Whats your excuse for not participating in the purest form of love?
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>try to play dead space
>anxiety means you cant play more than 10 minutes at a time
>heart rate of 150
>miss out on shitloads of games because shitty anxiety and health problems
>>6343715
No thanks
>>6344358
Casual
>>6344366
nah just shitty heart and anxiety. im fine with non-horror stuff.
>>6344368
Casul
>>6344372
rood
>>6344382
u rite now
>>6344388
>>6344390
>>6344347
Would u qt fembf instead
>>6344430
y-yes
tfwnohotftmbf
>>6344347
tfw ywn stick your penis inside a ftm
>tfw mtf
>tfw no ftm bf to cuddle and rape me.
there's anyone here who wants a qt trans girl to rape?
>>6344608
You will be my bottom bitch, we'll fuck and play dark souls together
I dated a mtf, the relationship went down in flames harder than any other relationship i've ever had. fortunately we make pretty good friends though.
>>6344347
i already participate in the purest form of love :O and im really happy with my cute boy
I pissed standing at a urinal the other day. I just wanted to experience it naturally before I go purchase a STP device to remind me daily that I don't have a proper dick. Or maybe I'll just stick to pissing standing up at the toilet in a stall.
Hi, can you please explain to me what about masculinity or being a guy feels right to you personally? I'm genuinely intersted.
>>6344742
THIS
Also the opposite for femininity.
What do FTM's think about nuts ? Do you think that their cute/ugly/etc ? Do you want them ?
What do they think/feel about guys getting hit in the nuts ?
>>6344742
>what about masculinity or being a guy feels right to you personally?
it's not about masculinity, or else i would just be a dyke.
It's more that i just have an inability to perceive myself as female bodied. The fact that when other people are talking to me or interacting with me, they see a woman, is bizarre to me.
I just expect to look down and see a dick, and its not there.
Like, one of those nightmares where all of your teeth fall out and you start panicking, but then you wake up and its all okay because you still have all your teeth. Its like that, except if you woke up, and your teeth still weren't there.
not to be dramatic but, yunno
>>6344390
Fucking homestuck
>>6344830
>>6344773
Can't say I feel one way or the other t.b.h.
>>6344742
I honestly don't know cause I've never presented as a girl, given I've always felt like a guy. If I really have to think about it, a lot would be based in social aspects. If I was born a guy, I would not have had to fight with my mom about not wanting to wear a dress on picture day, about wanting to join teams for sports, about what toys I wanted to play with, that I wasn't being a slut because all my friends were guys, about receiving makeup for my birthday when I had asked for a video game, and getting called various names cause I refused to shave or wear a bra.
>>6344742
I don't have a particular attachment to acting masculine. T makes me feel right and breasts make me feel horrible. There's no ideology behind my being a guy.
>>6344773
Pretty cool. Body's own lava lamp, https://vimeo.com/channels/691601/102465487 (scrote inside)
Myself, I don't feel like I need any. I don't want kids. I've got testosterone in a vial.
>>6344742
Having tits has always made me want to cry so I would rather have not-tits. And I have vastly more in common with guys than girls (generally speaking), so I figure I would be way more comfortable assimilating into to that group than being immediately tagged as the opposite by everyone I meet.
>>6344742
Wrong brain mapping. According to self perception I'd expect to open my mouth and have a deeper voice, to look at my hands and see a bigger, thicker frame, and so on. I still can't accept having periods after 6 years. Kept it a secret for two years after puberty hit cause I felt ashamed as fuck. If I look at my body shape it feels like having been mutated and mirrors are a nightmare. I interact with people assuming I'm a man and it becomes painful to keep doing so once they refer to me as a woman. I'm just glad I have no tits. Making pre-T phase more bearable.
Are any of you able to wear a binder without feeling like you can't eat? I got a gc2b binder (you know, the ones that are supposed to be magic for benny b-cups) and the band digs right into my stomach so I can't even eat a full meal. I'm 38C and bought the size it said I should buy on the website. But the top straps don't fit me either. It feels like it was meant for someone with a longer, broader torso. Anyone else have issues with this brand?
I have a gender dysphoria diagnosis, I know I want to be a man, but I'm kinda scared of going on T even though it's the only way for me to look like a guy. I'm fucking terrified of looking like my abusive dad. Is there a way for me to take T until I look/sound the way I want, and then stop?
>>6344804
>I just expect to look down and see a dick, and its not there.
>>6344836
>Can't say I feel one way or the other t.b.h.
>>6344908
>Myself, I don't feel like I need any. I don't want kids. I've got testosterone in a vial.
This kinda hints to me that ftms don't feel dysphoria for not having nuts. I wonder why ?
