Let's see if this works out
Complain about stuff in your life
Vent your problems
Mine:
>girl asked me for my number and gave it to her
Break my phone that day so I don't know if she ever texted me
>fat lame
>broke
>live with parents still
>almost 20 and never learned to drive
>>22952696
Living with your parents isn't anything to be ashamed of unless you're like almost 30.
>>22952701
True but I could be doing better
>be 19
>resat a year of school in the hopes of going to uni
>literally anyone I have known no longer speaks to me
>parents split up, I'm looking after my disabled mother
>only gf to connect with me emotionally ended up cheating on me
>I'm ugly af
TL:DR; No friends, broken family, no time to even get a part time job
I hope this doesn't get read
Why the fuck not
> 22
> contemating suicide dailey because hitty bipolar disorder
> extreme urge to get fucked up on drugs or alchohol everyday sometimes do
>luckely got a girlfriend but still mad crazy about this girl back when i was 14
Got more but meh
>>22952696
i moved out when i was 21 and i live in a room for rent for 350 a month. Sometimes thats the best way to go.
Mine:
>I have been sober for a year and i want all of my old friends and my ex to know im doing good for once but i think they all hate me
and i deleted myself off of the internet
>i have been sober a year and i still have crippling depression, its not being sad but more that i can't feel anything and don't feel like doing anything more than i have to
>my poem got published in a literary magazine and i still have yet to receive a check for it
>the other day i got a ticket for graffiti
>all the girls i like are 2d
My life is pretty satisfactory, especially after counting it the lows I've been through, so nothing relevant to complain about. The only thing that irks me a bit, is that I can't find any friends/potential partner who'd be worth my time. Like, not in a cocky "I am too good for you" - sense, simply somebody who would be interesting enough based on their positive qualities AND achievements. Probably met a single fucking guy who'd fit and couple girls who were on their way there.
>>22952892
Its good that you're getting published though
>have abandonment issues
>am a bit more clingy than I would like to be
>hide my clinginess from s/o so he doesn't leave me
>am a crybaby, even more so when PMS/menstruating
>mood swings
>know this is all trivial shit and people struggle with way worse
>still sometimes wish I was dead
>>22952907
What are your qualities and achievements?
why cant I let stupid / little shit go
I hate people that move on so easily ... from everything / anything
phonies
>>22952916
I wanna hug the shit out of you and never let go
>All dream men I meet are straight.
That's not fair, where is Mr. right (white, brown hair, beard) (=_=)
>>22952919
Nothing I would consider be worth mentioning outside of helping three suicidal fags to get better. I can still list the shit if you insist but it's totally not the point, I am not saying I am great myself.
Guess, the wording in the first post could be better, I am simply interested in getting to know people, who I'd consider interesting at least on a surface level, not necessary win their approval/friendship and have them regard me as interesting back.
>Me, 22
>Black
>Virgin for religious reasons
>walk out gym one day, forgot to refill bottle, thirsty af, lecture in 20 mins
>stop at lemonade stand ask for just water with ice
>qt blonde bubblebutt behind me commends me for not drinking diabetes in a cup. Subsequently compliments my physique.
>Awkwardly make small talk. People do this irl? I thought it only happened in movies
>Walks long road with me, hoping she'll take a turn at some point because I'm running out of shit to say and I'm considering just sprinting away. I'm sure I can outrun her.
>StillHere.jpeg walk with her for 15 whole minutes
>She asks for my fb (No really, this happens irl?)
>hits me up on fb, we talk everyday for a week orso. Consistently more each day, ask for her number.
>3 weeks later she's coming onto me strong- she's been sending me selfies and body pics for like a week now
>sends me bra pic asks if it looks cute
>i go with it, she stops responding, spend all day wondering wtf I did wrong
>She texts me next day, confessing she has a boyfriend and he's aware we're texting
>he's cool with it. mfw when he's a kek
>says she just wants sex and isn't looking for a relationship
>Tries to coax me into coming over.
>mfw I'm just in the picture to accommodate her bf's sick fetish.
Last message she has sent me is "sooo you coming over 2nite?" followed by "heyy x" next morning. This was 3 days ago. If I run into her irl, I'm just gonna sprint away. Suicide when?
Wife freaks out
Her drunk 46% of daily life
Star role model 3 kiddies
Drunk nite b4 chemistry final asks my help
Da da da fails final
Hates me
Plans to boot me in few years
Acts like nothing going on
She can't remember what she tells me
Fuck
Fuck
Fuck
>>22953050
Are they your kids?
