">tfw you think about all you are giving up to pursue your autistic decision to transition" Edition
▶Informed consent providers:https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u/932389/Trans/Stepping%20Forward%20-%20Informed%20Consent%20Clinics.pdf
▶Trans Info Dump:http://pastebin.com/h1vLPxyV (embed) (embed) (embed)
▶Beginner makeup resources:http://masterposter.tumblr.com/post/116605714860
▶Size charts:http://www.americanapparel.net/sizing/default.asp?chart=womens.pantse_conversion_chart.php
▶Transition timelines:http://imgur.com/a/qWpxv
▶Let's see if whoever makes the next thread remembers to take this bit out
▶Voice Training:http://pastebin.com/dgipdsge (embed) (embed) (embed)
▶HRT info:https://web.archive.rg/web/0000000000000http://taimapedia.org/index.php?title=Hormones
▶Voice Help:
http://webjedi.net/projects/lgbtq/speech-therapy/
▶IRC: https://www.rizon.net/chat#mtfg
▶Discord: https://discord.gg/0qFz5Shp1aU3GsHK
▶Zeemaps:https://www.zeemaps.com/map?group=1843968
Previous Transon >>6120918
Erste
i haven't had sex in two months. ;-;
CRAAAAWLING IIIIIIIN MY SKIIIIIIIIN
>>6121941
I can beat that, tbqh
>>6121934
Don't post with your trip on you fucking idiot, especially when it's someone as cancerous as you.
>>6121934
>tfw you realize you have nothing to give up because you didn't have a future anyway
im gay
>>6121940
What's with the german stuff lately
>>6121934
> tfw you realise coming out means you lose most of friends and extended family
>>6121945
elanna I'm super high
>>6121941
Sorry to hear that. No qt bf/gf or..?
Good morning, /mtfg/.
Post cute songs!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y16x_uNGjpo
My Spiro was recently changed from the orange pill it was to a white one. Looked it up, seems like it's the same but there's a different ingredients list that goes into it. Does this even matter?
Anybody got any obvious closet case stories? What celebrities do you think are secretly repressed transwomen?
>>6121951
I'm trying to relearn the language. So I'm "practicing"
>>6121962
Yeah it's now even more useless.
>>6121960
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M34EGD7NIEw
>>6121960
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0FLQ_h_LaqA
>>6121958
Jelly af, what did you take?
>>6121962
Believe it or not, it can actually matter, but it's unlikely.
>>6121966
>im not going to transition
>im going to keep posting on mtfg though
Yeah, sure you're not
>>6121960
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gin8C7pVV0Q
>>6121965
Add me on skype and i can help you if you want
>>6121978
Fuck you too, sis!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xIIqYqtR1lY
>>6121955
Yeah and they all think youre a pervert and you want to diddle children
I want to look like stav
>>6121993
>I want to be stav
>>6121993
>not andreja
Heresy
>>6121993
mfw stav came out as trans in March and nobody noticed
>>6121991
In Edgar, korra and Sheen's case that is true though.
>>6121986
U-umm... Too nervous
I'll just shitpost on /int/
>>6122000
Every "androgynous male model" will come out as trans at one point 2bh
>>6121989
Some of the saddest and most pain filled post on this board are the ones that come from the pre-transition posters. Doesn't that say something?
>>6121976
>Jelly af, what did you take?
just an entire weedle, but it's a rare treat since I'm not a druggie generally.
>>6122009
Mommy!
>>6121960
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=-MpvIjaFu_k
Indulge me in some (You)'s mtfg. im gonna fail uni because i refuse to function.
also repost
https://clyp.it/xh34j4kx
>>6122009
>
Agreed. In most definitely not all cases the anxiety about transition and how people react is faaaaaaaaaaaaaar worse than how it turns out.
>>6121989
>coupled with simultanous /pol/ browsing to remind myself of my sickness. ill never fall into a deluded mindset that makes me transition. ill never be a hon. i choose suicide.
