Let's get a suicidal thread.
What makes you want to kill yourself?
Have you made any attempts before? How many? How close have you gotten?
How do you plan on doing it?
What's stopping you?
self deprecation is a meme
>>23347664
I'll start of course.
> What makes you suicidal?
Generic reasons, life is pain and I'm sick of it. I can't find the exit to my current situation, and even if I did, things won't get better.
> Have you made any attempts?
Yes
> How many?
At least 3, depends on what counts as an attempt
> How close have you gotten?
I've never been hospitalized but I think I did some brain damage from an attempt a few years ago.
> How do you plan on doing it?
I've found out that pills only have a 6% success rate, so I'm working up the balls to jump off my balcony.
> What's stopping you?
I'm not sure anymore. Maybe because I'm scared of the jump. I know I still have a tiny bit of hope. Hopefully, I'll be able to do it within the next couple weeks.
>>23347673
I don't care, I like the company
>>23347664
>what makes you want to kill yourself?
Nothing much really. There just doesn't seem to be a lot left too experience.
>have you made any attempts before?
yeah.
how many?
a couple.
how close have you gotten?
closer each time but I fried my brain last time. I don't want to live anymore, just don't have the motivation to kill myself.
How do you plan on doing it?
accidently
What's stopping you?
simply not motivated enough. nothing really seems to bother me anymore.
A human stopped me last time. we still kinda talk. Also, with my mind getting rewired from the last event, nothing seems to bother me.
>>23347664
>What makes you want to kill yourself?
The world has gone to shit and there's nothing any of us can do about it.
>Have you made any attempts before? How many? How close have you gotten?
I attempted to drown myself a couple of times when I was just a stupid kid looking or attention, but I was stopped.
>How do you plan on doing it?
I dunno, killing-spree suicide seems like a good way. Might be able to make a tiny difference that way. The issue is weapons, really, living in a country without a second amendment.
>What's stopping you?
I've always been too much of a coward to actually go through with something so drastic.
One day i'll screw up the courage.
>>23347820
What was the attempt that fried your brain. Mine was pill, lots and lots of pills. I haven't felt the same since.
>>23347895
I tried drowning myself once too. It was a bad, bad idea. I just wound up naked in the park at 3am.
>Have you made any attempts before?
Yeah a few.
>How close have you gotten?
Nothing that's left real permanent damage
How do you plan on doing it?
High speed accident.
What's stopping you?
Good beer and rum.
>>23347936
High speed accident? Like a car crash?
>>23347950
Yeah
Always figured if i hit a concrete pylon hard enough it would be over before i knew it.
fukn just do it.
>>23347968
That's pretty risky, I think the success rate is low for auto related. Carbon monoxide poisoning however, is pretty good. And not painful supposedly.
>>23347985
That's the plan :3
>>23347986
Yeah,
No-one would suspect a thing though.
They would just think i died being a fuckwit in a car.
>>23347994
That's true. But at the same time, once you're gone, you're gone. Doesn't really matter what people think
>>23348020
I'd just hate for them to think they could of helped.
Like they are great people i'm just a miserable sack of shit.
Who know's what's in store down the road for us anyways.
>>23348034
I totally get you. I think my biggest reason for not doing it yet is my mom. I don't want her to have to go through that.
But at the same time. I think she would understand eventually.
I'm dting hard someone want to talk I'm scared. I can't stop shaking Skype is wind.bear
>>23348065
What's dting anon?
If you're scared and have done something, call crisis. Don't kill yourself unless your sure mate.
>>23347664
What makes you want to kill yourself?
Done my time here on earth. Tired of suffering over pieces of paper.
Have you made any attempts before?
Once yes
How many?
Once
How close have you gotten?
Pulled the trigger. Click.
How do you plan on doing it?
Pic related
What's stopping you?
Nothing, just deciding a quiet location.
>>23348056
Ahhh dude i'm glad someone is on the same wave length.
>>23348065
Relax, Just think about everything.
Don't make any rash decisions.
>>23348117
Lucky you. I wish I had access to some firearms. 95% success rate.
>>23348119
This is by far the weirdest thing to bond over, but yeah. We're definitely on the same page.
