haven't seen one of these threads in a while:
>current song
>current feel
>Julien Baker - Go Home
>antidepressant i'm on has made me fat and destroyed what little self-esteem i had left.
>Yuck-Rubber
>kinda drunk, not looking forward to work in the morning, also >tfwnogf
>Sexy Sadie
>what the fuck am I doing with my life anymore
>Devo - Praying Hands
>Feel alright, looking forward to attending lectures tomorrow
>>61926661
>大森靖子 - イミテーションガール
>tfw no bf
>current song
Unwound - Demons Sing Love Songs
>current feel
Slightly depressed, exhausted from work, and unable to sleep. The usual.
>>61926661
>Aretha Franklin and Carole King (I'm switching between them) - (You Make Me Feel Like) A Natural Woman
>On the verge of bursting into tears because I feel overwhelmed and unable to write at my usual level.
>David Bowie - Quicksand
>What the hell am I going to do with my life once I graduate?
>The Caretaker - The Sublime Is Disappointingly Elusive
>I can't wait until I'm off work tomorrow and I get to spend time with the girl I have a crush on while her husband will be at work
>Swans - Blackout
>I'm fucking starving
>Elliott Smith - Christian Brothers
>Everyone hates me and I hate everyone, really want to kill myself but don't want family to have to deal with that grief
>Song
blur-Charmless Man
>Feel
Stressed and tired 'cause of work but happy because I just got into a relationship
>>61926689
you should probably switch antidepressants then
>Talking Heads - Don't Worry About the Government
>studying, pretty happy even though I shouldn't be, thinking about how much money I'll make once I finish university and move to a flourishing big city like Kansas City or something
>The Microphones - Samurai Sword
>Ask her out or na?
>>61926914
yeah, i'm probably gonna bring it up to my doctor, the only problem is the antidepressants were also sedative, so they helped me get great sleep
>>61926881
if you care enough about your family then you don't hate everyone, and i'm sure your family doesn't hate you
>>61926954
>Kansas City
>big
get a load of this guy
>David Bowie: Segue - Algeria Touchshriek
>I should have gone to bed three hours ago I have work tomorrow fuck
>>61926807
Almost exactly the same music and feel, just a couple songs away from you. We'll be okay eventually, anon. Sigh.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2v4UHooAEPw
high
https://youtube.com/watch?v=tk0BOK0EDFE because I just woke up from such a dream, one of the worst feelings I know and it keeps happening more and more, different people, sometimes people I've barely considered and have absolutely no feelings for.
>>61926661
> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-hcwZ9EptZs
>23, european college dropout, 1 month into working at the supermarket storage at night, and -wilingly- not seeing any of my few friends, also stuck in my room for the past week healing a Tendinitis.
Moving out in a few months. Still haven't gotten over my ex (we separated over a year ago). Can't bring myself to see other girls past immediate hookups. Confusing apathy and boredom with sadness. Killing time and making my way through a pretty extensive backlog. Woke up a few hours ago and starting the night off with a release from one of my favorites that I've yet to spin
>Your Fine Petting Duck - Devendra Banhart
>Wanting to take a walk for a field
>Now, Now - Giants
>I need to get going on starting my post college life. There's a job listing I'd do anything to get, but even if I get it, I don't know if I could handle all the things that go along with the gig.
>>61927006
It WILL be mate, trust me, why deal with the expense of some washed up shithole like New York or LA or Chicago when you can be a pioneer. It has all the amenities of a larger city with none of the downsides
>>61927106
That's like the one specific song that reminds me of my ex. That shit's fucking depressing, dude
Earl Sweatshirt - Solace
emotions dulled, not sure if mildly sad or exhausted. i have to wake up early tomorrow and i aint feelin it
Strike the Band, one of my favourite songs.
Happy. I'm usually happy.
>Always Returning - Brian Eno
>I hope my life's going in the right direction
>>61926881
This has been my exact feel for quite a while
>Daughter - Mothers
>vague sense of impending dread
>>61926661
>soft cell - sex dwarf
>tfw I'll never lure a disco dolly to a life of vice
>mbv - I Only Said
>stopping myself from drinking alone, don't have a car or job and am running out of money
feelin pretty aight
fucked this girl the other day
she bought me chocolate milk too. That was pretty nice of her
>Michael Nyman - 1 - 100
>Kind of nervous but I don't know why. I also miss my best friend even though I saw him last week
>>61926965
Do it brotha. You don't want to regret not even asking.
>>61926661
>disclosure - stimulation
>groovy
>The Dead Flag Blues
>Hoping it will all end soon because lung cancer and coughing blood fucking sucks
>>61926881
don't worry they won't miss you. they'll probably be secretly relieved.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sW_ePQRvrKI
Falling in love with someone I shouldn't be, I knew it was going to fuck me up from the beginning.
Oh well, it's not like I can control myself at this point.
