Your highschool stories and experiences itt
College is better. Eat collective shit.
This is such a cute video
I like having an brother brother figure
This is the cutest video I've ever seen.
>>6216920
>ywnbt boy and start taking hormones at a young age and become a qt fucc
>>6217012
>>6217016
You should see the part when they pretend to kiss him, his eyes light up has the cutest smile ever
>>6217050
Post it then
>>6217130
His face after the kiss, he's got one of those smiles where a bit of his tongue sticks out from behind his teeth its qt
>>6216920
>brought dildo to school, hit pretentious asshole in face
>on my way to getting expelled RIP
>>6217000
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1tqHUf5wmLg
>>6216920
Who
>>6217165
>ugly kid
fuck off grinch that is the most adorable high school age boy I've ever seen
>>6216920
>Your highschool stories and experiences
Had a crush on my best friend but my autistic clingy personality ruined everything for everyone forever.
Now he's bitter and lonely, and I'm just as bitter and lonely.
The end.
>>6216920
I was home schooled for all of high school
>>6216920
I'm sorry.
>>6226711
>tfw this is me
Except I think he actually felt the same way back. I was hesitant because I thought he was straight and didn't give any signals back and missed my chance. Fuck.
>>6216920
>Your highschool stories and experiences itt
I'm deep in the closet and I avoided the jocks.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WcmwPMkoReY
>10th grade
>whole class went camping without teachers
>everyones mind filled to the brim with hormones and booze
>people making out all over the place
>only two big tents: One girl- and one boy-tent
>was being bullied by the cool boys for various reasons
>girls would let me sleep in their tent bc some didn't want me to get hassled in the boy tent
>me with literally 12 half dressed drunk teenage girls at night in a tent
>played cards and talked the whole night
>girls would let me cuddle with them
>some girl made my hair
>every girl liked me for being easy to talk to
>"it's nice to talk to someone who can keep eye contact even if I'm not wearing a shirt"
I still didn't realize I was gay for another 3 years.
>>6227566
>TFW Jocks probably thought you were getting mad pussy
>>6227566
I think I'm just gonna vent my experience in narnia-mode until I fall asleep
>9th grade
>rumor goes around three of the popular boys were at a sleep-over and jerked off together
>in boys locker room after gym class
>führer of jocks looking for attention
>jumping around completely nude bc some guy asked him what "the helicopter" was
>literally standing in front of half dressed me, flopping his dick in my direction
>I'm petrified, blushing like crazy
>everyone looking at me
>suddenly in the center of attention
>One of the three popular guys the rumor was going around about:
>"Anon, you're not gay are you?"
>smart mouth me: "Well, you're the one who jerked off with two other boys"
>Everyone actually discussing wether or no thats gay instead of loosing their shit
>come to the ingenious conclusion: "well, if you jerked off yourself it's not gay"
>the three popular boys didn't even deny doing it
>I still was made fun of for being gay
>I got beat up by the three boys that afternoon
>>6227675
You deserve being bullied for being such a beta faggot
>>6227675
>Beaten up by a trio of homosexuals
That's pretty gay
>>6227675
>"well, if you jerked off yourself it's not gay"
But they didn't just jerk themselves. They jerk with other guys. That's gay., m8. Should've joined the discussion.
>>6227675
>11th grade
>suicidal at this point, cutting myself, big into drugs
>still so deep in closet the 9th generation of moth knew me by pre name
>at barbecue with a close friend who didn't knew I was cutting
>friend lives in big-ass mansion, giant garden and secluded sauna in basement
>everyone getting drunk on beer
>group (only guys) decide to drink while in sauna
>everyone undressing in front of me
>führer of jocks was there too
>had to reinstate his heterosexuality by acting gay
>literally cock flashing me
>friend imitates him
>everyone laughing, going into sauna
>"Anon, are you coming?"
>be me
>sitting on a bench with 3 hot naked dudes in front of me
>have to decide wether I'm more scared about everyone seeing me getting a boner or seeing my cuts/scars
>mind going wild, literally have to vomit out of shock or sth
>run to toilet
>friends think I was too drunk already
>"Man you're a light-weight. Just rest here outside, we'll be back soon"
I sat outside for like 10mins crying. When they came back I had made them some more steaks which everyone really liked me for.
My recent furry convention experience
>Go partying
>Do drugs
>Suck cocks
>Get my ass fingered
>Get groped plenty
>Suck more cock like a good boy
Life is good.
>>6227775
>11th grade, last year of graduation
>tried suicide twice, failed both time obv.
>kinda friends with führer of jocks, crushing hard on him
>he likes to rub his beard in my neck or slap me on the ass
>likes to lean in like he's going for a kiss on the lips but then just headbutts me or sth
>finds it funny how embarrassed I react
>does this in public or when with classmates
>was close friend with his girlfriend
>didn't really like her but they had relationship troubles and often would take me with them so they wouldn't be alone together
>really just used her to be close to him
>Other girl in my class: anonette
>really pretty, impossible to be around but she likes me
>become friends with her so girl-bullies would leave me alone
>one day, arrive at führer of jocks' girlfriend's house expecting them both to be there
>she's alone, sitting on couch in front of door
>"I know why you're really friends with me"
>petrified, feel the whole world shattering around me
>"You're just using me to get to anonette"
>"what?"
>"I know you like her. You're around her a lot"
>automatically laugh because of relief
>"Oh this is funny to you? I bet I'm just a joke too"
>she slaps me, pushes me out the front door
>Führer of Jock coming down the street, sees me
>slaps me on the ass, asks me why I'm not inside yet
>I tell him his gf told me to fuck of
>"Whatever, I guess it'll be just us two in the future"
>I hug him, leave smiling like a retard
>they broke up like a month later
>>6227843
have to sleep now maybe I'll write some more stuff tomorrow. This is kinda cathartic.
>>6227832
I fucking knew thats what you fags did, is all a furry convention is just degenerate fucking afterwards?
>>6227873
I'm just a crazy cute guy that likes to do insanely stupid shit.
>>6227865
>This is kinda cathartic.
looks it. oh what the hell I'll do it too. something about being on this board feels good. pretending to be straight is hard
> high school in general, but especially into the later grades
> M / gay as they come fyi
> get asked out on the metro once and actually hold a gf down for a few weeks, I assume decent looking
> have girls jumping on me in high school (which was weird, I had helmet hair and acne and an awful haircut in general and dressed like garbage)
> realized by 16 that I really was just gay, and nothing else. Figured it since 12, but w/e
> girl follows me around
> eats lunch with me and smiles and holds my hand
> thinking it's a lonely fag hag
> eventually got weirded out and brushed her off many times
> not a fag hag, wants dick
> "no"
> so I start ignoring her
> even see her on a bus ride
> ignore when she says hello when she's with friends in the summer
> see her next year
> ignores me but gives evil glare in hallway
> ends up dating some achmed I thought was semi-cute
felt like an ass desu
I'll do more. this is like truth or dare except not with mean coworkers this time
1/?
>>6227977
2/?
> same years as above story with clingy dark skinned girl, AKA junior/senior
> started getting super depressed in junior year
> switched high schools and lost all friends, was in the 4chan phase when I was 16 too so making new ones was ruled out
> come home every day just so sad and out of it
> only thing that made me happy was crossdressing in my sister's underwear and socks from waist down
> come home and just sadfuck myself over and over
> start wearing women's underwear all the time to make myself feel cutesy
> make friends with some cute nerdy boy
> soon starts ignoring me when I look at him for too long and too directly
> go back to being sad
college is so much better than high school
omg that beautiful boy in OP's pic........
>>6227891
Same lmao. Without being a furry though.
Tell me about the interesting degenerate shit you've done/do. You know, apart from the furry stuff.
>>6227843
Please post more
>>6216920
i think this is a girl
>>6228449
I know an aryan sweetheart shota when I see one, you jerk off
>Snag a girlfriend at the end of sophomore year.
