>tfw managed to scape nihilism for some months but it came back
My life had meaning but i didnt even know it? Now im even more fucked up.
When does the ride fucking end?
>>8214304
I think you are misappropriating the term "nihilism" here. It sounds like you are just fluctuating between depressive and non-depressive states.
That isn't nihilism.
>>8214304
It means that for awhile you felt good enough not to slip into thought patterns that fit a less pleasant state of mind. Then you started feeling worse, and slipped into those thought patterns, or perhaps you slipped into them and started feeling worse as a result. It ways nothing about meaning, just how you think, thought, felt, and feel.