>current song
Tegan and Sara - Call It Off
>current feel
I'm happy and calm. I'm in a reflective mood tonight. It's hard to complain, really.
>Rascal Flatts - What hurts the most
>tfw no gf
>Current song: Turned Off - Death Grips
>It's an abstract kind of feel.
I'm the main cause of my own suffering. The way I react to negativity is causing me pain. This is all my fault. Meditations is one hell of a book.
>The Daysleepers - Release the Kraken
I feel exactly as the album title implies
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n7Oqe_NgsDU
>Meat Loaf - Bat out of Hell
>first class is cancelled tomorrow
>Purple Reign
>I want to die
Friendly reminder.
Also sage
>Don't Worry Baby
>So happy and optimistic I could dance. Started a new antidepressant regimen and it's working like a motherfucker. Not feeling manic, just caffeinated.
Joy Division-She's Lost Control
Feel-Depressed as all hell
>>61926991
You can have more than one antidepressant. I take Wellbutrin in the morning and amitritpyline (the one that killed Nick Drake) at night for sleep.
>>61928409
Follow it with Jungle Love by Morris Day, that might make you feel better anon.
>some shit someone posted in the emo general
>neutral
>>61928427
>falling for the /pol/ and/or /fit/ memes
>being this much of a fag
>The Savage Young Taterbug - Taxi Fantasma
>self-loathing
>>61928525
Is that the post-rock sister
https://youtu.be/C263eElCuj4
Feeling really down about my dad's cancer. If he dies i will probably kill myself.
>>61928578
1. You need an antidepressant.
2. Would he want you to do that? I doubt it.
>>61928525
>complaining about memes
>posting a meme image
>Listening
Earl Sweatshirt - Faucet
>Feel
I'm feeling completely numb. None of my interests are appealing anymore. Music, reading, or watching movies is something I just can't do anymore. Even new hobbies don't interest me. I used to feel depressed, but now I feel nothing.
>>61926881
>Elliott Smith - Christian Brothers
Love that song. Might be my favorite Elliott song after Coming up Roses.
Also sorry for how you're feeling. I can relate to not wanting to hurt my family with my death. I hope things get better for you.
>>61926965
Samurai Sword is one of my favorite songs of all time. As for asking her out, I recommend you do, but then again I've never asked any girl out because of fear.
>>61928446
Good song. Sorry you feel that way, hope things get better.
>>61928578
Matt Elliott is great. Also really sorry for your dad. I can't imagine losing my father.
>>61928631
If he is dead it won't matter what he wanted. It's not like he'd know I went against his wishes.
https://youtu.be/Ycj3Do9apPM?t=8
>depressed
>despair
>>61928689
Go to tumblr for sympathy broski.
They love to circle jerk about how shitty their sheltered suburban teenage lives are.
>>61926661
>Dungen-Festival
>too tired for words
>>61928685
That is literally a description of major depressive disorder.
>>61928763
>getting butthurt at someone expressing their feels in a feel thread
>The Antlers - Epilogue
>Nervous cuz MCAT on Saturday.
>>61928804
>>61928737
meant to reply to this
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uC4374TkNYo
nobody likes me
>>61928763
Probably true. I don't know what to do about it though. I don't know who to talk to about it since I don't like talking about myself.
>>61928815
Epilogue was one of my favorite songs for a short period of time. Good luck on your MCAT.
>>61926661
>Underworld - Cups
>sick + tired asf
>>61928689
Ask him now. Ask him how he feels about what you are thinking about doing. You should be honest with your parents, if anyone at all.
>Lubomyr Melnyk - Cloud Passade No. 3
>>61926774
>Animal Collective - Banshee Beat
>I think im finally getting over my ex gf
>>61928898
Tell your primary doctor. They're more than happy to assist. You have to be active in your treatment though. Go to the doctor often, check in on how you are doing and try different antidepressants if one doesn't work. I'm >>61928445, and believe me, antidepressants WORK. When you find the one that fits your issue and the parts of your mind that are specifically hit by the depression, the numbness melts away and you basically feel as peppy and healthy as a kid again. Things become more significant in ways you might have forgotten they could be. It's amazing, man, and you really need to get some of that in your life. Numbness is not fun, obviously, I've been there, but it doesn't have to be that way.
>>61928993
Thank you for the write up man. I've heard lots of different stuff about antidepressant, but I think it's time I gave them a try. I'm glad they are working for you and I hope you get better.
>>61928938
What the fuck, are you literally me?
