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fucked up childhood/vent/feel/and raped story thread
>>>/r9k/27610045
My copypasta desu
>dad is a violent schizophrenic paedophile from a rough city
>my mum was also violent
>parents moved from Manchester to Taunton in 1981 because racist
>had my sister in '89 and me in '92
>used to beat me, lock me in cupboards and wash mouth out with soap when I was as young as 3
>had to watch and sometimes get caught inbetween parents physical fighting
>mum and dad divorced in '95
>mum took me and sister to Manchester women and childrens home
>met a guy called Frank
>he used to beat me and my sister, swung us by our ears until they bled
>dad was allowed to meet us but took us to Exeter
>sexually abused me, physically abused me, mentally abused me and verbally abused me
>used to go crazy a lot, heavy drinker. extremely violent
>dropped sister off at cop station in June of '97
>I'm with this crazy bastard until late '98
>go into care
>am withdrawn
>I molested kids when I was a kid (even living with my dad)
>my foster dad cheated on my foster mum so there were a lot of fights there
>foster dad has punched me on occasion
>I tried to fuck foster sister
>killed her hamsters and a dog
>pyromaniac
>thought about mass murder a lot
>thief
>vandal
>I attempted burglary once
>zoophillia
I won't demonise my foster carers (parents) since for the most part they are lovely people and only human.
To say more about me, I've been diagnosed with mixed personality disorder which seems very vague... Everyday is a struggle fighting between thoughts of killing normies and doing what is right.
It's torturous, angering and stressful
(tfw no local qt to relate to and end the normies with)
>>23587799
>dad always yelled at us
>told every day how ugly I am
>told I'll never get married
>told I'm retarded
>threatened to rip my piercings out of my ears non-stop
>told I was pathetic
>beat me often
>belittled me in front of my friends
>always told I'd never get into college (I was a straight A student)
That sums it up nicely
>>23587799
Is that gingy?
>>23588030
hahahah shit you are right
I want his origin story
Will i ever lose my virginity to a cave woman?
>>23588214
Do you get off to this Leafy? Its ok if you do just be honest with me. Post your cute picture again
#sad story's vent harder
>>23587799
>dad was a drunk
>already had 3 boys
>wanted more
>i'm only girl
>dad beat me everyday
>no matter what it was brushing teeth or showering
>dad would sit ontop of me brushing my teeth while i cried
>or wash my mouth with soap if i did anything
>punch me
>pull me around the house holding my hair
i was young
now i'm 18
i dunno what to say i've blocked out 80% of it
i dont rememeber a lot just remember people and doctos telling me afterwards what happend
now 18
craving being tortured and abused, like daddy daughter hentai i'm fucked up andi fucking hate it
why can't i just be a fucking normie
>reeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
>>23588462
Sounds like you are headed for a series of horrible abusive relationships
No idea if your fetish will go away if you can manage and deal with your past but good luck
>>23588462
Sounds good
I will control all aspects of your life and spank you with a belt every single day
>>23588782
eh I see my flaws, and i seem to push away all good relationships i find cause i feel like I don't deserve it, i dont wanna throw some good pleb normie into my life.
so eh no relationships i think unless its with some other pleb like me.
>>23588462
I feel your pain anon, not an easy situation. On the flipside it's ok to feel how you feel. If that's what you crave I can help you enjoy it. Say hello. I promise it will work out better for you.
Good luck.
>>23588806
well thinks anon c:
>>23588815
<3 no problem. Happy to turn your fear into a strength and a weapon that benefits you. You can embrace who you are.
>>23588798
Are you getting therapy and/or pills?
Seeing your own flaws can be easy, changing your own behavior is hard. I still do the same mistakes over and over again even when I see them coming from a mile away.
Not everyone who would indulge in your fetish has to be an abusive dick but it seems like your type attracts scumbags like my computer monitor attracts moths at night
>>23588815
I'll be your daddy.
We'd have a lot of painful fun.
>drug addicted dad
>would go on cocaine benders for days/weeks
>would come home and come down and get paranoid
>was convinced bugs were everywhere. Douse us with bleach
>mom and dad would violently fight.
>shit got smashed constantly. Would have to hide in fear.
>mom was just not emotionally there. She cared, but didn't really
>would hide away in books, video games, and studying.
>mom finally left my dad when I was 14
>went through high school and college with top marks because I was a shut in nerd
>now I'm a relatively successful man child. Spending my free time and all expendable income on video games and toys and shit.
>patch up relationship with dad after he gets clean.