>Cant get a job
>Always getting sick
>Bored of everything
>Too much pain
>Too handsome, what a bother
>Too strong
>And those muscles, damn
>Damn im great
>Fuck this m8, my life sucks
I have nothing to bitch about and I still feel empty inside.
>>22953058
Yeah
Summer long drunkfest of her taking them to our cabin and not knowing wtf goin on
Kids all know she big fish
Yells stupid shit @them
>>22953001
>black
thats your biggest problem
>19
>never had a girl friend
>no money
>still living with mom
>mom and dad split up
>didn't finish highschool
>moved away from any friends I use to have
>misanthrope
>romantic
Why the fuck do I hate everyone but still feel lonely?
>>22953232
your only problem there is having 19
that and being romantic
>>22952696
>be me, 18 years old
>never had any friends, mainly "acquaintances"
>never had a real social life, don't know how to make friends
>know fuck-all about self-sufficiency
>spend most of my time in school, or shitposting on 4chan/8ch
>kinda want to kill myself because of how useless I am, but too much of a pussy to go through with it
>parents are concerned with my ever-increasing self-isolation
Welp.
>>22953341
I just like all that fluffy gushy lovey dovey shit
I'm also very anti-social so I don't really make friends easily let alone get a girlfriend
>>22953362
>parents are concerned with my ever-increasing self-isolation
fuckin this
>first semester of college
>"I've got a bunch of high school friends here with me, this'll be kickass"
>all of them drop into lives revolving around drugs, can't do anything without being high
>"maybe I'll hang out with some of the guys from my floor, they seem alright"
>I go to a mostly-engineering school, they all do nothing but play league and go get fast food together
>"ok maybe if I find the right girl I can spend time developing something there"
>I'm the guy that made a thread yesterday explaining I ended up just getting repeatedly used for sex
So now all I do is run for hours at a time until I can't see straight or get falling-over drunk when I can. It's a pretty empty life.
>23
>Single since fucking forever
>No license
>beer gut
>always had this sense of depression, like I wanted to kill myself
>mfw too lazy to bother, plus I'm waiting for books to come in the mail.
>>22953607
Any reason you can't exercise away the beer gut? Everyone I've talked to who went from unfit to fit had their life improve tenfold, and I can vouch that it lessened my depression and stopped me from killing myself
Well you asked for it.
I have scoliosis. Most mornings I wake up with a lot of pain I can't sit or stand a certain way without it hurting worse. The pain won't subside until several hours after I've woken up. Getting up is the worst part of the day, especially putting on shoes. I wish I could stay asleep and enjoy my dreams
I've worked at the same job for two years, my boss is an asshole. I hate the application process though. I have no idea what I'd go to college for if I were to go and I don't want to embark on taking a huge loan. I feel like I'm not passionate about anything
Aside from my mom I don't like my family. I don't have very good friends and they don't really seem to care much about me. I try to reach out occasionally but plans fall through or they just ignore me, it's rare they reach out back. Maybe I'm not trying hard enough. I spend 95% of my free time alone.
A few months ago my ex and I broke up, we had been together for a year and a half, I lost my virginity to her. I still can't help but think of her even though I don't want to. Sometimes I wonder if she'll come back to me but I doubt it, it ended on bad terms. She cheated on my though so I would rather she didn't.
I've been looking for a new relationship. I've tried all good online means I know (tinder, okcupid, pof) and occasionally I'll go to a bar and just try to hang out with new people. I act self-confident and all that and I know I'm an above average looking guy. (I get average 7/10 on here every time I post) but I've had no success. I'm starting to believe that I'm just not wanted by women, or by people in general and I don't know why.
Sometimes I'd rather be dead and but I'm too afraid of death to take my own life and I don't want to hurt anyone else in the process either.
I just feel stuck and that my life is empty. I worry one day it'll be too much for me to take and I'll finally get the courage to off myself, but what's there to worry about? At this point I'm probably not losing much
>>22955000
>mfw
im not going to give you pity man because that won't help but i feel for you. My psychologist once took me to the roof of his building and told me to stand on the ledge. I couldn't do it and i learned three things:
a)i have a chemical imbalance that clouds my judgement and thinking
b)if my "sickness" is in my thinking i cannot think myself into healing but i can act against my thinking
c)my life has two outcomes: i can either learn how to cope with my shit in healthy ways and then die or i can kill myself about it
>>22955172
forgot pic
I just want a platonic friend but I can't have one because I'm horrible. I have hella smoke and my own car but I'm so painfully shy that every time I hang out with someone my throat closes up and I just can't physically look at them or it burns. I can't even make friends on 4chan because I have a vagina and there's always always sex involved and I'm tired of it and I'm tired of being worthless
>>22955282
>I have a vagina
lol I'm a girl too. don't hit on me though silly boys
>>22955282
Sounds like you probably have an anxiety disorder. I suggest speaking to a psychiatrist.
