Who /depressed/ here? No motivation to go out anymore just spending all my days inside
>>23522262
I was watching Bojack Horseman the other day and got to Downer Ending. I wasn't expecting a whacky drug trip to get so real and terrifying and upsetting. I broke down sobbing for minutes.
Life is just a constant slog for me. It's like moving through quicksand when everyone else is moving normally. It's shit anon. Other people are going through this shit too.
*waves hands*
Yay depressed as fuck
25/m, put a gun in my mouth sometimes. Too pussey to pull trigger though. Start college in fall so I got that going for me
Been depressed the last 5 months, and its been hard. Recovering from drug addiction, while being alone in poverty has made me feel very down. I thought I met friend online but I now believe he's only talking to me for sexual purposes, I hope we cann find happiness
18/FTM, depression is just one aspect of the horrifying cocktail that makes up my mental illnesses
Oh boo hoo we're all so unique.
Fuckin be a man and OD
>>23522262
Same, I've lost all interest. My inspiration is gone. Becoming a hermit. I used to be so goddamn social. I just want to feel that passion again. Life used to really excite me.
30/m/337. Been depressed my whole life. I know that feeling all too well. Lately can't get out of bed. Still taking my SSRIs though.
>>23523452
24/f/864 I guess
>>23523550
Not only SC but down to have a nice chat free of dick pics.
:)
>>23522262
definitely lost my social skills and need help. Obvious embarrassing to ask for help directly though, except here, it works.
I thought it was like that for everyone here... Is anyone here happy?
hey got a pic?
>>23523550
got a pic babe?
I'm 19. diagnosed BPD along with severe anxiety and depression. my doctor wants me to go into rehab, but I just can't. fuck.
doesn't help that the only two people who make me feel better seem to have moved on from me. I hate that I get so dependent so quickly. the only other thing I have is alcohol to not feel so shitty
I feel like this should be a skype group so we can feel less lonely?
>>23523572
I am anon.
Depressed as fuck during college and Uni. Been pretty elated since I finished my first freelance job.
Getting some running shit and gonna get my arse inshape for the summer.
29/mtf here with more or less manageable depression and mild anxiety that likes to crop up when i fuck up with sleep, or fuck up in general
it feels like walking a fine line though, and it's hard to not get pulled under
>>23524433
So, I'm almost 26 and I've never seen someone to talk about me (possibly?) being trans. What kind of questions did they ask you when you first saw a specialist/whatever?
Not sure if I'm depressed or what.
I was put on Zoloft when I was young for depression and mood swings.
Due to being bullied in every way imaginable from 1st-12th grade, by adults as well as my peers and raped in Boy Scouts.
Without my medicine I get angry very quickly and generally hate people. I am not a very nice person. I also get sad easily. When I take my medicine, it helps me ignore my anger and sadness but they're still there. Every day I just do my best to ignore those feelings and act happy.
I always act happy and make lots of jokes and don't take anything too seriously because when I act like this, I don't remember my anger and depression. I can bottle my emotion up forever. I just want to be a good person and make people happy so nobody every has to feel the way I feel.
I don't want to be angry and hateful, but I am. I try every day not to embrace my anger. I'm a hateful, angry person inside but I try to not be. I hate who I've become inside.
Also I'm fully aware that I sound like Linkin Park lyrics.
Best advice from 2 years of searching for the best life, Find a goal, want the goal, work towards the goal. Obvious at first some people struggle on the last two. The second if you're stuck on it you mut just do work toward a goal. Has to be long term, at least a month to complete. The last on takes discipline, courage, and ways of motivation which you will have to seek out yourself. For every goal you work on, even if you didn't like it, is still knowledge and experience to withhold on your deathbed. I'm saying this because depression is a biological your supposed to be experiencing when you feel hopeless or underappreciated of your own value when in reality all humans have the same value, the only thing that differs is the set ooals they've achieved and are working on. Hope this he on your first goal out of depression.
>>23522262
>Who /depressed/ here?
The only reason I don't off myself is because I can't stand the thought of what that would do to my mom. She doesn't deserve that.
She's older and after she's gone...I don't think I'll stick around.
>>23525013
Think the hardest part is working up to actually start on the goal. It's easy to just sit there and go "Well I could lose weight or learn a language or learn an instrument" and just never actually fucking start on it.
>>23523567
Sure, kik or Skype? Throwaway account?
Got chronic pain and been such a mess I've been house bound for almost 6 months now. GF left me after about 3 months of it as it just wasn't fair on her any more.
Trying to get my shit together and struggling to deal with my health as I do it. Finding decent quality company is a nightmare, it's all people wanting to show you their dick or being incredibly shallow.
>>23525840
Why would she leave you in your time of need. I hope she wasn't a long term gf. Christ.
