Weirdo edition.
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>>6194176
who?
>>6194179
why?
Hello new thread, how are you?
>>6194184
p gud gonna spend today playing video games
So /mtfg/ lemme ask y'all a serious question
Are you gangsta?
>>6194183
wehn
>>6194184
hi tahm!!
I'm graduating!
I'm a smart!!!
>>6194188
Not in the slightest.
>>6194188
I am so gangsta, I started drinking soda today BEFORE I had breakfast
>>6194193
I could teach you.
how to be a real g, would you like that, osea?
(where did the name osea come from, how would one pronounce it?)
>>6194188
used to be
then I started taking estrogen
it all went downhill from there
Repost because thread
>>6194136 #
Please stop bullying me by being helpful I can't take it.
Posture and mannerisms are OK. All my male ones were learned and forced so it's kind of natural to me luckily. Still a long way to go though.
My makeup skills are zero. My cis fiancee is constantly at me to start learning because she's great at it and really wants to teach me properly. So just to get started.
My voice is probably the worst thing about me right now. I haven't done any training. I have a huge mental block about even trying on my own. Again my fiancee is constantly at me to just do it and tells me I'm luckier than most other girls that I have someone that I can practice with 24/7. She's totally right too I'm just being a little bitch. So yeah I need to nut up or shut up.
Thank you for this btw
>>6194138 #
I've got the style nearly down. But body wise I'm OK.. I think. Voice mainly I need to work on
>>6194196
>I started drinking soda today BEFORE I had breakfast
beetus
>>6194203
>euro anything
I'll pass
>>6194203
tahm I missed you desu, these new chasers are freaking terrible
>>6194188
Yes I am.
>went home from work early because intense stomach pains and nearly passed out
Fug
>>6194204
I'm not sure i'm going to akon korra
>>6194206
yeah voice shit is the fucking hardest I hated doing every second of it at first bc it sounds so cringe. but once you find ur girl voice and start refining it then it gets fun and a bit surreal
worth the initial suffering for sure
>>6194203
Pic
>>6194219
Why is there always something apparently wrong with you? It's no wonder people don't like you and you get fired from jobs.
>>6194223
its cool red. I'm going with like 20ish friends so it'll be alright on my end
>>6194196
i want to be this gangsta one day
>>6194199
It is pronounced with clean standard vowels, not English vowels.
It comes from Spanish phrase "o sea" which is mostly a filler phrase that translates to "or be it" roughly.
So when can I start my real g lessons?
>tfw just passed the 3 month mark on HRT
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TRTkCHE1sS4
What are some other good songs for this feel
>>6194219
oh dear...are you okay?
how do i find the best dose of whisky for sadness and anxiety?
>>6194225
You don't have a girl voice or even a faggot voice.
>>6194184
Not bad. Wbu?
>>6194236
All of it
>>6194213
I apologize on behalf of all chasers out there. How am I any better tho?
>>6194226
here ya go blud.
>>6194211
... :(
>>6194237
>not having a deep handsome man voice
Fucking loser
>>6194246
Ut ur mitt land blatte.
I really don't know if I want to transition to look like this...
>>6194248
Okay Mr 200hz voice
>>6194206
>Still a long way to go though.
posture is a bit of a pita to learn, even if you think you have natural feminine mannerisms, posture is also dependent on skeletal structure so you can look kinda off if you just act natural. a lot of tranny posture is keeping your shoulders back, leaning on a hip, etc. you can probably look at yourself in a mirror or photos to get a good idea.
I'm garbage at makeup but glad you have someone to teach you
as got the mental block with voice, I think that's really common, but the only way to beat it is to force it unfortunately. if you hate hearing your own voice try putting headphones on and recording yourself at first, because then the feedback isn't as immediate and it doesn't feel as terrible. I used to practice in the car because then nobody else could hear me which was also nice
>>6194249
im the black pants black top
>>6194249
keys to avoiding that: don't repress too long and don't go neet mode
>>6194246
well for one thing you're ftm :^)
idk the new ones are creepy autists. you were never as bad tammy
>>6194237
i never post girl voice m8 it makes me hella uncomfortable. I'm gonna practice it more once my permanent boy mode starts to fail a bit.