>yfw this is the exact mindset that leads to honship
>>6121976
I always see her with antennae in the thumbnail
>>6121999
SO SICK OF THIS MEME
My friend is trans and it consumes every aspect of her being, every moment she is thinking about it and reading about it and in tears. I dont even know if she maintains any interests anymore. What made us friends in the first place is completely gone but I dont want to abandon her, I feel like she has nobody. Anything I can do, is this normal?
I mean we bonded over all kinds of things when we met but now that person is just entirely gone. Its all worry about being a girl, reading about transformation fiction and so on and so on.
NOt saying i dont support in that but there's more to her
i dont know im repeating myself and going on now. any words fo rme?
Just some guy by the way if that means anything it could just be me really not understanding and I want to
>>6122025
So sick of your autistic ramblings
>tfw you get nervous several days before you actually have to go outside
>tfw look like a man with boobs
>>6122030
then go outside lol =^}
>>6122026
Oh and to be clear she is male to female, we were friends for 13 years and was the first she came out to
how do i stop being an ugly faget
When i have a bad self image day it makes me worry this is what ive looked like all along and im just crazy in denial
>>6122038
how is yur bf?
>>6122032
>tfw look like a man with boobs
If you live in America you should realize how common that is desu
Why do I still come here? Everyone is 10x further than me in their transition or whatever, and I haven't even started. I loathe this place, I am starting to hate everyone here
>>6122038
Lose the retarded glasses and lose my number too while you're at it.
>>6122025
I always liked andreja and i wanted to be as fem as she was
And some while after i started hormones she suddenly came out as trans, which was pretty cool
I'm not that much of a fan anymore, but she's still a role model because she's sane, young and straight, different than all those hons
>>6122000
where's the proof?
he said he wasn't trans (like andreja), during interviews
>>6122038
daddies cummies
>>6122040
he's good, we're good, moving in together this month
i'm super excite
>>6122045
i don't have your number ayynon
>>6122044
:c do you hate me
>>6122041
Best year to kill yourself tbhon.
>>6122043
I don't.
>can't wear a jacket without looking like a sperg because it's warm outside
>can't hide boobs without jacket
>man face ruins all hope of ever going fulltime
I want to die.
>>6122044
Patience.
>>6122044
your perspective is trapped in your own head
nothing I can do to help that
if you do stop coming here go see your doctor, friends maybe
>>6122026
>>6122036
Transition can be REALLY hard, and incredibly stressful. I'm sure it's painful to you that you feel like your friend is being consumed by it, but the odds are it's temporary. As she gets more comfortable with herself she's bound to lighten up and be more normal about it.
Just keep being her friend, be a shoulder for her to lie on, whatever it takes. And make sure to include her in things, invite her over or go out and do something together. Just make her feel like a person again.
>>6121991
The sad thing is, I pass now, so i'm stuck in this horrible reality of choosing to be a miserable guy, or destroying my personal life.
>>6122051
No, I am actually behind the rest of you because I'm not privileged enough to live in a place that makes HRT and other related stuff easy, and I'm not privileged enough to have money without slaving away for it while all my friends go to college
>>6122057
Going to be honest
>can't wear a jacket without looking like a sperg because it's warm outside
I live in Florida and I have severe Psoriasis. I will go outside in 95 degree weather wearing a sweater and occasionally I get weird looks but it's not that bad. Just be patient and do whatever makes you comfortable. Fuck people.
>tfw your cis sister posts new selfies
>tfw she literally looks like a cis version of you
>tfw she has a tiny, narrow jaw
>tfw can barely contain my jealousy and rage
>tfw every night as I'm going to sleep I pray to whatever's out there to at least please let me have a lucid dream so I can change my body and feel what it's like to be okay for a few hours
>>6122044
I felt the same way way back when i came here and now i'm nearly as far progressed as the other people here
Just start and there'll be more people like you
I already was on hormones when i came here already though
Also everyone's getting srs now an it's still over a year for me :(
>>6122064
Where are you from?