>>6345070
Probably a similar way to mtfs not feeling dysphoric about their missing ovaries. Internal-factor aside. Okay, maybe a bad example. I guess nuts would just be an aesthetic thing for a lot of ftms. The only ones who would miss them are the ones who want kids.
>>6345047
If you go off T you will regress back. The face and body hair will stay, and so will the voice, but the fat distribution will go back to it's original pattern (inkluding facial fat and appearance). If you don't want to look too masc you could take lower doses instead of going off it completely when you achieve your prefered looks. That way you will maintain without going full dad-mode as you get older.
That being said, you will age as yourself not like your dad. Unless you have a scary resemblance to him you'll be fine.
>>6344773
>>6345070
whats your thing w nuts my man
i love a good creampie anyway
>>6344430
as long as i can stick my fake benis inside something i'll be okay with anything
>>6345070
>>6345098
sometimes i get dysphoric over having no nuts, and im probably going to get a scrotoplasty+implants with a meta (but no vaginectomy if possible) but its not a massive deal.
i think most of the time its an aesthetic thing. a lot of trans people have to come to terms with their likely inevitable infertility pretty damn quick.
>>6345110
We have the same eyes but that's about it. People often say I look like my mother or grandmother. But people in my family tend to grow up really skinny (like my mom) or really broad (like my dad), and I fall on the broader side of the spectrum.
>>6345157
>trans people have to come to terms with their likely inevitable infertility pretty damn quick.
no ;_;
>>6344608
Why so many mtfs want to be raped or abused?
>>6345037
i have gc2b and i don't have this problem
mine is a half length if that changes anything
>>6344730
...how? surely you had to pull everything down???
>>6344347
>enter mtfg in the catalog
>accidentally'd a ftmg
well while im here i can try to answer a question i guess
>>6345246
pic related is probably the best answer
>>6345246
when i fall into bad depression and my self-hatred goes up, i find myself being more attracted to rape fantasies.
>tfw have actually been raped and feel deep shame everytime i wake up from a rape-fantasy dream
>>6345475
>tfw in wrong thread
sorry bros
>>6345470
>>6345500
I guess this is what happens when your OP contains the string "mtfg".
>>6345559
Reading the thread title is for nerds
>>6344773
I want them. Not for aesthetic purposes, because they're kinda weird looking. But feeling them tighten as I nut into my girl? Just reaching my hand into my pants to lightly cup them as if they were precious jewels, needing to be protected at all times from the harsh elements of the world? Endless natural testosterone?
Fuck, man. What I wouldn't give for a pair of functioning balls.
>>6345621
I have 2 balls, which means technically 1 could go spare. Either that or I can donate them after I die.
You will have to all fight for them though.
>>6345736
not how it works, sister.
>>6345741
Don't you want my balls? They are large and full of testosterone
can i get some advice?
i went and got a referral from my gp to another doctor that specializes in trans health. so after sending the ref, i called the new office and asked to be signed onto the wait list. however they said they didnt receive the referral, and that i should have it resent. so i called my gp and did just that, but when i called the new office again they said they haven't received it, again.
wash, rinse, repeat, what do i do???
>>6345760
If you're close enough, get a physical copy of the referral from doctor 1 then take it down to doctor 2's office. Refuse to give it to the receptionist, and tell her you need to give it to a nurse or the NP or the damn doctor himself, anyone that's not going to fucking loose it.
>>6345783
If you eat them you gain their power.
You can become the overweight smelly neckbeard in a trenchcoat that you were always meant to be!
>>6344347
Because she doesn't like me back and is dating my friend :((((((((((
>>6345798
b-but i can do all those already, if i buy a trench coat and start eating non-stop.
>>6345843
I will shave my beard and give the hair to you so you can glue it on.
>>6345856
...why are you so keen to give away parts of your body? is this a fetish of yours?
>>6345871
If I transplant me into other people, I can live forever.
>>6345884
You could transplant your dick into my moist boipussy
>>6345884
i think i'm older than you...and a tranny, so I'd probably die first.
>>6345928
so how come you won't just live forever on your own?
>>6345906
I thought you were Brooklyn for a second
>>6346031
Cancer needs a host.
>>6346031
see >>6346044
>>6345783
over a month now
i asked them to snail mail it today since their technology seems to not be working...
>>6345246
Self-hatred
Cis girl here, that's my fetish too
>>6346441
Why you in here
w-why are there so many girls here today? did I miss the co-ed day memo?
Hopefully gonna get to see my doctor tomorrow and ask about a GIC referral. Wish me luck, boys.
>>6346526
Sheesh, I didn't mean that, I was just wondering what brought on the little influx, what lured em in.