>>6194259
That's never going to happen in your case.
>>6194250
My voice still sounds male at 200hz
from the right i like 3, 5, 6 definitely, 7 8 and i bet 9's mad kinky.
1 looks like he'd tell his parents what I did to him so no chance.
>>6194264
I don't see how that's possible unless your resonance is like in your ankles
>>6194262
i disagree I finally can try Cypro instead of piss weak Spiro. and I look way different now than I did pretty hrt it just hasn't been nearly long enough for any significant changes yet
So is this thing supposed to be going in my ass pretty much?? Idk i feel secure kind of but also like if the sock bunches up ill fall out :s
>>6194274
pre hrt*
>>6194271
It just sounds male to me, I dunno.
No matter what I do with it its still the same man voice.
>>6194275
It should be between the cheeks. You've got a slight problem if it's going inside your ass.
>>6194280
I believe that's part of this whole dysphoria thing my man. Record yourself and play it back.
>>6194272
>They honestly don't look that bad for hons.
they look worse than people who never took hormones, is that really the goal I should be aiming for?
I don't want to be vain but I don't want to live knowing that everyone is lying to me, my grasp on reality is already pretty weak to add the fact that I have evidence that no one is being sincere with me.
>>6194255
g-good for you?
she's probably the Edie of the group, only the one in black dress on the left looks better and she's probably cis
>>6194257
and if it's already too late?
>>6194282
problem? sounds like a solution to me mate
>>6194282
You say problem..i say solution
>>6194272
I wish
>>6194249
just do what I do and dress like a boy
flannel is key
>>6194274
I'm sorry you're so delusional. Maybe see a doctor instead of ignorantly self medding?
>>6194292
Beepy pls.
>>6194251
You know what that's a great point. I guess I'm only assuming I'm OK. I haven't actively worked on it. At least that's something I can do without feeling like shit as opposed to the other two. Thanks anon.
Voice. Yeah. It's a bitch. Theres nothing else to say unfortunately. I have friends with cis tier voices dying to help me too. I have no excuse. I mean I'm a singer so I have good control over my voice. And already understand resonance and how to get the right tone I just haven't practiced enough to be able to do it.
Thank you so much for your help <3
>>6194225
So it really is just power through the horrible painful start?
>>6194288
it's probably not too late. most people here who say that are batshit crazy 20 year olds who think waiting until double digits to start hrt means a life of hondom
>>6194296
It's extremely difficult to get to doctors in some countries since these doctors think they're doing you a favour by blocking you from what you want. with their usual "oh you might regret it so its too risky"
>>6194257
it's not even repression, I'm not fighting it or anything, I just don't want an even worse life...
>>6194288
Transition is self-improvement. However you see it people transition because they want to be happier. If you take the steps to go in that direction even if you end up a hon you should be happier. Otherwise you might be doing it for the wrong reason.
>>6194293
>tfw no hope to be a mom
>>6194300
I'm Osea, nice to meet you.
>>6194287
I do record myself but I can only hear my man voice no matter what.
>>6194300
Bråka inte jävla dödsnazist!
>>6194306
That's fair enough but if you're going to self med you need to do a bit of research and see what these pills actually do and have some realistic expectations.
Advice for people practicing voice!! Listen to female singers and copy them.
i really have no idea what to do with my voice. ive read all kinds of stuff but the sounds that come out of my mouth sound awkward and wrong. why was i cursed with a deep man voice
>>6194311
>Transition is self-improvement. However you see it people transition because they want to be happier. If you take the steps to go in that direction even if you end up a hon you should be happier. Otherwise you might be doing it for the wrong reason.
was trying to say something like this to my friend recently, im not as learned so it came out sounding like a fucking mess but i'm going to pinch what you said here and sorta jiggle it around.
safe!