Other than that, sorry we're terrible. There are no men on /soc/ who aren't shamefully lonely and sad and it makes our brains go all stupid and desperate.
>>22955282
why are you on 4chan and on /soc nonetheless?
im here because i have no friends and have this delusion that i will actually meet someone here one day that shares my interests. It is a delusion though and this place makes depression worse
>pretty rough past
>sensitive
>severe anxiety disorder
>"too nice"
>haven't worked in 3 years.
>turning 25 in a few weeks.
>keep falling for the wrong people.
>keep getting used/played.
oh well, at least i have my own apartment and good friends. :)
>>22955282
I could be your friend, I get all the sex I need in real life and live in a country with no /soc/ users
>>22955383
>no work
>has apartment
please dont tell me your parents pay for it
>>22955455
No. I inherited it after my alcoholic grandpa passed away. I pay the rent through my monthly sickpay, I feel disgusting since I'm a socialist and want to carry my own weight. I do some under the table oddjobs every now and then and donate whatever I can spare to charity. I can't hold on to a steady normal job due to anxiety.
>>22955487
monthly sick pay? and my condolences for your grandpa.
>20 year old dude
>never had a gf
>never been kissed
>ultimate virgin
>about a 5-6/10 appearance-wise
>start going to the gym, get in better shape
>feel good about myself
>feeling of success slowly fades
>literally only feel good about myself when I'm at the gym, which is a bitch to get to in cold weather
>no car
>bike tire went flat thanks to some wannabe frat fag's smashed vodka bottle
>in the best shape I've been in in years, meaning totally average
>acne that won't go the fuck away no matter how much aveeno and moisturizer I use
>no money
>just had a random thought
>"what if this is all a dream, and I'm really happy and well-off and lying in my comfy bed with my beautiful girlfriend"
>this is obviously not all a dream
>mfw I'm an ugly, pimply, foreveralone shitbag who will never wake up to that world, no matter how badly he wants to
Life is pain.
Anyone who says otherwise is selling something.
I fuck things up so easily with guys that I actually like, and have complete clingers that make me uncomfortable and too nice to get rid of them/they don't listen when I say I'm not interested.
>inb4 youre a girl stop complaining
>>22952941
Ignore it, anon.
It can't hurt you if you don't let it.
And if it forces itself into your life, cut it out, like a malignant growth.
>>22955487
i have been to the psych ward 5 times for self harm and a real suicide attempt. I have also been to treatment 3 times for drug abuse and you are telling me that your meme mental illness prevents you from work?
I work 40 hours a week. Is this b8 or?
>>22953373
There's no such thing as romantic love.
All the chocolates and poetry and bears and shit is just a means to an end; that end is fucking.
Platonic love exists; we want to keep valuable people, things, and animals near us.
But romantic love is just a fake emotion created to justify wanting to fuck.
It's like someone watching a Michael Bay movie and complimenting the color scheme used for the explosions; they're bullshitting, they just like seeing shit blow up.
>>22955548
hey look its "stacey: the meme"
>>22955577
I think I'm just an annoying shit and that's why guys get uninterested idk who stacey is
>>22955548
i just don't see why you feel the need to mention your gender. that's all I meant by the above comment. "I have a vagina"
ok that's fine. i don't see the boys commenting here about having a penis.lmao
>>22955511
I live in Sweden yeah, I get about a grand per month to support myself. ~600 goes straight to bills, utilities and food, I make some extra shekels playing online poker but it isn't all that much. Anxiety disorders sucks dick, wouldn't wish that shit on my worst enemy.
>>22955566
You should visit some war vets and tell them PTSD etc is b/s, tell them to get off their lazy asses and start working because you're capable of doing 40 hours per week with your shit. If you don't take anxiety disorders seriously and think they're a joke that's up to you. Any serious practitioner would laugh in your face though. inb4 PTSD ISNT THE SAME THING AS ANXIETY DISORDERS; they aren't, but they're fairly similar.
