Write what's on your mind
Sad brown motherfucker
Poor guy. Hope him well
I love the woman sitting across from me, and I mean to build a life with her.
>>7617549
My body is sore from all the sledding I've done in the past two days. This is an abnormal weather phenomenon, but at least it makes for great sledding. And people say global warming isn't an issue.
>>7617549
Language is symbols; existence is language; and, therefore, we can never know truth; rather, we can only invoke and gawk at its shadow.
Bored, trying to learn the poorfag way to get into literature. No one needs help with their masses of white shit because they know the government will send their goonies to scoop it all up.
>>7617583
>existence is language
How can a man be this retarded
>>7617565
>sledding
are you six, mate? I've been breaking my fucking back along with all the other men on the east coast shoveling two and half feet of wet ass snow off my driveway.
I feel like black people are overrepresented in media.
>>7617592
Nice try, friend. But everyone knows thought, an essential part of consciousness, is language.
>>7617565
You have to be 18 to post here.
>>7617558
Good luck, anon.
>>7617624
Language is thought
Thought fits in consciousness
Consciousness fits in existence
But language is not existence. You sound like me when I'm high, and that's not a good thing.
>>7617583
Lacan beat you to the punch
>>7617658
>I don't know why I try.
You're just under read. Relax, anon. There's plenty of time.
>>7617549
after doing months of manual labour i have realised that it is best that the different social classes do not interact
Did God created me for suffering? Will my life get better?
>>7617682
>god
Lmao
>>7617674
And so, so much to read. I wish I was like other anons who speed read and convince themselves they understand it.
>>7617549
I want to write this particular story to espouse my views on a certain issue, but I know the best stories are based around character interaction and that plot is meaningless in all but the most plebeian of works. I don't know how to reconcile these two views.
Any help?
I feel like I'm at the conclusion of a fever, when every muscle is sore but the disease itself is gone. It is shocking how closely my experiences have matched what was documented by Laing, Campbell. In an odd twist, even the internal content has matched them in places, at least with my dreams. My journey was ostensibly about finding the strength to interact with others, despite the pain. Yet even though there's value in this, it's ultimately futile. The second purpose of the journey then seems to be about finding the strength to die. It may be all a creature like me is capable of, in the greater narrative of things. I'm a psychotic, violent, non-passing transsexual; I pretty much stand opposed to society axiomatically. Regardless of how hard I try I will be at best a disruptive and threatening outsider. How wonderful, then, that I have been given a symbol to keep in my heart that can make my death palatable for me. The juxtaposition of divine mercy and mortal cruelty is, in the context of the symbol itself, ironic. I understand pragmatically that it doesn't matter why I'm broken, but such a mercy was all I ever really wanted.
I wish I hadn't been broken up with by my companion. She doesn't like being posted about publicly. When I posted excerpts from my diary publicly, it was like being prostituted for her. I also realized she isn't a god, which she doesn't like much either. I friend-zoned the voice in my head. I still love her though. It would be nice to go into the void together with her, when the time comes. I hope she will remember me.
>>7617554
I thought this as well up till I noticed that what I'd assumed to be a shadow was actually a moustache. Fuck him.
>>7617692
>their qt3.14 gfs
He lied
and I can't think why?
is there actually a time when I'm going to eat near that tiny transgirl again, or does she go outside anymore...
The greatest limit to my capacity to tell a story is commitment. True, I may never create a visual series but were I truly dedicated and able to remain so I wouldn't just write short stories
I have a large pimple on my nose and it hurts and is bleeding currently also I'm lonely
The west has begun it's downward spiral and there is nothing I can do to stop it
>>7617900
t. every idiot from 1800 to today
>>7617549
but there were no 'people' to be found there. maybe long ago, most were fashioned into automatons. numbed by cannabis, wi-fi, pornography, antidepressants ubiquitous nwo brain control chemicals... the last of their god-given violent impulses long smothered by high-estrogen processed foodstuffs. all capability and/or desire for rebellion extinguished. machinistic pursuit of fleeting pleasures. cant live off the land...emotional, but far from compassionate. avoids pain seeks pleasure, doesn't do much else. maybe 'programming' 'creative'-labor or some bullshit
>>7617549
Skull
>Happiness is a knack, like whistling.
