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I want Santa to make me a real man.
where's my dick santa
>>5438901
Trade with someone on reddit??? Or sell+ buy new. People do that all the time.
It's not not weird to start drinking at 10:30am right? Cos that's what I've done.
>>5440216
Holidays and finals are your get away guilt free with that, you're good m8
>>5440231
Cool, that's the rule I was assuming was in place. That and music festivals, where it's fine to wake up and crack open a cider.
>>5440216
it's just as good a time as any to start...
Merry Christmas, /ftmg/. Wew, this is like the third Christmas I've spent with you guys? Time flies.
Hope your Christmas isn't as miserable as your other days!
>>5440216
I'm already on my third. Catch up, peasant.
>>5440718
It's 4pm now and that means it's night time so I'll be hitting it harder soon enough.
>>5440718
I've been drunk since 10am after being hounded to visit the senpai, hitching a ride over, getting regifted gloves my mom stole out of my car which turned into a huge fight without me having said a word and having to walk back home. Get on my level.
>>5440718
all i've done is taken one shot, and smoked a blunt... i'm really behind, but i'm feeling sick so really i shouldn't have drank at all...
i'm sick on christmas & i don't even have any terrible family events to avoid
this sucks
god, i can't believe i started suspecting my partner was being over sensitive when she said she felt unsafe in the temporary housing she was staying in. one person she was staying with was a straight-up abuser. sometimes it's just hard to believe what bad luck she's had with her old friends, partners & housing situations, because i've known too many people whose similar "bad luck" was a pack of lies. but since i've known her & known her current friends it's obvious she has never started making shit up about them. i mean i know i should never trust people blindly because that's when i get hurt myself, but i still feel bad for doubting her.
Gayanon here. Mtfs have to deal with chasers all the time it seems. What about you guys? Who chases you if anyone? How do you handle it?
There's too much alcohol in my house and I'm the only one drinking. If I run out of my stuff, I'm branching out into the things my parents are neglecting. I'm on the stupid fruity wine now guys, told you I'd step up. And I don't know about you guys but I'm looking forward to New Year's when I can drink more and resolve to make life choices.
>>5441429
I don't know if there's a specific group/ type of people that really chase us, but I've come across a few people who only exclusively date /fuck trans guys (it's equally as strange as mtf chasers imo).
Don't think it's nearly as wide of an issue for ftm's as it is for mtfs but I could be totally wrong.
>>5441429
If I met an ftm chaser I might give them a go, just because I'm puberty-horny
as is they're pretty rare
>>5441429
The ones I personally consider 'chasers' are the ones who message me and don't shut up about how much they love ftms, how they love sucking ftm cock, all their best fucks were ftms, etc and I just turn them down or ignore them. I just find it creepy when they're talking to me like they just plucked me off the ftm-tree.
I think mtfs have worse chasers. The ones who like us are either gay or openly bi, maybe with the occasional in the closet bicurious straight guy while I think mtfs have to deal with peoples crisis over their sexuality and their harder on treating them as nothing more than sex object. This is all coming from assumption and the brief knowledge I've picked up skimming past mtf stuff though so I could be wrong.
How do I get a bigger penis?
Man is it ever hard to get into the holidays when you're around a bunch of family that still uses female pronouns for you. Every single time it's like a blow to my ego that makes me want to curl up in my bed and die.
>>5441764
DHT, pumping. Don't know how much good either of them do, mind you.
>>5441887
Im a cismale with a f o u r i n c h penis.
>>5441939
So you're in a thread full of guys without dicks asking how to get a bigger one?
>>5441971
I feel like you dudes would know how to get a dick bigger tbqh...
>>5441845
>mfw they're gifting me beauty kits
>>5442004
>>5441429
Lesbians who think I'm a megadyke chase me. Obviously, I reject them.
>>5442012
>anxious habit of tweezing hairs from face and neck
>get tweezers-mirror set
Huh. I had wondered if I had trichotillomania but now someone else is facilitating it, my mind is taking that as reassurance.
>>5442014
Wanna be my bf?
>>5442037
I'm, uh... underqualified.
>>5442042
Do you guys feel dysphoric about your boycavity like mtfs get about their girltumor?
How are you underqualified?
>>5442051
>boycavity
lmfao
>>5442051
I feel like a sham of a woman and I'm scared of becoming a sham of a man so I'm hanging in a crazed middle-ground until I get hold of my therapist.
>>5442073
I don't know you but I've seen plenty of human failures and you dont seem like one of them tbqh...i think you seem cute just based on your posting and you're probably not as bad youre bringing yourself...you would cheer up its christmas.
>>5442117
Anonymous praise pleases me a lot more than it should do. I try to stay rational that I'm not a complete trainwreck of a person but, eh. Still, we power through!
>>5441144
did end up passing out, but yeah shots, had to try the maple whiskey... and with the blunt we actually need to pick weed up, i smoked 3 blunts between today and yesterday but they were my s/o's friend stopping by a couple times to celebrate (he's one of those people who drops in chills for a couple hours then goes away and comes back) and bringing weed...
we just have alcohol in the house, i'll probably stick to wine at this point though 'til we're out of that...
been sick though, last night i was smoking in this guy's car at 2 am (my s/o's friend brought people with him)and i got really dizzy and just pain and it felt like a heartbeat was in my intestines + my nails started looking a little blue and i was feeling cold, and like shaking a little and shit ... ended up puking and whatnot, and it was just generally unpleasant... my s/o had to help me inside... not even drunk cuz i cut myself off for hours at that point, just sick... haven't been much better today, but i'm trying to just ignore it and celebrate anyway
>>5441155
what's wrong?
>>5441346
it's usually obvious which kinda people are like that... but even then most of them have quite a bit of truth to their shitty stories, it's more just... overblown for sympathy sometimes, but yeah... bad luck with shit is unfortunately real
is she ok, or at least getting out of the situation soon?
