Repression edition
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Previous beard >>6085694
Daily reminder that if you did not pass before hrt
you will not pass after hrt.
>>6086781
source?
>>6086715
eugh, fiiine.
It's just so hard to be patient about this stuff sometimes.
Thanks anyway though
>>6086781
>tfw no passing
>>6086768
that's good
so she is still around somewhat
Oryx?
>>6086721
>>6086749
If only repression could be this fun
>ywn never turn into a monster and kill Faye and all the other trips in San Fransisco
>>6086785
pulled from anon's gaping anus
>>6086781
pretty sure everyone knows his by now
>>6086781
I like this meme
How do you think your life will be different after your get FFS?
Or if you'very already had it, how is your life different?
>>6086781
Lmao. this is a tranny that doesn't want other people to transition because hers failed so bad. I've seen people that don't pass at all pre-transition who pass well afterwards.
I passed about 75% of the time pre-HRT. 9 months in and I pass 100% of the time.
Anon is full of shit.
>mfw I realize it's no underwear season again soon
YaY
Portland trannies, how do you get hormones? Is there a local Informed Consent clinic or what are good psychs for it?
>>6086806
I won't be a manly fuck.
>>6086806
My life isn't different
I still wanna kill myself
>>6086771
IM NOT REPRESSING IM A BOY STOP CALLING ME SHE AND HER
>tfw cypro makes you look way better after just over a week
holy shit spiro was doing bugger all for my skin compared to this stuff, my face feels softer than Trump's skull.
gonna start looking into loans to (at least partially) cover FFS once I have a stable job, see what the requirements they need are. I'm already in over £50,000 of debt from tuition fees and maintenance loans from uni so an extra 20k hanging over my head won't make much difference at this point. Cheers Tories.
>>6086824
stop posting your boobs... ;~;
>>6086824
Tarzan with gyno/5
no wonder edie has the hots for you, you are the true alpha male
>>6086781
This meme is basically why faggy boys have it easier. They actually learn about self-care before jumping the line and don't blame mones for slacking off.
>>6086818
>what will you have to say once i get my surgery
>will you still call me stephen king?
>>6086806
I'll feel better about my face
Not perfect, but lots better, enough that I can concentrate on work and hobbies instead of dysphoria without the aid of weed
>>6086824
did someone bite you
>tfw broken
>>6086824
i think ur having a mental breakdown
>>6086801
Doesn't make it a fact. Might as well claim that trannies are just pedophiles.
>>6086836
>>6086830
They're also more willing to step over the boundaries of what's considered "male" behavior and presentation even before hrt so they have less internal fear to drastically change everything.
>>6086830
this
>>6086826
Note to self. Buy cypro...
>>6086792
yep
I love that girl
even though her taste in music is somewhat questionable.
>>6086836
suicide pact when?
>>6086781
Trueeeeeee.
hrt only made me manlier.
Faye is hands down the most handsome guy here
Would seduce him/5
>>6086836
>tfw was never not-broken to start with, this is just who I am, there isn't even a 'normality' for me that I can strive to re-instate
>>6086831
Top quality meme
>>6086827
Oryx, skype pls
>>6086845
you can get it on QHI senpai
it's just not listed under the HRT section, search for it in the index
they have Androcur as well as generic
If I stop taking spiro for a month or two, would my body over produce testosterone to compensate for the low levels?? Could I become even more manly?
>>6086852
Jane with a penis, stupid Iphone
>>6086827
let's see your aspieboobs oryx
>>6086842
This is why my parents think I'm insane. I got called a faggot so many times at school that I shut everything out and got hooked on stimulants. Ignored my basic reactions to distress and need for change, just so people would leave me alone. It doesn't help much that my mom thought I was a cunt though.
>>6086860
It would likely produce less, since you're damaging your testes. I'm not sure though.
>>6086769
I guess its just my head I honestly don't know. I can't even answer that.
I havent stopped caring for her, we're not suddenly incompatible. How do i stop thinking about it then?
>>6086862
no you just look like Tarzan with tits, mate
Any tips for coping with being prehrt in calgary/ canada? i honestly dont think i can make it another year like this. Between the long waiting lists and rediculously high prices for gender therapy, how do you do it?