>>6194313
Oh well maybe you're just retarded then.
>>6194319
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sonLd-32ns4
>get wasted last night
>feel depressed today
>>6194294
Everyone knows you are a faggot. The byproduct of mtf hrt is that we get great skin because of spiro. female skin + long hair + female fat in the face means they know something is up. I remember when I was just trying to live as a dude in boy mode while on hrt people would comment how my facial structure was very shemale like.
Just start dressing like a girl kayla. One year is too long to try to pretend you are not trans.
>>6194320
record yourself and playback
>>6194311
>Otherwise you might be doing it for the wrong reason.
I can see myself being happier, but the emotions comming from me really don't seem capable to be as strong as the hate from others. I avoid confrontation in every single facet of my life, I just can't deal with it and close up and accept everything. A life of constantly that doesn't sound like life to me.
>>6194326
I guess so ;_;
>>6194308
being trans is always going to me much harder then cis, unless you're tru trans where you don't have a choice
>>6194332
id rather just fail boymode and stay dyke looking for a bit
>>6194333
i did u.u
i wanna die but i have a gf now so i can't kill myself because shed get upset :(
>>6194345
maybe she'd be down for a two-fer
>>6194333
The audio engineer in me wants to sperg out.
But the korra lover in me wants to just say hi
Hi
>>6194320
There is always Yeson.
>>6194321
I'm not even learned. That thing has horrible grammar.
>>6194334
You have to come to terms with the hand you've been dealt. Sure you probably wont end up a hon, but you need to have realistic expectations. You will have confrontation come from transition. It will permeate every aspect of your life, but you should know transition is something that will make life better if it's right for you.
>>6194335
Yeah I know you.
>>6194345
>>>/r9k/
>>6194302
>I haven't actively worked on it.
posture is super subtle tho, if you have a good natural posture then you will be able to pass at least, but putting conscious effort into it is what will make you appear cis
>I mean I'm a singer
honest to god every trans girl who I've spoken to who was a singer pre transition ends up with a cis tier voice. people tell me I have a great voice but I've still considered taking singing lessons to learn all the techniques that seem to help them. practice hard and you'll be fine
>So it really is just power through the horrible painful start
unfortunately :\
>>6194350
But I don't know you, wat do
>>6194345
If i kill her would it make it easier for you?
>>6194344
Like everything, give it time and be patient you can't change years of speaking like a dude in just a few weeks/months.
>>6194329
https://youtu.be/0_z_UEuEMAo
>>6194354
Nothing. We'll have to live like this for the rest of our lives.
>>6194350
at least it sounds like a real human said it
when i get emotional my words just become strings of sounds, my tongue gets 10x bigger in my mouth and someone behind the sofa starts cutting onions. It's a mess!
So who here is getting ready to work this fall to ensure God-Emperor Trump is elected president of these United States of America?
With any luck we can ensure Trump, praise be upon him, will defeat crooked in the general.
>>6194342
Don't do that because you will look like aids skillrex.
https://youtu.be/tvfhmhITkYY
>>6194354
I keep forgetting you're a dude.
Your name is so cute
>>6194359
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g1kDd6yBQZ4
(This is what i love about 4chan
id never ever have heard that if i wasnt on here today)
>>6194370
>>6194345
>tfw thats the only reason I am still alive
>>6194379
Sames
the love between two transbians is the purest form of love desu
>tfw this is always me
i'm in love with my mouse
it never repeats a color scheme
So /mtfg/
what does love feel like?
You're all amazing people and I love all of you <3
Here's hoping we make the most of today!
>>6194379
but then you when break up and have to stay alive for a while so your ex doesn't think it was his fault. i sure hope i find something before it feels like enough time since the breakup
>>6194384
>tfw no transbian gf
kind of bad feel tbhon
>>6194349
hiiii~ y sperg out tho?
>>6194384
>tfw str8
:(
>>6194372
Hi Valq!!!
>>6194388
Can I cuddle it? If not, its useless
>>6194382
Osea, what are some of your interests?
how do you buy mdma
>>6194407
What?