>Realize I'm probably gay and trappy af at this point cause I hated touching her or being touched
>she was total bitch, stuck up and oblivious to the world
>sjw as hell
>I d jump through ridiculous hoops to be with her, like letting her win every argument amd apologizing for disagreeing, even though I didn't like her at all
>I keep her till half way through senior year
>I break my arm and collarbone in a massive skiing accident, get emergency surgery, and don't leave the bed for a week
>didn't leave house for 2 weeks
>she freaks out and has a hissy fit because I wasn't giving her attention while fucked up on meds
>I hadnt eaten in days, slept, or moved properly, so I was so fed up with life.
>I stand up for myself, tell her she's wrong, and that I deserve to rest.
>she absolutely flips shit
>threatens to break up with me like she does every arguement.
>I say we should
>180 reversal, "ohhh I didnt actually mean it, Im so so sorry, I love you"
>we go silent for 2 weeks until I'm strong enough to talk to her in person
>she said she's grown so much in those 2 weeks, and that she found a new love for me
>GET THIS
>SHE SAID HER ISSUE WAS THAT "SHE DIDN'T LOVE HERSELF ENOUGH, SHE WAS PUTTING IN TOO MUCH EFFORT TO PLEASE ME"
>she "feels beautiful again", and has so much more self confidence
>I secretely want nothing more than to be a girl, this fucking sets me off so bad
>this fucking narcissistic bitch tells me she now feels beautiful, and I feel like killing myself everyday
>I break up with her, as gently as possible, because Im still a bitch at heart
>still a personal victory, I stood up to her for once
>never reply to one of her texts again
>hate her more every day that passes, because I think about the fucked up shit she pulled on me and I was too manipulated at the time
I had a blast in high school. But basically, I only focused on school, didn't work much, never dated, told me dad that I was a fag like junior year or somethin, just, doing what I needed to do.
same as now really
>>6216920
>huh why haven't I had any crushes on guys yet?
>kissed a couple dudes and felt nothing more than wishing for it to end already
>could I be gay?
>then some truth or dare kiss thing has me kissing the bitchiest most obnoxious girl in school
>disgusted by her and kiss
>well damn this one kiss I hated must mean I'm not gay since I hated it and it was with a girl
>thank god for that
>Im gonna just focus on school and ignore all this bullshit until college or something
>>6229129
Same, except I jerk off to bara and I didn't feel the need to come out as a fag.
>>6229145
probably straight in denial
by high school you probably know if you're gay. average age gay men know they are is like 12 or 13 based on most studies. I was late at 14. if you didn't like kissing boys, sorry, you're probs not a fag, just horny. me kissing a boy would make me blush and get hard. not wishing it were over
>>6229164
It's a woman you dingus
>>6229269
o-oh...
>>6229159
A-are you me?
>get fetish for girls' boyfriends
>start seducing taken guys
>"I'm doing you both a favor, he was gay all along if he was going to cheat on you" :)
>didn't spend any time in high school interested in anyone
>cared more about my weekends with my friends playing N64 and Melee
>went through entire 4 years doing my thing
>only took notice of one girl in my final year, never made a move and later found out she's a bitch
I was a boring nerd. I only realized I liked dicks after my first semester in college.
>with friends
>slut friend I don't really like asking sex questions
>"would you rather live without food or without sex"
>friends answer
>"what about you, anon?"
>well I've lived without one of them up til now just fine
>slut friend thinks for a second
>"are you a virgin?"
>yeah
>"oh"
>her face when
We were 16.
>>6226599
This tb
>be me
>depressed as fuck
>stayed up till 2am could hardly stay awake in high school
>went to bed at 4:30pm as soon as i got home and woke up at 7pm
>never shower cause sister would yell at me and say I pee in the shower (no)
>stink very bad all the time
>no friends
>grew up with some preppy kids so people left me alone
>never used the bathroom once till grade 12 cause I was afraid of the toilet since I was a kid (long story..)
>in pain all day from having to go
>sit outside my next class during lunch doing nothing
>be weird disgusting creepy guy
>so incredibly lonely, wanted to die from sisters bullying mostly just played warcraft III TFT and stayed in my room till she was gone and I could get food without being yelled at
>only one girl ever liked me said I was "cute in a homely way"
>lay on the edge of my bed everyday holding a knife trying to work up the nerve to kill myself
>graduate then mother dies later
>sister kicks me out of the house
>get type 1 diabetes
>feel sorry for any friends have today cause they're unaware of my history as being a gross creepy person in high school
Fuck all happened to me in high school. I did get peer pressured into fighting some kid at one point if anyone wants to hear that ridiculous story. There was one girl who I had the biggest crush on ever too apparently had a huge crush on me. Self esteem was too low to ever talk to her though
>>6216920
I feel envious of all the people here sharing experiences, whether it be negative or positive ones
Being such an edgelord that you don't even TALK to classmates or any other person at school makes for the shittiest highschool environment
Long time track runner
Twink of twinks
Not gaybor out yet but super friendly with the girls
We had a Team scavenger hunt driving around town ding dumb stuff
The older girls made me do the switch outfits with someone in the car
Spent the rest of the scavenger hunt in a girls leggings and crop top
Everyone loved it
Always get joked at for the next yesr when the girls team is under staffed to run for them
>>6216920
>be 16
>be flamboyant and popular
>crossdress every chance I get
>people love it
>people are nice
>voted most likely to cross dress.
I guess they knew me better than I knew myself.
>>6230608
me here
>>6230780
It was shit. Had zero self esteem and was super shy. I got bullied hard in elementary and middle school. High school could have been nice but it sucked. I remember how hard it was getting though that hell. I'd not eat breakfast or pack a lunch (my sister kept making me feel bad saying what a waste of money it is).
I'd in in physics by 4th period and my vision would be blurry, I had intense ringing in my ears and chest pain/trouble breathing from anxiety of having to sit in the front of the class. My stomach and the area below it would hurt from having to pee so much I was usually hunched over holding my stomach. By the time I got home I'd have such a huge headache I'd not be able look around without feeling like I was gonna pass out. Usually slipped past my sister and went into my room to hide. Then came down when I woke up around 7:00 and ate junk food. It's no wonder I became diabetic.
My bus was the last one to come (school got out at 3:30 but my bus would not come till 4:10-4:20) so I used to sit in the back by myself by the vending machines on the second floor. No one ever came back there so it was a good place put my hoodie on and hide. No one could smell me or make fun of my weird face. There was a guy who kept coming back there and he'd text on his phone looking anxious. He was really popular and I always wondered what the fuck he was doing back there. Ended up killing himself a few months later.
Was a pretty school filled with some cool people. Wish I had been able to enjoy it. I didn't even know I was bi I had repressed everything so hard.
>9th grade
>accidentally came out as bi to football team on a drunk team camping trip
>no one seemed to mind cept QB
>qb's a tiny shit and whips my sack with a towel one day
>i'm 6' 3" 220lb's
>he's maybe 4' 5" and 120lb
>pick him up princess style kicking and screaming
>sit him on my lap and talk like santa
"So little princess, have you been a good girl this year? No inappropriate activities? No visiting the southpole and making jesus cry?"
>scrambles off me in half a second
>slap his ass hard enough to lift him off the ground for whipping my sack
"Awww, she's shy!"
>QB won't make eye contact with me from then on
>QB graduates that year
>life as normal and team actually doesn't seem to give a shit
>coach doesn't seem to know or also doesn't give a shit
>11th grade rolls around and im doing varsity
>qt3.14 new cheerleader
>everything i've been looking for
>petite and maybe 4' 10", small and equal shoulder to hip ratio, cute face, tomboyish, pixie hair, flexible
>didn't even know going in that she was a he and didn't give a shit when i found out a week later
>date relatively secretly till 12th grade
>only found out after he worked up the courage to come out to his dad AND introduce me that he's the little brother of the QB
>QB came out almost immediately after graduation
>cheerleader claims that QB's coming out gave him courage to do the same
>QB later tells me that me telling the team i was bi gave him the inspiration to come out
>QB claims he didn't even know he was gay until after the Santa incident in the locker room
My bestfriend dated the girl of my dreams and by my last year i was eating alone and had no friends or any one to talk to. Tried suicide and failed. No one asked why i was out of school for a week.