>>6086870
'stop bully'
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ko4Q0cgo1N8
So much...hate. Fuck I miss lifting
>>6086872
[bullying intensifies]
There has to be a way to redo your life over right? Some kind of thing after you die where you get an option to try again. I need to believe that's true.
>>6086852
>>6086864
whatvr..
I want Elanna to be my mum. Not the sick disgusting fetishist kind, I mean my actual mother.
>>6086870
Hons shouldnt be bitter
>>6086870
You got me anon, it's me
>>6086846
Give me a few years, if I'm still as much of a mess then as now let's sudoku.
Maybe love will fix me, although it generally just seems to leave me more fucked up and broken.
>>6086878
404
bobs not found
>>6086882
Hons are the most bitter. Why?
>because hon
i feel great today, like really nice good, qhi dispatched my order so my doctors can fuck around another three months before i need to buy more so i can chill a bit, hopefully it'll show up fast
>>6086771
this faggot looks me me when i was 22
>>6086826
cypro is good stuff. once you get a clinic appointment, they'll put you on lupron preferably so cypro is literally a stopgap. you won't have to worry about liver tumors later on, yay!
>>6086884
me on the left
you on the right
Give her a few days, then beg for forgiveness. If you still care about her, repeat.
> so many people recognize me
Th - thanks senpaitachi
>>6086824
Whatever you say, young lady.
>>6086884
check out that rack on that hunk, just like yours
>>6086886
I-I wasnt serious ;~;
I am not allowing you to die.
I need to die alone in a ditch anyway, thats not a place for someone as nice and qt as you.
>>6086891
My doctor couldn't offer me lupron or cypro :\ stupid america
I'd get an orchi but idk if I'd have enough material for srs
>>6086903
lupron is available though, i've heard of Americans getting it on insurance. cypro isn't but hey
I look so weird right now
>>6086869
It's probably some sort of cognitive dissonance. You see her as a girl, and one that you care about and feel compatible with, but you've learned that she's biologically male. I mean, what I can see at least helping is giving some time for it to settle in. Don't cut things off just yet, spend more time with her and give it a chance to become normal. If it doesn't it doesn't, but that's what my ex did, and it definitely worked.
>>6086881
I'd be such a terrible mom though :(
>>6086836
>tfw Unbowed, Unbent Unbroken
And only properly mad people could hate you Elanna.
Hey folks! How much has HRT helped your hairline? I have no visible balding spots but I've noticed in the last few months my hairline is starting to recede a bit. I'm starting HRT in 2 weeks.
cheers.
>>6086908
I think my insurance didn't cover it idk.
>>6086910
I guess the one downside is that next time I see my parents, they are going to KNOW.
>>6086891
lol fingers crossed I don't get referred to Leeds, then
>>6086922
me on the left
>>6086902
And I'm not going to let you die alone, a ditch is comfier with two. We'll at least know that we tried right?
>>6086923
why would you unless you choose to, you big silly. plus Leeds shoves new admissions out onto other clinics a lot because of their waiting times. just go with Charing Cross, they're the least shit.
>>6086910
>not even attractive with photoshop
>>6086920
Stage II standard pattern balding is mostly back to Stage I. It's been roughly 4 months on an appreciable dose.
>looking back through photos from repression so I can feel good about how far I've come already
>tfw can't get the feeling because I literally don't recognise the dude in the photos even though I recognise we share some features
how can this person have been me
it's fucking mindblowing
>>6086914
right now she's probably hurting and it's my fault because I dont know what to say
>>6086933
>bitter hon thinks it's photoshopped
>>6086916
>Unbroken
looks pretty broken to me
>>6086938
Even tho you don't pass. My god you look a lot better.
>>6086914
No you wouldn't. I bet you would protect me and tuck me in at night
>>6086916
Best great house tbqh
>>6086932
My GP said I couldn't choose and had to see what waiting list places the system returned, remember? We had this conversation lol.
I want to go to either Charing Cross or The Laurels (Exeter). The latter is supposed to be the least gatekeep-y.
>>6086920
from when i was 23 or so, my hairline has jagged back a bit at the temples a fair bit. since starting Hrt my temples are covered in thin, soft, dark baby hairs now shading in where my new hairline will be. i think given a couple of years it'll be completely reversed
>>6086942
>that blur
>that skin tone
its not even photoshopped well, come on.