>tfw it's been 5 months and I still think of her every day
Well at least I stopped wanting her back a few weeks after the breakup, but only now I feel like I'm actually starting to heal
>>61929082
that fucking song its so comfy, isn't?
in my case it's been only 3 months but im starting to heal... cheers anon
>>61929062
If focus is an issue for you, like you can't read a sentence in a book and comprehend it without reading it multiple times, like your brain is jumbled up with a weird mental 'noise', ask about Wellbutrin. Whatever I had going on, that stuff is suppressing it completely. If sleep is a problem as well, ask for something that you can take before bed. Good sleep is probably the most important thing for your mental health. Since I started taking Wellbutrin in the morning and amitriptyline at night, I've actually been remembering dreams again and not feeling like going back to sleep when I wake up. You'll probably need something different as everyone's body is different, but if focusing on stuff is a big issue for you, definitely bring up Wellbutrin.
>>61929172
not the Anon you're replying to, but damn, you're a tru hero
>>61929172
Not him but damn this post hit close to home.
It literally takes me like 3 hours to read a chapter in a textbook and I don't remember any of it.
It takes me hours to fall asleep each night too.
Still though, I believe in mind over matter and I honestly think drugs are a scam and limit mental capacity.
>the cure - lullaby
>Kind of depressed and helpless, kind of hopeful?
Idk.
My mom told me that she feels like a burden. She has done so much with little appreciation. My brother's doing OK, but he's been ignoring the family (which is no bueno since he's in the other side of the coubtry) esp mom, & my dad's been showing very little support for her endeavors over the years; it just wasn't until recently that I realized how bad it was. She & I were never close, but I'm learning more about her life story and how shitty my dad's side of the family are.
Our neighborhood have gotten worse over the years and so we've been looking for a new house. I want to help my folks, but it seems impossible w/my uni loans & my low paying job. I want to get my Master's someday soon.
It's upsetting that she doesn't believe that the U.S has a broken system that's working against us, esp people like her (immigrant) women of color). She seriously believes that she was born with bad luck.
Cant change the past, but I just want my family to live comfortably, in a safer neighborhood, a nicer home, & be a living example of the American Dream that my parents believed in.
>Did You See The Words-Animal Collective
>just enjoying music no emotions yet
>>61929249
Misconceptions abound about antidepressants, but if the mind reaches a certain point where it can't handle the matter, then the mind will shut down. I've taken three other antidepressants besides Wellbutrin and none of them worked right. All they did was make me unable to achieve orgasm, but I still felt sad and my mind was still full of this weird static hiss. I was about to hop on the misconception bandwagon until I was told by a clinician at my county mental health office that the trembling and shaking that was happening to me every night for the past three months was serious anxiety and depression, and I ended up going to the ER. Since then I've gotten a regular doctor and in the past two weeks I've rebounded out of that hole completely. I actually feel like keeping my room clean again. I actually feel like going outdoors because colors and lights just seem that much more intense, even with the gray clouds we've had for weeks. It's like being a new person, but you're still you. You feel like your real self, not an empty shell with that 'black holes in the sky' stare, it's really hard to describe other than it makes you feel like a kid again. Hell, it's even made weed a better experience.
>>61929415
I'm also missing a friend I used to talk to. We've only chatted online and dreamed of hanging out irl, but it was really nice being able to talk about mu related stuff.
One day I was going to share something and saw that he deleted his fb. I kind of went into a panic and part of it stemmed from being aware of his mental health. His mom reassured me that he was ok.
I hope we can share links and say hi again.
>current song
Nujabes/Fat Jon - Aruarian Dance
>current feel
going through writer's block trying to figure out how to finish the prologue to the story I'm writing until sunday and make it not feel rushed
also having some wrist pains that are worrying me like hell because I'm afraid I won't be able to fight and/or play guitar/bass anymore
otherwise feeling pretty chill
>>61929474
I don't know man. I'm reaching a strangely empowering level of apathy.
I almost feel like I deserve this because at the end of the day I do.
People couldn't pop pills back in the day to achieve artificial happiness so why should I?
Just gonna cut out all my friends, drugs and alcohol, and only focus on school, work and self improvement and see what happens.
>tfw ended up catching a virus that tore my stomach up, which ended up causing me to have hemorrhoids that hurt really badly
Devo - Patterns
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zSMDcLRWQkg
>>61929657
Devo's more fucked up shit would be more fitting to your current state of being.
>>61929615
Back in the day, people couldn't pop pills to feel better so their families dumped them off at a state mental hospital where they lived their whole lives in a bed in a big ward with a bunch of other crazy people. The people who were lucky enough to not get dumped off at a mental hospital just tried to keep going the way they were going, and usually died early because depression actually takes years off your life. Antidepressants were developed for a reason. Not all pharmaceutical companies are evil as fuck. Some are, but not all.
>>61929491
Me too man. Me and this girl I know would talk all the time (texting) and hang out sometimes and we got pretty close. But now we bearly talk, she never really responds to most of my texts so I just stopped. Until like last week I didn't see her like in two months. I see her before I get to class but she's always with her boyfriend and trying to talk to her would be weird, I can't approach a friend when they are with someone I don't know. She probably rather talk to her boyfriend than me anyways.