>>6194391
It's an obsession and it feels great while you're in it, but once it's gone you can clearly see all the mistakes you made and how much it affected your judgement. Sorta like drugs I guess.
It's still one of the best things in life though.
>>6194379
Uh hey phien about those srs complications :v
>>6194384
>>6194394
>tfw no transbian gf
bad feel indeed
>>6194397
You p-p-p-p-p-p-p-p-p-p-promise?
>>6194402
Ayyyyy sweetie <3
How's your day?
>>6194391
I've never been liked or loved ;-;
>>6194373
https://youtu.be/LLZZVN98LRg
This song is me af
>>6194410
Where can I get this, l-o-v-e?
>>6194397
>I guess it is time to place a bulk order of SSRIs
oh?
>>6194393
no, if hed leave me he wouldnt mind I think.
>>6194412
sure! ask what you want to know
>>6194409
What what?
>>6194419
Don't you have a few anons who love you?
>>6194415
Bretty good!!!!
I'm graduating Tommorow!!
>>6194392
>Here's hoping we make the most of today!
Does getting drunk while watching Eurovision count?
>>6194403
its not for cuddling
>>6194388
Reminds me of something I see on acid.
>>6194379
But you are so awesome ;_:
always I accepted your steam thing and sent you a message, but idk if it got through since I was really drunk last night.
>>6194391
mdma or a high. I can't explain it but it is like a high.
>>6194384
>tfw forever truly bi
I can commit to another transgirl but I am still bi.
>>6194407
>>6194423
honestly out of all the anti depression shit I ever took lsd has to be the best shit out there. If you micro dose it that is so you don't trip the fuck out. Needless to say I don't trust myself because I have a habit for doing 300ug + trips. Normally after a trip though I am not depressed for a few weeks and have no desire to drink or anything.
>>6194391
I wouldn't know. I broke up every relationship I had after not really feeling anything besides certain happyness for having someone around me almost everyday.
>tfw gf deserves better than you but your too selfish to break up
>tfw can't stop hurting people
>>6194424
>cute
>>6194426
Aaahhyeaaah. Now you can liberal arts the shit outta stuff.
I wish I only needed 38 credits to graduate :/
>>6194429
how do i get lsd
>>6194425
Don't think so.
>>6194423
>no, if hed leave me he wouldnt mind I think.
I would mind.
;~;
>>6194408
With money obviously.
>>6194409
Cute personality, and Korra was guymode in that pic anyway >~<
>>6194419
I like you!
L- Love you even!!!
>>6194421
Love finds you, you don't find it. But anyway, try being really cute and putting yourself out there, you'll probably find someone who likes you, and maybe you'll like them back?
>>6194435
Anime fighting games, traditional or 3d?
Just askin cause I love Alpha 2, ST and marvel though im kinda garbage.
>>6194423
>no, if hed leave me he wouldnt mind I think.
if that's true then he never had any feelings for you, even friends feel bad when someone they left behind kills him/herself.
you really have a moral obligation to stay alive or you'll probably really hurt his life. if you love him, sadly, you have to live.
secondary part about Phienchen being one of the best trips in 4chan and anon having platonic love for her.
>>6194423
>sure! ask what you want to know
Uhh.. well what kinda stuff went wrong? How bad was it?
>>6194427
At least someone's watching Eurovision. Cheers, I'm chugging beer.
post what youre listening to right now
dont disappoint me
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aftBkV67vuE
>stomach pain and lightheadedness went away after I got home
>tfw anxiety so bad it literally causes physical symptoms
I need to get on NEETbucks soon.
>>6194432
trip on Basic
that's pretty generic depression talk, you can always be better for her and if you can't it's the depression affecting your life. everyone can be better if they have the estability to move on.
>>6194427
It's better than using narcotics!
>>6194431
Anon...
>>6194432
you irl
>>6194451
It seems people don't appreciate good music!
>>6194455
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z_LUL4Tu2sA
>>6194434
I don't want to liberal arts.