The only things i really remember from highschool is being deep in the closet, AP classes, my mom being in the hospital, panic attacks, and a lot of therapy.
everything else feels like a complete blur even if i've only been graduated for 2 years now.
Did anyone here miss out on teenage love?
You know, that best first experience? I didn't, and it was amazing. The whole realization thing, and the whole seducing someone of your own gender. And everyone is so young that you can be like "No homo, totally natural to experiment at this age". It is great.
>>6230974
another story cause I feel like talking today
>in gymnasium watching a presentation
>sitting with my class near the back, teachers all line up on the side of the wall
>one teacher keeps staring at me
>will not stop staring
>leans in and points at me talking to another teacher
>learned to stare at my hands when people think I'm being weird so I decided to do that now
>hes still looking and they're really talking about me
>leave and try and forget about it
>get called down to the counselors office next day
>oh god what did I do
>get there and he says hello and introduces himself to me, tells me im not in trouble he just needs my help counting money
>what
>puts me in a room with this new student teacher type person who started working
>weirdest girl ever, she used to use an umbrella outside on sunny days when on bus duty
>really REALLY weird girl. can't stress it enough. fairly cute though I could not help to look at her sometimes when I was waiting for my bus
>i count out money (cant even remember what it was for) ends up being like $425 or something
>she tells me how amazingly smart I am for being able to do all this math in my head
>she keeps leaning over and I can see her underwear
>i ask if I can leave now
>last period of the day, she tells me to stay
>been years so I can't remember for sure but I feel like she rubbed my knee/thigh a few times
>someones giving me attention what the fuuuuck
>worried my books will be locked in my math class and leave just as bell rings to run and grab them
>never saw her at the school again after that day
She was a strange one. Wish I had stayed. She wore the strangest make up and dressed so weird. Maybe she is allergic to light I thought.
>>6226599
He's actually 13-14 in this video lol
>>6231250
No idea about your school but mine had this weird deal to help strugglers like yourself. Mostly antisocial types but also a lot of people that withdrew into themselves 24/7 for whatever reason or severe bully victims.
Basically handpicked by teachers who talked to the school psych who recommended them for the program to the principal.
Ended up with them occasionally just getting called to the office usually 5 names at a time where they'd have them do things like clean the storage room or set up track equipment or something with a teacher. Occasional alone time with other teachers like tidying rooms up.
Whole point was to give them friendly faces of all ages and to get them to open up and maybe learn some social skills before the system handwaves them through to actual life and college without gaining those skills. Apparently they stopped a few years after i left.
>>6230912
Things that never happened: The Post
>>6216920
Lots of handjobs for 'straight' friends, some discreet dryhumping on camping trips or sleepovers, that's about as racy as my high school days got
>>6231418
Don't know about the voting bit but we had a kid back in my highschool who openly crossdressed and cosplayed within school dress code everyday.
Just became a "oh hey theres will. Who's he today?" Type thing as you saw him in the hall. Can't say he ever got flak for it either.
>>6231395
Yeah that makes sense to me. They did a shit job though. Only happened the one time and made me so confused and scared. I had a shitty art teacher who pulled the opposite shit on me. I was so tired and depressed that I could never work in art class. I mostly just sat there staring forward blankly. A guy who was really cool and nice to me stood up for me a lot of the times he harassed me (found out he killed himself when I was in year 2 of uni.. made me really sad) anyway the teacher sent me to the office and called my parents. My dad was paralised and had brain damage and my mom must have had an 85 iq (for real) so that convo when I got home kinda sucked. My dad kept yelling at least it's not drugs. He also spent me down to special education which really hurt my self esteem. I asked them why I was here and they told me because my bad grades. I told her I had a 76% in art class and I'm in advanced math and physics. Lady looked shocked and looked at my papers like holy fuck you're right. Let me go and I never went there again. The vice principal threatened the cops on me. Something along the line if I don't do well it reflects poorly on her and she'd lose her job.
Fucker tried to put me in a sp-ed class. I got 100% in art the next year with a different teacher. Never had a single problem and she let me take liberty with my project and never yelled at me when I was tired.
I was very clearly being abused. All the school did for me was make me feel like more of a retard. I've totally given up in life at this point. I just collect welfare and play video games.
>>6231095
>Did anyone here miss out on teenage love?
I missed out on any homosexual experience when I was a teen. I knew I was bi. when I watched porn with my friends I'd watch the guy more than the girl. But I never did anything with guy friends until my 20's. Fucked girls in my teens though and honestly it didn't feel right.
>>6231476
my brother pretty much abandoned me to be stuck in the house getting abused. he spent most the time at his gf and their parents place. He more or less lived there after a while. Most days he was not around. happy my dad became a cripple at least, that stopped the beatings at least. glad I waited till I left to start hrt, he hates faggots. I got a pretty okay life now I guess. I'd like to not be diabetic but now I just buy things from thrift stores and try and have fun
>15 in school
>literally either the smallest kid or second smallest
>develop friendship with kid my size (since every time we're in line by size we're always together)
>start hanging together
>talk about everything, including girls (who we will never be with)
>talk about how we masturbate, how fucking a girl must feel great, what tits are made of, etc...
>one day he shows up at my house with a bag or porn tapes he stole from his brother
>we watch them
>some are gay tapes
>by now our cocks are busting through our pants
>he asks me what I think it's like to give a blow job
>tell him don't know but we can try together
>he says no and goes back to watching porn
>my mother comes home so he packs up and leaves
>next monday we're at school
>he tells me he thought about it and wants to try
>after school we go to the maintenance shed out back
>out of view from anyone
>I tell him I'll go first and start sucking his cock
>I like it. feels right
>he sucks mine. that feels good too
>alternate between giving and getting
>finally he cums in my mouth
>kneels down and sucks me to completion
>it's like a bind we now have. suck buddies. something like a secret club no one will ever know about
>start sucking (and eventually fucking) every chance we get
>even when he gets a girlfriend (I never do) we still meet up and get each other off
>he goes away to college, never comes back to our town. still chat with him but those 2-3 years are never brought up (but never forgotten)
>>6231504
you missed out on this
this could have been yours
Now you will never have it.
I wish I had memorable high school experiences
>lived in a decent sized town for my shitty redneck state
>came out freshman year
>never got bullied for it
>never dated anyone
>only gay experiences I had were sleeping with college kids I met on grindr
>>6231424
Stories
Not high school by a long shot, but I had some shit happen to me in late Elementary. We basically always said we were "practicing for girls". It just started as kissing and making out constantly, them it moved to us getting bones and then led to us giving each other blowjobs. We couldn't cum yet but we already could get hard. This continued for about a year or so, then our friendship ended over some stupid thing I can't even remember. I remember seeing him knocking on my door the last time I saw him. Then a week or two later he moved away. I was really sad that it ended like that, but I don't think I ever cried. Was super repressed all of middle school and finally accepted it in high school.
>mfw my brother saw me suckin' his dick
>mfw my brother was in middle school
>mfw I know he still remembers it
>>6232096
>>mfw I know he still remembers it
This is the absolute worst.
Me and my friend, when we were really really little, put our game controllers on our crotches while they vibrated because of the stimulation. I know he still knows. And we still talk, years later, both well into university.
Yupppp, let's just say, sex while wearing a school uniform still turns me on xD
>>6216920
>prom season as a young lesbian in a rural town
>kill me pls
>crush is dating this absolutely shitty older guy
>know he's going to ditch her to go to this "gig" on prom so when buying my corsage (going with my gay male friend whose actual date is going stag) I buy her one in her dress colours
>as excepted, boyfriend doesn't show for group photos and Crush is devestated
>"Hey, Crush, why don't we just go as friends? I have an extra corsage I got as a backup."