>current song
Love Will Tear Us Apart - Joy Divison
>nothing
>depressed
>Bjork - Venus as a Boy
>wish i had alcohol
>>61929743
Listen man I'm glad antidepressants helped you out, but I think it's dangerous to be advocating them so much on an impressionable board. Depression is just a state of mind that can in fact be mitigated or completely destroyed naturally. I'm certainly willing to admit I'm depressed, but I know that I'm the problem, and I can always fix myself.
>Foo Fighters - Everlong
>Apathetic as hell, up too late, girl I'm into is a great friend but out of my reach relationship wise
>Re: Stacks - Bon Iver
>Sad
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EbETFO8gomc
>tfw no one to gently sing this to in a warm candlelit room
>>61929899
You are 100% wrong though. "Natural" anything is bullshit and you're kind of sounding like you have a self-hate thing going on. You probably also need some therapy to find out what the root of that is. Just don't listen to any "natural" shit though. Holy shit, I can't stress that enough. Read some RationalWiki or something. Just please, take care of yourself with real things that actually WORK. Take some St. John's Wort maybe. It's "natural", but it is also an effective antidepressant for some people, and there is clinical, double blind tested evidence to back that up, unlike any homeopathic magnetic vibration fucking FUCK. FUCK. Please don't do any of that shit.
>>61930161
jesus christ dude
fucking chill for once.
>Devo - Planet Earth
>Feeling amazing and making toast
>>61930201
No. I seriously care about other people and don't want to see them hopping on some naturopath bullshit wagon. I won't chill as long as such nonsense goes on. In fact now that I'm out of the depression, I might just go full on James Randi and take on these shitty people selling shitty shit that does nothing for the people who take it, except drain their wallets.
>bones myfavoritecolorisrain
>alright, a bit sad
>Duster- Heading for the door
>Neetness is killing me, and I don' think I'm capable of being a better productive person
>The i.l.y's - All she does is kill shit
>I need to ask her out, but I over think every little thing and will go on knowing I'll probably never do it.
>>61928502
>that stomach
...brehs
>just got back from a three hour shift at a very quiet pizza shop
>had fucking Adele's Hello stuck in my head the whole time
>>61930745
>three hour shift
Is this a variation of the 200 word essay meme?
>>61930787
fuck off I'm only 19
>>61929586
Gud song
>DJ Shadow-Building Steam With A Grain of Salt
>I don't know if I can do this any longer
I've help up from killing myself for about a week, but don't know if I can do it for much longer. I want to die to the Avalanches' "Frontier Psychiatrist" playing on loop. I think it would be fitting.
>Third Eye - Tool
>Pretty chill right now.
>>61930906
The fuck is your problem? Why the fuck haven't you seen a doctor or gone to the emergency room? You need to be placed on a hold and put in contact with a psychotherapist.
Rick Astley - [Together Forever (The Best Of) CD01 CD1 #02] Whenever You Need Somebody
Feeling bored and content.
>>61930940
>why doesn't someone who wants to die want to die!!!!!
prick
>>61930846
I'm not into anime but holy shit the entire soundtrack is amazing, I'm considering watching it entirely because of that.
>>61926661
>black metal ist krieg
>kriegest
>>61926661
>Teeth - Elvis Depressedly
>I've come to the realization that I fake all my emotions. Not in an edgy "I'm a sociopath" way but in like a "help me my brain doesn't tell me what to feel and I'm really fucking scared" kind of way
Help me ;_;
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VtajaNE4-LI
Morning coffee with 4chan mood
>>61930963
What the fuck are you talking about? Are you implying taking care of your medical issues will make you want to die? Are you fucking stupid? No, you're in the throes of a deep depression and YOU NEED HELP. So fucking GET SOME HELP, BITCH.
>a track my friend recently put out
>strong nostalgia for the house shows we used to do together
good times, miss em, wishin him well
>>61931008
That's called autism. Tell your doctor.
>>61931040
Morning coffee with 4chan... That must be like someone taking a fat diarrhea shit in your mouth. What horror you must endure.
>>61931095
I'm here for the memes, nerd
>>61931104
Yeah, that's what I'm talking about. You find that stuff entertaining? I mean, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4sOM6eQLW5M is pretty funny, but other than that...
>>61931008
>I fake all my emotions
I've felt like this for way too long, I ended up getting used to it. Nowadays I can't tell if I'm faking an emotion or if I'm really feeling it unless it's a strong emotion like love or anger.
>>61931167
I live for memes tubhanast fan
>>61931175
It sucks man. I don't even know if I'm actually faking them or not. It's awful.
Modulogeek - around
I've run out of things that I enjoy doing.
My life has just become repetition and im too lethargic to do anything about it or change anything.
I dont know what im going to do tomorrow, Or any day after that really...
>>61931175
>>61931231
This is literally autism. Autism is where your brain doesn't send certain signals that it would send for neurotypical people. Seriously, get in contact with some resource for that in your state, or a doctor.
