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old thread >>5617234
first for
>tfw no qt bf
>>5618523
>tfw no precum soaked penis to suck
fk u elanna
web archive link is down -- someone please just put the taimapedia one next time.
>>5618482
>>5618482
>Being a woman, that's something I can do on autopilot
it's not about being a woman in general or watching your mannerisms, it's about being a young attractive woman in general who men find appealing. the number of times i've had people harass me or try to follow me home either on foot or in their cars and shit....... it's a lot different. add that with the reality that if some of these men knew i was trans after finding me attractive for whatever weird reason? that's how my friends have gotten attacked and beaten. heterosexual men being offended by their own attraction to you leads to violence and lashing out quite often.
>>5618523
>tfw my own best friend
>tfw no trans best friend to hug and make each other feel better after a bad day
>>5618523
>that pick
ricky pls
>>5618528
>tfw no fk
I'm still mulling things over in my head over the first friend I lost.
"I have to leave this group now
I can't watch a good friend
someone I care about
do this to themselves
you were a handsome, intelligent, capable guy
you didn't need to fuck yourself up with hormones
and doing so won't make your life better, quite the opposite
and if I can't convince you of that
I can't associate with you anymore
I'm sorry man
it really hurts, but I have to go
goodbye"
it's just really confusing that he acted like he was so affected by what i do to myself.
>>5618538
ill be your best friend ;_;
>>5618540
i will not get coerced into lewdposting at this hour!
>I wish I could go hug you irl and make you feel better. sounds like you really need one
I do really need one. A long endless hug. I am snuggling with my foster rescue. She is traumatized too. Helping her has helped me though not as much as I had hoped.
>>5618538
anon... ;-;
>>5618540
i still wanna dry my precum soaked dick in your ass
>>5618546
aww she looks sweet
>tfw no gf or bf
>>5618538
I totally feel you on that one.
>>5618067
>parts of my eyebrows have started to grey
wait what the fuck, you're like 24, is this your shitty persian genes or something?
>>5618546
Aww you have a cute pupper
I hope you find some peace anon. hopefully we all do
>>5618551
She is. She is sitting on the couch next to me all snuggled. She can tell I am upset, and is trying to make me feel better. OMG I am crying again.
The thing is about working through a shitty life is getting better is painful.
>>5618546
This thread needs more cute dogs
>>5618560
Fuck dogs, cats are better
>>5618538
>tfw trans bff lives 3 hours away
>tfw even your trans friends who you love from mtfg are hundreds of miles away
sigh
>>5618556
idk i had grey hairs on my head when i was like ... 16? 17? it's due to stress and genetics i guess. my skin hasn't aged at all really because of my racial mix and my excessive skincare regimen, but hair greying and thinning and that kind of thing you can't prevent lol
>>5618558
Thanks
>>5618560
Yes it does. Mine has this stuffed bunny that she just loves, and carries around for comfort. She is so gentle with it unlike her other toys. I know that technically I am supposed to give her up for adoption, but I love her so much I never will I think. I failed at being a dog foster.
>>5618538
>mfw best friend also trans
Things get pretty grim, but something about the company makes it seem so much funnier. Cuddles probably don't hurt.
THIS IS MY EDITION
IT WAS MADE FOR ME
>>5618564
Cats are cool I don't have many pics of mine on my tablet
>>5618566
avery? or was that her old name?
i'm sure there's someone closer than you think
>>5618538
So go make one, it's definitely nice to have that shared experience and the closeness it creates.
>>5618538
>tfw best friend moved 1000 miles away and I have to fly to see her
>bf lives 2000 miles away across the country
>all my trans friends live hours away or overseas
._.
>>5618569
That is so hard to find. I have had two trans friends just totally shit on me. Never be nice to hons cause they are evil.
