I have come to the realization that I'm a horrible person. But that's not even the worst part. The worst part is that I feel like I'm not even really sorry for it, but merely putting up an act. Even this post feels like an act to get someone to comfort me, which I don't deserve. What should I do?
watch anime to numb the pain
>>4040290
realize it's impossible to be "real"
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embrace fakery and acting/persona
no one will ever know you
>>4040333
If that's true, then what do people mean when they say "Just be yourself."?
>>4040333
good triples
>>4040336
It's just a meme kid...
>>4040333
are those trips real?!
>>4040290
put bullet thru brain
come home, poop soldier
>>4040338
I wish I could be happy, but it doesn't seem to be something under my control. When depressed, everything just seems an endless waste of time, not because I don't consider life worth living, but because of my state of mind. I realize this state is caused by me, but I'm unable to control it. When paranoid, everything feels like a jack-in-the-box. I'm also afraid that when I think something, that thought will suddenly come true. This is because I've had cases of thoughts suddenly converging into a conscious pattern, which is very scary. In fact, when I typed this post, I switched from being depressed to being paranoid. I'm shaking a little right now.
>>4040341
That can't be true. When I was a child, I felt I was myself. I was also happy. Now, all I can feel is that I'm some random person pretending to be me. I don't feel home at all. It makes me paranoid and depressed.
>>4040382
are you more paranoid that someone is after you, or are you really afraid of the possibility that no one cares? in actuality, most of us are here because oddly it is real, because no one can keep track of what is what or anything and it doesn't eben mattress, or whatever, so at least don't feel alone. mix in some actual reading of stuff. the pressure is to "share" and "like" and all that b.s., but what did people do when they just has gas lamps and hardcover books? yeah? so if you need to social network this is the place but otherwise it is okay to read and stuff without other people having to know about it/evaluate what it says about you as a person i don't idk if that helps kthx
Your fortune: You will meet a dark handsome stranger
>>4040400
checked.
>>4040290
post feet