>>61931304
Nah, it's not autism. That's already been ruled out. That's all the information I've been given. It's definitely not autism.
>heart don't stand a chance: Anderson Paak
>no real feeling actually it's only 6am
>we tigers from animal crack box
>tfw dad died last christmas
I don't know what's going to happen to me next
I'm afraid of how life will turn out later, if it has fucked me up this much this early
>>61928502
picture source pls
>>61931315
Then I'm skeptical of your claims. You've told a doctor exactly what you wrote there, and they did nothing?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WmnidpD_pTo
Current feel: Dancing
>>61931008
>>61931062
>>61931175
>>61931304
It could be autism but I doesn't have to be. If he literally doesn't feel emotion it would be closer to sociopathy.
>>61931062
>>61931304
Also, source?
>Grimes Kill V. Maim
>I'm going to the party and i'm going to the show
Smashing Pumpkins
Mayonaise
Even if I ham it up things will be just fine
>>61931469
My brother is autistic. I don't know where I could get information that would use that exact wording, but I know that's what goes on for a lot of autistic people, at least based on the resources I've read about it on paper.
>>61931537
Fair enough.
>Pete Rock & CL Smooth's They Reminisce Over You
>sad as fuck that things didn't turn out the way I wanted
>>61930940
>>61930963 <-Not me
>>61931053
I am diagnosed with bipolar disorder (yuck) and it's eating at me. I appreciate your concern anon, but I don't know if I can. I've been in and out of the mental hospital circuit (-1/10 would never go back again) for the last year or so. I'm not sure when, but probably sometime in the next week or so I'll end up doing it. I'm tired of disappointing my friends and family and all the usual depression shit so I might as well give this whole suicide thing a real go. I've already tried in the past six months three or four times and almost succeeded one of those times if someone hadn't found me after I overdosed. I don't know what the plan is, but I might just do it. Sorry anon, but if I'm not here, I'm really not impacting your life that much other than maybe the fact that I responded to your post.
>>61931764
You're killin' me, smalls. Please, call an ambulance or take yourself to the ER. The thing with mental hospitals is that they aren't for everyone. You don't really NEED a mental hospital to recover from a mental illness, if you're not that kind of person. Sometimes all it takes is medication. Maybe go to therapy, just to talk to someone about how you are feeling and learn ways to cope. The way you talk, you don't sound like someone I'd want to see do that. You sound like a good person and, regardless of anonymity, I do care. Call the suicide hotline. Please. 1 (800) 273-8255
>This bike is a pipe bomb - Mouseteeth
>No feel at all, which is nice
Become One Anything One Time
wanna punch myself until I bleed and sleep afterwards
Elliott Smith - Either/Or
Disappointment I guess. I don't get it, why is this album so lauded? Doesn't sound like anything special musically.
boys dont cry and the feel is scared cos i was about to puke but didnt, i dont like puking
>>61932091
is this bait
>>61926774
What do you study anon
>>61932194
Sorry meant for >>61926784
But feel free to answer it too
>>61932185
no, its not, im still listening to it, im really scared of puking
I've seen the footage - Death grips
I'm gonna crush this exam
>Kanye West - Blood on the Leaves
>We could have been somebody
>Whitaker - Embers Upon the Wind
>cutting ties with a close friend/FWB b/c she can't handle me seeing others
>prefer being friends with women but just end up sleeping with them and being an asshole
>started seeing someone new and it feels pretty good
>seeing an Angel Haze show tonight
>going with an ex I've slept with on and off and she too might turn sour and spoil the evening
>tfw I'm an emotionally disconnected man slut
>tfw I don't even know
>inb4 /r9k/ "normie" shit
>current song
Rae Sremmurd - Yno
>current feel
TOKYO DRIFT THROUGH THE HILLS
>>61928938
>>61929082
this gives me hope
been on and off with ex gf for 2 and a bit years, never had a chance to give it long enough to even start getting over her before i end up succumbing to retarded lonely feels and getting back into contact, whether it's my doing or her's.
broke up last time in october, for some stupid reason stayed two nights at her's being all couple-y 2 weeks ago and now back to square one again, starting to feel like i'll never be able to get over her but i'm glad to see it will eventually happen i just need to make it that long
Also
Mahumodo - Orchids
Current feel basically summed up above
>current song
Gorillaz - Empire Ants
>current feel
i don't know how to describe it, i'm happy cause I had a really good day, but i feel kind of sad and lonely at the same time. it hurts.
>>61932345
I want to know this feel
I'm the opposite
How do I stop feeling so easily
I don't even think what I'm feeling is love, just my brain trying to trick me into thinking I'm in love. I lose feelings with a chick after a week when I know their personality slightly more. Kill me family.
>floral shoppe track 6
>want a gf but socialising with people feels forced and unnatural. I just want to cuddle and have sex and talk without all the dating shit. I'm getting tired of hugging my pillow.