I did make one super great bff, but she hated Houston and moved away. She did recently pay for me to come visit her cause I was sad. I love her so much. I love you Kassidy.
is anyone on long island ill be ur friend
>tfw headache stops after an entire day of headache
I'm so comfy
>>5618581
ye aves is my best friend and has been one of my best friends for the past 6 years. we transitioned together and everything. i had a cis bff who i knew for half my life but it all fell apart recently when his bisexual bf hit on me a ton.... the cis bff is in the middle, me at the right, aves at the left. this pic is likeee 3 years old now. we were all very close at one point....
>>5618597
aww adorable.
>tfw people look at you interested and flirty but then they see your side profile and ignore you
>>5618597
whoa, your old bff has a pretty fem face, cis guy right?
cute picturee
also you really do rock black hair lol
>tfw your best friend left you and your last two other good friends died at the same time
>>5618552
That's a feel that I feel every waking moment desu.
>>5618566
i got my first grey hairs at 17 too, the amount of greying accelerated last year.
>>5618608
I'm the same...
From the side I look kinda retarded.
>>5618608
>tfw people say you're ugly as fuck
>>5618566
>excessive skincare regimen
share your secrets with me please i have wrinkles and im not even 20 ;_;
I wish I could call this guy to snuggle. I was out with my cis bff and he totally just came up and was pretty flirty. He is giant and he was bending at the knees just to take that pic. OMG I would melt in his arms. lol
Yes I looked like a hon. That was after a bottle of wine and I wasn't too with it.
>>5618597
Tfw you have 10 trans friends who live in your town with one if them being from the network
>>5618623
that guy looks like a 40 year old dad ewwww what is remotely attractive about him
>snuggling with an oldie
yech
>>5618625
I am old. I find old guys attractive. We are the same age. Me and that guy. I think he is handsome. Not alfa finance guy hot, but snuggle me and make me feel safe and he is cute.
>>5618630
whoa how old are you
>>5618535
Well, thanks for reminding me I'm an ugly old piece of junk and that I'll never have to worry about that again. Yeah, I know how it feels. One guy tried to corner and rape me in a dark street back when I was 19 and still trying to transition. Obviously never going to happen again, now.
>>5618606
thank ^-^ i love her so much still. she's always been there for me when i needed it. just sucks we're far apart yknow
>>5618610
ya he's cis! he's more androgynous tho. like super long nails and wore a tiny bit of makeup and purple contacts etc
>>5618619
it depends on your skin type, like my regimen is good for me but it's not good for everyone yknow?
>>5618624
there's only one trans woman under the age of 40 in the town i currently live in, pic related on the right. i would feel bad about posting her picture but i was ridiculously nice to her and open to helping her with a million things and then she went around insulting me calling me names because the guy she liked had a crush on me. so.....
>>5618637
why would you want that????????????
>>5618619
sun: never
>>5618645
This. Sun just never. I don't have many wrinkles 41. I am getting some smile lines though. Also moisturize.
>>5618642
Why would I want to still be attractive and not a repulsive hag? Yeah, I really don't know.
>>5618654
It sounded like you wanted to be raped. I was going to ask the same question. Why would you want that? It is a horrible terrible experience, that will scar you for life.
>>5618642
please i need help, i look 40 in the sun ;_; tips or advice on how to figure out a regiment for myself, anything
So, I'm increasing my spiro and e. Also getting a dht blocker. Anything I might want to know?
>>5618663
sunscreen and moisturize. Wear a hat to not squint.
>>5618654
this >>5618660
you know how shitty it is to have a guy follow you home and to have to call your friends to help you or pick you up? or having men corner you because you don't want to fuck them, and then having them call you a bitch or a cunt? it's not fun at all. men don't deal with this shit at all so why is it normal for younger attractive women? i carry a weapon everywhere i go because of this kind of thing.
>>5618663
if you want i can do a consultation with you right now just over the boards :o i mean i won't have like 100% accuracy but assuming you know what you want and some things about yourself i can base it off that.
