, instantly blow inside her
>Shes in tears
>Pull out and go to my bedroom
>Stay in bedroom all day monday and dont see her
>Move out tuesday whilst shes at work, never see her again
>>22543657
>>22543679
dude woah
>>22543691
Thanks for reading anon, feels better to share
>>22543718
i mean i don't know what to say tbh
on one hand im angry at you for cheating on your gf
on the other hand i feel like it was a mistake and you're sorry and stuff
idk
that is a difficult situation, and ive never been in your shoes thankfully
>>22543748
A few years ago, my gf kissed another guy. Ive been kind of hung up on it ever since.
I think i kind of did it because Ive been waiting to get even. Obviously me fucking someone is not the same as her kissing someone whilst drunk, but it has freed me from those shackles.
>>22543762
as someone who's poly i don't understand things like that
i wish i could relate more but i can't - i mean of course i'd be upset if my gf kissed or fucked someone without my prior knowledge...i mean it'd probably strain my relationship so much i'd end it but i mean idk
getting even like that
i understand but i also dont
i mean if she kissed someone and you were so hung up on it why not just talk it out
or end it
something a little more healthy than revenge sex?
im not asking because im mad, i really just dont understand
>>22543799
We did talk it out a lot at the time, and it nearly ended. But it didnt.
I didnt plan to have revenge sex. Ive thought about it a few times but never done it. It was nearly 4 years ago now. So I dont think I set out with the intention of getting even. Ive had opportunities to fuck girls in the past 4 years and never did.
But given that I feel liberated by it, Im not sure that maybe the revenge thing wasnt in the back of my mind. I dont plan on telling her. I dont think she would leave me, but it would destroy her.
I'm so happy to be alone after reading some of these stories. I think I'm gonna keep it this way.
>>22543840
im sorry but im really thankful im not in your situation
i may be homeless but interpersonal drama like that bothers me more than where i am atm
>>22543873
Its not really a drama since she will never know. And the other girl isnt likely to mention it. Its just I feel kind of guilty.
Shit was hot at the time though. The way she couldnt fight the orgasm probably made it all worth it.
>>22543941
even if she might not know, you know and the other girl knows, and she might tell her bf or someone might find out
that kind of stuff eats me up
I just want to get the yellow fever out of my system. I want to fuck an East Asian guy once in my life.
>>22543959
They have been together for 6 years. Im pretty certain she isnt going to tell him. But there is always a risk. I guess we both have too much to lose by admitting it that neither of us will.
Every guy but the one I'm in love with keeps professing their undying passion for me. I'm extremely fucking horny and in an effort to not immediately jump a bone, I ask about their kinks (to see if we're compatible) and not a single one so far has been as perfect as the boy I adore was. Too bad he's with another girl now- I just miss my daddy.
>>22543987
well best of luck to you both
>>22543996
i very much relate to this
there is a guy i like but he just doesnt seem as interested in me as i am in him
and i just want to know that he loves me that is all
but he says hes never been in love with someone
and its hard to hear that and believe it
>>22543996
This only got worse with every word i read. Specially the last.
>>22544002
I can only offer you the same advice I got- you have to get over it. It's true, I do, but especially in DDLG relationships (which mine was), I'm having a hard time letting go.
I know yours might not be the same scenario, but loving someone and not being loved back is probably the fastest way to a broken heart. Hopefully, we can both get over them.
>>22544013
How come daddy left?
>>22544013
i know what you mean
but its almost like im addicted to him
not only is he someone i love but hes also someone i find a really great friend in
but i have a lot going on right now and hes busy with his job lately so we havent been speaking as much as usual so it makes the transition away from each other easier.
I'm from a shit hole town in Ontario, I want so bad to move to Montreal and tell everyone I'm from Toronto just so I never have to think about this town again.
My life is pretty good. I have everything I could want, and I worked for it. I make more than enough money to survive on, and I'm 34. I have no problem finding and keeping girlfriends, and my love life is currently pretty awesome.
Yet I (still) suffer from crippling depression, and generally cannot be happy with my life. I haven't been able to be happy about anything for about a decade now.
I just spent almost 2 grand USD on a a computer system. I haven't had a desktop in so long so I went overboard, now I'm seriously regretting some of my decisions. Obviously, there's little to nothing I can do about the situation because there are still things to delivered but I'm freaking out. I still have bills to pay and I'm hemorrhaging money like a fucking sieve.
Fuck college. Fuck this shitty retail job that was all that would hire me because I'm in collge. Fuck it all. I swear to fucking god. I have to skip a class tomorrow because I need to go and try to apply for foodstamps because I don't make enough money in general to survive with. Even without the crazy-fuck-expensive computer.
I, Hate, the idea of being on foodstamps. All I want in life is to be self-sufficient. I'm moving to Tennessee as soon as I graduate to life with a friend. Still not able to survive on my own.
I... just want to manage to get a solid Career and really SURVIVE! 40kish a year and I'd be able to live comfortably easily.
No, it wasn't little, but I'm near tears. I wish I had booze in the house to pass out with but I can't afford decent liquor and I won't drink beer.
>>22544032
Cause I wasn't fast enough with getting back together with him. We broke up for a short period of time and dated other people but quickly didn't enjoy that and started talking again. Things looked like they always had, so I assumed we'd be back together- I was wrong. He picked up and left after another girl, a shiny object that caught his eye. I know a real Daddy wouldn't do that, but he was the closest thing I had.
I broke up from a 5 year relationship 6 months ago. It was a mutual breakup as our lives were not following the same path and to stick together made us unhappy, but it was hard. Neither of us wanted it. We wanted more than anything to work but sometimes you can't change what someone truly truly wants in life.
