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Previous >>6535629
>>6536565
Hi nerds
>>6536574
oh house is destroyed isnt it
>>6536572
Northern Maine, comfy as fuck and the land here is cheap. Even better for you, there's plenty of land with literally no-one on it.
>>6536554
>ywn pass without ffs
i wish i knew yr feel senpaitachi.
>>6536558
not really, but like you know when yr a hon and it's the hon """"""pass"""""""" and trvepass.
>>6536566
no, it can mean hon af or passing.
>>6536565
this thread is great because you made it, nim
>>6536576
It was fine, when i was on earlyer.
grace a cutest
>>6536576
*our
>>6536565
>mattering
>being a tranny piece of shit
pick one
>>6536577
I'll vouch for Maine it's really nice up there in the rural areas
>>6536574
little sis <3
>>6536545
>>6536580
oh good
i was getting used to a death screen every time i logged on
>>6536572
>ywn be kokone and have alpha as a friend/life partner
>>6536588
>replying to Pleb's delusions
Remember: it's okay to fail and feel ugly. I feel it all the time, but if you work hard, you can be qt. Y'all are valued!
repostan:
>>6536550
oh anon, you don't even know.
>>6536558
that looks absolutely lovely.
id like somewhere even more rural though i think :x like 'nobody for miles from my house' type rural. but i dunno.
where do u live anon?
>>6536561
ive always wanted the neet life but ehre i am working a 9-5 for the past almost 2 years
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>>6536577
ahhhh... maine. yeah. i love main. ive visited a couple times with my family and it's truly beautiful.
im just concerned about the winters i guess lol
>>6536592
im more of a 'tfw will never be alpha' kind of girl
>>6536564
>a common theme among the girls is that even if they generally didn't think of me as one of the girls pretransition, they definitely didn't see me as a guy
ahh idk how well that applied to me, mostly everyone considered me to be a closeted gay guy. that's cool though, very trutrans of you and is kinda interesting to think about.
>Also, do you not pass in the sense of not passing to others, or do you not pass in the sense of not passing to yourself. There's a definite difference.
my sense of reality is too warped to say for sure. I'm pretty sure people just hugbox me because sometimes I catch people staring and I think I caught this girl stifling a laugh when she saw me today but that might just be me being paranoid, idk.
>>6536566
might be that desu. I live full andro mode because I like having the "no I'm just a faggy guy not a tranny" fallback if someone clocks me but maybe I should just get over it
>>6536572
9-5s are GAY I hate it. I love my job but I hate having to work
college life was neet life for me. I miss it
>>6536578
I want to pass now though.
>>6536591
It's been a few hours, so it could be gone again.
Do any of you have a crush on a trip?
Who is it and why?
>>6536598
newp, lies :(
Reminder you're all beautiful and I love you all.
>>6536609
grace
because shes cute
>>6536610
I value you anon
>>6536516
>>6536549
>>6536572
I want to buy a block of land in Tasmania and build my cottage
grow lots of veges
have some chickems for eggs and meat and cats for companionship
ride a bike wearing a dress and gumboots to the local town to buy catfood
that kinda thing
>>6536574
Heyy faaaaag
>>6536549 #
Don't know what jet it is but I hope it works out. Glorious Nippon, sounds pretty glorious. I'm trying to get a job so I can live
>>6536604
no jinxing
>>6536578
>but like you know when yr a hon and it's the hon """"""pass"""""""" and trvepass.
Good point.
>>6536584
>tfw I never want to leave Aroostook County
>>6536599
>im just concerned about the winters i guess lol
They're not that bad. I'll post a pic I took in the winter in a second.
m u h d i c k
>>6536609
i do actually >\\<
>>6536609
puru
because she's cute and she makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside
>>6536615
Hi other fag.
<3
>>6536616
You know what happens last time i did.
>>6536617
>tfw could live here if i had $180k
>>6536600
yeah anon i honestly 10000% can relate
i miss being free
>>6536614
i want you to do that shan
>>6536615
jet = japan exchange teaching program
u kno, that thing where weebs move to japan to teach english and get paid pretty well for it.
>>6536617
>>6536626
aaaaaaaaahhhhhhh
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh
god damn.... ;_;
>>6536587
Hi Hi!
>>6536628
id buy that for you if we could live there together
>>6536618
hott
is this a "post daddies" thread?
>>6536629
*pat pat* how ya been? ^^
>>6536628
Imagine how bad the internet there is tho
Today was a good day.