>>6122041
I said the same thing a little over a year ago. Now I'm 8 months into HRT.
>>6122044
You're probably further along than me.
>>6122065
I'm not autistic enough to go outside looking like a retard and sweaters don't help, I need a jacket.
I just wish I wasn't so manly, man.
>>6122066
You are exactly the kind of person who would rape and murder their sister. I'm seriously considering tipping off the police.
>>6121955
this kept me from accepting for a while
if they're okay with it, great. if they're not, i've squirreled enough away to not die in the street. it sucks but honestly it is hard for a lot of people to understand what dysphoria is actually like
>>6122056
She behaves like a normal girl not some sexist manmonster like most hons
>>6122073
Can't you just wear something cute, light and floaty
>>6122068
>Also everyone's getting srs now an it's still over a year for me :(
Iktf. I don't even have letters from my therapist yet
My life was a mistake
>>6122064
I got a wageslave job instead of going to college actually
And getting official hrt is nearly impossible
>>6122082
WOW rude
>>6122082
>Yes, I hate everyone
thats okay I hate myself as well.
>>6122012
Still sounds tasty.
I'm looking forward to Friday, I have some drugging time planned in the evening, havn't had the time for it in a while.
>>6122015
Proof?
>>6122022
CANNOT UNSEE ;~;
>>6122034
Even robin is less of a mess now than they were 6 months ago. Granted, they're still a mess, but they have a lot of issues.
>>6122037
>I'm just hoping the desire will go away
>I'm just a femmy guy
You're sending very very mixed messages.
>>6122047
http://www.hungertv.com/feature/trans-model-stav-strashko-shares-her-story-of-self-discovery-and-success/
"Professionally, I’m considered an “androgynous male model”. I’m not a big fan of definitions but – to be precise – I identify as female and transgender is a general terms used to refer to those who identify with a gender different from the one they were assigned at birth."
shitty engrish but I think it gets the point across lol
>>6122080
I'm too manly for that.
>>6122077
sure
>my good friend has had a bad relationship for 3 years.
>I want him to break up with her.
>I come out to everyone.
>we fall in love with each other and live happily ever after.
A boy can dream.
>>6122094
Do it anyway
>>6122064
Order online
>>6122099
That was a joke?
>>6122090
Fine you will be the fifth opens in the cage match against me, pleb, lain and lily.
We will fight for the title of king hon
>>6122105
Probably not
>>6122094
youd be surprised tbhon
like rly
also you should take full outfit/body pics to give a better idea
>>6122066
Maybe you could get FFS someday, when the NHS gets its head out of its ass and starts functioning properly.
>>6122026
yep that sounds like a tranny
it's a fucking horrible existence
>>6122107
Jesus Christ that was dark, but I still laughed ;~;
>>6122103
I need to wear a mask if anything.
>>6122109
Surprised about what?
>>6122100
>A boy
uhhhh
>>6121955
In Ottawa?
You run in some curious circles.
>>6122116
Wear a dress
>>6122118
boys can have huge tits and wear flower crowns shitlord
>>6122116
how easy it is to look like a girl
>>6122124
like potc?
>>6122122
It's too cold and i'm too manly and no one wears dresses in Sweden unless it's super warm.
>>6122126
For you.
Social transition is a death sentence and i think im just going to stay in boy clothes
>>6122053
That mindset doesn't just start in adulthood. For me it started in middle school, so yes, it did lead me to becoming less passable than I could have been.
i wanted to eat vanilla pudding for dinner but now i ate a tortilla and i'm too full for pudding :(
>>6122074
nah she also looks like a psycho with weird gross eyes, it runs in the family desu, but she looks like a cis female one is the difference
if anything she's crazier than me and acts out her violent urges, aside from looks I feel super sorry for her actually
>>6122124
I wish mtfg would stop moving the gender goalposts. I'm not even femme enough to be a boy. ;_;
>>6122124
Yes they can.
And should.
>>6122092
aw thanks
Ugh whatever I am done with this general.
