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so how do i not get shitty ass pokemon, only thing worth anything around me are Abras that are near my grocery store
who here has a phone that can play pokemon go but no ar
>>6541808
Using or finding lures and incense seems to work. And going to different towns. Also leveling up brings different Pokémon
>>6541746
>sad as fuck
>want to lurk ftmg and read Brooklyn posts for maxium comfy
>this thread has been pruned or deleted
T-thanks for making a new thread, anon.
SCREW this PokemonGo shit, it can go to hell for all I care.
>not yet available in canada :'-(
>>6541841
http://imore.com/how-download-pokemon-go-canada-uk-and-internationally-right-now
>>6541851
Whelp, it was nice knowing you guys.
>>6541950
You gotta post poképics and keep us updated, as is ftmg tradition to share our lives and also, Pokémon
>autists who can't read the rules, shitpost, ban evade, and brag about it contribute nothing to thread
>Pokémon Go is more popular than PORN
>mfw going to one of the gyms near my house and seeing the leader at it is the mayor of my town
>>6541825
what's wrong?
i didn't really say much last time...
just that my s/o and i got drunk and took django to the river (pic related), and then my s/o had to let him off the leash cuz they got tangled, and so he took off (sorta, he was playing and wanted to be chased cuz he kept stopping and making sure i was behind him at one point he ran over licked my hand then took off again... he's really fucking fast) and i ended up having to run through the river, woods, up the road back to the house to bring him inside (he ran back towards the house, but stopped at a neighbor's pick up truck... he's obsessed with pick up trucks, i walked him and gypsy once and he jumped into the back of one in a parking lot and then she followed... the shelter didn't know his background, but we figure his previous owner must've had a truck)
i put him back in the house, and met up with my s/o... who was just getting out of the river by the time i got back... he can't balance for shit on the river rocks much less run across them so it took him forever
unrelated: if the anons who helped me identify wineberries a while back when i took the pic of the plant early spring are around still, thanks... there's a ton of them growing behind our new place and i picked some this morning for my s/o's breakfast while i was walking django (that dog fucking loves us, he insisted on sleeping in our room last night so he didn't go out with the other dogs) they're really fucking good btw, like sweeter raspberries...
>>6542418
>>6541825
+ this too...
>15 year old sister looked like transtrender at first
>turned out "she" has extreme dysphoria and was downplaying it to fit into a shitty friendgroup
>parents want grandkids, already failed with me
wat do
>>6542418
>>6542420
>>6541825
+ have a pic of me drinking wine in the middle of the kitchen yesterday... this is pre-river
i have a friend and we just kinda take pics of each other and things and send them back and forth all day so i took it for her...
>>6542455
+ gypsy the other day in front of this cafe my s/o has an interview for a cooking job at tomorrow...
>>6542438
tell her you were trans first so it's her job to please them... or you know, do nothing... it's not like you're obligated to live your life based on the life your parents want for you, and do some shit like have or raise kids... and neither is she, they'll be disappointed sure but that's life
it's not really any of your concern... there's always adoption anyway
>>6542110
my little bro is or was a gym leader (pic related), and apparently some of the pokestops in brooklyn are murals my s/o's sister worked on at her old job (she worked for this place where they'd paint murals around brooklyn outside of like homeless shelters and shit) they weren't designed by her, she just was part of the group that painted them...
>people playing a shitty game
>>6542816
>people falling for the jew's plan
>>6542455
And you're pre-T? I'm so fucking jealous.
>>6542909
How do you look? Are you on T?
>>6542985
I look like a tiny ayyden, I'm not on T yet either.
Took over my first gym the other day. It didn't last very long though. Rarely getting out of the house takes a toll on your pokemon catching
>>6543015
>Tiiiny aiden
Iktf. Most of us do. Have you tried working out? Broader shoulders works wonders on your stature.
>live at home with pop through college
>starting to come to terms with being trans
>be on a long drive with pa yesterday
>tell him i "might be" trans
>says he thought as much, that even though it'll be hard he'll try to do what i need (which isn't much), agrees to stop introducing me as his daughter
>tells me my grandfather's name was edwin (i was named for my grandmother)
i don't know what i think of "edwin" but it really meant a lot. feels good
>>6542418
>>6542455
>>6542460
>what's wrong?
Breakup shit, just got bummed out about it. No big deal I just like to be a mopey bastard.
When did you guys get Django? I need to lurk here more consistently. He sounds like a big qt though, I'd love to be the owner of a pickup and find a cute doggo and bird just chilling in the bed of my truck.
You're looking really good bro, is your friend a qt too?
Also good luck to your s/o, hope he gets it.
>>6543227
Edwin is a good name, dude. Congrats on based dad.
i finally got my baby
>wanting to be a man
LMAO
all i did was catch a charmander in my bedroom but im too scared to leave the house
>>6543368
Typical MTF can't see beyond her own shitty life to realize other people have different shitty lives that don't involve wanting to be a woman
>>6543377
Same here, there are a bunch of crack heads in town I don't wanna go play Pokemon in front of them.
Has anyone here had to deal with a communal bathroom situation in college? I'm pre-t, but present as male 24/7. Pissing in either bathroom would be fine, but the showering part freaks me out.
>>6543481
What I did was just wear baggy clothes to the shower and take them off after getting into the stall then put them back on before exiting the stall.
This only works if you have privacy curtains and shit tho
>>6542816
eh, i really don't have shit else to do other than wander around with gypsy and sometimes django now... doctor told me i should try to at least walk as much as possible even if i can't do much of anything else... so this gives me something else to do at least while i do it + i've never really explored this town and there's a map...
>>6542909
yeah, but don't be... guaranteed you're taller than me
>>6543034
i haven't even walked to a gym yet...
>>6543227
that's great, i didn't choose my name either and don't 100% care for it but i figure plenty of people don't choose or care for their names and it's totally normal so eh... works out
great that your dad was cool with it, and did that though...