>She's super thankful, we dance a couple times
>Share a bottle of wine during Safe Grad and make out in the boiler room
>End up dating all summer
>Go to college while she takes a "gap year"
>Cheats on me with her ex-boyfriend, claims she's poly now and I should roll with that
>Already took that shit from one girl, fuck that
>Break up with her
>Fast forward seven years
>She's in a menial retail job, boyfriend is still trying to make it as a photographer/pill dealer
>I've got a job as a lawyer and a fuckbuddy who's a professional ballerina
>She now wants to "give it a second chance" as per her Facebook message
>I don't even respond.
>Look back and realize just how much high school sucked
>>6227865
>>6228331
I'm back I guess. I'll write some stuff and If at least one person's interested, I'll write some more.
>>6227977
>>6228009
>>6230608
>>6231250
>>6231572
>>6233569
thanks for sharing
>>6216920
>10th grade
>still so deep in the closet I named all my coathangers
>can't fap anymore bc my thoughts would drift to boys and I'd feel so guilty I'd loose all arousal
>decide to train myself to be normal
>first step: get a girlfriend
>pick girl in class I found to be objectively the hottest
>d cups, hourglass-figure
>does nothing for me but that's why I was doing this in the first place
>start sitting next to her in class
>would make her little gifts like origami-figurines and hide it in her pencil case
>she didn't know who made them for her at first but I know she cared because she kept them
>after 2 months she actually asks me out on a date
>everyone loosing his shit because perma-bullied strange kid got a date with the hottest girl in class
>first date went ok, she's clearly interested
>still feeling nothing, decide to make myself fall in love with her
>actively think about her every night before falling asleep
>intentionally develop a routine where we would text pretty much every day so she woulnd't be off my mind for too long
>2nd date went good to, we almost kissed but her mother interrupted us
>start to feel really weird around her
>would get really excited when she would text or call me
>not a sexual kind of arousal, more like the feeling before you go on stage with tons of people
>realize this is not love yet
That's when I went full mental and tried to actively condition myself to love her.
cont. inc.
>>6233655
>actively envision her when fapping
>try to manipulate her into really liking me
>the whole nice-guy-who-treats-you-right routine
>would do research about her interests and past with her friends
>plan out conversations weeks before hand so everything would go perfectly
>Made her cry on multiple occasions bc she was so touched by how I talked to her
>3rd official date, she's clearly fallen for me
>we just went for a walk but she was wearing a cocktail dressed, etc.
>after hugging as a goodbye, she wouldn't let go of me
>leans in for a kiss
>I can't do it, freeze
>she hesitates, asks me whats wrong
>I don't say anything
>"Anon, I think I'm in love with you. I want this to happen"
>I had really terrible parents, that was the first "I love you" I've ever heard in my entire life
>"I need time to think"
>she understands, we part ways
>didn't see each other for like 3 weeks bc she was out of town bc of family
>be at a friends house studying with class mates
>girl from my class (let's call her "the bitch") asks me how it's going with girl I'm trying to fall in love with
>tell her we didn't see eachother for a while bc she's away with family
>the bitch tells me she's actually on vacation with her boyfriend
>I don't believe her
>later that evening ask about supposed boyfriend
>find out he actually is on vacation with a girl right now
>source doesn't know which one though
>I loose it
>don't think I was actually jealous, I just went clinical insane
>call "girlfirend"
>ask her about everything
>she starts to cry, asks why I'm suddenly so hostile
>I don't remember much after that but I know I just hung up at some point
>later get a text
>"I didn't really love you. I never did and I never want to speak to you again"
1 day later I started cutting, withing the next two month I started doing hard drugs, a year later I tried suicide for the first time.
I learned 3 years later that the bitch arranged this intentionally.
cont. with how I hit rock bottom
>>6216920
>>6217050
>>6217164
Aoow
>>6234040
Much pedo, wow
>>6233655
wow this reminds me of a story from just last fall semester. looks like I'll do a 3rd!
3/?
> Computer Science, Mathematics major
> decide I love reading so much I want English on top of it since it would literally take no more time for a double degree, I needed electives nonetheless
> awful intro class taught by an awful 30-year old indian woman with dyed hair and who was about as SJW as tumblr. called her Missy Cultural Marx lel
> go to class with a copy of W.S. Merwin's selected poems I'm halfway through reading
> girl asks me about it
> I stumble and talk passionately about poetry and show her some poems from the book
> trying not to sound weird. I normally avoid talking things I like because I tend to go on and on and girls say I get cute about it
> she loves it
> at end of class she holds my hand, hugs me, gives me her phone number and I didn't even ask lel
> she texts ME
> at this point I decide I'm going to just do it, I'm going to pretend I like girls and maybe I will
> really I'm just jealous she can wear panties and not get made fun of
> I kinda brush her off but keep it kinda going I guess. Awkward as fuck since I really wasn't too much into it
> her interest wanes right as I decide fuck it, I'm going to like girls, I'll ask her out
> by then it was literally 2 months late and she was a bit annoyed looking about it, so I didn't even ask
> tfw she liked me and I became her gay friend
honestly it was for the best. Now I can stop pretending
>>6231095
I missed out. Im honestly suicidal over how much I have missed out on.
>>6216920
>jock
>boss everyone around
>call them all faggots
>mental illness everywhere
>like holy fucking shit mental illness
>hate fuck everything
>hate fuck all the feelings
>drink all the liquor i could find or afford
>cry 15+ hours every day from dysphoria
>shitpost in trap threads on /b/
>/kill /kill /kill /kill /kill /kill
>homeless time
>read some manga
What a great fun time.
>>6235635
I don't feel so bad for you. People like you made my high school and middle school experience hell while I was a little faglet. I would go home and cry all the time too because I was called a girly boy by jocks. I would look into the mirror for hours at a time and cry, and I would be depressed until freshman year of college. I would skip half or more of all classes and cry in the bathroom and hatefuck myself every time I got home. I skipped so much class I got Cs and ended up in a state school and not an Ivy like I could've easily done. All I wanted to be was a cutesy boy who dressed nice. You ruined my school life. Reap what you sow.
Best of luck now though : ) life's a bitch. you'll make it friend
>>6235828
Thats your own fault for being faggy. It was easy to fake it for me. I just became what I hated and it worked. Nobody ever gave me shit. I still dont like flamers. You shouldnt be a flamer anyway because youre supposedly a woman not some weird femmy bitch boi.
>>6235883
yeah mean fucks like you will burn in hell forever while I play with makeup and skip down the hallways of heaven with my cute curly hair. hahahahahahahahahahaha
>>6235906
Um ok.
I feel I understand why they didnt like you and it has nothing to do with being trans.
>>6216920
>be me
>be 16
>in military highschool, because of bad grades
>come to terms with being bi in the middle of the year
>talk with my 1sgt, who is a massive pro-rights person
>talks continue for over a month, every night
>he invites me over for a movie late at night
>sexualtentionincreases.mov
>by the end of the night I am giving him a handjob
>he smells absolutely intoxicating at this point
>try to give him a blowjob
>stops my head
>says he isn't gay
At this point I am calling bullshit
>kicks me out of the room
>try to talk to him about it and he beats me and calls it sexual assault whenever I bring it up
>continues for the second half of the year
>don't really see him the next year
>he graduates and still thinks he is 100% straight
And that is the story of why I hate people that try to preserve their hetrosexuality.
>>6235922
> being trans
wrong I'm just a flamer dude who is still in the closet and was still made fun of : ) jocks are the worst and I really hope you feel remorse for making fun of the effeminate kid in your P.E. classssss
whoooo I'm just bantering mate it's fuckin 3am here and I'm lovestruck so best of luck with whatever the fuck you are we'll all make it
>>6226717
that's c-nile if you ask me
Well I didn't do any relationships or lose my virginity until after high school so fuck, I guess. I could never relate to any of the kids in my grades and I didn't bother with interpersonal relationships growing up. I should've, though
>>6232096
did your brother ever say anything?
>be me
>lonely and want to die
who else /gotrapedbythegymteacher/ here?
>>6236424
Wasnt raped but had my arse rubbed and pinched occasionally by a priest who also taught at the school.
I let him ťbh, he taught advanced math and good grades in that class was hard to come by
>>6236424
Well yeah but i'm bi and male and she was a fitizen female.