>>5618668
drink enough water every day and don't slack on that at allllllll
>>5618668
how long are you planning on being on the DHT blocker?
>>5618668
How long have you been on hormones for? And at what doses? I didn't think it was that long yet
>>5618675
yes please. what do you need to know? i want the skin of at least a 20 year old instead of 40 like i have now. ive got laugh lines and forehead lines and i don't even go out in the sun much ;3;
>>5618675
>you know how shitty it is to have a guy follow you home and to have to call your friends to help you or pick you up? or having men corner you because you don't want to fuck them, and then having them call you a bitch or a cunt? it's not fun at all. men don't deal with this shit at all so why is it normal for younger attractive women? i carry a weapon everywhere i go because of this kind of thing.
I am thinking of getting a concealed carry too. I have been scared a couple times since transition. I try to be safe though. I try to only roam in packs.
>>5618549
But I poop from there ;~;
>>5618685
but you wouldn't complain if someone put there tongue there
>>5618675
Like I mentioned, I know. I've been there before. Back when I wasn't a broken husk. And there you imply people treat me like a man. Definitely not young, attractive, nor even a woman. I'd better be looking for ways to die than reasons to live, at this point.
>>5618685
Irrelevant, now spread those cheeks bb gurl
>>5618685
Yea and I breathe from my mouth but doesn't stop me from sticking dicks in there
>>5618693
can i put mine in there
>>5618695
No I don't like girlcock
>>5618699
im man though
>>5618691
yuck. Anyone that says bb is a grade a douche.
>>5618701
>chasers
I just said I don't like girlcock fag
>tfw ugly neet hon
>>5618682
ok um here's a few questions i need answers to in order to help you. i guess this will go for you or anyone reading this if you want advice.
1) what kind of skin do you have? dry, oily, normal, or a combination of any of these?
2) what kind of climate are you usually in each day?
3) what kind of skincare or makeup do you use now?
4) what would you say the negatives of your skin are currently, and what is your end goal?
5) also, do you suffer from sensitive, or acne prone skin?
>>5618684
i need a gun, i just carry a giant military grade knife lmfao
>>5618689
????????????????????????????
tf is wrong with you??? i meant men my age don't deal with this. TECHNICALLY NO MAN DOES. just because you don't experience the possibility of getting raped or followed home anymore as much anymore doesn't mean you're a man?? why tf would you want this????? if you actually knew what this was like you wouldn't be complaining lmfao!! all i ever want when i leave my house is to get from one place to the other with as little difficult and interaction with men as possible. like that's literally my goal because of this shit.
>>5618706
good thing you're improving yourself instead of shitposting about it
>>5618704
thats your opinion
>>5618710
I can do both faggot.
>>5618717
your resume is years of shitposting and zero improvement, no evidence that you can do both
>>5618722
Leave her alone.. :( I want her to be my gf some day
>>5618722
I blame video games and anime not shitposting tbhon.
>>5618728
I'm still on 4mg E after like 1 year 4 months :\ wonder if I should ask about increasing it
Your Spiro sounds low though mines at 200mg
>>5618707
1 oily and dry
2 i live in the country
3 i just use generic cleanser/moisturizer and retin-a every other day, no makeup
3 my primary gripe about my skin right now is it feels really aged. it's got a dry patchy texture and i've got laugh lines, forehead lines and and eyebrow crease, i want to reverse these if remotely possible and get my glow back
>5 i don't know what determines sensitive, but i'm acne prone
i'm working on changing my diet too and i need to drink more water.
>>5618707
post the knife
get a snub nose, girlfriend. use hollow points with a grainage appropriate for the gun
>>5618728
keep in mind how DHT blockers work. they stop the enzyme responsible for converting a fraction of your T into DHT, so
a) if you're already taking spiro and increasing your dose, DHT will be reduced as a result.
b) taking a DHT blocker will increase the amount of whatever T is left in your system
c) if you come off the blocker, there will be a jump in DHT production but nowhere near the jump you'd get if you weren't taking spiro.
to me, DHT blockers always seemed like a stopgap to stave the effects of DHT until you can get on a more effective AA. i dunno tho.