>>6543232
sorry to hear that... be as mopey as you'd like it's no big deal...
django is our roommate (my s/o and i got kicked out when my dad realized me being trans wasn't something he could force me to just not be any more no matter how hard he tried... and it's honestly worked out great best thing he ever did cuz i've got a solid reason to not want him in my life and being kicked out has been better than being stuck there... happier than i've been in a while, haven't thought about off'ing myself in a week which is a record for me) and his gf's foster dog... he technically doesn't have any owners right now, he just really likes me and my s/o, and he's cool so i like taking him out and shit... we did name him, but that's just cuz i can't ever remember the name the shelter gave him, they've been fostering him for less than a month i think... they're pretty sure he's a black mouth cur, which is probably accurate he fucking goes crazy over cats and squirrels and shit... he's good with birds though, actually yesterday gypsy got scared of balloons while my s/o and i were out with them and she jumped off his shoulder and django actually pushed his nose on her back and nudged her up my s/o's leg and didn't walk away 'til she was back on his shoulder
>>6543549
>>6543232
+ thanks, and she's not really my type but she's not unattractive... she's this older christian chick i've known forever who wants to cheat on her husband with me...
i hope he does too, but he definitely has a good shot, our roommate introduced him to the owner and is his boss so he's going in with a great recommendation and all that...
>>6543359
got one yesterday...
>>6543377
i think i've found more pokemon in my house than i have outside... there's just a fuckton of them here...
>>6543359
just seen one...
How tall are you guys? I'm 5'8.
How much do you think heights matters in passing? What about dating?
>>6543992
Barely 5'6".
Passing - not a whole lot. Since going to college, I've seen so many guys who are short - shorter than me even.
I have, unfortunately, met a lot of girls who say that they can't date a guy shorter than them. It's unfortunate, but there are people who don't care, and there are plenty of fellow short people as well who especially won't care.
>>6543992
I'm 5'3 but I'm buildt like a cis guy and even pre-T I pass most of the time. Height doesn't matter as long as you date other manlets/manlettes. Tall girls tend to have issues with short guys though, and by tall I mean anything taller than me.
>>6543038
I've tried but anxiety means there can't be anyone else there, depression means i never have energy, and on top of that I'm a lazy piece of shit :v I never make it more than a couple of weeks before I quit in favor of staring at my ceiling feeling like shit.
I really should try harder though.
>>6544130
The best thing you can do to help against your depression is to eat healthy and exercise. You can do some bodyweight training in your room if you get confined by your anxiety. Pic related. Working out helped a lot with my own anxiety and made me look a lot more masculine in a short period of time. I can't recommend it enough, m8. Where do you live?
>>6543992
i'm 5' so short as fuck... idk if it hurts or not with passing, but it def hasn't hurt with dating... i've never had an issue, and have been specifically told "it's you so it's cute" by chicks, and with guys well... the ones who tend to like me to begin with it's either a bonus or irrelevant...
>>6543992
5'9
it matters a lot
i feel bad for short ftms (5'6 and under)
>>6544175
Look at it this way, if you had been born a cis guy you would look like a compact dwarf guy, but since you developed a delicate bone structure through a female puberty you can carry the height like a twink and then add whatever masculinization T gets you on top of that.
>Found new name.
>Male family name but no one in my generation uses it. People will approve, and it sounds good.
>TV-show starts up
>Host has the same name and is a macho cliche
>mfw everyone outside family will think I chose the name because of him
well fuck
>>6544264
at least you weren't me and chose a name while stoned
>>6544266
Auch. How bad is the damage? Couldn't you just change your mind when sober?
Which of you beautiful bastards did this?
>>>/fit/37883574
>>6544299
it's not that bad a name, just a tacky way of choosing a name
it's charles (charlie)
i chose it while watching iasip with my friend
>>6544379
Charles is a great name. You could make up a story of a great uncle dying in some war, or something. No one needs to know the truth ;)
>>6544353
Topkek at the /fit/cucks
>>6544130
there's a lot of shit you can do at home... and i don't have depression like that, but with my health issues i know what it's like to have to deal with having really low energy, and there are days where i work out like 5-10 mins at a time and then pass the fuck out for a bit then repeat... unfortunately for me those are my good days when i can work out, rather than just drag myself outside and walk... but i mean... you can start like that and go from there as you feel better...
>>6544230
i went with yellow
i found a church covered in morning glory i wanna check out... couldn't at the time cuz i had django and gypsy with me, and most people don't give any fucks about birds going in places but dogs can be kinda limiting in buildings... it's a catholic church though so i wanna see the artwork and shit in it... other than that i alternated between chilling at home and walking around with them + i picked berries and made my s/o breakfast and walked him to work then back... now i'm chilling in the kitchen while he makes chickpea patties for dinner then we're gonna wait 'til our roommate gets back cuz he's making some horseradish potato thing to go with it so dinner and wine on the porch pretty much
>>6544233
i'm not bothered by it... it hasn't affected like dating or anything and even if it did (outside of my s/o, we're semi-open) i've been with my s/o for what's gonna be 12 years this halloween and we're probably gonna get married eventually and if not still plan on staying together and all that... and passing is just, it's more pleasant when i pass and more comfortable and i prefer it but honestly what bothers me the most about all this is just how i feel in my own body, even by myself and my height actually doesn't factor in it's my voice and chest that make me the most uncomfortable... my voice isn't high pitched or anything but meh...
+ i can fit into small spaces which makes sleeping in cars easy, but i appreciate the sentiment
>>6544636
>just drag myself outside
That's where I'm at. I have some chronic health issues (nowhere near as bad as yours, but still) and combined with depression I just never want to do anything. Pokemon Go has actually been really good for my mental health desu, it's getting me out of the house and I'm actually excited about and invested in something for the first time in what feels like eons. I'm hoping it gets better as time passes and I can do more stuff.
>>6544303
lol well don't be... idk, it seems like people are harsher on themselves usually so that could be your issue...
>>6544379
i can't watch that show, one of the guy's has a really grating voice and i can't even...
before he died my grandpa started calling me andy after he had a stroke cuz he was just like renaming everyone for some reason (like my mom became jenny) and it just kinda stuck
>>6544419
yeah i was a little nervous at first, but my dad gave us 3 months to leave and we were out in less than a week and i like it better here + we got to bring our birds and our plants (we can garden here and there's a sunroom) so yeah... it's good, how are you other than the break up?
we have thought about it, but right now with the birds and my s/o's current job and all that we wouldn't be able to handle any potential vet issues for him and still be able to provide that for the birds + like check ups and things... but depending on how things go at this place tomorrow that might change, cuz we have considered it we both really like him and i think we're the only people our roommate's gf would feel comfortable giving him to so we'll see... he does already go to the same office for his vet that the birds do though so that'd be convenient to not have to switch
yeah, def, i think it'll work out... he's really talented, and i've always preferred his food to eating in restaurants and whatnot so him actually working in a kitchen just makes sense...