I wanna learn to get my hands greasy and learn cool machinery things.
I wanna be your tool lad!
>>6194451
BEER POON HOTWINGS
amirite guise
>>6194460
>Anon...
what?
>>6194445
It made me feel nothing. I was really indifferent to everything. I even dropped out of school when I got on it. It just made me not give a fuck. I also got really sleepy really early.
Withdrawal was pretty weird once I stopped taking it. I got all these shocks and weird sensations.
>>6194444
SFV mostly right now. I like HF better than ST and I never was much into the Alpha series. I also like Vsav but no one plays that.
>>6194435
>zoloft
I swear to god that shit made me want to kill myself like no other thing. It is a good thing I am off all anti-depression shit.
>>6194438
Google darknet market place
>>6194445
weed is very hit or miss for me
2/3 times smoked that shit it would give me a massive anxiety attack and the other 1/3 times it was fine. I found that smoking it with my friends reduced that by a lot though. I haven't smoked that shit in almost a year now though because I need a job and because of said anxiety attacks.
I think
I should work out and then come back and resolve some shit.
>>6194461
>random pop shit
>good music
nigga pls
>>6194309
:( ty korra. You're sweet.
>>6194345
Same but fiancee
>>6194352
It's something I never considered so I really appreciate it. This is exactly what I was looking for when I asked for advice. Things I hadn't considered.
I think it's probably a mix of the strength and control over the voice. Like one of my bands the set list is two and a half hours straight. So that will help a lot for consistency. I'd recommend dining lessons for anyone. I'm one of those weird people who walks around singing all day. Thank youuuu <3
Why I feel so useless even though I try so hard.
>>6194456
Normal anxiety has physical symptoms you fucking mongoloid.
>>6194391
love is nice and fulfilling and leaves me a little less functional each time it goes away
>>6194456
I'm glad I'm not this bad yet, I really hope you find some way to get better soon. Ideally without frying your brain on psychoactive meds.
>>6194468
That's uh, unless I'm misreading it, that's kinda what relationships are for :/
>>6194473
BDD and probably incredible insecurity. Chin up cutie!
>>6194439
I do
>>6194472
I am a little disappointed we didn't get that naked guy dancing with wolves ;_;
tfw COMPLETE FUCKING FAILURE WHO SHOULD DIE
KILL ME KILL ME KILL ME
>>6194464
MAH TOOL LADD!
I'll get you a little red stripey apron and have you wear a little snap back hat.
We'll paint your nails red to match.
But be careful. Use two hands... Sometimes they can be heavy!
I may use your tiny hands to get at bolts in tight spaces, too
>>6194469
Ahh, that's why I can actually deal with people when I'm on it... I Dont care.
>>6194471
Damn you're beautiful
>>6194482
Oh, well... You're still cute. I've seen your pics months ago
>>6194455
https://youtu.be/UeCH9Xfn3Oo
I am hon.
>>6194469
I've not tried vampire saviour before, I think at the time when I had an opportunity i got Marvel Super Heroes instead but praise be because it brought me to my all time favourite fg character- juggernaut.
Which is the Vampire saviour that folks would play anyway, i can't tell there are so many i could play on fightcade i dont even know which is the definitive version.
>>6194479
>That's uh, unless I'm misreading it, that's kinda what relationships are for :/
Mh...
I really don't think that having someone in your house doing their stuff is a relationship, it's virtually the same as a room mate that you share the bed with. I don't have a high libido and don't enjoy sex too much for mtf standard issues but even then you could have sex with someone regularly without having a relationship.
I don't really think it was love at any point. At best a bit of happyness for having someone say nice things to me or be nice in general, but anyone would do.
>>6194481
Thanks anon.
>>6194486
i k t f
>>6194490
t-thank you >\\\<
<3
>>6194486
mosst failings are steps to do things right.
not always, for example a cripled person trying to stand with their legs broken will always fail, but if it's among the normal range of doable things then the way to doing anything right is failing over and over again.
