Feels/hugboxing/therapy/NICEPOSTING thread
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we talk about feels and other related phenomena, its a lil dead atm but that doesnt mean we cant spark it!
Anyone ever watch a "teen" porn video and it makes you depressed
I don't know why I hate myself but I sure wish I had friends
>>23504873
ill be your friend man
whats up
>>23504892
I'm going to bed anyway but I hope this is up tomorrow. What is discord I see it around a lot
I feel like people secretly don't want to hang out with me or think I am weird. I talk with lots of people in my University and we have a great time hanging around after class. But no one seems to invite me out on weekends or in general, but they always invite the other people in my classes. It's not like I don't invite them either, most of the time they just don't show up. Feeling shitty, I just wanted to get this off my chest.
>>23504930
Might not necessarily mean anything. This happened to a great friend of mine. Everyone sort of had a pre-established chain of who invites who in place when he started hanging out with us, and everyone assumed someone else had invited him.
feel free to get in here if you want any help
http://everyonegetinhere.com/
This isn't a bad idea for a thread and I'll unload in a little bit. Bump for now.
I wish I wasn't too shy to actually speak in the server. Fuck.
I don't even know I go through these weird phases where I'm either super fucking passionate and start seriously improving things, and then it all falls apart and I just mope around jacking off and fantasizing about suicide.
Except those "manic" times don't even account for anything. It's not like I'm actually out socializing or anything I haven't left the house other than work in almost 2 years. But I'll be doing a lot less internet moping and beating off and instead reading, watching movies, writing, playing games, alone-hobbies yeah but in the dark times literally all I do sit in front of the internet. So I'll getting things done even if "getting things done" is just running on a treadmill and consuming media it helps confidence slightly and I hate myself a little less. But that only lasts a month and I regain the 20-30 pounds I lost, my weight has yo-yo'd for a year and I know that's dangerous.
I have nothing to do with people and nothing to talk about. How do you hold a conversation when your day is either exercise or internet arguments? I'm George Costanza and I can talk about how I have nothing to talk about, I'm so boring of course I can't make friends. Even if a coworker is giving me a ride home I just sit silently in the passenger seat because the only thing we have in common is work.
I get inspired thinking I'm going to go balls-out. Start lifting and get a new wardrobe and just keep making an ass of myself at bars until I figure out how to have one night stands. "You have to get rejected to learn what works and build confidence". But even so would that help? Become what society says a man should be and swim in pussy that doesn't give a shit about me, I won't be any less lonely or any more accepted - people might think I'm cool yeah but they'd like the status I achieved, not me the person.
So what's the fucking point. I'm 24 and getting old and my hair's receding and I want all that American dream crap with a wife and kids.
Not that I care about my hair I wear it buzzed anyway, the point is that I feel like I've lost a whole decade here. Definitely feel >>23504795 on the "missed out on teen love" meme. I could go cocoon mode and become superman like I said, be banging a bunch of barely legals but then what, I'll be seen as a creep and adult women who want a family wouldn't want to touch me.
I should probably not be so obsessed with sex. Have a whole folder full of girls from the virgin threads and I'm refreshing fsa waiting on ddlg shit. That whole teen love complex again.
Here I am old and lonely with crows feet and my elbow pop sometimes because I beat off too much. Like I'm already destroyed. Feeling so old is why I want to die all the time. A decade wasted suffering why the hell would it improve now? It's just going to get worse.
"You don't need to change and put on a mask to get people to like you, you just have to like yourself" But why would I like myself if no one else does? That's the catch-22. I'm told I'm hated, stupid, ugly, creepy, the only people who like me are shitbags. And I don't want to hang out with the guys from the construction company that take heroine or meth and have 6 kids. "lower your expectations" I can't make myself enjoy the company of retards. "lower your standards" the dick isn't getting up for a fucking whale no matter how much I tell it to.
I want better people to like me so I won't be alone but I don't know how. I literally don't even know what "confidence" means. Fake it yeah I make it a habit to throw my shoulders back and keep my head high but what difference does it make. I know I'm a pussy and an idiot and as soon as I don't know what to do the latent beta will show itself and the jig is up, the faking exposed.
I know no one's reading this and I don't care I'm just venting. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to like myself, I have no REASON to like myself because I have nothing and I'm a bad person. Creepy boring garbage that only garbage likes. I had to tell a fat girl who was jumping my bones to fuck off because I guess staying a virgin is better.
I'm bad at everything. I can't beat video games, I give up halfway because I'm too frustrated, I can't even do that. I've started numerous jobs and then overheard people saying "he's so burnt out he probably used to smoke meth" because I'm just so fucking stupid and mess everything up so bad that they think I must've destroyed my brain with hard drugs, no, I'm just fucking stupid ok.
So why would I even like myself? No reason to, my own family won't speak to me, I can't meet anyone's most basic expectations. All I can do is make a pot of coffee and spend the afternoon reading and doing laundry and mark it down as an accomplishment because "I didn't go online today so I didn't want to kill myself". But that doesn't even count. The one time in the past year I went to a bar, the female bar tender asked what I wanted and I blushed and started stuttering. I can't even handle a sterile business transaction with a woman.
I fantasize a lot about saying fuck all that and living homeless for like a year or something. Either pitch a tent in the woods and learn how to fish or go full Clint Eastwood and drift around the southwest in the desert like a cowboy. But that wouldn't help, that would just be further running away and further isolation, withdrawing further from the society you can't function in, when I need to be learning HOW to be in society.
>when I need to be learning HOW to be in society.
But why, for what? For friends to consume media with, even though I want friends I don't think it would make a difference. For my white picket fence except that doesn't exist anymore and I'll just get raped in divorce court. As if any girl worth marrying would want anything to do with me anyway.
I just feel like there's no point. Just running in circles chasing goals that will let me down. I wish I could just get a terminal illness because the only reason I haven't actually killed myself is I'm scared of going to hell. I hate every moment of my life but that would be worse so. Fuck everything man.
>quit being a faggot and go fix your life
how
>>23504795
Porn vids in general make me depressed
>>23509541
If any of us knew the remedy for this neet shit then we would not be on here. I'm trying to just save enough and move out of my aunts basement and go just go live on my own in a big city somewhere just to force myself out of my NEET habits like a detox or cold turkey.
My guess is our living situations are just bad and we wanna accomplish shit with our lives but we are slaves to the many little habits that trap us in this NEET existence.
All I know is my plan better work or else ima either end up with a drug addiction or just slowly killing myself. Fucking hell being human is hard.
>>23509541
well, what are you doing to make yourself better so you can actually like yourself? I mean, if things are shit right now you should try doing something different- get a new job, maybe move to a new place, start exercising, whatever ... coz if you feel desperate enough to off yourself you should deff try some things that might not be in your comfort zone right now, just for science, you know?
Oh and all this social anxiety shit- I promise you that with practice it gets easier, you just have to breathe <3
>>23504743
:c the discord link broke... I'm super ENFP and I need someone to love ;_____; I just wanna tell someone I love them and make them feel all special and nice...
>>23509670
I love you anon-kun
>>23509722
c: I love you too! <3 snuggles and huggles your way.
>>23504743
Here is the new link cause the other one expired guise.
>>23509747
FUCK forgot the actual link
https://discord.gg/0tNE5JMs8ez8bLUa
>>23504743
>expired
Aww :(
>>23510514
Try the link right above your post fagit.