Enjoy life, y'all
>tfw remembering pretransition life and the smattering of different personalities you tried on just to find something that fit
>>6536600
That probably applies to you then, if you set off a girl's gaydar you almost immediately end up being perceived different than other males. That's more how I always interpreted those statements from my friends, I know I set off their gaydar because they would do stuff like try and make me kiss boys at parties and stuff. Perceiving someone "as a guy" usually means perceiving someone "as a cishet male" or "someone who may potentially try and get in my pants"
Also, people staring may also be people checking you out. When it started happening to me I thought the same though.
>>6536638
thank mr skeltal
roses are red
violets are blue
cut my balls off
and my dick too
ok no this house is even nicer looking
>>6536630
ummmmm
okay.
>>6536637
yeah fair enough LOL
>>6536643
Just to tease you more. The hill in the background is actually in Canada.
>>6536626
*Fargo music starts playing*
>>6536643
>yeah fair enough LOL
That's like always my drawback to rural places is the internet is going to be absolute ass and that is a big deal considering how much I use the internet
>>6536642
flowers smell nice
you probably have lice
i'll cut off your dick
for ten billion licks
>>6536638
ur a qt
>>6536649
It's not that bad, really.
>>6536639
people staring may also be people checking you out
oh. is that what it is? this is difficult to adjust to. im used to being invisible 24/7 but idk it's hard to deal with getting stares and stuff everywhere ><
>>6536628
I want me to do that too
but I need a job to afford srs and ffs and then $8000 to buy this block of land
>>6536624
Yo you cute, what are you up too?
>>6536628
Well fuck I'm jelly. Hope it works out. If I didn't love were I was rn I'd try that
>>6536642
Rose are red violets are blue eggs milk butter
>>6536612
>>6536581
Angel pls <3
>>6536653
I dunno
I might just always stay a suburban girl
I want to move out for a while on my own
and then marry someone and get kids and move back into a comfy semi-rural suburb
>>6536645
ahhh... yeah. shit. this is really getting to be quite the thing for me. it's just one of those things where just by looking your heart kind of aches?
but i'm too young to move to the country in any real way. i can't afford a mortgage or down payment on a home; i cant even afford everything i want or need right now. and what am i gonna do for work?
ogssnkrnfksjnfjn REAL LIFE
>>6536609
chara, because gloomy people remind me of myself and I'm a narcissist
>>6536652
Thank you, you're qt too
>>6536640
See the pic
>>6536663
You could live in an apartment in town like I do and do some sort of internet work. Because otherwise there just plain aren't any jobs here. Though, by "in town" I mean "in this town of 4k people".
>>6536634
Sure give me a cute voice for it.
>>6536635
Good, you?
>>6536638
c u t e
>>6536659
Chillin' Listening to music.
>>6536669
you're not wrong but you don't know that for sure :^)
I've been trying for the last hour to take a decent face pic but I can't do or how do I take a goddamn face pic
>>6536628
>>tfw could live here if i had $180k
that's what a mortgage is for desu. you just need like 10-20% as down payment
I always go back and forth whether I wanna live in a city or out in the middle of nowhere on my own farm
>>6536639
yeah but who knows whether they actually thought I was gay or were just trying to be bullies :^)
>I know I set off their gaydar because they would do stuff like try and make me kiss boys at parties and stuff
>tfw nobody EVER made me do this ;_;
that sounds fun, I'm jealous ;~;
the girls I knew were cool. I got invited to a party where I was the only """boy""" once when I was 14 which was nice I guess. I always just thought they must've just forgotten to invite the guys in our friend group. they made me kiss a girl on her cheek. apparently she had a crush on me but I didn't like girls sooooo yea :\
and that's possible but I doubt it, I think even if I do pass I'm very ugly and I don't present in a way that makes me attractive. it's really unlikely that people stare at me for that reason
that girl laughing at me today really stung for some reason too, I can't get it out of my head. I looked away immediately so I don't know for sure but idk. she looked familiar too which was weird
>>6536669
This sounds like a retard trying to flirt, but it's just a retard making a curious observation; you have a very small tongue.
>>6536677
https://youtu.be/4F2g9IAziEs
>>6536663
I would build this house or maybe something smaller that I haven't designed yet
but I want it to be super insulated and timber with a tin roof and a concrete foundation and double glazing
>>6536659
>Well fuck I'm jelly. Hope it works out. If I didn't love were I was rn I'd try that
theres nothing to be jelly over! i havent even applied yet.
and if i'm being totally honest here, all of the stuff im posting about are probably pipe dreams that will almost certainly never come to pass. i'll probably stay in low-wage work until i get fed up and kill myself or just get old and complacent and become one of the old-ass people at my retail job who have been there a million years and who i'm scared to death of becoming.
i honestly don't see myself ever being happy.