>>6346544
u got dis
>>6346548
that juicy bp lured them
>>6346526
They are, I just think emotional masochists are repulsive
>>6346585
Sounds like you have some kind of issues yourself m8
>>6346507
i lured them here with my creative title
>>6346683
Oh yes I do.
>>6345856
>tfw you actually did this once in a fit of poor life choices
to be fair i was drinking a lot in those days. Technically it was for a costume.
>>6344742
I don't think i have much of a personal connection to being a guy, i just am.
like sayin the grass is green, I always felt as though I was or at the most minimal didn't relate to being / didn't see myself as being female.
>>6344358
I had this issue with dead island, so I listened to music the entire way through.
>>6344742
>what about masculinity or being a guy feels right to you personally?
the male body famiglia
>>6343349
Thanks for answering this mate.
I get the gist of how you feel because I just live as female at the moment, and getting to know people is really fucking difficult. All the people I know and like the best live super far away, and those are all the ones that know me as male.
>Anyone I've met in the past several years I've met via my internet presence first, through which I don't claim to any definite gender, so they don't come into any interactions necessarily expecting a woman OR a man. I just let them get a feel for me as a person and go from there. When/if they ask about my gender I'll say "if you simply can't bear to call me 'they' then 'he' is fine." As long as I'm comfortable in my skin, I don't really care how people want to think of me, even if that's an "obviously transgender" person.
I actually really like this for the situation I'm in, and do a similar thing with some friends, but holy shit I would not have the guts to do this. I would feel like I was being judged constantly for every little thing I did.
>>6345621
You don't feel them tighten as you nut, who the hell told you that
So how do you mute a tripfag or block their posts from appearing, asking for a friend
>>6348205
Settings > Filters and Post Hiding > Type in the relevant stuff
why are most posters in here mtf
like that is so fucked up
quit invading other threads for attention
they are like depressed zerglings in a dress that have to fuck everything up with their vast numbers
>>6348233
Friend says cheers
>>6348271
You put mtfg in the OP.
Are most ftm's straight or gay ?
>>6348635
Nope.
>>6346684
Next time put the space between mtf and gf or use mtgf
>>6346507
>>6346684
i kind of want to stay because this general seems kinda cooler than mtfg so far
but i feel like we'd also trigger each other's dysphoria if i hung out here so idk
is it okay?
>>6344368
lol do more cardio fatty
>>6348712
That depends... are you gonna post a deluge of dumb chinese cartoon girls while you're here? Because that's gonna get old pretty quick.
>>6348743
Im so used to avatarfagging Ill have to remember not to
>>6348753
Don't sweat it too hard if a couple slip through the cracks. This place is never entirely devoid of the animu, after all.
>>6348773
Anime girls are just so useful for cutely expressing any sort of visual emotion!
So are you guys usually slow? Im so used to threads moving super fast and having lots of stuff to read
>>6348803
It usually chills way down at night. Well I say night: It's 10pm on the US west coast here, and there's usually not much action until early morning. From then on there's a semi-steady flow of posts to look at throughout the day.
>>6348844
Ah, thats kind of a shame. Late night is when mtfg settles down enough to be comfy instead of pure trash..
Well, i suppose ill lurk about for a day or two and see if i can be of any use to you boys, or if ill just leave you alone and go back home!
>>6345184
i think about it sometimes and wonder if i made the right decision to transition because i've fantasized about raising kids and being a father since i was a kid, but adoption was always in the back of my head anyway. plus, i wouldn't want to bring a child into the world if i wasn't absolutely stable and adoption is a good way to insure that i will be before i choose to have my kids.
OP I am gonna slap you silly for the shoddy job you did starting this thread. Drop your jeans, I'm gonna play your ass like a bongo
>>6344347
Serious question
what is
>the purest form of love
and why is it that
>>6349172
Purest form of love is shota and ojisan
>>6349510
>weeb shit
>pure anything
Weaboos are scum who deserve to be bullied and anything to do with anime and manga should be burnt.
>>6345047
I'm having this problem. I want to go on a lower dose of T, I'm seeing the endo next week but I'm scared if I express this he'll not think I'm trutrans and deny me hormones altogether. What do?
>tfw summer
my fair english skin is melting ftmg. plus dysphoria means at least 2 layers outside of my room. at least my unhealthy levels of denial and many distractions mean i can sit in my room without a shirt on for a little while before i completely disappear from the heat.
>pic unrelated. just cute.
>>6349640
Dude it's only like 25 degrees out man. I'm a redhead and enjoying the shit out of the sun.
>tfw burn for about 2 weeks, then tan
>>6349646
i dont do heat brah. i get dizzy and sweaty and gross plus my room gets the sun all afternoon and is like a sauna when im trying to sleep. i cant even open the windows because theres a beehive right next to them.
