Is it worth chasing my sissy fantasies or will it ruin my mental health?
>>6528295
It will ruin your mental health
Youre going to either repress it or embrace it at this point.
Why not try life as a crossdresser first? Then if you meet a cute fun guy whos not transphobic, bring him home and see what happens. Being an honorary woman is much better for your mental health.
>>6528437
sissy is crossdressing?
>>6528693
Strong overlap between the two. They're both rooted in AGP.
If you are even considering it your mental health has gone to shit anyway.
Do it, I got super into forced fem/sissy stuff and I ended up transitioning at 15, now I'm 20, stealth, and my mental health is the best it's ever been ^_^
Also don't watch sissy hypno when you're 10
>>6528790
> tfw I only started sissy hypno at 13 so I started transition at 18
Life's not fair
>>6529072
Idk, I have huge dysphoria over my body and genitals, and it is very comforting to be called feminine pronouns.
However, I don't like policing people with pronouns. They should call me however they feel comfortable cause it feels like a lie to force others to call me "she".
I just want to be a qtpi, I don't really care about the whole politics that come along with it.
>>6529101
Fem transformation and forced fem hypno just appealed to me because I guess I was trans all along.
>>6529121
That's probably true. Some folks in /agpg/ said the same.
>>6529183
Well if you read the current agp thread a lot of people admitted to having trans thoughts when they were like 6 before developing AGP later so there's that.
>>6529183
I dont think its AGP, just what you get when you repress trans feelings along with raging male sex drive
>>6529072
I just feel like a girl now, I was trans before the agp stuff that's for sure.
Like what >>6529121 said, I was trans before I found the hypno/fem stuff it was just a way to think about trans things for a bit.
I'm not really into it anymore though, but every once in a while I realize I'm a DD cup slut and I get turned on. Other than that tho I'm trutrans ^_^
>>6528747
>Strong overlap between the two. They're both rooted in AGP.
Even the gay ones?
>>6528295
it is worth chasing it.
it will ruin your mental health.
>>6529891
Gay guys supposedly can't get AGP so no. They just expressing their womenhood. When a "straight" guy does it then its AGP yo.
>>6537242
Why bump when you can sage?
>>6528295
You will never look like a woman so don't even bother my man.
>>6528295
your mental health is already ruined and will continue to be, so you might as well make it more enjoyable to fap to yourself
>>6528974
>Watch sissy hypno at 13
>Still haven't transitioned (18)
>Just got schizophrenia instead.
ffs.
There are guys that will allow you to casually do it in a normal bondage relationship on fetlife, but for your perfect, infallible brand of forced fem, you may as well drop the fetish.
>tfw I had stopped watching sissy porn and cross dressing right as I was on the edge of going over the deep end two years ago
>tfw I thought I was done with it forever, but I fell into a drug fueled sissy binge this weekend
Can someone here who also does this shit help here? I don't know what to do now
>>6540311
probably get off this board and focus on hobbys, goals, relationships, school, and etc..
>>6540332
That's what I was doing for two years, but you can't live your life in a perpetual effort of distracting yourself from something you know is going to crop up into your mind again at some point
>>6530333
>Gay guys supposedly can't get AGP so no. They just expressing their womenhood. When a "straight" guy does it then its AGP yo.
>tfw gay twink who started hrt because of AGP
>tfw always kinda gay though
IT'S NOT TRUE
I really wish I would have never found sissy porn
tfw I'd fuck a sissy but I've only got a 5 incher, and they're all size queens.
>>6540582
same but its not stated by the opposing party
>>6537750
Is sissy hypno porn the most destructive of all fetishes?
Repress: grow to hate it every time it shows
Embrace hate yourself for being a freak
Answer? No fucking clue, your on a board full of self loathing fags. Go somewhere else if you want actually advise or help.
>>6540791
Who else even engages in this kind of shit though?
dude I just come here to fap
>>6540995
That's how it starts
>>6540996
It's been ten years anon,
I think I'll be fine.
Also probably the fact I only ever enjoy when I'm horny.