>>5441429
i get a lot of gay and bi guys, and straight and bi girls actually... sometimes straight guys, but never lesbians...they hate me for some reason
i've had mtf chasers who have liked me too and didn't care when they found out it was the reverse issue...
>>5441432
there's a bunch of alcohol here, my bro brought home more yesterday... homemade irish cream, and some whiskey + there's a lot of beer but that's not get touched by anyone for a while
>>5441845
that sucks, my dad isn't here so i'm only with people who don't do that which is nice at least
how long are you stuck dealing with it?
>>5442275
yeah she lives with us again now, and we get along pretty well. we just had to renovate the place for a couple months and the friend who offered her a room was in denial about the abuser at the time.
>>5442182
Are ftms generally attracted to men or women?
>>5442305
honestly a surprising number of us are gay or bi, but there's still plenty of us who are straight. it probably has to do with whatever in the brain gives us dysphoria or something, though i have trouble telling which brain scan studies are reputable & which aren't.
>>5442360
>have a thing for women begging for the D
>tfw no D to give
>looks like I'll just be into dudes then
>>5442360
I've never tried learning about mtfs but im curious to how they think tbqh...seems interesting...
>>5442182
<3
>drank myself to headache stage before I even got buzzed
>painkillers take ages to kick in for me
>overheating
>it's fucking 14 degrees C right now
I'm going to angrily wait for sleep to take me.
>>5442396
This is why I'm doomed to be a sub. I've had dominant gfs before but dominant women is much rarer than dudes, and I'm not into diesel dykes.
Coupled with being short and no dick, even with a strap on I just don't have the ability to take sexy times seriously.
>>5442294
glad it's over at least then, and she's alright... do you normally doubt her?
>have to go back into female mode during the holidays
> too much of a wimp to come out to my shitty extended family
>know by next christmas i'm going to have to because i will no longer be able to hide it
>already shitting bricks about it.
woo boy, gonna drink until it stops hurting.
>>5442702
not anymore, i'm just extra cautious because i knew an abuser who was relatively stealthy at it. but we've lived together long enough & shared enough times together that i trust that she's the real deal
>>5442711
Don't worry, man, I feel you. I'll be starting T within the next couple months myself and I'm dreading what follows.
How do I get over the fact that I lived 25+ years as a woman and had no social or life experience as a guy?
>>5442734
fair enough... i guess i've just never encountered that
>>5443577
you just accept it and move on... not much else you can do, dwelling on an entire life time you didn't get to have doesn't help anything... and in spite of being cis being preferable, when you're trans you just kinda gotta accept that it affects and shapes who you are and you can't just be someone else...
>>5442305
most are bi
irl mostly straight though
im bi, currently skewed more towards chicks
>>5442275
>i get a lot of gay and bi guys, and straight and bi girls actually... sometimes straight guys, but never lesbians...they hate me for some reason
Why do you want lesbians after you in the first place?
>>5442305
It's distributed pretty evenly between gay/bi/str according to online polling on multiple forums
Anyone else pre-everything have a disgustingly bad habit of pushing people away? I have a really hard time wanting to get close to people when I'm still living like this.
>>5444116
yep
i do it out of bad paranoia though and not due to being trans
>>5444231
Simple. He ain't straight.
>>5444231
See this link http://www.phuckedtube.com/contents/member/sexybiatch/photos/MidThumbs/Buck-Angel-or-a-Tranny-f0d8e393-1.jpg
>>5444259
Buck Angel is the worst example ever. The dude is nasty.
>>5444259
Linked pic is NSFW
>tfw this pic was your first time seeing a transguy and realising they actually exist
Man I wish transmales had had more visibility when I was a dumb confused kid...
>>5444237
Similarly straight guy who's attracted to FtMs here.
Too masculine.
I like em femmy twink or chubby and hairless.
But if that one was tied up face down holes up with their slits dripping and open I'd give em a root.
>>5444267
The point still stands. If anon likes ftms, he isn't totally straight.
>>5444273
>straight
You gay doe.
At least bi. Like most humanity.
>>5444273
>implying he wouldn't hold your weak little ass down and fuck your hole senseless with a strap-on
>>5444273
You sound like one of those failed male straight pedophiles.
>im not gay because id fuck trannies and fembois only XD
>>5444275
I wish. I'd be the live in "room mate" aka housestud of one of the well off closeted twinks in my neck of the woods right now.
But banging anything with a dick, yes even passing transwomen kills my dick dead.
Don't get it, know some men can ignore the dick and go to town, I just can't.
>>5444326
I acknowledge my slight bisexuality. But wouldn't I be classified as slightly pan instead of slightly bi?
>>5444326
Bruh, I'd easily over power them physically and rip their holes with my cock. I'm in fact a large man with a massive dick.
>>5444332
I don't understand...
>>5444374
You're probably a Kinsey 1 (heteroflexible) or 2 (straight leaning bi).
>>5444101
you know none of what you quoted says or implies that... i was just saying they don't like me and nothing else right there...
i've expressed interest in the past, but not right there so yeah...
but since you need to know there's two reasons:
- i'd be flattered cuz in spite of having the lowest standards on average out of any group or sexuality i can think of, they somehow aren't into me... and it's sorta insulting... other transguys talk about lesbians being into them or being chasers often, but in my case they can't seem to stand me and the few who can have never been into me...