>>22955548
>clingers that make me uncomfortable and too nice to get rid of them/they don't listen when I say I'm not interested
Take it from an ex-clinger, you need to understand where these little fellas are coming from.
In their minds, they're like the lovable loser in an 80's teen romp. Sure they're not tough or popular like Johnny Quarterback, but they're smart and funny and probably nice in a quirky way.
They're the stars of their own little movie, and that means they eventually get together with the girl who was (SURPRISE) there all the time!
You need to muster the balls to shatter this illusion. Just wreck them. You don't have to be mean, but be clear and blunt.
They're under the impression that they're gonna wear you down. If they keep chipping away, you'll eventually see them for the protagonist they think they are.
If they try to pique your interest, don't respond with:
>Not right now
>I'm not ready to be in a relationship yet
>I'm no good for you
>I'm just not interested right now
Notice how none of these constitutes a hard "NO"; there's always wiggle room.
Not right now? How's about in a few months? She thinks she's bad for me? Not only does this mean she cares, but her insecurity is endearing and probably means she likes me too!
They're an optimistic lot, who will look for anything to justify not giving up.
You need to give them a reason to give up hope. Allow for no wiggle room or misinterpretation. Spell it out as if you were talking to a child, or a lawyer looking for a loophole.
>I'm not attracted to you.
>I'm not interested in you
>You aren't my type
>I'll never see you as anything but a friend
It'll sting for a bit, but they'll get over it if they're a friend worth keeping around. And if they don't get over it and start tipping their redpills, then fuck 'em, they were a bad egg from the start.
>tl;dr suck it up and be as blunt as possible
>>22955598
are you a war vet? Or did you get beat up as a kid like i did?
>any serious practitioner would laugh in your face though
my psychologist (not that serious, hes hilarious) doesn't make much at all and does stuff like
>>2295517
a serious practitioner is in it for the money and will diagnose anyone who walks in the door with one of 3 things:
anxiety (aka stress)
ptsd
adhd
give them meds (they get a cut) and tell them they are doing great when they have made no progress
because progress=less patients= less money
seriously get a job and stop complaining famalam
>>22955598
stuff like this*
>>22955172
>>22955641
They're after money? You do realize that we have socialized healthcare where I live right? I don't see why they'd diagnose me with shit if it wasn't necessary, things are probably quite different in countries like the US. I suggest you either start reading or ask your psychologist about anxiety disorders, it isn't just "stress", try having panic attacks on a regular basis, best description I can offer is peaking on ecstasy but in reverse. Getting those delicious physical symptoms where you feel like you're about to stop breathing and die, your heart rate being so high you think you'll have a heart attack any second. Screwing up your sleeping pattern because you can't shake those feelings of absolute dread. You try holding onto a job when you have to deal with that shit. Believe me I've tried and I keep trying, giving it another go in January.
No, I'm not a vet and no I didn't get beat up as a kid. "trauma" is subjective to people, some people deal with it just fine and some don't. I'm having a hard time talking about my b/s as it is and you seem like a judgmental uneducated prick; so I'm not even going to bother to get into it.
>>22955641
stahp
>>22955718
im
>>22952892
>judgmental uneducated prick
judgmental (insert white girl "you dont know me" meme)? yeah. (along with all of humanity)
uneducated? no. im an english major, and a published poet, all at the age of 23 faggot.
socialized or not, cancer treatment makes the government more money (in taxes) than a cure does. The same mindset can be applied to psychiatry. Can you really not question why people are being given antipsychotics and atypical antidepressants (trazodone and seroquel) for insomnia (not depression or a problem with reality)in all countries all the time ? Not only that but then you call it a serious practice. Modern day psychiatry is a money making meme designed to keep people sick.
i have had delirium tremins before, so believe me when i say i know what a panic attack is like homie. The only real difference is that i thought ants were coming from the walls and biting their way into my skin and that i can actually die from it. Nobody dies of a panic attack.
Nobody will pamper you forever man and they should not have to. You are not a vet. They have the right to sit all day and get free money in my opinion if thats what they want. You dont because of your panic attacks and subjective "trauma"
>>22955835
>uneducated
>no. im an english major, and a published poet
P-please be trolling. Please.
>cancer treatment makes the government more money (in taxes)
What. Please expand on it, this should be amusing. How exactly?
>>22955850
>P-please be trolling. Please.
no, i am mad for once
a college degree is education, is it not, or are you trolling?
>What. Please expand on it, this should be amusing. How exactly?
if you can keep someone in a hospital for a long time its going to cost more is it not?