>>6194470
So far it is pretty good for me, but I'm only around 4 weeks in. Who knows, maybe once it really kicks in things will change.
>>6194486
No.
>>6194490
It was too much for me. I just didn't bother to show up to class and I didn't bother to really do anything. I was kind of just gliding about doing nothing. It even made my art worse.
>>6194492
Vampire Savior refers to Darkstalkers 3. So that is the one most played. I'm complete shit at it, but I like the feeling of it.
>>6194475
Oh okay, I guess I should just power through almost passing out at work now that you've told me it's a symptom of normal anxiety :^)
reminder that repression gen is always here for you
:^)
>>6194499
What about bullyanon? She loves you too.
>>6194504
Yes actually you fucking should. I bet the people you work with hate your fucking guts now, I know I would.
>>6194429
>But you are so awesome ;_:
awww <3
>but idk if it got through since I was really drunk last night.
It did, thank you!
>>6194435
>Gotta get medicated so you don't blow brains out.
no gun rights or Id never have attemmpted transitioning in the first place.
>>6194441
o-oh... I am sorry anon ;~;
>>6194447
>if that's true then he never had any feelings for you,
no. if Id go now it would destroy him. he's a bit weird with people. Either he cares absolutely, or he doesnt care at all. I ve seen what he was like when his mum died. it was awful. I am not going to put him through that again. If he ditches me though he wont care.
>if you love him, sadly, you have to live.
its cruel isnt it? to not ruin his life Ive to live through this torment.
>secondary part about Phienchen being one of the best trips in 4chan and anon having platonic love for her.
O-Oh my gosh
pic related
>>6194448
Ill make an extra post since its kinda long.
>>6194503
Ahh okay, well one day on a long trainride i'll give it a diddle. :D
>>6194514
I got sent home anon, nothing I could do about it, that's how any food place is
>>6194515
>Ill make an extra post since its kinda long.
Okay thank you a lot!
>>6194479
I don't have bdd but yeah i am extremly insecure. Like that my outfit in the morning. Dollface commented it suck - and even though she have no idea what she is talking about i didn't go out at all. Cus I never know if I look good or not. Because of insecurity in my voice a bearly speak - at work I'm completly mute which suck because I became completly alienated.
>>6194522
You looked great. Don't listen to clownface.
>>6194522
Your voice is CIs. Omfg
You inspired me to get voice therapy
im going to post yuri yuri is there for me when im sad yuri is never mean to me
>>6194515
yeah I will talk to you in like three hours after I get back from my work out.
:3
I kind of would like info on srs since I am leaning more and more to thailand.
>>6194511
Bullyanon is nice.
>>6194515
>its cruel isnt it? to not ruin his life Ive to live through this torment.
well, if you truly hate yourself you should embrace that cruelty. what are your plans if some day in the future you break up for a reasson that isn't him hating you?
>pic related
>cute girls embracing barely passing boy with poor reassons to be trans
t-that hurts a bit, Pien
>>6194496
Well then, I hope you find somebody you really do love someday soon, everybody should have somebody to love!
>>6194522
I'm sorry you're so insecure, I have a little bit of that and it's really not fun at all :c I hope you meet somebody who can help you with that, give you confidence to do what you gotta do, you know?
>>6194528
Why not get some irl yuri?
>>6194527
Voicetherapist is great idea. Mine is amazing and i love work with her.
She did pointed out that my tongue is in incorrect resting position. It fixed half my face.
>>6194545
shes not responding to my texts
>>6194545
>everybody should have somebody to love!
selfhate, depression, black hole of emotions, disconection with reality, etc
but thanks anyway
>>6194544
>tfw no bully gf
>tfw too disgusting and manly to ever have a partner or even a friend
h-hehe
>>6194551
O.o fixed yo faceee!?!? I heard about that! Omfggg I need to move nowww
>>6194528
>>6194551
>TFW nikky is your role model
<3
>mfw holding hands with qt3.14 over pizza
>>6194563
Aw, that boy has such big handsome hands.