>>23348172
Thanks man. Coming to america im glad that anyone can just buy firearms. Its my only saving grace
>What makes you want to kill yourself?
It started when my first serious girlfriend killed herself right before our 3 year anniversary. Ever since then, I haven't cared about anyone or anything (more so scared to). I've slowly turned depression into being apathetic until I actually just didn't care anymore.
>Have you made any attempts before? How many? How close have you gotten?
I've made one attempt and have gotten really close.
How do you plan on doing it?
This time, I really want to shoot myself.
What's stopping you?
desu, the only thing stopping me is that I don't have money for a gun.
Sometimes when I'm staring down from a balcony of my penthouse, I get these urges to jump down. I start thinking about how it would feel to just jump down, like I was playing some kind of video game.
>>23347664
always find threads like these fucking pathetic, waaah waaah look at me im a special snowflake. why do you guys have this need to share with everyone that you're suicidal? lol
its pathetic.
>>23347664
Getting sub 5 rates from qt's on this fucking board
All of the suicidal people are on >>>/r9k/. They don't socialise so are not found here.
>>23347664
You dont attempt suicide, If you wanna die, you will do it.
"Attempts" or w/e are just attention grabbers, Anyone who really wants to suicide has.
>>23348244
>>23348307
>>23348322
We've heard this 100x before, maybe we just want to talk about it.
>>23348200
I really wish I was able to get a gun, it would make things a lot easier.
>>23348304
To be fair anon, rate threads are pretty screwy/untrustworthy... I still feel your pain however
Well, that's sad. I never try nothing and I think I never will. but sometimes I feel very sad, and life doesn't make any sense to me.
>>23347664
I used to be suicidal but from years of meditation it subsided
>What makes you want to kill yourself?
Horrible personality, shitty genetics, ugly, fat, men are repulsed by me.
>Have you made any attempts before? How many? How close have you gotten?
Yep, 4. I tried to OD but apparently threw up the pills in my mini coma.
>How do you plan on doing it?
Probably hanging or jumping into a river.
>What's stopping you?
The soul crushing disappointment of waking up in a hospital.
>>23347664
>What makes you want to kill yourself?
Depression, anxiety, lack of self worth, no future, no friends, no interest in anything. The usual.
>Have you made any attempts before? How many? How close have you gotten?
Closest I've come to it was when I acquired a bunch of pills once but ended up not taking them.
>How do you plan on doing it?
Overdosing on something seems like the best way to go.
>What's stopping you?
I lack the balls. Guilt of knowing it would absolutely break my parents.
Just a PSA and the honest truth: I love every single one of you. You're all my brothers and sisters in love. Stick around for a while - it gets better.
>>23347664
>What makes you want to kill yourself?
No friends, no gf, cucked brutally by the only girl thats ever wanted me
>Have you made any attempts before? How many? How close have you gotten?
1. I didn't take enough pills. Also had another time when I was planning on blowing my head off with a Mosin Nagant but I didnt wanna fuck up my roommate.
>How do you plan on doing it?
jumping (15th floor apartment) or gunshot
>What's stopping you?
I don't want my parents to feel like shit
I don't want my ex to win
>What makes you want to kill yourself?
Since im a little kid i have always been alone. I never had friends. I thought that i had but then i realized i never had one. I was always alone in the school. I saw how everyone talk and invite each other for lunch. Look each other to play or just talk about anything. Today im 25 and still have no friends. I have met people who always dissappear from my life. I noticed how people are happy when they have freinds and text each other. Nobody text me at all or text me or call me to invite me to do something. Middle school, high school, college and even at work, i have always been alone. No matter how hard i try tio change or be someone, i always end up alone. Nobody respect me. My wife cheated on me. Still Married but just for the money. I have to pretend that i love her which she still think i love her but i dont. I just wanna be someone else, with integrity, someone everybody respect.
>Have you made any attempts before?
Yes
>How many?
1
>How close have you gotten?
Not that even close
>How do you plan on doing it?
Just put the gun in my head and pull the fucking trigger
>What's stopping you?
My daughter and hope of a big change of personality in my life
>>23347664
>What makes you want to kill yourself?
i am tired of being alone forever. no girl will ever like me
>Have you made any attempts before? How many? How close have you gotten?
i've never made an attempt. i've been in my car with the engine started and a hose going from the exhaust through a window but never got close enough to call it an attempt per se.