Fast forward 4 months, meet another boy. He's great, good to me, we have a lot of the same interests and such. But as of the last week I've been getting this feeling that it's not going to work out - soley because I tried so hard on my last one and it didn't work out. Which has made me withdraw and want to break it off and have nothing to do with human contact. I want my ex back, but I know that can't happen. I want to be happy with this boy, but the idea of something in our future dividing us is terrifying me.
I don't know what to do, my past relationship messed me up emotionally so badly that I can't invest in people anymore. I want to so badly, it makes me cry just thinking about ending this one as well but I can't do it.
>>22544187
Don't let America's love for shaming the poor for being poor make you feel bad about food stamps. Food stamps are there to help you for precisely situations like this, when you're almost to self-sufficiency but haven't quite made it yet. It's a hell of a lot more respectable than begging for money from mom and dad.
>>22544222
*internet hug*
i know this feel
i know this feel so hard it hurts and i want to cry for you because it's so infuriating, wanting someone and wanting that happiness but being so afraid of it and normalcy that you'd rather just fuck it all up
>>22544222
Ugh. I'm sure you're now realizing that it was too soon to jump into another relationship. Sometimes it is hard to tell how we'll really feel until we commit to a new relationship, so even tho you're probably feeling guilty, don't beat yourself up too much about it.
Sorry :/
about 4 years ago, I hooked up witha woman a couple years older than me. We dated some but I didn't really like her, but she was hot as shit (out of my league) and a nasty whore in bed.
While with her, she talked about her daughter at college (she had a teen pregnancy) and her mother in another state. Saw pics and they were hot as shit, too.
Got their information and about 6 monthsafter we broke up, I tracked down the mom and "accidently" ran into her. Ended up fucking her within 45 minutes of meeting.
tracked daughter and waited 3 years. ended up taking a part time job at the store across the street from where she worked and made a point of running into her at break and shit.
Knew a lot abut her, so made convo easy. Knew how to push her buttons. Took about 2 months but eventually took her out to a show and we got wasted and I fucked her. We dated a bit and now she wants to move in with me.
Clearly,I don't deserve to be dating a hot, sweet, smart girl 10 years younger than me and I know this can't work out but I want it to so bad.
>>22544276
Like, there is no reason for me to break up with this guy, but I want to. I feel like I'm not putting forth the effort he deserves because I'm not all there to commit. Thank you, you know how it feels and its awful. Its comforting just to get off my chest. /hugs
>>22544279
Way too soon, and extremely guilty because I don't want to hurt the guy I decided to date. I even put off dating him for 2 months to be sure it wasn't a rebound, it just took this long for me to realize it.
>>22544225
I would rather tear of my own arm than ask my family for money. I nearly wanted to chew my foot off when I had to ask a friend (not a room-mate) for help covering this past month's rent. Luckily, I'll be able to pay him back in the 1st of October, but still... I felt like the worst kind of human being even asking.
And I know it's there to be used... but... I'm just so tired of being poor. 10 years of this... I want MORE from my life.
>>22544308
my problem's that i really do want to, like this guy i like i would go mono for (i'm poly), but im also like really afraid
i mean like
i just have this really scared feeling that he wont be any different - he'll just be cold and distant and it will bother me too much even tho that's my ideal partner and i'll eventually want more emotion and he wont give it and then we break up
i dont want people who are emotionally warm
but i cant be with people who are emotionally distant
fuck me
>>22544320
quit working retail.
R8 plz
>>22544320
at least you're making an effort to pay your friend back
my ex-best-friend took $500 from me and never even fucking made an attempt to pay me back. :/
>>22544321
The issue with my ex is he was extremely christian in the later years and I was agnostic, it hurt him I wasn't christian but I can't force a spirituality on myself. I went to church, did everything I could but both of us knew I would never really believe.
And I get that, I'm scared this guy will change too, that something will set us apart that we can't fix and the sacrifices will be for nothing. I'm afraid I'll commit and regret.
Good luck, it's a really big struggle and something I wouldn't wish on anyone. I wish relationships came easy to me (and you) like they did to some people. They just don't.
>>22544334
>I'm afraid I'll commit and regret
the scary accuracy of this statement
it happens in literally every interpersonal relationship i have, not even just romantic
>>22544320
The sad truth in America is a college student can't make it independently. The majority of them are relying on mommy and daddy, and those that aren't are like you, barely scraping by and in need of help from the government in one form or another.
Appreciate at least the fact that you have a bro who's willing to help you like that.
>>22544327
College student pulling 15 credit hours in a college town. I'm not a priority. I'm still in classes and there are 50 dropouts behind me with nothing but free time, so my only choice is to take what I can get. I've tried, he'll I had someone jump at the chance to hire me. I put the application in, and 10 minutes later I got a call for an interview. 8 to 6, Mon to Friday, 12 an hour... Excellent. I'm in school 10 to 8 Mondays and 10 to 430 Tuesday to Thursday. T'ain't happening.
>>22544332
>>22544467
I didn't know whether to hug him or suck his dick in an alley. It wasn't a lot of money, but it was still less than I would've had to pay if I was late on rent.
>>22543296
why do you ask? Tell me yours?
The only thing that made me happy in life was taken from me 8 months ago and now I don't really know what to do with my life so I've been taking school. It has only made me feel more useless and I'm too much of a pussy to just kill myself. I can't even talk to anyone about this because I've ended up surrounding myself with people who always just respond with shitty fucking "suck it up" or "it will get better sometime" bullshit
>>22544976
Have you sought professional help?
>>22544985
Yeah, that's about the only thing left. Currently looking around for someone that will be covered by my good old Canadian Health Care
>>22544989
Hope that it offers some relief. I was in a bad spot when I was around 19- the meds I was prescribed numbed me out but I'm still kicking years later. Can't say I was "cured" or something like that. I don't know. I'm depressed often, but at least a few notches above suicidal.
Look at me being so optimistic!