>Tfw remember fantasising about being kidnapped and "forced" to become a princess by disney's Cinderella as young as 5
I was a clever lad though. No one knows my secrets
>>6528295
do it!! be a freaky boygirl, it's fun as fuck and if you're confident and rock it most people won't give you any shit
embrace the degeneracy, denying it will only make you more miserable desu, yolo and all that
>>6528295
This is 99.9% sexual, right? Do whatever you want. Nothing matters much until you decide to get surgery and shit. I'm learning how to suck my own dick and it's awesome. I can at least get off in my mouth before I feel weird for being weird.
>>6541090
Religious people do the same thing. It's called come to church with me. It makes them feel secure in their decision.
>>6541145
get a bf/gf, desu
>>6541157
I'm kinda content having fun with myself atm. I want to be fucked like right meow though.
>>6540700
Oops. Ignore the dead reply. On phone was.
It's near the top because it interferes with your day to day life. Honestly, it's probably my biggest regret in life aside from not being more assertive when I tried coming out.
This being said, damn I wish I could still enjoy it, sissy faps are still some of my funnest faps ever.
>>6542019
It almost makes the shame, depression and disillusionment that follows worth it
it fucks with you man i cant hear good girl without getting excited anymore.
>>6542068
Meh, it wasn't the shame or the disillusionment that affected me. I was a pretty perverse kid.
It's just that sissyhypno conflicted a lot with my self identity. I had fully accepted that I was a girl and I wanted to look pretty, but I consciously rejected the submissive and weak willed suggestions. My mental health was already on a downwards spiral by this point as I was also a super paranoid conspiracy theorist who had no friends and believed that my dad was trying to poison my food. So the sissyhypno that grated against my mind really began to tear me apart. To tell the truth, I was already a pretty shy and submissive fag, but I didn't realise it back then, and whenever I would notice I was behaving petite I would instantly assume it was the hypnos doing which would cause me a lot of stress and more mental tearing.
God I was so fucked up as a kid. I fucking hate my family for how they treated my brain problems.
>tfw when you want to give up on the life you're tryjng to live and become a diaper wearing sissy girl
>>6540358
Repressing your sissyness will really fuck with and corrupt your sexual urges. I was watching really hard core anal stuff at really young ages.
>>6542878
>>6544020
Is there any way to pull yourself out of the sissy fetish after it's gripped you? I've been struggling with this for years and every time I think I'm past these urges it all comes back even worse. I feel so sick and depressed right now, and I don't even feel like myself. It's fucking with my whole identity. I just went on a massive sissy hypno binge this weekend and now I can't get these thoughts off my mind
HYPNOSIS
DOES
NOT
WORK
THIS
WAY
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
>>6528295
>tfw getting my leash tugged on while collared, diapered and wearing a onesie
>tfw he pulls on it til my head is in his lap and he scratches my hair
being a degenerate is underrated, there's no afterlife and ageing sucks no matter who you are so just enjoy your youth and do whatever the fuck you want as long as it feels good and doesn't harm others
>>6544147
>collar
>diapers
shit fetish senpai. Why not be a good housewife instead?
>>6542673
Awww, someone's well trained. Goood Girl~
>>6544147
You'll think back on saying this when you're in Hell and regret it
>>6544114
It's obviously not the same as regular hypnosis, but it clearly has some mental effect
You mean by transitioning? NO YOU FUCKIN MORON. YOU WILL NOT PASS AND SOCIETY WILL SEE YOU AS A FREAK AS LESS THAN HUMAN.
The lowest piece of shit will be able to judge you and make fun of you.
I am trying to save you holy christ. save you from a life of pain
>>6544188
All any form of hypnosis can do is put you in a hyper aware, relaxed state where you act with decreased inhibition. It cannot turn you into anything in particular. If you started to act in a certain way as a result it was ultimately because you *wanted* to.
You can, however, feed a fetish via masturbation. Nothing to do with hypnosis though. If you masturbate to feet every day guess what you're gonna like masturbating to feet more.
>>6528790
Are you really stealth? Lots of transsexuals LIE. Some can be stealth if you head is small enough and good proportioned. Is that you?
I know many many ts that started at your age that do not pass and live eternal hells.
>>6542673
You look like a man. Your chin is extremely recessed. I am disturbed by your lips and chin area
>>6544092
Probably, although if so I don't know how. Have you ever considered hypnosis to reverse the affects of other hypnosis?