>>6536670
>internet work
what is it that you do?
>>6536678
i dont have the money for a down payment though and there's no way i could save for one at my current employment level
>>6536671
Post musics
https://youtu.be/vrRNj4tP4Sc
>>6536677
Angles
>>6536677
Nigga its easy as fuck.
>>6536686
>what is it that you do?
NEET going to try to join the Marines in two years after everything's been worked out regarding trannies and I'm in shape for it.
>>6536689
Nigga that's cause you a fuckin cute
>>6536686
>and if i'm being totally honest here, all of the stuff im posting about are probably pipe dreams that will almost certainly never come to pass. i'll probably stay in low-wage work until i get fed up and kill myself or just get old and complacent and become one of the old-ass people at my retail job who have been there a million years and who i'm scared to death of becoming.
angrytransformersguy.mp4
>>6536686
dont let your dreams be memes bb
mayb europe will be totally invigorating and stuff for you
ur a college educated woman you can do it!
you could also go get a masters degree at cal-arts just cause it'd be cool, lolol
>>6536689
You look like a qt girl tho
>>6536697
Like, there are jobs here but it's not stuff that brings in a whole lot of money, you know? If your passion in life is potato farming, however, Aroostook County is 10/10.
>>6536687
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8GW6sLrK40k
>>6536692
>>6536700
Doesn't mean its not easy.
>>6536697
>gesundheit
PLease don't speak German to me, I'm 1/16th Polish and it's very angering/triggering.
>>6536686
>i dont have the money for a down payment though and there's no way i could save for one at my current employment level
true life
that's honestly the bad part about living in nyc right? rent is so crazy you can't really save up at all
>>6536684
Phone camera a shit
>>6536687
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zwAhEYz9MMQ
>tfw you're a girl
>>6536678
>that sounds fun
Honestlyyyy at the time it made me feel really funny and uncomfortable because I was still very deeply in the closet to myself, homophobic as fuck, and very very careful about letting anything slip about wanting to be a girl. That party sounds a bit awkward tho, I know the times I kissed girls at parties were sort of meh.
Also, maybe she recognised you from some time before and didn't know you were a tranny so clocked you based on that. Idk, I've actually had that happen before.
>>6536705
>not being more polish
can any of you girls tell me what it's like to have a bf
>>6536696
maybe
i hope so
it honestly feels like i am trapped and suffocating as-is
>you could also go get a masters degree at cal-arts just cause it'd be cool, lolol
was thinking of going back to school, might be a good idea...
>>6536702
no yah sure. i just, like, living somewhere rural and working at home is just kind of my ideal atm. im just... idk...
>>6536705
lol
i just dont know that meme
>>6536707
um well yeah. if i had a better job i could save but as it is basically everything goes to food and rent and sometimes clothes or other ~luxury items~.
cant wait to just kill myself
>>6536717
>>6536717
Salty milk and coins
>>6536717
His vagina is kind of different from past gf's. I think it might be the testosterone?
>>6536720
uhhh do you need cock???
>>6536715
YOU DON'T THINK I'M TRYING!?
>>6536631
m u h
d i c k
>>6536717
He cuddles me, and buys me food :3
he wont fuck me though, fml.
>>6536722
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PeRCDH_zUnU
RIP, ONEDAY.
>>6536736
>he wont fuck me though, fml.
rofl you must be ugly
>>6536718
you can do it!!
and yeah going back to school could give you time to regroup and gather your thoughts, etc, etc
but yeah dude you just gotta make baby steps or something, and also try to figure out more of what you want, even if its just knowing what u dont want, I bet
marvel comics is in NYC u should draw comic books, lol
j/k
but itd be fun mayb idk
>>6536733
whoa that guy is hot af
i want to post idris elba but i have no idris elba pics
>>6536717
feels like a warm phallic object occupying your orifices
>>6536710
put a shirt on~
>>6536731
i dont know what fraction polish i am, i just know my mom's grandma came here from poland i think
and my aunt is a polish immigrant too
i think my grandpa is polish as well
>>6536727
yes
lots of it
>>6536718
look up "Point Richmond, CA"
>>6536714
ah I guess I was the same way. I remember at the party awkwardly asking if any other guys were coming and thinking like "shit I hope they didn't find out how much I hate being a guy"
I refused to kiss her on the lips too which is what the dare was so I wasn't being a good sport. but it just felt so wrong. same thing happened when this girl asked me to be her bf in middle school and it lasted less than a day because I wouldn't hold her hand or kiss her
and yeah possibly. thinking about it she may have been in my econ 201 class I took pre-hrt but I didn't talk to ANYONE in that class so I doubt she'd have remembered me if that's the case. guess it's just another unsolved mystery to chip away at my self confidence
>>6536717
you get a dedicated hugboxer, it's really nice sometimes when you're having a bad day
>>6536718
>um well yeah. if i had a better job i could save but as it is basically everything goes to food and rent and sometimes clothes or other ~luxury items~.
