When did ya find out you were lgbt?
I discovered I was trans when I was 10 after the episode of Buffy The Vampire Slayer, when Zander was forced into a bra.
In an improv summer camp when I was like 15 I felt myself growing really attached to this one boy faster than I ever had before, I didn't really understand it. We ended up always pairing up our characters when we could, and one time we played a game where you secretly choose who else in the group you'll treat as either sexy, scary, or funny. We both chose each other as sexy and like furiously cuddled and laughed on the prop couch for the whole scene. I immediately new that a straight person wouldn't have enjoyed that as much as I did.
After over two years of fantasizing about him and dating him after that (seriously I have never had a crush that strong on any girl or boy,) I finally slept over at his house one time, where I learned he was straight.
Fuck my shit up, chaps.
heh, mine's really short.
In the 4th grade I had a dream that my friend and I were naked in his bed. I woke up and realized that I felt the same way about him that I'd been feeling about some of the girls in my class. bi male.
>be born male
>gender swap Halloween party in my late teens
>go all out and look pretty qt imo
>everyone was pretty half assed about it
>gave me grief for taking it too seriously.
>dad looked really dissappointed
>left early
>cried
>a lot
>came to 4chan learned what a trans person was
>that's me
>take hormones become gross
Wanked off to anal porn a lot
then occasionally the butts would be guys butts and that stopped bothering me as time went on.
Then I saw guys irl as sex objects just as I saw women and then as time went on I was enjoying looking at the dainty kind of guy a lot more.
Daydreaming about wrangling them in bed and so on.
"It's not gay it's a power fantasy" i'd say
>>6096989
I first consciously realised I wanted to be a man at 17. Since childhood I had routinely been imagining myself as a man (you know, like when you picture your future self), and I never really made a connection with the fact that that image could never correspond with my body. Once I got a bit older, teenage years, I was deeply unhappy and felt I didn't fit in (probably because I went to an all girl's school). During this time, I used to sort of reflect on what sort of things would make me happy, like, if I lived somewhere else, if I was friends with X group of people at school (didn't have many friends at this point), and one of the things I thought about was if I'd have been a man. So, I guess that's the first time I thought about it, but it wasn't in a trans way. All my childhood friends had been boys at my first school and I suppose a part of that was I felt I would have got to stay with them and not go to all girls school, so like I say, the first time I 'consciously' realised I was trans was at 17. By this time I'd got some friends and we were friends with a group of guys and I'd begun to discover my sexuality a bit more. My friends were very accepting of the fact I didn't conform to the 'feminine' stereotypes and never made any objections to me doing more 'masculine' things and I guess that environment helped me realise what it was that I wanted. It then all came together and it clicked and I knew what I wanted was to be a man, but I also thought there was nothing I could do about it. To me, the only notion of transsexual was the hon - it didn't even occur to me that one could take testosterone. So I did nothing about it and made peace with the fact I had a great group of friends and got on with my life for a little while.
>>6097014
sorry, lad
I think I'll figure out this Friday. This boy I've been talking to who doesnt identify as a gender and looks pretty feminine (5'2, wears leggings, girly soft hair, and makeup too) has had my interest for quite awhile now and makes me feel pretty fucking gay. We had been chatting and decided to hangout for tomorrow, we planned to smoke/drink and just talk the shit for awhile and then he asked if he was staying at my place for the night. I told him he could and basically now have high hopes to fuck, but I always want to shy away because I'm not sure if I'm 100% gay. What I mean but that is I've never done anything with another guy and think that how I feel about him now is just a sexual urge that'll go away after we do whatever. He's really nice and I don't want to be just another asshole who takes advantage and hurts him, any opinions?
>>6098169
go for it faggot, i want to murder your lucky ass. its so hard to find a guy I like, and when I do it never works out :(
>>6098169
Wanting a boy who looks like a girl isnt very gay. Gay general would call you straight.