>>5618749
>tfw too manly and intimidating to ever need a knife or a gun to defend myself
sup
>>5618755
>tfw will never protect lain anon from guys trying to take her from you
>>5618760
Lots of shitposting and some hugs
>>5618755
i needed a gun to defend myself before even tranny because short scrawny rapeable fuck
>>5618767
hugs are great
>>5618728
>increasing from 4mg e at only 3 months in
do you WANT cone tits like kayla's? idgi
>>5618762
I would like that but I doubt it would be needed.
>>5618771
>tfw 5´10" viking hon beast
>>5618776
stop
>>5618688
N-no I guess I wouldn't <.<;
>>5618691
No
>>5618693
Point taken, iktf
>>5618776
5'10 isn't bad
post face
>>5618776
>tfw ur not my gf
how hard is it to move to Sweden. I don't speak the language
>>5618782
of course not. now bend over and let me plow you until your little elannas get erect
>>5618776
>tfw 5´10" viking hon
Just stand next to tall people and no one will notice. I can go from being a midget to a giant. Perspective is key.
Jesus why did I hunch in that pic. I look so pathetic.
>>5618778
Fine
>>5618784
I dunno, where do you live?
>>5618783
>getting thoughts of detransition again
i hate myself so much
why can't I just be happy
>>5618788
cutie!!
I'm from Brit land. I just want to go there to get closer to my future gf (you)
>>5618707
What's wrong with me? I'm old. That's what's wrong with me. My life came to a stop when I was 20 and now that I'm emerging from that grey haze of a non-life I was plunged into, I have to deal with that decrepit body I can't recognize as mine anymore. I see my face in the mirror and I want to peel off that disgusting, wrinkled flesh off my skull with a knife. Here's what's wrong. Sorry if I that makes me cry, I know that's a ludicrous sight, but it's not like I can help it. Enjoy your youth while it lasts and hope nothing happens to rob you of it.
>>5618786
>>5618792
pls
>>5618798
10/10 response
THE BEST
>>5618798
i meant your nipples not your nonexistent dick.
>>5618744
ok, so where is your skin oily and where is it dry? like oily in your t-zone and dry everywhere else or like?
it sounds like you need a lot of hydrating products. so lotion masks are like the #1 thing to do.
http://hope-inablog.com/asian-cosmetics-for-beginners-where-to-start/the-beginners-guide-to-asian-cosmetics-part-5-the-lotion-mask-method/
this will tell you some things. also you need to get a moisturizer that's really hydrating. try the clinique dramatically different moisturizing lotion, and ponds dry skin cream from night time. you'll need to exfoliate like once or twice a week as well. consider getting the cure water gel, or even using a homemade one (3 tbsp extra virgin olive oil, 3 tbsp honey, 1/2 cup of organic sugar) to use once or twice a week. because of the retin-a you might want to adjust how often you use abrasive products on your skin tho. also get a hydrating cleanser!! there's lots of them but you need to figure out which one helps you most.
>>5618749
this gif is like a year and a half old but it includes the knife lol
>>5618795
y o u t h
i s
f l e e t i n g
i literally already said this today but i like aging. i don't like my skin aging, but i like everything else about it. why on earth would you just prioritize being young when you can be polished at any age???
>>5618805
You using retinol yet?
>>5618799
pls what? pls be your bf? I'd love to
>>5618802
I'm confused, couldn't you just turn on the air conditioning for that?
>>5618800
:^)
>>5618788
Lainon pls.
>>5618795
waaaah waaaah waaaaah what a baby you are. grow up, literally.
>>5618805
oily on my face and generally kind of dry everywhere else, mostly my hands but i think that might be because it's cold
>asian cosmetics
awesome, i'm asian lol tyvm.