>too sickly for hot weather
>too sickly for cold weather
>too sickly for life
>>6349664
Sounds like you need a healthy dose of deal with it.
Embrace the uncomfort. If your room becomes a sauna, wear nothing but a towel and sweat the shit out of it. Make it your bitch and you enjoy it more.
That's how I deal with sunburn and blisters the length of my entire body.
>>6349629
why do you want a lower dose?
>>6349677
I'm already pretty masculine looking. I want to remain sort of androgynous.
>>6349709
Why?
>>6349718
Tbh it's mostly because I value my hair. I want to escape the baldness gene in my family. We're South Indian so most of the males in our family go bald by 21. I'm 20. I don't want to look like Alibaba the school principle at the young age of 21.
>>6349747
Embrace the bald, man. Most men do and deal with it well enough. Plus beards.
>>6349747
Lower T isn't going to stop you going bald, or masculinising, it's only going to make the changes slower. You could take finasteride if you're worried about losing your hair, they should slow the recession, but it'll also limit beard growth.
>>6349675
>sunburn and blisters the length of my entire body.
Spf 50+ uva/uvb, my man. Stay pasty, stay young.
>>6349810
If it's as bad as he says he will probablyhve serious recession by the time he's that far in anyway.
Referral get. Don't know when I'll be contacted or get an appointment but it feels good to actually have some kind of a plan.
>>6349891
Britland, I've got plenty of time with my thumb in my arse ahead of me but there's a goal now.
>>6349799
>only factor 50
>not ordering in some 75
I keep mine at 25 and burn cos I tan eventually
>>6349924
same, same. I got my referral about a month ago, probably Sheffield Porterbrook.
Got anything planned for the interim so you feel like you're making progress?
>>6349799
>>6349927
The difference between spf 30 and 50 is incredibly small. The difference between spf 50 and anything above is so negligible as to be meaningless.
>>6349927
enjoy ur skin cancer
>>6349947
lol if it matters that much why not find a cave in the taiga and chill.
desu my winter skin is pale af but in summer i tan incredibly well. i suspect my dad is part shitskin of one sort or another.
>>6349959
I don't tan well but I deal with it. I hate the fact I burn so easily though.
I need to get some E45 cream.
>>6349969
Yeah, but I also like to spend a lot of time outside. I don't tan for the sake of assthedicks, I get a farmers tan because of gardening and the like.
>>6349941
I'm probably being referred to Charing's Cross, expecting a pretty long wait because London. No clue what to do it the meantime. I wouldn't want to come out until I'd already been on T and while so, until then, idk.
>>6349810
>significantly lowering your T dosage after the first 2 or 3 years and supplementing it with a SARM like Ligandrol (LGD-4033) or Testolone (RAD-140)
Now how am I gonna get my hands on those.
Also, how do you begin to understand hormone receptors and shit, never mind how to measure all the testrandrobololognas against each other? Is there some kind of 101 somewhere?
i might be living out of my car by saturday, i don't even have the ability to be upset at how my life is completely spiraling out of control beyond "fuck.. well, can't get any worse than this i guess"
>>6350126
What happened bud?
>>6350069
Keep in mind that what >>6349816 said still stands true. If it runs in your family, and you start T after puberty, it won't take much for you to begin developing male pattern baldness.
Secondly as the MtF who also gave femboys pointers on how to tailor HRT to their needs, I'm far more clued up on HRT for AMABs than AFABs.
I don't know how your bodies work, in all honesty.
I worry that by recommending shit to you from my layman's perspective, I could cause more harm than good in a way that I am confident I haven't been doing when recommending stuff to AMAB femboys and MtFs.
Your HRT will infer different risks so I don't know what bloods you'd need to keep an eye on, there's also the matter of teratogens and fertility if you still want to bank gametes prior to transition, all kinds of shit.
All I know is SARMs are often anabolic (I named 2 of the more anabolic ones), and could help with muscle mass and bodyfat redistribution to give you a more male silhouette.
They don't metabolize into DHT which is a plus from avoiding MPB, but a negative for body/facial hair and voice change.
They're probably the safest thing you could take prior to T actually, to give you a starting edge, but for voice changes and body/facial hair development, you're going to need T.
SARMs tend to be fairly available due to their demand in bodybuilding circles as a kind of steroid-lite, but can be expensive.
Another possibility would be to use an anti-aromatase to reduce estrogen production in your body and possibly give you a tiny increase in your natural T. These are riskier from the teratogenic pov I think and in AFABs are usually reserved for treatment of older ER+ cancer patients.
>>6350069
(contiued from >>6350155)
There are no concise 101s. When I was looking up information for myself, a lot of the MtF resources are seriously outdated.