>>6096989
tfw cannot get any closeness due to inability to relate to boys and excluded from the girls' circle @ 7+
tfw have unexplainable instinctive desire to snip off the penis+testes @ 9
tfw no period, no vagina, still have penis @ 11
tfw try to man up with a older male role model only to feel fake and something's different from within but cannot pinpoint the problem @ 12
tfw want to be the wife, child bearer and raiser of a handsome male teacher in middle school, envy the f out of that girl who spent more time with him than I can, only to discover he's already married @ 12-13
tfw thought will eventually grow up to be a girl except voice broken, dreams shattered when puberty hit @ 13+
tfw don't feel the same attraction to girls when boys talk about girls @ 13
tfw got made fun of for not thinking in-line with boys @ 13
tfw cannot relate to boys at all unless it is related to video games @ 15
tfw girl character is easier to self insert myself, more immersible than boy character in mmo @ 15+
tfw cannot relate to a male classmate's fap material and the idea of dating+sexing a girl @ 18-19
tfw felt horrible as a guy, looked up SRS in college multiple times, grades failed horribly, cannot concentrate and eventually dropped out
tfw envy how female co-workers can freely express themselves while i have to suppress just to not be made fun of
tfw female co-workers can talk to me about their feelings but i can't do it in reverse since they see me as man and men are supposed to be manly and don't have the same preferences as them females without being looked as some kind of fetish
tfw parents dgaf about your feelings and future, focusing on having their grandkids, why i'm not a manly man doing manly things, loving manly things when they literally took my savings I intended for SRS
>>6098169
u sure hes not trans?
When I was 15 I was still heavily delusional about being a 'normal straight guy' yet still found myself roleplaying as a girl talking to older men on the internet, having a lot of fondness for certain boys at school, (which looking back i was obviously crushing) stealing my mums clothes and realising that I would rather have been born as a girl, yet didn't really worry about that other than making sure absolutely no one found out.
I got to 17 and finally got the courage to meet an older guy for real, I went to his house and basically got naked while he did things to me (I was so nervous and weirded out). Afterwards I walked off into the woods and cried my heart out for how fucked up and disgusting I was for being this way.
I didn't fuck anyone else other than girls until I was 20 and finally stopped trying to fit in as a normal guy and fully explored who I was. I went on a crazy slut spree, bought hormones and now I am a tranny finally happy with who I am.
Had desire to be a girl since I was like 5 or 6 years old, but just thought it was some weird quirk. When I got older and started masturbating I couldn't cum unless I imagined myself as a girl getting fucked by a man. I tried so hard to envision myself as a male fucking a girl, but it just didn't "click" for me. I was still attracted to the female form, so I thought I was bisexual. It wasn't until I was like 22 that it finally hit me that I'm actually trans, and needed to get a hold of my life and be the person I always wanted to be. I'm 25 now and it's working out pretty well.
Always felt like I was weird since I was very little, developed something similar to PCOS when I began puberty and started growing facial hair, getting a deeper voice but actually liked it. I always felt like I wanted to be a boy/eventually a man but thought all girls felt this way.
Eventually (I was around 12/13) I made friends with a guy online (he was 4/5 years older than me) who told me that he was ftm transgender and I realized that it was actually possible.
Fast forward to now, 7 years later, my life is a fucking mess. Almost wish he never told me and I would have just been quietly depressed until I eventually had a breakdown twenty years down the line.
> age 5 was pretty sure i'd be a woman when i grew up
> ask my mum if boys ever become women somehow and she says "oh... yeah... i think there have been a few boys who have done that...."
>have no idea what "done that" means but know that will be me one day
> somewhere between then and teen years, become aware of trans people in media
> oh... thats just men with breast implants in dresses... thats what my mum meant?... oh... nope... not for me... whats the point?
> 11-14 secretly identify as lesbian
> 14-18 grow hair long, wear make up and girls clothes
> convince myself i'm ok being a boy bc i will never not look like one and i can still wear what i want/do what i want/like what i like
> cant see a point in hormones and think i don't have dysphoria
> guess i cant really even be trans if i dont have dysphoria right?