>>6544676
yeah i figured if you were that low energy shit was going on, though i know depression has physical effects too... that's why i figured how i manage my own shit with exercise might actually help, and you gotta look at it like... let's say you only motivate yourself for 5 or 10 minutes one day, that's better than not at all... and just keep trying even if you have off days cuz the only thing that'll really fuck you over is giving up completely
i've actually had a lot of friends say the same thing about pokemon go, it makes them want to leave the house and walk around... if it got better that'd be cool, though even just better mobile games that did similar shit would be nice... i go outside either way, but it does add another level to exploring the town here + i like that i can see places of interest when i wander somewhere
>>6543481
Are there curtain barriers? When I dormed, I would bring my clothes into the shower and change behind the curtain
>>6544728
guys* my bad
How do you grow beards?
They seem fashionable for guys now, and I still have almost no beard growth ;_;
>>6544935
think about how long it takes cis men after starting puberty to grow proper beards
yeah
>tfwmade friends with cute emo scene colleague
=>
>>6544935
calcium
>>6544379
Charles is a nice name, not popular right now but its a good traditional name that sounds nice off the tongue.
Always liked the names michael and sean myself, but it feels odd when I say either of them because they're so common here. : /
>>6544947
fuck.. why do I keep posting in here.. ._.
>>6544935
Minoxidil to the face. Look it up before you do it, though.
>>6544947
oryx how's it going my man
i always wanted to ask you, what's your ethnicity?
>>6544379
If it makes you feel any better, Charles means "man", and Charlie is "free man". I thought my name choice was tacky, too (Charlie is the masculine version of my birth name), but looking that up made it much more meaningful to me.
>>6544982
I'll look into this, never thought it would work for beards too. thanks
>>6544728
I have a perfect anime girl body, I want to die. It's not all bad, but I'm not just making shit up either
Should we call you Andy now btw?
>>6544749
I'm the same person that you're talking to there btw.
And yeah, I feel like I physically can't move a lot of days. But you're right, I have to stop thinking that 5 or 10 minutes a day isn't a failure because it's too short, but an achievement because it happened. That's kind of a huge problem in my life, thinking that if I'm not perfect and don't do x perfectly, that I'm better off not doing it at all.
But yeah, I'm usually a couch potato. I know I should go for walks and shit but I just can't. But pokego is giving me that motivation.
Sometimes I wish we lived close to each other so we could wander around the woods and smoke and shit.
Who here has a boyfriend/girlfriend? Are they also trans? Did you know them before you start transitioning? Have they made your transition easier or harder?
I'm curious but I'd also like some reassurance that I'm not completely unlovable because I'm trans lmao.
>>6544973
I didn't know of any other FTM's named Michael until I found this board, it was a little weird at first but I'm cool with it now. Especially since I'm more known by a gender-neutral nickname.
>>6545177
I have a gf. She's tall and is really andro (wide shoulders, long arms, sort of masculine fat distribution. She probably has some sort of hormonal imbalance and had too much testosterone through puberty, gets weird looks in both the men's and women's rooms. She says she identifies most as agender, but doesn't expect anyone to use weird pronouns and mostly just goes with whatever people call her (usually sir in public) but I suspect that she's straight up trans.
We started dating before I came out, and she took it really hard at first. She's SUPER gay, avoids dick like a straight man. But she eventually came around and accepted me, and we'll make it work as long as we physically can. If she ends up not being able to be in a relationship with me later down the road due to attraction, then we can cross that bridge when we come to it.
But for now, she's my biggest supporter. She calls me handsome and cute, uses my name and the right pronouns, and generally thinks of me as a dude (even though I don't look like one).
And even if she does eventually break up with me for being too masculine, there are plenty of people willing to date a trans dude. One of my friends actually recently started dating this mega cutie who works at the pub we frequent, and I have a hotass friend who's dating a trans dude. It's not hopeless at all.
Caught this lil guy near the dog park. Didn't stay long since my dog is mixed with a chow, and it was pretty hot.
>>6543992
5'8 manlet, and I only casually date older guys, so I guess I'm fine dating wise. Passing was never too much of an issue.
>>6544130
Walking is pretty great for depression man, start off with small strolls and maybe go towards miles. As long as your not forcing-forcing, itll be fine bud. Jogging is also lame, but fun.
>>6545248
Oh my god I want to play this but its not released here. Fuck the Niantic cock teasers.
>>6543992
i'm 5'3" and pass 100%, it doesn't matter when it comes to passing, there are tons of short guys out there
it hasn't been an issue with me when it comes to dating but that's probably because i fuck men and they are a lot less picky about petty shit like that
>>6545139
eh i think that'd probably just confuse me and other people at this point lol... i'm exactly dumb enough to be like "oh they have the same name as me, that's crazy" not even kidding, took me 6 years to realize the one of bathrooms in my mother's house is purple and i had to be told that... she asked me what colour she should paint it i said "purple" and she looked at me like i was an asshole and said it already was... i seriously thought she was fucking with me and had to go look...
i don't think i watch enough anime to get what you mean...
my bad, i'm shit at telling people apart without names if i notice the names, that goes either way honestly...
i can be the same way actually, which is why i said that... to me it's like "this wasn't what it should've been i shouldn't have bothered" when the reality is you're a lot closer to failure doing nothing, or letting how many days you do nothing pile up... it took me a long time to realize that, and putting it into practice is still something that can be hard for me, but i've been working on it
i'm like this weird in between, i'll go out and wander around, come home lay around for a bit and maybe pass out cuz i can't push myself any further without doing that, and then i drag myself back outside and repeat... but i try to keep doing shit even when i can't get out of bed if i can manage it, like playing guitar and whatnot... just to be doing something somewhat engaging, it kinda makes the times i can't be out doing something feel less shit...
so hitchhike to the poconos, i'll hide you in one of the closets here you can live like harry potter or some shit... it would be nice having someone around here though, practically everyone i know is in brooklyn or moved away from there to somewhere far pretty much and then so many people have like... lives and shit so most of my company is in the form of animal, plants, and random 5-10 minute conversations with strangers a few times a day
>>6543992
6'2 but my hips are a tad wide.