>am perverted sociopath now though. I manipulate and control women for pleasure.
I think I'm just generally fucked up. I'm pretty sure even with a perfect childhood I'd be fucked up mentally. But I think the childhood stress exacerbated everything.
>>23588815
we're all plebs. I can help you trade your shame for power and you can enjoy yourself instead of feeling guilty for who you are.
>>23588896
You're honestly pretty ugly. I'm surprised women want you.
>>23588983
<3<3<3
>>23587799
My story:
>Grew up in a small town
>Be 10 years old
>Going to a school which my parents are completely personally familiar with the entire staff
>One night there's a science fair and both my parents had to work
>My mom arranges for my teacher who she knew well to bring me home afterwards
>Once the fair is done, he has me clean the gym
>We finish stacking chairs in the storage room, he locks it and rapes me
>I didn't do much to resist because he had partially hypnotized me by molesting me after school the few months before
>My mind shut off and he raped me twice, which made me orgasm which is what really fucked me in the head
I fear I'm a bit of a gay paedo now... It infected me like a zombie bite.
>>23588243
Here you go. :)
>>23589137
QT 3.14
>>23587799
Welp
>Oakland, California
>be 4-5yo
>Mother would placed me in this church school close to home
>whenever school was close to ending, teenager would take me to the upstairs part of church and hump me
>This happened frequently, other times I would play with the other kids
>After a while, started getting perverted, asking her to sit on my face
>Father didn't help in this case, mentoring me on the beauty of older women, the different types and would take me out to check out girls at Lake Merritt
>Go throughout life, carrying this newfound knowledge
>experiment with other kids, shit that I now think about, that could tear my current image down
>Only 'relationship' I had was a long distance one, where I made a promise I was never going to be able to keep. Now she draws Futafurry.
Too straight-edged and proper to fuck around now. Fucking fuck
>>23588880
Go to hell you fucking creep
>be 6
>dad is addicted to watching porn and puts a toll on my mother because she is a stacey and thinks shes not good enough
>one day he leaves a porn tape in my tv/vcr combo
>pop it in thinking it is a Disney movie or something along those lines
>loud moaning
>mom runs upstairs and sees me watching the fat lady in a cop suit getting pounded by two skinny guys
>takes away my tv and locks me in my room with a bucket
>says "I will kill you if you leave this room you freak"
>stay in room for 2 days with no food and shit and piss in a bucket
>"oh anon I wasn't really going to kill you"
>stupid shit like this goes on until i got big enough to beat the shit out of my dad
i have more stories of how my dad and mom used to beat me if anyone wants to hear them.
REPOST FROM /r9k/ my story
>>23589411
if you want to vent anon,you can
>>23587799
>be baby
>alcoholic dad gets jealous of any attention I get from mom
>dad was a bully all his life
>plays mind games with me from the start
>Beats my mom and goes on rages in front of me and throws me aside like trash if I'm close.
>be a little older and he starts punching me if I piss him off too bad
>turn into identified patient and get punishments like bars of soap grated in my mouth til my gums bleed before bed because I just can't stop crying and screaming.
>neighbors sometimes call the police when they think someone is being murdered with my screaming
>Sometimes wake up to dad slamming doors and throwing things in the morning. My mom cries, screams, and shouts back as he breaks things she cares about.
>She always threatens to leave him but won't for personal reasons.
>get cancer at 3
>have to keep the bad secrets from doctors while getting many confusing experiences of love from my parents. Their anxiety only gets worse from it too. Have death fixations and guilt/emotional debt from it still.
>subconsciously go along with the attention and be torn inside. Learn to keep quiet about everything.
>Mom manipulates me too. She's very controlling and subversive.
>Turns my dad on me when he gets home for not behaving.
> Still bullies me and tells me misery loves company when I'm sad and won't forgive him.
>Mom uses me as a shield to control him.
>She breaks down whenever they fight and tells 4 year old me she wants to kill herself regularly.
>One morning my dad strangles my mom to the floor with the telephone cord in front of me and my bro as she tries to call for 911. I was frozen screaming in horror. He didn't let her up til she promised not to call.
>>23590405
> Cancer free, but Identified patient symptoms intensifies.
>Regularly break my head through my door, walls, and windows. Pound my head on the floor harder each time til they come to let me out of my room only to get thrown back in for not giving in to their unfair controlling demands.
>be locked in my room all day while my mom lays on the couch watching soaps or babysitting other kids
>hang myself from window blinds and jump off the window. Back of head hits the window sill and get knocked out once.