> 20 - perhaps estrogen would make my brain feel ok? i definitely have a girl brain and maybe it needs estrogen to not be depressed? is that a thing? no? hrt just has physical effects right? actually those effects all seem p good but still... whats the point really... its not gonna help me
> 24 - maybe i should transition... but i dont even have dysphoria! i'm fine as i am...
>oh no... wait... i tried to kill myself a couple times in the past couple years and have been suicidal since my pre-teens... hmm..
>comes out as trans
>>6098202
Yea I'm just gonna see where it goes, I have a feeling in the bottom of my stomach that when we kiss I'll accept im a faggot
>>6098226
He's not trying to look like a girl and it's very clear he's not trans, he wears leggings plus makeup on his eyebrows and that's it, so I wouldn't say he's trans and either does he
I can post a picture of him
>>6098946
when /lgbt/ tries to green text you can literally see the mental illness in their writing
>>6098991
It all depends on just how feminine he is. Post pix.
>>6099096
>those trannies are all mentally ill!!
>oh look at the time, pride starts in an hour. i better put my assless leather chaps on and clean my boipucci out for all the bareback cock i'll be taking today
>>6099270
Where as trannies do all that same shit and are mentally ill on top
>>6099068
He legit looks a guy, which isn't a bad thing, he's the only guy I've ever felt this way about and I find his masculine plus feminine features all very attractive. You would think he's a girl from the back tho since he has a petite body, girly hair, and espically if he has leggings on amirite
>>6099408
I'd think he was a girl from the front too, fuck.
>>6096989
Bender is a hon
>>6099270
>>those trannies are all mentally ill!!
>>oh look at the time, pride starts in an hour. i better put my assless leather chaps on and clean my boipucci out for all the bareback cock i'll be taking today
Yes, I do believe gender dysphoria is a mental illness and homosexuality is not.
>"A mental disorder, also called a mental illness or psychiatric disorder, is a diagnosis of a behavioral or mental pattern that can cause suffering or a poor ability to function in ordinary life."
>Does having gender dysphoria cause suffering or a poor ability to function in ordinary life?
Yes... It causes suffering to ones psychological wellbeing. If not treated properly, it can be extremely harmful to their mental state so therefore it should be considered and treated as one.
>Does homosexuality cause suffering or a poor ability to function in ordinary life?
No... Despite the contrary, being attracted to dudes instead of chicks does not directly cause any suffering or any poor ability to function in ordinary life.
But NO, obviously anyone who is an ICKY-ICKY GAY-GAY is MENTALLY ILL because GEY BUTTSECKS AND NOT BEING ATTRACTED TO GIRLS IS DISGUSTING!!1!
You stereotyping homosexuals by taking some of the most promiscuous flaming faggots of our community who go to pride parades and decide themselves to shove their sexuality into other peoples faces does not change anything about what I've just said. Even the majority of us are not all like that, the "flamboyancy" shit is picked up and learnt.
After all, I don't enjoy being associated with these flamers but how the fuck does even expressing themselves in a flamboyant way make them mentally ill?
>>6099483
Cheers I plan on making him my beautiful bf! He's been growing his facial hair out lately so that momakes him look pretty guyish.
yea but I'm really gracious that he thinks so highly of me, which I think is because I'm just your standard straight normal looking guy that is head over heals and totally accepting of him (we live in a small southern town, so he isn't too popular). it's weird how I've gone from "not so sure about this" to "let's fucking fuck" in such short time..
>>6099408
We have the same phone and I don't use any case either. fuck him good and with love anon.
>>6099529
I'm really glad I got /lgbt/s opinion on this, I was thinking about seeing him tonight so I could tell him how I feel. Basically I've been 100% sure he feels that way about me since we started talking, but I wasn't sure how I feel about him and to be honest I'm still not so sure. Right now I really want to see him and just be with him, but I fear I wont feel that way after we bang. Could I get some help on how I should handle myself?
>>6099506
woah fag i just fucking around, don't take it so personally
>>6099548
Just smash the BP and be done with it.
So, as I understand it, you feel you just want to fuck and be done with it but he is looking for something more?