>>6545177
my s/o is a transguy yeah... he's afraid to be out though, he says if i worked here i'd understand, but he was more open about it before or at least more obvious... now it's this private thing between us, he's really supportive of me though...
we met twice though once at 12 and then again at 14, we never lost touch it's just that we met online and spoke for years, and then ended up sitting together at lunch and hanging out in hs without realizing we were also going home and talking to each other online... made the connection eventually, but i just thought i had a gf for years and then it was like "surprise" and idk... i didn't give a shit either way, that kinda thing is unimportant to me... we've been together since before we were out of hs though...
but it still doesn't make you unloveable... idk in my experience there's plenty of straight chicks and gay guys who don't care, and well people who are bi... lesbians don't tend to like me, and when straight guys have been interested it just tends to get really awkward even if i don't say anything... there's just this underlying "this feels gay" thing and nope...
plenty of people are accepting, supportive, respectful and willing to date though...
>>6545794
I basically look like this except regular DDDs and am chubbier (not overweight, just... Not anime skinny).
The purple bathroom thing sounds exactly the fuck like me, that's hilarious.
I have severe anxiety about not being perfect right away at stuff, so I tend to just not do it. You can't fail if you don't try, right? But I'm getting better. I'll take that to heart, a little bit of doing the thing is way closer to a success than a failure.
I feel that. You seem like you're putting in effort though, which is more than can be said for me. I just lie around, get drunk/high and watch Netflix. I just got a job though, so maybe that'll help. I'm glad you're finding stuff to do when you can't go anywhere, though. That's how you know you haven't lost yet.
I could totally be your live-in Harry Potter. I'm shit at conversation, though. We could tend plants and go smoke innawoods~
>>6545836
>>6545177
+ we were best friends for years before we started dating though too... really close, like siblings pretty much and that's how our parents always treated us + other people too (it's weird we still get asked if we're siblings... idk what's up with that) but we were always sorta... touchy and whatnot with each other... but our relationship is more than just dating, or friendship... cuz been there too, and that's different...
at first though he was a little... he said he had a feeling (he did straight up ask me, i was just gonna live in denial about it forever 'til then) but he wasn't exactly thrilled with it... ultimately though he feels like it doesn't matter cuz i'm me and all that... the amount of history there might change shit though... idk...
>>6545889
At least short men can wear lifts, can't hide clearly female hips.
>>6545901
i've heard lifting can help with that, but idk how much...
i'm really bad with things like that, i just don't tend to notice shit... and even if i do i tend to forget about it, or have a hard time with recollection...
yeah, i get like that too if i can't get a feel for something or feel like it's possible then it feels like there's no point... and i guess sometimes there isn't except when it's important or something you want + like with exercise... it's typically really painful and uncomfortable for me to exercise (to be fair though laying down isn't much better), but then i kinda feel like what's a little bit of time in that sort of pain in comparison to a whole day? it's not thst bad considering...
i came from a point where i was walking 6-12 miles a day + exercising for 20 mins- 2 hours and shit... to like suddenly not being able to do much and not getting any better... so i push myself cuz i miss the shit i used to do, and i feel like i don't know what to do with myself...
i get drunk and high a lot, but usually to wander or play guitar and sing or like hang out and go fishing... i can't really pay attention to most tv shows or movies so i don't watch much of anything, i try to read but that's hard sometimes same with writing (used to write, barely write now but i try here and there) my concentration is just shot to shit, i never had the best attention span but it's gotten way worse... what kinda shit do you watch on there anyway? i actually do wanna watch season 3 of bojack, the little prince (i wanna see what was done to my favourite book), and the last thing i saw on there that i found interesting was that documentary david lynch produced about that chick who had a stroke or some shit, can't remember now... it really does feel like losing being here at this point honestly... but it's whatever... what kinda job?
i like quiet people, it's nice when someone talks cuz they have something to say rather than to just fill silence
>>6545966
why do you want to die?
>>6545966
I mean I don't really know you but it makes me sad to think you are thinking about it. I'd do drugs with you but I'm too scared to do anything super hardcore. I'm excited I just downloaded the pokemon go and it's weird because I didn't really care about it before, but my friend made me download it but it just seems fun to do.
>>6543992
a tiny bit under 5'7, every one around me is 6' and I'd like to die
>>6543992
>be 5'4"
>taller than my cis dad
>be tallest person in family
Why do you guys want to be guys? Serious question here. What is the reason in the particular that made you think "I want to have a dick"
I've heard that trannies have a sense of being "wrong" but can you explain further?
Also, what were the circumstances of your realization that you were trans?
>>6546359
I realized how much I loved oppressing women and I decided to join the patriarchy. I've done it now, so the phallic rage of the patriarchy is forever with me. Also the milkshakes are a nice perk too.
>>6544728
>we have thought about it, but right now with the birds and my s/o's current job and all that we wouldn't be able to handle any potential vet issues for him and still be able to provide that for the birds + like check ups and things... but depending on how things go at this place tomorrow that might change, cuz we have considered it we both really like him and i think we're the only people our roommate's gf would feel comfortable giving him to so we'll see... he does already go to the same office for his vet that the birds do though so that'd be convenient to not have to switch
He seems really comfortable with you guys too. That'd be cool if it worked out but even if not I'm sure he'll find a great home eventually.
I really can't complain though, I'm doing alright, drinking pic related, sorry for shitty lighting. But beer makes life a thousand times better
>>6546359
I always felt uncomfortable as a "female" once I was old enough to start telling the differences between boys and girls. I never got on well with girls and would rather hang out with guys. Puberty made me suicidal. Breasts were uncomfortable to have, especially since I was the only "girl" who had to wear a bra in third grade while everyone else was flatchested enough not to.
The day I got my period I had an emotional breakdown because I did not want to start it.
Years pass, I just think "oh every other girl hates their tits and periods, right? that's just normal"
I'd always felt like something was wrong or something was missing.
Freshman year I met an FtM at my school. Cool guy. One of the only people I talk to from there nowadays. A longtime internet friend came out as FtM as well, we started e-dating shortly after. I was full on super supportive ally mode while denying I was trans by any means possible.