>Pretty sure bisexual at the least by 12~13
>Never mention a single thing about it
>This might sound weird, but that's probably why I don't bring it up much, but for HS and awhile after for my life I was probably 70% straight 30% gay, and real picky about the guys I'd like.
But man I was a huge bumbling fgt around guys I liked
>In 4th grade I got moved into the emotionally disturbed classes. In 5th grade this was the class next to the literally retarded kid's class. Normally middle school scenarios involve periods, several throughout the day in fact. Not for ED, no. Just the one room, all day. Normal class size was 20 kids? Maybe more? Ours was 12, at least that was the most when I was there. 8 was the smallest. Anyway, tldr not a lot of social shit going on.
>In high school I am released from ED, and am dealing with the period system for the first time, and people. I'm like almost a grade behind.
>Randomly meet the people who would form the group of people I'd hang out with all the time during PE one day
>First group of friends I ever had
This is important btw
>Group eventually because smaller during lunch after a few months, everyone is sort of a generic liberal animu nerd
>Sexuality comes up one day as a topic, seemingly out of no where
>I probably was not paying attention.
>Two flamboyant homo males of the group are obvious, FH1, and FH2, they start off the topic. They're pretty tight with my little sister.
>Others are two straight girls and one straight guy.
>We go around in a circle and they just say it without missing a beat.
>It gets to my younger half sister's turn, and at this point I wondered how we got here.
>A while before this she was always on msn telling me about her crazy intense crush on this Japanese girl in the group.
>Putting that and this moment together I assumed this was set up between her and FH1/2. So in a non-awkward way she'd be able to find out if she'd have a shot with the flying nun.
>>6227977
>pretending to be straight is hard
And exhausting
>>6238119
Did I imply I was a freshman hard enough in this? That PE class was my 4th period class, of my first semester.
>I'm trying to piece together how this all came about so I can make a witty remark and not really have to answer.
>Never occurs to me to just say "I'm not going to answer that", or something.
>She probably just said she's bisexual, after her it's me, and then j-girl
>It's my turn.
>I freeze up for a second, and don't say anything, it wasn't a super awkward, but it was still there.
And then, and I'm not making this us
>BELL RANG TIME TO GET TO CLASS
>GottheFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKOut of there
Now I don't remember how long it was till this next thing happened, but it wasn't more than a day or so.
>Oh j-girl 's bisexual as it turns out.
Anyway
>On msn messenger with the entire group in one chat.
>Straight girl 1 comes out about how she is without a doubt bisexual
>Straight guy comes out about the possibility he is bisexual.
>Generally happy chatting for money hours after, about pretty irreverent shit.
>Talking to FH2 in another tab
>I will always remember this moment
>days or a day after the group is open about their orientation.
>Moments after part of the group is either clamoring for attention or is in a moment of self discovery.
>Tell him "I'm pretty sure I'm bisexual"
>" =/ "
>" idk you seem pretty straight to me "
>" you're just jumping the bisexual band wagon "
>Bisexual bandwagon
>And I didn't really know what to say to that, I vaugely remember responding but not really having much of any conversation after that.
>Never really told anyone, except two really long term girl friends.
Thinking on it now, I probably should of told my little sister.
Also thinking back on it I think FH1 always hated me.
>>6236050
Well I was girly as fuck and on the first day I was to go to high school I got beat up by jocks and put in the hospital all because my posture and voice was "too feminine." They didn't even get expelled because the caoch of the football team testified that I was "asking for it by acting like a fruit loop" so I was like fuck this I never want to see another high schooler again and did the entire thing from home.
>>6238132
You're fucking weird
I don't believe you.
>>6238365
swear on my life
Its called "Independent Study."
>>6238381
Haven't you been posting on 4chan/420chan for like that last 10 years?
Have you not found someone yet? What are your friends like
My first kiss when i was deep in denial at 14ish
>Be one of the emo kids
>we always met outside this shopping center and smoked cigarettes in our grils skinny jeans and metal band t shirts and dumb fringes
>over time we were that group that had a lot of older friends
>i was the youngest in the group
>got a "girlfriend" but was too shy to hug or kiss her or anything
>everyone was trying to make us do it
>one guy, had a beard and was a lot older, like 19-20, was bi
>"either you kiss her now or i'll kiss you"
>laugh, look away nervously
>he gets a couple of my friends to hold me against the wall i was standing against
>they're all laughing
>he sorta forcefully makes out with me in front of probably 20-30 people
>friends made jokes about my first kiss being a fully grown man for years
And now im gay. Who'd have guessed
>>6238455
That's pervy as fuck of him.
Also emo kids are my fetish. Ashamed ot admit it.
>>6238503
Yeah i didnt really realise how weird that really was because everyone else was playing along with the joke and i didnt want to be the one who took it too seriously
Although honestly i really dont like being touched or handled against my will. Consentually in bed i'm happy to be submissive with the right guy but outside it just makes me feel really vulnerable
>>6238402
Its only been 4 years and I have NO friends, I haven't talked to a peer in years.
>>6238533
You must have some friends you meet her or something? How old are you
>>6238564
just turned 27 and no I have no friends because I am an ugly fuck
>>6238580
You look about the same as me. In fact I've had people tell me I look like you (I'm 26 this year) and I'm in a relationship. You wanna email or talk on skype? I wanna see you not posting here someday (I mean that in a nice way)
>>6238126
>>Tell him "I'm pretty sure I'm bisexual"
>>" =/ "
>>" idk you seem pretty straight to me "
>>" you're just jumping the bisexual band wagon "
>>Bisexual bandwagon
Uuuuugh that sounds really frustrating. Especially since you'd known for much longer than that, so this was a longstanding thing for you, but they just assumed it was for just right now.
>>6238606
>trying to talk some sense into the biggest attention whoring nutjob on this board
good luck with that, faam
>>6239488
hey be nice to her she could use a friend
>>6216920
Is there a link to full thing?
>>6240993
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>>6231250
Me again cause I've got a cold and can't sleep
>before I hung out in the back of the school after the day
>on the side of the school by some door
>this really upbeat energetic guy
>skater type I think
>actually robs me of my lunch money
>is fairly nice to me though and refers to it as borrowing
>one day starts telling me he throws eggs at my house all the time
>doest even know where i live or take my bus, im the last bus stop on the last bus of the day
>describes my house and my neighborhood
>i dont even
I guess he just wanted to see my reaction. I think I just said "oh...?"
A girl in elementary school did however throw snowballs and stuff at a shed in my yard. She broke a window eventually. Another strange girl. She used to stand in the playground alone staring ahead blankly not talking to anyone. I had a crush on her and once thought I'd be funny to go up and say "take a picture it will last longer" (I was like 6) she made absolutely no response. She used to say by to me when I got off the bus (she lived on my street). Her and her friend asked me to walk home with them onetime but I said no which brings me to another story.
>>6241308
This one starts in elementary and ends in high school
part 1/2
>first day of school
>day is ending
>two kindergarten classes
>go to the other to see my friend
>i think i talk to her for a bit and then she leaves
>im leaving the room
>two other kids outside
>one is wearing this really cool jacket and just looks cool as fuck in general to me
>i go over excitedly and say how much I like the jacket
>only remember that and then blurred memories of being put in a stall in the girls room and seeing other kids penises (girls bathroom was across the hall)
>fast forward to grade 4
>kid never really talked to me much and usually snubbed me never bothered me though
>were looking at pictures
>walk by his desk and notice he cut someones face out of the yearbook photo type thing
>look at it trying to figure out who it is. haha anon ive counted everyone whos face did you cut out
>oh god it was my face, no reaction from him
>do presentation on books I had, he glues them together while I'm out of the room and says theres gross blue stuff over them
>play scoccer with him, im goalie.
