> Walking through the clothing section of Walmart
> Look to my left and see the womens' section
> Sinking feeling in my stomach, because as much as I wish I could be female, I'm not
> Make my way to the checkout line
> Spy a mother and her tween daughter looking at makeup
> Put my head down and keep walking
> Try not to think about how I wish I was able to experience childhood as a girl
> Come home and get online
> Try and force myself to stay away from here, or anything trans related
> Stare at Spiro and estrogen on IHP, wishing I could muster up the will to just buy it already
> Yep, totally not trans, this is definitely just a phase or some kind of fetish
Kill me.
It won't go away. And you know you were gonna hear that. Go order the stuff and in a few months you too are gonna shop makeup.
Oooh always wanted to be one of those freaky trannies dragging yet another poor soul into their doom.
>>5205856
If it bothers you, see a doctor and get referred to a specialist. That's what I've decided to do after being stuck in a situation similar to yours for three years.
>>5205856
>kill me
Look, OP. Life screwed you over. It's a simple fact, and you shouldn't count on anyone to be there to help you out. But you live in a time when you have an excellent chance at being happy and you aren't doing what you need to because you're scared? What scares you more, OP? The unknown of transition, or knowing that you continue like this you will experience those emotions and feeling until you go insane or kill yourself? You don't have the excuse of ignorance. You know what to do and how. You have the tools. We are all scared OP, but you need to allow yourself to be happy. You will be okay.
Now go get yourself some HRT, and live life, goddammit.
>>5206323
Even if that's the case, why would "manning up" make them happier?
>>5205856
dont buy your clothes at walmart =P ...
OP see a gender therapist. If you are feeling that conflicted internally, seeing somebody can help. Its never too late to do something about it, but the sooner the better. the longer you let it go without doing anything about, it the more it eats you up inside. I went through 18 years of that shit and nearly died. Its rough OP i know, but you can make the change.
also, I advise staying away from self medicating, if at all possible.
>>5206346
>his dad never took him fishing enough or let him do enough male activities.
But I don't like fishing or manly activities...
>>5206346
yep, no. grew up with all that shit, was good at everything. still trans.
>>5206346
You're literally retarded.
>>5206311
Don't encourage him to turn into a disgusting goblin like you just so you can feel like less of a freak.
>>5205856
It's not going to get better. It just eats away at you until you have no hopes or dreams for anything but death. Get hormones, you can always kill yourself later if it doesn't work out.
>>5206346
I love fishing and camping, but I still want to be a girl.
>>5206680
Hi, Cartman! Have you gotten your hugs today?
>>5205856
When people say it's a phase, it's during puberty, when your hormones are imbalanced, which creates temporary gender dysphoria.
>>5206323
>You wont be happy mutilating yourself into a freak. Have you ever thought that it's maybe not the girly things you want to do, but the fact that it's the male things you want to avoid because they're harder.
This always makes me laugh. You ever try putting on decent looking eye make up? Shit takes tons of practice
>>5206922
The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence
>>5206323
Hi Cartman. I thought you were OP and had finally accepted your own fate.
>>5205856
>wants to experience childhood as a girl
>thinks childhood as a girl is all about shopping for pretty dresses and being happy, when its about being careful you dont get followed home by strange men, have huge body image issues and constantly condescended to
>yep totally a fetish, although no one is stopping you wearing makeup and dresses if you want
>>5207128
>when its about being careful you dont get followed home by strange men, have huge body image issues and constantly condescended to
>implying childhood as a boy doesn't have the same problems
>>5206311
>>5206070
> What scares you more, OP? The unknown of transition, or knowing that you continue like this you will experience those emotions and feeling until you go insane or kill yourself?
It's...a lot of things. The fear of the unknown is one of them, but also the fear of rejection, and finances. Plus, it's not easy to transition when you live south of the Mason-Dixon line. Informed consent is virtually unheard of, to say nothing of knowledgeable, understanding gender therapists or endocrinologists.
>>5206323
>>5206346
Nice leap of logic senpai, but you're pretty wrong. I'm not going to bother going into detail about my upbringing, but it was fairly normal, albeit conservative. My dad and I were very close, and no, he did not molest me.
> Have you ever thought that it's maybe not the girly things you want to do, but the fact that it's the male things you want to avoid because they're harder.
> What I'm trying to say is, man the fuck up.
Do you actually believe that this hasn't crossed my mind at least once? It's a daily, sometimes hourly struggle, environment depending.
I've spent the better part of my adolescent and adult life trying to force masculinity. I must be doing something right, because no one has questioned it. And it has nothing to do with interests. I'm genuinely interested in a lot of traditionally masculine things.
It's not about "manning up." I've done that. I hated it. I still hate it.
>>5207813
>. Plus, it's not easy to transition when you live south of the Mason-Dixon line. Informed consent is virtually unheard of, to say nothing of knowledgeable, understanding gender therapists or endocrinologists.
It probably varies state by state, but I'm in Louisiana and there were some surprisingly accessible trans-friendly medical professionals here. Didn't take very long to get approved for HRT once I started seeing a therapist
>>5205856
just try it. maybe you would prefer dressing as a woman
>>5205856
>woe is me
Typical trannytrips thread, move along, there's nothing to see here
Why do you all only experience femininity in the most vain and materialistic ways possible?