>>6099582
>don't take it so personally
Thanks but I don't really worry what someone as sad as you thinks about me
Also, why are you here? Just some "straight" guy shitposting on /lgbt/ because you have nothing better to do with your life ): ?
>>6099635
>spergs out over a shitpost on the internet
>>Thanks but I don't really worry what someone as sad as you thinks about me
>>6099680
You still haven't answered my question :^)
Are you a fag yourself?
>>6099703
>You still haven't answered my question :^)
I know, I'm not obliged to
>>6099712
I'm going to go ahead and assume you're just some fag trying to project their insecurities on others.
Have a nice day, Anon! :^)
>>6099721
>you're just some fag trying to project their insecurities on others
now that's just offensive, you can't just say shit like that on the internet
>>6097014
you only found out you were a faggot AFTER signing up to an "improv summer camp"?
>be like 6-7ish
>over at grandma's house with all my cousins (have heaps of cousins, 11 uncles/aunties)
>I usually hang out with the girls because I didn't like playing soccer/cricket
>Do a fashion show sort of thing (three people as judges, give a theme, dress up to match theme ie: Swimmer, Dancer ect...)
>Grandma has heaps of dress-ups
>mostly dresses/female clothes
>eventually wear a cute black and red dress
>whenever I put it on my dick got really hard (which I thought just meant I had to pee, but it didn't go away)
>I would try and get my penis to soften up but It just wouldn't happen
>didn't stop me dressing up though
>later when I've done it for a while I tell mum I wanted to be a girl (She seems to not remember this)
>Skip forward to about 11-12 ish
>Google "Forced to wear a dress" (probably from memories of doing plays with the girls where I would dress in a leotard ect..)
>Discover a world of sissy fetishists
>Eventually start masturbating to this sort of stuff.
>always justify to myself that the feelings go away after I'm done
>But slowly and surely I realise that they don't (and I know that it wasn't a fetish because I've always had a low libido, never been able to masterbate more than once a day, and even then I would do it like once a week)
>When I'm about 14 I start thinking I'm trans because the feelings of wanting to be in a dress never go away.
>It develops even more, start getting really jealous of girls who can just be themselves without judgement.
>I didn't really understand, but there was something really different to being a real girl, and then being a feminine guy, and I want that so much
>More things like wanting to be a mum, wanting to go to a dance with a nice guy as the girl
>Have memories of going to a social, where everyone is danceing (Really badly) and I leave crying becuase I couldn't take my eyes off the girls
>Come out as basically gay, no one gives a fuck
Cont
>>6100236
Cont
>Come out to mum as transgender
>She freaks the fuck out
>Starts asking if I like it because I like wearing dresses
>I tell her I don't, And Its because I've really wanted to be a girl, its not the same as being a femme guy ect (half truth, I like wearing dresses, but by then I was just putting them on and twirling and just being pretty, don't really masturbate to sissy porn anymore, I have other fetishes for that)
>She suddenly says "You're just like your father"
>turns out my dad is a sissy fetishist has a suitcase of clothes he dresses up in
>The year I basically try to convince mum that it's not a fetish
>Then I have to convince myself that it's not a fetish, Which I do, it doesn't do anything for me now, I still want to be pretty, but it's a very different feeling from my other fetishes
>Try to convince therapists, get diagnosed with body identity disorder
>I have a hard time doing it, but people finally believe me (my mum kept saying I "didn't show any signs")
>Get on 100mg spiro around 15ish
>Delay full hormones till I was like 17-18 and in the last year of school
>Been on hormones for about 4 months now (turned 18 a few weeks ago)
tl;dr Thought I was a sissy, turns out I'm trans
>>6099408
Looks like Arya Stark took T for a couple months. I dunno anon, it's iffy. I think you're gay.
>>6099391
>implying bug chasing and looking for your father in relationships with older men isn't a sign of mental illness
When have you ever seen a tranny in assless chaps at pride?
>>6100407
Yes, because all gay men bugchase, are into that pathetic DOM daddy culture, go to pride parades and wear assless chaps. (:
>>6100423
yeah lucky me I guess, still doesn't really help that I am genetically super manly and 6'1.