- curiosity... i don't have a dick, and they're used to working with what i've got... i imagine they're pretty good at oral sex as a result, but it stops at imagining cuz they don't like me...
i don't want to date a lesbian, i don't care about their hopes and dreams or thoughts or feelings... i just want like 15 minutes with one and then i'd probably be over that... and i'm normally confident with women particularly when they're closer to or just straight... so it bothers me that there's a group of them with low standards and typically shit options that just never wants me...
and before all that "you're a guy they're lesbians" shit... i'm pre-everything, not extremely masculine, and people tend to not know my gender and avoid guessing it, but when they do they think i'm a chick half the time so... it's not like i go out and everyone sees me and goes "guy" so i just don't see how that never translates into a lesbian wanting to fuck around... i just don't... have you seen some of the lesbians who get laid no problem?
>>5440051
>where's my dick santa
Here by ; )
>tfw no gf to ride the silicone dick tho
>>5444568
what the hell is that
>>5444568
without enlarging the photo it looks sorta like a carrot desu senpai.
>>5444374
>pansexual
come on now that doesn't exist. it's just bisexual.
>>5441346
same thing happened to me where i just had a strong of shitty roommates and abusive people in my life. i'm afraid that it says to people that i might be the shitty one to have it keep happening, but really i'm just a fucking idiot who keeps trusting people too easily.
>>5441480
>>5441525
i've met one who tried to get in my pants and he was pretty attractive. might've given him a go if i didn't already know that he's scum of the earth who's fucked minors and raped more than one person.
on another note: i know people generally say that your genital dysphoria gets worse once you start t, but has anyone found the opposite happens to them? i had mad genital dysphoria pre-t, it was unbearable, but now that i've been on t for ten months it's completely manageable and doesn't even bother me most days unless i think about it too hard. had to stop taking my shots for a while last month for reasons related to my abusive ex-roommates, and as soon as the estrogen started hitting the dysphoria was back in full swing and i cried like a little bitch about it.
>tfw your hips finally become more narrow than your shoulders
Sakana-anon, I saw your post in the last thread and shotgunned it all yesterday. It's pretty good!
>>5445172
damn how'd you manage that
>>5445207
Losing weight, really. I was lucky with my shoulders being wider than my hip bones, so trimming the fat away is helping immensely.
>>5444507
Stop calling yourself a trans dude if you wanna bang lesbians, you fucking dyke
>>5445207
depends on how you're built... my shoulders are wider than my hips too, always have been... if i was a cis chick i'd be pretty upset about it, but i'm not so i got lucky...
tfw mtf with no emo ftm bf
>>5445264
I feel like these days the only people who can't let go of the scene/emo/cyber/rave scene are mtfs. It's gone, and the world is a better place, friend. Let it be.
>>5445277
This.
>>5445277
but this lads dick is so nice
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gZfJefV3-0A
>>5445277
the only thing i'm happy about is that the genre (emo in this case) didn't die off with the fashion trend granted it was around before all that but that kind of ridiculous shit can kill something pretty quick.
>>5445300
by chance are you 13 and somehow stuck in 2006?
>>5445300
Jesus I hope this shit never comes back. So damn cringe worthy.
>>5445256
why would a fetish override a gender identity? it's kind of a dick move to fuck a lesbian as an openly trans guy, but it doesn't make you not trans
>>5445300
I'd break my dick off in his boypussy
>>5445356
Right?
>>5445256
Damn, how new can you be to not recognize brooklyn and how he is?
i know i don't pass all the time, but i'm really not sure how often i do pass, since it's at least sometimes. is there a good way to find out? i know my hairstyle doesn't help but i like it too much to be rid of it.
>>5445300
This is awful. He's not even good at guitar. I looked at the rest of his videos and it's embarrassing. Thankfully he's not very popular but I'm sure he'll soon make the shift to a Tyler Oakley clone or whatever you young kids are doing these days to stay hip.
>>5445377
I think in all likely hood he'll convert into even more of a Christofer Drew (lmao) clone, and then fall off the map into further obscurity.
one can hope atleast.
I got a snapback cap for Christmas and I suddenly realise I want to be one of those snapback, sunglasses, chinos douchebags. Hmm.
>>5445336
Not as cringeworthy as Rap was. I'd at least fuck an emo in the butt.
>black kid from well off family in my high school swore up and down he'd be a famous rapper one day
>never did his homework in class
>teachers tried to convince him tons of times to do it and think about his future
>he refused
>Several years later
>Isn't a world famous rapper
>family kicked him out
>living in squalor
>is a massive BLM fag and complains on facebook how it's whiteys fault he can't get into college even with affirmative action because he had straight Fs in college
I kek heartily every time I see him post
>>5445256
i don't want to exclusively bang lesbians, i just want to receive oral sex from one once, for science... that's pretty fucking different, and i'm bi at any rate... so yeah...
the thing is i prefer guys by a bit, but i really really like chasing after women, and while i'm confident when it comes to straight and bi women... like everything i do no matter how dumb it is i always feel like "ok but i got this" with them, with lesbians it's like... i get fucking auto hate, and this bothers me cuz they seem to have zero standards and it should be easy, but somehow it isn't... and so part of it is a bit the unobtainable thing i suppose...it'd feel like a victory getting to that point with one
but it's not like i wanna exclusively only fuck lesbians, or want anything with them... and wanting to experience something once doesn't define who someone is as a person...
shit i pulled my own tooth once, am i dentist?
i experience dysphoria, and i have since i was young... i have known i was trans since i was 4, and i've literally been at the point where i tried to hang myself over it a few years back... if fucking a lesbian was somehow a cure for all that i imagine it'd be recommended over expensive surgery and a life time of hrt
but it's not, cuz people are trans no matter who they fuck... i get that you don't like me or whatever and feel the need to unnecessarily fling "insults" (nothing wrong with dykes in all reality, i'm just not one), and shit but i mean... at least be logical about it instead of saying crazy dumb shit...
>>5445427
that story has nothing to do with rap, though. narcissists who avoid taking precautions because they're so certain of their success come in all stripes.
