shall we?
op's
How do I into taking care of myself/wanting to be better.
I wish I cared about myself to the extent that I should. I just don't feel like I deserve it. I reject every attempt of people trying to help me or comfort me.
It just ruins shit in the end, and it's a cycle.
How do I slow it down...?
ugh it's all a delusion inside an illusion or something.