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This is how 5000 words got me into anti-psychotics and had my bedroom turned upside-down by dad:
>be me
>15
>autist in creative writing class
>everyone else is a normie writing about aliens and romance with unrealistic billionaires who never work
>be into this beautiful smart snarky redhead who wears red glasses
>spend half the class staring at her in love
>people notice this but don't say anything
>she is obviously uncomfortable
>i do it anyway
>one day teachers tell us to write 19th century realism-like chronicles
>autism and love intensify
>write an in-detail brutal chronicle about a prostitute in London being beaten, kidnapped, raped, murdered and sold to a local university
>describe the prostitute exactly like redhead qt in class
>even describe the mannerisms, the red glasses and the body marks
>one week after teacher comes with texts
>doesn't deliver mine. say she will talk to me after class
>"omg im a genius"
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>goes to her office and principal is there with school psychologist
>they have a lengthy conversation about women's rights and security
>no idea what is going on
>my mother comes and starts crying
>she was also informed of the text
>she convinces them I'm depressed after her divorce so I won't get sent to "special" school
>dad comes next day and gets red mad with me shouting at how disappointed he is
>takes all my clothes and videogames to look for gun
>mom doesn't look me in the eye
>nobody explains me shit and I am extremely confused for the next two years
>forced to take anti-psychotics
>react bad but mom thinks i'm just like the sick people in the movies who deny treatment
>spend the rest of teenage years half conscious
>only connected the dots between the text years after when they finally let me out of the medicines
>research and discover that more than a third american boys are being drugged for ADHD, depression or worse
>discover the "fight" of my life
Anyone else had misunderstood text?
Why did you think that writing auch a test would get you laid? I mean, you could have written something less morbid, no?
>In high school
>Not a faggot school like OP's
>By far the edgiest nigga in school
>School is publishing some magazine with writing from a bunch of kids
>Write a short story about a guy detaching from all of his acquaintances and killing himself with helium
>Gets published because I was p gud at writing back then
>mfw teachers are obligated to tell me they enjoyed it because muh special snowflake liberal culture
>>7716152
>autist in writing class
I literally had no idea what was socially acceptable and not. I'd pick my nose in public and yell during tests.
>>7716159
>mfw my writing teacher would not let me get a foot next to something publishable
Yeah. My school was pretty scared. After Columbine everyone in the state got pretty afraid of crazy students.
>>7716159
>I was p gud at writing back then
haha faggot this is what all the losers from shitty high schools say...dude, i used to be good at math/writing/computers but then i came to xyz engineering college and it's like a turned retarded or something i don't know what happened...you know what happened? you actually have to compete on the standards of the real world not the charitably low standards of your pleb tier high school
You weren't kidding about the autism, OP
>People noticed you obsessing over a girl
>Makes her uncomfortable
>Proceeds to write literary gore porn
If there was no reason for the rape and sex slavery, if it didn't develop the character or reveal anything about the human condition, you were just as bad as those normies who wrote unrealistic bullshit
Because you wrote gore porn about a girl you were obsessed with
I'm glad you got drugged up, you earned it.
And at the time you couldn't figure out why they wanted you on meds? fuck off
>>7716170
Touch luck, brah. At least you learn from your mistakes, right?
>>7716223
Tough***
>>7716222
I have conscious today of my mistakes.
But giving me anti-psychotics? Why didn't they try asking me if I could point out the shit that I did?
I had no clue. I used to read a lot of violent literature back in the day and just had that as a stand. I did not wish the qt girl bad.
:^(
>>7716170
>I wrote a story about my abuse/rape/sexual fantasy and presented it in class to the person it was about
>I literally had no idea what was socially acceptable
>I'd yell during tests
>no guys I don't need meds I'm a perfectly normal non psychotic person
>>7716180
Sure thing pal you roasted me
>>7716137
I didn't go to writing class, I went to writing.
What early adolescent male doesn't have a hard time gauging right from wrong, particularly in terms of acceptability socially? It is what 4chan is about, to be honest. Those who would dope someone up with any kind of medication for something that's pretty normal and natural are shitheads.
My writing class story.
>14/15 years old
>lower economic background living in a lower economic environment
>disgusting poor people, disgusting poor people everywhere
>teacher assigns descriptive writing
>write describing inept single mothers, wretched old people and other filth at a bus stop
>teacher revises the story for them to be victims of economic hardship doing their best rather than idiots whose failure is their own fault
It isn't as dramatic as OP, but it was a step in realising where my perspective diverged from those around me.
>>7716282
Fake and gay. Even an autist can understand people don't want to be violently mutilated. If you didn't, you'd probably be a sociopath and have been locked up a long time ago for torturing animals and maybe people.
>>7717003
I know this is wrong. I've always acknowledged it.
But I did not know I couldn't write it.
I really did not see any problem.
>>7717003
Also, I was portraying something historical.
Criminals really did kidnap people at night and sold their bodies to universities in big cities of the 19th century.
I just added the descriptive violence.