>plead with my parents over and over through my doorway to let me out day and night.
>dad gets pissed at me and breaks my toys. One time he breaks my favorite toy and hero, optimus prime.
>Dad is still an abusive alcoholic. He carries me sleeping to bed one night while his friend gets in a fight with him and so he drops me on the tiles like a bag of trash to show how pissed he was.
>One time I watch in horror as my dad picks our dog up and throws her out the back door from shoulder height onto the concrete with her back when she raged him once.
>My tantrums are so bad they have to send me to a lot of psychologists, therapists, and my pediatrician before I get to school age.
>I can't say anything. I was trained by my dad to be loyal to him with outsiders after slipping up before. My parents go along with this just like when I had cancer.
>The doctors can't figure out what is wrong with me. I eventually bottle everything up and turn from a super nova to a black hole of negative emotion.
>Still have nice memories throughout childhood from time to time. Parents are just very fucked up emotionally.
>Be completely broken for anything social
>Get ditched by best friends.
>Get picked on by all kinds of bullies.
>Get laughed at by girls.
>Turn into a loner
>Do some shitty things to people and live with the regret instead of apologizing
>Hide all my problems from my parents
>Develop extreme avoidant behavior to cope with all of the anxiety
>>23587864
>mixed personality disorder
cool meme disorder, you're full of shit.
>>23590405
>>23590410
Forgot this part
>Old neighbor boy next door is adult now. He now has over 15 burglary and robbery charges.
>He was 6 years older than me and came from a fucked up, divorced family.
>Always came over and tricked my parents that he was behaving
>He would unlock my windows from the inside when he was over because he knew they locked me in
>He would come to my window at night and talk to me through the window some times
>Sometimes he would break in through the window and tell me he was in trouble with his mom
>He would steal my toys
>When my mom confronts him, he tells her I let him borrow them
>He is mean to me a lot
>I just think he's cool and want someone not like my dad
>He moves away for along time with his dad
>Comes back and he's a lot bigger.
>Takes me under my blankets and shows me his hardon
>Tells me to touch it
> Calls me gay and picks on me from then on til he moves out
> Have extreme fear of sleeping alone. Can't tell the truth so tell my parents aliens are coming after me. They always laugh and think it's cute.
>Develop irrational fear of aliens for the rest of my life
>>23590420
why do you say that anon?
>>23588878
nah neither, just working keeping a healthy normie mask on all day, no one knows who I am unless some people online, I don't act out my shit and i just avoid close relationships at all costs.
>>23589269
adda girl
Fucked and trained by my stepfather from 10 until I was 17, I am messed up now, addicted to sex. Trust issues, just broken. He did a lot of fucked up things to me, some of them felt so good. ugh.
>>23592308
how old are you now?
>>23592308
damn that fucked up
>>23587799
>>23587799
I was circumcised the day I was born. Nothing is worse than this. Knowing that since my Jewish ancestors genetically de-selected for phenotypes which prevent and resist infections of thin skin, and growing up in a dusty, dirty environment, I feel like my genetic inferiority has fated my life. Even today my tear ducts are easily infected. The worst part is that my superior Ashkenazi Jew intellect isn't enough to make a new foreskin and prevent and cure infections.
>>23594208
i s2g if i was a guy that was cut i'd say this
>>23594275
Fuck u2 bra
I don't have anyone to talk to and I just need to get this out I guess. Basically I feel like I have years of pent up anger and sadness that I want to just cry out. No matter what I try, I can't cry. I don't remember the last time I did. I deal with my emotions by binge eating which is slowly taking a toll on my health. I'm on meds and seeing a therapist but I feel like nothing helps. Any advice?
>>23594275
i dont get it
>>23587799
What's the story behind that pic?
>>23588462
Where the fuck are you? Also are you good looking?
>>23592347
I'm 29 now
>>23596587
so free for 12 years
>>23588209
same
>>23596185
bumping for story too, if anybody knows it
>>23596572
I don't really wanna disclose my info, i've made a good deal of friends from /soc/ don't want them to know :/
>I lived in a nice suburban area when I as young
>Father is not very present because he "work alot".
>But nonetheless a great father when he's here
>Step mother beat me, sometimes using a martinet.
>She's always angry, dad is cheating on her, she cook very well tho
>I'm 11, father suicide,stepmother has no right on me so I go to my grand-ma
>Grand-mother is diagnosed with cancer 1 week after. She died 6 month later
>At this point I can go nowhere, I don't know my real mother and I just want to kill the step one
>End in a only-boys shelter for troublemakers and unwanted childrens.