>>5445427
>rap was
Rap wasn't/isn't a phase mostly for the fashion. Emo/scene/goth/cyberraveshit all had a sudden surge in popularity and then died off. Rap didn't.
For those of you on T, did you find your insecurities start to loosen up at all after a while? Or did insecurities start popping up in other areas instead?
>>5445489
>implying Rap is as prevalent today as it was in the late 90s to mid 2000s
The kids aren't a hippin and a hoppin and a bippin and a boppin anymore gramps.
>Rap wasn't/isn't a phase mostly for the fashion.
>baggy pants
>"gang" colors
>"bling"
Raps always been 50% fashion even back when it wasn't shit in the 80s and early 90s before you had faggots who'd lie about their supposed life on the streets.
>>5445522
Where are you from?
I grew up in Jersey City, and moved out of Trenton a few years ago and even in the nicer areas of south/central NJ were still hippin and hoppin.
>>5445526
Midwest. Kids here aren't into that stuff here except for bigger cities. I haven't heard a single faggot with the bass on his car radio up too loud in half a decade.
>>5445531
>midwest
Well, that explains why.
>>5445531
god you're an embarrassment to the midwest. just because you're out of high school and not forced as often to interact with rap fans doesn't mean they've all gone away. rap does have a fashion component, but it's still very much alive and you're making it sound like we're all out of the loop hicks.
>>5445367
does anyone have any advice for this?
>>5445353
>fucking a chick that's attracted to chicks
>it's ok you're still ftm uwu
>>5445438
>not a dyke
>fucks dykes
ok bruh
>>5445769
yeah, because cis men never want to fuck lesbians, and wanting to fuck lesbians makes all your gender dysphoria fade into the wind
get a grip, dude
>>5445773
are you implying that only lesbians fuck lesbians? your logic is a little flawed there.
>>5445773
you're not actually reading shit i've said are you? i mean... you can't be, i know i've been pretty fucking out of it lately, but there's no way i could've been clearer... i've never fucked a lesbian, i just want to, there's a difference
have you ever been with a straight chick? i have... and they're fun to fuck, but they suck at oral sex... they have no idea what they're doing, and most them aren't even used to receiving it... i don't think wanting to get off now and then and not feeling like you gotta play teacher while you do it is anything really affects having dysphoria... or are you one of those people who thinks dysphoria has nothing to do with being trans?
cuz like the thing about straight chicks is you can get off, cuz it's decent enough, but the whole fucking time you know it could be better so you're like half disappointed and just kinda feel like fucking them again instead... cuz when it comes to reciprocation it's like being with a virgin, and that's not any fun for something casual... that's something you fuck around with when you want a relationship not a quickie
not that it matters, lesbians never wanna fuck me... but i mean, i know i need to transition one day cuz i can't live like this... but while i'm stuck like this i'm kinda curious, i know one day lesbians will want me even less than they do now if that's possible... so before that happens why not do what i can with what i've got? either way i'm in a shit position, all i can do is make the best of it 'til something different comes along...
i haven't been able to even do shit like hang out in a car in my driveway or sit on a porch for longer than like a half hour or so lately with how sick i've been feeling... i think having a goal that seems reasonably achievable like a quickie with a lesbian isn't a bad thing to have, gotta have goals right?
>>5445873
>>5445773
+ i just like the idea of fucking a chick who knows what she's doing, and it feels like victory to get a chick who seems like she should be unobtainable (that part is the same as me liking married women and chicks with boyfriends and shit... except like another side of that is i like that i only get the fun shit and then their boyfriend/husband/fiance is the one who has to deal with all the unpleasant shit...)
except married straight women are easy for me, and lesbians have been completely unobtainable which makes me more curious... idk... i'm high, but i don't completely understand why you can't grasp the appeal of 15 minutes, no strings attached, with a girl i never want to see again afterwards who doesn't make me feel like i'm with a virgin... i mean shit, really? what about that isn't appealing? the added fucking someone that feels unobtainable bonus is another part of it being worthwhile... so that's like 2 good things at once, and how is that an undesirable thing?
i'm trans, that doesn't mean i have to be dead inside and never have any fun...
>>5445942
-"and" i was initially gonna write "and that's somehow undesirable?" changed my mind and meant to say "how is that an undesirable thing?" my bad...
>>5445511
>>For those of you on T, did you find your insecurities start to loosen up at all after a while?
Yup, definitely. Broadly speaking it relieved a lot of dysphoria surrounding body shape, voice, that sort of thing, and it allowed me to open up to potential partners (somebody mentioned this earlier I think) . I don't have so much genital dysphoria any more, I can use my junk just fine now. My focus eventually shifted more to the top half of the body and after T's effects, I am more anxious to get surgery.
>>Or did insecurities start popping up in other areas instead?
I'm a bit insecure about the body hair now, ideally I wouldn't be as fuzzy as I am now. Overall I have to say I'm fairly content with this mess, aside from the above mentioned issues, and hitting the gym a bit more.
>>5446153
Yeah, the body hair is fucking killing me. I wasn't expecting to be hairless, but my body hair got so thick that it's difficult to point out where my pubes end and my leg hair begins. remove plz
I can't even shave because my hair is so wiry that it causes problems with ingrown hairs and awful itching when it grows back in. Goddamn native/mexican genes.
>>5446522
I don't get itchy when my hair is growing back, but I forgot to mention that skin problems like ingrown hairs (which isn't really an issue for me to be fair) and cystic acne are a pain, although I had that on some level since 1st puberty.
>>5445942
Meep
http://ricepuritytest.com
Quiz time, boys. The higher your score, the more of a fucking square you are.
>tfw 94
I feel like the question about hiding drunkenness is unfair, I'm not a liar but I am a drunk.
>>5447023
57. I foresee much worse scores than mine.
>>5445390
Dress-up is fun. Give in.