>try the clinique dramatically different moisturizing lotion, and ponds dry skin cream from night time
got it, will write down both and look for them
>cure water gel, homemade one
never heard of the former but i've been meaning to use a homemade one before. only problem is idk if the EV olive oil i have is real or not :S
clueless on a hydrating cleanser though, do you recommend one? i just use cetaphil cleanser since my derma told me to
>>5618805
You can't polish a turd.
>>5618824
Mythbusters did it.
>>5618805
hot gif, nice knife, know how to use it? you should get something bigger like this. most modern knives are shit at defense, with this you could parry a bat.
>>5618809
no, i prob will in a few years tho. it's an intense chemical exfoliant and like... i don't really need that yet. my skin is pretty perfect without it. once i get older tho and regular skincare won't cut it and i need to go the derm prescription route then i will def need it. if i used it now it wouldn't do shit for anti-aging and it would make my normally dry skin sahara level dryness.
>>5618823
oh, i mean if your face is all around oily then that kind of changes everything lol. you don't need hydrating products. but definitely look into the masks, and the cure water gel, you can use the homemade exfoliator on the rest of your body. don't use the other stuff i recommended. what kind of moisturizer do you use now? the cetaphil one is prob fine for a cleanser.
>>5618824
like i said, dita is 43. it's pretty easy if you know what you're doing to look polished at any age.
>>5618832
LMFAO WE ANCIENT EGYPT NOW FAMILIA!!
i know how to use it tho ye. the top has a lil thingy to crack someone's skull open.
>>5618816
W-what
i'm probably just going to increase spiro and thats it.
>>5618836
The one thing that sucks about prescription retinoids is the first few months is just dryness and skin flaking till the skin gets use to it
Ohio
>>5618849
Where in Ohio?
>>5618836
well is greasy the same as oily? ill look into the masks for sure. don't use the homemade exfoliator on my face though?
and uhh i just use Coloplast moisturizer http://www.amazon.com/Coloplast-Sween-Superior-Moisturizing-Protectant/dp/B0029OZ4CY
>>5618860
Ohayou Gozaimasu
>>5618841
>implying you are top hon when I am here
>>5618874
nice meme m8, but thats me :^)
>>5618874
About that...
Yeah, that's what I see in the mirror in the morning.
Holy shit the interview went great and it turns out the guy interviewing me likes the same exact things.
>>5618874
I look like a man with a tranny bowl cut.
>>5618868
You must be from Toledo. I would be crazy too.
So my boobs are growing at different rates, I know this isn't too uncommon and usually fixes itself, but is there anything I can do to help them equal out?
>>5618541
He's probably gay for you
>>5618888
Yay congrats. You will get the job.
>>5618888
Does he also like dressing up in his mom's clothes and masturbating?
>>5618846
yee :/ idk. i'll get to it when i'm like 26-27 tho i think. for now i have esthetician training and know how to care for my skin without medical treatments.
>>5618862
>>5618878
ok, so you're oily in your t-zone, dry on your cheeks. so use the moisturizer you're using right now on your cheeks, and stop using it everywhere else, and see how your skin reacts. you can use any kind of "oil-free" moisturizer for the rest of your face, neutrogena has some good ones that are cheapo. the homemade exfoliator is really hydrating because of the honey and olive oil so if you used it all over your face you would prob get extremely oily.
>>5618886
i don't get you, you bounce around between saying you pass flawlessly and women are so jealous of how you naturally feminine and womanly you are etc to saying you're a hon and life is pointless and you're ugly. which is it?
>>5618900
>be 5 years HRT
>1 year post-op
>not been misgendered since early on in transition
>walking down street without make-up
>some in a car going past suddenly yells faggot at you
>tfw
>tfw this has never happened to me
>>5618908
>I don't do that.
yes, you do
>>5618908
Is this the interview to get a job eating legos
>>having a best friend
What is it like? I've never had one before
>people having hon-offs
>was just thinking about how i haven't been feeling terrible when i look in the mirror these past few days
>>5618888
good luck!