If anyone needs me for whatever reason, add me on Skype @ kyuketsu8
>>6122139
>crazier than me and acts out her violent urges
you black out and attack people on the internet, how do we (you) know that doesn't happen irl too?
>>6122128
Behind that edge is the mind and soul of a girl. The least you could do is be honest with yourself about that.
I had a dream I was making out with my childhood friend (the one who turned out to be gay). He was really sweet, then some other guy joined in.
Guess I am a gay faggy boy.
>>6122106
is it a hon-off or a physical fight? Id win both anyway, but I need to know for my victory sobbing
>>6122046
nothing sudden about andreja's transition
- she figured it out around 3 and even sought professional therapy
- had srs at 22
>>6122092
no bs,
I'm presenting now, and just want to keep an open mind to all possibilities for myself.
I kinda wish I knew either way (trans or not) b/c then I can move forward w a clear plan
>>6122136
>tfw don't even have a life or friends
>tfw supportive family
>tfw still can't go fulltime because too manly
I suck.
yeah, okay
>>6122158
Post it please. I need it.
>>6122157
But her public coming out was sudden
I mean you could see it a bit earlier if you knew about trans stuff, but she suddenly had srs and came out then
>>6122160
Don't be butt hurt. Have a bucket hon.
>>6122154
You'd get the shit kicked out of you in a hon-off.
>>6122162
Yes m'lady.
Hey princesses am I the only one who struggle with voice training.
My voice pass for some reason but it doesn't sound cis to me.
>inb4 VDD
>>6122165
>>6122166
I am a male skeleton with makeup, I barely register as human
>>6122060
Yeah I mean I've always thought, no matter how strange it is for me observing what must be going on in her noggin?
I appreciate the advice and yeah, I'll do my best to be a good support. Its been such a strange time, this is a person who I have spent literally every day with. People used to suspect we were gay it was that close.
Can I ask one more thing, you see with this whole transition thing and being one of her most trusted opinions the time is bound to come when I'm asked about how she looks. I know from on here 'hugboxing' is pretty heinous but if i do have to impart not so good news in that kind of regard what do i do? course I'm going to be honest but then what, I'm no good with emotions and you know, it gets to me. Any thoughts?
>>6122167
Thank you my friend
>>6122168
My voice sounds male no matter what I do with it.
>>6122155
Do you have some other deformity?
>>6122076
I'm sorry anon I didnt mean to make you sad, we're still friends for life and hopefully like the friendly anon said it could be a phase. I mean she's early in the transition if that means something. (I dont really know what's going on, just what she tells me and what I picked up lurking these threads before I asked the question)
>>6122168
I do too. I think I pass otherwise, but the voice is killing me. I can't get myself to consistently speak more femme. It feels like too much effort. Does practice make it easier in the end? I just feel like I don't have it in me to talk that way all the time...
>>6122155
Ah, yes. As long as you're sure you can never accomplish, you never need to accept any responsibility for your failure to try.
Quit repressing, dummy. You're actually getting worse at it.
>>6122157
typo correction: 13
>>6122179
no I was at uni. cisgirls in revealing closing everywhere. I just want to die
voluntary euthanasia for trannies when?
>>6122196
I am probably more skelly than you
>>6122119
I hang out with a lot of immigrants and muslims, none of which are very accepting of trans issues. Also, most of my extended family is from New Brunswick/Nova Scotia, which is a strange place
>>6122195
I want to wear revealing clothes but I'm just a boy
>>6122164
thanks, Hun
>>6122195
Wasn't there a case in sweden
xD
>>6122203
You actually probably are skinnier than me, that is true
But I'm a manlet with man skellington so it looks worse anyway
>>6122182
Then do it, nerd
>>6122168
my voice passes if i move my trachea with my hand but i can't get my larynx far enough back when im just concentrating ;_;
>tfw fag voice forever
>>6122178
Begging for respite doesn't create it though, the only respite is that obtained through corrective means.
