Were you abused at all as a kid?
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>who did it
>how did it affect you
>how do you feel about it
>A/S/L
>contact
>face if brave enough
>post about yourself!
>who did it
Dad (physically, verbally, emotionally and sexually) Mum (physically, verbally and emotionally) Step Dad (physically and verbally)
>how did it affect you
Possible PTSD and diagnosed mixed personality disorder
>how do you feel about it
Meh
>A/S/L
24, m, SW England
>contact
Kik - saviour74
>face if brave enough
Woo!
>post about yourself!
I am obsessed with 74-75 Bowie, I'd like a qt to relate to, I like museums and visiting the bigger cities...
Kind of sort of
>who did it
Dad (emotional with lots of physical threats as well but only hit me once)
>how did it affect you
I hated my dad and most things relating to family oriented events. I really didn't enjoy being around other people. Also, developed some personalities disorders
>how do you feel about it
I honestly can't feel any more. I understand it more now that I am older and he is dead but everything is pretty meh.
>A/S/L
24/M
21/f
I know my story is a little different, and I'll probably get shit like "suck it up it wasn't that bad" or whatever but here
>Who did it
Another girl from my class in 2nd grade emotionally/socially blackmailed me into doing sexual acts with her.
>How did it affect you
Vaginismus. I'll never be able to have sex, and therefore die a miserable lonely death.
>How do you feel about it
For the longest time I just repressed it. Wish I could go back to that, but after puberty I was forced to face sexuality and realized this actually did ruin my life.
All I ever wanted out of life was a loving partner, but I know my dating pool is next to nothing if I can't bang em eventually. No sex is a deal breaker for most people.
>>24055997
what about anal and oral?
or an open sexual relationship but emotionally faithful?
Darn I used to have a pretty sick greentext of my shitty childhood but I can't find it. I'll just do your lil' template instead.
>who did it
Stepfather, several of his friends, daycare employees/older kids at daycare, mom, cousin, hookers (under duress)
>how did it affect you
I had anger problems in my teens (it happened from 5-13), social anxiety after I turned 15 plus PTSD symptoms making doing most things pretty hard. I smoke a lot of weed to curb them. I'm a NEET also.
>how do you feel about it
Sad, confused, a little bitter.
>A/S/L
M/22/USA
>contact
Social anxiety so I'd add you and never talk in all likelihood.
>face if brave enough
I don't think that's really appropriate
>post about yourself!
I'm just a sad confused guy. I like nerdy stuff and sightseeing. We're all just text on a page here so I'm discouraged from writing more.
>>24056008
I really don't like anal, plus I get hemorrhoids a lot. Runs in the family.
I've done oral, I don't really like it but I'll do it happily. I actually love giving handjobs, I find it not only fun but it also gets me going too. But people get bored sitting on 3rd base forever you know?
I've always thought maybe if this is just how my life would be I'd be in an "open relationship" so to speak, but I know emotionally that would strain me. I'd constantly be waiting for him to dump me for the chick who's just as compatible as me with the added benefit of being fuckable. I think it is possible to separate sex and emotions, but it's extremely difficult and I don't think the average person can pull it off.
>>24056057
I doubt you're close to me or that you're even interested in dudes from /soc/ but I'm very interested in that kind of relationship, separating sex is quite easy for me (maybe not the best thing)
So it is possible.
As for handjobs, thoughts on giving them while a dude is watching porn?
>>24056089
Oh this is that kind of thread
>>24056091
nah, it's not. just thought i'd give some suggestions that maybe she hadn't thought of
>>24056089
I mean I'd be open to anything really if it means a guy would stay with me, it's just penetration that's out of the question. I don't mind porn, I watch it myself.
>>24056119
that's kind of my ideal relationship, to have a wondering dick but someone to come home to every day
what kind of porn are you into? are you from the US?
>who did it
Mom (Sometimes physically, mostly emotionally), Dad just wasn't there.
>how did it affect you
Spent the ages of 17-25 doing practically nothing with my life.
>how do you feel about it
lonely and broken at my worst, hopeful and stronger for it at my best. Trying very hard to stop the pattern of abuse in my family tree.
>A/S/L
25/F/Canada
>contact
pce2891 - skype
>face if brave enough
someday when I'm not a shrek. 50lbs lost so far
>post about yourself!