>I'm the youngest one there so I'm the errand boy, people beat me on a daily basis.
>They make me and two other guys fight to bet on us every weekend. Kinda like it
>School is for sleeping because I'm fighting my roommate the night
>I'm 16 now people respect me more because I fight back, I smoke, steal in warehouses.
>I travel a lot, I have seen the USA, Canada, Philippines, mostly all Europe, Israel, Tunisia and some eastern one.
>I'm beginning to take drugs, ecstasy, mdma, shrooms, drink a beer or a glass of red wine when I wake up.
>I'm 21, I have to leave the shelter, I don't have any money or qualifications.
>1 or 2 year before, I met my real mother, she send me to the philippines for a while to get my life on track
>Stopped drugs, drinking, stealing
>Come back home (France) live in the streets for 1 year.
>Now I have a job, a roof over my head and a big fucking smile most of the time.
Pic related me in germany ~17 years old if I remember well
>>23594610
I'm sympathizing with you goober
>>23598280
pretty amazing/10
would read autobiography
>>23598280
omg this is so..... just omg, did you go seek help?
>>23598300
Thanks.
That's why I don't regret any of the shit that happened to me, I would never be the person I am today without it and I have a shitload of great stories in my bag.
>>23598319
I never asked for help I have too much pride, even when I was in the streets I never begged for money.
>>23598342
you are BY FAR the most interesting person I came across
>>23598348
Thank you but I'm still all kind of fucked up.
>>23598356
ya know, everyone is fucked up in its own way. And you have survived a pretty DAMN interesting thing in your life, and that makes you worth continue your fucked up living even more.
I guess I'll share one
Part 1 - The Pledge
>dad leaves mom when i'm 4
>no biggie; dad is a tool
>turns out mom was a depressive alcoholic
>doesnt handle her failing marriage well
>spend about a week living off oreos and apple juice while mom spends 24 hours a day catatonic on the couch
>get worried because mom is the best, don't want her to fall asleep forever or some shit
>try to get her to walk outside a bit (im fucking 4, i dont know what my logic is)
>get her to door to backyard
>she mumbles some shit, stumbles, slams door
>my pinky is near the door, gets hit pretty good but miraculously turned out just fine. shock even made it painless
>4 y/o brain still manages to act responsibly, call ambulance since finger + door = bad
>cops and amber lamps arrive, see mom, shit gets real
>mom gets carted off to go detox. i get brought to get an x-ray while the police call my dad
>turns out he was in Puerto Rico slamming puss even tho the divorce wasnt finalized
>also turns out theyd been banging for AGES. dad is cool like that
>i have to go chill at the precinct for awhile, no biggie
>dad picks me up from the cops, we head to his apartment in brooklyn
>over the course of the next year, divorce and custody battles ensue
>i switch back and forth as my dad loses every single custody battle since he was a cunt, and my mom can never hang on for too long since she's only an amazing parent as long as she's sober
>this goes on for a few years without much ever changing except my school and my address, but at this point friends and family alike are used to seeing me come and go
And now time for something completely different
>>23598380
Definitely
For you a little story:
>Be in Philippines
>Mom leaves me in a a room in Manila and tell me she's coming back in two weeks to get me.
>Room has no doors, no windows
>there's just this one guy who speak an english shittier than mine who's supposed to check sometimes if I'm alive
>cockroaches big like half my hand fall on me when I try to sleep
>Spiders everywhere, a hole in the floor for toilets
>Living on Ferrero rocher and san miguel
>So far so good but I'm bored so I just wander a bit in the city
>one night as I'm lost in the city, I see 4 or 5 child who must have been, I don't know maybe 10 or 12 years old with big tatoos on their back
>looking my way, despite wearing just a short, t-shirt and no shoes they see me as the tourist I was
>I see a knife, two knife, three
>I began running with all I had, they were chasing me for maybe 30 min when I had my lifesaving idea.
>Found a road, get in a cab, problem solved
>most scared I have ever been in my life
>>23598457
cont.