That girl will never die, the only relief is in trying to make the mismatched body closer to matching. The longer you wait, the worse it will get. Maybe now you're comfy in repression, but I hope for your sake that you reach the point of having nothing left to lose sooner than later. Dark as it is, when you have nothing left to lose, why not at least try transition? You can always kill yourself if it doesn't work out.
I passed better at 2 months than i do now what are my doctors giving me
>>6122178
Anon, maybe you don't want to hear this from me because I'm not very eloquent, but you really shouldn't kill yourself. Post pics so we can evaluate how "manly" you are, okay? It's unlikely that you're as bad as you think you are, and even if you are so what? Hormones work like magic for lots of people, and ffs is always an eventual option. In some cases insurance will cover ffs for you.
Even more important than passing though is how you think of yourself. You have to address your self-hatred and accept yourself, because otherwise you could pass perfectly, even be model-tier, and you'll still think of yourself as a hon. Plus, as much as 90% of passing is self-confidence, so don't give up!
>>6122210
wasnt it belgium? but yeah, it was an FtM after a botched srs I think
>>6122215
Ive a man skellington as well. literally hips of a 10 year old.
how tall are you? and how does being short make one a hon?
>>6122195
>cisgirls in revealing closing everywhere. I just want to die
God I hate summer ;~;
I'm sorry, I know this feel.
>>6122196
Yeah pretty much, I'd hate to say something crushing and then have no follow up. Self-esteem is important too I wouldn't want to damage it, I just want to be really careful but without the relationship becoming unnatural. Thats my fear mostly, would make a lot of sense for us to sit downa nd talk about this but I'm scared to bring it up. The words escape me every time
>>6122225
super testosterone
i see your shoulders become even wider compared to the last time
>>6122225
You never passed. There are less hugboxers now so you are finally hearing the truth.
>>6122136
this is what I want to do but my tits are having other ideas
>>6122151
that only happened that one time and it was because I was heavily intoxicated, much moreso than usual.. it's not (just) a result of being nuts and it hasn't happened before and hopefully won't again. I don't want to get into all the shit my sister's done in fits of rage because it seems unfair on her but trust me, she was hit worse than me by the crazy gene. I can keep control just fine as long as I'm in a clear state of mind.
>>6122153
AAP is the best fetish for coping with dysphoria desu
why be a hon freak when you can just be a cute boy getting an estrogen pill pushed down your throat on the end of a big cock <3
it's basically the only reason I'm able to get lewd despite my usual self-hate lol
>>6122233
But you are not a cute boy and never will be, no matter how much estrogen you take.
>>6122229
Idek why, it hasnt been that bad in years.
last year I only cared half as much.
>>6122237
>Not a girl!!!
you're a stupid retard tbhh
>>6122196
Oh and shit i dont mean to imply that i don't have confidence in her passing down the line and stuff that's not what i mean. Just you know, there will be bumps along the way is all.
>>6122157
WAIT SHE WAS 22 WHEN SHE CAME OUT?
FUCK
I DIDN'T REALISE SHE WAS THIS YOUNG
fuck
I'm 22 in December
now I feel like even more of a hon freak
I'm so slow at everything, even transition
I fucking suck
I need sleeping pills so I can just knock myself the fuck out for several hours when moments like this happen, I'll have to ask my GP. I have trouble sleeping anyway after all.
>>6122243
>They wont stop growing :(
your body obviously wants you to stay male. mine got smaller, sorry :^)
I ate the whole pizza.
>>6122243
you're okay =]
>>6122228
Hips of a 9 year old here.
I'm 5'4" it makes me a hon because proportionally I'm like a tall man skeleton just squashed down, it emphasizes the bad points. I can't have a waist because there's like no space between ribs and hips.
>>6122230
Talking about it is hard. If I were her though I'd be really glad and proud of you for asking here to get advice.
There probably isn't a whole lot you cash do to help her right now, but if you do get the courage to talk to her make sure you tell her you want to do what you can and that you want to stay in her life.