Other than that, I'd recommend trying to come into peace with your fetish. Although that can be hard because while you're not horny sissyhypno is generally repugnant. That being said, it worked for me. Whenever I'm trying to stay in an appropriate frame of mind and I begin feeling cocklust or any other perversion caused by sissyhypno (which is thankfully a rare occurrence nowadays) I simply enjoy the thought before moving on. The trick is not to let the thoughts cause a negative emotional response, which will allow the thought to root itself in your mind.
>>6544020 is right, you can't completely repress your fetish, especially when it's been seered into your brain via brainwashing and there's a part of you that longs to live out the fantasies. The longest I managed to go without letting my mind slip to the fetish was 4 months, then I saw a sissythread on /r9k/ and instantly my mind was fixated again. I realized then that no matter how much I hated my fetish, it was a part of me and I couldn't neglect it forever.
>Wake up at 4am with raging hardon
>masturbate and look at images of tg
>"I want my cock and balls cut off and turned into a girl and wear dresses"
>cum buckets
Lol my brain
>>6544244
All I know is I can't keep playing this repression game anymore. I can't take it anymore. Even when i'm not consumed with sissy lust, I'm depressed and constantly worried about it. I feel like this is just going to end with me living a double life with a separate sissy identity that I assume when I have time alone. I don't know how else to handle it though.
>>6544335
Why the drama?
I'm pretty satisfied wearing a buttplug and masturbating to sissy Hypnos, then going to the gym in the morning
The cums are amazing.
Never gonna be gay irl or Persue it outside my bedroom though. Pretty comfy.
>>6544409
It's hard to live such a fractured duplicitous life. I feel like I'm living a lie and like I don't know who I am.
>>6544436
who you are is different from what gets your dick hard.
>>6544436
I suppose im used to it at this point
I enjoy what I do in private but don't feel bad about hiding it.
Guess that's just me.
>>6540358
The Internet
>>6544585
The Internet was a mistake
>>6544494
I fap every night to it.
And go to the gym during the day.
You should relax. In my mind. Nothing I do in privacy is wrong.
Just let your bedroom because your special place. Where you can be a humongous faggot and sissy and let it all out.
You will feel better.
>>6544668
Damn it anon..
>>6544092
Drop porn forever, and don't masturbate for a few months.
>>6544709
I'd probably have to stop coming to 4chan in order to completely remove porn from my life, but I have nowhere else to go
>>6544668
What do you do about lonlyness?
>tfw I impulsively shaved my whole body when I was horny and won't be able to hide it for the rest of the summer
>>6544897
I don't get lonely,
I enjoy spending time with my friends. And there's a disconnect between my private time and real life
And will probably just get a gf for appearances sake
Although I would wouldn't say no to a strap on
>>6544092
Im the 18 transitioner, and I don't think it's the hypno porn itself that is addictive. If you constantly have thoughts about all that sissy shit, it's probably because you have some feminine/ trans streak in you that surfaces as a sissy fetish. When I said I started sissyhypno at 13, it wasn't like a cause and effect to transitioning at 18. Both transitioning and sissy porn are effects of me be trans.
> have trans thoughts entire life
> repress them
> repressing these feminine thoughts gives you a fucked up sissy fetish
>watch one or two sissy videos
>"I swear the video made me a sissy"
This thread desu
>>6545195
Eugh! I don't think i'll be able to live unless I get a bf I can roleplay and dress up with. But people with this fetish are so fucking rare.
>>6544162
>>6544162
stop it its actually weird for me to even read it
>>6544236
i guess its a opinions and bad pictures
I remember always imagining myself as a girl when I would play games with myself as a kid. I'd always be Rogue or Jean grey or April and the turtles would come save me. My mom was always at work (or honestly out banging guys) and I'd try on her panties and lipstick (I'm talking like age 9-10 here). When I first kind of admitted to myself I was bisexual around age 19 I tried crossdressing with dudes from CL but I'm like 6'1 and hairy as fuck though.
I only discovered sissy porn in like the last 4 years (i'm 30 now) and it's pretty much all I can masturbate to. I'm still closeted too.
What does it all mean /lgbt/?
>>6546274
That's what I'm worried about honestly
>>6528295
You're still going to end up rotting in the ground regardless of what path you take to get there. Do what thou wilst.