>>6086938
>30 year old mexican pedophile
ayy paco
How do I pluck my eyebrows without fucking it up?
>>6086946
Wee dandy lad just needs to jog it off and he'll be fine.
>>6086933
thats not photoshopped. maybe a filter from the iphone yea
>>6086956
its clearly not photoshop. its her phone camera's beauty setting cranked up which produces that effect
>>6086910
gotta side with fishing anon
you look beautiful and indistinguishable from cis female
there i said it, you win
>>6086826
FUCK, you look way better compared to where you started but for the love of god stop smiling like a creepy murderer
>>6086958
Own your natural brows, anon
>>6086930
Its scary how similar we are in some ways. I am kinda sad that we both share the same fate ;~~;
I want you to have a better life desu.
>>6086961
posted last thread
you do look a lot better. that picture is rough senpai
>>6086973
yours are naturally good
>>6086958
Also curious of this
I'm too beta to go to a place to get it done
>>6086938
i remember that feeling
>>6086952
i remember but your GP is wrong, and if you're seeing a psych to get referred, they'll set you right- you could end up seeing some nutty dude with big eyebrows in Norwich, he'll recommend Nottingham but ultimately let you choose. the treatment pathway for The Laurels is available online. They do hrt in 3 ways- one is cypro and estrogen, one is lupron and estrogen. the third way is 'who needs antiandrogens, lets just suppress T with lots of estrogen', i mean i understand its situational and anti-androgens might not work/be needed for everybody but hello, the 80s called, they want their hons back.
>tfw had pizza for lunch
>tfw going to have steak and drinks tonight
How's your day going /mtfg/
>>6086987
was a fatty and ate pie and now im in bed comatose
feelin fly
>>6086836
and yet, we must continue on in the face of adversity despite being broken while holding on to hope that one day things will become better
>>6086961
sometimes I wish I'd just continued repressing until I eventy killed myself desu. I think I'll stop hating myself one day but it gets a little less intense with time
>>6086961
Repression pic. Approximately a week before I came to terms with being trans.
>>6086916
There's a lot to me that's pretty hateable though.
>>6086940
There's no sense in placing blame, it's one of those things that can be shocking, and if someone didn't know what to say, it's not exactly surprising. She may be hurting right now, but you can still comfort her.
She's put herself out there, she's shared the thing that she knows she could be rejected for (and likely has before). In her position, what would probably make me the happiest would be to just have a chance, and it's the thing that you still have the ability to give.
>>6086949
That I could actually do ^^
>>6086987
I'm extraordinarily bored at work. Probably going to go home and contemplate whether it's worth the effort to try to fix my broken life.
Might do some furniture shopping for my new apartment afterward.
>>6086961
i cosplayed as Charlie Swan from the Twilight series
>>6086992
I see a cymbal in the background.
You play drums?
>>6086992
Lol, also I have 3 full 8 octave keyboards visible in that photo. I think I have a problem.
>>6086996
Top kek
>>6086996
Wtf, you really look like a vaguely asian Edward who probably owns a harley.
The resemblance is uncanny.
http://g.e-hentai.org/g/927990/9cbccb4dde/
This manga.
>>6086961
super repression mode its a bit jarring how diff I looked compared to now even tho I've only changed in very minor ways
>>6086999
Yes. I studied percussion. Have traveled around the world and sampled ethnic percussive instruments from various cultures.
I'm a composer by trade but I like to play everything.
>>6087006
You're pretty hott desu senpai. Would have let you pin me and fugg me.
>tfw you will never pass
>tfw you got craigslisted hardcore
Man, fuck interviews in lower Manhattan.
>>6086996
I see a girls face there
if i shoop away beard/stache, thin eyebrows, slight change on eyelashes and chuck on lesbo haircut you look like a girl i know
>>6087005
>http://g.e-hentai.org/g/927990/9cbccb4dde/
Is cute actually drawn by a female mangaka actually.
Its been released up to Ch 9 in JP.
Warm fuzzy feelings all around.
>>6087006
Ha, you are actually reminiscent of a male Korra in that pic.
>>6087017
Yes I love it.
>>6087008
Literally everything! Lol. I lead a jazz trio on piano. I've toured a lot in a progressive metal band. Did a lot with regional orchestras (timpani). Now I mostly focus on my solo music.