If you just gave someone a shot and cured cancer that patient wouldnt have to stay for too long right?
>>22955862
It is a very small part of what counts as education, sure. Mentioning it as if it is a relevant proof for being educated on the other hand, that's ignorant at best.
>if you can keep someone in a hospital for a long time its going to cost more is it not?
How would spending more time aka. money on a patient, actually make money for the state? Again, we talk about the first world, where it's free for the patient.
>>22955872
Have you ever heard of America? Not everyone lives in top-tier socialist, Nordic countries. Also anon pls, as much as I joke about non-STEM degrees, it's fucking college-level education.
>>22955877
>Have you ever heard of America?
Not relevant when talking about this case, is it? Health care is free in actual first world countries.
>as much as I joke about non-STEM degrees, it's fucking college-level education
My point was never about the "worth" of his degree but how small of a part ANY degree is in determining whether a person counts as educated (actual knowledge ranging about multiply topics) or not. A degree proves that the person managed to show up often enough and didn't fuck up their exams too bad, not much more. (I got two of them, holy shit, I must be twice as educated)
>>22955872
>not catching ironic word play
>uneducated
i am technically educated though s-senpai
>where it's free for the patient
there is no such thing as free, man. Your taxes are what pays for that shit. The more time someone spends in a hospital the more money the government/hospital gets from the working classes wallet.
>believing healthcare can ever actually be "free"
u r kewt
>>22955872
this >>22955877
however the guy you're arguing w is clearly a dick trying to win a competition of "i have it worse than u but i'm doing better" which is dumb as hell. you don't have to justify your shit to some pseudo-intellectual weeaboo on 4chan. anxiety is real obvi and it fucking sucks. i straight up did not leave my house for like 6 months because of panic attacks. the loser you're arguing w doesn't know shit. but it can get better, man, u just gotta find what works for you (lifestyle wise, not medication wise)
>>22955895
>The more time someone spends in a hospital the more money the government/hospital gets from the working classes wallet.
Even assuming it were as simple (it's not), what would be the big idea behind spending more money so you can collect more money ... to spend, because you spent more money.
>>22955901
i hate people who dont contribute at all (or have never contributed) to anything and blame it on a chemical imbalance or subjective trauma
also
telling the truth hurts man, my family and the world used to tell me the same things im trying to say to
>>22955872
essentially get better or kill yourself because those are the options despite my opinions on meme psychiatry and my past
>>22955924
>essentially get better or kill yourself
Best advice ever.
Besides, maybe you haven't noticed but I am not the anon with problems. The notion that a degree is enough to be able to claim that you're educated together with the ignorance about how health care works, was just too funny to ignore.
>>22955905
>>22955901
ive shitposted far too long tonight anon im going to go to sleep
you are right and i am wrong obviously
i don't even care, the whole point to this was that i had to hate myself enough to want to change at all. If i can get someone to hate themselves more then i am doing the right thing in my eyes.
pampered mentally ill weeb (or not) neets can take my abuse cause i was one and i can take it and it helped me change. This is not fucking tumblr or reddit with trigger warnings and shit.
i did have it worse and now im better, what is ptsd's excuse?
i love you guys
>>22955963
Well, being able to admit that you were wrong is pretty cool, and you do have a decent point ... just could've presented it a bit better.
Also obviously good job managing to get better, just what worked for you, doesn't necessary work for others. That shit is a complex topic.
Anyway good night, anon.
>>22955835
>uneducated? no. im an english major, and a published poet, all at the age of 23 faggot.
Uneducated when it comes to anxiety, I think its pretty obvious. I'd be happy for you if you weren't such a dickhead.
>socialized or not, cancer treatment makes the government more money (in taxes) than a cure does. The same mindset can be applied to psychiatry. Can you really not question why people are being given antipsychotics and atypical antidepressants (trazodone and seroquel) for insomnia (not depression or a problem with reality)in all countries all the time ? Not only that but then you call it a serious practice. Modern day psychiatry is a money making meme designed to keep people sick.
Go ahead and believe that its all a big conspiratorial jew scheme if that's what you want. You sound like a Scientologist to be honest. I don't see how the government makes money by treating cancer, please elaborate.
>>22955924
>i hate people who dont contribute at all (or have never contributed) to anything and blame it on a chemical imbalance or subjective trauma
I worked pretty much full time as a teacher for 4 years prior to this, paid my taxes. I'm a philanthropist and I donate whatever I can spare to charities. I've been active politically since I was 14, mainly dealing with human rights and taking part in demos, most notably going to Iceland where we managed to bring down the prior corrupt Icelandic government. You don't know shit about me.
pic related.