>>23522262
Hell yeah! 19, in community college working towards a graphic design associates that not even someone as incompetent as me can obtain, have no idea what I'm going to do for a living once I get out of college (by either dropping out soon or finishing next year), haven't dated in nearly 3 years, unhealthily addicted to Arma 3 among other self-destructive habits. Staying alive until the election's over, I want to see my God-emperor rise before I go.
>>23525869
We were together almost a year.
She left because it wasn't working out. It was a mutual decision where we weren't really having a relationship any more and it just wasn't fair on either of us to be in that position. More stress on both of us for no reward.
Also, learn about women. They don't stick with men in need. Humans did not evolve to have a lot of empathy for men, if they did then we wouldn't be willing to sacrifice them in war and dangerous jobs. The things a society needs to survive.
>>23522262
You're attractive love your nails too. Wanna be your friend
>>23525192
I have an electric guitar. The first thirty days I found myself playing everyday, getting better at throwing together some punk chords without it sounding shit and strumming the wrong notes,
now I can't even find the motivation to pick it up and play just once a month.
It's like I just don't have motivation for anything. I just sit on 4chan and watching YouTube videos all day, I can't even find the motivation to watch a film or something to be honest senpai.
>>23526102
I'm in that boat friend, yesterday was the first day I've left the house in 3 weeks and that was to get my meds refilled and see my counselor. Apathy is a bitch.
>>23522262
Yup currently on 60mg Cymbalta, 5mg Ambien & 20mg Oxazepam
18/M btw
Soon gonna try 15mg Flubromazolam, washed down with wodka and 10mg furanyl fentanyl. Hope i will make it this time
Tfw when you're a permavirgin bcuz you have ED :(
>>23525934
I am a woman. I guess, to be fair, u don't know much about women. They make me uncomfortable. But I can't undersrand why you wouldn't be in a relationship with someone that is your best friend first. Second, I don't don't understand how you could see someone you care about in need and not want to do everything you can for them.
>>23527931
I*... Not u.
I'm sorry you're going through that alone.
I hope you find yourself in a better place soon. All the way around.
All of you, Dont give up. You're better than that.
When you realise that no one but yourself will be there for you but yourself is when you stop feeling lonely and start feeling solitary
my depression has gotten so much worse and so fast... and i don't know why. i literally have no reason. i hate myself.
I'm 24 years old. I haven't had friends since middle school. I was alone throughout high school and through college even though I had the typical college experience (living in a dorm freshman year, lived in apartment final 3 years) because of the isolation I had through high school and got mediocre grades. I live at home. I have a shit job because I have no motivation to improve because I'm going to be a massive loser no matter what I do and stay a kissless permavirgin who is ugly and emaciated
I don't even know if what I have is depression. Is it? I think it's just misery and apathy
>>23528279
Feeling useless? Like everything you do is pointless and you don't bother trying because you know it will be disappointing no matter how hard you try.
Yeah, I've been feeling the same lately. I quit my shitty rotating shift job that was sucking out my soul so that might help...
been depressed since I was 13, been to a bunch of shrinks, been on meds, drugs, booze, spent loads of time in bed or on the couch, unable to leave the house or deal with anything
now 45, married, have a good job, have a kid, own a house
it can get better
biggest things that helped for me were therapy with a non-asshole therapist (took many tries to find one, I prefer women as it turns out), getting in shape, and quitting alcohol (that was the hardest but really lifted the black cloud)
Got a mentally unstable woman pregnant because I'm stupid. Feeling constantly ashamed and depressed until I finish high school and grab my guitar and hit the highways and rails until I'm ready to come back and rescue my fucking daughter. (Unless the paternity test results are miraculous, in which case life will be much easier to handle)
>>23525176
I'm in the exact same boat, except more for my dad's sake. My Ma is a pile of anxiety and worry either way, I feel like it would make my pops super depressed though. Pretty much waiting till they die then I'm done.
>>23528581
Been on and off depressed since about the same age, more off than on. About 5 years ago someone opened up their car door in front of me while I was riding my bike, left me with chronic pain that seriously effects my sleep, and have pretty much been fully on since. Have always been an active person, and have gotten even more in shape since the accident, but more so out of a need for other types of pain to mask the constant pain I feel in my shoulder. I've always smoked a good amount of herb, but since then I've been smoking like a fucking chimney though because it helps with the pain and sleeping, but leaves me feeling super cloudy (never really had that problem with the amount i was smoking before). I know cutting down on smoking and talking to someone about a lot of my problems would help, but I have so much trouble with the idea of laying all of personal issues down on someone who only "cares" because they're getting paid. Every time i try to talk to my own mother about this stuff, she cuts me off and tells me I should probably see a therapist, but if she doesn't even care enough to listen to my problems, why would someone I'm paying to listen to me actually care? Any advice for someone who is incredibly apprehensive about the idea of talking to a therapist even though I know it might be helpful?
