Sup legbutts? I'm feeling kinda feely tonight.
So, gimme something to cry over. Tell me about you one that got away.
>Speak for a while
>Played a bunch of League
>Liked each other a lot
>Spent a week in Canada together
>HolyChristHe'sAmazing.jpg
>Slowly stop talking
>Realise he just isn't interested any more
>Tfw he probably realised I'm uglier and more awkward than he thought
>FeelsAnHero.zip
>>6473372
nobody cares faggot
>>6473372
>Meet someone internet famous
>Get to talk to them on Kik
>They talk back
>We go back and forth for hours several days a week for a month or two
>A lot of similar interests, I can't fucking believe someone this amazing is willing to get so close to me
>He's flirty as all fuck, telling me to come meet and we will fuck
>They are just a 6 hour drive away
>Finally get up the nerve to tell them to just plan a date and I will do whatever it takes to get there and meet them
>Suddenly they balk because they're "busy"
>We keep talking though
>Flirtier than ever before
>Learn they're moving soon
>Now they're so busy with moving they don't want to meet
>Moving literally across the country
>To do porn
>MFW I allowed myself to believe
>be me 18 gay male
>Go out with friends
>run into metalheads and stoners
>"let's go listen to a band and get drunk"
>yes please
>we get there
>holy fuck a 10/10 cute guy sitting close to me
>he gets up
>talks to me, his lips almost touching my ear
>says he's never seen me around and introduces himself
>at everyone why'd he talk only to me??
>annoying friends start saying we have to go
>fuck you guys he's the love of my life
>continue being a drunk mess
>friends take me away
>I'll never see him again
>find his number and text him "You're beautiful"
Fast forward a month
>having the worst day of my life
>get a text
>"Thanks anon, how'd you get my number? We should hang out"
>tell him yes
>"but be sure to bring girls anon"
>"sure!" Crying inside
>figure out he likes my best friend Kaya
>whatever if there alcohol I'm going
>only best friend and I are going and we are nervous as fuck
>ready to get raped
>we get to his house
>he's even more beautiful than I remembered
>best friend and I don't know how to socialize
>we awkwardly buy alcohol with them
>many shots later
>idk I'm about to have sex with some guy
>being a slut but don't wanna get an std so tell friend to not let me out of her sight
>smoke weed and keep drinking but still can't chill
>best friend has to leave
>beautiful guy starts telling me he thinks my best friend doesn't like him back
>not my problem bye
>fall asleep in his bed
>"don't worry you can sleep here I'll take care of you, just in case any guy wants to do anything to you"
>sure whatever
>not actually sleeping
>hear "anon you have a nice ass, cover it or I'll have to fuck you"
>pretend I'm asleep
>should have left but nah
>later
>hear cute guy talking with friend
>let's go already
>no I can't, this boy (me) is sleeping here
>he could have just woken mer up and asked to gtfo
>"okay fine man I'm leaving"
>it's only the 2 of us here??
>wake up and he's masturbating on the side of the bed while looking at me
>I just wanted a hug but okay
>>6475580
BUT HOW DID U GET NUMBER? ??6!?
>>6475580
>>6475580
Cont.
>should have seen this coming
>start blowing him
>I want to do my best for him
>he takes my pants off
>jerks off while touching me
>okay??
>covers my face
>wow maybe I should just drink bleach
>he's like drooling and making the ugliest face ever
>he jerks me off like he's trying to tear my dick off
>he tries to make me top him
>this sucks
>2 hours of this
>finally he tries to top me
>wow I think his dick is really small it doesn't hurt yay
>oh wait
>feels like someone shot my ass
>his dick is actually not small
>jump toward cover my ass and want to die
>I'll put more lube don't worry
>I can't
>3 seconds later I feel his cum on my thigh
>the only moment I felt affection
>"oh we have to go"
>okay
>"well you have to go, we should hang out again, what are going to tell (best friend) about tonight?"
>"that I left early I guess"
>"okay also don't tell anyone about this"
>roll eyes "sure"
>just leave at 4 am
>cry the next 2 days
>tell best friend
>she hates him
>he blocks me on all social media
>he must really hate me
Yeah I know I should!d have seen it coming but a guy I liked had never acknowledged me before but he turned out to just do the same as all the guys I've been with. But whatever fuck him and them. I don't feel like I'll find anyone soon but I'm on a journey of first just loving myself and finding love to be something extra.
So that's how I found out most things are pretty from afar and just plain ugly up close.
>>6475614
Oh he called my best friend telling her I had gave him her number(but of course I hadn't). So she gave me his.