Put on your best sperries & polo combo. Go rush a fraternity
>>5446767
?
>>5447023
pic related...
>>5447023
62
I need someone/some people to come help me check some of these boxes.
>>5444116
Recently abandoned all of my friends for NEET life where I read webcomics and obsessively refresh the page every 4 hours to see if they've updated. Too quickly becoming a goddamn poster child for this board. Hopefully will join real life again soon.
>>5445201
Shotgunned The Quick and Dirty Life of Fritz Fargo last night, similar animation styles imo.
>>5447023
I scored 35..
>>5447023
56
the shit I get into sexually, you'd think I'd rate dirtier than that, but w/e
>>5447023
94...
Straight guy here
Is it weird that I want a ftm as long as they let me use their vagina and don't try to get hair?
>>5447681
>don't try to get hair?
Uh, so you mean go on hormones? Because chances are they will get hair on hormones, m8. I mean, you could always go for one of those tumblr "demiboy" transtrender if you want to pretend they're ftm or something if you don't actually want someone who looks like a man.
>>5447681
what you're describing is a woman
so uh, yeah
>>5447681
a tomboy, you want a tomboy
I want to come out to my mom and brother, but there's never gonna be a smooth segue into that conversation, is there?
every time I feel the need to come out and miss it, I feel ridiculous for thinking that I'm trans, but then I look at my boobs and it starts all over again. help
man, I need a therapist but I don't have the money for one
>>5447023
>http://ricepuritytest.com
>5
Well, fuck me. Basically I've never been convicted of any crimes and wasn't in an orgy.
>>5439802
GAY CIS WHITE MALE HERE. I got drunk and hooked up with one your kind the other day.
10/10. Would get hand job and cummies all over myself again.
>>5448358
Congrats, anon.
>>5448380
Thanks m80.
>>5448358
Hope you're not the guy I fell in love with and admitted a lot of shit to.
>>5448423
You've got talent kid. Keep your chin up.
This is my first Christmas with the family since I've come out and it's been pretty good although they've been stumbling over names a lot. Trying not to let it bother me, because they're legitimately trying.
Best part is getting to be an uncle though. That part is fucking awesome and honestly the reason I finally started to transition. My sister's kid is still tiny and will never have to remember having an 'auntie.'
Hope you guys are doing well with your holidays too.
>>5448636
my sis's kids are 6 and 8. but they dont call me aunt or anything, just my name. though my 6 year old nephew has taken to calling me "big brother" and the 8 year old views me as one as well. funnily enough my nephew is the one always correcting my family about my name and pronouns. then again he likes to wear dresses so maybe he does know
>>5448347
bestiality?
>>5447243
See, this is the kind of thing that makes me think transition would be good for me. I want the confidence to indulge the voice in mind going "become a frat guy, it'll be awesome". I need to strap on a pair, as it were.
>>5448636
my niece was over xmas eve... i kinda don't care for being "tio" cuz i'm not that damn hispanic, especially cuz my little bro is just "uncle" but my bro is teaching her pronouns and shit from the beginning at least...
she's like a year old though and mostly just calls everything "cat" anyway... i like her better than i did the older she gets, but i have a hard time seeing babies as people...
she likes me though, and she fucking loves my s/o
>>5449793
>she's like a year old though and mostly just calls everything "cat" anyway...
I'm not a big fan of kids but that shit's cute.
>>5449793
My sister and my mother have dachshunds so everything for him is "dog." He also tries to eat their chewtoys.
I'm lucky to have escaped being whatever Uncle is in German myself.
I'm not a huge fan of babies in the abstract, but something about him being my own flesh and blood kinda triggers horrible familial urges. I'm just glad my sister has reproduced so I can safely transfer that impulse without my biology focusing on making one of the damn things myself.
When is a good time to expect your family, friends and coworkers to start calling you the correct name/pronouns? I'm out to almost everyone at this point, but I won't be starting hormones for another few months.
>>5450296
that's a tough one. it's good to encourage it as soon as you're out, but if they're reluctant to start, it's hard to know when it's best to put your foot down. at least start with actively asking them to use it, & you know better than me whether you'll have to pick your battles with some of them.
>>5450296
I've been on T for ten months and my mother has BARELY started to correct herself on my pronouns and name when she fucks up.
What really helped for me to get her to do that at all was to ask for my family to meet me halfway until they're more comfortable and to refer to me more neutrally, so for the past year my mom's been exclusively calling me by the childhood nickname she gave me (scooby, because i was fuckin obsessed with Scooby Doo) and called me her "oldest" or "oldest kid" instead of "oldest daughter" and that helped a ton to both alleviate my stress over being misgendered and her stress about my transition.
>>5450073
it's kinda funny... she also makes this really fucking awful face that's kinda great but she doesn't do it when i try to take a picture of her, it sucks...
>>5450274
we have dogs, but she learned the word after playing with the cat cuz he like flipped over for her and let her rub his belly and cuddle with him and shit... so everything is "cat" now, she knows the word "dog" but she's lost interest in them...
it's just odd cuz like i'm not full hispanic anyway, and my older bro is my half brother and his dad was irish... and then my niece's mom is german/irish... so it's like this little white baby it looks like i've kidnapped calling me "tio"
i have like zero instincts with babies i think, i gotta force myself to interact with her cuz i know eventually she'll be at an age where she's decent to be around... she liked when i was playing guitar though she was clapping and dancing and crawled across the floor to put her nose on mine (she doesn't kiss people, she touches noses instead...), and like i held down some chords and let her strum it and she seemed to enjoy that... but idk what the fuck to do around kids really... i treat her like a cross between a dog and a bird and hope for the best...
i have no desire to be a parent though, the idea of that much responsibility makes me feel sick...