>>22544997
I hope I don't have to resort to meds and shit. I think right now I just need someone to solidify if what I'm thinking is actually true or not or something like that if that makes sense at all. Tired of just being around people who kind of just make me feel like shit but I also don't want to just have no friends because that would probably be worse. 20 has been a weird fucking age of knowing what I want to do with my life but not having the resources to do it.
Leaving my state for another job, i am also leaving all my family behind
Sad story is i have left them behind a long time ago, one last drink tonight with the family and i honestly broke down to hear the stories about my grandmas passing, i didn't go nor did i ever care about my family, before i leave to start my new life i will go visit the gravesite, say a prayer for once, and maybe shed a few tears for the bad man i have been, i know understand what my parents have gone through looking at me
I think I've fallen out of love, and it's scaring me a little...
>>22545029
Hope guidance and talking things out will set you right. It's a rigorous process to say the least
I am a very sexual person. I am very aware of, familiar with, and understanding of my sexuality, and everything I strive to do at some point in my life. A bucket list, if you will. Some of these things, I am very aware will likely never happen, and that's okay. I understand they're more taboo, harder to find people to do said things with, or simply unreasonable to ever expect. (Zero G sex anyone?)
But, when some of these opportunities come up, I have a hard time resisting the urge to try and make it happen, even if it's slim.
I'm very voyeuristic by nature. You know how some people get annoyed, hearing neighbours have sex? I love it. Every time I've heard a girl getting off through a wall, or trying to hide it while in the same room, it's bliss. So pure, raw. Not dolled up with the thought of someone else being involved in mind. It's intoxicating.
Today, I had the opportunity. I was given the ability to knock something off my "bucket list". This was to hide a small camera, and get a glimpse at my roommate entering the shower. It went without a hitch, and I now have a short video clip of her topless. No face, no malicious intent. I would never blackmail someone, or try to hurt them. What nobody knows won't hurt anyone, right? I'm an adult, having seen this won't change how I act around them. Everything will be the same. But I've seen that which I shouldn't, and it's satisfying.
Part of me feels bad, I know it's wrong. But now that I've done it this once, I never have to do it again, thinking the opportunity may never present itself.
I continue to sabotage every new relationship because I don't want to be the one hurt again. It's been a while now but I still can't really open up to anyone the same again.
>>22538559
having trouble deciding what to do with a girls actions. we're good friends but she's addicted to attention and i'm her backup source. i'm putting up with this shit because its fun licking her parts but she throws me aside whenever a new source comes along.
>>22545143
Every girl I've talked to that are potential partners all have done this. It's so fucking annoying , exhausting and frustrating. They seem perfect then do this and show their true selves. It's really been so long I've dealt with horrible girls who manipulated and cheated on me. It's basically transforming me into an asshole. The more I get hurt the more the loyalty , trust and devotion I have to give get chipped away. I have had so much fucking patience, I'm tired of it.
>>22545143
i'm noticing i'm going that way. every time a girl manipulates me, and i see it and let it happen i feel a little less, or care a little less about giving a shit
>>22545203
You better treat her like the bitch she is. They learn to value you more that way and hold you to a higher regard. Believe me dealt with it for years. Also learn to give her oral better man, if you're good enough she'll get stuck on you.
>>22545143
>>22545208
i'm slowly being convinced there aren't any females that are open and honest.
>>22545215
i've reached a point where it doesn't matter. just getting rid of the last "give a shits".
she also found a new 'guy and she's about to sabotage that too when she cant help but flirt with his friends.
where did i put my popcorn...
I just really want to be in love and I'm worried that won't happen for a while. I just need to hear someone tell me how much they love me and I want to tell them the same
>>22544824
M.P.
>>22545216
There are plenty of girls(and guys, for that matter) that are open and honest, but the problem is they just don't know what the fuck they want, so when they say one thing but do another, it looks like they're being dishonest, but really it's just indecision.
I know this because holy fuckballs am I one.
>>22542467
>mfw saying the most bullshit acne excuse to someone who puts 200USD foundations on prissy diva bitches for a living.
Please, continue believing that.
My face is jacked up because I have an iron deficiency and very low melanin.
Extremely pale, dark under eyes circles, random bruises. Even poking my face will result in bruises.
>>22545440
Ugh, I used to be anemic so I feel your pain. I have too much iron now so it doesn't affect my face much. I can get away with the Born This Way foundation and everything is peachy after that
>>22545448
It's a huge pain, but I'm glad you found something :D
If you're still looking, you can look at pro stores (Mac Pro, MUF, RCMA, CS) and get 0 Foundation. It's just plain white, it's what foundation is before they add pigments.
I add my own pigments but before I was pro, I just mixed 0 Foundation and cheap foundations to find a shade that's perfect.
>>22540393
Did you ever try and figure out WHY she seems to have an issue with intimacy?
>>22543657
>>22543679
Thanks for the fap worthy reading material.
I want a qt gamer girl type gf (yeah I know, never heard that one before) however my religion prohibits that and I'm torn between the two, but I know that I would really like having someone to mess around with on skype and spam cat pictures to before playing something together. Also since I had begun to work out again and take cold showers, coupled with the hot weather, my testosterone has gone through the roof and it's caused me to develop a bad habit with masturbation which I'm really trying to stop but I simply don't have the willpower.
Nothing special I guess.
>>22538559
My best friend is fucking the girl I love. This already happened to me. Like 3 times already.
Only thinking about suicide, my dad doesn't give a fuck to me and i wasted all the free time i had during school by being at computer (i asked him to learn piano, he bought the piano but haven't matriculated me at piano lessons; I got interested in philosophy so i asked him to buy some Nietzsche books (I already had spend lots of time watching videos on Youtube about philosophy) and after begging lots of time he bought 1 book, i asked another after ended the reading, but he don't.)