I don't know how effective all this was, but I am glad that I didn't really go through puberty (never grown hair on my face, ect..)
>>6100422
And all trannies are SJWs triggered at the mention of bathrooms, dresses like a hooker, or looks to call people unattracted to them transphobic. :)
>>6100444
aRE YOU TRANS?
i found out at 19, and im pretty sure i started to act trans or turned trans at 18.
I feel pretty bad about it, to be around tru-trans people and not be tru-trans, I feel like im just pretending or that i may just be a filthy fetishist or AGP
>>6100444
i'M GOING TO GO AHEAD AND ASSUME YOUR TRANS. tHESE ARE NOT THE REASONS WHY SOME OF US THINK YOU ARE MENTALLY ILL ANYWAY.
>>6100481
thanks, nobody have ever treated me bad for it, not even my trans friends who are clearly trutrans, still i feel unsure about all this
>>6100598
And not all trannies are mentally unstable is my point.
>>6100602
I was initially going on the perspective how gender dysphoria can affect someone mentally, but yeah I do kind of agree with you now.
>>6100236
>>6100289
Op here, and this is the closet story that happened to me.
>Be 10 year old me
>Not interested in boy stuff or girl stuff, but watch tv and play vidya
>Started Buffy the Vampire Slayer with my sister
>Zander gets shoved into bra
>Sister laughing, I feel weird
> At night I sneak into sisters room
>Grab bra, underwear, lipstick, and dress
>Run back to my room, try everything on
>Feel to tingling in stomach
> Take it off, hide clothes, repeat every so often
>Jump to 13
>Discover trap/sissy porn
>Still have sisters clothes
>Fap in it, convinced I have a fetish
>Learn makeup
>Get a wig
>Kinda passable
>Realize stomach feeling is still there
>Start feeling jealous over sister for having boobs
>Stop Fapping
>Google trans
>oh shit that's me
>Be 16 ask to see a therapist
>Be 17 ask for hormones, therapist agrees, mom doesn't
>Be 18 start them anyway
>Be 19, 6 months HRT, not full time, but get called "she," and "ma'am," boymode
>Feels good man
>>6099010
I'm curious, why are you here if you think we're mentally ill?
The feeling would be mutual if you're straight and have nothing better to do.
>>6099603
Yes I think I'm the only guy in town who's talked to him about hooking up so he's pretty into me. I ended up telling him how I feel not long ago and we talked about how great it was to meet each other and feel the mutual love for eacother too. He's literally an angel that I had the lucky chance to meet, my perfect vision for a partner. I'm pretty sure I won't be feeling unattracted after we hook up and instead will just embrace being a faggot the second i pick him up. update tomorrow after we hangout I'll green text if it's a hot experience (can I do that on a blue board?) and will post more pics of him too
>>6100678
not all lgbt is mentally ill, often they are all very functioning normal social people. But don't try to say that some which are mostly trans arent fucking bonkers! The person I was referring to clearly has something wrong with them, you can see it, the crazyinrss in a persons writing espically on an anonymous board where they feel like saying what's on the deep part of their mind.But I was saying unlike real trans people who are actually the opposite gender because of whatever happened during birth, can and will actually be normal fucking people who don't have some crazy disorder that makes them want to be trans for whatever insane reason that we sane people cant understand. Just agree with me that some people and honestly a very few that identify as trans are a few screws loose, yea?
>once upon a time, be me, 13 years old
>always hanging for parents to go out so i can dress in my mothers lingerie
>start fucking myself with her dildos
>start stealing knickers from the neighbours washing line so i can wear them to school without mum knowing her lingerie is missing
>start shaving my legs, people at school begin calling me a faggot, stop doing it.
>constantly getting toilet pass so i can jerk off to the cute boys and girls.
>people still tell me i'm cute, makes me smile and feel so good inside
>my best friend moves to another school
>i am crushed but we still hang out after school
>so lonely without him
>i do anything to make him happy - prank phone calls for his amusement, basketball (even though i hated it), download and burn mp3s for him on my 1x cd burner.