>>5449681
Jacked off a friend's dog at his request and $40. He was getting neutered and he was upset his dog never had an 'experience'. What made it even weirder is that it wasn't even a sexual thing for us. It was gross as fuck, he refused to be in the same room and 10 years later we still have never brought it up again.
>>5450721
he left the room and you did it anyway instead of just pocketing the money and lying? wtf?
>>5450721
What the fucking fuck?
>>5450721
Damn, dude.
>haven't felt this stressed out in many weeks
>anxiety rising
>no weed dealer
>ran out of rum a few days ago,too shit outside right now to get more
good good.
>>5451102
come over... i have weed, spiced rum, maple whiskey, wine, champagne, and beer... and homemade irish cream, but idk who made it my older bro was given it as a gift and then regifted it to my s/o and i
>>5451137
that sounds so nice, i wish i could honestly.
being that well stocked is basically a pipe dream for me
>>5451137
Man, party at your house - everybody in the fucking car!
>>5451171
well holidays so about half of it was free... it's mostly just my s/o and my little bro drinking, so there's a lot left
i had to quit yesterday and stick to smoking instead cuz i'm trying to avoid the hospital...
we have jager still too now that i think of it, i wouldn't touch the irish cream though... i don't like homemade things when i haven't watched someone cook or seen the inside of their house...
what's got you so anxious though? just general anxiety issues or is something going on?
>>5451199
General anxiety on top of things just being rough the past few months. I internalize all my stress/anxiety, and it ends up biting me in the ass either physically or it all comes out in one go after awhile.
>>5451179
nah not that exciting... i'm laying on the couch high watching lotr with my s/o and my little bro while they drink + they're eating popcorn i can't have with gypsy
>>5451245
yeah that's not any good to do, what's been going on aside from the general anxiety stuff?
do you have any coping methods with the anxiety?
>>5451265
it's a really messy story but basically my older brother got committed to a psych ward way back in June, he ended up moving in with my dad (who isn't that great of a guy honestly) after he got out a few months later a few states over, got kicked out a few weeks later, last i heard from him he had gotten himself an apartment was working 3 jobs and sounded absolutely miserable. I'm glad he has a roof over his head and food to eat, but knowing how he gets when he's depressed and not knowing if he's on his medication anymore scares the shit out of me. I might be jumping to conclusions but it's hard not to be concerned when it's a sibling.
There was a scare about being kicked out of my apartment too, that's sort of been settled though i'm still having to look for another place to live "just in case".
And loads of other small things that everyone has to put up (School, general family drama, relationships going to shit etc.)
>>5451265
I have a mixed bag of coping mechanisms (usually walk it off / hike if i can). My anxiety is usually not severe enough for me to not be able to calm myself down eventually but my body is definitely taking a beating due to the stress (constant headaches / muscle tension / always exhausted etc).
>>5451318
sorry to hear that, that's rough... i don't have to worry about my brothers, but i know what that's like cuz of my s/o's siblings... his sis has been in and out of the hospital trying to kill herself, and keeps running off refusing to take her seizure meds and is on all kinds of drugs... and like i've known his siblings since they were 7, and have lived with them taken them to their graduation from middle school etc so they're family and that's just... a real fucking mess
when was the last time you heard from him? nothing over the holidays? whether you're jumping to conclusions or not that's stressful, and like you said... hard not to
i get feeling like you gotta look just in case, but if it's settled maybe you should work on actively not stressing over it too much you know? like catch yourself thinking about it and just distract yourself...
small shit rarely feels small when you gotta actually deal with it, that kinda on going shit is usually some of the hardest...
wish i could send you a joint or some shots of something, but i can listen if you need it...
>>5451392
have you ever tried meditation and like mindfulness and shit? it really helps to figure out how to push your feelings about unrelated shit away and just focus on any given moment, cuz like... no matter what's bothering you a good deal of the time it doesn't actually matter...
like right now i've got like a million things to be worried and depressed about, and i used to just obsess but now it's just like eh whatever my s/o's lap is comfortable and that's good enough right now
>>5451407
it's always the hardest blood or not when siblings are having issues like that, you really feel for em but can't do anything for them outside of getting them psych help
heard from him a few weeks ago, and about a 5 minute call from him last Tuesday - my mom is usually the one that keeps me slightly updated since she talks to him a bit more than i do, but I honestly don't think I'll quit worrying unless he's back here where I live (which he wants to be but can't abandon his lease / cant afford to yet)
yeah I'm doing my best to not stress myself out hard about moving / staying etc, the biggest problem is trying not to over think whether it'll happen again or not.
thanks man I appreciate the sentiment, being able to voice my troubles definitely does help.
>>5451452
I haven't, I may end up needing to try it out to see if that helps. I've had a few friends suggest I try yoga as well to sort of ease the physical tension i'm putting myself under but haven't gotten around to testing that out either.
>>5451454
yeah, you're right... that's pretty much all that can be done and that's what makes it so hard
how long before his lease is up?
i suppose your best is all you can do right now... always sucks when you can't manage to stop overthinking shit
and no problem, sorry i'm taking a while though... i'm doing pretty bad right now, hoping it passes otherwise it's hospital time and i'd rather stay home
>>5451472
it actually does help, my uncle kept telling me to try it so i gave it a shot... it doesn't just help with physical shit, helps clear your head too but really that's any exercise
Some of you here have been talking about people online you like thinking you're cis and being afraid to come out to them. I told the person I've been kind of "seeing" earlier this week and they were 100% fine with it. Just go for it. It's actually really surprising how little people care, especially if they've already gotten to know you beforehand.
The world is changing, m8s.
>>5452796
Was it worth it?
>>5452796
that's the kinda shit that's in like a todd solandz movie... shit's fucked up, but funny as hell, i bet you have some crazy fucking stories about your life...