I can't live this way, I really think about burn his car and mottocycles, killing my mom (so she doesn't need to suffer and blame him for my suicide) and then commit suicide.
Today he was asking me about college, wich one I would like to do... I said none, i don't have dreams anymore (I wanted to be a geneticist, but when i say that he fills my mind with shit (as he allways do)), and then he get mad, the retard doesn't give a fuck to me and even to his mom (she is sick), and get mad when I sayd that i don't want to go to the college. I was really thinking about working with him (he always wanted this), and now he said to my mom that he doesn't want me to work with him.
Some could say that i'm just weak, but i don't want to construct my life alone, I really could do that easily, but things doesn't work to me this way.
Thanks for the attention.
Shit recently fell through with my dom back east, so now I'm compensating in trying to find someone to play with here on the west coast. It's depressing because she was one of the few people I ever gave a fuck about and it all went south so quickly.
>>22545685
I had two roommates in college, one of who ended up dating basically every one of the other's exes. I don't mean like one or two times, I mean like almost every single girl he ever dated. Dude had to be dead on the inside.
>>22545687
You and your family might benefit from talking to a therapist. Your problem seems to be that you're not taking in every possible perspective, seeing things through your parents eyes, and being open and honest in a neutral environment might help with that.
>>22545627
I really like MUF products. They're so amazing pigmented and everything I've ever owned by them I've loved
i am in a relationship of 3 years and have fucked countless woman while i was with her. one of which being my sister. i think i might be addicted to sex. but doesn't bother me if i get what i want.
My ex-boyfriend (also old high school sweetheart) found each other years later after graduation (he went to serve in the Marines) and we fell back in love.
Plot twist? He's married.
>>22545208
>>22545210
>>22545216
it isn't just women
men do this shit to me too and it's exhausting. im to the point where ive just given up on relationships
>>22545256
Fuck it.
C.M
or just D depending on whos asking.
>>22546017
and where are you from?
What's on my mind?
>didnt get paid today
>I don't know why
>got laid off
>employer not in business anymore
>been homeless for 3 weeks
>was going to use paycheck for train ticket
>to leave this city
>to escape homelessness, live with a friend
>but I didn't get paid
>and I dont know why
>and now it's raining
>at Starbucks currently
Who's from Rockford, il here?
TLDR; relationship problems. Just venting.
I've been with my girl for >8 years. The honeymoon phase has been over for a long time.
Sex is a problem, maybe the problem. Physically she's very hot (8-9/10), but she rarely dresses sexy and is uninterested or stressed from work most of the time. She also thinks she's hideous for some psycho reason. None of the reasonable things work : reassurance, complimenting her when she dresses nice, buying her lingerie, etc. To make matters worse we have chaotic working hours and often enough end up working night shifts/weekends at different times and rarely seeing each other. I'd say all in all we have sex on average 1-2x/month. She knows my ideal fantasy partner would be a flirty, even slutty girl, and correctly feels I'm unsatisfied with that aspect of her personality as well with our crappy sex life.
Also, it doesn't help that I'm a reasonably attractive 30-35 y.o. dude with a decently prestigious job and a good income who gets hit on fairly often. Having to turn down flirting/sex when you know you won't be getting it at home gets frustrating.
This isn't some woe is me post, I'm an asshole in may ways. I've flirted and even been a little enamoured with other women during the course of our relationship. I've never cheated but I have lied to her about this and she has found out, which naturally hurt her. I can be extremely cold and make others feel like shit when I'm pissed. Not really a nice guy.
>>22546161
Add in a little spice with some everything nice. Or just start cheating and try calling it an open relationship, that always seems to be the solution most men embrace.
>>22546206
Other than light bondage, which works at times but requires a certain mood, adding a little spice hasn't really helped in the past. At least the things we've tried :
- lingerie, both cheap and expensive, mostly stays in the drawers;
- light bondage works at times though;
- she has a clear pass at going out with / having female FWB (she's bi and asked for it) but has never done so and most likely never will;
- I've toyed with online stuff but it mostly gets her insecure
Open relationships with people of the other gender are a no-no for her - I'm hetero btw. As for cheating, it's a no mostly for 2 reasons, fear and guilt :
- I'm against it for personal reasons and would see myself as a failure if I did so.
- even if I ceded to temptation I'm sure I'd be found out soon enough since I'm an open book for her.
So, to sum things up, because of fear and guilt I choose to be unsatisfied and frustrated. I'm not saying I'm making things easy on myself and I'm certainly not expecting some sort of magical advice or epiphany. Mostly venting :/.
>>22546066
Fontana.
>>22546017
M.P here. You're not my guy after all.
>>22543582
Maybe you are ridiculously good looking?
You will find her. Start with friendship and that should help you ease into it. Weed out all the overly pent up sexual girls and in time the right one will come to you.
>>22546303
Shes N.E, if that helps.
I constantly make up stories that everyone believes.
I have episodes to where I hear voices commenting or telling me to do something. Usually no one is talking to me.
>>22546558
Pathological liar or paranoid schizophrenic?
>>22543582
Because sluts put themselves out there like it's everybody's business.
I'm addicted to sugar. I quit sugar for a few months last year and it made me feel so much better. I'm depressed, but that's just an excuse to eat shit everyday. I quit once, so i can quit again.
Going through withdrawal right now because i spent all my money on jewelry and sex toys. I get paid on Thursday, but I'm going to try so hard not to buy shit food anymore.
Had a talk with some friends/family. Looks like some haters are coming out of the wood work, between calling me on my past mistakes and completely disrespecting me on my future journey most people don't give a shit and don't give people second chances, i've done some fucked up things in the past and don't like to be looked at as i am still that person, but i guess some people never see the new you and continue to see the person you used to be regardless if they understand why you were that person.