Happiness isn't just a catch-all for some kind of enlightened state. No-one is happy all the time, it doesn't fall onto your lap, you work for it. Stop being a self indulgent pussy (unless you have clinical depression).
>>7617900
Islam is the solution
I'm tryna smoke some loud
>>7617912
You are incredibly boring
>>7617904
>>7617932
no there is no solution
>>7617938
i try to be a nice person but if given the opportunity to switch places with someone who has a non-shitty life i would do it in a heartbeat
as i get out of my teens I'm growing actual distaste towards people of lower social classes (white trash in too short track pants, greasy asians with bowl cuts, nothing to do with race really, just people who remind me of public school in the suburbs) and it makes my bullshit tumblr political correctness side mad but i think I'm just gonna go with it
Tried the nicotine gums and it made my asshole sore. I've got nothing left to chew on
>>7617953
I know how you feel. If it makes you feel any better I think they hate the sight of us as well
>>7617953
i know its just a defense mechanism because of newfound loneliness and depression but the feelings are still very real and present so i can't pretend they don't exist
Because of the blizzard today my parents decided to drive me to and from work. On the way home we passed an apartment with some police cars in front of it, and my father commented that he didn't have his scanner on today. They're both very obsessive about that sort of gossip and usually follow the local police with it.
If they had been listening earlier they would've found out that a co-worker and I had to call in a rape. I wouldn't be surprised if the cops were at that apartment because of it but I really don't feel like telling them about what happened.
I always held a disdain for the concept of norms since I was a little boy. It's always there, I think. Most 'rebels' are never rebels, just conformist to a sub-group. I want to meet a contradictory underground man. I want to rape some bitchy middle class 'punk' chick and beat a bratty, angry goth boy.
>>7617981
>I want to rape some bitchy middle class 'punk' chick and beat a bratty, angry goth boy.
Ow the edge! Boy he bout to do it!
Should I stay or should I go?
>>7617993
I'm trying to say I would commit actions universally rebellious to society on societally 'rebellious' groups. (But I won't do it tbeh).
>>7618007
Of course you won't do it. You sad little man.
>>7618007
Calm down Winston
snowed in
>>7617979
Interesting.,...
>>7618007
>2016
>being this edgy
>>7617549
Cyberislam is the future
i heard the police lookin fo me cuz i got the hood happenin
i heard the police lookin for me cuz i got the hoooooooo
Why am I so weak?
>>7617689
>having such a firm belief over the (non)existence of a diety that it causes you to gaffaw
Tomorrow is my first birthday in this new(ish) home and I'm going to be all alone.
Then again, I've been alone for every birthday of my life so far.
I'm so lonely. I wish I had someone in my life, I'm so fucking lonely
I want to die everyday, I want to die right now
Terrorism is the most, and perhaps the only, relevant art form today.
>>7618156
thanks for the chuckle
>>7618156
shut up stockhausen
shut up delillo
I can't seem to get over this feeling that people are not interested in the things they are saying but rather the impression the things they are saying will make on other people.
Especially on this website, and this board.
It seems the only way to get over this is to see a persons face, and not over Skype either.
I lament the death of the community. The internet will never be a proper substitute for community, nor will virtual reality.
Connectivity is not a good thing. High speed transportation is not a good thing.
The whole world congeals to become the same place, and nowhere is worth visiting, and everyone is connected to the same media, has the same thoughts.
Isolation breeds uniqueness. Connectivity of time and space (transportation, communication) breeds mass-produced people, cultures, environments.
The infrastructure is imprisoning us.