>>5618891
nope i'm from NC
>>5618909
that's strange
>>5618902
ok got it. is there an exfoliator you could recommend then? or could i just use that olive oil honey one on parts of my face?
![[crying intensifies].gif](https://i.imgur.com/5NrnTOP.gif "[crying intensifies].gif")
>>5618925
in my experience it's a lot like being in love
>>5618894
idk. rub one of them to try and catch it up? Not even sure if that works.
Really you'll kinda have to wait. They may or may not even out. a lot of women have difference in size between their breasts.
>>5618908
is this the fake race car job you were talking about yesterday? i hope you get it!!! fingers crossed!
>>5618919
No its for a sales person at a race car dealer. Which means I get commission and I get to drive some cars.
>>5618928
cure water gel is reaaaalllly great. it's kind of pricy on some places, but the listings on amazon for it usually aren't too expensive. it would be great for your skin type, not too harsh but would get the job done where you need it! talk to your dermatologist tho about how often you should exfoliate if at all. cause retinol plays a factor in that.
>>5618925
it's nice cause you don't feel so alone and they just understand everything about you
>>5618902
Both. And I'm afraid that how I see myself and how others see me are permanently irreconcilable views. Having fifteen years of your life sunk into a black hole can do that... I never lived my twenties.
>>5618925
>>5618932
>a lot like love
yeah, when you feel like you've found your best friend (regardless of whether they really are or not), their existence feels completely different to everyone elses. i fell in love with my best friend, but it turns out they weren't actually my friend in the end. when i thought it was real though i based all my ideas of love off of my extreme appreciation for them.
>>5618944
wow those look super expensive. is this in LA?
>>5618946
i can't see my derma atm because no insurance :/ i don't think he said anything about exfoliator at all the last time i saw him, but i did get an information sheet ill have to look for from them. his assistant did tell me though exfoliating once a week or two would be fine.
i haven't actually used the retin-a in a bit, i keep forgetting to, and i was prescribed it for acne by my derma. the clear water gel is 28 bucks on amazon >.< but im willing to drop some dollar at the moment to be pretty lol
>>5618946
>it's nice cause you don't feel so alone and they just understand everything about you
so true ;_; i miss that comfort so much. no one in the world understands me now, not even half of me let alone half as much as my friend once did
Is kayla making stuff up again?
>>5618961
has she been posting?
>>5618952
Nah her dreams
>>5618952
Thats not the place but its like it, they sell all sorts of high end and rebuilt race cars and bikes and even some boats.
>>5618963
>she
anon...
>>5618967
you could do really well kayla =]
>>5618967
i hear the commute to imagination land is brutal. good luck, im sure you'll do great on the second interview!
What signs should i be looking for if I think my best friend is down to fuck when I'm further down the line with transitioning? I can't tell if I'm just seeing what I want to see or if he not only believes in me but would like to date. I'm too autistic to just ask him and he's too autistic to just say it so here we are.
>>5618963
>she
>>5618969
or I could do bad, I don't know how many people have $20 grand to blow on an oversized toy and I only would make money off of the number of vehicles I sell.
>>5618967
did you apply as a guy or girl?
Also what is up faggots? I just turned on my computer after walking up and going for a walk.
>>5618980
One of you needs to be less autistic.
Try drugs maybe?
>>5618984
just be reltable and nice or a dick sucker so the buyer can inflate their ego over a purchase XD
>>5618982
thinking about it always makes me cry, like now
i loved them so much. they were a massive shining light in my life. the whole time i thought i had found the realest thing i ever would, they were just lying the whole time. even though we related more to each other than anyone else in both of our lives, it meant nothing to them, but more than everything to me.
>>5618980
get drunk and then awkwardly kiss him
>>5618947
...ok.....
>>5618953
okieee. well good luck with the skin stuff, tell me how it all goes for you!!