>>61932663
Exactly the same
>>61926991
not the other reply, i take zoloft (doesn't do shit) and have no problem sleeping unless ive got some other drug keeping me up, but at that point weed and alcohol get me back to sleep. self medication is an option
>the glow pt. 2
>school has me completely exhausted, i'm lonely and sleep deprived, i need a job soon
>>61932583
Happy/sad?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vJY44NMEHIg
>>61926661
>Buckethead - Sail on Soothsayer
>Wanting to take a shit but can't 'cause can't leave the office alone.
>Ambulance - Jettii
>tired and zombified on painkillers after surgery, can't feel half my face, wish I could just sleep all the way through it...
>>61927916
Godspeed You!, anon.
>AnCo - April and the Phantom
>feeling a bit sick
>>61932662
I just want to be in love desu. With this girl I'm seeing I might actually have a chance to. She's cute, done tons of interesting stuff, and she's good in bed. Though being disconnected empathetically removes the immediate emotional pang of strong warm feelings, jealousy and sadness, it's slowly wearing me out. I'd rather be hurt than not feel anything.
>Clarence Clarity's Buck Tooth Particle Smasher
> alright. just woke up. fuckload of snow outside
David Bowie - Let's Dance
Feeling sad and upset that I didn't get into meme school
>White Suns - Priest In The Laboratory
>calm and collected
>>61926661
>Bauhaus- Hair of the Dog
>tired of life, can barely pay bills, feel stuck. Been like this for the past week. sincerely doubting it will get better like everyone says it will.
>Sunny Day Real Estate - Song about an angel
>tfw i'm ashamed of the person i am
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5t8yn4WdALw
>satriani - if there is a heaven
>friday
>plz rec albums. been listening to pinkerton and brand new
>girlfriend has been emotionally manipulating me so I told her we need to take a break until she gets everything figured out, I miss her and being without her is agony
Yo guys what is this genre?
https://youtu.be/Xj-cipOrP0U
>>61932663
>>61932679
one day you'll meet somebody and it'll feel natural, that's kinda how you know. might take a while, might be tomorrow, but it'll happen one way or another
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KENxFmCCnLI
>crispy screamo/deathcore
>tired aftbhfam
>LIL UGLY MANE - BITCH I'M LUGUBRIOUS(COLD SHOULDER EDIT)
>considering suicide because neetdom is likely coming to an end soon, also looking forward to getting some 3meo pcp and deschloroketamine
>Iggy Pop & Josh Homme - Gardenia
>I should stop masturbating so much and practice more guitar
>>61934227
>Modern Baseball - You're Gonna Miss It All
>Maritime - Human Hearts
>The Hotelier - Home, Like Noplace Is There
>Say Anything - ...Is A Real Boy
>Joyce Manor - Never Hungover Again
>Free Throw - Those Days Are Gone
>Moose Blood - I'll Keep You In Mind From Time To Time
>>61934383
Don't listen to this faggot here
The only good Joyce manor is the s/t they went to shit after that
>>61934402
>similar to pinkerton and brand new
>don't listen to emo music
>>>>>implying heated swimming pool isn't their best song
>>>>>>>>>implying s/t doesn't have only 4 good songs
>>61934383
thank u <3
>>61934402
>>61934429
no fight pls
>>61934449
you're welcome lad best of luck with your gf situation x
>Samuel Barber - Adagio for strings.
>In college studying for finals (final chance,if i screw up this year i'll have to go do a shitty job). Though i've had the average social contact of a general /b/ basement dweller in the last 3 weeks i somehow feel great because i keep having dreams about this girl i saw on the last local party before the finals started, even though she has no idea of my existence.
>>61934510
thanks man. i keep waiting for her to message me but i know its not gonna happen. everything i see reminds me of her and it makes everything worse
>>61934522
add Walkaway - Thomas Newman to current mood.
>>61934531
shit fampai we're in very similar situations. every fucking thing even if it has no reason to reminds me of my ex. you ever just get random places you've been popping into your head for no reason? i dunno what that is but i hope we both get over it soon.
hard thing to do is remember the bad stuff that prevented the relationship in the first place, but try to just think about that without forgetting the good that did come from it.
David Bowie - My Death
A bitter hatred at my inability to change my habits. I keep telling myself I'm gonna stop being a fat bastard but here I am guzzling coke and eating really shitty junk food. It's pathetic.
>>61934559
that sucks my dude im sorry to hear someone else is having to deal with this bullshit.
she was just really fucking damaged and confused and im the one who's ending up getting hurt for it. turns out the whole time we were seeing eachother she was trying to get over a girl she went out with for a fucking WEEK before she met me...like, what the fuck
>>61926881
You're me about a year ago. I have tried and failed to kill myself (painkillers & liQUOR), and that is the only regret that I now have in my life. It might not get better right away, but it will not always be this bad. My only suggestion is to talk to someone, anyone. Your posting in this thread shows that you're at least aware of your feelings, and you want to get better.