>>7618156
lol name ten school shootings with chic from the past five years. i'm waiting
>>7618182
^this
>"people are not interested in what they say....rather impressions they make"
I would argue that this is just as, if not more prominent in the non-virtual world, anon. We are creatures who subconsciously worship status. It is ingrained into our very being, and as far as i can tell there's no escaping it. If anything the anonymity of sites like 4chan provide a type laissez faire attitude where an individuals "social-acceptance" guard can be let down
>>7618198
You would think so, and perhaps also a decent amount of the time this is the case, but there is still the 'status' of one's individual post.
>>7618185
most school shootings are highly derivative of past performances and lacking in conceptual depth. but once in a while, everything comes together, you get something truly awe-inspiring. ongoing collaborative multimedia experiments that outlive their creators and transcend their often banal motivations. their impact in the collective psyche far exceeds what novelists, musicians, plastic artists could achieve in times past. A kid shooting up his high-school in flyover country is the equivalent of a minor work. if you want a better example think of the Paris attacks or 9/11. it's truly a terrible new phase in the history of human expression Hyper-art if you will.
>>7618210
Oklahoma was pretty impressive for an individual tbih.
I hate myself
I hate myself
I hate myself
I hate myself
I hate myself
I hate myself
I hate myself
>>7618182
I agree that the inevitable connectivity of the world will cause major change in culture and the universal zeitgeist, but I cant so hastily conclude that this will be necessarily negative. A more connected society means a more productive and optimized one. Society would be more efficient, understanding, and tranquil. Sure you can say "Variety is the spice of life." and i understand what you mean and somewhat agree, but as the world becomes more connected I don't think that variety will disappear completely either. The internet has the potential to, and currently does, provide niches and communities for those who maybe can't become involved in them otherwise (like my friendz here on /lit/ :-))
When all is said and done, what is inevitable is inevitable, and the only thing you can hope to do is change your outlook on the matter (which I feel like i have been in your shoes before, feeling hopeless about the future, and disdaining the direction the world was headed).
>>7618154
Honest question: don't you have any family, friends, coworkers to celebrate with? Happy early birthday senpai.
>>7618210
>tips fedora
>>7618210
The least relevant form of art is the kind that requires dispassionate bystanders to declare it art.
>>7618251
No, not really. I don't have any family that I get along with. I'm a full-time student so no coworkers. No friends.
I'm going to be straight here. I am a cuckold, but I am also a white nationalist. I believe that whites have contributed more to humanity than any other race, space travel, anti—biotics the list goes on. But when it comes down to it, blacks are just better at fucking. Theres no shame in admitting this. There is no shame in admitting that despite the infinite intellectual and moral superiority of the white race, black cock is just better at pleasing women.
The reason white women are turning from the cause and running to niggers is simply because they are not being sexually satisfied. Can you blame them? If you dont get enough to eat at home youre going to go out to eat. The only way to save the white race from miscegenation is cuckolding. My pure white wife is my angel, the apple of my eye. And I want nothing but the best for her. So every friday she gets to have her fill of big black cock. And our relationship goes on like normal. We love each other, and plan on having a child soon. She also shares my red pilled beliefs.
Monogamy is a tool of the jew. Just give it a chance once. Its exhilarating. Theres something deeply majestic about watching a toned muscular black stud going in and out of a beautiful white woman. Try it once
>>7618282
>tfw you live in a state where cucking could never exist
help me
What are some books that will sort of satisfy my hatred of islam?
I'm not sure if I have a fetish or a complex based on the first girl that I dated.
>>7618338
fetishes have to come from somewhere sempai
>>7618330
>what are some biased books that will help me solidify my at-the-present-moment irrational beliefs
I had a dream last night that I was at somebody's funeral and a fat fuck dressed in black robes and a skull mask busted in during a hymn through the chapel doors and the preacher tossed his podium aside and started wrestling him, bashing each others heads into pews and shit.
I think that's how it was meant to be.
>>7618338
this
I had a pretty different taste before.