>>6194563
Did you two do the uhaul thing and move in together. Fucking lesbians
..
>>6194490
You can use my hands however you want ;333
>>6194570
Yowza! How did I suddenly contract the red-lewds-itus?
>>6194545
I tried bf once which was amazing but he left me and it made me even more worhless.
I have really bad luck with psychologists they always made me feel worse or suecidal even. So I avoid them.
Once I meet with psychiatric (i needed a paper that I'm not mentally ill) and she was great and even though it was not her job she fixed some of my thought loops.
>>6194552
Aww, I'm sorry :c Did something happen, do you want to talk about it if it did?
>>6194554
I know all of these feelings, but you have to fight them! Don't let your life be miserable, there's always some hope for the future you know! I wish I could help more than just typing things at you because I know I'm probably meaningless to you, but I really hope you'll be able to push past where you are and be happy with your life again, I don't want anyone to be in the kind of state I used to be in. <3
>>6194556
I'd totally be your friend!
>>6194563
i only see one female hand in that pic
>>6194581
>know I'm probably meaningless to you
don't say that, anon. helping people when I'm in a good mood and complaining when I'm not in this threads has become one of my favorite human interactions.
I don't really feel all that miserable without love, it's a bit of a foreign feeling for me so I don't miss what I don't really understand.
>>6194575
Haha wow you're a dork for using "yowza "
>tfw freezing and no partner to cuddle
At least I have coffee
>>6194598
You're a dork for calling me a dork.
I should know.
I'm a doctor.
:3
>mfw talked to gf for 3 hours and now everything is fine
nvm sorry for the drama
>>6194448
Ill just point out everything that went wrong.
>preface
so as a preface, none of it was the surgeons fault, or the staffs. most of it was bad luck, me generally being weak/underweight and some german medical staff being idiots.
I had a brain infection when I was 21, I wasnt able to walk in a straight line and I was nearly blind. the doctors were completely blown away that I didnt scream in pain when they examined me, which is why I am pretty sure Ive above average pain tolerance.
>part 1 my memory of this part is really foggy and spotty
after surgery, you get in infusion that you can use to get IV morphine. its technically unlimited, but theres sleeping stuff in there, so you wont hurt yourself. I basically slept through 1-2 days. When I woke up, I was in really bad pain. apparently they had to take me off morphine cause I pressed so much (my body probably breaks down painkillers faster than the average person. at least that runs in the family, or maybe I am just a faggot Idk). my mum was there as well and told me Id never get more morphine while in hospital. her english isnt that good, she says it was an honest mistake, I am pretty sure that was intentional cause morphine is evil, and pain is temporary. I believed her and spent the next few days in paindelirium barely able to lie still cause my crotch was on fire. I was a bitch to everyone around me at the time, and for some reason someone gave me a laptop, I was pretty mean to my bf (he stayed in germany) luckily he didnt mind too much. I couldnt remember most of it. 2 days before I was allowed to go out the nurses explicitly asked me if I wanted morphin, I said yes and was immediately painfree. when I left hospital Dr. suporn told me he was super impressed with how little morphin I needed (cause he didnt know that my parents conspired to block me from access lol)
until I left thailand, everything was normal, I recovered pretty slowly cause my body doesnt handle stuff like this well
cont.
>>6194600
you're a terrible person, don't try to drag someone down with you
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=isM-r6B1wz4
>>6194563
I'm squeeeeing. Too much cute
>>6194608
so things were actually not fine before
>>6194580
I'm sorry your bf left you, mine left me too :c Later I figured that he was emotionally abusive, but it still hurt that he left me. I hope you're able to recover from it soon, you shouldn't let one guy control the whole rest of your life!
I don't really like psychiatrists, but the one psychologist I went to was nice enough, and she helped me a good bit, though I hid being trans from her. She helped me work through some stuff regarding my bf, social anxiety, and depression from being at home, which is a terrible place for me to be.