>>5618956
ya, kind of same. i mean i still do have one of my best friends but idk, my other bff that i don't have now knew me since middle school and idk. it sucks, but i have plenty of other people in my life who mean a lot to me and help me a lot in my life.
>>5618984
how long is this lie going to last? how do you plan on ending it? will you just not get the job? or will they decide to sponsor you and make you the first trans nascar driver?
>>5618997
And that's pretty much why I do my best to make sure no one could ever consider me as their friend. Whenever I slip, it only ends in pain...
best diy srs techniques?
>>5618994
We already do drugs, drugs have brought us down to this base level of autism where suspicions of each other can be had but nothing else.
>>5618999
I think he wants to wait until I'm a bit further down the line with this stuff before sex stuff so I wouldn't want to rush him. Plus I'm KV, what if I was wrong about things and my first kiss is just a drunken disaster that costs me my best friend?? It kind of feels like we're already dating; just not doing anything explicitly romantic. I can't tell if it's just me or what.
>>5619005
tyvm <3
>>5619013
lol just cut ur dick off senpai
>>5618932
Yes it is, and that can be confusing sometimes. I feel like I love my best friend.
>>5619007
ew gross, nascar is so fucking lame and this has nothing to do with that. Think trophy trucks, open wheel racers, off road bikes, and on track road race bikes, and some new and old exotics.
>>5619027
you didnt answer my question
>>5619005
i dunno, it's a constant throbbing pain i don't think i'll ever be able to get over. solely because i thought, not being understood was a problem id never have to worry about again after meeting them. now i can't stop thinking about how no one will ever even come close, even if that's not true i can't help but think it regardless, and i don't want to.
>>5619024
it's the past but it hurts every day freshly, as if i'm getting stabbed in a different place every day
>>5619024
I know I'm a toxic and insane piece of shit. My best bet to avoid hurting those who'd take a liking to me against all odds is to keep them away the best I can.
>>5619013
tear it off with your bare hands
>>5618944
>using a stock photo
>not taking an actual photo of beautiful cars with your phone while therr
>>5619013
mexico for $400 bucks
Why does kayla come here to lie?
>>5618523
>ywn hug Adri like that again
I wonder if I should make a trip back up
>>5619052
Well, that's already happened. More than once. They were hurt. I was hurt. I'd rather not have it happen again.
>>5619052
i know moving forward is all that can be done but i'm afraid i won't ever feel half as human as i once did. i envy you so much. i know exactly how you feel about your best friend too, and i just wish to god so fucking much i could go back to still having that. no one loves me anymore.
>>5619059
just saying
>tfw will never be able to do this
http://i.4cdn.org/b/1453919395809.webm
>>5619066
just invert ur gt
>>5619052
and honestly it doesn't even end there. i have only 2 close friends left in this world and i know i will lose both of them within 2 years. one will go homeless and lose contact with me because of distance and the other will most certainly wind up in jail or dead.
>>5619045
He has nowhere else to go.
>>5619069
I don't even think and srs vag can take a cock without ripping open.
>>5619074
>I don't even think
we know
>>5619074
theyre specifically designed to be able to do that man
>>5619077
savage
>>5619066
>not just getting fucked hard by tall handsome men
>>5619069
gt^(-1) when
>>5619074
You're wrong. very wrong.
Hell, one of the dilators you use are even bigger then most cocks
>>5619086
should I watch that show y/n
>>5619082
>>5619077
I love visiting this general.
>>5619083
but what if you dont want a guy to ever see your girltumor?
Does anyone know the proper dosage to take progesterone? Does it seem to have an effect for most people?
you ever like, fall so in love with an album that you listen to it like two or three times in a row and you wanna listen to it again but that makes you kinda disgusted in yourself?
>>5619092
A+ webm.
>>5619090
i was thinking of watching it for a while but at this point the tumblr fanbase has ruined it for me. i don't think i would like it anyways tho, it looks like genderfluid propaganda.