>>7618357
I had a dream last night that I was going to finger my girlfriend's asshole (which she has never let me do), but whilst doing so I suddenly had the urge to shit and had to hold it in. I failed and shat on the floor whilst fingering her ass.
This and other dreams has me thinking that our sexually saturated society have reversed the criteria of repression as Freud presented it in dream interpretation; that the sexual is allowed to freely present itself and more personally troubling doubts and fears become submerged in the sexual.
The skyline was beautiful on fire
Im not gonna get into law school.
I'll never write a good script.
Why did I sleep with my ex last night?
stoned as fuck snowed in with seinfeld and pinecone life is comfy
I was gonna jerk off, but why would I want to fuck someone I don't like.
>>7618380
all twisted metal stretching upwards, everything washed in a thin orange haze
I am terrified of getting negative responses back on my grad applications.
For the love of God just let me get into one of them. I don't even care about anything other than knowing I'm at an institution that looks good on a CV. Once that's behind me, I can just focus on my work. Could give less than a fuck which one it actually is. Just let me get one fucking positive response.
>>7618389
It's really unsatisfying desu, unless you like feeling evil but even that is mild
>>7618356
Well at least rec me some.
>>7618396
what do you want to study in grad school?
the thunderous waging sea
against the vigil candle blowing
while the heir fights the waves
on a sail destined to vanish
no despair
DO NOT DESPAIR CRIES THE HEIR
FOR THE DARKNESS
THE DARKNESS
HAS ALWAYS BEEN FRAGILE TO THE LIGHT
>>7618400
holy fuck that got me
>>7618400
Add this tune to anything
Think I'm gonna enlist. Don't really know what else to do with myself. Depending on my ASVAB score, I'm hoping to go into either Intel or Engineering, not really keen on being an infantry grunt. It's not so much that I'm afraid of death, I just don't see how I'd apply that in the civilian world once I'm past my service and looking to start a career. I know a few guys that went 11-Bravo and came out working shitty retail jobs for the rest of their life.
I'm really good at falling for girls that are terrible for me. My most recent 3: a heroin user, a a heroin addict, and a girl that gets trained / sucks cock for coke...
I only smoke pot. How am I fucking this up so bad ?
>>7618433
>only smoke pot
it's your circle bud. go find yourself a better circle of friends. and also do yourself the favor of dropping 'lolweed'
>>7618433
stop using pot you loser, you've got no one to blame but yourself
>>7618440
He doesn't have to drop pot, he just has to stop hanging out with colossal disphits.
I could atleast try to follow my passions again. I tried it 4 years ago and it was the happiest I ever was, to my immediate knowledge. But then I was scared away by demons telling me of unsatisfactory existence and unpaid bills and now I stamp average grades to my name so that one day I might experience a life of unhappiness but stability while telling myself to once again follow my passions.
Why?
>>7618443
>because pot-smokers don't usually circle themselves with other substance-users
rarely will you find a person who smokes pot on a usual basis yet has no friends that indulge in such habit.
>>7618450
I've been smoking two, three times a week for the past six years. I usually do it solo because I'm not a very sociable person and the things I like to do stoned (reading, writing, music, etc.) are best done on my lonesome, but when I am with friends, that's all we do. If we're at a party and I get asked to do something else, which rarely happens, I say "no". It's a matter of self-control, and believe it or not, other "potheads" have it.
Besides, it's none of my business what other people do. So long as they don't try to drag me into it, I don't care.
I passed my love in the car just there
Although I don't know the color of her hair
Do not look back, no, don't you dare.
I passed my love in the car just there.
I am Orpheus, O Eurydice-
My love stands in a monsoon haze
Her footsteps crack, now recede
I passed my love in the car just there
some thing i thought up on the drive home from work
I need to pack. And how the fuck am I going to get this girl off my back. I'm dating someone else. Yes I used to fuck her, sometimes still do, but how am I gonna stop fucking her? When we're together we just smoke weed and fuck and I'm trying to stop. When she sleeps over I wake up at noon. When she doesn't, I wake up at eight. She says she loves me. I don't love her. I kind of resent her. But she's really cute and I wouldn't want to hurt her. But I need to hurt her sometime. Or she'll never go, and my girlfriend will meet her and something good and healthy will be gone from my life. And I'll be left with nothing but the writhing vestiges of a partnership, and of a one-way romance.