Glad the psychiatric you met with that one time did help you out though, it's great that you got some help! ^-^
I hope that you meet a really, really great bf next who'll help you out lots and lots and fix all of your feelings of worthlessness with you <3
>>6194592
>helping people when I'm in a good mood and complaining when I'm not in this threads has become one of my favorite human interactions.
Me too! It's really great, I love this place >w<
And I guess you can't miss what you never had, but I really hope you get to experience it one day, because it's great and you deserve to feel it at least once!
>>6194600
I would cuddle you!
>>6194608
Stop using 4chan to air out your relationship problems
>>6194608
told you so
>>6194608
Good to hear mom and dad made up.
>>6194612
I know I am.
>>6194531
alright :3
>>6194536
o-oh my gosh, after three years, I might actually become popular? D:
or are you sarcastic?
>>6194540
you should use it to shoot me. but dont get caught please
>>6194543
>if some day in the future you break up for a reasson that isn't him hating you?
how would that happen? he is god to me, Id never leave him.
>cute girls embracing barely passing boy with poor reassons to be trans
w-what did I do, I am sorry ;~;
>>6194610
Can I add your parents to my kill list?
>>6194610
>spent the next few days in paindelirium barely able to lie still cause my crotch was on fire
Oh boy this sounds like fun
>>6194634
I wouldn't say popular...
But I'm attracted to personalities and I think you'd be awesome to be friends with.
Yay
Fangirl
>>6194622
You know what thanks anon! Normally my cynical side would brush your comment off. But right now your positivity is really helping me.
And being cynical is manly as hell I should avoid it anyway.
>>6194631
I wanna make up
with that
platypussy
>>6194613
wut
>>6194618
i thought that was obvious :c
>>6194624
i am!! this will be my last post about it. i just felt bad cause lots of people were talking to me and stuff and then i just went and dealt with all that.
i figured it'd be weird not to say anything about it before moving on from it. so ye.
>>6194631
>dad
HEY
altho the end of our call was literally me telling her that she's never going to be as manly as my ex bf because she's not really a man lmao
and then she said she was gonna go do push ups
>>6194515
>If he ditches me though he wont care.
If that happens then I guess I'll just have to fly over to Deutschland and be your new boyfriend so you can't die.
(I hope you're into boys who look femmy and take hrt and dislike having a penis.)
>>6194608
The last thing you said to me is how much I'm not a man and never was and couldn't compare myself to other men! You emasculated me, We are not fine!
first birdie and now "platypus"?
WHAT THE FUCK?
>>6194634
I don't want to kill anyone unless it is out of self defense, and even then I would rather not.
>>6194647
>because she's not really a man lmao
>and then she said she was gonna go do push ups
don't be such a shitlord, she can be a man if she wants
>>6194246
Blud
P chaser /10
Would let you buy me a drink though
>>6194643
L-lewd
>>6194647
lmao
I did it to parody birdy because I was bored, but idk it kinda stuck. Gives me an excuse to post cute platypuses
>>6194634
>I might actually become popular? D:
you're pretty popular here, nazi animu girl. there's no point denying.
>how would that happen? he is god to me, Id never leave him.
I wouldn't know, I mentioned to someone else I really don't get love. I really don't imagine relationships working and I doubt I've seen one doing it.
Good luck with your blasphemous religion, though. I hope you understand that christians kept loving Christ even when he went away.
I took some gay selfies and then shooped them
how's mtfg doing today
>>6194640
Aww, why thank you! :3 I'm glad I can help, it makes me happy to make other people happy ^.^
Glad that you're going to try to avoid being cynical, I hope it makes you happier too!
>>6194668
platypussies*
or pp in short
>ugly
>manly
>disgusting
>awful person
>stupid
Why even live?
>>6194651
YOU'RE NOT A MAN BBY, I'M SORRY
YOU'RE A WOMAN
YOU'RE NOT GONNA BE AS MANLY AS A MANLY MAN!!! THAT'S JUST THE TRUTH ;3;
>>6194654
b-b-b-but
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bH9e1gO6ZPg