I dropped out of public school at the very end of freshman year and decided to stop being in denial about being trans.
It's really difficult to pinpoint the number one thing that made me say "I want to live as a man instead of a miserable woman" desu
how does this tomboy not have hips?
>>6547033
Anorexic and genes
>>6547033
She's turning them to the side, also skinny af.
>>6545177
I have a bi cis bf. Dunno if it'll last after I'm sent off to boot camp. 2 years together so far.
>>6546359
I've never seen myself as a girl but I wasn't 'allowed' to be a guy. As a kid I thought I would get a dick and everything would be straightened out when the grownups got around to do stuff, but of course that didn't happen. Puberty felt like I lived in someone else's body and had to suffer through living in drag more and more as my body feminized. It can't really be understood without experienced it, but imagine if you sprouted tits and a vag overnight, and everyone started to treat you like a girl as if nothing happened. It's sort of like that (for me at least).
>>6547309
Honestly some people's experiences are so interesting, like yours. It's so fascinating to hear about experiences like that, and I wish it was more prevalent in mainstream representation, instead of just BORN IN THE WRONG BODY.
I remember as a teenager I was cocky and arrogant as fuck, but I was also really delusional. There was no way you could tell me I wasn't a super attractive, tall, slender guy. My body just FELT that way, and so strongly that it's how I even saw myself. I remember looking at my hip bones in the mirror and seeing them as a completely male v-shape, and I just had zero capacity to see my feminine traits.
It actually wasn't until I found out about trans shit that my confidence was absolutely destroyed and I'm still trying to rebuild it to this day. But looking back on how I felt then to now is similar to what you said
>Puberty felt like I lived in someone else's body
Now, post puberty, I just feel like I look like a fat dyke. Fuck life.
I'm going to tell my doctor on Friday.
Some days, like today, I'm 100% convinced transitioning is the right option for me. However, some days, I feel really nervous. Not like I don't want to go through with it, but that I might regret it.
I'm fairly high-profile in my field. I would not be able to hide my trans status very well as a result.
>>6547394
What field?
>>6547431
Business. Not really much chance of hiding the fact I used to have to live as a woman.
>>6541789
Ded ded ded
>>6547444
High profile business man? Where and what business (sorry if prying)? That's awesome. Most of the transguys I know of don't really have a career.
>>6547465
I'm actually in trade journalism, a b2b company.
So I go to all the networking shit, meet/interview CEOs, etc, but I'm not a businessman myself.
Why don't trans guys tend to have careers? This worries me. My career is very important to me and I don't want to lose it.
>>6547474
I think most transguys struggle a lot with being trans and it leads to a messed up youth. This is what the statistics say anyway.
I have a career, trade in art and antiques, and am involved in academia, and have only had one negative experience so far (conservative foreigner). Most people find it intriguing more than negative but then again it's art people so you know.... Depending on the business it depends more on the person and personality than being trans. Journalism can be liberal enough, but you know your business better than me. You think people will react negatively? Do you cover many conservative fields in your articles?
>>6547490
Actually, I think the reception would be positive. A lot of my job is focused around companies with strong diversity and inclusion policies, and those who are trying to improve.
So I'm expecting hostility. What I am expecting is for them to take an interest in me as a result of my transition. Asking for advice. Really all I want to do is be an ordinary boring gay guy, so if I become a trans curiosity for people who might not have much experience of trans people but who want to learn, that could be awkward.
>>6547498
Should be "I'm *not* expecting hostility"
>>6547498
The tranny curiosity stuff dies down after a while. When you start passing 100% people forget and treat you like any other guy (from what I have researched, I'm not quite there yet). It may come up from time to time but people are shallow and usually act like they have the memory of goldfish. When dating it will come up, of course, but that's unavoidable.
>>6547504
I'm married. He wants to stay with me, reckons it won't be a problem. I hope he's right.
He's 'straight', but has told me he has sexual fantasies about men sometimes, and wishes there weren't sexuality labels.
>>6547519
Congrats, m8. You're a lucky guy. I hope it'll be fine. Transition can rock relationships pretty hard, but as long as you guys communicate well then you have a chance.
>>6547527
Thanks!
What was the hardest part of your transition, IYDMMA?
>>6546451
i haven't had that in forever, or any other beer... i had wine and ended up passing out last night, i can only drink wine and jager without it going to shit a lot of alcohol affects me weird, and even the ones i do drink can sometimes do anyway... but i like beer cuz it's a great mixer, when i could drink it i used to throw shit like vodka and overproof rum into it and it makes that shit drinkable... though last time i had vodka (last week it was all that was in the house) i just drank it straight
alcohol does make things better (usually), but it's honestly my 4th choice of intoxicants... i'm just out of everything except alcohol and codeine and working on finding someone in town who sells cuz the gated communities are another world... and well i save the codeine so i can have it privately my s/o gets weird about it cuz his sister is addicted to benzos and does well... everything... and his mom is an alcoholic who pops pills frequently (she's actually the reason i tried opiates at 15, wasn't feeling good at her house and she handed me oxys), but neither has anything to do with me so i find it annoying... and i don't want him ruining my favourite thing pretty much...
if adopting him is still a possibility when we're in a better position then it's likely we will cuz he is really attached and we do like him a lot, especially cuz he's good with the birds and that's a big reason neither of us would get another dog under most circumstances
>>6547474
for me it's been a matter of life circumstances + drugs + generally being a fuck up... and now health issues are the determining factor and likely always will be... if it's comforting at all to you, i'd probably be a fuck up if i wasn't trans too
>>6547541
>if it's comforting at all to you, i'd probably be a fuck up if i wasn't trans too
Well it's comforting in a way. Good luck man
>>6547546
thought it might be, since it's not the determining factor and you're worried it is... but really it sounds like you're in a decent place and don't gotta worry...
>>6547532
What 'is', rather. I'm still a tweener unfortunately. For me it's dealing with the system. Access to hormone treatment is a nightmare, but my country is notorious for treating transpeople like dirt. I haven't gotten my hands on legal T yet, and my referal was supposed to happen in May, but has now been postponed until september. It's pain.
Other than that my best friend is mourning the loss of his 'strong lesbo friend', but I'm hoping he'll get over it. Family had been supportive so far, except for a feminist aunt who calls me a traitor to women. I work with my father and he backs me completely, which is great.