I taught myself what I needed to know about AMAB HRT through scouring research papers and cross-referencing different sources till I got a good idea of what I was on about. I haven't done the same for AFAB HRT, and probably won't, so I highly recommend you start with say, wikipedia to get acquainted with the basics of sex hormones and SARMs before hitting up PubMed and looking at what research is out there for specific meds/supplements.
Another thing you could do is read through bodybuilding forums and see what female bodybuilders are getting hold of, and what concerns they have for their fertility and health. Far more of them than FtMs, I would expect, would be young women who wanna lift without risking their ability to carry pregnancy, so the risks that count for you count even more from them and that'll allow you to err on the side of caution more.
>>6350131
to make an incredibly long story as short as i can,
apartment complex is under new management, my lease was up and they didn't want to renew it, i have no friends who live here and none of my family wants to let me stay with them
the best i can do is wait it out until i can get a dorm at campus if i can't find anywhere before then, but that might be awhile.
>>6350181
Man, what a shower of bastards. Did they have any reason to not renew it?
>>6350190
never said anything to me as to why despite asking numerous times.
i don't feel like i'm being singled out though, pretty much every neighbor i had while living here is being asked to leave and or evicted.
>>6350005
Took me 15 months.
>>6350254
sounds pretty standard desu.
>>6350204
Burn it down. Down to the ground.
>>6350166
Thank you. I saw you (presumably) bring up SARMs and anti-aromatase in some thread or other a while back. Since then I have been doing some disorganized research into, for lack of a better term, non-standard HRT. I suppose it really is a matter of reading enough that you're confident in that you have a good overview.
>see what female bodybuilders are getting hold of, and what concerns they have for their fertility and health.
Good tip.
>>6350325
I've shied away from it in the past and although I've mentioned SARMs before, I don't know if I were the one to mention anti-aromatase.
I'd just say it's a big downside for transguys that self medding seems to be higher risk for lower reward than transgirls.
For me, DHT is entirely negative. For you, its downsides are an inconvenience and the magic it can work on you put T over and above anything else (ie SARMs) that can't metabolize into DHT.
To extend upon the female bodybuilder bit, a lot of them will be trying to avoid the kind of virilization you want, so be aware of that.
And lastly, If limiting the time or amount of T you take turns out to be a realistic strategy, but still affects your head hair while you try get those voice and facial hair gains, the option once you start limiting your T (or taking finasteride to limit the DHT) would be to try restore anything you lost with minoxidil.
Minoxidil is pointless if you're still allowing DHT in your system cause the results won't last once you stop using minoxidil, but if you keep your DHT low you ought to be set...
I've also seen transguys use minoxidil to spur on facial hair growth too.
>>6348147
Come on they do sort of scrunch up a bit. I've only ever heard described as tightening, but maybe I just read too much bad erotica.
this is a kinda specific inquiry, but has anyone here hurt themselves pushing their body beyond its limits, to compensate for missing masculinity?
i remember when i was younger i used to participate in lots of team sports, but i would end up busting myself so bad, trying to prove i was good enough (dude enough).
have you done something like this in the past?
also, does anyone have any experience with psychosis and T? i guess im somewhat worried about how T is going to affect my shitty brain, is there anything i can do to help reduce the risks of it getting worse?
>>6349167
come get me bitch ;^)
>>6349628
>>6350558
made me more relaxed 2bh.
>>6350575
I'm gonna beat you up and throw ice cream at you
>>6350664
get redy 4 a beeting
>tfw mtf with no ftmfembf who is as autistic as me so we can live in a harmony of lazy healthy cooking, vidya, and awkward lewd in our studio apt that we afford with our dual minwage/trade income
>>6350575
D A D D Y
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What do you guys really think of this person and other transtrending so-called """"FTMs"""" ??????
>>6351204
I think they ought to find a cure for female autism
>>6351204
I know JUST the place to put them
>>6351204
there is a lifesaver in her chin
>tfw no qtmtfgf edition
I'd date a ftm as long as I wouldn't have to use my thing. I mean, I'm cool with touching but sticking it anywhere is weird and I doubt you guys would want that either. How do ftms get off anyways? I've always wondered
>>6351341
Fine with me desu, I'd prefer to be the one fuccing someone with a packer anyway
I get off by fingering and hitting my g-spot though, my clit is way too sensitive to the point of pain when I try to rub it
>>6350295
sorry it took so long to reply.
yeah I kinda wish i could, dunno I could feel really bad for myself and whine a lot more but.. I'm kinda just happy I'm not actually on the streets and have somewhere I can atleast lock to sleep at night in.
>>6351428
True. It's not ideal and not wholey safe... how long would your campus accommodation take to be available?