I just released a new LP earlier this month. It's my first album since I have transitioned so it's been a little difficult connecting my old fans with my new brand: https://zheaerosemusic.bandcamp.com/
This music is progressive/experimental/electronic stuff.
I also do 3D animation and spent 3 months animating one of the 13 minute pieces from it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u3AxDHGthEk
This music is
>>6086948
>>6086954
ikr.
I had an obvious repression beard a lot of the time but I was already out to myself; it was just to throw my parents off the scent 'cause they kept asking why I sit and walk etc. like a girl even when I was trying to be masc as possible. it worked apparently- the moment I lost weight and started keeping trimmed/shaven they've started pounding me with "are you gay/a tranny" questions all over again whenever I see them.
>>6086957
kek
funny thing is I'm actually incredibly pale and always have been, it's just that I reflect whatever the colour of the lighting in the room is so I look kinda pinky-orange under my bedroom light at home. everyone says I look Indian in my uni ID pic which was taken in the same room.
>>6086961
ugh
looking back at old photos hurts a little
>>6087028
why did you delete it?
>>6086977
And I want you to have a better life too. That's why I say we give it a few more years before suicide pact. Maybe things will get better.
What if I don't identify as a girl at all, but I like to look feminine and if I don't then I get highly depressed?
My internet is back :3
>>6086961
Sorry Robin. Don't hate myself enough to post those pics here x-x
>>6086961
Shit I used to have a super repression mode pic with a lot of facial hair and (relatively) short hair (almost asked them to shave all my hair off when I went in for that cut). I think I deleted it
>>6086990
I need to stop being a fatty ;~; I'm with my parents rn so we've gone out for all of our meals.
>>6087017
It's up to like chapter 6 in the west now.
I wish I had a bf like that.
>>6086980
Go to a mall where Indians do eye brow threading. Asking for feminine. Very non-stress, quite enjoyable, and your brows will never look better.
>>6087040
Trans and with a normal outlook for early or pre transition
>>6086961
Spartan always wins
>>6087013
too bad every girl i tried to date irl rejected tf outta me. they probs smelled the tranny on me
oh well. I'm 1000 times happier now compared to then
>>6087019
there's a few reasons why i picked the name korra
>>6086961
R A R E
>>6087035
Ill probs decide after august already.
If I am still this depressed Idk what Ill do.
>>6087049
>going to place
>asking anyone for anything
Too beta
help, I'm dying. dying of no bf.
>>6086961
>>6087053
Lmao! I know that feeling. Oddly enough my last two girlfriends before transitioning were cis-lesbians. I never had sex with either of them but we cuddled/talked/did girl shit/etc. I talk to one of them now and we always joke that she could smell the tranny on me.
>>6087054
At what age did you start HRT?
>>6087059
I'll fly over there and give you lots of hugs and headpats
>>6086958
soft arch. Keep them narrow.
>>6086978
nice headphones.
Never want to see this face again.
>>6087050
what if I identify as a girl but don't like to dress super-girly?
>>6087062
>>6087054
your hair is really weird...
>>6087069
inb4 the hivemind lets you know that "DUH HRT IS USELESS PAST 20".
>>6086993
Thanks for the talk x
Something just clicked though. I mean if i didnt like her i would've just gone "fuck this" but i'm here babbling and tearing up like a weenie. So what i think is best is heading to her place and we can do facepaints and get back to normal.
I can already feel my heartbeat going back to the way it should be.
>>6086771
>I.. I could be ur gf for the night tails-kun
>>6086970
I have poor facial muscle control, senpai, a lot of people ask me if I'm drunk when they first meet me IRL because of how it affects my speech. I can't help it. HRT has moved some fat away from my browbone tho which has helped with keeping my eyes open a little better.
>>6086982
My psych is a Dr. Callinan, who I've been informed can be patronising but not the worst of the worst. Seems to be a common name that comes up, is he the "you my boy are a typical transsexual" one you saw?
>>6086992
Ray? Why did you quit Achievement Hunter? Is Gavin Free really as big of a douchebag as the rumours say?
