vent/secret/feels thread
>>23207953
I enjoy obsessively watching rekt vids and looking at porn, but not in a sexual way. I don't really think I'm a psychopath because I care too much about the few things I love (most are dogs and cats,) but I have to admit that my fascination with death sometimes makes me wonder if I'm normal. I'm not trying to be an edgelord or anything. I've never told anyone about all this irl. Just here among my sicko brethren.
>>23208052
Instead of porn I meant to say gore. I look at porn too, but that actually IS in a sexual way.
>>23208052
>>23208056
Most people are fascinated by morbid things but are just ashamed to admit for fear of being labeled a psychopath, freak etc. pretty normal
I was physically, verbally, emotionally and sexually abused by my parents as well as my mums bf... And went into a dysfunctional foster home.
I'd love a sense of direction and a gf. But I know that won't happen.
Anyway... I'm writing my manibesto right now
Been fucking my coworker and I can't get him off my mind. I'm always over analyzing every move he makes as well.. He's ten years older than me and it's just so fun to make him blush when we're at work and he giggles about what we do behind closed doors..
i have severe depression and think about killing myself every day and i'm empty inside and i have no friends and no job and nowhere to get drugs to take the edge off
I tried to commit suicide yesterday.
It didn't work. I woke up.
So that sucked.
>>23208242
Robotussin works in a pinch. Drink 300mg and tell me how you feel in 30 minutes.
>>23208052
Humans are naturally morbidly curious.
You've been socialized into believing that death is something vile and wrong to view...but in reality...it's really not.
>>23208155
That sounds pretty shitty, pal.
I'll smoke you a few kippers if you come back tomorrow.
>>23208249
got no money or i would
>>23208247
what'd you try?
what went wrong?
>>23208260
I heard that you if you took heroine and slept on your back you'd choke to death without feeling it.
I turned over in my sleep.
>>23208268
dang well at least you didn't permanently damage yourself and have to live with it
>>23208272
Whoop.
>>23208274
there's always round 2
>>23208155
>Anyway... I'm writing my manibesto right now
If you get my guns taken away from me, I'll follow you into hell and kick your ass.
>>23208276
Na, I'll probably roll over again and I only got it as a one time thing. The person I got it from said he'd wouldn't give me anymore because it's addictive.
>>23208279
what a fag
well you got bigger balls than me
>>23208281
I heard you can use helium, but I can't get hold of any due to living with people.
I just got married and for the first time ever I don't want to die
>>23208284
what are they gonna check your mail and steal it or something
helium is the classic robot way to die, i'd pick that if i had to choose
I feel so fucking insecure about myself. I have no self esteem. I'm lonely as fuck yet I don't seem to be making any steps to fix that or anything. God fucking damn. Im not fat, I'm not ugly, I'm college educated, articulate, have a nice car, earn a decent income and yet I'm empty.
Additionally, all my dreams recently involve me being rejected/laughed at/made fun of/etc. by females I approach.
Mum died 4 months ago from cancer. No friends for 5 years. So lonely. I don't even have 4chan or silly YouTube videos or Skype anymore since I overdosed and they put me in this supported housing place with no WiFi, surrounded by chavs. Took LSD two days ago and just cried.
>>23208278
I'm British. If anything I'll prove you don't need guns for a good score
>>23208330
most people are absolute terrible to be around, most people can't find balance between numbing silence and harping about stupid things all the time
to be honest i think most people have poor social skills but somehow they get along with people because of their looks or statues
My girlfriend and i have been looking to get another girl for a threesome for awhile but even though we're both attractive its not going anywhere and i have no idea what we're doing wrong
>Self pity : the thread
Waaah waaah look at me I'm sad, pay attention to me.
I'm a special little snowflake I have it so bad.
Jesus fuck, you guys are pathetic.
I faked an accent for a year and now I met a guy I love so much I can't tell him the truth so I won't get my happy ever after. Did so because suddenly people liked me and before that everyone always hated me.
>>23208553
No one care's about your opinion.
No one cares about you.
No one cares.
I can't sleep anymore because I keep having dreams about love and sex. I'm starved for it, I have all this energy to give and nobody wants it.
>>23207953
>>/r9k/
>>23208783
Cared enough to respond.
>Used filthy frank gif
Proved my point.
I pretend I'm retarded too people I don't care to know
i actually don't have any interest in any other board, i only started going on /soc/ everyone once in a while because a guy i have a crush on mentioned he goes on here looking for attention, and hoping that one day he'll be dumb enough to post nudes somewhere. he hasn't yet, but as it turns out a DIFFERENT guy i have a crush on posts his nudes here quite often.
i don't know if it's just wishful thinking, but it really seems like he's unhappy with his wife and job and just wants to show off his naked body for guys
>>23208120
>Most people are fascinated by morbid things
No. The whole definition of morbid requires that the material be viewed as wrong by the majority.
I don't want to get rid of my dog. ): I don't want to. I work full time and I feel like its my fault, like because I work full time I'm never going to be able to make her happy, because of my shortcomings she's having behavioral problems and without her I'm too anxious to function. It's a vicious cycle. I need her, I need money to have her, I need a job to make money, all the time I'm gone is killing her, getting rid of her would kill me. I'm a piece of shit. I'm the fucking worst.
