Cruel irony I guess.
Always hated gays, blacks, anyone not white and within my group of knowledge small city (Barrie) growing up.
Now, despite having a lovely girlfriend, and loving sex with women, I can not shake my crossdressing phase. Tried for probably 3 years now and it keeps coming back, whether I burn my clothes, give them away, or donate them. Last 2 years toys have been an issue, butt plugs, dildos, and vibrators. I burnt my stockpile in march, and I'm back to two again within the last 2 weeks.
I love sex with women, love it, it's amazing for me. Yet every once in a while, I just want to pound my ass and face at the same time until I'm in a state of pure bliss. I can take that 11" long 8" circumference dildo up my ass like it's no ones business, and that 7" deepthroated at the same time spit-roasting myself and feel like my penis has melted off and gone to heaven. Yet I can experience the exact same thing slamming my girlfriend while she's face down ass up. No one knows, not my best friends, girlfriend, family, just you guys and xhamster.
I keep finding myself trawling through grindr and craigslist now, and I don't know what to do with myself. I feel like I'm destined to have it all blow up in my face one day (no pun intended) and ruin my life.
Has anyone recovered from this phase in life? I don't want to pursue it as a dream to become the little girl, because I'm happy with my body and life in general, it just seems like it's a kink? I'm not sure, does anyone have any guidance?
>>6565864
AGP.
Should also add that while I am in-fact not a passable dresser, I feel I look fantastic and sexy as hell when I'm all dolled up, but I am also very satisfied with my figure as a regular everyday man.
If you don't wanna transition just indulge your fetish in private
>>6565868
>AGP
PCI-E is the standard. I don't know your acronyms.
>>6565875
Autogynephilia, look it up
Man, your mental illness makes my cock so hard!
This is why I love autism and /pol/ in general. It´s like geeks/betas are doomed to developing submissive homosexual tendencies. It´s a bitter sweet life for betas/nerds/geeks/autismals.
>>6565917
>to compensate for his 6.5" penis.
you're about an inch longer than the average length of an African-American, you panty wearing, crossdressing hon freak.
>>6565917
Lol you've watched too much porn and the thing that will blow up in your face is not the gay/trans thing but the reality that real life will never measure up to your fantasy.
>>6566048
That one on the left is hurtin'. I've seen people like that in public before believing they have a good outward reflection.
I'm no beauty star, but I'm not anything like that.. I'm a 25, 210, 5'11" aryan man, at least when I dress my stubble that grows back blonde doesn't show up for a day or two..
>>6566094
But that's the thing, I don't want to live a life like this full-time, I just want to have my private time every once in a while. It's that I've resorted to grindr/craigslist at this point (though haven't gone through with anything) is the worrying thing. Are you saying I will be disappointed in having gay sex?
>>6566116
I'm saying people in general don't have that big dicks.
>>6565917
>Best part about it? I'm a jock, greasemonkey who turns wrenches for a living, plays sports most weeknights, and drives a huge truck to compensate for his 6.5" penis.
You're an inch and a half bigger than the average American but anyway
>>6566136
It's like rubber, I can go weeks without anything other than shitting and farting, then slip a huge toy right in without a frown. Hours later completely back to normal, blast out farts without a worry of sharting. Might have a lube stank but that's about it.
>>6566154
I know the average is 4.5" or 5" or something, and I'm 6.5" and girthy so it looks kind of odd.
Sounds like the average Barrie man.
>>6565864
you sound like another bisexual tranny
welcome to the club
>>6565864
I just threw up in my mouth reading this
Why the fuck would you want to 'recover'?
This is who you are, anon. Embrace it.
The quicker you realize that this is just a part of your life, the quicker you can move on and begin exploring this side of you with others that appreciate it.
>>6566048
>African-American,
I hate this phrase so much. Not every black person is of African descent and American nationality, it's so fucking stupid.
Like when that stupid presenter talking about John Boyega awhile ago referring to him as "African-American" when he's black British with and insanely strong black British accent.
>>6565917
lmao, get fucked
>>6568376
it's a stupid term. the whole point is to point out their oppressed, and to make sure to label america as at fault.
>>6566048
So 8 inches is good eh?
Why did you hate so many people without any concern or guilt on your conscience. Why are people okay with knowing they're total dicks?
>>6572758
It's because of detachment and beliefs. People are only empathetic if they feel similar to the one in pain and most bigots refuse to acknowledge the similarities - see how often they attempt to deprive the mocked group of their humanity or at the very least put segregate them in groups so it's 'us vs them'.
I know it might not seem like it, but most bigots are 'nice' people. They are just utterly ignorant. Some might go ahead and proclaim that ignorance in this scenario cannot be forgiven and it abolishes any acceptable part of their character if they cannot extend it to any and all groups (and I'd be one of those proclaimers), but that's up for debate.
>>6565864
Too much porn bud. Either your somewhat bisexual experimenting right now or you have a fetish. Enjoy the fetish if you like but don't think of it as anything more than that like some on this board would like you to think. Or you just like anal, not a bad thing get your girlfriend a strap on. Let me assume you've been watching sissy stuf...yeah just try your best to cut down on porn.
>>6568376
same that's why people just say black. It was the PC movement in the 90s that made African American so popular. However, that was in a wave of a lot of Caribbean and African immigrants so it was very stupid
>>6572702
Probably not if you are wanting to go balls deep into someone who isn't a size queen (ie: most normal ppl).
You are in the same situation where the less than 4in penis guys are: visually striking ("oh shit, you don't see that every day!") but where you and your partner will have to learn different techniques to deal with the size for it to feel good. On the plus side, you get to tell everyone you've got a big dick.
>>6572758
He was born in Barrie mate. There was no helping it. We can't rag on people for things they didn't choose.
>That pic in OP.
I am not really attracted to black guys but there's something about those black dildos that makes me horny.
>inb4 AGP coalburner
Not ever gonna happen.
hey OP do you have any vids of yourself on xhamster or any other site?
i'd love to watch them!
>>6565864
This is my worse nightmare. It makes me want to be a trap gf and have a bf. At least i won't have to worry about being a freak again.
>>6574367
Don't knock it if you haven't triedin