>save from being scored on, ball is off to side but he is kicking me
>wont stop kicking me, going at it non stop, im on the ground and hes beating me down
>finally leaves when his friends are like HEY ANON DOEST EVEN HAVE THE BALL ANYMORE WTF
>ask friend and hes just like i dunno what the fuck
>>6241358
2/2
>im not really in their group of friends i got my own but they are all kinda nice to me, went to ones birthday party and he hung with me a lot
>can't really remember this too well
>crazy anon tells me about a fort he wants to show me in the woods
>oh cool a fort :D
>follow him back
>can only remember being no the ground with pants down and being hit my sicks
>crazy anon eyes staring into mine
>middle school, all he ever says to me is how much i look like my sister
>one time on bus he called me a greaseball when he sat behind my seat
>his cousin said leave anon alone hes cute and innocent
>crazy anon tears up irrc
>doest bother me again except to sometimes say i look like my sister
>my only response is "well... she is my sister, were related you know"
>high school
>hes just as popular
>he never ever talks to me
>cant recall seeing much of him till grade 11 and 12 english when we share classes
>hes a lot quieter than I remembered
>he sat beside me in 12 english
>was always super polite and very very softspoken when he spoke to me
>"hey anon, did you get this sheet?" cant remember the details of all the time he spoke but it was so soft. he almost leaned in and whispered
>final exam
>im kinda slow, most people got except from writing
>his leg is broken and he has crutches
>im taking forever, its actually just me and him in the classroom left, last exam of the year of the last year of high school
>i cant belive how long hes taking, im pretty much done but waiting for him to leave before I leave
>hes still fucking there
>hes staring ahead blankly not doing anything, just sitting
>eventually he keeps up and leaves, looks like hes in huge emotional pain
>goes away on his crutches
>cant remember if he said anything
>never heard from him again
what the fuck did I do? sure im leaving a lot out but thats the general story
>>6216920
posted in tranny general before but it's relevant so I'll repost
I'm like 70% sure the guy in question browses this board so hi m8
1/4
after I finished primary school I ended up going to a different school for secondary, for a variety of reasons. When I showed up there, I didn't really make any friends for the first year or so, after which time I sort of ended up in the 'reject' group. There was this really weird dutch kid, an iron-maiden loving croatian kid who had a full grown moustache by year 7, there was this other guy with mental issues and stuff (later found out he was on ritalin and a bunch of antipsychotics - wasn't surprised), there was a weedy looking guy, there was a guy with acne who was a total cunt, and then there was the faggy english kid. Oh and there was also me. I guess I was the super shy kid. Other people came and went, but this was mostly the core of the group. Eventually the crazy kid stopped hanging out with us but that wasn't for ages after this happened
So I think I need to give you bit more detail about the faggy english guy. And when I say faggy, I really mean it - he had a lisp, quoted abfab and mean girls, made wild hand gestures with limp wrists, loved cooking, ended up accumulating a swarm of faghags that he was always delicately trying to brush off - he was a walking stereotype, but he always insisted he was straight. Everyone ended up believing him - surely someone who acted that flamboyantly gay would have no trouble admitting it?
skip forward a year or two to roughly when that whole puberty thing was in full swing - I had a few issues then obviously, but I generally got by. The english kid had matured a bit, and stopped acting as gay as he used to. He'd also grown a bit of stubble, got really tall, and started working out. His voice had broken too. On account of puberty, I had started to uhh... 'notice' guys. In particular, this english guy, who happened to be probably my best friend at this point.
>>6241440
ps I mention some stuff related to being trans so just remember that so it makes sense
2/4
each year, towards the very end of term 4, the english guy would throw a 'christmas party', and invite the whole group over and we would sleep over and play a bunch of video games. The first couple of these parties were pretty tame, but the last one had culminated in everyone (except me) playing strip poker at midnight, so I'd kind of expected that the one coming up would be a bit... raunchy.
by this time we would have been 14 or 15, and I had an absolutely massive crush on the english guy, so I was super nervous about going to the party, but I plucked up the courage and went anyway. At first we were just playing games. He had little big planet, so we mostly just found some good maps and played them while screaming at the top of our lungs – it was pretty intense. Unfortunately he also had a pool, and obviously he wanted to get some use out of it - so everyone got out towels and board shorts - except for me. I had 'forgotten' to bring any of these things because, for obvious reasons, I was super self conscious about my body, and preferred to remain completely clothed at all times. The english guy's parents insisted that I borrow his board shorts and a towel, but I really didn't want to and somehow managed to talk my way out of it.
obviously I wasn't going to just sit inside the whole time, so I went out and sat on a deck chair next to the pool, and watched awkwardly as the now shirtless english guy swam around the pool wrestling the other guys. This set the tone for things to come. Eventually everyone got pruny and bored so we all went back inside (only I had got a wicked sunburn from staying out there on the deck chair so long). We continued to play video games until around ~10 or 11 pm, when everyone started to get a bit fed up with them, and decided to find something else to do.
>>6241447
3/4
Sure enough, one of the guys (I forget who - it gets a bit fuzzy after this), ended up finding the english guy's parents' alcohol (I think it was some kind of whiskey or rum, but like I said - a bit fuzzy).
so we all got some cups out and ended up finishing the bottle between the 7 of us. Needless to say, we were plastered, and we all ended up splitting into smaller groups and wandering off around the house. By coincidence (or probably not if I'm honest), me and the english guy ended up in his loungeroom, with no one else around, and I was just sat there ogling his biceps (which weren't even that big, but I was kind of nuts about the guy). I ended up sidling up to him on the lounge and asking if I could feel his muscles. He ummed and ahhed a bit and then said okay. He was wearing a flannel with a really tight grey t-shirt on underneath, so at first I just kind of nervously squeezed his arm through his sleeves, but then he took off the flannel and flexed a bit. At this point I was basically panting like a bitch in heat, and if he had have laid a hand on me anywhere my clothes would have just flown right off and I would have been on my knees in the blink of an eye.
I don't really know how, but after a while I ended up on his lap like this [picture], with my hands up his shirt feeling his abs. It was a really tight shirt, so I ended up pulling it up a bit. I tried taking it fully off him but he resisted so I went back to just feeling him up under the shirt and grinding on him like the incredibly considerate person I am. If he hadn’t have looked so unbelievably uncomfortable about the whole thing I would have made out with him in a flash. Eventually I ended up getting off him and just sitting next to him awkwardly.
>>6241452
4/4
At some point we both got up and went to bed (not the same one!) – I infer this because I woke up in a bed. With a fucking dreadful headache. Anyway the english guy was on a mattress next to mine, and when I rolled over he was already awake. The first thought that went through my head was “oh fuck”, thinking what I had done was a really fucking serious mistake, but then he just laughs and says “Hey everyone my rapist is awake” with this big cheeky grin on
so now we skip forward about 3 years to the present day, minus a couple of week - none of these people know anything about me being trans, and I haven’t seen them in about 2 years, but I still had them on steam – and one of them tells me that the english guy has a boyfriend now. I had been absolutely sure that he was straight, so I was pretty confused by this. I got a chat window open with him and asked him, and sure enough it was true. After a while I mention that I’m into guys, and he is completely shocked.
...Even though I molested him
So I guess he doesn’t remember. Which is probably for the best...
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>>6241358
>>6241413
3/2
also a bit more
>thought I was a girl when I was like 4
>mom took me to school one day to get a tour of the school
>just her and a teacher I think
>I kept trying to use the girls bathroom and saying how pretty is (boys was blue girls was pink)
>mom had to explain to me its a girls bathroom
>yeah?
>no anon you need to use the blue one okay?
>okay...
>try to join girls teams for everything
>awkward glances and shrugs
>by grade 2 or 3 a teacher took me aside and told me I'm getting to old and they can't let me be on the girls team anymore
>why
>because they're developing and differences are more obvious now, you dont wanna make them uncomfortable, go hang out with boys
>remember getting red faced and almost crying
>continue doing girl things
>braclet making was popular I did that for a bit
>crazy anon and me by the door waits for lunch hour
>asks me if ill be playing soccer with the guys today
>say yes
>he mentions my bracelets and asked if I made them
>i say yeah i think he says their nice or something really calmly. just me and hm standing alone, him holding the soccer ball (thinking about it that might have been the day he kicked the shit out of)
I might have been a little girly boy but everyone agreed I could run fast as hell and was okay to have on a team
>>6236155
He said "that's gay" when he saw it, never since then though.