;~; sucks
>cant wait to just kill myself
same desu unfortunately
too scared of pain and I worry about what my family would go through so I'll never do it though
>>6536747
How much cock?
>>6536742
I'm not ugly though. :(
lol this pic
>>6536750
hi!
>>6536753
As much as you can give me
okay well i just made myself super sad by thinking about how miserable my future is shaping up to be so
im gonna go ahead and go to bed now
>>6536743
yeah... school isnt a bad idea at all honestly
well id like to work for an animation or game company but theres so little of that here in nyc. so maybe i have to get out of here? but without actual job prospects it feels pretty impossible tbdesu. like i was planning on quitting my job now and camming to make more money but i dont know how sustainable that is long-term and i think i would prefer to get myself an actual career in something im interested in
i dont know. ugh. good night.
>>6536757
When's Grace's gangbang?
>>6536717
Happy and supportive. I loved when my ex bfs were firm with me. Cuddling.
I miss having boyfriends...I should get myself one or two
>>6536760
rest easy pupper
>>6536744
i should it's getting cold
>>6536762
Hopefully soon
>>6536743
all these qt boys are getting to me
>>6536752
surely it's more than just a "dedicated hugboxer"
do I pass?
>>6536704
Classic. Also again its easy when you're that fuckin cute.
>>6536711
That was pretty adorable
>>6536722
Reminds me of the doors and pink Floyd. P alright
>>>/fa/11492965
lol..........
>>6536760
well i hope you feel better if you can, night night...
maybe there is some stuff in nyc and you just have to search differently idk
>>6536770
i feel it, i feel it
post more btw
>>6536767
n-no... dont cuck me...
>>6536773
Not really.
>>6536775
Rather have a cute voice instead.
>>6536671
Thank you
>>6536772
I mean yeah, I was making a joke
it's super nice to have someone who loves you
>>6536780
We all want the things we don't have but really I'm sure your voice is cute and you can always work on it
>>6536683
http://www.strawpoll.me/10710904
wazzup my fellow traps
>>6536752
>it just felt so wrong
Fucking feels. I actually tried dating a girl once in a last ditch effort to repress (maybe getting a girlfriend will fix me). Like a train wreck in slow motion honestly. It was awkward as hell, I couldn't kiss her without feeling awful and dysphoric, and I didn't want to make the first move ever. Felt and still do feel really bad for her, wrecked that friendship quite thoroughly.
>>6536789
wazzup
>>6536787
Hi mado
>>6536791
watched game of thrones and smoked weed all day
>>6536609
Smiles, because she's perfect.
>>6536784
Whalecum.
>>6536787
It's the only thing that stops me from passing.
I should slit my throat and become a mute.
>>6536779
Cucking is what i do bby
>>6536780
>Not Really.
Why not?
>>6536777
You do realize you are dating someone who is legitimately insane. She just said in the last thread that she's going through mania too, why would you touch that for a thirty foot pole you seem pretty normal
>>6536794
Wassup you
>>6536804
Post voice. Sounds pretty cute. But I wanna bite you while your still warm. I don't pass at all right now. Had to cut my hair short back in February and my voice is garbage
>>6536812
But I am ~
(Don't worry I'm not into cucking either lol)
>>6536565
>tfw you have large, powerful wrists and big, manly feet, with a chest that could store a keg
why live
>>6536790
oh my god literally exactly the same. I was a freshman in college, I met this girl from some eastern european country who was super fun to talk to and we were in a lot of classes together, I tried dating her and it was just embarrassing. I feel worse knowing that I was the first "guy" that she dated after leaving her country so I probably ruined the concept for her. we did like, things that girl friends do honestly. ice skating and saturday lunch and stuff. went and saw a musical as our last "date" and it was just awful
sometimes I want to message her an apologize but I think that's even more cringe
did you ever get in those situations with a group of cishet guys who were checking a girl out and you just had no idea how to participate and then they'd bully you about it? the guys on my high school swim team were terrible for that
>>6536818
But you are into gangbangs.
