What is /pol/s opinion of a straight man with gender dysphoria who takes hormone replacement therapy to help himself cope? I don't have any wacky plans of ever trying to live as a woman, I'm not deluded enough to think men should be able to use womens bathrooms or even be treated like women, and I'm in a healthy straight relationship, but I dread the idea of getting more masculine/less feminine and the hormones help keep me sane enough to function as a normal member of society.
Am I a non-degenerate or just a disgusting closet tranny with a superiority complex directed at my fellow freaks?
just a disgusting closeted tranny with a superiority complex directed at your fellow freaks
>>73704286
Damn. I'd hoped I was at least a little bit better than the rest of them. Still not gonna go full tranny ever if I am already a freak tho.
>>73704127
>>73704696
You obviously want to do the right thing: the right thing, in this case, is to determine what it is about yourself that you hate so much that you have demonized your most fundamental identifying characteristic in an order to find some relief from what is obviously profound and deep rooted self loathing.
You need to accept that (1) there is nothing wrong with being masculine; (2) there is nothing with YOU being masculine; (3) that being afraid of your own masculinity only serves to reinforce your self loathing; (4) that you were overwhelmingly likely to have been psychologically or sexually abused, and must come to terms with the long term consequences thereof; and (5) that the only non-degenerate way to exist is to accept yourself, including the sex you were born with, and live a life that exemplifies the highest characteristics of the same.
>>73704127
just wear panties, bras and skirts occasionally and grow your nails out. Family Guy made it okay once in awhile.
>>73705582
>1) there is nothing wrong with being masculine
I don't believe there is. I even try to maintain masculine characteristics in my personality and have a great degree of respect for masculine people, but I just can't accept my body aging and growing as a mans.
>(2) there is nothing with YOU being masculine
I know there's nothing wrong with it, but it's not what I want.
>(3) that being afraid of your own masculinity only serves to reinforce your self loathing
I don't particularly loathe myself. Like I did, but after being on the hormones for quite awhile what self-loathing was there is now gone.
>(4) that you were overwhelmingly likely to have been psychologically or sexually abused, and must come to terms with the long term consequences thereof
Never been abused. My parents spanked me on occasion, but every good parent does. Closest I got to being abused I'd think would be being bullied in school.
>5) that the only non-degenerate way to exist is to accept yourself, including the sex you were born with, and live a life that exemplifies the highest characteristics of the same.
Well I mean, I know I'm a man and I accept that, but I really just do not think I can accept the effects of testosterone on my body in further, and I quite like the effects estrogen has had too. Is that so wrong?
>>73705699
>just wear panties, bras and skirts occasionally and grow your nails out
That's the exact opposite of how I want to live my life. I want to keep my body feminine while still being able to behave and act like a normal man in society.
>>73706153
How do you plan on living a normal life as a male while having a half-feminized body? I mean how do you deal with the whole chest situation?
Not to mention I'm sure taking estrogen drastically alters you mentally (which is why you're doing it) and what not.
>>73706558
>How do you plan on living a normal life as a male while having a half-feminized body?
It hasn't given me any difficulty yet. I'm sure it'd pose a problem if me and my current gf ever broke up, but so far I've been fine.
>how do you deal with the whole chest situation
I wear a bra to keep my nipples from showing through my shirt. Don't do much else really, despite being a large A cup no ones mentioned it to me, I'm sure people have noticed but no ones given a fuck. My girlfriend kinda likes the tits too although she's of the opinion that I should start trying to convince everyone that I'm actually a woman just because I ~feel~ like one, like any other tranny would do.
>I'm sure taking estrogen drastically alters you mentally (
Yeah, but asides for making me less worried about my sex and making me hyper-emotional, both things I've liked, I'm mostly the same mentally.
>>73704127
Whatever makes you happy nigger as long as it doesn't involve me.
>>73704127
You need to read this thread
8ch net/pol/res/5926004.html#5942169
>>73707480
I appreciate the link, but I've already gone well through my times of trying to repress these feelings, mostly by lifting weights. As for the porn addiction idea, I've never struggled with it. I've always been to disturbed by my own sexuality to be a fan of porn or masturbating, hell up until my recently developed comfort with myself(about the past six months I've become entirely content) I couldn't accept any physical affection due to self disgust. I used to not be able to hold a relationship very long because I couldn't have sex.
I honestly do think I'm just crazy, but that I've managed to balance it out and adapt to it.