>I Want You to Want Me - Cheap Trick
>Pining after a girl i've met recently
>>61934627
fuck man that's heavy, sorry to hear that. it's a good thing you got yourself out of that relationship though, no matter how much you miss it now, and it's a good thing that you did.
hope you find yourself another qt soon x
>>61934269
hhmm dunno
>>61932194
>>61932204
Please keep your posts related to music.
>marilyn manson - killing strangers
>bretty good
Current Song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yA281OuU3rk
Current Feel: (Pic related)
>>61934891
Sorry anon
>Dead Can Dance - In The Kingdom Of The Blind The One-Eyed Are Kings
>tfw no bdsm bf
>Weezer - Heart Songs
>Happy cuz i've been working out 5 times a week, though beneath these muscles I still feel hollow without her.
>>61926661
>Insides - Darling Effect
I feel kinda feel really dissappointed in this board right now, 4chan in general that is. I used to really have fun here, even on fucking /b/, but for some reason it seems like people got more egoistic and stereotypical around here. It is just not the feeling of fun and games anymore, just immense bitterness, especially with /pol/, /r9k/ and /lgbt/ leaking everywhere at the same time. Maybe it is just me who changed, but for me it seems like /mu/ did not change too much.
I think I like this board here the most, because you guys seem like you do not take things too serious. Being on other boards than this one is just really depressing for me ironically, this here might be feels central, but the feels around here are not blank despair.
>Lately - The Helio Sequence
>travel a lot
>Meet foreign girl
>So many similarities
>Enough differences to work with each other over and learn to better compromise while keeping us who we are
>Eventually need to leave due to running out of money/visa time
>Slowly talk less online
>no other girl fits the same
>Just makes you think of her
>Your one message every day or two slowly spreads out due to other issues
>Last message is her saying she still thinks of you the same
>just months every night curled in bed, listening to sad love songs, wondering if you could pull off backpacking for months on end to find her or if you should just wait for another message any day now
>the antlers - bear
>feel like crying but this song makes me so happy and depressed at the same time
>>61926661
>XTC -Yacht Dance
>tfw no real friends
Yung lean - nitevision
Restless, feeling crazy, nervous about nothing, kinda sad.
asmr
tfw no asmr gf for irl asmr
Transplants - California Babylon
Life (including my home state Cali) is meaningless.
>Duster - Travelogue
>getting comfy while waiting for 24+ inches of snow
>listening to Nirvana's Nevermind
>my gf is cleaning up our apartment while I watch sports stuff and browse on the couch. Life is good.
>Opeth - Harvest
>Feeling like complete shit and hating myself. I'm anguished as fuck.
>U2 Beautifl day by U2
>Drunk as fck withh a drumstick up my ass
> El-P - The Full Retard
> slightly affected by alcohol
>Salvia Palth - 'I Was All Over Her'
>tfw hold my own hand in bed as if I'm holding hands with a girl
>tfw circle my thumb on the back of the other hand as if it's a girl
>tfw rub my foot up and down my calf as if it's a girl
>tfw run my fingers up and down and through my chest hair as if it's a girl doing it
>tfw whisper to myself in a feminine voice and reply in a deep whisper complaining jokingly to "her" that I'm tired and need to sleep
>tfw lie in bed and pretend a qt girl is lying with her face towards mine and smiling at me
>tfw fold up my bathrobe and put it between legs as if it's a girl's leg
>tfw kiss empty air pretending I'm kissing a girl
>tfw lie on my back and hold my arm out and then folded at a ninety degree angle to pretend I'm holding a girl who's lying against me
>tfw go through each board on 4chan pretending I'm giving a tour to my girlfriend and giving her a humorous little summary about each one
>tfw watching home videos on my laptop of my family and me as a kid and pretending a qt girl is sitting beside me saying "awww" and smiling and asking who the different people are
>tfw walking home alone and pretending she's walking beside me and think up lengthy dialogue and occasionally laugh at something she or I said in the imagined dialogue
>tfw imagine meeting her family and having them like me
>tfw imagine her meeting my family and us sleeping and talking quietly in my room at home
>tfw imagine her and my mom preparing coffee after dinner and watching her laugh at something my mom says
>tfw imagine making her mom laugh and making her father a little annoyed when she and her mother tell him that he's probably boring me and that I probably want to get to bed after the long journey
>tfw developing several lengthy scenarios involving me and my qt crush and replaying them mentally each night while adding minor details and more dialogue and extending them a little further each day
>surrenderdorothy - dontbeafraidibroughtmyknife
>typical feelings of inadequacy, i know i need to get up and do something today, but i dont know if i'm capable. fuck living
>Radiohead - Bloom
>Buzzed and nostalgic
Luther Allison - Rock Me Baby.
Feeling kinda sexy.