Just have my life story. This shit bothers me daily
>dad is a violent schizophrenic paedophile from a rough city
>my mum was also violent
>parents moved from Manchester to Taunton in 1981 because racist
>had my sister in '89 and me in '92
>used to beat me, lock me in cupboards and wash mouth out with soap when I was as young as 3
>had to watch and sometimes get caught inbetween parents physical fighting
>mum and dad divorced in '95
>mum took me and sister to Manchester women and childrens home
>met a guy called Frank
>he used to beat me and my sister, swung us by our ears until they bled
>dad found us and took us to Exeter
>sexually abused me, physically abused me, mentally abused me and verbally abused me
>used to go crazy a lot, heavy drinker. extremely violent
>dropped sister off at cop station in June of '97
>I'm with this crazy bastard until late '98
>go into care
>am withdrawn
>I molested kids when I was a kid (even living with my dad)
>my foster dad cheated on my foster mum so there were a lot of fights there
>foster dad has punched me on occasion
>I tried to fuck foster sister
>killed her hamsters and a dog
>pyromaniac
>thought about mass murder a lot
>thief
>vandal
>I attempted burglary once
>zoophillia
Stopped all the bad shit now though. I just go to work and come home... Boring, day in day out. I see a social worker now who thinks I'm too unstable for PTSD therapy.
>tfw possible BPD
>want a BPD gf who got it from similar childhood
>she doesn't exist
>>22952916
Reee. Where do I find these women
>Be me
>22
>Great chemistry with Girl
>She just wants to fuck people.
>we quit talking.
>Stuck living at parents
>Lost my house.
>Work 6 days a week 9 hours.
>No time for qt 3.14s
>Working on building up my finances.
>Takes hella long...
I have a chronic disease. It is going to kill me at some point. Till that day, I will just be too tired to do the things that I find interesting.
Yay.
>19
>moving out later this month/next month into a nice flat after a long time searching for it, but just after I give them the rent money a notification from the flat renting web of an even nicer looking flat appears on my mail
I know it's just a minor thing and the flat I rented it's real nice for the area it is in but fuck, if that ad just came earlier
Also I'm depressed as shit and I hate my body but that's the usual
Bump and stuff
>18
>anxiety problems, depression, gender identity issues
>still with parents, they're alright folks I guess
>nervous about moving out even though i'm desperate for it because house is a shithole
>nervous about learning how to drive
>nervous about job searching
>NERVOUS
>no fucking idea what to major in if i even go to college at all
>language barrier so no idea what language to study in either
>family keeps pressuring me, asking what I want to study
>I don't fucking know I just want to get laid and get money for weeb merch
>too shy to ask mom for a vibrator even though our bond and trust is 9/10
>terrible acne, mom's fault since she was worse at her teens too with that, runs in the genes I guess
>decent looking but shit gut chub that makes me look pregnant sometimes
>would love to get /fit/ if situations were better
Pleb tier problems I suppose, some of you are levels worse than me.
>>22957433
>ask mom for a vibrator
Top degenerate
>>22957451
Ask her to buy me one I meant.
>>22952696
>No friends
>Dad died when i was eight.
>Mum's pretty stupid, only cares about her own little world
>Just got into college, college sucks, no one talks
>Depression
>I had a panic attack a protest, fml.
>I work out, but i'm still pretty chubby
>I'm broke, might be homeless in 2017 if my job goes tit's up my saving's get used up.
>>22952696
>Be me, 24, asian
>living in europe, no family, relatives nearby
>have no close friend, best friends are living in home country
>can't really fit in with the people around
>be that guy who rarely talk and prefer to sit in a corner, be it at college or at gatherings of friends
>can't express myself properly
>terrible communication skills since i barely talk
>rarely call home, and aside from telling my folks I'm still well, all I can muster to say are "yes", "no", "really?" "is that so?" *insert emotionless / fake laughter*
>never been closed to my brother even though we lived under the same roof for over 18 years.