>>23209606
Leave the tv or radio on for him
>>23208758
holy fuck that's pathetic kill yourself
I'm urinating blood. Is this normal
im dying to see my wife suck another guys cock afraid to tell her thou she might freak out
>>23209682
for you maybe
I've been overweight since around nine years old and now that I actually feel like living and have been losing the weight, I'm becoming more and more depressed at the fact my body is never going to look even somewhat okay.
All I care about is finding someone I enjoy being with and spending my life with them, but I feel like I'm not going to be able to do that. People always suggest surgery, but it's not like everyone has thirty to fifty thousand dollars lying around.
>>23209680
If you knew you'd understand...what it's like to be beaten and hated, bullied your whole life.
>>23209693
Am having suspicion that my boyfriend secretly wants this. Curious why
>>23209736
its just hot
>>23209728
yes i am sure people literally beat you all the time
>>23209728
Waah waaaah
Stfu youre not a special case you fuck, dont blame it on that crap, youre just pathetic
Jesus
>You dont understand.., i.got bullied. BULLIED ANON NO ONE GETS IT
god ppl like you piss me off using it like an.excuse
>>23209752
You're just as bad fgt. Kicking people when they're down
>tfw no gf
>>23209728
HAHAHAHA OH MY GOD, FOR FAKING AN ACCENT??? oooh my god make like tea and dump yourself into the boston harbor
>>23209764
she's acting like she's the only one in the world who's ever gotten bullied ever. fuck that shit
>if only you knew my pain mom!!!!
>>23209769
They imply they faked the accent because they were being bullied for their real one... I think
>>23209775
She never acted like the only person who has ever been bullied. Nothing is stopping you from posting your experiences.
>>23209672
Yeah we leave the radio on, we've tried leaving her in and out of the crate with and without her cat siblings... Shes rebellious I guess, yesterday she ate wallpaper and she ate a couple tiles from the kitchen floor too...
>>23209807
Damn... What kind of dog is she?
>>23209840
She's a pitbull heeler mix. /: never saw a vicious side of her, like people warned me, shes just kinda evil in general
>>23209851
How often is she walked?
>>23209752
Yes. They do.
Don't know why I thought posting on soc about it would help. You are right I will kill myself.
I can't stop missing my boyfriend
Whenever he's not here I feel so empty inside, I fear I've become too attatched but he is the same to me so it can't be that big of a deal for the relationship
I'm also starting to feel bad again. My head is a mess and I don't think it will ever be fixed.
On the bright side I keep my friends happy.
>>23209958
Are you me?
I got with a girl, we said we loved each other, and then we went off and on for many months, never in a full relationship and both became far too attached. She always needed someone and I was always there for her, whenever she wasnt depressed over her last relationship she came back to me and attempted a relationship but she was never ready and it never worked. The final time we attempted it was going fine, until her ex decided to go back to her and she left me for the final time and Ive been terrible since and for the first time in my life ive actually had realistic thoughts about suicide and drug use
this week, we caught up for the first time in one or two months, and she told me that every so often when she sees me she'll get mixed emotions for me and still have feelings and misses the memories we shared, despite having and loving her boyfriend who has already broken her heart mutiple times
which only pushes me further with my thoughts
>>23209916
What accent do you have and what accent did you put on?
>>23210159
American and I put on a Russian accent
I have my final exams in a few months, really been slacking this last month in terms of study etc. Gotta score good in the exams to get into a good college course, only problem is I have no idea what I want to do after school.
>>23210197
did anyone ever call you out?
>>23210218
No I'm really good at it and I grew up in Russia.
My friends constantly flake on me. I have flaked once or twice, but I was ill. Every time we try to get together, even for lunch, they never reply back and I'm left all alone. I'll be at the restaurant and they'll flake.
They're my best friends, and I love them to death, but they never seem to want to hang out with me? I get that people are busy, but they'll complain online about being bored or lonely. I'll offer to bring them pizza and stuff, and I will never hear back.
They're always there for me, just never physically.
>>23210218
Tfw no one will ever know or understand the full extent of my crazy.
>>23210224
you should move to a new city and stop faking it so you dont have to live a lie
>>23210236
But no one ever likes me without it
>>23210234
I know that feel
>>23210242
deal with it or continue living a lie
>>23210248
>>23210248
Do you think I could admit it to the guy?
>>23210254
if he loves you yes
depends on his personality and level of empathy as well
feels?
dear girl
all my life ive been looking for a really cool gf. i couldnt believe my luck on how much stuff we had in common. not to mention how sexy you are. its a shame what happened, i thought we would be very good together but hey what do i know. i think what happened was a little overdramatic and we werent being open enough.
one of the best parts was that i was more or less able to be unrestrained with you even though we never really opened up sexually with each other. it was great just to be able to say any stupid shit to you and you didnt care.
i just miss you alot and would like to work it out with you. at any point if you want to talk or try again. im willing to and dont hold any hard feelings about it.