>>6122225
Probably just your hair/this picture making your face look long and boyish. You still pass though, so don't worry.
>>6122222
incredible get
>>6122239
Don't decide on your own that "not even surgery can correct this" without input from other people. Killing yourself is a dumb move if you don't try everything else possible beforehand.
>>6122247
stop being so kaylaish
>>6122251
this face is so slavic it makes me want to put on an ushanka and slavsquat with two bottles of vodka in both of my hands
>>6122210
>>6122228
I recall it being Denmark.
>>6122226
Have you looked through your childhood photo album in the past four months? I used to think I was pretty ugly as a child, but then I looked through my pictures and realized I wasn't really all that masculine. Look thdough your photos; dig them out of wherever they're stored.
>>6122254
No, at least i don't really know
But you're not that bad
A bit more time on e and probably longer hair you could easily pass
>>6122259
>That incident in December really seems to have left its mark
desu I think I am just not delusional anymore
>>6122255
>5'4
lemme guess, you arent on hrt yet or something?
Alright mtfg, I know that I pass for normies, but what about you gals?
>>6122247
22 is young? I started HRT at 21, and I was out for way longer.
>>6122267
You went from being fine day to day to being consumed by something that other people aren't pointing out. I think that means you got more delusional.
>>6122270
Sorry that my webcam is shit.
>>6122270
How about taking a picture where we can actually see your face
>>6122267
On the contrary, it seems like it's created a wound where there wasn't one before.
>>6122259
Then be a amazon, a proud amazon warrior princess
Now get your skimpy armor and show those unathletic sissies
(While i hide at home in the safety of my home still hating my body)
>>6122255
I guess that last bit's really important I mean I just figured it's expected I'd always be around but at some point i do have to vocalise and say that I'll always be around because I choose to be.
When we were young and as a boy he told me he was trans it was just like a thing I was aware of now seeing all these changes and how all her relationships are changing it makes sense that it's something i need to say. Kind of shocked by the amount people who would turn their back on a person over this.
>>6122237
/femgen/ crossposters unite!
>>6122238
true
the japanese honour sincerity more than success though right? I think we should have more of that
you can't fault me for trying
>>6122241
>>Just wear even more revealing clothes, challenge them, make them be envous of YOU
>imagining myself following this advice
>this fuckin face in daisy dukes and shit
nah comfy chavvy tracksuits and huge baggy hoodies it is senpai
>>6122281
You don't put in any effort at all
>>6122270
Cant see your face but also to determine whether you pass I need to see your gait, hear your voice, smell your scent, observe your mannerisms
this is no easy call.
From what I see I couldn't say, it's just a still but Id put you around mid scale between girl/boy leaning toward boy
>>6122280
Definitely talk to her, especially if her other friends and family are leaving her. She probably needs it a lot right now. Especially if you were the first or one of the first ones she told.
>>6122260
the difference between me and kayla is that I know it's not right to let jealousy turn into aggression
seeing people doing so much better than me makes me ache but I'm not about to lash out at them for me
it's me who is defective, not them
>>6122270
it's young compared to whenever I'll be able to afford surgeries
>>6122281
Robin, have you ever been at a point where you've felt you had nothing to lose?
>>6122277
Red teach me how to be a cute retard instead of a gross one
>>6122270
I can't really see and desu the little I see reminds me of
>>6122279
>showing this back off in public
https://unsee
cc/potebusi/
>>6122290
*teleports behind you*
Huh youre pretty good at detecting trannys kid *unseaths masamune* but youre no match for meeeEEAAAAH!
>>6122291
yeah, I'll get off my butt. Thanks for the talk though anon, i've needed to bounce these thoughts with someone for a while.
Maybe i'll report back, thanks anon you're a good noodle
>>6122268
To put it another way, I'd definitely think you were cis if I didn't already know you were trans :3
>>6122272
Are you on hormones, have you even gotten an consultation for ffs?
Also, if you're t-raging hard enough to call your mother a whore and and a bitch for "hugboxing," then you need to get anti-androgens in you asap.