>>7618003
stay anon
>>7618477
sounds like the lyrics to a milo's song
>>7617549
I have devoted my youth to the study and romanticizing of the spider. I am aware that outside of simple anticipation responses they will never know how much I love them, how hard I work to shield them from the horror of the unforgiving world. I don't know how to finish this line of thought.
>>7618558
the end of a thread must be a spider ...
>>7618586
I've pretended to care for so long i dont even know when im serious and when im not. No one knows when i mean it, so i've practicly destroyed my own expressionism by being a neutral, luke-warm fuck that i am. The worst thing is i cant come up and shake it off and become normal again. Its been like this for years. If i could, i might be totally different person maybe? I dont know, nor do i care.
I'm really fucking stoned. My lungs feel like foam and my ribs feel like soft pretzels. Tom Petty is way fucking better than he as any right to be.
It's comfy as fuck in my room with all this snow. My mom made cookies and I'm tired from all the shoveling I did.
It's fucking crazy to think about how awful my memory is. I can barely remember anything from elementary school. That was like 5 or 6 years!
I have no idea if this post makes sense. I'm going to go masturbate. And I'll even type >>>/gif/ to make it easier for me to go there.
I wish I could collate all of my digi-streams into one unified channel of things I like that I can click and thus instantly beam outwards
>>7617624
intuition is before language. Language is the mapping of intuition. If language were the only thing which existed in thought then the rare human who doesn't speak a language would be also without thought.
I'm hung up onanna kareninasdeath. So tormented.
Another thing... I can hardly be bothered with anything but reading anymore. Vidya, youtube, and even 4chan just seem like wasted time. I read most of the day today.
Something as simple as studying can't fuck me up this hard, can it? I mean I spent most of yesterday sleeping and whenever I did try to do something with my life I became completely deppressed. What's so wrong with me?
When did my weekly watchlist get so big jesus?
How much influence does 4chan have on modern culture really?
>>7618656
feel that feel senpai
idk
none to little directly, somewhat indirectly (memes)
I want to write cyberpunk, but not pleb YA bullshit.
Programming really is like magic. The programmer can make something appear out of nothing with just strokes of his fingers on the keyboard and a few hours of work. The magic doesn't come easy and it is rarely right the first time, but when it does come, it's often amazing. It is technological alchemy. Take pieces from this library and that, add in a bit of your own soul and then compile, debug, compile again, repeat as needed, and then submit to the greater repository.
This is the great magic because it is intelligent and structured and anyone with the aptitude for it can do great things.
However, I don't have a plot. I suck at plotting. Well ok, I have an inkling of a plot, but it's vague and hamfisted if done poorly. I'd rather write something good than something shit tier so I don't write anything at all.
What to do with mai life? All I do is watch anime, and post here and there. I just want to read but really I don't want to read at all. I just want to dissolve into meaning, find a nook and stick. But nooo! No, no, no. I suck. But so do you.
Why should I have to feel shame when I feel depressed about my life because when people compare theirs to mine because theirs is worse?
Why is it a fucking contest
>>7618749
>This is the great magic because it is intelligent and structured and anyone with the aptitude for it can do great things.
That doesn't sound like magic at all.
>I'd rather write something good than something shit tier so I don't write anything at all.
What you should do is already on your post.
>>7618754
Just keep doing what you're doing, senpai. You're fine as you are.
>>7618778
Because they believe suffering to be more meaningful than pleasure, do to the fact that it is not pleasurable.
>>7618156
This is the third time I've seen someone on /lit/ say that terrorism is the only remaining art form. Is it a meme or just one autist?