>>6351341
I have a ftm fuck friend that I meet up with every now and then. I rub him with the palm of my hand while grinding on his leg. I once sat on top of him and had him spread his legs so we could press our genitals together. We both had pants on though it still felt nice. The only penetration he likes is butt stuff while I love gspot orgasms almost as much as clit orgasms. I'd love for him to finger me sometime but I'm not sure if he'd feel dysphoric doing such.
>>6351451
Until late July / Early August
I might be able to get squeezed in early if I lay it on real thick with my Dean or atleast i might be able to get some better options for shelters in close proximity to my work / campus until there's an opening.
>>6351452
marry me pls
>>6351502
Only if we can have dedicated fuck days because I am a horny slut, especially on testosterone
>>6344347
>tfw no qtmtfgf edition
Hello! :3
>>6351532
no homo
>>6351547
>milksteak
marry me
>>6351547
how rare are those jelly beans?
>>6351547
>liquorice jelly beans
>on steak
Waste of good steak, beans and milk desu
>>6344742
Guy here, it's more a state of being. It doesn't really feel like anything. It feels good to be strong but you have to workout for >1 hour everyday.
>>6351204
i have other far more important things to worry about besides what ever this sperg and other's like em are doing or identifying as tbqh
>>6351544
h-hey
>>6350558
I didn't really ever push myself as far as sports to the point of injury, I was definitely competitive but not to that point.. However I was a little too into getting into physical fights with people, I didn't even care if I "won" I just felt like I needed to prove something by either beating the shit out of someone or being able to walk away from getting one without crying about it.
Adolescence was a helluva trip.
>need a haircut again
>>6344347
>tfw no handsomeftmbf
>>6352043
fugggg
>>6352043
*mouth waters*
>>6352043
b-blease be my gf
i want a tall strong FtM bf to cuddle and protect me
>>6352189
Why not a real man?
>>6352197
>trusting cis scum
>>6352189
Me too, and maybe [spoiler]hold my hand[/spoiler]
>>6352199
WE DIDN'T WANT YOU ANYWAY
>>6352197
lmao @ chasers getting outsourced
So like,
Would it be triggering if I wanted to straddle you and put makeup on you just to see how rediculous it looks, but then tell you how cuteeee you look
...and then watch as you blush and wipe it off and say you can't believe you let me do that, and then maybe you could throw me down on the ground and overcompensate to prove your manhood to me?
>.>;
>>6352527
Not to me
>>6352527
I'd go for that.
>>6352527
>Would it be triggering
yes
thats what makes it hot
>>6350558
I just started taking an anti-deppresant with my anti-psychotic. T made me resort to violence more, but you shouldn't worry about it if you don't have a history of it. Besides that, T isn't really hurting my mental health.
>>6351912
>cut hair
>look like Richie Rich
Guhhhhhhhhh I failed my first exam guys, this sucks. I mean its only 8.5 percent of my grade and I still got like 4.5 of those points but I can't stop the fucking shame
WHY AM I LIKE THIS
TFW no bara ftm
How were you guys as pre-pubescent kids? Feminine? Mascline? A mixture?
>>6353067
Why'd you fail bro? What happened?
>>6353077
What is bara?
>>6344458
You picked best characters on purpose, didn't you?
>>6353067
I know that feel man, the best advice I can give you is figure out why you didn't do well and try your best to improve through that.
How do you study?
Do you have test anxiety?
>>6353886
i was really into watching movies alone in my room
i was pretty masc tho
I don't really miss god but I sure miss santa claus
>>6353886
I was a mixture, I don't remember much about what I was like besides me mostly sitting around reading books or playing street hockey with friends.
I WANT A BOYFRIEND NOW
>>6353886
both, i guess. i was lucky enough to have brothers and friends who liked running around in the woods and riding bikes and shit. but i still kind of liked barbies and "girl" toys, and was never that great at sports.
most of my time was spent reading bad teen fiction and watching shonen anime.
>>6353010
i know that feel. give it a few days, and if it doesn't grow out a bit you'll at the very least get used to looking bad for a little bit
>>6353067
if it makes you feel any better, my quarter just ended and i almost failed fucking community college online PE class because i didn't read the damn syllabus
>>6354019
>having brothers
I always thought having brothers was a blessing in disguise, mostly because they always had the best toys growing up.
>>6354059
true. mine was very protective of his lego bin, so i had to be sneaky, but i got full use of the expensive model train set.
i can't even imagine growing up with sisters. though i guess it might have softened the blow of this whole being trans thing for my mom.
>>6354088
thankfully my brother and I were on equal footing when it came to legos (hot wheels were about the same), we had a huge bin of them that we shared. the only thing he ever got mad at me for was building his kits for him because I was too impatient to keep it in the box.
he was super protective over his action figures though, and he had some really cool ones you could take a part so whenever I'd have sick days I'd sneak into his room and play with them while he was at school.