>>6475673
>>2 hours of this
>>6475691
It was a long time but I was high most of the time so I didn't really mind apart from the humiliating shit
>>6473372
This is a story i feel like sharing but i was playing the opposite role, at least kind of, iv'e just wanted to share this
>Be 17
>pimply loner who spends all their free time playing video games
>Part of multiple roleplay groups across multiple games
>MW3 just came out, playing with a bunch of guys
>one of them is particularly hilarious and we're clearly the best people there, break away and start playing together
>instant super friendship
>everyday play MW3 together for a solid 6 months, along with talking in skype and messenger
>Start to develop huge crush on him, but he says he's asexual
>"we'll see about that"
>Start acting flirtatious everytime we game together, hint about being single and wanting a bf
>ask him for irl pictures, he's a little femme for my tastes but cute mexican otherwise
>finally ask him to be my boyfriend, he actually says yes
>instantly his demeanor changes, he becomes obsessive and controlling, and starts asking me for sexts on the reg (some asexual you are)
>he doesnt let me play with other people without his approval, is a total dick to my other online friends
>still stay with him
>no longer pimply, get /fit/ and starting to look good and feel confident
>meet incredibly hot guy irl who's /pol/ as fuck and loves hiking with me
>instantly start falling for each other, we fuck a few times, he was seriously so fucking hot
>start dating and fucking this guy while i still have an online boyfriend im completely apathetic about
>its been about a year and a half at this point, we start making plans to see each other, even though i really dont want to, he's paying for the whole thing ill try it
>drives down to my city with a friend of his to see me for a weekend
to be cont.
>>6475785
Cont.
>meet at a mall
>sit in the food court twitching nervously, want to vomit, decide to walk around with my headphones to try and catch my breath
>run into him at the pretzel stall, instantly realized he was not attractive at all
>barely over 5 feet
>patchy facial hair, i think he was trying to have a beard but he looked like a bootleg jihadist
>tragically skinny
>wearing oversized clothing that made him look like he was 12
>noticeable body odor when i got close
>we stop and stare at each other for a minute then he rushes in and hugs me as tight as his little arms can
>pretzel stall employees starting at me funny while while i smile awkwardly and look down
>"this isnt going to get any better is it"
>we walk around the mall talking and hes being simultaneously incredibly clingy but too nervous to talk
>grabbing on to my arm like hes a lost child, i want to die
>we go to the motel hes staying at with his friend to hang out
>play call of duty together as the obvious awkwardness consumes the air
>his friend leaves the room to explore the city, leaving us alone
>he starts getting extra cuddly
>"we're going to have sex arent we"
>"oh, anon, i have a present for you"
>this could be nice
>hands me a little box, i open it, its a pair of pantees, he got me a pair of pantees
>remember he had a big dick from the pictures he sent, might as well get this over with
>change into the pantees he got me and get on top of him
>he starts making out with me, his patchy beard is itchy and his breath tastes dusty
>break away from his nasty mouth, decide to go straight to the dick
>pull of his boxers and am consumed with the worst smell
>i dont know if this guy even knows how to wash his dick
>start sucking
>hes not even hard, its like playing with a tiny limp noodle that smells like a locker room
>keep going at it, but hes just not getting hard
>try grinding him and touching dicks, but nothing is doing anything for him
>says hes really nervous, and that maybe porn will help
>>6475845
Cont.
>agree, id much rather watch porn anyways
>takes out his laptop, connects to the wifi and goes to 4chan
>a little nervous what board hes going to
>its /b/
>he finds the loli thread and opens it, begins scrolling through the pictures right next to me
>i became massively uncomfortable, immediately put my clothes back on and start playing my DS on his friends bed
>he tries to make it up to me with a movie date
>we selfie together outside of the theater, i send it to a friend and she asks why i would date someone so ugly
>go home after the movie and cry, knowing its going to be worse tomorrow
>meet an ihop in the morning with his friend
>try not to think about yesterday, only waffles
>on my phone to avoid conversation, cycling through twitter and reddit
>see a polandball comic, show him
>"Is that reddit, anon? i thought you were better than autistic atheist fag site" in the middle of the ihop
>go to a festival together, he buys me lots of things while i try to pretend i dont even know him the whole time
>another pathetic attempt at sex
>i couldnt break up with him in person, but the second he left i texted him it was over
>then proceeded to stalk and harass me for weeks after that until i blocked him on literally everything
>cry pretty much during this entire time because of all the time i wasted and how much of a violent ugly pervert he was
why do i even date people
>>6475880
But you still have the hot boyfriend right? It sounds like a shitty way to confirm that the online relationship you had just needed to be done with but it happened. So just forget the gross guy and move on anon, get the hot guys dick and live happily ever after.