>>6546744
Everyone is hairy as fuck, thats why you gotta shave it off from the neck down
Post some sissy pics y'all
>tfw used to have these fetishes
>also used to fantasize about turning into a girl, liked wearing girls clothes when i was a little kid, like 6
I thought I'd grow out of it once puberty went full swing... Then I thought i'd grow out of it once i was an adult... Then i started HRT, thinking i'd grow out of it by the time I finished my 3mo supply
13 months HRT
When will i grow out of it ;~~~;
>>6549753
Must clarify that i dont even find this hot anymore. I fantasize over men, but VERY rarely crossdress in a sexual way. I do like some womens' clothes for aesthetics and /comfy/ though
>>6540358
fucking children on this board who had broadband before they were in high school
>>6540311
>>6540349
This is me. Down to talk about it if you want. My last period of repression was about two years, and I got really good at being a cis dude.
However, my experience, complete with drug-fueled crossdressing binges, seems to be that I am meant to be trans, and I am seeking the means to transition shortly.
>>6546724
I think you kind of a cutie
I get these fucking sissy urges in varying intervals... but at least I learned to control it early. It was never an option for me to go through with anything because I figured if I didn't want to have anything with girls clothes and sissy porn after orgasm, it's probably not worth it..
Also, I get into a hardcore sissy binge once every month or so, especially if I haven't masturbated in a few days and I've been out drinking the night before. But then I get it out of my system after a few days.
After that I won't have any sexual feeling for a few days, and after that I can usually get off to straight, gay or trans porn, but it's not nearly as intense as the sissy stuff.
I hope this shit goes away at some point, but since I'm 30 at the moment, I don't see that happening.
But at least I think I figured out why this is a fetish for me, but that's a long story....
>>6545042
so? nobody fucking cares...
or just tell people that you had to do it for medical reasons or something
>>6552644
also, I never had thoughts about being a girl when I was a kid, but I was always into freaky sexual shit for as long as I can remember. But then I discovered the internet and things went downhill really fast..
one of the first things I remember was that I started talking to guys on ICQ and pretending that I was a girl because I liked the attention and it was easier to talk about sex and stuff with guys than girls..
Also, I discovered anal pretty early too, and that was always a part of what turned me on
lol seriously, I was a weird fucking kid
>>6552668
If it makes you feel any better, I had wanted to be a girl for ages, and I discovered 4chan very early on. I spent most of puberty wearing panties/in chastity etc taking lewd trap pics and calling random strangers on kik or skype or yahoo 'daddy' or 'sir', Then i'd end up having an emotional day and gushing about how I was scared i was trans and my libido would back off for a while, i'd kinda scare them off. Then i'd find a new guy a few days/weeks later and repeat
Reach 18, move out, the cycle repeats except this time I don't recover, go to therapy, get hormones, still very uncertain and unstable. Now a boy-girl thing with boobs
TL;DR - 4chan and trap porn ruined my fucking life
>>6552724
>If it makes you feel any better
lol how is that supposed to me feel fucking better?
>>6552740
Just saying it's not so bad, doing anal stuff and pretending to be a girl online is barely even abnormal
>>6546296
the alternative is to think i could have known before puberty and became a qt
that is an unacceptable thought
>>6545042
vlad?
>>6552741
yeah, when you put it that way... so you're not happy with being a boy girl thing?
>>6552655
>shaved legs
>nobody cares
You can explain all you like, but people will definitely ask about it
I've always had a desire to crossdress but no idea where to start.
>>6552893
it's not rocket science... you get some girls clothes and then you wear them.
>>6552519
>tfw got broadband when I started 6th grade but didn't do anything with it
How soon should I end my life?
>>6552771
It's okay... It's difficult to hide and i don't really know what i am or what im supposed to be. It's pretty scary desu. Sometimes i feel cute, sometimes i feel like an ugly freak of nature
>>6544181
Come out of the closet, baby girl. I'll let you give Daddy's penis a little suck. :)
>>6552535
How did you get to the point where you realized you weren't a cis dude anymore?