I have received one death threat from my friend's father. I used to date said friend and he sees my transition as 'turning his son gay'. He broke the door of my house and other nasty business, and the police isn't taking it very seriously. But again, a bit spesific to my case rather than 'general trans stuff', because his father has always been a psychotic maniac.
>>6547582
Worry sorry to hear about that stuff.
And sorry you have a TERF in your family. That's shitty luck.
>>6547588
Thanks.
She's not that bad, really. She's just from the old school of feminism that's all. Old dogs don't like change.
how much of a tell is tiny feminine baby hands? My hands are so ridiculously small, theyre like the size of a 3ds :-:
>>6547621
I've met a lot of guys with delicate hands but they were all faggots or loved being slightly feminine. You know, women who work as gardeners and in the fishing industry have large rough hands. If you want more manly hands you could try to do more physical labour, like gardening or chopping wood, or maybe pick up rock climbing as a hobby.
>>6547474
>Why don't trans guys tend to have careers?
correction: trans guys on the internet tend not to have careers
there are lots and lots of us out there who are successful in terms of job, finances, etc, we are just usually very stealth and quiet about it
also people who are stable in their careers tend to be older and it's rare for older guys to show up in trans spaces
>>6547504
yep, this is what happens. honestly and truthfully most people do not give a shit and as soon as you stop passing they will forget about it
i have longtime coworkers who have legit forgotten i'm trans/what i used to look like
>>6547644
start passing**
>>6547644
How long have you been on t? How long did it take before you started passing full time?
>>6546359
it's not about "wanting to be a guy." i don't "want" to be a guy. it's not like it's something i just decided to do: discomfort in a female body and comfort in a male body is something that was inborn in me, it's the way my brain operates, it has absolutely nothing to do with what i want.
my circumstances are a really long story, i had bad body dysphoria my whole life but didn't realize i was trans until my late 20s. for a lot of my life i just straight up did not know trans men existed and thought i was just immature. then once i learned trans people existed i thought i didn't count because i didn't "feel like" a boy (no one explained what dysphoria was to me, even in the gender studies classes i took in college). then after a period of really intense dysphoria brought on by a change in my relationship i googled how to make my chest look flat and discovered videos from people on T. the rest was history i guess.
>>6547655
i've been on T for 2.5 years. i didn't start passing 100% until like 15-16 months.
Any of you homos goong to the bear weekend on P Town this Friday?
>be me
>18
>pre-t
>i halfassedly came out at 16 but they buried it under the rug "to wait and see if i'm not just a selfhating lesbian"
>"but what about all those detransitoned lesbians i found on this blog here?"
>"your name has a proud history of belonging to famous feminists anon! don't change it we love you so much!"
>"if you're trans you would want a penis, that's what the real transgenders do!"
>a secret desire of mine was always to sing but i never got any farther than technical pitch singing as part of ear training during piano lessons, i was too embarrassed of my voice
would it be best to pursue a more gradual low dose start to t? it would lead to slower changes but my voice box would appear to be better off for it, regardless of my singing ability, my vocal folds should only really start to calcify at about 25 right?
I know T won't magically give me a Mufasa voice but I do want a more realistic and not croakydyke voice and healthier larynx lol
>>6547672
Any changes that came on long term rather than short term? Do you find new changes after 2.5 years?
>>6543992
Im a 6'6" homo cis male, but part of the appeal of FtM guys is the glorious height difference.
>>6547688
>6'6
>cis male
Ents don't count
>>6547707
Im also a bottom. The appeal of a really short guy dominating me is ultra hot.
>>6547716
Post butt
>>6547724
But its fat.
>>6547731
Even better
>>6547731
How can you get fat if you're 6'6? You burn a truckload of food just staying alive at that height.
>>6547735
Im a teacher, you dont get a lot of exercise doing that. Not to mention the stress.
>>6547686
appearance continues to change for many years on T. the changes to my face and body were much greater in the second year than in the first year. i look way different now than i did a year ago. also my beard is still gradually growing in, and judging by my brothers it probably will continue growing in for a few more years at least.
>>6547716
nice. i'm a manlet top that loves dominating guys with fat asses. i'm happy guys like you exist.
>>6547743
Start eating better. If you're a stress eater then a shit diet will shoot your blood pressure through the roof in the long run.
>>6547770
>lost 50 pounds since last year.
Good boy. Keep at it and you'll thank yourself when you get older.
>>6547770
new york city. so yanno if you're ever in the area
>>6547743
you're transitioning in front of a whole school of kids?
also just btw, do you check your email over the summer? lmao
One upside of transitioning is that I'm now a qt hot boy instead of the ugly, manly girl I was. Feels good.
>>6547851
Why are you so angry?
>>6547873
I'm not? I'm overjoyed actually.
CIS les here. Why do FtMs seem to love pokemon so much as a demographic? Pretty much every FtM I know in real life is super into pokemon.
>>6542095
No one goes on google and searches "porn" to find porn.
>flaked on by a FtM guy for the fourth time
Why do I even bother.
>>6547905
Nah, different guys.
>>6547893
Hunter gatherer instinct man
>>6547893
i think it's alright, not super into it and never have been... it's just a decent way to pass time really, and pokemon go is free... as for the other games i played a few of them but not most of them and only actually played through one entirely, never cared for the show... i rarely play games in general, and when i do i prefer fps games and survival horror... the only games i ever played a ton of were halo multiplayer (used to like sniping on social slayer) and gears of war on horde mode, for the same reason... headshots are satisfying
>>6547474
Some of us do... Let's be honest though, 4chan is mostly a place for kids in college who haven't started a career or dropouts who are just in a min, wage job. I'm working on my BA then going back to school for a masters for my career, I have an entry level job right now in the field of the profession I want to get into, but don't actually have a career just yet.
>>6547893
I don't really play any pokemon games (I did download pokemon go) but it just takes me back to fun times in my childhood. My cousin and I were both spoiled brats our parents would take us to this gaming store and buy us the cards because we thought they were cool, so we played pokemon games with them (except not really because neither of us actually knew how to play we just threw them around and made sound effects). I just remember my favorite one was jigglypuff because it was super cute.
>>6547945
Many people think its an acronym for some reason.