>>5619094
yes you do you secret cockslut and you know it.
>>5619096
proper dosage is 0mg a day
>>5619064
>i won't ever feel half as human as i once did.
>i envy you so much
i'm going to assume you don't know that being an unfeeling, autistic robot is the only thing keeping me from constantly wanting to kill myself, right?
i look around a room, and contemplate how i could kill myself with the things i see
i walk along a road, and imagine jumping under a bus
i waste a considerable amount of time anticipating the next opportunity to see a creative way to die
i just don't do it because it's not worth the effort
>>5619087
You know that Kayla demands only the best of the best.
>>5619090
yes, I think its a pretty great show
the first half of season one is a little weaker than the rest so if you can dont give up there like a lot of people do, and the episodes are only 10 min long so it wont take as long as you think
ignore all the memers saying its tumblr the show, almost every single one of them havent actually watched it
>>5619092
oh my god this webm.
>>5619100
You shouldn't let a fanbase of something ruin something for you, especially before you even check it out.
I mean I like estrogen and I haven't let /mtfg/ ruin that for me.
>>5619096
i take 10mg medroxyprogesterone. i used to take 5mg. id much rather have bioidentical but w/e. it definitely has helped my breast growth
>>5619103
I would tell him I am a tranny but I dont want any guy I would ever want to be involved in to see the GT
>>5619109
i don't know what made you think i wasn't an unfeeling autistic robot either. i've tried to kill myself twice, every day i think about it and regret over the fact i got revived last time. you still have that wonderful thing between you and your bestie to cherish though, without it life is even more hellish than it already is for you. i didnt think it could get worse but i was wrong, wrong for thinking things could ever be permanent.
>>5619115
>i take 10mg medroxyprogesterone
same, do you cycle it or take it nightly?
>>5619096
I take 200mg susten for ten days a month
>tfw you get your saline injection
>tfw you get your sugar pill prescription me
>>5618884
Nope. That's me(me).
>>5618886
Honestly I see something much worse when I look into the void.
>>5618889
Lainon. Pls. No.
t. Manliest hon in /mtfg/
>>5619083
Guys are too much work, you can get girls by just being cuter and cleaner then the other boys
So I'm currently on 0.00705 oz of Spiro a day and 0.000141 oz of E. I was thinking about asking my doctor to bump me up to 0.000212 oz of E? Idk if that's too high or what.
>>5619127
I've never been gendered female and I look old as fuck and i'm also ugly.
I win.
>>5619117
i assumed you were, i was just saying your jealousy is misplaced
>>5619127
10/10 reply
>>5619136
america
>>5619137
Listen, we've seen each other. I'm sure we can agree that I am the hon out of us two.
>>5619138
i'm not envious of your life. just that you still have something i once did. i am unsure if i have the ability to connect to someone as much as i did with my lost person to make another best friend so yeah
>>5619144
>>5619144
that gifs lewd
>>5619132
you havent even dated or fucked a boy yet
as soon as you stop hiding your body you are going to get a billion dates from men
>tfw noon and trying to think of a reason to person today
>>5619144
this is the only unpassing hon here
Hearing I pass never gets old.
>>5619154
a reason to what?
youre cute also
>>5619156
Don't you have to be a tranny to be a hon? Can a sissy cross-dresser be considered a hon?
>>5619161
you are going to scream your head off the first time you get doodled by a real man
>>5619121
i cycle it 10 days a month.
>>5619173
kayla just needs to learn how to dress and makeup
>>5619154
>upsidedownfemboy.jpg
>>5619171
>that gif is literally my fetish
Surprise breast biting is best
>>5619148
There can be only one and that is me.
>>5619139
I aim to please.
>>5619149
;^)
>>5619156
That's not a pic of me!
>you will never detransition and be Faye's boyfriend
Bad feel
>>5619178
kayla is an ugly man and will never pass or even act like a decent human