>>6536815
what is your point
why aren't u minding your business
you dont know me or anything about me btw
>>6536825
If I were single and feeling particularly slutty I might be willing to try one. Not a kink of mine but it could be fun.
>>6536818
ok good
>>6536811
I don't know, you just don't to me. I'm not going to analyze it further.
>>6536815
She's a faggot.
>>6536816
Passing physically is completely useless to me, i don't go out.
Remind me tomorrow, and ill make a clyp.
>>6536827
shlyukha
>>6536827
More butt, without panties this time.
Gangbangs are A+
I might lewdpost soon
should I kms /mtfg/
would get gangbanged
>>6536837
same
>>6536834
I had not noticed you'd stopped.
>>6536834
Red has been gangbanged?
>>6536815
There's a difference between having mental illnesses and being insane, you know. (Sorry for butting in, but that conflation really bothers me.)
>>6536837
Nah, you could be somebody's good friend someday, if you're not already. Why are you asking, anon?
>>6536837
nah, there are still tits to squeeze and booze to drink
>>6536833
i do not have
>>6536837
if you feel like you really need to then...
just be safe/take precautions
>>6536834
Who what where when and why not me?
>>6536849
wtf normies gtfo
>be straight cishet male
>best friend transitioned to female this last year
>other day she asks me if I'd ever date/fuck a transgirl
>tell her depends on the person
>she asks if I'd ever be bottom for a transgirl
>tell her I have no interest in the penis of the transgirl at all
>she gets incredibly offended that I wouldn't receive or give oral sex to the penis
from what I understood I thought yall didn't like any sort of attention to the dangle
did I make a faux pas
>>6536855
Most don't.
>>6536854
idgi
>>6536855
no they are an agp fetishist
>>6536855
Every girl is different, it's probably more common to be uncomfortable with using it than not, but it's not particularly uncommon to be okay with it to some degree either. That said, don't let her try to bully you into doing something you're not comfortable with, that's not cool.
>friend's birthday
>boymode
>five guys
>drink a bit too much, smoke weed because it was offered and I'm a cultured lady with manners
>be a bit out of my control zone
>behave like a happy air head
>be pretty happy
>people seem to like me
I-I always though I was a kuudere but this is pretty nice.
>>6536863
>>6536822
Idk first times dating are always awkward tho, she probably didn't have the entire concept ruined, especially if she met a guy soon after that could change her mind. I know the feeling of wanting to apologise though. This girl dated a guy before me who eventually came out as gay. I came out as trans within 2 months of us breaking things off. Having two repressed people trying to date you has got to sting, idk if she's dated since.
I know the situations you're talking about though, they happened a lot when I was with some of the jockier guys in high school. They'd just get talking about what they liked in girls and what they found hot and then I'd occasionally get made fun of for saying i wanted a girl with a nice personality, because I didn't know wtf else to say.
>>6536862
>>6536863
explain AGP I don't know any of the colloquial
>>6536859
>>6536864
That was mostly my rationale, like, 1. I don't have any interest in dicks at all; they do nothing for me. every other part of a girls body would be sexier and 2. i figured a solid 80% wouldn't want that to even be brushed in necking
I told her my reasoning and she said I was being transpobic
>>6536864
Ha she can't bully me in to doing anything, I'm about a foot taller and stubborn as hell
>>6536822
>did you ever get in those situations with a group of cishet guys who were checking a girl out and you just had no idea how to participate
no bullying but I think most people here have been through that.
Also the failing to properly date girls.
>>6536872
Storytime us Red! Hottest stories only!
>>6536710
you will be a girl one day
>>6536871
She's a faggot then.
>>6536866
>kuudere going deredere
Cute, this should be a thing more often.
>>6536815
You do realize that Rachel has her life more together than 90% of the people on this board right?
She may suffer from mental illness but at least she treats it and overcomes it, instead of wallowing in it. You wish you had her life
>>6536871
she can emotionally bully you tho. even if it doesn't hurt you at all it can affect how the people around you see you.
agp is an obsolete medical term to gatekeep people, like you weren't trans but just a man who wanted to be seen as a woman, but we use it mostly to underline our rejection of people who transition but retain clearly male things like using your dick. some might jockingly say that if you like trucks or wrestling you're agp, but wanting to fuck things with your 100% male penis is bullshit for most people here (not all, of course)
>>6536871
>I told her my reasoning and she said I was being transpobic
She's probably agp and almost certainly a bitch.