I also kind of see, this is a way for them to vent about certain things and it is really just them being nervous and anxious about their own lives, i don't take this seriously but its always interesting to see the way present themselves. I think fear and anxiety bring out the worst in people, when right in front of you they are showing their whole deck and thinking you can't see it
I don't wanna spend too much time on this board but I really want a gf to cuddle with and I cannot muster the courage to talk to girls. It breaks my heart, I don't have good looks either :'(
>>22546101
Sounds like a song lyric. But in all seriousness aren't there any shelters where you live?
I promised i'll not try to kill myself yet again, but i desire it more than ever.
i want my friend (who i've hooked up with before) that i'm with at the moment to dominate me ):
I just told my ex that she can use my discount at work, if I can fuck her in the ass.
I'm laughing so fucking hard, especially since she has the fucking audacity to ask me such a question.
>>22548576
i hope you don't...
>>22548627
Im stronger than that. But there's just little joy in life right now.
>>22546306
no, i dont think so at least. but i get what you are saying. i just wish i could find a girl like that. a girl that doesnt care if i dont initiate sex but wont seek out sexual gratification elsewhere.
>>22547006
:/
>>22545437
exactly this
I lost the last person with whom I regulary had contact with today and will probably kill myself later, I don't even know how I should feel, I can't really think about anything and my head hurts
>>22549157
I reached a point i cant even care to give advice on people who wants to die. I share the same feeling but i will now break to that.
Suit yourself.
I fingered a girl in her pussy and ass today and felt her up in the schools library
She has a boyfriend and I have a girlfriend
Whoops
>>22545995
I kinda have too.. I just wish I could find the same attitude I have in a woman be close friends and see where it goes. Thing is when I do find one online they're paranoid and then basically do the above mentioned. I need a break.
Eh. Why not.
I'm tired of pretending I don't care. I really would like someone to share my life with. I'm not asexual, asocial, or any of that. It's just easier if I pretend to not be interested, as that way no one faults me for not trying at all. I'm lonely, but I don't think any of my 3 friends even know, because I've basically been lying to them this whole time. Ah well, such is life I guess.
>be me
>tired of Handy Rightia
>browsing backpage for an escort
>Look at the descriptions for the women
>90% of them say no black men
>mfw I literally can't even pay a whore to fuck me
l
I am a fool
B
I like boobs.
Been talking to this girl for 6 months, I haven't been able o go see her because my life's a joke. We sext, flirt, talk daily. Last month she's been really distant and acting totally different and my mind is going haywire, she say's she busy blah blah blah. She always seems to respond and in detail mostly, but never tries to catch me after I respond to her message. I don't know what to think, I feel like I may be in love, but I keep having these doubts about her & even myself. Any suggestions?
I had a severe breakdown in my late teens and tldr, I am now in possession of 62000+ photos of every girl I have ever interacted with in school. I'm now 25 and engaged but cannot stop obsessively searching for and saving pictures of them. Nude, non-nude, Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, Instagram, modeling shots, mugshots, screenshots. Basically if I knew you, even if I just knew of your existence and we were in a remotely close proximity to each other during my teen years, I have hundreds of photos of you. I don't know why I do it anymore but I can't stop and can't afford to risk losing my fiance/wife over this. I'm afraid this obsession is ruining my life.
Every time a good thing happens in my life I tell 4chan about it and they shut it down and tell me why it isn't good. No matter the board or what it is.
I haven't been genuinely happy in months because whenever a good thing happens I remember the comments from 4chan and how everything good is a lie
>a guy says I'm attractive
It's because I seem easy
>a guy asks me out
Extensive info proving why I'd just be a side hoe/pump and dump
>I get a good grade
It doesn't matter I'm still ugly + no guy will ever want me
>show a really expensive outfit I love
I look shit in it, I should be embarrassed
>every single thing I find confidence in
4chan shuts it down
I honestly can't keep going
Literally I believe 100% now I'm worth nothing. I hate myself so much why can't you all just be a bit fucking gentle. Why is there nothing good in my life? Why is nothing ever good enough for 4chan
>>22550436
Welcome to 4chan, dude.
It exists basically to piss on everything anymore.
It's what /tv/, /mu/, and /lit/ basically aren't even functional boards anymore, because their universal opinions on anything is that it's shit and you're shit for liking it.
Perspective is stupid. If shit makes you happy, let shit make you happy.
>>22550436
why do you feel the need to post a picture if you arent doing it for attention
>>22550453
she's female brandon. ignore her.
>>22550453
So you know who posted it i guess
>>22550436
Leave the site, move to the other side of the country, start again with new friends. You're a smart and very attractive girl. You just need to learn to not give a fuck about things and people like this. Just focus on yourself and what you want/think without caring about how others try to take you down.
Learning to not care about other people's thoughts and opinions is the best thing I ever did, and I think you can do it too. Just stop coming to 4chan, at the very least for a while.
>>22550463
i dont think you want to be on an anonymous board if you want people to recognize you based off your clearly unhealthy mental state.
>>22550474
you got me all figured out have ya
I've kicked alcohol and cigarettes and have been sober for three months but I'm getting this sort of murderous rage building up inside of me. I can't explain it. It's like every person who acts like an idiot, I want to snap their fucking necks.
I've never been this angry before in my life. I just want to fight everyone.
I want to live in a house with my partner, get married and have kids. In that order, preferably at the ~30 mark.
My current 3-year partner has outright said that he never wants to get married and his current plan for life is to let his parents pay for a deposit on a house for him and then continue living with them for the next 10 years. He's 26.
I'm happy with how things are right now and the thought of ending things is absolutely crushing to me, but I feel like I'm going to NEED to at some point because we just want such different things.