How to pass? ;_;
>>6122302
Yeah but you cut out your freakishly large hips that cancel out your shoulders
>>6122308
<3 you sound like a better noodle than me anon. I would love to have a friend who cares about me as much as you seem to care about yours.
Good luck!
>>6122302
I imagined worse
It's not that bad
>tfw probably aced my final
>tfw that means dean's list again
>tfw start my internship next week that pays a nice salary so I can save up money
>tfw had my last therapy appointment of the semester
>tfw everything's finally going well
>>6122303
I'm glad you picked that up :P
>>6122282
>I just don't take good care of myself
but you could just start now, and Id outhon you immediately :3
>>6122274
I was never fine day to day, but admittedly way closer than I am now.
I dont know if that makes me more delusional, I just think I believed my families hugboxing too much.
>>6122278
maybe that as well, but I think it should be there. What upset me wasnt that they pointed out that I am disgusting, what makes me sad is that theyre right
>>6122315
I dont see what that has to do with anything. men fuck everything.
>you will never pass
>you will never know what you look like
>you will never be brave enough to kill yourself
>>6122302
Honestly that back is just weight. Keep up with the diet and exercise and you'll be fine
>>6122320
>I dont see what that has to do with anything. men fuck everything.
you don't see how being able to get a boyfriend has anything to do with living your life as a girl ?
>you will never have a friend
>you will never get killed when going outside tomorrow
>>6122311
That is so sweet thank you. Id kiss you if i could
>>6122297
I think some of your posts are cute, and your more recent pics had you looking better! Whatever you'r doing already is probably working ^-^
>>6122312
Effort, hormones, makeup, confidence, ffs, practice.
>>6122317
Good for you! I'm glad things are going well with you, I'm probably about to lose my scholarship and I'm not even sure if I'll have a job in the summer x.x
>>6122322
>>you will never know what you look like
Are you blind, anon? Also, I'm sure you'll pass someday, don't give up already!
You're a good girl for not killing yourself *headpats*
>>6122282
Winter is the best season. I love being able to bundle up, it's comfy.
>>6122313
They don't cancel out the hulking shape..
>>6122316
Please, it's a manback if there ever was one.
>>6122320
You're not disgusting! They're completely wrong and I really wish there was a way to make you see that.
>>6122323
Some of it is, but I don't think all of it is.
>>6122295
If you mean regarding suicide, the fear of hurting those I care about has been what has prevented me doing it up to this point, so I guess no, I've always felt I've had that to lose if nothing else. What context?
>>6122332
I am your friend
>>6122320
Mmmm I think that would just make it more apparent that I'm top hon
Also
>What upset me wasnt that they pointed out that I am disgusting, what makes me sad is that theyre right
They really aren't. All this hon contest posting aside I think you're being way too hard on yourself.
>>6122337
we all have man rib cages and shoulders
>tfw finally off work
>>6122332
I want to be your friend anon. :)
>>6122323
>tfw loads of back fat
>tfw it just won't fucking shift even though fat redistribution has kicked in
>>6122337
>Some of it is, but I don't think all of it is
The VAST majority is.
Go full anorexic mode. You'll see. It looks very strong, like you'd been lifting on a high protein diet.
brahs, it's chasin time
>>6122336
>don't give up already
>3 years hrt and still can't pass
And yes I am blind, I literally have no idea what I look like and what is I see in the mirror changes every day.
I do look like a man though or I would get gendered female ever : )
>>6122340
Sure you are.
>>6122300
A widows peak isn't masculine, senpai. You only look so fucked up to yourself because your parents were probably pieces of shit that didn't allow you to grow your hair out. If you had long hair, I am sure you wouldn't worry about it.
I'm not sure what you're indicating wifh the eyes. Are they like Steve Buscemi's?
Your nose is a bit of guesswork, but it doesn't look like there's anything seriously wrong with its shape.
At least you had big lips for a white boy. So you know your bf would love getting some bjs from you. :DDDD
Maybe your ears were a little lower than they should have been, but your head is also tilted up. So I can't be sure.