>>6086978
yeah I know
I used to get called "Ian Watkins" at college
>mfw I was 18 in this photo
>mfw everyone at college thought I was staff
jesus christ what a fucking horrible childhood and adolescence, I'm starting to understand why some people try to destroy all evidence of their life pre-transition now.
>>6087065
lol i suspect i had the same thing going on. but too ugly was the reason every time. it nuked any and all self image/ self confidence I might have even pretended to have.
i didn't even get my first (and only) gf till I was 26 x.x
>>6086961
drinking 40s and smoking weed all day err day
>>6087059
August is your ffs right? Surely once you have ffs, have graduated from school and actually get to be a functional adult things will be at least a little better.
>>6087072
Dysphoria and/or wanting to appear or identify as female = trans. No sense splitting hairs.
>>6087054
>transitioning because you're a manlet.
>>6087054
fuck
I would have bf'd pretrans you so hard
t-that is, if you're of age there
>>6087081
>Ray? Why did you quit Achievement Hunter? Is Gavin Free really as big of a douchebag as the rumours say?
Kek, I can see the resemblance but I am like a fraction of his weight. :P
>>6086961
i do not win
would take 20 year old me on a date tho
why is it so hard to leave this place
>>6087046
my mother makes it so hard
she prides herself in her cooking and then dad does too so they compete with each other and make these hugeass meals.
The smell creeps under my door and its so hard to refuse for a bloody rice cake.
>>6087062
im pretty sure kayla wins this one
>>6087098
It's not, it only gets lonely and stressful sometimes when you have nobody to talk to and have an issue with something.
>>6087097
f-fuck
there are some hot boys in this thread
>>6087097
is that what you look like now?
you know, since the detrans
>>6087078
Anytime anon. Honestly, it does sound like you care about her, and I really do hope that you can get things back to a normal place. Good luck, and take care.
>>6087109
that would be okay; beard would keep my face extra toasty
>>6087107
Kill yourself
>>6087068
youre so nice <3
>>6087082
but its soooo hard to just get happier v:v
>>6087090
yes. Idk, I kinda hope Ill at least be strong enough to attempt getting DBT or something.
>>6087006
fuck me denzel
fuck me hard
>>6087107
dude ur a fag
>>6087066
20
>>6087075
its always been weird
>>6087092
ive always liked being small though
>>6087122
^
>>6087115
well you're super cool and I very much enjoy your company so doing stuff to cheer you upakes me happy too ya know. I wanna see you smile and live life and stuff :3
>>6087120
that guy is dead rip
>>6087127
Same I literally love being small. I'm like ~108 lbs and 5'7. People always used to point out how little I was and I secretly lahved it.
>>6087122
hey muff
>>6087090
elanna when are we gonna play vidya again?
>>6087092
>not being a twink pre-transition
>>6087115
Iktf it is ;-; but you just seem like someone who *should* be happy. Idk :\
Do you have any hobbies? Friends other than your boyfriend to go out and have fun with?
>>6087133
>tfw inherently alpha
how should i get my hair styled/cut mtfg?
and is there any hope for the rest of my face
uns(spamfilterplz)ee.cc/detizaro/
>>6087130
You're a decent trip, yourself.
>>6086781
>>6087133
Same, I was 5'5" and everyone bullied me about being short and I was like "wtf, why would I want to be tall?"
I eventually started agreeing with them and saying I wish I was taller just because it confused people so much
>>6087127
Lol is that what you look like right now? i guess you shouldn't of gotten that orchi after all.
>>6087133
>5'7
>small
No
>>6087146
Graph is fucked up. In reality it the numbers for Somewhat Visually Conforming and Visual non-conformers should be flipped.
fucking hons lying.
>>6086961
Post realization repression depression mode.
>tfw brother is more fem
>>6087031
It's a door to door scam job.
>>6087152
no that was prehrt
>>6087151
>>6087133
i was never over 110 lbs before hrt :0 it was great
>>6087115
I really do hope that you reach out before doing something serious, and DBT is way preferable to suicide. You do honestly deserve way better, and if some sort of help is needed to get you there then there's no shame in that.
>>6087082
Thanks, I honestly wish I could
>>6087134
Soon I hope, do you have Skype or discord or something?
>>6087151
>Used to have really long legs
>Sister bullied me calling me a grass hopper
Had I only gotten on E soon after, I could've had the longest sexiest legs ever.