>>6475880
I'd have to agree with >>6475904
>>6475904
nope, i actually completely broke off with him because i was technically "cheating" on the other guy and i didnt want things to get sticky, so i cut off all ties. i obviously did the stupid thing
>>6475580
What the literal fuck are you doing. Were you dating this guy just to get drunk inside of his house?
>>6475880
You were kinda a piece of shit anon. You shoulda dumped him when you lost interest, if you didnt have contempt for him you would have just told hin to shave, clean, and you would have been more patient in bed with him. Hes not going to go from 2d to 3d instantly, nor would he take losing his love that fast well either.
>>6476773
oh don't get me wrong, im fully aware there was some utter scummyness on my part. i wanted to break up with him for so long but i stayed out of guilt. he was like a lost puppy and i just couldn't do it. i kept that relationship alive on white lies. it was a total piece of shit thing to do in hindsight, even if in the moment i thought i was just sparing his feelings. never again will i stay in a relationship because of guilt
>>6476825
Your situation kind of makes me feel better about cutting off contact with an awkward online boyfriend in favor a guy I haven't known as long but hit it off with spectacularly irl. It feels bad to hurt someone like that but in the end it seems like it's always better to just do it before things get worse.
>>6477800
You can cut somebody off in a non autistic manner you know.
>>6477855
Utter nonsense
>>6477855
I do wish I hadn't cut people off so abruptly and awkwardly in the past. I was kind of pathetic and the thought of confronting someone about that kind of thing just gave me crippling anxiety so I ended up shutting them out completely.
I have never and will never do that to someone I've had a relationship with in person though. Maybe it's selfish but I just don't feel the same level of responsibility for the other person's feelings in a purely long distance/online relationship. That's not to say I didn't care for them, it's just that my ridiculous anxiety outweighed my desire to spare their feelings.
Story time. This is a long one. If I focus too much on the game then sorry, but honestly it's how I organize this story chronologically.
>"Ted", a friend of a friend in high school winds up hearing about a Twilight: 2000 game I run on the weekends.
>Ted asks if he can come.
>I have three players, no way will I say no.
>Plus he's sort of cute.
>He brings along his best friend who we'll call "James".
>Wind up rolling Ted's character with him.
>He wants some really stupid stuff but it winds up all right.
>I'm attracted to Ted, have been interested in him for over a year. He doesn't seem interested so I back off.
>It takes Ted and James awhile to get used to the game. J is into it but obviously distracted. T requires things be explained to him more than three times before someone just does whatever it is he needs to do for him.
>Fellow player we'll call W is stirring the pot, does some stuff in game that causes a moral dilemma.
>This is sort of W's thing.
>Instead of even trying to work it out T attempts to PK W's character.
>I decide not to allow it. Tell them to try to resolve it without killing each other.
>Turns into a heated argument across the table, eventually one of the established players who we'll call Mike takes the side of W's character and James has sided with Ted's character for obvious reasons.
>Third established player attempts to stay out of it and decides to scout ahead. We'll call him Chance.
>After ten minutes of arguing I tell them to settle with a coin toss.
>neither side really happy with this but accept my ruling.
>Coin toss ends in favor of Ted's position.
>decide to fudge the result of Chance's scout roll in favor of the party to end the session on a high note.
Cont.
>>6480352
Everyone is just sitting around finishing off the snacks and drinks.
>No one is vocally sour about the argument, I know my regulars aren't because they do this sort of thing all the time.
>Decide to check with Ted and James just to be sure after.
>W takes Mike and Chance home.
>Ted and James stay after waiting for their ride.
>As soon as my regulars are out the door Ted starts complaining about the argument.
>I tell him to not take it so personally. This sort of thing happens and it makes the game interesting.
>James agrees that it was all in good fun.
>Ted looks a little hurt, but gets over it and we joke around until they leave.
>Next session.
>Mike couldn't make it, pulled a muscle while paintballing.
>Ted and James arrive late, we're halfway through the pregame meal and I set them a place at the table.
>Ted is being sort of flirty with me, complements my cooking and tells me I look cute in an apron.
>James has a weird look on his face.
>awkward as fuck but whatever.
>Game goes smoothly, Ted and James' characters start associating with the rest of the party.
>Ted's decision from the previous session leads to the party having a shortage of food.
>W's character insists that Ted and James should go without because they're responsible.
>Ted looks at me for support.
>Shrug and say that it's not my place to say.
>the table is siltent for about 5 seconds and then W says OOC that Ted shouldn't come running to me every time he has a problem.