Grade 8
>literally no friends
>light makeup to school
>always dressing up after school
Grade 9
>"are you wearing makeup?"
>"n-no.."
Grade 10
>"why don't you ever make effort to find a gf?"
>"idk dude im lazy"
>"everyone thinks ur gay, bro"
Grade 11, found a solid group of friends, they helped me distract myself from transition
>"would you fuck her?" *shows me pic*
>"yeah she's pretty"
>"omg thats a tranny!"
>"whats wrong with trans people?"
>"omg are u gay hahaha??"
>"n-no never, she's ugly, I was joking" ;_;
Grade 12
>soul crushing dysphoria
>block it out by always being around friends
>drunk and high 24/7 even on weekdays
>skipping school 90% of the time
>never talk about it
>out of sight, but sadly not out of mind
Ended up giving in to dysphoria transitioning 1 year after grade 12 graduation.
>>6241514
tfw me except gay and not trans
makeup rules. I still wear it to look cuter
>>6238533
Kayla, I'm sorry that you've had such a rough time.
I, on the other hand, just got a GF because of 4chan and she's perfect.
THANKS 4CHAN!
Maybe I have a HS story I can share...
>Be 9th grade
>Freshman
>There's this super flaming gay sophomore named Frank
>Frank is this stereotype mexican faggot
>Tight shirts
>Gay voice
>Styled hair
>I'm friends with a lot of sophomores at this point
>Frank is saying hi to us
>Decide to mess around
>Say in my gay voice, "OMG! You are SOOOO fabulous!!!"
>Super convincing
>Everyone just stopped and stared at me for a minute
>They legit thought I was gay for a while and asked me about it a lot
Turns out I'm a tranny. But that makes me kinda gay. The fact that I've started to get hot looking at dicks, on the other hand, makes me full on gay.
High school: key club, honors student, top of class, eagle scout (built a homeless shelter), taught summer camp, built our town's haunted forest... still run by our fire-men, etc. etc. went to every prom. Never kissed a girl.
I'm not unattractive: I'm 6'5"; I was a left tackle and guard. At 320lb I was pretty heavy set but my chin didn't double up or anything silly. Just strong, big, and fast: pretty much the small town hero. I trimmed down (-100lb) after I started college.
Got into the BEST institution, I became the representative of the philosophy and fine arts dorm in my third year... coed and very scandalous (very cool place). Probably 40% gay; everyone's a genius. Had long talks with 11+ people in the lobby into the evening... long walks with the best of them. We covered every possible subject mixing religion/sexuality/philosophy/computer science... everything; serenaded by timid guitars. We even tackled computers and ethics! (being novel back in the day, the topic involved a text based situation with PCs (player characters) in a MUD (multi user dungeon) revolving around the antics of one character hacking another to do lewd things.
Everyone sensible laughed, and then 4chan happened a few years later and confirmed that trolling is a popular way to waste time (which is what I'm doing right now)
One of my best friends is the campus president of lambda. I graduated with degrees in philosophy, math, and electrical engineering. Minored in computer science. Went to every dance, costume shindig, and lots of parties... had a blast. Kissed a girl once when I was super drunk and ended the budding relationship over Christmas break.
... the end : ]
~11 years pass~
>>6241795
you lost me at electrical engineering
electronics engineering is where it's at.
>>6241514
those don't sound like good friends...
I recommend you get into gaming, those folks appreciate competent competition: if you're not competent, they'll appreciate the effort.
or, if that doesn't sound good for some dumb reason, you can join a card group fostered by the old ladies of the area.
or, or, if that all seems silly, remember that there are men out there that are really REALLY into tom boys that like all the same stuff they like...they care about you and want to make sure you're having a good time, and they are reassured by the fact that you like the same things.
Imagine a situation where you get home and you out fished your husband: and he loves you even more because of it. Eventually messy, romantic things happen. the end.
If you want to be happy for 2-hours, buy a bottle of wine. If you want to be happy for 3 hours- get married. if you want to be happy for ever...
learn how to fish.
>>6241819
electrical engineering is just the most difficult thing: it was my first major for that specific reason. Math is my true aptitude. Philosophy is my passion. computer science happened because it's a mixture of math and philosophy (truth tables, etc) and becomes a useful tool for solving complex problems with brute force.
>>6231095
that-face-when: both of those boys are straight.. and successful... it's probably your normal face: horrible, withered, vacant inexpressive eyes bulging to consume every detail.
>>6235561
I know that feel. My best advice is to just try not to think about it. It's out of your control, so why dwell on it?
>>6227474
Holy shit. They're both in love with him. I'm so jealous this wasn't my childhood.
I thought he loved me, then he told me he never wanted to speak to me ever again. He was true to his word. I've been depressed ever since.
>>6241483
>>thought I was a girl when I was like 4
>>mom took me to school one day to get a tour of the school
>>just her and a teacher I think
>>I kept trying to use the girls bathroom and saying how pretty is (boys was blue girls was pink)
>>mom had to explain to me its a girls bathroom
>>yeah?
>>no anon you need to use the blue one okay?
>>okay...
>>try to join girls teams for everything
>>awkward glances and shrugs
>>by grade 2 or 3 a teacher took me aside and told me I'm getting to old and they can't let me be on the girls team anymore
>>why
>>because they're developing and differences are more obvious now, you dont wanna make them uncomfortable, go hang out with boys
>>remember getting red faced and almost crying
Oh god, this whole segment.
I'm sorry, anon.
>self hate
Just.
>be girly boy in last year of elementary school
>chubby tall best buddy moves away to another city
>lol ok whatever because for some reason i don't attach to people at all or have any legitimate concern
>he tries to talk to me and I slowly drift away until we don't talk anymore
>4 years pass
>he's drunk and sends a stream of skype messages that ends with 'i'd totally fuck you'
>be like 'okay, i don't judge you'
>he's like 'are we still friends'
>am like 'yeah'
>we continue to not talk for years
>i become a semi-popular little cunt in my school who gets laid semi-often and hangs out with the dudebros even though scrawny cute and short
>2014 arrives and with it the last year of high school
>mom is apparently moving our family to the city he lives in
>hit him up on skype saying 'hey guess who's moving to your town lol'
>he's absolutely euphoric over it
>we plan a bunch of shit together, apparently we both grew to be hipster little shits and have the same interests
>eventually start flirting, he says he came out as gay and I pretend I'm bi or something because whatever
>once we actually meet i realize he's not chubby anymore, actually kinda hot? in a 'manly' way, idk, i had only been attracted to girls up to that point
>he start skipping school everyday to hang out with me, i was going to enter his school a month after i arrived so i could settle in first
>we go to his place when his older brother isn't there (rip his parents)
>he seems nervous, i realize he's not gonna make a move
>'i never kissed a boy, friend'
>'i-i never kissed anyone anon'
>kiss him
>we fuck after he brings KY from upstairs because i had already toyed around with anal stimulation even before liking a boy and it was surprisingly good
>fucking pretty much every other day at his place since my ass doesn't ever get shitty for some reason
>get in his school, instantly revert to dudebro persona
>realize i'm supposed to like girls
(cont)
>>6243555
:( yeah wish my father had at least let me grow my hair out. Used to force me to get buzzcuts kicking and screaming. I remember in high school (he was a cripple by then so I grew it out since he could not fight it) he called me over and got me to sit down. He started crying and held my hand and said please for my birthday please cut your hair son. He used to make fun of me for being to fem most of my life. Would ask me if my clothes came in non flamboyant. Hated faggots and thought they should be beaten to death.