>>6086982
Dr H Ball, check the guy out, he wears mental braces like a true NHS eccentric consultant senpai
>>6087004
5 years ago I'd have been mad flattered by that considering I had a huge Edward poster over my bed with 'What if I'm not the hero what if I'm the bad guy?' on it. I was a pretty bad guy desu
>>6087016
poor lass
>>6087003
like you looked any better
>>6087103
>implying I don't
fuck, I just found the ones from this day
I remember this day because it's the day I realised my mum had abusive tendencies in addition to my dad's out-and-out craziness. Having lego man hair was making me feel physically sick, I wanted it longer, but my parents wouldn't budge and my mum was getting upset about it. Not wanting to upset her I agreed to get it trimmed but on the condition it was mostly layering, not length being cut off, so I'd have longer hair than usual (past my ears) but neater and manlier. She dropped me off at a different hairdressers to usual and because I was paranoid (having had so many shitty, too-short haircuts before) she told me to just explain clearly what haircut I wanted. So I went in, did the whole malarkey and emphasised that I didn't want much length cut off. When she was done I was left with pic related, paid, ran outside crying and found my mum waiting.
>"oh you look wonderful"
>"are you kidding? I hate it, this isn't what I asked for at all, I want to make a complaint"
>"It's what *I* asked for though"
>explains that she phoned ahead and told the receptionist what hairstyle she wanted me to have (i.e. as short as possible) and to tell the hairdresser to ignore whatever I asked for
>turns out my dad is friends with the owners (big fucking surprise, he knows everybody) which is why they'd do something like that for my parents
>"you look so handsome now! you look so much better with short hair, if you grow it long it'll look kind of 'gay'"
>"t-true"
>spend the next few months pretending I like it and sinking further into using self-deprecation and being a greaseball neckbeard as coping mechanisms to distance myself from the impossible-seeming goal of transition
lovely childhood feels.
I don't want this thread to turn into the Robin-posts-pics-of-her-gross-face Show, what stories do you folks have of fucked up shit your parents did out of suspicion of you being lgbt, etc.?
>>6087145
t-thanks y-you too marceline and gl on coming out! I have Skype if you need someone supporting you b4 during or after!
>>6087163
>bully older sister
my nee-chan was a bitch that always bullied me and called me ugly and a faget since i was like 4 y/o. needless to say i hate her.
I'M NOT ASIAN THATS MY SMOLDER
>>6087032
hhnnngg, Are you italian? You're hotter now of course, but you've got good genes
i also used to be tim heidecker
i just tried dipping oreos in coffee and its like a mouth orgasm
>>6087168
>claim to have dysphoria
>posts multiple disgusting pictures of pre everything
Okay
>>6087159
I went from 135 to 165 on HRT, ideally I'd like to be in between those
>>6087177
its more fascinating than anything desu
>>6087090
my thoughts exactly
>>6087177
it's just healthy self-hate
>>6087177
This is a retarded argument and it always was
>>6087176
>i just tried dipping oreos in coffee and its like a mouth orgasm
omggg that is the best thing EVER I was afraid nobody else did this lol
Anyone else watching "Into the Badlands", and wishing a man looking like Quinn will come and save you from your torment?
can someone post fayes repression picture?
>>6087176
>>6087188
I thought faye was always a faggot.
>tfw you looked more feminine early on hrt and even before hrt than you do now
>>6087183
You are sickeningly ugly and should have been put down at birth
>>6087186
Actually, lets post more guys looking like this.
It's so freaking hot. Buzzcut sides, damn.
>>6087168
not quite my parents buy my bigoted older sister blamed me for getting g raped for 9 years. she said "i must have liked it if i wanted so long to speak up." and "i was asking for it." Well years down to line after that abuse stopped she got married and had 2 sons. She told her husband what happened to me and told him I was a danger to her boys and got him to call my phone and threaten me with violence. She then told me that if I wanted to be welcome around her family I had to "cure myself of being a gay pedophike" (to her being anything other than cis str8=gay pedo) or I would be cut off entirely from her family. even after I agreed to go to a shrink she remained distant and suspicious. nor am I allowed to hug them for fear of me "getting ideas"
i extremely hate her.
>>6087202
I think I could've passed then though, I was quite feminine for a 20 year old.