>I'm still infatuated with Ted, tell W it's my place to call out player behavior and that Ted didn't know better.
>W looks hurt, realize I fucked up.
>add a quick, "W is right though Ted I'm not an arbitrator."
cont.
>>6474627
I appreciate your optimism, but I can't say I share it.
>>6475880
It's interesting to hear the other side of a similar story. I hope I didn't come off as badly as your internet guy. I'm kinda confident I didn't, but sometimes it's hard to be objective about yourself I guess.
>>6480477
you look like Jimmy from The Dex
>>6480511
Is that a good thing? I can't say I'm familiar with it.
i know that feel my man
>>6480433
>the mood at the table is noticably worse for the rest of the night.
>we decide to end the session early and I put on an episode of ST:DS9 because Damar is sexy as fuck.
>Things are starting to loosen up, but I know I've just pissed everyone off a little.
>Ted sits next to me on my love seat, not really helping anything with W who now thinks I'm favoring Ted.
>Realize I may be favoring Ted.
>W takes Chance home and Ted and James decide they want to watch Conan The Barbarian.
>Around the point that Conan is doing the do with the chick after the temple break Ted puts his hand on my thigh.
>I'm freaking the fuck out, never been in any sort of romantic or sexual situation before.
>Lock up for about 30 seconds then relax.
>Look over at James who is staring at Ted and me.
>Get up and make up some bullshit about putting things away.
>Ted wants to help.
>Tell him to just enjoy the movie and I speedy gonzales the fuck out of there.
>When I come back Ted and James are getting ready to leave.
>Ted hugs me, James is doing that look again.
>Call up W to apologize. He tells me it's cool.
>Start prepping for next weeks session when I get a call from James.
>In this quiet sort of hurt voice, "Ted is just trying to play you to get at W."
>Don't know how to respond, just say "What."
>"Ted does this, he's not interested in guys. I should know."
>Thoroughly confused at this point. Why the fuck would someone go through all the that trouble over a game.
>Ask James if he's into Ted.
>Don't know James that well, him and Ted go way back.
>"Y-yeah."
>I should mention James is extremely smart, became an architect later in life. Has some mild notoriety in my state.
>also extremely repressed from a very religious family.
>also cute as fuck.
cont.
>>6480525
I dunno
just stating the first thing that came to my mind.
>>6475785
>>6475845
>>6475880
LOL, this gross guy you met is literally me except i am a tranny, or that i don't browse /pol/, or /b/ or need porn to get aroused but still i am clingy, super awkward and ugly as sin
the guy who was with me also ignores me which is no surprise considering i sent him five texts already like the creepy basement dwelling socially retarded retard i am
>>6480477
Not great but not bad.
You don't seem too photogenic based on this picture, but the conditions don't seem very flattering so it might be underselling you.
There's potential here.
>>6480534
At this point I had dropped out of high school for reasons. I should mention that I live alone during all of these events.
>Game night is still going on, a couple sessions have passed that were mostly uneventful.
>W is really starting to get pissed at Ted.
>Ted is constantly antagonistic and making weird advances.
>If I weren't such an autistic loser it might have been creepy.
>as it was I was just enjoying someone hitting on me for the first time ever.
>James gets more uncomfortable, can tell he only comes because Ted does.
>It's getting to the point that I may have to tell Ted not to come anymore.
>Don't want to force James out.
>James can only get a ride with Ted.
>At the end of a particularly bad session W approaches me with Chance and Mike and they tell me that they want Ted out.
>Think it over for a few minutes, agree.
>Ask for advice on how to do it.
>W just says, "Let me handle it."
>Oh fuck that's probably not good.
>W is a large fellow, about 6'2" and 340 pounds.
>assume he's going to squish Ted.
>Tell him to let me handle it.
>Call ted up later in the week, tell him that it's not really working out with the rest of the group and that my hands are tied.
>It's a white lie but hopefully Ted won't get too mad.
>Nope. Begins a tirade about how shitty we are as people and how he hates our shitty game anyway.
>Hang up mid sentence.
>Call W and get a busy signal.
>He calls me an hour later and tells me that Ted called him, trying to claim that I had been badmouthing W behind his back.
>I've been friends with W since we were tikes.
>W tells me I did the right thing and makes sure I'm okay. Decides to come over and hang out.
>We watch The Crow and make shitty jokes about the actor that died.
>W heads home.
>James calls, "C-can I still come to game night?"
>Tell him that of course he can, but he'll need to find a ride. Give him W's number to see if they can work something out.
>Everything seems to be going well.
cont.
>>6480631
I'm going to go make some food, I'll resume posting in about half an hour. Is anyone reading? I know it doesn't seem like anything is happening but it's all just sort of back story so far.