>Au Revoire Simone - Hand over Hand
>Slightly intoxicated, sort of missing my ex. She was awesome, left me to go to college. She's in a relationship now but she tells me she misses me. I don't know what to feel.
>>61938052
Jesus fuck dude calm down
>Susumu Yokota - Hisen
>I invited some friends to come over and chill but I don't think anyone is going to come
>>61938052
>being this autistic
>>61938052
dude wtf
>>61938880
F'real
the sound of my fan
things are slightly getting better, but this lonelyness and boredom is killing me. I want to party, make friends, have fun..working and drinking myself to sleep is killing me. I need some change, some new scenery wiould be great.
>Burial - Distant Lights
>Apprehensive because it's snowing hard and I don't want the power to go out. But the music fits the scenery real well.
>>61938949
then don't say shit like you don't tip when you go out to eat on facebook and people won't think you're a piece of shit.
>>61926661
>superstition stevie wonder
>happy
>>61939154
I don't have to tip, and I usually choose not to unless I think the service I get is deserving of it. Only some white trash '86 honda accord driving wet dog smelling waitress bitches complain about not getting tipped. It's not a requirement
.
Melvins - Station to Station (David Bowie Cover)
Feel - Oh fuck yeah can it get any better?
>>61939232
not everyone has lived with their parents into their late twenties like you have and have to actually pay bills and eat. when you don't tip, it would be like me taking half of your paycheck.
Youth Lagoon - Afternoon
I really need to get off of Runescape and work on things.
>>61939310
Find a better job, a second job, or work more hours. I have no sympathy.
>>61939232
What? Dude I'm from Germany and when working oversees even I just could not miss the FACT that tipping is pretty much required or else you look like an ass.
>>61939310
>>61939356
Or you could just get a job at a fancy restaurant where you get $50 tips from tables. If he doesn't wanna tip, that's his dilemma. They'll just remember him and cum in his food the next time he shows up.
>>61939356
>make friends
>I have no sympathy
I see problems
>Jon Hopkins- Breath this air
Just found out i have a huge b12 deficiency that hasnt been diagnosed for years. On the upside my mood and everything will increase, but on the downside it could already be too late :(
>>61927081
i got tendinitis from videogames, and fucked myself up for years since. Rest, posture and avoid typing, if it's in the hands anyway.
>>61930412
i dont think they mean natural medicine, i think they mean by managing emotions and patiently building up confidence etc.
>>61926965
Ask her out.
Even if it doesn't work out in the end the good moments will be worth all the pain.
>Reel Around the Fountain
>Moz making me contemplate all the years I've wasted again.
>Kettering - The antlers
>A bit lonely, a bit frustrated, a bit angry, a bit sad
>>61939428
he's a fat 26 year old fuck up that still lives with his parents, works a shitty job, and is an alcoholic.
he's a smart ass, abrasive, socially awkward dipshit and thinks it's cool. in the past year has made legitimate (so I think) attempts to better himself but time's against him as he's fucked up what should be the best years of his life. "IM GETTING BETTER NOW LOL", and everyone else is like "yeah, we had our fun, we partied, had a great time, now it's time for us to grow up and be functioning adults" and brandon's sitting there saying "WAIT UP, IM GETTING BETTER"
Drive Like Jehu-Luau
pretty satisfied. a bit worried that i won't have time to take a dump before i head to work
>>61939232
I bet the 86 accord driving wet dog smelling bitch paid for that car with her own money, has her own place, friends, and life. What do you have? Nothing.
>>61939905
he's said before that the people in his martial arts classes even hate him. maybe shit like this is the reason why.
>day dreaming/ wishing that one person who I could never stand to hurt wasn't around so I could actually end it.
>They Try To Cheer Me Up By Saying I Did Once Live A Functioning Life
>ALL THIS SADNESS
damn guys get it together, live your life and don't worry about acceptance.
Mood: Making Friends, Plans & Moves.
Song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ca0u7zT83DY
>>61939232
you don't have to tip, but it's still the right thing to do. are you really that fucked socially? have you tipped before?
>>61940259
>are you really that fucked up socially?
No.
>have you tipped before?
Yeah, usually when the foods great along with the service. A tip in my mind is something that should be earned kind of saying "hey, this place is great and you're pretty great too, and I appreciate it, here's your tip".
>Pack like sardines in a tin - Radiohead
>a bit tipsy, want to go out vs wanna stay home and fap
>>61929586
>>current song
>Nujabes/Fat Jon - Aruarian Dance
I love that song anon
>>61940356
>>61940356
Why would you tip someone for below average service? Just because it's the right thing to do? that's retarded in my mind, and yes, I've tipped on average service and food too.
sparklehorse - homecomign queen
drinking alone cause all my friends whant to study tomorrow but i'm an alcoholic and will be fine in the morning unlike them so yeah. also tfw no gf. fuck i just want someone to share a bed with.