>>6540311
same thing happened to me this past weekend. i caved only after 2 months tho
i think the best thing to accept this side and don't fight it. but definitely lay off the porn. that shit is destructive
>>6552724
>Now a boy-girl thing with boobs
that's hawt. i think you've inspired me to get hormones now
I wish i could transition, but the costs are so great and my family hates the idea of it. I cant afford the HRT and Theropy alongside college, i had to pick just one and i hate that. Am 19. I wish I had people to be a sissy for, but i live in the fucking bible belt and everyone is transphobic here.
>>6555048
Self-medding can be as low as like $28 a month, depending on what you get.
>>6555123
Id rather get a ductor to help. Im not good with meds and what to pick. hopefully i get a cheap, but college is college.
>continuous thoughts and feelings of wanting to be a girl starting when I was 4/5
>always thought every guy wanted to be a girl until I was 13 years old
>dad would make fun of me whenever I did anything feminine or acted feminine, don't know how to act male, I'm just awkward in everything I do
>started crossdressing at 8, enjoyed it
>when I got older I would sometimes jerk off while crosdressing, if I cd frequently the "excitement" wears off and it just makes me feel warm and fuzzy instead of getting aroused
>still want to be a girl and think about it constantly
>masturbate to "pics that made you wish you were the girl" threads and related stuff
i wanna die desu
have no idea what to do except sudoku
>>6555395
Thats alot like how my childhood was,i remember dressing up in my mother's old prom dresses before they were moved somewhere else. I know how painful it is, But seppuku isnt a good senpai. If you wanna talk my email is [email protected]
>>6552864
no they won't
i'm sure people noticed mine, but nobody ever said a word (to me at least)
>>6555136
You're required to have insurance as a full time student anyway, aren't you? Something like $2000/year I think. I don't know what the deductible or copay is like.
>>6555525
How do you deal with it?
>>6555762
Ill be honest, Im not good at dealing with it. I get super depressed almost everyday. But I keep going because the motivation to try and do something about it. The idea of a change is what keeps me going in the hellhole that is this existance. The hope that there will be a way is what keeps me going.I am not a strong person mentally, Im completely ruined in every way. Its sheer hope that keeps me going. But something that has come to make it easier is now I know im not the only one. Living in this area surrounded by trans-phobic Christians in Kentucky really made it bad on me. But I also know things can always be worse.
I'm really sorry about pouring all that here.
>>6555791
By change do you mean transition or at the least take hormones?
Or are you unable or unwilling to do that ?
>>6555795
unable, A combination of the environment I live in as we as the cost of the HRT and theropy. And yeah i wanna transition. And the media doesnt help with the current views of transpeople. I still dont give up though, thats something that is worth going for. Itll make it more satisfying when it happens, and it gives me a kinda dark motivation.
>>6555795
Having people to talk to helps alot too, having friends who really dont care helps. Skype is a great tool to keep with them.
>>6552724
Do people harass you in public. Do you have friends and a normal social life?
How can you people let porn and masturbation have this big of an effect on your identity?
>>6556443
because they have nothing else in life
it's kind of arousing, a bunch of betas who are so useless and fucked in the head that they want to become fuck dolls for real men
>>6556497
I guess it's the ultimate consequence of neetdom, when a persons entire sexuality has been shaped by porn.
>>6528295
>"Don't do it! That's not Jesus Christ! The Thread! Number 13409758123848"
>>6554745
Its okay. I kinda like my boobs but it's a difficult and confusing life
>>6556365
Well i bind my boobs, and i keep my hair short-ish. I've been addressed as a girl by a bum, told i'd make an attractive woman, everybody naturally assumes im gay, had someone yell 'faggot' at me, compliments tend to be more "aww you're so cute" over "you're hot/handsome"
I also get a lot of compliments on my ass, people are more likely to touch my lower back or waist/hips instead of moving me via shoulders/back if i'm in the way
I dont think anybody has noticed, i still have friends etc, if anything my social life is very good
>>6556827
The real world is scary ._.
>>6555395
Go to /agpg/ m8 we've had a dozen of cases like yours.
>>6557762
>mfw transgirl and tempted to chop my hair to experience this
Please dissuade me from this madness
>>6557900
Dont do it, its not the hair exactly. I wish i had long hair but im lazy and impatient
Also im a little scared that i'd start passing and be tempted to transition
>>6557912
I like how short hair looks. Ill probably hold off till i can get a trach shave and brow/orbital reduction though.