Now i'm just very masculine.
>>6087185
it softens the oreo just right and tastes fucking amazing
>>6087186
watched the first few eps. love that guys voice and mannerisms. also i met that mean kid that gets killed in the first episode. he's the nicest southern kid
>>6087203
>she
>>6087130
>well you're super cool
n-no, thats you bby!
thank you though!
I dont really know how to do the smile and live life stuff though.
>>6087142
I play vidya for escapism. I dont really have friends irl. I go out with my bf occasionaly, but not too often, I dont have that much energy.
>>6087162
yeah I know I should. Id rather not tho. I am so tired of the whole being a freak thing. I dont know if its worth even saving this life. I will try tho, for his sake.
>do you have Skype or discord or something?
>tfw u never added me ;~;
>>6087203
Do you also defend Kayler?
>>6087195
dayum thats harsh
>>6087183
>>6087203
I'd agree with this. I don't even think she'd need to mess with her eyes as far as passing goes at least with respect to that picture, but she might look better with it
>>6087168
I never use my natural voice outside the house so they chewed me out a lot for that, but other than that there wasn't much of anything until they found out
>>6087195
shut up bitter hon
someone should round up your kind and gas you you fucking repulsive roach
>>6087174
i'm half canadian half armenian
danks :)
>>6087177
>not posting pics to show how hrt doesn't always work even if you start young.
tbqh in the few pics of me on other peoples Instagram look like me now of if didn't shave.
[spoiler]I might also be developing a cyba complex, and just see the shit on my brothers ig...[/spoiler]
Who is the most slavic person on mtfg?
>tfw you're hating yourself enough today to consider posting a pre-hrt photo
>>6087206
Your issue has nothing to do with hrt, you live like a hiki and don't look after yourself.
>>6087210
Sorry, I actually just started using Skype again after months. What's your Skype? I lost it ;~;
Also, we're not freaks. We're only as much freaks as we allow ourselves to be ;~;
>>6087195
>should have been put down at birth
my dad told me this once, or twice
>>6087210
oh god escapism. 8+ hours of TF2 and League of Legends a day through high school.
>>6087231
Not a regular but probably me.
>just finished my shower
>look in the mirror
>my hair's wet, so my obvious severe hair thinning is obvious
>I look like that one pic of rawr, except I have dark hair
Should I just give up altogether and kill myself?
>>6087208
It's the combination honestly, bitter+chocolate+sweet. Sooo yummy.
>>6087210
Aw same, I don't really have any friends either anymore. I've been trying to make some other hobbies than video games though because I feel like they were holding me down. I've been gardening lately which is really relaxing. Do you know why you have low energy?
I wish I lived in deutschland. I'd be your friend and we could find fun stuff to do that wouldn't tire you out.
>>6087231
Me!
>>6087232
I was hikki back then too but not like this I guess.
Still got a man face with age or something, way worse than it used to be.
>>6087239
this pic?
>>6087237
Where from, sestra?
>>6087239
Of course not. Things got better for rawr and they will for you.
>>6087249
Pogađaj.
>>6087201
jesus christ, she sounds like my dad, I feel sorry for her kids
>>6087254
Uh ... Serbia?
>>6087232
> We're only as much freaks as we allow ourselves to be ;~;
This is why you would be a great mother. You're wonderful.
>>6087255
I wasn't really paying attention then but rawr looked far better when she was posting. I think you could still find her photos in the archive.
I mean she was still kinda crazy but actually good looking.
WHY COULDN'T I HAVE JUST BEEN A MANLY MAN WITH A BIG MANLY BODY INSTEAD OF HAVING A FEM PERSONALITY, STUPID XX INTERSEX MALE CHROMOSOMES AND A STUPID BODY
WHY WHY WHY
chromosomes: Im sry :'(
>>6087195
wew la
>>6087053
>yfw all your ex-"gf"s are trans dudes or NB.
It's probably a coincidence...
>>6087232
>Also, we're not freaks. We're only as much freaks as we allow ourselves to be ;~;
I need to learn to believe this. It's so hard to remember that.
>>6087268
You gotta eat Hannah.
>>6087266
I'll go look, thank you anon c:
>>6087268
Be careful that you're not starving yourself, that's bad