AGP people like, transition because it gets them off, not because of dysphoria.
>>6536831
Pfft you say that now but really going out doing drugs and partying is the fucking best. I'd die to party looking like you but I'd settle with partying with you desu. Alright I will p curious
>>6536869
>This girl dated a guy before me who eventually came out as gay. I came out as trans within 2 months of us breaking things off.
ouch. hope she's recovered
I actually hate thinking about my past nowadays. I did so much stupid stuff and I can't even comprehend why. maybe I should stop reminiscing and just go to sleep
>>6536874
not real bullying but like joking teasing among friends. I stopped getting real bullied after middle school, went to a new school for high school and people were pretty cool to me. I think by then I mostly knew how to (pretend to) be a guy
>>6536871
She sounds tumblr tier retarded. Fucking drop her
>>6536871
Agp = autogynephilia = sexual arousal at the thought of yourself as a woman
Part of an outdated model of trans people whereby there are two types of trans women:
Homosexual transsexuals - trutrans, exclusively into men, earlier transitioning
Autogynephiles - fetishists, later transitioning, lesbian or pseudoheterosexual
The more you know
>>6536881
I guess it was mostly the pot, but it was a really nice experience.
>>6536892
Unlikely, it's more likely that she has just accepted without fully thinking through the tumblr idea that if someone you want to have sex with isn't interested in having sex with you that they're oppressing you.
>>6536907
I thought that was /r9k/'s philosophy?
so what is this rachel cunt's deal?
>raped
>beaten
>bipolar
>drug addict
but she's passable so you all think she's the bees knees? wtf is wrong with you people, bitch is absolutely nuts.
>>6536882
>You wish you had her life
No, I really don't wish that at all she sounds like societies punching bag
>>6536883
>>6536892
>>6536899
Some days she has really bad feelings because of what I understand as dyspohira; ie not having long pretty hair or a vagina but I mean she's a small asian so she wasn't exactly super fucking masculine before
I just feel really confused cause some days it seems I'm really offensive (ie saying mtf instead of dmab) but the next day it's something else.
I feel bad dropping her as a friend since I've known her for at least a decade now
okay I'm kind of drunk and will vent now. it's exhausting listening to her sometimes. she refuses to live her house (in fucking seattle) because she's convinced her mere existence as a transgirl means that everyone (re: every male) will wish her a violent death at best but probably assault her. constant victim complex annoys the SHIT out of me.
>>6536902
she says she's "pansexual" but from what I know almost exclusively is in relationships with cisgirls or transgirls because nearly all men terrify her (except me? which is weird)
>>6536881
I checked the internets and I'd say I'm a natural boke, the absurd part of the comedy duos. I need to get a friend to correct me constantly and I could enter showbiz.
>>6536912
They're not so different, really.
>>6536822
Ugh, I had a gf my freshman year thinking it was like some sort of obligation that I had to fulfill. After a few short, awkward interactions we broke up and I remember feeling very happy, acting smiley and bubbly that now I had a girl that was just a friend like someone like me to relate with. Girls never really befriend me probably because they all think I'm a creep the way I analyze and try to understand them, so this felt nice at the time.
I avoided dating for a few years until I was at a bar and this ugly bitch was coming on to me. Got tired of thinking I'll be lonely forever so I agreed to let her come home with me. One of the worst mistakes of my life. She raped me of my virginity and I basically fell into the biggest hole of my life. When the post trauma finally began to subside, I took full advantage of my last moments in school. I felt confident and ready to find a nice grill again only to meet someone, stay at their place and feel strange dysphoria watching her and thinking about her fashion sense, body, mannerisms ect. For the next three days I was even further pass than when I felt after the rape. Wrote a 20 page letter to myself to read in about 7 years telling me to kill myself if I am still unhappy and unable to understand what kind of partner I need. I still don't know, but at least by now I realize I need the hrt for the fear that my behaviour will get worse. I need to burn that letter. I basically described everything about her in detail that I liked, all qualities I wish I had. If somebody I knew read this I'd probably be sent off to a quack therapist for bipolar meds or some bullshit and not be able to get the hrt.
sorry to vent like this and butt in
I really need to get this off my chest
>>6536916
You seem like a loser lol. Go outside more. Pokémon go is out now.
>>6536916
>but she's passable so you all think she's the bees knees?
No, she's fun for the thread and her drama is pretty selfcontained. There's no reasson to dislike her.