Part 2 - The Turn
>about 10 or 11 years old at this point
>life is pretty good. ive got some steady friends, which have been hard to find, and mom seems to finally be getting the swing of things
>she's got a new job lined up and hasnt been drunk in front of me in a year or so
>aaaaaaaaaaand that ends
>mom and dad are in lawsuits over child support and divorce battles, because of course they are, and the next topic is our family home
>dad doesnt live there anymore, could give a shit. promises to help her sell the place, but he aint payin
side note: their divorce is currently in Year 6. it would continue
>stress is fucking with my mom. all she wants is for me too have a stable home life (sweet, but obviously unaccomplished goal)
>we lose the house, have to move across town
>mom can't take it, 6 day binge
>eventually call dad, end up at his place for a month or so
>hadnt seen him for awhile because he moved upstate to farm (yes farm). he's pretty stoked about the quality time
>he loses custody. again
>immediately furious, rants incessantly about her jew lawyer (he's dominican, so antisemitism seemed a bit out of left field)
>tells if I "ever pull this bullshit again, call the police. Don't call me, just call the police like last time. They'll contact me when she's in jail"
>k
>he has to drop me off at her job, tells me to go inside to see if she's there. he'll help me with my bags when i come back out
>figured he's salty and doesnt wanna see her, so why not.
>go in, see her, hug hello, come back out
>he's fuckin outie
>took all my stuff and serenely skedaddled
>at first i barely mind because im finally home, but feel kinda butthurt
>dont call him all summer even tho my mom says I shouldnt ignore him
>fuck em, he's a dick
>summer goes by very happily
>autumn comes, mom is wasted
>cant call dad. fuck.
>wont call cops. last time i did that, mom had to schedule appointments to see me, and could only happen in public places
Here we go, one last time
>9 years old, male
>have step brother who just recently found porn DVD under parents bed (don't know why he was looking down there)
>shows me the video
>I think nothing of it because I don't even know whats going on
>part of DVD that I saw was two girls giving a bj to a guy
>step brother wakes me up one morning and says he wants to do that stuff with me
>he starts giving me oral sex
>it felt good and I never heard anything like this happening to anybody else before so once again think nothing of it
>he later tries to do anal with me (thankfully he couldn't get in)
>months later tell counselor that I am seeing and turns out that this was not good
>apparently step mom knew that he found the DVD and just asked if he had any questions
>everyone finds out what he was doing to me
>relationship with my father takes a turn for the worse and he ends up disowning me
>been fucked up and socially awkward my whole life since then
Sorry if the story wasn't that good, this is my first time doing a green text. Thank you all.
>>23598527
Part 3.0 - The Prestige v1
>call up my mom's bff and sponsor
>go with her for a few days, come back, mom is still wasted
>we all have a group convo/intervention while she's still a little drunk. good idea, right?
>mention that i really dont wanna live with dad since he's a cock
>she responds, "Anon, please don't go, you're all I have. If you ever leave me, I'll die. I'll die, please please don't leave me"
>obviously say i wont leave, but she's gotta get sober
>lasts maybe a month or two. she's just two depressed at this point
>a week or two go by until i burn the shit out of my arm trying to use the oven for the first time in my life
>sponsor lady is in long island and not picking up. dad said cops only. im fucked.
>call the cops. they roll my mom out incoherent in a wheelchair while they try to put in in a cop car without letting me look
>i dont think she even had pants on
>dad picks me up later, says i did the right thing. custody will stick this time
>we drive upstate, where i will now officially live
>new rule: i am not allowed to speak to my mother. at all. no visits, no phone calls, no emails (im 11 whats an email). nothing
>he assumed she wouldnt let me talk to him after he ditched me.
>months go by and im miserable. just wanna talk to her once. dad doesnt really talk with me, just at me. makes me go to school 45 minutes away, so i cant hang out with friends
>easter comes, and i smuggle a phone from the living room
>her voicemail message was maybe 2 whole minutes long (substantial for an answering machine)
>entire message was directed at me, saying how to contact her, what her hours were at work, how much she loved me, saying when she'd be free so i can visit
>hang up. try not to cry. cry a lot.
>her lawyer finds out about this, forces dad to let me talk to her
>she's fucking broken. her voice is weak. she's barely excited to talk to me, although clearly she was overjoyed at the concept. she has now power left in her mind or body
>>23598603
Part 3.5 - The Prestige cont.