I got a few other stories I can remember I'll post them 1/2
>grade 9
>have huge crush on this girl since middle school (I liked boys but I did not know how or why at that point)
>in social studies coloring maps n shit
>girl is talking to her friend and looking at me
>keep staring and I get super red faced
>face is blowing the fuck up
>she gets super aweeeeh :( and points me out to her friend
>can tell shes saying how sad she is for me and wishes I was more outgoing or something
>yeah anon is just shy
>later that day in art class
>i lucked out and had a really cozy seat in the back
>next to a cool popular guy who was gay as fuck but dated girls, a girl I went to school with since kindergarten and crush girls friend
>were coloring in complimenting words, I stole salt and pepper as an idea from the gay guy next to me before he could use it
>crush girls friend always used to turn around and share my desk while talking to her friends
>>6243713
(cont)
>ask friend the nature of our relationship, he says he doesn't know but he'd like it if i was his boyfriend, refuse
>he's like 'ok'
>say we can still fuck and he's cool with it
>start dating his best ladyfriend, after he literally fucking sets us up at my request
>fugg her
>become bf and gf
>get bored of it and realize i like being girly and a bottom better and this is why sex with girls had been boring as fuck for all these years
>friend is bitter as fuck over me at this point even though we still hang out
>tried to fuck up my relationship with gf multiple times
>have huge fight and never talk again
>mom is like 'hey jobs not working out anon, we're going back home'
>go back home
>break up with gf
>realize I'm mtf and still girly enough at 17 (looking like I'm 13? 14?) to pass
>grow hair out
>spend the next year homeschooling self, pass national exam in my country, be a recluse and getting treatment funded by my dad's pension
>a year later and I pass as and claim to be a 14 year old girl
>no job, no school, no anything
>hooking up with literal pedo chasers from anime conventions because I don't know what to do with my life
put me down desu
>>6243735
2/2
>she looks up at me and says "hey.. anon"
>kinda pauses and looks at me
>staring at me not saying anything
>somehow i actually dont blush
>everyone is quiet in the group
>i say "I didnt say that out loud did i?" to try and get them to fucking talk
>she seems excited and runs the fuck off
>gay guy is like wait say what out loud? and laughed
>oh god she ran right over to crush girl
>they whisper and talk and then crush girl WHIPS her head around smiling
>face turns into fireball
>she comes back and casual talks to me all class, askes me about kind of girls I like
>near end of class I'm slow putting things away
>crush girl stays behind and talks to me
>askes me random questions about how i am and hobbies
>oh god shes actually talking to me
>I respond best I can and then we leave
>see her in mall a few months ago with big tough husbando
>im that weird tranny
That girl was pretty cool. She told me she heard I liked another girl though at some point who I really did not even ever take a second glance at which was weird. She also told me she heard I lost my virginity when I was 4. Which was strange and I kept asking her where the hell she heard that. Truth be told I probably did considering the shit I used to do with the neighbor girl
>>6241875
what in the FUCK are u talking about lol
I've been on HRT for 4 years, post SRS and FFS, and have a BF. XXD
Late to the party but w/e
>Be 16, last year of HS
>In the closet, am default weird kid so no one questions lack of interest in dating
>Exam fever
>Go to local castle grounds with loser friends to de-stress in the sun
>Castle grounds steepen sharply towards walls to make invasion tougher for any marauding Normans
>Rolling down the 30ft drop to show off to each other
>Friend who I'm crushing on suddenly wraps himself around me and drags us down the hill together
>Land at the bottom with me on top, both laughing and wheezing
>We look into each other's eyes for longer than usual, I fall desperately in love
>He quickly gets up and refuses to do it with me again
>Heknows
College
>All went to same college
>All my old bullies are gone so I can relax and come out of my shell a bit
>Talk to crush constantly on msn, eventually go fuck it, come out to him
>Makes a few jokes, but seems fine with it
>Confidence is growing, come out to other friends, all supportive
>Get drunk on the positive responses, hiding my inner fag had been killing me up until now
>Tell crush about crush, gets awkward, says cool but feelings aren't reciprocated
>Come into school next day, everyone's giving me weird looks
>Turns out crush made vicious post about my confession on his blog which everyone in the year group was reading at that point
>People start to avoid talking to me, I become the topic of conversation behind my back
>Go into complete meltdown, was never able to handle myself well emotionally
>Go back in shell and hide it out till the end of college, contemplate suicide
Still look back on those days and laugh at what an embarrassment I made of myself.
>>6243735
>I remember in high school (he was a cripple by then so I grew it out since he could not fight it) he called me over and got me to sit down. He started crying and held my hand and said please for my birthday please cut your hair son.
Without even thinking about it, I automatically said, "No, fuck you. You piece of shit." Damn, dads like that piss me off.
>>6245950
God that sounds more like a shitty high school than college
which college did you go to anon?
>>6226711
Had crush on best friend but he was straight. :(
>>6231395
that's really insulting and would piss me off
Ywn be a cute boy everyone loved, doted and had your hair combed by other kids in school
>>6230912
And then the women's clothes clapped?
Highschool is kind of blurry for me.
What few memories I have are:
Smoking pot in the upstairs portion of my friends shed pretty much every day after class
Having a lot of friends but always feeling like I didn't quite fit in with them
Coming out as trans to my first girlfriend, her flipping out and me going back in the closet
Breaking up with that girl 6 months later
Coming out to my mom the summer of my junior year, her hugging me and telling me it's alright and she loves me.
Alot of family issues around this time, divorce and alcoholism mostly.
My first boyfriend senior year, who i never got enough time to really know, we lost touch after highschool, but I feel like if we had gotten more time to know eachother we might still be together
and that's about it.
>>6226821
You'd have to be pretty gay to not want that boy to cross dress, walk on all fours before giving you the best blowjob ever.
>>6227832
>furry convention
>>6216920
I told my best friend in High school that I had dreamt I was a woman and that I had been fucked by some guy (it was him actually).
He then proceeded to beat the shit out of me for being a faggot
He then helped me up and said, if you really were a faggot you'd suck my dick right here and now.
Thatsnothowitworks.jpg
Ha ha ha, what a faggot, I only dreamt I was a faggot, but you're the bigger faggot for wanting me to suck your dick daggot.
Hahahaha oh shit brah, you're right
Hahahah massive lulz were had by all
Self loathing is the best loathing.
>>6216920
>be an oldfag
>high school was almost fifteen years ago
>It was still super cool to be homophobic, and that was one of the tactics Dubya used to get reelected.
>Hugely brainwashed by The Church
>Confessed of and atoned for multiple "sins of impure thought"
>Prayed the rosary nearly every night
>managed to go a month without masturbating.
>With no sexual outlet, I was a goddamn spastic in every other regard
>Two friends all of High School, because I pushed everyone else away with my behavior.
>Got a crush on one guy in my grade with beautiful long hair.
>Buried it in GAWD and stupid redneck culture shit
>Broke my arm and couldn't play football any more.
>Joined the drama club as stage crew
>Eventually they needed an actor, and since I was such a spaz, they asked me to fill in for someone.
>Met this adorable twink who I think had a mild crush on me. I certainly had one on him.
>I was a bit of an asshole to him, since I couldn't deal with my own sexual issues.
>Remember, this was before it was safe to come out virtually anywhere, so neither of us wanted to risk it (and I was so in my Jesus bubble I couldn't)
>when we graduated, he wrote me the sweetest note on my yearbook.
>I still read it from time to time, and wonder what would've happened if we had wound up together...
Be glad you grew up where and when you did, youngins.
>>6227843
anon, it WILL happen.
>pretty similar shit to anon's story
>all through highschool have this one friend who isn't a bully but makes fun of everyone and everything in a friendly way
>acts like a douche because he knows I find it funny when he does it
>various times we'll hold hands and say/do really gay shit
>eventually realise I like dudes
>gay shit kinda stops here
>never thought about this friend in particular that way before anyway
>years go by of a random, slightly gay act every few months
>he knows I'm gay at this point
>go hang at his one day
>bed time
>we spoon
>he has a gf
>he dry humps me
>I throw my butt into him
>he starts to rub my thigh
>this goes on for hours
>we are sweaty but no-gay
>eventually he grabs me tight and stops
>5 minutes later he goes to pee
>I get comfy in bed
>notice cum in the sheets
>I touch my dick and cum before he gets back
>we slept together in both our cum
>never talk about it
>pretend it never happened
I know for a fact he's not gay, I think he was just horny and feeling slightly affectionate, our friendship has always had that feel to it.