>he is straight btw
>we finish high school
>he suggests we join the gym
>"ok, whatever"
>i start lifting weights
>start gaining muscle, tell myself this is what i want, i get to spend time with my bestie.
>bestie tells me how i need to get on creatine, protein, eat bigger meals.
>follow his instruction and i blow up in size
>not sure i like this but whatever.
>bestie meets a girl
>bestie joins the police force
>i start going out with girls because it is what is expected of me
>i enjoy fucking women but things always turn weird when i finally get the guts to ask if it's cool if i dress up and they fuck me. >failed relationship afted failed relationship.
>bestie finally gets married
>has kids
>find myself with no friends and not sure what to do with myself because my life revolved around him
>i guess i will keep going to the gym and lifting, i dont know what else to do.
>it's been a long time since we even talked let alone seen each other
>bestie last logged into steam 5 years ago.
>turn 30
>think what have i done to myself, i've destroyed my body
>i never wanted this, i just wanted to make my bestie happy
>quit lifting, start dropping weight
>tfw it is too late, the damage is done.
>>6101775
Get hormones, don't be a faggot
>>6101775
well If it's just a fetish then thats great, get a fetlife and find someone willing to dominate you and dress you up... if you are trans however, then even if you get on hormones it wont be as good as before, but if you delay then you will definantly regret it more than if you transition today
>>6101806
>>6101832
That's like putting gregor clegane on hrt, what's it gonna do? I guess at least no-one would call him hon to his face. I'm not near as big as him, but you get my point I am sure.
I don't know what I am desu. I like girls, I like cute femboys, I like some men, but I've never actually been with anyone but a woman. I don't like traps if they can pass but I know they're a trap (if I didn't know, that's fine, just a woman in my eyes).
I actually started lifting again about a year ago, I don't enjoy doing (does help with anxiety and depression though) but I don't know what else to do with myself. I've considered going on T in the hope it would make the girly thoughts go away and just make me a straight cis male mountain.
>>6096989
Hey, its gender bender. Kek
>>6101849
Sadly T is just going to make it worse on you.
You know, hormones can make you feel a lot better even without passing. You won't age like a man. You'll have a lot of your masculinity melt away. You might even become cute, for a boy. Being a cute boy is a lot better than being a manly man when you just want to be cute and feminine and girly :/.
Nothing says you need to go all the way and transition. You might find out that getting a little cute is all you needed. It'll be no worse than what you're feeling now.
>>6099757
I should have picked up on the evidence sooner
>>6101949
You're probably right, but I don't know. Despite not wanting to be masculine, it's really the only thing that I have in my life that is mine that I allow people to see, if that makes sense. I don't want it but it's all that I've got.
I tried talking to my doctor (without explaining why I would want T to try and make the girl thoughts and feelings go away forever) and the best I could get out of him was bloodwork which showed my T levels are normal for my age, so I couldn't even get a referal to an endo to try and get T legally. It wouldn't be hard to get from gym contacts though.
Maybe it just sounds crazy but I just want to try because if it'd make my thoughts/feelings stop, I would probably then be happy to remain a masculine man. I'm not sold on the idea other hormones would help, I'd kill myself if I ended up looking like a Brianna Wu.
>around 5-10 years old
>pray every night to god that I would wake up as a girl
>fantasize/daydream constantly about waking up as a girl
>crossdress sometimes
>thought all this was normal
>around 12/13 realize it's not normal to wish I was a girl and that most guys like being guys
>learn about hormones and stuff around 15/16
>nah I'm not trans
>at 18 realize I'm probably trans
>19 now, waiting for arbitrary time to kill myself
qB^)
>>6102093
Who knows? I do know I will never know, and it sucks. It is the most horrible feeling in the world. I didn't even really understand how I felt until well into my 20s, maybe 25, but I knew to always keep quiet. I was pretty naive even as young adult but I came from a pretty religious family as well.