>How do you plan on doing it?
i guess see above, unless i can get my hands on some nitrogen
>What's stopping you?
arbitrary set points. like i was going to kill myself on new years if no girl ever talked to me, but then one did. now it's my b-day if i'm still hugless and kissless by then. then if i achieve one of those, i'll say my 10,000th day if i'm still a virgin. if i lose my virginity by then, i'll just kill myself when my parents die unless by some miracle i have my own family.
>>23347664
>What makes you want to kill yourself?
My wife left me for another man. I can't think of trying to be with anyone else because the vows I made to her were too important to me.
>Have you made any attempts before? How many? How close have you gotten?
I have planned it twice and almost went through with it once. Both before the later explained reasoning for stopping me.
>How do you plan on doing it?
Just slitting my throat. Not sure how practical it might be to attempt it myself, but I'm sure that I try hard enough it will work.
>What's stopping you?
Up until this point it was taking care of my mother after we found out my bastard of a father was cheating on her for years. She needed my help financially and I don't want to leave her with my own debts.
>>23351811
Liar
>>23348172
Are you legit retarded? All these success rate percentages...
It ain't hard to end your life. You clearly don't want to or, as I've already suggested, you're legit retarded
>>23350950
>horrible personality
>fat
These are things you can change. If you were to get reasonably skinny some men will be attracted to you, unless you're like literally deformed.
>>23347664
>What makes you want to kill yourself?
That's a long list, anon. Mostly, everyone I love leaves me. I'm not ugly, fat, stupid, or socially worthless as far as a partner is concerned. Work a decent job, have completed half of my education, have skills and hobbies. But I have absolutely awful depression and anxiety. Depression makes me shut down and withdraw when shit gets bad, and it always goes bad. My mom is pretty unwell, and I'm her sole caretaker. Just got the news our house is being sold. Have my own chronic health issues, deal with pain daily. Mostly, I'm just alone. I've always been the lonely misfit, but it's just so... crushing. Can't take it anymore.
>Have you made any attempts before?
One made, one planned. Someone I met last summer changed my mind for what I had planned. Of course, I fucked it all up with my depression and anxiety. Now it's damaged beyond repair, and leaving me wishing I'd never met them because of the weight of the guilt. I've never wanted to hurt anyone or cause pain, and that's all I seem to do.
>How many? How close have you gotten?
As I said, just the one. Tried to overdose on pills so my mom would think it was an accident. She doesn't know about my depression, and I don't want to hurt her.
>How do you plan on doing it?
I had something particularly clever and clean planned, but that was the one I changed my mind on. It would have definitely looked accidental (think crime related), and my mom could have collected my life insurance policy. Now I think I might just try alcohol poisoning.
>What's stopping you?
I'm studying medicine, so I know the risks, which are high. It could go badly wrong. However my body type puts me at an advantage, and I have little tolerance. Mainly, my mom. If I die, they'll be no one to care for her. We have no other family, and my dad walked out years ago. She would also blame herself, and that would probably kill her. Don't want that.
>>23347664
Finally going through with it next week. I've alienated my friends and family so they won't be hurt, taken out life insurance and left it all to the my grandmother ,who will eventually give it to the rest of my family, and a few friends.
It'll look like a tragic accident, I can finally die and all the people I love won't be scarred by it. I hope this goes well. Wish me luck.
>What makes you want to kill yourself?
Life is insignificant and unbearable. Death isn't a relief, it's just a full stop. I want to cease to exist.
>Have you made any attempts before? How many? How close have you gotten?
Yes. I was technically dead for a bit over a minute. I was rescued, though. I hold it against that person to this day. They think they did a good deed, but I hate their guts for it.
>How do you plan on doing it?
Laying down on a traintrack.
>What's stopping you?
Nothing. I'm doing it tonight.
I do, guys. Some days are better than others but my depression consistently runs deep. I have thoughts but right now I don't have the courage to actually do it. And I hope that I don't finally break. RIP Dave Mirra
>>23351811
Fuck off. Your good samaritan happy wishes are worthless and doing more harm than good. You're trivialising other people's feelings you do not understand.