Recently got back with my ex after spending time apart. I thought I'd be better and now I'm pretty sure I'm crowding her... I'm sober now, off the alchy and pot. Turns out I'm an emotional wreck, and deep in my mind I have that voice screaming through she'll find someone else. I wanna be numb... I wanna not care... Mainly I wanna not be in love. Truth is I'm afraid of what's great. Afraid to be happy, and afraid of this girl. She claims she wants me and I'm just probably being stupid. But I know now that even though we agreed to talk about things (whatever it is that makes us mad) like adults. She doesn't bring them up. Is that a signal I should look into? She isn't putting in her effort to make a difference. How can I trust someone like that with my heart, and how can I get distance from her without feeling like I'm missing half of myself?
You're comming to my city next summer, and for all the years I've know you, since the last one all I can think of is being with you.
I know you're still young, and are having horrible issues with your life right now. You're so far away, and all I want to do is help you out.
Next summer you'll be 17 and I'll be 22. Let me take you out for a little trip, let's spend the day together. Tell me you don't want anything with me, but just let me be your (my) first kiss.
>>22550481
no i was just suggesting if you are here for negative attention based on your self description i would say an anonymous board just isnt the right place for you.
>>22538559
I was on a date with a girl with the intention of becoming friends with benefits, not a serious relationship. We took a walk and talked for over 3 hours and it felt good.
She was going away, but she'd be back in like a month. She was nice and attractive enough. I didn't want to just sit on my hands and wait, but I wasn't really interested in pursuing someone else, so figured that I'd start chatting with people elsewhere in the country, and I come across this other girl.
We talk on the phone through skype for like 2 hours immediately after I impressed her with a letter. She's very intensive and inquisitive. We talk about dating, sex, everything and anything.
She has some stuff to take care of and we say goodbye, then we talk again before we're going to bed, and we keep doing so for the following week(this was a sunday), a few hours each night and I'm falling for her hard.
She's going by my city on the friday of that week and I say that I want to meet her, on thursday she says yes and we meet, but we don't really have any chemistry in real life sadly.
I see some flaws in her appearance and start thinking if this is what I want, if I can go through with her for the rest of my life and I guess I lose interest her as a date, but we make conversation.
I was awake all night and the date was kind of rushed, and I ponder that the day after and I realize that maybe I fucked up, sure she's not the prettiest girl I've dated, but I don't think I've met anyone with a more appealing inside.
We don't chat the following days much since I knew she was seeing family before going back to where she lives.
When the date ended I was fine with it, and pretty much thought oh well I tried, but we didn't have any chemistry.
Then I thought I fucked up and I didn't try hard enough, realized I hadn't slept any, we met in a weird way, and made several other excuses to myself.
We've said goodbye now and there's nothing else to do.
>>22550436
You're on 4chan, what do you expect?
We're not here to hold your hand, be your babysitter, clap whenever you do a trick or be your confidence booster.
You are one of the most mentally unstable person on /soc/. Do you not get how fucked up the previous sentence is? /soc/ mental instability capital of the butthole which is 4chan. Even worse than Brandon cause at least he knows he's fucked up.
We're on an anonymous board, we simply do not care enough about you to cater to your insecurities.
Leave 4chan, go to tumblr where everyone cares too much.
If you still have an ounce of respect for yourself, then stop trying to get validation from people who literally do not matter and do not care enough.
>>22550436
You need to find somewhere else to post. Joking apart, there are plenty of friendly subreddits that would accept that kind of content, maybe try /r/casualconversation?
Met my ex, who broke my heart, on the street today. We are not communicating almost for 1,5 years. She smiled and wanted to hug, I walked away with pokerface. I hate her and love simultaneously. Shit. Now I am in terrible mood, just by seeing her. Still can't fall in love in someone else, I just tolerate my current gf because of sex. Fucking obsession. I don't know how to forget her completely.
>>22550436
If that's worth anything to you, you seem absolutely gorgeous, gotta work on your mental state tho.
>>22551007
>People are just honest with you because they're anonymous on here.
Not entirely true, they talk shit on the internet because they think it's funny and they are anonymous. Also boards like /soc/ attract autistic NEETs that have nothing better to do.
Love my girl to bits but don't think I'll ever trust her fully. She's almost perfect but has got a terrible habit of seeking attention elsewhere when she's not getting it for me. Or getting jealous and seeking 'revenge'. I've seen slivers of that behavior that could manifest into something bigger left unchecked.
That could well be the thing that ends us. She's gotten into her head that I'm the one who's going to cheat on her, but I haven't and won't. My needs and desires are met. If anything I see her doing it again and that will be the moment we end things. Never a second chance again ever. It's not just her I'm just paranoid and wary that anyone out there really is capable of being trusted in the long run. Worried lack of trust will prevent me from really commiting emotionally and preemptively screwing things up.
>>22550436
The day you suicide i will pop a new zit on my left ass cheek. Thank you.
I have everything most could want in a relationship. My boyfriend has stuck by me through thick and thin. We've had extremely testing times but made it through.
And yet all I dream about is a guy who doesn't ignore me for LoL half the night.
I just want to be cuddled and told I'm loved..
>>22538559
I want to get with one of the lonely, "odd" girls in my class. I know she's stable, and incredibly intelligent. I am far too good at manipulation and behavioral psych for my own good, meaning that I could make her do whatever I want, provided I can find a crack.
I dont know if anyone has seen the threads on /b/ where anons post kiks and other anons see if they can get nudes. Well I like to try and get nudes for fun for other anons. I started working on one girl, turned out shes really hot, and really nice.
Long story short, she ended up sending nudes, and now she knows her bf was the one who sent me her kik. Obviously she cant tell him she knows because then he will know what she sent. He has asked me a few times if she sent anything and I said no. She begged me not to tell him. Now im just kind of trading nudes with her, and getting her to tell me hot stories about how she gets fucked.
Should I stop? Should I tell him?