>raped
>beaten
how are this things making someone more or less crazy? they affect them,but the results vary and it's not something you could complain to them or tie to their nature or something.
>>6536917
>really offensive (ie saying mtf instead of amab)
>everyone (re: every male) will wish her a violent death
>constant victim complex
>pansexual
Yep, it's tumblr alright.
>>6536893
Pop my drug cherry.
>>6536916
lol geeez.
omg
>3 year old nephew wants to watch avengers clips on youtube
>he sees scarlett johansson
>"she looks like you Shannon"
being hugboxed by kids is amazing
>>6536917
If she's a good friend you should be able to share your own issues with her behaviour. At least it's something to try before dropping her from your life. It's easy to get caught up in your own problems, more when it's something you are reminded permanently, but that doesn't mean it's cool to ignore howyou make others feel or how you're behaving.
You don't scare her because you're her friend. She isn't scared of the elements that make a man, she's scared of some mental image that generalize what men are. Not so different from people afraid of some particular minority or gays (which doesn't include people who just plain old hate them)
>>6536936
lol, kids are adorable
>>6536898
Idk, the past can be summed up as "repression a shit" and "being naive a shit". It's only painful because hindsight is 20/20. No matter how dumb it was though, the person that made those blunders wasn't the person you are now, and they knew a lot less.
Looking back, it's fucking ridiculous what kind of mental gymnastics a repressed mind can go through. "I'm not a tranny, I just want to be a girl," "I'm exclusively attracted to girls that I envy," "I bet dating a girl will make me not want to be one". Just..idk
Thanks for revisiting that dark place with me. I know it's not pleasant, but there's some amount of catharsis in it.
>>6536917
>pansexual
Tumblr
>>6536926
please, if she didn't pass none of you would give a shit about her
>it's not something you could complain to them or tie to their nature or something.
actually yes it is. if she was stronger and less pathetic, neither of those things would've happened to her. cmon, she's pretty large, right? star athlete, means she must be at least 6'1"+, 170lbs. She's a professional victim.
I'm tumblr famous i have a text post with 1187 notes
>>6536949
assigned male at birth
>>6536917
Tell her the world isn't as big scary or awful as tumblr makes it out to be
>>6536933
Oh yay! Thought you'd never ask. Acid is pretty great but someone like you would probably really like molly. It can make you feel empathy so that would be cool. I'm driving to Vegas in like two weeks was gonna trip on the strip. You anywhere near there? Gonna be bringing some acid
>>6536949
assigned male at birth
>>6536944
No one here passes, and the ones that seem like they do just show the right angles. If you want to complain about undesirables that get multiple responses per post just because people want to fuck them go after Faye. And even she looks like shit from side angles.
As I said, she's fun to have here. Triggers people and can have a decent conversation if she wants. Much above more than half the trips.
> if she was stronger and less pathetic, neither of those things would've happened to her.
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>>6536949
Ask Me Anything, Baby
>>6536944
That's a dumb line of argument, plenty of people that don't pass are well liked here.
>>6536944
>she's pretty large, right? star athlete, means she must be at least 6'1"+, 170lbs
she's actually 5'11" - 135lbs if i remember correctly. That's not large by any means. she's kind of built like a stick.
And seriously fuck you, if you actually knew what she looked like you wouldn't be able to picture her fighting off someone beating and raping her.
>>6536922
>thinking it was like some sort of obligation that I had to fulfill
this is exactly it. I didn't want my friends to think I was gay anymore.
the rest of your story though.. ;~; that's really tough anon. glad you're still around. I always say venting is good so get it all out
I wouldn't worry about someone else reading the letter, if you're keeping it private. but it doesn't sound like keeping it around will be helpful much for you though. get on hrt! it will help, as much as I talk depressively here it made a world of difference, I was much worse before
>>6536942
even outside of gender though, I did all sorts of embarrassing stuff in like elementary school even. guess it could've been tied to repression though, since I just didn't know how to fit in
>"I'm not a tranny, I just want to be a girl," "I'm exclusively attracted to girls that I envy," "I bet dating a girl will make me not want to be one".
so true. I wasn't even attracted to this girl and I realize it now, I just chose her because we were pretty close and as I said above, I didn't want people to keep thinking I was gay.
the other odd thing mentally about dating for me was, even though this girl was clearly 100% cis, I always had some lingering thought in my mind "what if she's a trans? would I be okay with dating a trans girl? that'd be kinda cool but kinda weird". I don't know why I thought that. I mean I guess it's to do with repression but meh, still odd when I think about it
>Thanks for revisiting that dark place with me. I know it's not pleasant, but there's some amount of catharsis in it.
it's why I love mtfg. feels good to share stories about being stupid. it always makes me feel better to know I wasn't alone in how I used to be
I prob will go to bed though
>>6536955
I'm in Michigan.
