For my whole life I have thought I was straight and not really given any of it much thought. I've also been homophobic, and quite vocally. For the past couple years, however, i have been having bursts of crying and sadness out of the blue. I am unable to socialize with other men.
I dont know, thinking about women has just become absolutely boring and without any real "feeling" if you know what I mean. But when I think of guys, I get really warm inside. And after reading some sissy lit out of curiosity, I unexpectedly got really turned on. It has since become common for me.
Does this sort of thing pass or is this something more? Its just that being anything other than straight has NEVER occurred to me before a couple years ago. Is it possible to "not know" until teen years?
Sounds like you're just a triggered manlet, OP
>>5953071
>Is it possible to "not know" until the teen years
Literally what happens to 95% of us.
Chances are, you're gay.
>>5953071
How old are you anon? I had a shit ton of gay thoughts/curious about boys when I was younger but I never thought I could be gay until like 17/18 when it began to be clear it wasn't a faze. Still pushed those thoughts to the back until I was 21. Wish I hadn't.
I realized I was gay at 7 or so, I understood that the thoughts I was having were different. I wanted to dress up like a girl and get held, stuff like that.
I repressed all of it until like 14 or so. It just depends for everyone. Sexuality isn't black and white, it's extremely fluid, a spectrum. You can realize later in life, and you can have a complex set of sexual preferences. Do whatever gets you off and be safe and it doesn't matter. Or don't. Everyone dies and it doesn't matter.
I did a lot of gay hating being an angry fag in the closet and living in the south. I don't know where you live, but when you come out, people won't be angry at your hypocrisy. People understand that situation as difficult, and that it fucks you up. Well, not in the south. I came out when I moved to Oregon.
Good luck. You sound like a total douchy fucking faggot by the way.
Just www.BeSissy.com/