Looking for a genuine connection, someone with not only the self awareness but the ability to act on it. Someone who isn't open minded just for show. Mainly a really good friend since I don't even really have one atm. Anything sexual will get shut down unfortunately, I seem to have issues with that for now
>>24056032
Did they FUCK you though :DDD
S-sorry, couldn't resist
>>24056239
Yup.
>>24056304
Well Fugg D:
were there at least any hot females present? Did you develop femdom fetish?
>who did it
Just kids in my neighborhood, luckliy the only sexual things were kissing, and some touching.
>how did it affect you
Eh, made me very detached, really have a hard time connecting to people, and overall I lost a lot of confidence in myself.
>how do you feel about it
It's okay I guess, I'm not mad at anyone, the guys that did didn't understand what they were doing, we were all pretty young.
>A/S/L
20/f, thats all I'm givening out lol
>contact
aciddroplets, is my skype
>face if brave enough
eh, not brave enough haha
>post about yourself!
Overall, I am very boring I feel like, I read/write poetry, and play video games. I am a bit odd, be warned lol.
>>24056320
No. No.
>>24056366
*Plays something morbid like Chopin's Marche funebre*
Well ..
>who did it
Mom, physical and emotional
>how did it affect you
Still flinch when people raise their hands, have a very hard time connecting with people, extremely introverted and unable to do a lot of things because she didn't prepare me for the real world at all.
>how do you feel about it
It sucks, but other people have had it worse so whatever.
>A/S/L
22/f/Usa
>contact
I guess ask if you really want it?
>face if brave enough
Lol no
>post about yourself!
I play a lot of video games, read, build Lego models and watch a lot of movies.
>who did it
My father. He was physically abusive when I talked back to him -- we're talking in the early teens and younger for clarification -- and would always belittle me. I was always stupid, fat, worthless, etc, to him.
>how did it affect you
It made me a very bitter, angry individual. For years I had no intention to socialize with people, make friends, or really do anything at all. I graduated high school never having dated a girl, watching my best and only friend pass away, and I eventually left college because being near him and my family was just far too stressful.
>how do you feel about it
Now I've moved on. It's been a long, long time since I've seen him or any of my family, and I've worked really hard to get over the shit that he put me through. I'm very stable finanically and mostly stable emotionally. I lost all of the weight and have been going to the gym regularly for 3 years, but I use it as a sort of meditiation that makes me feel better about myself as opposed to getting bulked up.
>A/S/L
29/Male/USA
>contact
My kik is whyamievendoingthis
>face if brave enough
Sure. It's an old picture.
>post about yourself!
You can probably assume all you want or get a decent enough idea from what I've posted so far. I'm a 29 year old guy that lives alone and works in IT. I'm extremely passionate and talkative, and because of how I was raised I'm very stubborn and constantly want to learn and better myself. I'm a perfectionist, basically. I don't have very many people that I could call friends, and even the ones I could I'm not particularly close to. Even still, I'd say I'm a very pleased with my life.
>who did it
My stepfather with additional neglect from my mother.
>how did it affect you
I'd say pretty severely. It forced me to mature faster than I was prepared to. I have medication for my anxiety and panic disorder, and when I was a teenager I had a tremendous amount of depression that was borderline suicidal. I take control of my actions, ultimately.. because I am responsible for myself, but it's not like I got this way purely by chance.
>how do you feel about it
It doesn't sit with me every day, and I don't think about it daily either. I've come to terms with the fact that it happened and I have to overcome the anger, but the hatred is still strong if I assess myself and how I truly feel.
>A/S/L
26/M/Wisconsin
>contact
Skype: blindeffigy
KiK: dgrwl
>face if brave enough
Ehh.. no thanks.
>post about yourself!
Overall, life is more enjoyable than it isn't. I'm in a healthy longterm relationship and am in college. There are days where I fall in a hole though. Music and comedy helps a lot. If it weren't for my friends or my boyfriend I don't know where I'd be right now.
>>24056091
I made this thread for that purpose. I'll cure your ailment, don't worry
>>24055865
>tfw worst in this thread
>tfw no qt girls in my area
>who did it -- First stepmother
>how did it affect you -- Made life extremely uncomfortable at the time, now just some leftover germ-phobia and a bit OCD about making sure I have clean clothes.
>how do you feel about it -- She was a royal bitch but I guess it shaped me and my personality today, which I'm happy with.
>A/S/L -- 25/M/MD
>contact -- Skype Tremefy
>face if brave enough -- Heh, no.
>post about yourself! -- Just working on my B.S. in biology after losing two semesters from the start of a motor disorder.