Younger folk are lucky in that the internet has provided them a means to become informed at a much younger age, I'm happy for them, sometimes it is hard not to feel jealous and full of envy though.
Knowing what I know now, I would've spoken to someone about these issues at 12-13. My bestie, afaik, was straight as an arrow and I suspect he cut ties with me once word got back to him from my ex-gfs telling his gf and then wife (we shared a social circle) what I wanted to do with them... only speculating, but it was rather abrupt.
>>6102051
That's the thing though. Many have tried this before you, even doctors - and it has failed. That's why trannies are given estrogen and AAs now instead of test. They are all that does work. Save yourself a lot of damage, time, money, and pain, and just try the grill pills.
You will feel better on them, and they're not going to make you look like a freak unless you make yourself look like a freak by not trying to look normal. Keep hair in a male cut, keep wearing male clothes, and you're going to keep looking male, particularly with your settings, no offense.
Or just go take the testosterone and find out the hard way that I'm right.
I never knew what it was at early ages, I just know that when I was 7-8 I told a lie around school that I was originally born a girl, but this magic orb that I pointed (It was in this caged area no one ever went to) and it turned me into a boy.
At 13 I realized what trans was and tred to find ways to become a woman. I then went into maximum repression until 18. I finally came to terms at 22 when I saw the episode of Steven Universe with Stevonnie and the dialogue although simple really hit me hard. I realized that I will never stop being trans and figured that I better start now or it'll get worse. Started Hormones a year ago and here I is now.1yr HRT and socially full-time.
>>6100236
>(She seems to not remember this)
My mom is like that too. She seems to have forgotten when I used to always want to play with her hair, ask to grow out my own hair and paint my nails. She did a clear top coat once, but that was it.
Now she pretend none of that ever happened and that I act very manly even post transition.
>Starts asking if I like it because I like wearing dresses
>(my mum kept saying I "didn't show any signs")
Your mom sounds exactly like my mom.
>turns out my dad is a sissy fetishist has a suitcase of clothes he dresses up in
While my dad isn't a weird fetishist to my knowledge he has crossdressed in the past mostly for laughs, and he takes a lot of care of his skin. He even asked me if taking hormones would make his skin soft like mine.
I also started hrt at the same age you did.
Good thing I never thought I was a sissy like you did. That shit always weirded me out.
>>6101652
Update and one more picture of him
Yea I decided after drinking last night that im not gonna hook up with him, I told him that I think we should just be friends and he was pretty mad at me (this is the second rain check I've made for hooking up) i recognize that im a shitty person, not that any of you would know since this is a anonymous website, but I figured I'd cut off the head of my feelings that I know aren't true before I did anything serious and regret it. Basically I'm a huge faggot who can't come to terms with who he is because I know I'll just hurt the people in my life that I take too far, I was never suppose to have any serious commitment with anyone I believe. I want to live alone from now on and not have any effect in people's lives. This is my all time low
>Find Gender Bender comics and stuff when I was about 10
>Roleplayed in Habbo as a girl for a while
>12 years old, I start feeling jealousy of girls and start becoming an apathetic asshole, didn't think much of it, thought I was just a dick and the attraction was just a fetish
>15 years old find out what trans means and about HRT and all that jazz, come out to parents
>Parents tell me to wait until I'm 18
>Convinced my dad to at least let me get anti androgens at 16 years old, had to stop after a while but it helped a little bit
>Turned 18 and started full HRT
I guess I'm lucky.
>>6103800
Are you happy with how you look?
>>6096989
Around when I was 15 I looked up what "why do I feel like gril????" And found out transgender wasn't having a dick and a vagina
I realized I was bi when I wanted to be fucked in the ass by men, but still liked women as well.
I realized I was trans when I started getting jealous of cis girls because I was becoming more masculine from puberty and they were feminine and I wasn't.
>>6103672
ffs dude, wanting to fuck a femboy doesn't make you gay. You're probably bi. Just stop overthinking it so much. Fuck him if you want, don't if you don't want to.
If your family or whoever won't like it, don't tell them. Or just tell them to fuck off.
