>somehow developed an iron mental strength
>somwhere along the line forgot to assign direction to this strength
>aimlessely wander through life without letting anything affect me, good or bad
How does it even feel to be really moved by a book so much that you just have that click in your mind to look at things differently, to live a new life, to change your perspective almost completely?
Even the assumed greatest works of literature have not been able to break through to me. I can be appreciate a good book, but I'll just say yeah, that was a good bad. I will never somehow relay the book unto my life's current circumstances or my own person.
A book has never changed me as a person or set off a chain reaction that led to a drastic change of personality. I basically let nothing change my own self. This means that I dont learn from much of anything either. My vocabulary doesn't even expand.
Are there any other people like me here? How do you deal with it and should you even? Is it an advantage or a disadvantage?
>iron mental strength
>directionless
lolwut
also you should probably read some buddhist literature
>>7866598
Well, it's solid as opposed to fluid. In the sense that it is like an immovable object that lets nothing in or out. No new ideas adopted and no new ideas formed.
Religious literature is pretty much cultist literature to me. They have a tendancy to tell beautiful, intricate stories but then, at the last sentence, they will throw something about their religion into it so as to tie a nice end to it.
Except this upsets me because I feel almost cheated, like I just read several hundred pages of basically, ads. Ads for a particular religion. Not written for the story's sake, but for religious purposes. It can be very subtle or very obtuse, doesn't matter.
Buddhist literature I found is more subtle, in the sense that it doesn't pressure you into anything. But it's still subtle brain-washing.
>>7866567
>Are there any other people like me here?
There are a lot of people who like to make thinly-veiled /adv/ blog posts on this board.
You aren't the only one.
>>7866636
>like I just read several hundred pages of basically, ads. Ads for a particular religion. Not written for the story's sake, but for religious purposes.
it's almost like you were reading religious literature or something. weird. nice "ads" analogy by the way. genius level insight. if i could upvote you here like you're normally used to i would.
You sound underage or that you've never experienced hardship
>itt: people who fried their brains with porno
>>7866811
>You sound underage
This. OP stop making these embarrassing threads. Fucking "iron mental strength", lol. What transparent adolescent crap this thread is.
>>7866567
Take notes or write about what you read so you can understand better what you liked about it or how it relates to your experience.
You don't just suddenly change your viewpoint just by glazing your eyes over some text. That's dumb.
>>7866636
Literally all speech is brainwashing by that standard. Have some mental fortitude, baby
>>7866567
Books can't magically transform you.