>>24056652
Yo what Legos do you prefer? Lol
Add me on skype or kik
>gstoka
>who did it
Father (emotionally, verbally and physically)
Half-brother (sexually)
>how did it affect you
idk senpai I have a shit ton of emotional issues and social anxiety to an extent
>how do you feel about it
feelsbadman
>A/S/L
18/m/aus
>contact
kik: howdiwhateven
>face if brave enough
you can ask me if you want
>post about yourself!
im into vidya, anime and autistic shit like that. im not really that good at conversations either desu
Pls molested English qts pls love me
>>24055894
>>24056226
>>24056652
>>24056696
Man the fuck up nabz
Why does everyone in this thread plays le videogames? I mean it's pretty normal but the fact that you mention it...
>who did it
my stepfather at the time was sexually abusive, and my mom was pretty neglectful I guess
>how did it affect you
I have nightmares and I feel super uncomfortable about being naked. I have trouble taking showers and stuff. I'll probably never have a normal relationship. I'm also pretty socially and emotionally stunted from my mom never talking to me or holding me when I was a baby
>how do you feel about it
could have been worse
>A/S/L
20 f USA
>who did it
My stepfather groomed me as essentially a sexual pet for him from 9 until he left when I was 17
>how did it affect you
Trust issues, interpreting sex for affection at a young age, general daddy issues
>how do you feel about it
I had had extensive therapy when I was younger and came out of it pretty okay actually. I sometimes have confusing feelings when I dwell on it, I'll get angry but turned on and so on.
>A/S/L
26/F/America
>post about yourself!
I own my own business now as a caterer, I have been in a stable relationship for 2 years. He knows about my past but not the extent of it. I go to the gym a lot to work out my frustration and anxiety issues. Like to read and game. Cynical kind of sarcastic outlook.
>>24057936
I'm not going to post about myself, but if they're like me, it's one of the only things they had to help forget about everything going on in their life. Video games are one of the best ways to escape reality. RPGs were top tier for this because it felt like you had great friends and got to go on amazing adventures.
>who did it
mother was a violent sociopath who hated men even before my father left us
>how did it affect you
psycologically i developed a hatred for women even though I realize it's unrational to think all women are like my mother. i also think that's why I developed homosexual tendencies.
physically i'm unable to produce sperm
>how do you feel about it
I've come to live with it. i was removed from my home when I was 14 and an uncle and aunt provided a caring environment to grow up in from that point on
>A/S/L
45/male/US
>post about yourself!
gay, in a relationship for 8 years, professionally employed, have done speaking engagements on child abuse from a victim's view.
>>24057936
Vidya is boring desu
>>24055997
This happened to me too! Except I was about 5 or 6 and she was older, 10 or 11
>who did it
My dad, both physically and verbally. Thrown around,hit alot, screamed at over nothing, etc
>How did it affect you
It pretty much just fucked up my sociability. Also I fight with my dad alot now that I'm older, usually just arguments but sometimes fistfights
>how do you feel about it
Kinda pissed off because it only happened to me, not his other children but I'm also thankful for that in a way
>A/S/L
18/M/US
>contact
Nah I'm all set lmao
>face if brave enough
Yee
>post about yourself!
>who did it
Another boy at camp when I was 12. We were tent buddies and he convinced me to swordfight him, then kind of handjob each other, which led to sucking, which is what he used to convince me to let him fuck me. Had minimal pain in the beginning which became pleasurable, eventually jizzed all over my sleeping bag and he bred me, pulled out, and said I was gay now and girls would smell it on me
>how did it affect you
Severe self esteem issues, convinced girls hated me and that I had been literally infected with the gay. Masturbated with an anal dildo for a few years to straight porn and futa.
>how do you feel about it
All over it now. Met a girl who is now my wife, lost the confusion and guilt, realized I wasn't gay just cause a beaner at summer camp said I was. Greatly desired by my wife and now happily engaging in 100% hetero sex in the missionary position for the sole purpose of recreation on the semi-daily.
>A/S/L
23/M/Implying
>contact
>Implying
>face if brave enough
>post about yourself!
I just did.
>>24058063
how old were you when he was sexually abusive
>A/S/L
28/m
>who did it
Adults at daycare. Frequent beatings, isolation, and sexual abuse. I was 9.
>how did it affect you
Made me retreat quite far into solitude. I was able to keep the pain inside until a huge depression spiral cost me my late teens and early 20s
>how do you feel about it
I generally do a good job of burying it but I feel somewhat empty and lonely at my core as a result
>contact
nobody wants that
>post about yourself!
