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Not good enough
2016-01-31 18:14:08 Post No. 5640092
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Not good enough
Anonymous
2016-01-31 18:14:08
Post No. 5640092
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Is there any hope for someone like me? Even as a little child I always felt more womanly than male.. I absolutely hate my hairy fat male body and I hate being male in general. I don't have the money for surgery and I doubt I ever will as I'm uneducated at work a shit call center job with no savings.
I also have a medical problem.. I was addicted to heroin when I was a teenager and got so constipated that I pretty much destroyed my asshole. (See: bowel obstruction.) So even if I could transition over, no one is going to want to have sex with me because my only hole is ruined. Doctors tell me even surgery can't fix it.
I don't want to be beautiful, I don't expect sacrifices to be made but I'm 32 years old and I have pretty much just accepted I'll never be on the outside how I look on the inside. Day after day I just wanna kill myself because I feel like a fraud and damaged goods. I can't tell anyone I know this either because my parents are transphobes and the few people I know just think I'm going through depression and whatnot.
I know 4chan hates pointless whining. I just don't know what else to do. I hope someone else out here has felt this way before..