>boring as fuck childhood
>never had an intimate relationship with a girl before
>virgin as consequence
>have complex about my manlet status
>physically weak as fuck
>not really a smart/intellectual individual
>no money, no support, only a job with minimum wage to help me survive
>no particular hobby
>no concrete goal for the future
>having fear of responsibility sometimes
>family life was never truly happy, mom and dad don't really love each other
>mother considered aborting when she was pregnant with me
>grandma died two days ago
>my old schoolmates are either married, start working, or at least have finished their higher education courses, and here i am, having no idea what to do with my life
>no goal, no ambition, no passion
>did consider suicide, but being too much of a pussy to actually do it
>>22955973
>Go ahead and believe that its all a big conspiratorial jew scheme if that's what you want
believing its the jews is autistic, i just think the people with the most money have the most power in this world which isn't far from the truth.
>You sound like a Scientologist to be honest
the only thing we have in common is a belief that modern day psychiatry should be stopped (the dsm is bunk, literally 100% of people can find something wrong with themselves in that book and you know it). Scientology is ridiculous, c'mon anon im not that dumb.
oh, hail xenu
>You don't know shit about me.
We would get along in real life, you sound like the people i hang out with in real life, except they all have jobs and don't blame a diagnosis on all their trouble
> meet chick on tinder
>stoner, nerd, chubby, just the way I like them
>hang out, smoke pot, cuddle, then fuck
>thisisperfect.jpg
>a couple of weeks later she tells me she led me on, has feeling for someone else
Why do women do this? I'm not even that attractive
>>22956001
this so dumb, like you have a place to live. that in itself is a near miracle where i'm from
>>22957688
>implying men don't do this
fuck off
![b79e9a7b09fb90d66939e0bd789c2148[1].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/aem0w3V.jpg "b79e9a7b09fb90d66939e0bd789c2148[1].jpg")
>told my partner they could quit their job because they were coming home drinking himself into oblivion, crying a lot, barely eating or sleeping and then having awful nightmares, constant anxiety and stress
>i tell them its going to be okay and that I'll provide for us, get stay at home job in order to support family
>a month later get diagnosed with highly unstable illness that could cause deadly internal bleeding, be forced to relocate my bedroom to my living room, cant even walk to the store or go up and down stairs
>job causes stress which puts stress on my illness which puts stress on me
i called in sick to work today after having a panic attack. literally every moment i thought about clocking in I started crying uncontrollably. my partner said i could quit if i felt the job was going to keep making me sicker, but i know the only reason they said it was so that i wouldnt be sad about telling them they could quit and i'd take care of us.
i cant afford the doctor visits to even see if i can be cured, let alone see if i can qualify for disability, since partner is spending so much time taking care of me, helping me walk to and from the bathroom and cooking for me, etc. I'm already 5k in debt to the hospital, and the doctor who could cure me requires a down payment to even see me. just to look at me, literally, will put me out half of my monthly house payment.
I can't drive until March. I'm covered head to toe in an itchy rash. I have strep throat and mono. My house is a disaster and I need to clean but I don wannnnna.
>tfw balding
>half of my hair is gone in 3 fucking months all of a sudden
>go to doctor hoping it's telogen effluvium
>it's MBP
I said fuck it and buzzed it, still feels bad.
>>22957632
zzzzzz
work was awful today
>work at animal shelter
>doing morning potty walks for dogs
>take out staffie mix who was part of a recent abuse/neglect case
>owner was a piece of shit that cropped her ears with a box cutter, but she's ridiculously sweet and friendly
>see couple out front with a probably six month old double merle Australian shepherd puppy off leash
>right next to the fucking parking lot
>thing is losing its shit every time it sees a dog so the guy has to grab her by the collar because she's trying to lunge at the dog on the other side of the fence
>the woman comes up to me asking about the low cost clinic we share a building with
>looks at the dog I'm walking like she's some monster even though she's completely calm and friendly
>tell her I don't know because we are two completely separate organizations
>have to tell her this four times before it gets through her thick skull
>also tell her she's not allowed to have dogs off leash here and if she doesn't comply she must leave
>she gives me a look then bitches loudly to the guy she was with
>"YOU'D BETTER PUT HER IN THE CAR, DONT WANT THAT KILLER PIT BULL GETTING HER"
>want to bitch her out and tell her that her inbred dog is probably half deaf
>have to get 40 dogs out to piss before we open so just go back to work
>about an hour later hear screeching from out front and yelling
>a volunteer was taking out the dog I had earlier on a walk and was attacked by the Aussie
>still not wearing a fucking leash
>our dog is just screeching and the Aussie won't let go
>feel bad doing it but had to kick the Aussie in the head to get her to let go
>owners have the fucking audacity to yell at me for kicking their dog
>tell them to get off our property or I'll call the police
>everyone who saw tells the same story, that the dog was off leash and ran up to and attacked the dog our volunteer was walking
>trying to figure if we can get them in more trouble than just a ticket for breaking the leash law
I fucking hate people
>>22961451
Fucking assholes. You poor thing, poor dog.