I love museums, write songs and poetry, wish I could travel more, and feel happiest near the ocean.
>who did it -Father, always dissapint, as whoopins on regs, watch pops beat moms, mom guilts me a5 constantl for not helpin but scared dad will kill the boy - they devorce- abuse breaks waves ito shame from one side, guilt anotertill happening 17 years later
>how did it affect you, cant hold a relationship healthily. blame myself for every error in my life to a crippling state thanks to dads, good'l talks
>how do you feel about it I feel trapped in perpetual self deafeatism. if something goes well I just count the seconds anxciously till it all collapses.
>A/S/L23VT
>contact I've talke witht hem, but the are seemingly unaware how impacted I am.
>face if brave enough
>post about yourself! inb4 faggot
>>24059837
ame anon, I primarly vidya, make music, get intoxicated. snowboard. and try to ab=void as many people as I can,'
>who did it
stepsister. she was a year younger than me, but i was naive and am a bit developmentally challenged.
>how did it affect you
not so bad at first, because i was already realizing i liked girls so it was sort of like, being able to experience it. then, after a while it started giving me bad nightmares. i still seize up and have panic attacks when i think about it.
>how do you feel about it
i feel pretty terrible about it these days and try never to bring it up if i don't have to.
>A/S
27/f
>contact
no thanks
>face if brave enough
nope
>post about yourself!
>>27/femanon
>>likes occult stuff; cryptozoology, taxidermy, ouija boards, postmortem photography, etc.
>>actually autistic
>>unemployed except for occasional freelance writing gigs
>>have wonderful, loving, supportive gf now
>>don't talk to family anymore
> sister (raped me in my sleep me: 8 years male, her 10 years old)
> emotional trauma, social anxiety
> inb4 wincest, was not good, fucked me up as a kid
>24/m
>>24059876
also, had therapy, didn't help too much, she got sent away to foster home, and then to a church (lived with nuns?) something Like that, don't know never had contact with her since.
>>24059636
Probably 5 or 6
>>24059947
don't have to answer but does that affect your current day fetishes at all?
>>24059959
I'm not really sure. I like a lot of weird shit, but I was basically raised by the internet so I feel like I would have ended up liking weird either way
this thread is probably dead and will 404 before anyone replies but w/e
>who did it
my father, sisters, partners, and schoolmates
>how did it affect you
i was born with a lot of stupid disorders but the abuse never helped you feel?
>how do you feel about it
for the most part i completely bottle it up until nights like tonight ig
>A/S/L
f/USA
>contact
i made a kik just for this thread it's anon82588
>face if brave enough
no thank you
>post about yourself!
i like to paint and listen to music and sleep sometimes i guess
would really like someone to distract me tonight
>>24059837
Being abused as a kid is no excuse to write like that.
>who did it
Dad. Physical, emotional, psychological, and medical. (Medical is when they lie to a doctor to get you put on drugs. Doctors take the parent's word before the child's.) Was never allowed to explain anything, his assumptions were the truth.
Stepmom, psychological. She fucked with me constantly, making me question reality to the point where I wasn't sure I was a real person, I wasn't sure if I was hallucinating everything I ever saw.
Brother and stepsisters, physical and emotional. I was the weak link, so they would all gang up on me in every way. (i.e., the four of them would eat all of dad's ice cream and blame me) Lots of blackmail, lots of "there's four of us and one of you" situations. I was the scapegoat.
Lots of other kids at school. Emotional, physical, psychological. I'm a sperg and I was the tiniest, most runt-of-the-litter type beta you'd ever seen. Laughing stock of the school, easy target, nobody else ever got in trouble. Didn't hit puberty until I graduated.
>how did it affect you
Anxiety, depression, bipolar, Possible PTSD (flashbacks and fits), possible paranoia disorders. I also get migraines when I get upset. A kid at school also messed up my spine so I can barely feel my hips and dick. Flinch easily. Very defensive if I feel socially under pressure. No confidence or self esteem.
>how do you feel about it
I don't know really. Neutral when not depressed. Tbh, if I had the balls and access to guns, I probably would have been a school shooter. But I was just a salty, tiny sperg. I think I've grown past the violent thoughts at this point, for the most part.
>A/S/L
20/Male/US
>contact
[email protected], maybe skype if I feel cool with it
>face if brave enough
Sorry, the kids at school destroyed my self esteem about my appearance. Told I'm not ugly but not sure I believe it.