I have a step sister and all my cousins are female, I have no idea how to interact with any of them on the same level i get along with my brother, it's definitely weird.
>>6353886
More masculine I guess. I climbed things, wrestled with the boys in school a lot and did a bunch of shit I wasn't supposed to .Once a girl brought a makeup set I used it for war paint. There were some feminine things like wanting a doll for christmas once (it pooped) and having a thing for horses.
>>6354386
>war paint
I still get the urge to do this whenever I see lipstick ngl.
>>6353886
somewhere in the middle I guess, hung out with my older brother and his friends the majority of the time growing up. Played a couple sports though I wasn't that interested in playing competitively. Though I was more of that combination of creative and destructive as a kid, all my "girl toys" (dolls mostly) usually got their hair cut off and drawn all over and I used any makeup products given to me as drawing material, usually on the walls, I didn't get why my female friends didn't do the same thing 'cause it was way more fun doing that than playing pretend to me.
Though after a couple years of doing that family learned to just get me crayons and legos instead.
>>6353886
I was a boyish kid. I did the gross-out stuff, challenged everybody to play Peanuts, probably bullied one kid (made him cry when I hit him with a skipping rope, told him to stop being a baby and left him there). Extended family got me Barbie sometimes, I tended to strip them down, pull their heads off and mount them on pencils. Kicked up a HUGE fuss whenever I had to wear a dress or some shit. Wished on stars to be a boy.
Though I do remember mixing up 'potions' while in the bath and putting it on my chest in the hopes it would make my breasts grow. I thought it would make people like me better. Sure came back to bite me in the ass, little me.
>all the MtF trips coming here for attention
>none are getting attention
>>6354016
you have no fuggin manners
>>6353886
Autistic
I spent my childhood playing amiga500 games and computer games. Hang out with another autismo boy to play dinosaurs and Tekken. Didn't socialize with anyone else besides him and a boy with whom I played card games under the school staircase. I had a fixation for disassembling and reassembling appliances and electronic devices. 20 years later and I'm still friends with the same guys and gradually moved to assembling PC\servers\whatever I have parts for. I guess I haven't changed much
Do any of you have trouble finding clothes that fit? Small is too big but extra small is too small. Pants are always too long and if they're the right length they don't fit only because my hips are too big. Why does finding clothes have to be so hard?
>>6344430
I wanna be the qt fembf
>>6353886
Really feminine, lol. I loved Disney princesses and always insisted on wearing dresses because I liked to dress formally
It wasn't until I got older did I stop doing those kinds of things because I found out they're girly things and I didn't want to be seen as a girl. When I was little I thought I was half a girl and half a boy because people would call me a girl but I thought of myself as a boy
I wish male fashion was more diverse. I think one of the worst part of being trans is not being able to dress how I want without being misgendered and even if someone knows I'm a guy they doubt my gender. I don't see why girls can dress in masculine clothing and people will think they're a lesbian at worst, but boys can't wear feminine clothing without everyone thinking they're trans/repressed or otherwise have something wrong with them
>>6355094
yeah, I usually just end up getting things tailored if i can (especially pants). I've had the best luck with Target shirts as far as sizing, the smalls tend to be just loose enough for me without making me look like a child.. H&M also is pretty good for clothing, length can be difficult but I can find things that fit in the hip / leg area there fairly easily.
>>6353886
i had no siblings and i was depressed so just kind of insular, would prefer to sit in my room and read books than do scary socialising with either gender of child
kind of hard to tell i guess, but if pressed to socialise i would just go along with whatever everyone else was doing for the sake of appearance
>>6355094
Yeah. I buy large and take a sewing machine to them.
>>6355094
Yeah, Jesus. My hips are three sizes bigger than my legs. I've heard that American Eagle women's straight cut or loose fit jeans work well for a manly silhouette, but I am poor.
>>6355115
Same. I loved dressing up as a kid. I still love dressing up, I just don't wear actual dresses anymore. Men's fashion is a miserable wasteland and women's fashion is all so cute, but I feel terrible if I wear it because it's girly ;_;
Did any of you go through a non-binary genderqueer androgyne snowflake period before accepting that you were a dude?
I just got my first binder in the mail. It compresses well. I always thought I looked weird with breasts, but I never realized how much it bothered me to see them till now.
>>6353886
Masculine; as soon as I dressed myself it was jeans, t-shirts, cargo shorts. I played swords with my stepbrothers, explored the creek in the public park nearby, ate strange things we found there, and lots of other shit. My friends were mostly guys, although I got on with a few girls.
Once I hit puberty I started getting sloppy and depressed, starting lowering my voice.