Would it actually make me feel empathy?
>>6536930
I try to be patinet because I'm sure it's not easy transitioning or dealing with all sorts of those feelings I can't even fathom because I was fortunate (?) enough to be born right or whatever it is.
it is refreshing though seeing I wasn't completely off-base with what I was feeling
>>6536955
I told her that she doesn't have much to worry about and I'm positive that she won't get assaulted for walking down the street but she insists I don't know what I'm talking about because I am a man and won't be attacked. she feels that she'll be sexually assaulted and when they see the penis she'll be killed on the spot.
the more I'm talking to you people the more I realize it's not really a good friendship
>>6536958
oops wrong comic
>>6536949
A Mauve Avenger in Britain.
>>6536949
Army/Mercenary, Avoid Bothering
Goodnight
>>6536969
where in MI?
>inb4 UP
>>6536979
Grand Rapids
>>6536954
>she's also very intelligent
my fucking sides
>but most people here probably like her more for her humor than her looks
holy shit aren't you her girlfriend? did you just call her ugly. FUCKIN 'CAPPED
>>6536960
nah, rachel actually passes even without the angle bullshit. i saw her in therapedungeon today (ironic name for her, right?)
Faye looks like a mongoloid without angles and lighting and behaves like one too
Where in Michigan if you don't mind me asking. It could. I've met other people who never felt empathy till they did molly. Didn't last but they felt it.
>>6536980
wow that's quite close, i live in kalamazoo but work in GR
>>6536968
nice fucking blog
take it to tumblr
>>6536984
Oh? Nice!
>>6536989
moving to Grandville at the end of the month actually
>>6536968
>"what if she's a trans?
I like to think this is the line of thinking that happens when repression gets the better of some girls and they end up becoming chasers.
Goodnight anon, and thanks for sharing stories and feels
>>6536970
She does know she lives in America right? How delusional can one person really be? It'll start a fight but you gotta tell her how stupid she is
>>6536978
nini!
>>6536994
>who draws these?
I think she sudoku'd a few years ago
>>6536996
makes sense, they were always really depressing.
was she a total uggo unpassable or something?
>>6536990
LETS HANG OUT
>>6536994
a dead transgirl
>>6537000
So jelly. Move to Oregon you fagit
>>6536968
I strongly consider myself asexual. I don't see how a man or a woman could fulfill my sexual expectations, well basically because they don't exist. No pussy is good enough for me to care about creaming in and no dick hot and hard enough for me to want to play with. I just want to forget about sexuality. Permanently. My sex drive is already low as it is. My hope is that hrt will just cut it off since in general it can decrease libido. Hopefully that's not a stupid expectation. It's certainly not the sole reason I want on hrt, but it seems like one potential benefit of many. I know for a fact I don't want kids. The world is already overpopulated and I see not reproducing as pretty the correct thing to do. My dad will be disappointed, but I wasn't born for him anyway. I'm a fucking accident.
>>6536999
grace said she was alive tho
>>6536981
No I didn't call her ugly I said she's also funny in addition to being pretty, and she also doesn't every gratuitously camwhore or post edited photos of herself
>>6536998
since half of it was making fun of angry old transitioners I'd assume she passed.
>>6537005
grace lied
kiwi died
her bf cried
>>6537006
Doesn't always*
>>6537002
Sure gib me money :3
>>6537000
YES you can show me the good bars. ive only been to stellas
>>6537009
grace had lied to us
kiwi has been always dead
and her bf cried
ther eyou have, a proper haiku
>>6537011
Honestly wouldn't be against it. How much wood u need
>>6536777
loool i been playin OW sorry for the super laggy posts
>>6537008
Just because you're an angry old transitioner doesn't mean you can't hate angry old transitioners
t. angry old transitioner
>>6537008
you'd be surprised at the levels of cognitive dissonance trans people can have
>>6537009
kiwi is alive you idiots
>>6537006
>she also doesn't every gratuitously camwhore or post edited photos of herself
that is true, i always appreciated that from her. she probably could post new photos everyday or camwhore like edie but no, she just decides to plainface it and make jokes all day. i'm gonna miss her when she either goes back to work or kills herself
>>6537015
this chasing is getting really creepy