>>7717034
>>7717049
No, there's nothing wrong with writing something violent. But imagine if the writer of a movie like Saw wrote in a character that was someone he knew, then made it obvious that he did that, and because he had a crush on them. Why would you think that getting mutilated would be a turn on? Even if you had it as a turn on, that doesn't mean other people do, since most sex doesn't end in mutilation.
Like I'm just not understanding the motivation behind this. Were you trying to impress this girl by describing how you wanted to kill her?
>>7717208
No. I was just trying to write something.
I had her in mind and thought it'd be cool to write her in it. Being this crazy beta autist I had no hope I could ever go out with her.
I needed a model. I had her in my mind. And I wrote her because she was all over my mind. For you to have an idea I had written her name all over my notebook.
And then IT happened.
>>7717236
Ok then I misunderstood, I can see how it happened.
I have been in a somewhat similar situation where I got in a lot of trouble for making stupid jokes because I really just didn't give a shit, and it worked out like that.
alright, here's mine then, inb4 "fake and gay"
>in high school 12th grade creative writing
>loud lesbian talks about how she's on 4chan all the time during class
>constantly attention whores, acts like she's the shit
>one day we have a substitute teacher
>given the assignment to make poetry and read it to the class
>lesbian writes a poem about masturbating with a bowl of cereal
>maintains eye contact with sub the entire time
>sub leaves the room
The same thing happened to me except I wrote a story about a child killing them self solely due to curiosity of what comes after death.
Would you consider such a piece to be depraved?
>>7716170
Sounds like autismnot memeing
>>7717469
No. It soundkinda cuteto be frank
>>7716480
I agree, Anon.
People don't really want responsibility. But I can't say I am a great example because I am kind of a shithead.
It is still interesting literature. I used to live in a poor neighborhood too and all I saw was alcoholism, negligence of children and assholes screaming at each other. Even in my own house.
It quickly manifested in my literature. It is very disenchanted of people in general and I have been seduced by nihilism and violence before.
Today I am in a much better place, though.
>>7716144
this made me really sad and slightly disgusted. have you confronted your parents about this? id be absolutely livid.
>>7718000
Why do you think his parents are in the wrong?
>>7718018
I suppose they were just stupid, ignorant people who didn't know any better.
Firstly, the text he describes writing, while just cause for concern is absolutely not at all a good reason to put someone on antipsychotics, treatment for fucking psychosis - even mild antidepressants have shit side effects. Furthermore, no one even explained to him what was so bad about what he did - he spent his teenage years in a drugged up haze for something no one even made an effort to explain. It's not even such a big deal, either. Just because someone writes about terrible shit in detail, doesn't mean they're planning on become fucking Ted Bundy. What do people fucking think writing is all about?
Basically I'm just really mad that some poor kid didn't get the help he needed at such a vulnerable time in his life and suffered immensely for it. If it were me, I'd be pretty fucking furious about it senpai.
>>7718018
When my friend wanted to troll our middle-school teacher he wrote a story about a guy killing himself to be with God (i.e. faster than usual). She told him that suicide is a mortal sin, so the story makes no sense, the end. No one accused him of religious radicalism, nobody suspected depression or mental illness. Common sense and actual knowledge of her pupils triumphed over idiocy.
>>7718060
I'm with you Anon, the idiot going "Why do you think his parents are in the wrong" has no idea of the repercussions of Anti-psychotic medication.
And to use it as the first solution to OP's (apparent) disassociation with social norms is absolutely juvenile.
Hey, OP. I've had a similar experience.
>Two divorced parents, both southern assholes divided across the continent.
>Constantly dealing with their shitty quibbles over each other and their failed relationships.
>Living with mother most of the time, she only dates/marries deadbeats.
>Move into home with her sociopath husband; turns out he was planning a hit on her for the insurance collection.
>Dad finally moves to live nearby; tell him how I'm feeling; express that I want out; end of running away with him.
>Spend a couple weeks hiding in hotels, hiding from police.
>Finally, they make a deal, we're going to court. Then begins the shittiest six years of my life.
>Begin having manic episodes because I'm bipolar, but no diagnosed.
>Turn eleven years old, living halfway between two houses: One is neglected, because my father was a workaholic; the other is an apartment with my insane mother who blames me for her problems.
>Have gradual decline into complete depression, can't focus on work, can't focus on anything correctly, constantly scared all of the time, want to die, want to die, want to die, want to die.
>Breakdown in front of a counselor, suggests I be hospitalized
>My father thinks I'm a weak fag, my mother thinks it's my father's fault.
>They're still doing a custody battle. The court decides I have to be under complete supervision until I'm eighteen. There goes any chance of a normal age-appropriate social interaction. Miss friend's birthday's, parties, etc. Can't date, can't do anything.
>Constantly suspended because I hate everyone and everything, still want to kill myself
>Hospitalized multiple times, drugged out like fuck. etc etc
>Only thirteen
And then it goes on for some years until I turn eighteen with no diploma and my dad kicks me out of his house and I'm homeless sleeping in my friend's laundry-room/office and after a couple years finally get my shit together.