>post about yourself!
Computer nerd, occasional PC gamer, Pokemon Go trainer, urban explorer, casual writer and wannabe filmmaker, in open relationship.
i don't know. but i think so. there's something fucked about my childhood, i just can't quite figure out what it is. i do remember that i went to a school (early 80's we're talking) in which one teacher used to make all the dudes show him their dicks. i was also fucking constantly molested by some chick a couple of years older than me at school, who was i now realise, blatantly being abused. then i moved house, and aged 5, a 12yo girl used to suck me off and make me go down on her. i also once walked in on a mate in his bathroom, to find his dad sucking him off. fuck knows what happened to me but whatever it was i've blacked it out.
>who did it
Dad (physically, beatings that would wreck adults). Mom (emotionally, tried to keep me and siblings as closed-off children for too long) My mom literally sabotaged my life at every turn. She wanted me and my sisters t fail
>how did it affect you
up til the last day me and my sister stayed with our mom, I wanted to kill myself. The combined physical and emotional strain made me extremely passive. I have just about zero will to argue about anything nowadays, which is nice when i'm happy with friends. But when i'm stuck in a bad situation, it makes me want to kill myself again. I've got it in my head that trying to fight with words will never work (because it never did, no point I ever could have made in a verbal argument would have helped. and in a physical fight, i also never stood a chance. My dad was super tall and skinny but strong as a fucking bull) so no matter what the argument is about, I tap out and just let the stress build in me. Bottle it up.
>how do you feel about it
Not too bad really. It's given me a unique perspective on life. I don't get swayed by my emotions whatsoever. When a fight breaks out, or ANY high-stress situation for that matter, I kinda just observe from the sidelines. I don't get worked up, ever. When something scary happens, i'm the one that says "being scared won't help." I never end up saying something "in the heat of the moment" that i regret later. And I don't forgive anyone who does do that.
>A/S/L
30/fem/usa
>contact
kik and skype - banglady
>face if brave enough
lazy
>post about yourself!out yourself!
my life is everything i ever wanted it to be now. i don't have to work, i spend all day everyday just playing vidya games and watching movies/shows. money is no object, the world is my oyster. the hand i was dealt being raised by my mom and dad had me believing that this would never be the case as recently as three years ago. that said, i still love my dad and think he was one of the greatest people to walk the planet.
>>24055770
Why would you ask a bunch of kids stupid questions like that? What the hell is wrong with you?
>who did it
>how did it affect you
>how do you feel about it
>A/S/L
>contact
>face if brave enough
>post about yourself!
>Were you abused at all as a kid?
>Post details
ITT: glorify shit that you'll later crucify when you see it on the news
Nah, m8. I had a kickass childhood.
>>24056057
>>24056057
>okay with doing handjobs
but what about you? could i touch you as well? where are you from? sex scares me for reasons and this seems really nice
can we talk get to know eachother? please i'm serious, i know i sound insane but sex is fucking horrific!
i hope you respond
>>24055770
>who did it
Classmates primarily(random punches,psychological abuse) parents minor stuff but also a huge factor(physical abuse,ignoring complaints)
>how didit affect you
I went from "that nice kid who cant do wrong" to "distrustful bastard who only cares about himself"
I also started to only accept favors if i gained some thing from it. Spontaneous moments where i change personality.
>how did you feel about it
Apathy to humans general. i haven't cried since middle school. Someone just recently died and i was meh.
>A/S/L
20/M
>post about yourself
Well despite not being able to transmit feelings to anyone ive been good at faking smiles and etc.(emotions generally)
>>who did it
mom (grew up with the typical "All men are dogs", and would tell me about her sex life constantly), dad (always oogled woman and would make it clear "Ooo.. Look at that bubble butt.") they also complain about eachother to me, tried my whole life to say how uncomfortable it made me, until one day i exploded on them, my mom for being a feminazi and my dad for being a fucking perv in front of his kid
>>how did it affect you
>feel guilty for existing
>squeamish about intimacy
>feel very uncomfortable with lot of topics regarding stuff that should be normal
>
>>how do you feel about it
shitty and wish i could fade away
>>A/S/L
24/m/NYC
>>contact
i dunno if you're really interested i will just tell me
>>face if brave enough
nah dude
>>post about yourself!
i just like cartoons, they're my passion, dude and always will be i just wanna be an animator
>>24056652
Ill add you