Anyone here on Medicaid and have it cover anything trans-related?
I recently got ocular and oral herpes so now I can't wear my contacts and my lower face constantly tingles/breaks out. How are you guys doing health wise lately?
I sexually Identify as a completely normal male.
Ever since I was a boy I dreamed of being completely normal GOD DAMNIT.
People say to me that a person being a sane cis person is Impossible but I don’t care, I’m sane.
I’m having a plastic surgeon install ABSOLUTELY NOTHING on my body.
From now on I want you guys to call me “David” and respect my right to be completely normal.
If you can’t accept me you’re a liberal trash and need to check your sanity levels. Thank you for being so understanding.
>>5454534
Not bad other than having to wear a diaper. Eating a burrito can be pretty rough and I love chipotle.
>>5454542
Okay, David.
>>5454542
That's very brave of you. Best of luck in your endeavors, Dave.
>>5454542
1/10
>>5454270
Yup. All the things
http://www.transequality.org/know-your-rights/medicare
I'm AWAB(assigned white at birth), but identify as black. I'm also latino-dragonfly-kin (yes, I'm a latino dragonfly stuck in the body of a black man who most people think of as white. Don't judge.) and have an asian headmate. Is it OK if I hang out here? (Basically I'm assuming you're not trans-racist.)
>>5454636
Sure ... you'll ... fit right in!
>>5454602
Medicaid and Medicare are two completely different insurances.
Any another anons have input to my original question?
>>5454697
Google. It depends on your state.
MassHealth covers everything, NY too.
>>5454697
Ingrate
>>5454636
i can never tell if these posters are just making fun of "transethnics"/otherkin/etc. or if they're trying to imply we're just like them because we're transgender.
>>5455236
I think they're grouping FTMs in with Tumblr-tier bullshit identities.
>>5455236
>>5455318
they're saying it's all bullshit, and they don't see it as a valid thing... and they're doing it by putting it on the same level as some shit most people find ridiculous (like say... the flying spaghetti monster)
it's got fuckall to do with tumblr, people have been like this about trans shit for a long time before the tumblr shit was even a thing...
>>5445277
Emo ftm here. No.
>>5455855
>emo ftm
pls marry me
cis guy here
>>5455914
Lol, ok. Where from?
>>5455972
Kentucky
tfw no emo bf to love
>>5456033
Pennsylvania.
Same.
>>5455999
eh there is no "right" response...
>>5456141
or best, my bad... i'm high + tired, decided against the hospital cuz that's just gonna suck... things can suck here instead you know?
that makes me sound miserable, i'm not... there's decent shit too
>>5456141
>>5456159
+ unrelated: my mom's friend's kid, this girl i grew up with got insanely hot out of fucking nowhere... and now whenever i see her on instagram i'm thinking "i wonder if i could play the childhood friend trying to reconnect" card and hit that... always got along better with her sister though, who's also hot...
I've become the wing man to my newly out bisexual friend. It feels nice to be able to reciprocate the support he gave me when I came out as trans. Also having another person equally as socially inept as I am who's in the LGBT realm as a friend is a pretty sweet bonus.
>>5445526
>another ftm from jc
whaaaaatt
>>5447681
so a girl
>>5454542
tickle your own butthole david i said no
>been playing Alter Ego all evening
>couldn't hold down a relationship
>ended up rich old kook
>died
>suddenly very concerned my dude died alone at home and wasn't discovered for months
I gotta get a grip.
>>5456933
It's okay anon
Everyone dies alone and confused
>>5456933
They add a gay option in yet?
>>5457400
Afraid not, I tried to see if there was any experimentation in college but no luck.
would any of you straight guys consider dating a straight mtf girl? Asking as a straight mtf girl ;-;
>>5457426
>straight
>mtf
lmao you're funny
>>5457426
I'm bisexual but, yeah course. I've had an mtf girlfriend in the past and it was a pretty good relationship so i don't see why i wouldn't again.
>>5457426
i'm not straight, but i'd date a transgirl... can't think of a reason not to
Maybe I'm not trans, maybe I'm just a chick who wants huge hands and feet, to be taller, a deep manly voice, no boobs, a dick, a beard, and who feels alienated from her own being when she hears her own voice and sees herself in the mirror for no reason, right?
>>5457673
I've had this conversation with myself many times
Repression is a helluva thing
>>5457426
yeah
>>5452272
I feel like this is probably directed at me for something I posted in the last thread.
Yeah, maybe. Glad it went well for you anon!
>>5445511
I have a lot less insecurity now even though T hasn't done much in 3 years compared to what it does for other people, which is ironic.
>>5457681
I've been repressing so much that I don't even know when I am and when I'm not anymore
>>5458257
I felt a lot less insecure about myself when I came out.
Hey ftmg Im back from the previous thread, got a haircut and working on the shitty acne. more than 4 people throughout the weekend have called me cute/ adorable and I dont know how to feel about it. Im >>5430044
>>5458301
I'd mistake you for a 16/17 year old boy anon
>>5458307
At least that went up. somebody said I looked like a 14 yr old so thanks I guess
>>5458317
It's not too bad anon. I'm a 24 year old cis guy and people still don't believe me when I tell them my age.
>>5445522
One would only have to look at readily available statistics to know that rap/hip hop is more popular in the past 5 years compared to all of history. There are vastly more sub-genres and flavors than ever before. Perhaps the culture has changed, but it's still going stronger than ever.
>death grips
>>5445522
there's good rap that's more recent than that... like immortal technique, aesop rock, jedi mind tricks, sage francis etc... even someone like necro who is fucking ridiculous is still enjoyable...
and a lot of 80's and 90's rap isn't great... i mean i like biggie and all, but for the most part... eh
>>5458493
Sage Francis live is ridiculous, that man is like a fastfood wizard.