What age do people usually see you as? I notice a lot of other FTM's look like young teenage boys (not trying to be mean but it's true) and the FTM's who are buff/work out usually look their age.
I guess it all comes down to your face and body, but I've always been read as my age or a few years older - an advantage to having an old looking face, I guess.
I miss SWG
>>6547971
i'm 19,
but i constantly get asked by people when i'll be 18.
could be that i bring my mom everywhere to speak for me since im an autist tho
>>6547971
I usually get taken for my own age or a little younger, although I find older ladies often think I'm much younger than I am. I blame the acne.
>>6547971
people usually think i'm at least a decade younger than i am
>>6547971
Facial hair makes a world of difference, even some scruff.
cis gay faggot here: C-an I be your fr-fr-friend ?
>>6547971
i was mistaken for a middle-schooler recently
>>6548209
Gif related?
>spent past hour arguing with group of 13 yr olds in youtube comment section
>I will never get that time back
>>6548289
No its not.
>>6548310
that pic sounds like most people except they're honest... i can appreciate that
what were you arguing with 13 year olds about?
>>6548330
A group of them were all agreeing that people only transitioned for attention from the media. I posted some links to scientific studies, and queue response.
>>6547893
It was a huge part of my childhood. I lived in a small town for the later half of my elementary school days where I had no friends and nobody wanted to talk to me unless it was to make fun of me. Pokemon was a big savior for me at that time
>>6548342
at least it sounds like it was entertaining... when it comes to trans shit though, that really is how a lot of people are... all the facts in the world won't change their opinion, nevermind that there's better ways to get attention...
>>6541746
>tfw no more pokeballs
what do now /b/ros?
>>6548320
You may be my friend as long as you're not a flamer.
>>6548320
You can be my friend especially if ur a flamer
>>6548394
i think theres a place you can walk to to get more
>>6548453
its too spooky outside
feelsbadman
>>6548454
hehe lol
>>6548435
Are you a /fa/ggot?
>>6548394
walk to a pokestop and get more... you get eggs and shit at those too, which hatch when you walk... got a meowth and a machop yesterday from that...
i'm a little drunk and insanely tired, but my s/o and i found our book on foraging for wild food so we're gonna see what's by the river today...
>>6548505
+ coffee balances out wine i think...
>>6548512
No it doesn't and you know it
>>6548496
I think that I am fasionable and a faggot but I don't peruse /fa/
>>6548520
Post pic? You claim fashionabiliy. I need proof or it didn't happen.
>>6548538
No can do. Its mostly just my clothes; I don't really like my face or body.
>>6548545
That would be cool. I'm Team Instinct/Yellow.
>>6548554
pic is a shirt that I own. I wear it with skinny jeans
>>6548568
My face ? Acne scars and no chin. Also too 'long' if that makes sense and my nose is too big.
My body is just skelly which isn't bad. I just had self loathing from not being a jock as a kid and that carries over.
I guess I compensate by buying nice and expensive clothes. It must work because random people have complimented me on them.
>>6548559
where you from?
>>6548576
Doesn't it feel a bit empty to buy expensive clothes to feel better about yourself? Does the feeling last?
>>6548564
>wine
sounds gud senpai. what state you live in?
Pennsylvania here
>>6545985
Do upper body workouts to try and balance it out.
>>6548545
yellow...
unrelated: weird tiny mushrooms
>>6548593
i'm actually in pennsylvania now too... i just get called brooklyn cuz i'm from there, but i'm in the poconos now...
>>6548588
>Doesn't it feel a bit empty to buy expensive clothes to feel better about yourself? Does the feeling last?
It does feel a bit empty. Normally when I buy something afterwards when I spend the money feel a bit bad ( yesterday I spent $100 on 2 shirts 2 undies socks and coat hangers ) and yeah growing up I was always frugal so I do feel guilty. On the other hand I do like looking good. I do feel that it makes me feel better about myself. And I have enough money that its not a problem, I can afford my spending. Having a guy at a store or random person say "Hey I like your shirt" does make me feel a little better. In short, its mixed.
Anyways I have to go get my doc to double my dosage of antidepressants (not even meming right now)
>>6548630
That's a bit sad, anon. I'm sure you're a great guy. Hope you get out of your depression soon.
>>6548553
There are multiple small businesses who unlock mobile phones in my area and trust me their criteria isn't strict.
>>6548632
GO TEAM MYSTIC
>>6548614
+ found a drinking spot...
>>6548689
>mystic
REEEEEEEEEEE
team valor all teh waaaaaaaaaaaaaay
Speaking of depression what do if you have that and the T Rage?
There were a few times where I ended up chimping out, breaking things, hitting myself, THEN bawling and being depressed.
How do I quell this impotent rage? I hate the world, and myself.
I don't know where else to ask this but does anyone know if you can get your nipples pierced after top surgery?
>>6548692
>>6548732
These are very nice, Anon.
>>6548718
Honestly, I was like that /before/ I started T and T worsened it at first. A good support network, a therapist, and a change of scenery is what got me through it all. Sorry I don't have much advice to give, but therapy helped me a lot with that.
>>6548743
i'm pretty sure you can get them pierced as long as they heal ok... and thanks, it's my new drinking spot that i just found... we were gonna christen it, but my s/o got distracted by a snake trying to eat a toad...i wasn't close enough to get a decent pic, but the toad is still here and the snake backed off... my s/o poked it and shit and the fucking toad won't move
>>6548645
>I'm sure you're a great guy.
Thanks but I don't think thats true.
>Hope you get out of your depression soon.
Thanks that means a lot.
>>6548775
How are you not a good guy? List your positive and negative sides for me.
>>6548781
Honestly I rather not.
>>6548784
Come on. We're all anons here.
>>6548790
It isn't. You are.
>>6548743
I've always had a bad temper and depression, but it just seems so much worse this year. I should probably try and seek therapy sometime soon, I keep doing more and more stupid things when angry. I'd love a change of scenery too but I am basically flat out broke right now. Lost my job. I have family I'm burdening and a girlfriend I'm not even sure I want to be with. I feel like I'm slowly going crazy-crazier, doubting every decision I make these days.
Thanks for your reply though, I used to go to private gender therapy a few years back but I guess I'll have to settle for whatever they're offering locally...
>>6548802
Why?
>>6548810
Oh fine
>>6548810
You're amongst friends anon. We're all insane here.