People don't know pain.
>>7717469
I did something similar, though in mine the childs mother died in childbirth and he grew up always wondering what she was like before eventually deciding to find out for himself
If OP would be so kind I would love to read their essay. Alternatively I would like some recommendations for books on 19th century London prostitutes.
>>7718282
idk if this is obvious, but nancy from oliver twist always breaks my heart (in a good way)
I was in a creative writing class for an elective credit in community college when I was 19, it had one assignment: Write an anonymous story, submit it to the professor and we talk about it in class.
I wrote a story titled "Christianity". The 'expository blurb' that accompanied it was "This is a story about my great grandmother's relationship with God" about a girl named Stacy. She went into a 'haunted corn maze' attraction during Halloween and got split up from her boyfriend, then a guy started chasing her down, caught up to her, sedated her and took her off to his car.
She woke up on an operating table where the guy calmly told her that she had sinned against him. He was stalking her since her childhood, he had an album of pictures of every event in her life which he showed to an increasingly tearful and terrified Stacy. He informed her that her final sin was losing her virginity before marriage, and that she would suffer eternally for it.
Then he chopped off all of her limbs, surgically removed her vocal cords and placed her in a soundproof padded box. He cared for her daily, washing her, providing her opportunity to eat, defecate and urinate, and of course raped her. If she was well behaved and didn't fuss when he used her or make a mess in her home, he would let her listen to music, let her look out into the woods. She came to enjoy the rape over time, it was the only escape from the darkness of the box, the only sensation offered to her.
She later discovers that she is not her master's only pet. Initially she is shocked, she cries, she feels betrayed and does not know why. She feels inadequate, unwanted. She eventually kills her 'sisters' when her master shares his bed with her for a night. She squirms out of his grasp, goes under the bed and plugs the ventilation holes on each box for several minutes each. The boxes move gently as each girl realizes she is dying and begins to struggle, then they stop.
When her master wakes, he discovers that his other concubines are dead, when he confronts Stacy, she cries and opens her mouth, begging for his cock to fill it. He violently facefucks her then shoots her dead after cumming down her throat.
Needless to say, I made most of the class very angry.
>>7718337
LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
details on class reactions please
>>7718337
I really hope your great grandmother wasn't named Stacy.
>>7718345
First I forgot, the blurb was actually "This is a story about my great grandmother's relationship with God and Men". I unfortunately lost the file when my laptop a year later.
The token gender studies type with dreadlocks said this was actually fucking disgusting and whoever wrote it needs to go to the psych ward, one of the quiet girls in the back laughed uncomfortably during a passage where Stacy pissed herself because her master let her drink too much. One of the Christfags in the class said this story was disgusting and displayed a nihilistic thought process. One girl asked the professor to stop reading, to his credit he said that every story must be read and discussed and said if it made her uncomfortable, she was welcome to step out.
The overall conversation was basically: what the fuck causes someone to write something like this, how can normal people who live in society around us think up this shit?
Most of the class just looked fucking disgusted. I sat in the back to make sure that if I cracked a smug grin, not many people would see it.
>>7718337
that sounds like a fucking awesome excercise, if they have to be read. i think more classes should do that
>Think I'm brilliant, but underachieve due to laziness
>Shit out assignment
>Get an average mark
>Whatevs, if I actually tried they would see how smart I really am
>
>>7716137
>19th century
>red glasses
It's shit.
>>7718018
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>>7716222
Does that really seem like a normal reaction to a fictional text to you?
>>7716144
I can't belive that happened.
>>7717208
>imagine if the writer of a movie like Saw wrote in a character that was someone he knew, then made it obvious that he did that
People do that all the time and no one freaks out.
>>7717439
Maybe not fake, but definitely, literally, gay.
>>7717469
>>7717747
Sounds really normal, not to mention potentially really interesting, to me. Especially if you're steeped in middle-America Christian ideology from a young age (e.g. me), or any other religious ideology for that matter, that's enough of a reason for such a piece to be entirely not depraved.
This shite is fictional and homosexual. No one is this fucking autistic.
>Be me
>19
>Start story with ">Be me"
> :^)
>In creative writing class
>Ask friend what her favourite book is
>"I really like Harry Potter."
>About to be autistic and tell her that she likes bad books
>"OMG I LOVE HERRY PITTER"
>Everyone in the class (12 other people) immediately start fawning over "the world she made" and how "interesting the story is"
>Cry eternally because I paid for this class
If I have to critique one more fucking fantasy story I'm going to kill someone.
>>7718337
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>>7718195
How did you "finally get your shit together"? Asking for a friend...
>>7717439
confused about the mechanics of masturbating with a bowl
>>7718133
The teacher may have been aware he was trolling. Additionally there's a difference between someone torturing and murdering a student and someone killing themselves for eternal salvation. They are on opposite ends of the spectrum, one being the purposeful infliction of pain and the other being the desire for the kingdom of god. Thats not really a fair comparison