I'd have done more than kick the loose dog
I'm actually doing okay now but I've been on quite the rocky road.
>23
>graduated high school with honors 2010.
>got pressured into going to college right away by shitty step mother
>went to school for photography
>did ok first year moved out of town lived on res
>moved back home after first year
>dad getting a second divorce
>step sister who had been in my life for 10+ years tells me we aren't sisters anymore. Havent spoken to her since.
>find out step mom has been fucking my aunts husband
>go back to college for year two
>was drunk everyday
>dropped out for a new program
> paid for new program just to not go and drink more
>get into lots of drugs
>have lots of sex and hangout with sketchy people
>fail and pick a new program
>Still drink a lot and do all the drugs
>cry around holdiays making my friends think I'm retarded
>fail school
>move back home
>step mom and uncled are married now
>quit drinking and doing drugs
>can't step foot into a classroom because mental illness gets so bad
>do some assignments from home
>barely leave the house, cut ties with all my friends
> go to the college clinic about depression
>go througha bunch of shitty meds
> is robot for six months cause of meds
>they make anxiety worse
> fail half my classes
>forced to drop program
>get off pills
>Slowly teach myself to manage mental illness
>retake program for another 2 years
>be 23 and in post secondary for 6+ years
>be one credit away from graduating
>see dads ex
> she asks "why are you still in school"
>"I love learning" I reply as I walk away
Perfect, I've needed to vent. So....
>Moved from city to the middle of nowhere
>Riding a damn bicycle to carpool for work, till I can afford a car
>Got warned about my attendance multiple times at work
>Universe tells me to fuck off, and throws every fucking obstacle my way
>Some days I oversleep and miss my carpool since I do about 20hrs of overtime a week
>Other days I get no sleep because I'm up with my special needs child, trying to calm her down and make her comfortable.
>Today I get caught in the rain, decide to go back home since I'm soaked and appearance is apparently more important in my job than the job itself.
>While riding my bicycle back home -_- a car blows a red light and nearly hits me
>Jump off my bike so I don't die
>Now I'm soaked, have no bike, and just got home from walking 30 min in the rain
>about to lose 30k yearly income to start university over
>fat
>runny nose / sneezing for almost a year
>gf has different life goals
Why did I let myself go so much?
>be me
>be 19
>work part time
>go to community college
>hate college
>make dope ass music and get paid for it
>not enough money to live off of it
>broke up wit gf last year
>just want some cuddles
>also wish i were a neet
>crippling anxiety and depression
>spend years avoiding problems and going to sleep
>pushed irl friends away
>irrational fear of being depended on too much
>abandonment issues
>bigoted family have turned blind eye to the obvious
>scared of letting people down, avoid creating bonds
>emotionally repressed to point of losing it and breaking down when people who give attention get too close and prod for details
>feel weak and disgusting
>self loathing leads to anger, resentment, furthers sadness
>habit of rejecting people after them witnessing the worst
>been manipulated over and over to feed others egos
>extreme fear of being left, abandoned, rejected
>feel used up and exhausted
>get lonely
>decide fuck it
>approached online by anon
>make new friend
>friend is super supportive and patient and likable
>dammit
>several weeks pass
>tells me they have major feels
>you poor sweet person.mp3
>try to explain
>say they still like me and will continue to no matter what
>fuck all
>don't have the heart to put them through all this shit
>begin process of detaching
>killme.jpg
>Live in SoCal but everyone's either in Los Angeles or San Diego, not enough folks in-between.
>None of my friends respond to my texts and I don't know if they're being assholes, and I don't know how many times I can text without getting a reply before it ends up being "pls respond"
>Can only talk to older women and married ones, but if they aren't in a relationship I break down and try not to seem like I'm hitting on them, because I'm not.
>>22961559
eh, aside from not actually wanting to hurt the dog more than nessecary, they're the type of white trash that would try to sue or do some other dumb shit if I did
but yeah, by boss has been on the phone with animal control and the county all morning. they can't just get away with this, that dog had ours by the fucking throat. if she was older (a dog showing this much aggression at such a young age is a giant red flag) she would have killed our staffie, or at least tried her hardest to
pic related, took Christmas photos of some of the dogs the day before and she was one of them
>>22963208
adorable
>>22963208
He's a qt
>>22963872
*She.
Damn