Were you a bit fat in this photo?
hi its frog
>>6122300
>>6122325
This is retarded, I can't see shit fambly e.e
And you should see how Kayla used to look compared to how she looks now, hormones are amazing things and surgery can produce even more drastic changes. Giving up is stupid, and I'm getting the feeling that most of your self-hate is coming from rampant testosterone. You'll be more reasonable with that gone, and if you're going to kill yourself anyway you should at least try anti-androgens to see if they make you feel better. If nothing else they'll make you a more pleasant person for everybody around you before you off yourself.
>>6122332
We could be friends!
>>6122333
*blushes*
Aww, you're welcome! Nice trips too!
>>6122346
Welcome home Korra!
>>6122353
It always is isnt it? Thankfully i know no chasers irl
>>6122337
It's just muscular and a bit fatty, loose Some weight and your back'll look better
You're a cute girl and your back isn't that much of a problem
>>6122346
>tfw on break but almost off
>>6121945
Theses wounds they will not heal
>>6122362
One one, two twos, three threes!
>>6122349
edgy, but actually no I wasn't talking about family
>>6122324
>you don't see how being able to get a boyfriend has anything to do with living your life as a girl ?
no. ive met other hons with bfs. its not hard.
>>6122337
thanks <3 ;~;
Ilu <2
>>6122342
I think I am just realistic.
>>6121951
Undercover Nazi?
>>6122373
At least facewise you totally look like a girl
I've never seen a pic of your body though
>>6122276
>>6122290
>>6122299
My webcam is shit, and I'm really bad at taking pictures with my phone. This is about the best I can do.
>>6122380
Nice shoulders brah
>>6122373
why would you care if you are a "hon" when you have a boyfriend ?
>>6122380
you pass and are cute
I just got back from a shoot with Christian.
ask me anything
>>6122349
I can understand what you're saying, but the idea is that you're supposed to care for them because they raised you. They care for you because you're a form of immortality for the last few generations that contributed to your genome, which includes them.
>>6122350
Work it off or get liposuction I guess lmao.
You've never looked fat to me, if it means anything to you.
>>6122355
Get somebody to help you with makeup, force a smile, get a friend or family member to work it through with you to improve your appearance and femininity as much as possible. Also, check that your levels are right and consider ffs, I guess. See a therapist about your lack of ability to recognize yourself, unless it's already a diagnosed physical brain thingie.
>>6122359
OH MY GOSH!
hi frog.
My friend wants to hang out but im ugly and i dont want to be murdered so i guess im not doing anything today.
>>6122387
no you did not
/asked you everything
>>6122380
Yeah I could see passing with non-transpeople . I mean I think you pass pretty well but there is something about your face and the way you're wearing that stands out in a trans way. You still look related to Chris from Fear the Walking Dead lol Audition be the long lost sister they find in Mexico.
>>6122373
>I think I am just realistic
I've only seen that one unsee pic that you've posted but I don't think you are being close to realistic. I'll put it this way: I don't know what you looked like pre transition, but I can't even imagine what you looked like before based on that picture. I think that's a pretty good sign of not being a hon
I don't know what your family said but just remember that we're our own worst critics, and family is always the second worst. Their vision is just as clouded as yours because they also knew you as a guy for so long. They really shouldn't factor into your self perception.
>>6122379
I wish ;-;
>>6122384
cause I dont want people to stare at me in public. thats NOT fun. I am not strong enough endure that forever. and yes, I know the difference between checking out and 'ew whats wrong with that thing?'
>>6122349
B-but bacteria actually create colonies together and cooperate.
t. bacteria pro
>>6122389
My tranny shrink asked if I needed professional help with my self view or whatever it's called.
Makeup wouldn't help this man face and smiling to pass is the worst meme.
I just want to die tbhon.
ganja is a hon's best friend desu
got some Candy Kush recently, imported straight from California, what's everyone else got atm?