>after the easter phone call, it's back to no contact. they could only force my dad to do so much
>more months go by, eventually it's summer
>turns out dad was planning to let me visit her on the 4th of July (7th is her birthday)
>changed his mind, never let me know about either decision anyway
>4th of July 2006 we get the call that she died
>well, that she was found dead. it'd been about 5 days
>im devastated. dad is silent
>his gf is consoling me as he goes off somewhere
>after about an hour, he tells me it's time to drive down to the city. there are some documents, as well as some jewelry he needs from the apartment
>so we drive 4 hours down to new york and the superintendent lets us in the apartment
>they hadnt cleaned her up yet
>she died from a combo of alcohol and anti depressants while in the bathroom and rotted there for 5 days
>crew had gotten there exactly 4 hours before and wasnt done yet. dad insisted on getting in
>here i am searching through cabinets and shit while the apartment reeks of my mother and best friend's corpse
>i mention our cat, dad and i try to catch it
>it hates my dad. dad makes me leave it behind in the death condo. never see it again
>we drive upstate with his papers and jewelry
>i go back to school for a few months before he moves us across the country annually until i graduate high school
>dad occasionally talks about how he still loves mom. dont really know how to talk about it
fin
>started getting psychologically abused when I was 7
>even though i'm close with older bro, he still picked on me
>not as bad as older sister or younger bro
>younger bro weighed as much as me, but all fat
>older sister was a skinny cunt
>they'd lock me out of the house
>chase me around the house
>got to the point they'd have me literally squished between the door and a corner in my room
>only way I could get them to stop was to tell them “i'm nothing, i'm nobody, i'm no one, i'll always be no one”
Background on that: For a 7 year old, I had big dreams to be a huge somebody famous or innovative
>still working on that dream almost 20 years later
>if I didn't get to my room in time, the bathroom with the lock, or the kitchen were my safest bets
>bathroom for isolation, and it had a window I could potentially pop out to run away
>never did though, probably should've
>kitchen had the knives
>i'd threaten to hurt them, or cut myself in front of them
>back down after the knives
>would tell my dad after he got home
>”what do you want me to do about it, anon?”
>would cry because he was right
>this would happen until I was 9
>got revenge by eating her chocolate and various snacks she kept in our room
>found out a couple months ago it was to keep her hypoglycemia in check
>got revenge on older bro by stealing his spare change
>got revenge on younger bro by using his toothbrush to clean the toilet edges
I feel a little like a dick on my revenge tactics.
But anytime shit pops up about having siblings, I think of them, and it's my only deterrent from having more than my one kid right now.
A more specific instance:
>be 9 year old me
>have 3 siblings, 2 of which are older
>really close to my older brother, who is 4 years older than me
>do a lot of shit together
>one day, he brings a friend home
>both of them are in 8th grade
>they both get into my dad's old stash of mags
>”oh wow, that's awesome”
>”hey anon, show me yours”
>i make him promise he'll be my friend, love me, etc
>friendless 9 year old, I just wanted to be cared for
>go to my room, he follows
>pull down pants and undies, and he does the same
>he's rock hard
>sticks it between my thighs
>”you like it?”
>just shrugs
>this stuff continues for the rest of the school year
>at one point, younger brother and I performed a literal dick measuring contest between older bro and friend
>both were average, but we kept telling them they were bigger for keks
>friend says he wants to receive a BJ
>nope.gif
>”well, anon, if you won't, your younger brother will”
>waves a fucking piece of candy around
>he seriously tried to bribe us with a lemon jolly rancher
>of all the shit flavors...
>forces my younger bro's mouth around him
>older bro finally says enough is a enough
>fast forward to when older bro joins the air force
>gets drunk
>he's only 20
>tells me i'm the best little sister in the world
>immediately remember that day with his friend
>mfw I never told any of the adults, but they know some shit's gone down
>>23587799
>>677871474
>Be me 5 years old guy
>got a sitter, he's about 18
>home alone almost everyday with him look up to him like a bro and all that since I had no siblings
>one day we're home alone
>he says he wants me to play a game
>rp as a chef and he wants to be a customer
>play
>after serving him, he gets real angry starts holding me down and taking off my clothes
>puts my hand on his crotch and makes me feel his cock
>pulls it out and forces my mouth open and makes me suck his big cock
>doesn't let go until he cums inside my mouth
>almost puke
>he fondles with my genitals and then leaves me to clean myself up after scaring me into keeping my mouth shut
>used me as his cum slave for 4 years and he never got caught
>he got fired for something unrelated
>repressed memories completely until I had flashbacks when I was 18
>cursed with some weird fetish to relive it all, feel like I'm only good enough to be a slave
>fml
>>23588462
Better to indulge in it as a fetish and keep it separated from normal life. I would help dominate and punish you.
Why the fuck would you tell the internet this shit?
I know I will never tell my story, and I don't get when other people do.
>>23600808
Good to get it off your chest with no fear of come back. I just like to read and think life could be worse.
I love how being raped is the last thing on the list. As if that's the most trivial of all things listed.
Sage goes in all fields.
>>23601110
what?