>>6480639
Dear god man don't stop!
>>6480639
I'm reading. If you
>Get on the floor
>Walk the dinosaur
me, I'll not even be mad.
Impatiently waiting for rest of story........................................
>>6480477
>>6480631
>W works out a system with James who can catch a ride to a shop slightly closer to W.
>Game night continues, James starts getting closer to the group and opening up.
>James had been home schooled before high school, apparently.
>Lived near Ted for most of his childhood.
>Ted is the only person our age that he knew until High School outside of their church group.
>Apparently Ted used to 'experiment' with James.
>Eventually Ted loses interest in James, threatens to out him to his Southern Baptist parents.
>This takes months, we all become really good friends. Game night becomes more frequent and erratic.
>I have a job and one night a week isn't enough.
>We start watching movies occasionally instead of playing Twillight: 2000.
>I'm really into James.
>Like, stupid teenage pining one true romance levels of into James.
>No idea how to act on it.
>Hadn't heard from Ted in awhile, assume he's just forgotten about us.
>Eventually get over my hang ups and make a move, call James to ask if he wants to go out.
>He picks up, I can hear Ted in the background asking who it is.
>James is quiet for a second.
>James says that he's on the phone with someone from the Academic team.
>Being a dropout piece of trash this is obviously not true.
>I decide now isn't the best time.
>Tell him that I was just calling to see if he was still coming to game night.
>He confirms he is.
>After the call I start to feel really inadequate.
>James is on the fast track to being something and I'm on the fast track to trade school.
>Go back to being too pussy to ask him out.
>Next session rolls around.
>James doesn't show.
>W says that James called beforehand to say that he wouldn't be coming anymore.
>We're all pretty put out. It's agreed that I'll call and find out what's going on.
>We don't even play that night.
>Just have a meal and talk.
>Realize that it's just not game night without James.
cont.
>>6480810
I thought he was really attractive when he was younger, so I'll take that. Not so much now, but whatevs.
>>6480728
Sorry about taking awhile, this happened like a decade ago so I'm trying to make sure I'm remembering things correctly. plus I'm pretty shitty at writing.
>>6480693
Thanks. It's nice to know that someone is enjoying this. I'm mostly telling it because catharsis at this point.
>Call James and no one picks up.
>Sort of weird, someone almost always picks up the phone at James' house.
>Call again.
>Nothing.
>Figure they're out.
>a few days go by and I still can't get in contact with James.
>Starting to get worried.
>Call up W and tell him about the situation.
>W decides to corner James at school and get some information.
>W shows up at my house the next day.
>Says that Ted found out James was coming to game night still and was pretending to go to academic team practice.
>Ted told James' parents who were really pissed that he lied to them.
>James' parents have caller ID now and made James give them our numbers.
>James is apparently living in fear of Ted outing him to his family.
>The whole situation is fubar.
>James says to just leave him alone and it will be easier.
I wish I could say that I pulled some heroics to save that poor fuck from his family and Ted, but that would be a lie. I wasn't in a position to help him. Game night basically died after that, we still played a few newer games and we met new people.
I still regret not trying to help James. Or knock the shit out of Ted at least. I haven't even spoken to him in real life since. Me and W are still pretty good friends, we hang out fairly regularly. Mike and Chance still come to a yearly get together our circle holds. I have no idea what happened to Ted. James added me on kikebook when it was popular.
Never really pursued anything after that. Had a few quick things with guys after, but nothing serious. I don't know, I still pine after him sometimes but he's just on this whole other level from me. Goes to social events and wears suits and shit. I still live in the middle of bumfuck nowhere.
>>6480930
Man that's so sad. I'm sorry.
>>6480930
That is the saddest epic one-that-got-away story ever.
Im sorry for you bro. Even if it was ten years ago.
>>6480585
Yeah that relationship made me completely quit online relationships. They never seem to end well
>>6480477
Just flip over to the pussy game brother, you'd have been drowning in pussy like 10 years ago, Idk now though I'm married
>>6476735
No I never said I was dating him, I had a crush on him but I knew he liked my friend. I went to his house to party and ended up getting fucked by him and now I guess he hates me
>>6481067
this. hooking up with people you meet online is the worst thing you can do
>>6481342
In my experience, if you happen to live close to someone that you've enjoyed talking to online for awhile and end up meeting each other things typically go just as well as any other method of meeting people.
Having a long online ldr without ever meeting each other in person usually turns into bad news though.
>>6481071
But I don't like pussy :c
>>6475880
This is awful. I dont know if I can finish.
>>6480930
wow. actually depressing.
