This is rather minor, but I'm curious if others have felt the same. Have you ever tried to be a part of the community, but personal reasons keep making you feel reluctant to go out and participate? I'm trans and I've had a hard time mustering up the urge to go to local LGBT clubs and events. Like, I feel like I want more friends (And even some romance, preferably a bi girl) but I feel very self conscious and wind up putting off going to the local LGBT areas (I live in DC).
Anyone else ever feel that way? What do you do to get around it? Any coping strategies?
>>5521783
I always feel too embarrassed incase I see anyone I know. It's stupid, I know, but I'm not quite ready for everyone to know that my sexuality is different
>>5521783
Set your mind to it anon :) , you can do it
>>5521792
Funny enough, seeing someone I know never occurred to me. I'm originally from Ohio (I'm actually visiting my parents) and when I'm in Ohio I tend to keep androgynous/ not very trans around them (They're 50, not gonna fight that battle.). I live in DC though, so theoretically it's the most accepting place (Unless if you disagree (Ok I joke I joke, but I occasionally feel like me disagreeing with things makes me less valid) for the LGBT community). Consequently, I don't really have a lot of friends out here. So I don't worry about that so much.
>>5521793
You cad~
/lgbt/ is about the extent of my involvement in anything like a 'community'. I think I'd feel too uncomfortable about myself to enjoy much. I have the same aversion to non-LGBT clubs and events too, though.
>>5521882
I see. So we aren't too dissimilar in that regard.
I kind of wish I was able to begin the whole transitioning process sooner though. But, I grew up in Ohio and had to join the army to get ahead in life.
>>5522014
I don't think you'll run into that many trans people that don't wish they had started earlier, for what it's worth (probably not much).
I live in Portland fucking Oregon yet I've never done a single thing to take part in "the community" because a) I was in denial about my gender and sexuality for a long, long time; and b) I'm a pathetic shut-in and am awkward in general. There's a FTM support group that I tell myself every week I'm going to go to, and I haven't yet been able to make myself go. I don't know how to into "the community"...
>>5521783
Not entirely relates but...
I genuinely feel sorry for ugly people in the community. It must be really hard, like harder than in the straight community
>>5522245
yeah i'm in portland too and I've never once been in any kind of lgbt community
I'm not entirely sure what it means to be part of a community though
>>5522259
so suck my dick...at least just once
it's the least you can do for me
>>5522245
>>5522276
Get out of my state already
But seriously I'm an mtf and a pathetic shut-in too
>>5522293
what? I've been here my whole life
anyway start running
I'm going to chase you and I'm giving you a head-start
>>5522308
You sound like someone I went to school with from first grade.
>tfw usually nobody that you like chases you anymore
>>5522331
I may as well be a first grader
>>5522284
Bby I'll let you suck mine.
Just put a bag on your head or something? Or make it so dark I can't see how horrific you are
>>5522340
Op here.
Why do you say that?
(I've been getting mobbed by my sisters children this evening... send help.)
>>5522352
on all levels but physical I am a first grader
most of my thoughts are of what boobs might feel like, or what kissing feels like, or how nice it must be to hold hands
>>5522367
That's kind of disturbing. And sad (if you are actually old enough to be posting here).
>>5522389
I'm 21 years old
>>5522396
Is that just because of your extreme seclusion and self isolation?
I'm more normal, though half the time I get kind of lazy and don't bother presenting well... mostly because it's just me by my self 99% of the time.
(Also, short of adopting a trip code, I try to post a picture with all of my posts)
>>5522405
i don't even know, I don't understand the first thing about sex and relationships that's why I say I'm like an autistic little first grader
>>5522415
and I'm not isolated, I have several Heterosexual Cis Male friends
>>5522415
I'm sorry to hear that. You can chase me for a little bit if you want I guess.
>>5522425
you were supposed to reject me
Apparently Portland meetup night.
No DC anons save me though.
>>5522426
Damn. I know I see a hon everyday when I drive around town but wow, I really need to go outside and make some more friends.
>>5522443
Sorry, I'm not that mean tho
so where do y'all want to meet?
If there's a Portland meetup... send updates?
I'm just hanging out tonight. I handed one of the kids a computer and now she's endlessly playing video games. The other one is knocked out asleep.
>>5522549
Oh I'm the DC anon that just posted in that creepy dolls edition. I have no intention of meeting up with others tonight, I just saw that some anons seemed to express interest in meeting up and wanted to experience it vicariously~
> feeling like i have to get into NORMAL community
> Everytime I go outside I end dooing something realy cringeworthy
> even when I hold back, only answer shortly when I'm asked etc.
> It's so goddamn exhausting to care about every footstep, how you eat etc.
Anyone else feeling like that too?
>>5522612
Yeah, to be frank, it's kind of what has caused me to be a little reluctant. The expectations on all sides can get overwhelming, then there's the general worry involved just going out into town and so on. It feels like if I go out I'll just have some kind of spotlight on me. Etc.
It can get annoying...
>>5522641
The thing is, I immediatly can see the reaction and hear the awkward silence when I did something wrong.
I don't think my anxiety can make this up
>>5522669
Don't we all when we are so self critical?
I didn't realize there were so many trans people in Portland. But I'm honestly looking to move there if any trans people wanted to talk or anything.
I didn't know there were so many trans people in Portland. I guess this is the place to post this but I'm looking to move there and would love to know some other trans people before I go if anyone wants to talk
>>5522916
Wait why did this post twice it told me I fucked up -_-
>>5522930
there are a lot of people from portland on imageboards in general for whatever reason
>>5522967
It seems like it, and it weirds me out. I wish I didn't have such crippling social anxiety - I'd love to connect with like-minded people locally, but I can't even make myself talk to people off anon or "privately" over the internet, let alone meet up in person. My confidence is going up the more I pass, though. Maybe in a year or so, I'll be able to make myself do real things with real people in real life.
>>5522967
I can attest to this as I am yet another one of them and one who hasn't already posted in this thread.
......I freaking hate DC sometimes.
I only stick around because this is where I find defense contracting employment relevant to my old Army job.
What I don't like though is how stuck up DC folk tend to be.
any portland anons desperate enough to go on a blind date with me?
>>5523253
What sort of defense contracting? (I only really know about research stuff at the national labs and such, like Sandia and LANL here in New Mexico, but I imagine there's a lot of other things I'm not considering.)
>>5523329
Satellite signal analysis and the likes.
>>5523335
Neat. I'm surprised that you can't find work in places outside of DC if it's something like that, honestly.
>>5523455
There are only certain spots, but the intel field tends to cluster itself in certain locations. I won't say where precisely though. Needless to say, of those locations, only one or two of them appeal to me.
>>5523492
Yeah, that makes sense I suppose.
Sorry. Kind of nodded off there for a few. I'm turning in.
Most 'scenes' of anything I'm interested in make me cringe. People are dickheads, and liking the same shit as me doesn't automatically change that.