No don't stop. That's awesome
Sometimes I want to die so I know what's on the other side and wonder what would happen to my family and friends. I always wonder how I am going to die. I don't think I am suicidal I think about death awful a lot. I think how to do it. I never told anyone yet either I don't know how to yell someone I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me at all. I love my family and my career. Is t normal? I think about it even more when I am alone
>>22552892
The fact that you're asking if you should stop is answer enough. Of course, this is presuming you have any intentions of stopping, but the "right" thing to do is cutting it off here. Nothing good comes of these exchanges.
My alum calls me frantically looking for somebody to teach Statistics I in the evneings
> professor died
> small liberal arts college in eastern PA.
I take the job. I brush up on my Stats rear over the lesson plan - easy. I'm at a local nightclub/bar This girl in a bright blue mini skirt dress starts talking to me. We keep talking. She ditched her friends and I took her home.
> August
She blows me. I don't know how she did it, but somehow she didn't get undressed at all, but I lost my pants, shirt and shoes. I'm 37, look 27, she's way younger. She leaves her number, and I take her to her place - a house near the campus. I'm still in a daze by the best blowie I've ever had, we have each others number and that was that. I text her the next week, ask her to dinner she says - we go somewhere really nice. A place called "Judy's." Standard wine & dine routine. She tells me she goes to the college. Oh shit... Meh, she's a psych major she doesn't need statistics.
We go back to my place - I bang her like no other. She's beautiful. Even her voice has an effect on me.
> September - classes start
First day of class, she strolls in like it was nothing. Gives me a peck on the cheek in front of some of the early arrivals.
Turns out she's 19 not 22. All of her friends know, they say hi to me all the time and call me "Dr. S." I don't have a PhD and my last name doesn't start with an S. By now the entire school knows. I got her to cool it with the kissing on campus, but its too late. I want to make her happy. I love being the reason she smiles and laughs.
I think I'm in love with her.
I got invited to a burlesque show by a hot chick I know and I've recently lost a ton of weight. I'm going to try and make an effort to get laid with once of the dancers or patrons because she's an excellent wingman. This is on my mind in particular because I've never made an effort to get laid, it's usually been one night happenstances or relationship sex
More of a letterish thing than a confession...
Chastity
Holy fucking christ you're hot. I went out to game night tonight just planning on having a decent time and joking and just being a bit of a nerd, but sitting next to you for the entire time had me more than a bit nervous. I was freaking out and trying hard to keep my more... boisterous nature tamped down and it was tough as hell to not just straight up start and flirt with you. I've never met you before and I have to admit to a definite attraction. I hope I have off next Wednesday and that you're there again. I don't know if your taken but for tonight, you'll be occupying my dreams.
Thank you,
Vez
Im addicted to drugs but as long as I keep losing weight and showing up to work on time my family will continue to look the other way.
and I don't really care.
I was heavily abused by my parents as a child. Physically, verbally, emotionally and sexually... No girl has the time for guys with emotional baggage.
All I want is a girl to relate to, understand, empathize with and show compassion. Sadly, these girls don't exist
#1: I missed my chance with you because you're the sort of person I could never stay with and I know it in every bone in my body. And I hate that, because you're so very everything I want. But I'm old enough and have had enough shit shows to know that
#2: we could actually last, or at least I think I can be around you and not annoy and you be around me and not annoy. In more than a friend way. I hope I didn't fuck up yesterday. I hope we're both fuck up enough to read these. Ugh.
Stick a fork in me, I'm done.
>>22538559
Just cursing the night looking for porn to watch.
>>22553756
Normally I just get the nudes, tell the bf and im out.
However, this girl has exquisite feet, and is more than happy to send me snaps of them. They induce instant erections for me. I know I should stop, but I really dont want to.
Test.
>>22539001
i know how you feel
the same thing happened to me and it was right around the time my dad died
we broke up a week after his funeral
i havent really had a dry spell since but the girls ive been with were all one night stands or friends with benefits
the few relationships i have had were doomed and ended abruptly or awkwardly
she stills texts me about random shit
presumably because she knows thinking about her opens up a can of worms for me and i inevitably get depressed and drink myself stupid
i hate her guts so much and it keeps me from getting close to anyone else
i miss having someone know me
but i dont want to have to walk away again
>>22550436
Have you considered fucking off to tumblr?
Used to have a ldr neet cutie Canuck gf who would self harm if I didn't respond to every single text. It eventually got to the where I would stay up late into the morning on normal school/work days to play minecraft with her and whenever a new game came out I was forced to buy it for myself and pay for half of hers and she would do etsy art for her half. Eventually I told her she disappoints me every time she self harmed which made her very upset but stopped her from doing that anymore.
Anyways 3 months later I find out that she slept with some comic book store guy who draws comics for their stores Facebook page. She finally has some confidence in herself so I'm happy about that but on the other hand I really miss her and all her insane sociopathic behavior. It makes me feel like I'm missing something.
I also just recently found out that this guy had to quit his job, doing what he's always wanted, because it didn't pay enough to support him and his new girlfriend. Now rather than going to school I know he works construction he's a janitor and a bagged at the Canadian equivalent to menards.
I'm losing my fucking mind because I spilled my guts to you and I hate the fact that I told you just how shitty I am. The worst thing about it is that the 20 minute conversation we had was probably the least guarded one I've had in a long time. My moronic idealized situation was I'd tell you how awful of a human I am and you would tell me to stop being a shitter.
My boyfriend has known that i cheated on him for months, but hasn't said anything at all about it, idk what i should say to him. Theres no excuse for being an awful person ;(
>>22556694
Seems like if you feel bad about it, you'd tell him.
>>22556784
Well it was just a one off thing that i never intended to happen. I tried to tell him I just didnt know how.
>>22550436
Why in the blue hell would you EVER believe the shit 4chan says? I mean... we're just a step above/below Reddit on the "Shittiness" scale.