>>6548790
what happened?
i drank most of the wine, and my s/o jumped in the river... he's that speck of a person...
>>6548847
What does that have to do with you being garbage?
>>6548858
Why are all MtF such drama queens
I just went to the park to catch sum pokemins and saw a bunch of little baby duckies being cute. I wish I was able to get a good picture...
>>6548890
>tfw want to pokepost with everyone else but using Android OS
Life is suffering
>>6548847
it doesn't really matter if we're animals, and it doesn't matter why we're here either... there's no way of knowing, so whatever value life has is just what you give it... and it really doesn't matter what you've done in the past, or even where you're at now cuz there's still everything from this point on you know?
i've tried to hang myself before... and i spent years where all i thought about was suicide, but there's always been shit that's worthwhile in spite of it... even something as simple as watching the sunrise... or shit trying new things and getting shitfaced, meeting people... even if nothing we do matters in the long run that just means it's unimportant to live for something that lasts forever and instead just a matter of finding what's worthwhile right now... but what do i know? i've been drinking by a river... check out these flowers + i actually really fucking like chimpanzees, they're cool and their babies are cute
>>6548890
w-were you by yourself anon?
>did people ask if you were playing pokemon go?
>>6548905
I was alone. Nobody asked me anything it's a small park and nice place to walk since it's around a lake. I did a few loops and went home.
I was thinking about, how do I know if other people are doing it or not? Wouldn't it be cool if someone else was on it we could see their avatar on the game? Then we could do battles and shit
>>6549019
>Wouldn't it be cool if someone else was on it we could see their avatar on the game?
I guess but I would get so much anxiety having a random person come up to me and start talking about
>hey are you playing pokemon go? ...
If they are walking around with their phone out chances are they are playing it.
>>6549137
>To the guys here attracted to men do you like masculine men or feminine men?
both is fine
>Has your sexual preferences changed at since on test? Do you prefer topping more often or subbing?
come on now, don't be lazy and conflate top/bottom with dom/sub
anyway i've always been a switch in both respects, and continue to be so. sexual changes has been more like raised general libido and different mental enjoyment of sex. ie beforehand if i was trying out a fetish with someone it was just a nice fun idea that added a bit of variety, a cherry on top of the fuck cake. whereas now i tend to enjoy the taboo aspects of things more, getting off on the 'dirtiness' of things and inhabiting whatever role at the time.
>>6549116
I think it'll be nice to have an incognito mode, I just wanna know who's around me.
>>6549137
Masculine men, I don't get the appeal of pretty guys. I still prefer bottoming, mostly power bottoming, mostly because I already accepted I can never truly top.
And why do all mtfs use that specific anime girl?
>>6549137
I've always liked feminine men more, before I even knew I was trans.
I'm much more horny and more dominant (but I think the dominant part is from newfound confidence), I'm also much laid back about casual sex. I used to think it was some horrible perverted thing, but I don't really care now as long as the guy is clean.
I'm a switch but I prefer topping, especially with feminine men.
>>6549203
Goddamn I love dominant trans guys. One shoved me to my knees once, fucked my face for what felt like an hour, then plowed me for ages. I miss him.
>>6541746
I don't know which team I should join? I've been thinking about team yellow, because yellow was the first pokemon game I played, but I don't know. (Well technically I played blue first because I borrowed it from a friend before I got my own game)
>have a friend who supports me a lot
>one day we get to the topic on my new name
>I always had a name I liked a lot since I was a kid but I'm always afraid people will think it's stupid
>Tell her it anyway
>She likes it a lot
I'm still worried people wil think it's shit.
>>6549334
And the name is?
>>6549278
no RED TEAM BEST TEAM I AM BIG MAN
>>6549347
Wallace.
>>6549358
It had to be done
>tfw no masc dom ftm bf
>he will never knee me in the balls and then tease me
>he will never fuck me with a strappon
>he will never become a fitizen and start play wrestling with me, pin me in an arm lock while he gives me a nuggie.
>>6548929
thanks...
really though, shit happens, i've had points in my life where i've been sleeping in the park and on the beach and shit and like i was smoking pcp dusted weed every day all day living in a fucked situation and it got to the point where stopping came with withdrawal and shit (from the pcp not the weed obviously)... and i've been through some weird shit, and have a hard time relating to people... i mean i've had people tell me i have the weirdest fucking stories they've heard and that's me only mentioning the more normal shit i've been through... been through all kinds of abuse and whatnot too, so i mean... that + chronic health issues+ trans shit etc... and like i really get that some parts of life can be shitty, but it's not all bad and some of it is decent... and usually if you stop to just focus on what's right in front of you at any given moment you can enjoy some shit at the very least
and really everyone does some really shitty things sometimes that's just life, and part of being human... and aside from that, it's pretty hard to be 100% shitty to everyone, and what makes people shit is subjective anyway... that shit's just words
>>6549137
i tend to prefer masculine guys and feminine women, but i don't have set types all kinds of people can be attractive and really physical attraction isn't necessarily a must anyway... don't have a preference with being dominant or submissive either really... either way it's a good time and it depends on the other person
>>6549430
This is my dream relationship, how do I find other people like you irl? Most people that hit me up/I've hit up expect me to be a submissive bottom and I ain't about that.
butts
>>6549137
I like people who are both masculine and feminine in different ways; they tend to possess individualism, originality, concentration, artistry, complexity, courage, emotion, fascination, and self-orientation...!
>>6547971
I have a baby face that I hope to get rid of with T and exercise. I'm 18, but I normally get mistaken as 12. My doctor once thought I was 14. It makes me feel like shit :^)
>>6549623
You're that guy, anon.
>>6549623
>what is a strong but sensitive man
>>6549430
please be my bf i want to demean you and fuck you with a strapon bigger than your own dick
>>6541808
Hatch eggs. Evolve pokemon. Use lucky egg when you're going to do either of these.
Trainer level is king, everything else is just frosting.
>>6549605
>>6549712
>This is my dream relationship, how do I find other people like you irl?
Sadly I don't know how to find guys like me irl. I'm a bit too shy to be open about this stuff and I don't chase ftms :/ . I don't know how to find guys like you in real life either
Also I'm in Canada; where and how old are you guys ?
>>6542455
Damn, dude. And I thought only mtfs were unpassing...