>>6353886
Mix I guess? I mostly just loved running around outside and climbing trees and trying to build 'forts' or tiny tiny structures around and about. I was never super awesome at being social, and I read the more I got older. Barbies were okay though, until i hit middle school and it was better to use them to try and mimic ancient burial rituals.
Weirdly the only time I remember looking to my future and seeing myself as a woman was briefly thinking I'd be almost exactly like this comic but with the seven year old's bowl cut i sported for most of my tiny child life.
>>6356709
How hard is it possible for clit tissue to get? I'm about two months on T and I can get super fucking horny, but the growth I have is still kinda soft when it's erect. Does this ever change?
>>6356750
>365 days of Thatcher
>>6356750
barbies were honestly underrated. even a lot of the girls i knew claimed to hate them/tear their heads off/whatever, but me and one friend just liked to act out really complicated and sometimes fucked-up stories with them.
>>6356943
Decently stiff. Give it time
>>6356991
Good to know. Cheers.
>>6356709
Uhhh... I might have told myself that I was probably genderqueer and kept that entirely to myself. It was a sort of stepstone before I could admit that I'm a guy.
>>6356709
closest I got was just seeing if I could live as a really butch woman. I didn't ~proclaim~ myself to be that, I just. Tried to make do.
I can't decide whether to go on T or not. I'm still young enough for it to have a lot of effect (just turned 18 last month) but I don't know if the pros will outweigh the cons.
>>6356991 This all the research I've done kind of scares me. I don't want to lose my hair or have vaginal atrophy and I might want to have kids one day. But I'm just getting more dysphoric by the day and it feels like I'm backed into a corner...
Best time to look into getting name changes and things like drivers liscence/health card etc pics updated? I still have grill mode (long hair and shit) pic on mine with my birth name/gender. About a month on T and people are already telling me my pictures look really dicey now that I look far more androgynous/leaning slightly male, but I really wanted to hold out updating those pics until my looks changed with a bit more time on T.
Maybe I'll just become even more of a hermit for a year or something.
>>6356709
no
i went through a abercrombie and fitch gossip girl mean girls cheerleader overcomp phase before i realized i was trans
>>6357181
>I can't decide whether to go on T or not.
me neither m8, im 19 and i've been so miserable my entire teen years and i just want to have a good early twenties before i turn old and decrepit, and im scared im going to transition and become unfuckable and waste my good years being a bald dickless loser
>>6356990
I liked to make them act out like fucking soap operas and also constantly undress them
I only had 2 Ken dolls so most of my barbies were lesbians
>>6356990
barbies just exist so you can make them fuck each other
>>6357358
this guy gets it
>>6357358
>when you and your friends stripped the dolls and placed them in the bed together, moving them on top of each other in your vague approximation of sex
>giggling like it was the wildest thing ever
i also remember being deathly scared of a parent seeing us doing that as part of our 'stories'
good times
>>6356990
>find naked barbie
>want to put Action Man clothes on her
>can't find him
>"mum where's action man"
>"i don't know where all your brother's toys are"
>"hm"
>"why?"
>"i want to put his clothes on a barbie"
>"his clothes wouldn't fit barbie"
>"okay"
>continued thinking about it for years
>never saw action man again
straight guy here. how do I get a reverse trap (guy with vagoo) bf?
>>6357951
Don't be straight.
>>6357964
>don't be straight
this is not fair ;_;
I didn't ask to be this way. Why can't I just get a qt ftm bf?
Hey guys, I'm that anon who wanted to come out as trans to gay-friendly grandma a while back, if anyone even remembers. I'm using the same GIF too, since it fits how I feel right now.
I finally did it, and it turns out my father already told her despite saying he wouldn't. Better yet, turns out he thinks it's just a phase and he's been playing along until I "get over it". They both think I've been on the internet too long and will stop feeling like this once I go to college or get a job.
I felt like this since I was around five years old, before having internet or even a computer. I had friends and plenty of things to do. I tried to shrug it off for fifteen years, making excuse after excuse, even after learning of the trans/dysphoria concept. But no, it's just a phase, I'm just depressed from being a shut-in and need to do stuff! That's all!
I know I need to get myself settled, and I want to, but this is just one of many things that's kept me isolated from the world in the first place, and the fact that it's being taken so lightly-- that all the support I got was bullshit all along-- kills me. I feel so fucking lost.
Sorry for ranting, but fuck me. I legitimately thought of climbing the tree in the yard and diving headfirst into the ground. Even if I survive, at least my brain would shut off.
>>6357358
I thought I was the only one playing "whore bald barbie" and "run over&rape" when Ken was involved
>>6358114
Don't try to prove anything to them. Just keep living how you need to. I think a lot of us have family that think our trans thing is a phase. It can take time for them to realize it's not
