>>5551047
This happened to me before. It was super confusing. Told him, he offered to give me a "tester" or bottom, but I didn't have any liqour on hand so didn't want to. Few days and a few more rejections later and the offer was rescinded and we're still bros.

It also felt more intense for me than girl crushes, probably just because it was new and taboo.

>>5551047
Boy loveu is the most intense manifestation of love, that's why.

>>5551047
>why does it hurt so bad, this is worse than my girl crushes...
Because you're either full gay or a gay-leaning bi.

Because he will never love you back

>>5551320
Don't make me feel these feels anon.

>>5551848
Let me tell you something from my experience. If you're just starting to get feelings for your first guy that probably means that you are bisexual as its happened so late. If so it will take you awahile to get it all figured out. Then You're going to be a completely straight acting man. Because of this no gay guys are going to think you're approachable. and you'd be so inexperienced and closeted that you could never be the one who engages the gay mam. You'll try for a few years and then you'll give up understanding that it will simply never work. They're you are. I just saved you a lot of time.