>>5207886
because you're just looking for reasons to criticize us and would accuse us of being nothing like real women otherwise
>>5207900
Nigga, I'm literally wearing cute girls undies as you're reading this
>browse /lgbt/
>see these threads
>"man these whiny bitches just need to transition already"
>stare at FtM threads
>"yeah that sounds like me"
>"but i'm just deluding myself, i'm overthinking some some advanced tumblr shit here, i'm not like them"
>"i know when my brain is playing tricks on me"
Yet I'm still here.
>>5207813
You're rather stupid, anon. I live in Texas, and the only clinics are informed consent ones. That is the only standard. You're telling yourself bullshit to justify your fear of taking the plunge.
>>5207886
Because I can't actually experience the joys of shedding my uterine lining and carrying another human inside me, so I gotta take what I can get.
>>5206826
Omg if I could get a hug like that I think life would be complete
>>5209470
just fucking do it Ralph
>>5209470
What are you waiting for? Do it faggot
>>5209637
people who aren't trans don't spend all day thinking about if they're trans
>>5206826
>you can always kill yourself later if it doesn't work out.
Yeah I thought that too...doesn't work like that. You just keep suffering hoping maybe tommrow you'll be depressed enough to actually do but it never happens, it's a never ending cycle of pain.
>>5207813
>The fear of the unknown is one of them, but also the fear of rejection, and finances
Tis is pretty reasonable, people here are gonna tell you to get on hrt and transition regardless if you want to keep your family and friends and despite not having the money to afford it. Transition is expensive from multiple hormones, blood work, doctor visits. clothes (girl clothes are a lot more expensive then mens), makeup (also very expensive), other beauty products for your skin and hair, changing your legal documents, surgeries (srs, ffs, ba, etc) in order to pass well. It al adds up to thousands of dollars that the average trans girl struggling with rent and college can't afford which is why a lot turn to the sex industry. There's a very good chance your family and friends will not be cool with it and abandon you and having no support in your corner makes this 10 times harder. It's literally one of the most hardest life changing transitions one can go through. The hormones send you on an emotional rollacoaster which is not enjoyable even to cis women and the physical effects differ from person to person but generally if you start after 18 the effects are great which leaves you wanting more and judging your body even more then before. The pressure from socially transitioning and wondering if you pass is super stressful and if you don't pass which most mtfs don't then it's a living hell.
Transition at your own risk op.
>>5209683
Actually some do especially those with autism and OCD.
>>5209712
>The hormones send you on an emotional rollacoaster which is not enjoyable even to cis women
I don't know if I just got lucky with this but my mood just got better with HRT. My lows aren't as low and my highs are way higher and the average is way higher too
>>5209722
qft
>>5209513
> I live in Texas
I live in Alabama. There are literally none in this state.
>>5205856
Dw OP, get prescribed some Pimozide.
It's THE cure, for this kind of degeneracy.
>>5211060
>medical uses edited october 31, when this pimozide meme broke into /pol/
you are obsessed
>>5211060
So did you get your doctor to give you a pimozode prescription, anon?
>>5211039
Florida doesn't have any either. :/
>>5212463
Sure, plenty of therapists - but no informed 'shut up an give me skittles' consent providers.
>>5212564
Yeah but you don't need that. It doesn't take more than a few sessions to get approved for HRT with a therapist if you're desperate enough
>>5212575
Not sure about Florida, but in Alabama gatekeeping is a very real problem. I know girls that have been in therapy well over a year and still haven't gotten their letters; most of them have had to resort to self medding. Plus, almost none of the therapists here have any prior experience with trans patients, and I know of at least one person that was referred to a fucking pastor.
It's bad, basically.
>>5206680
OP might not have the gift of ignorance, but this person does
>>5211060
Very sad people wouldn't allow trans people to transition and decided to drug them up so that they would be in a vegetative state rather than allowing them to be themselves and be happy
>>5221704
I would take a pill that would get rid of gender dysphoria. It'd basically be making me a different person so I understand the ethical concerns but it'd be better than carrying around all the self-hatred
Definitely don't trust that shit though. Tested on all of one patient and no guarantee I wouldn't just continue being miserable living as a man
>>5221713
Sadly a pill that actually cures gender dysphoria doesn't exist, and it never will
>>5221721
Yeah I know, that's why i'm transitioning
>>5221722
Good luck, I hope all goes well. Your life is about to get better
>>5221733
lol it's already way better. I'm only 5 months in on HRT and still boymode and I've felt better than I ever have in my entire life
>>5221743
Awesome!
>>5221743
>only 5 months
Sounds like those pseudonym pills are working out for ya. Here's hoping they keep working for years to come.
>>5221776
Here's some links you should check out.
http://www.journalofpsychiatricresearch.com/article/S0022-3956(10)00158-5/abstract
http://cercor.oxfordjournals.org/content/21/11/2525.short
http://journals.plos.org/plosone/article?id=10.1371/journal.pone.0083947
http://journals.plos.org/plosone/article?id=10.1371/journal.pone.0085914
http://www.karger.com/Article/Abstract/262525
>>5221794
My post was tongue-in-cheek. He talked about HRT as if it has already changed his life when in fact it's been only five months, and by that time not much can change, hence "pseudo" pills. In all seriousness, I'd be happy too just knowing I was on HRT.
Thanks for the articles, though. I'll give those a read.
>>5221818
>he
I was mostly talking about my mentality anyway. I've been diagnosed with dysthymia and now I wake up feeling optimistic and happy instead of miserable
>>5221822
That's what I figured.