I haven't seen him since february. He won't talk to me because he's had a gf for 5 years, but before he left he nervously asked me out. I turned him down and I wish I hadn't. I've always loved him and I know he felt it too. Now I'm moving to the other side of the world in 2 months and I would give anything for just one last hug
I miss talking to her.
She was just a friend on the Internet, but I didn't realise how much I missed her when she stopped talking to me.
If you're out there, Ruby, I'm sorry.
I honestly have had sex with one woman only she was my first we had sex multiple times even after we broke up and i traveled from Cali to Texas to see her and we dated for like 3 months long distance but besides that i have a thing for Long distance relationships because i dont like the women in my area there all snobby and conceited i like a woman for her personality not her looks and even though women say im a very attractive guy i feel like im doing something wrong because i cant seem to keep a steady relationship lasting more than a week with a woman and i dont say crazy things like most women say im an amazing guy and they dont tell me that they just want to break up they just stop talking to me and i dont know why and ive just grown lonely and just want a woman to love me even if its only for my looks
>get dumped by gf of 6 years 8 months ago
>still 1 year left in college
>I'm very attractive but I can't get over that bitch
>Women have been throwing themselves at me for months
>either hardcore friendzone them or ignore them completely
>shitty job, student debts starting to get closer and closer to payment day
I want her out of my life but we both go to the same school, and live nearby, and frankly I love her to death. But I can't forgive her for tossing me away the way she did. Every couple weeks she jumps back in just as I'm starting to feel better. I fuck her brains out, I ask her if we can fix things and then she fights me and repeats the process. I want desperately to get out of my city. I want to desperately just fuck all the bitches who keep coming after me. But I physically can't and it's pissing me off at this point. How do I into man slut for women /soc/? I also still live at home with my sisters and parents so theres no bringing random women home. I just won't do it. and how do I erase her when she keeps doing this to me.
Why do I keep doing all this stupid, dangerous and even in some cases deadly shit to myself? I don't have any desire to self-harm, hell I don't even consider the possibility of being harmed, but everyone around me is obviously concerned when I do this dumb shit.
Ah well, can't stop now
I question if I'm able to feel much of anything anymore.
Even anger seems temporary and fleeting these days.
I don't feel empty or numb, but rather that the spot emotions should take up inside me has been filled in with something else.
I really want to cheat on my husband and be a whore and fuck for money and I know it would be wrong and Id loose him if he ever caught me so why am I considering it?
>>22559405
Because you want the excitement you want that feeling of getting caught it turns you on it makes it exciting to feel like youre hiding a dirty secret
>>22559322
You gotta break the cycle with this girl man, it'll be painful but better for you. Don't worry too much about girls for the time being, you do you, girls can come later.
I'm absolutely in love with a girl for the first time (26yo fag). I feel she's my ideal, possesses everything I want in a girl who I want to spend an eternity with, quality/personality I seek, get along extremely well.
Only problem is that she has a b/f for 1 year and shes faitful as fuck.
Just Fuck my life.
suicide, as per usual
how i'll never have a gf or cuddle a girl or hug a girl
>>22559423
nooo pretty sure I want the money
>>22559446
then why would you ask if you already had your own answer you just want to be a hoe just do it then
Kek, can you go insane from loneliness?
life isn't working
>pls respond
>>22559507
you could and its terrible to feel lonely i feel lonely when i dont have someone to talk to or a woman to make me feel some sort of romantic emotion but you gotta hang on
If I'm the last one left in my little office space, I get totally naked and sit in all 9 of my co-workers chairs.
>>22559535
Are you male or female
>>22559535
Does that seem like something a chick would do?
>>22559507
Maybe.
We're social creatures and most of our development is dependent on social things, right?
>>22559553
yes it does but its rare for a woman to do and yeah as a male that seems like something wed do
I think I might be pregnant, someone tranq me so that I can sleep in order to get up and buy a test tomorrow morning.
I'm scared. I hate this. I'm an idiot. I'm terrible at taking my pills. I want to die.
>>22559589
why not just take the test tonight and hey if you dont want to use a condom then you gotta deal with the pills
>>22559605
Because it's late and I work tomorrow.
I didn't intend to have sex with this guy. It was stupid. I wasn't accurate with my pills since I wasn't sleeping with anyone.
Now it's been a while and I have the fear
>>22559636
well the pills or you local abortion clinic will handle that easily so you shouldn't be upset about it simple solutions :)
>>22559655
It's been three months.
>>22559673
Hey, there's still time yet. Get tested, quit yer bitching and do what you have to. *grin*
>>22559322
Never ever see her again.
Delete her phone number.
Block or delete all social media.
She's sooo bad for you. Like Herion.
Don't become a man whore. You're conscience with thank you in the future.
I was in the same boat - same story.
I went the man whore route, it doesn't help. Self esteem got worse, not better.
>>22560740
Keep busy with work, clubs, family. Avoid free time when you just sit and miss her.
>>22559589
How old are you?
I confess that I'm so disappointed with past relationships, that I don't even try for them anymore. Also that I'm bi. But I got a newish car, so I got that goin' for me, which is nice.
>>22539001
GF of 4 years cheated and broke up with me when I was 19.
Havent had a GF since.
I'm 24 now.
>>22560784
Damn bro, I feel ya.
GF of 5 years. Been single since March 2012
>>22559430
>>22560740
it'll be rough but im getting closer and closer to this decision daily
My BF asked me the other day if we should take a photo and post a "what do" thread on /b/. I said no at the time but part of me regrets it, I totally want to post in BGTs all the time I'm just too much of a pussy and he might be pissed if he find out I posted in them.
Then again he fucked his ex in August and I'm still dealing with the mental bullshit that's caused me because I think he's lied about a lot of shit he's done... so I deserve one free screw up, right?