>>5434188
Finally got around to making a skype -- eggslad
Feel free to add me!
On another note- crazy weather this year. A tornado missed my mom's house by a few miles Saturday :\ We lucked out
>>5458796
never seen him live, though that's not really surprising i tend to avoid going to shows and shit... just not my thing, too many people
>>5458493
Conscious rap is some of the best shit. Atmosphere, Doomtree, Dessa, Grieves, POS, Brother Ali, and Oddisee are great too.
>>5441525
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I have a couple question for you guys:
How many of you want to get bottom surgery?
If you don't want to get it would you be alright with using a strap-on during sex?
How many of you are into women? Is the ratio of straight/gay/bi the same as with cis people?
>>5457673
>>5458292
Are you me?
>>5460422
>How many of you want to get bottom surgery?
i want it but not in its current state, the second we get working dick transplants i'm first in line
>If you don't want to get it would you be alright with using a strap-on during sex?
that's what i do now
>How many of you are into women? Is the ratio of straight/gay/bi the same as with cis people?
exclusively and it doesn't really seem like it. I've only ever known one other exclusively straight ftm, he's also one of the only ftms i know that passes, the gay ones usually look like dykes
>>5460397
isn't that a high amount of people from minneapolis/st. paul? or am i misplacing some of them?
>>5458292
Feel your pain dude, the more internal conflicts I have due to repression the more I turn into a husk of a human being.
>>5460422
i wouldn't want a dick, at least not a normal one because i can't handle semen getting everywhere. masturbation would be a nightmare. i don't want any currently available surgeries either. i wouldn't mind a prehensile tentacle dick, though. i'll probably buy bad dragon's small tentacle to use as a packer eventually.
i'm not sure if i ever want to have sex again.
i'm bi but i'm mostly into butch or androgynous women when it comes to women, with a couple exceptions
>>5460422
>How many of you want to get bottom surgery?
I want it, but at this current stage I'll pass as soon as it's worth the amount of money I'd be throwing at it I'm down
>If you don't want to get it would you be alright with using a strap-on during sex?
Do that now
>How many of you are into women? Is the ratio of straight/gay/bi the same as with cis people?
I am but not exclusively. Most my other ftm friends are straight or also bisexual, never personally met one who was exclusively gay.
straight white cis scum male from /r9k/ here
how does it feel knowing this woman
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vhrsrXaRVG4
is willing to fuck one of your kind?
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CoqV-xkQPAA
>>5460397
i tried responding to this twice already, but it's being shit...
it is yeah + there's a lot of good shit out there... i think as far as genres of music go, rap has grown into something better over the years whereas the majority of other shit seems either stagnant or shittier than it used to be...
and it's evolved so much since the 80's shit, that anyone who says otherwise probably hasn't listened to anything more recent... cuz if you're thinking "why isn't rap still the way it was when run dmc is around" you haven't paid enough attention, or you have shit taste...
and sure old school rap has its charm, but idk... it feels a bit like calling the ramones the best of punk and just... no...
in my opinion anyway (i know when i'm not clear about my opinions being just opinions there's always someone who gets touchy... not up for it today)
>>5460570
Well she seems empathetic towards the trans guy in the video but that first video wew boy nah that's some high school level thinking. She's not my type but she seems like a pretty nice person.
>>5460601
i didn't watch the video... i looked at her thought "not my type, but good anyway" and that was done... i didn't care about what she had to say at all though honestly
>>5460606
I figured she wouldn't be without needing to watch the video, but I gave her a chance anyhow. Her ideology in the first video basically confirmed my feelings. Never going to get that 5 minutes I used skipping through her videos back.
>>5460612
i'm just usually only into blondes if they look like anorexic, drug addict, whores... and even then i prefer other types... it's more that white chicks aren't really my thing
she's cute though, and i'd probably have a great conversation with her chest but yeah...
you're making me actually consider watching that video to know what you're talking about
>>5460633
>>5460612
+ keep in mind though, my type means nothing... that's more just like what i'll look at or be drawn to... when it comes to actually being with someone or any of that i care less... cuz like someone doesn't need to be my type for sex since that doesn't matter, and for anything more than sex i'm not particular either as long as i like them...
she's easily an 8 though...
>>5460633
Agh I get you, the only thing I can really point to as far as my type is I always date people with dark hair and eyes other than that it's a toss up, but the moment they start saying some dumb shit I'm out regardless of whether they're my type or not. I'm just easily irritated and bitter about that kind of thing I guess.
>>5460680
oh it really depends on the kinda dumb shit they say... and how cute they are in relation to how dumb they are, and if they're a woman... i care more about whether or not a guy is intelligent than i do when it comes to chicks for some reason... like guys who are dumb usually actively turn me off, whereas i have a soft spot for really cute dumb girls... particularly if they have that "nothing is going on here" look in their eyes, and bonus points if they're also "quirky" and a bit crazy...
that's actually my favourite type of girl...
i'm honestly lucky i'm bi though, cuz my taste in women is pretty terrible for the most part...
>>5460609
it's kinda weird i still haven't listened to most of them even though i live here. i feel out of the loop
>>5460727
I'm also bi but I think the standard kind of holds up for both males and females for me. I can forgive ignorance honestly, if someone just doesn't know about something (especially if it's on a subject I personally enjoy) I'm kind of excited to teach them about it as long as their equally excited about listening to me (same the other way around - always happy to learn something from someone). But people who don't actively seek to learn new things really turns me off. Also just the act of having to explain general knowledge to someone makes me cringe so I just sort of avoid that type of person if I can.
>shower
>go to grab towel
>rub face
>ohmyfuckinggodthatsmell
>huge brown streak on other side
god i hate having a 50 year old child
>>5460782
wtf
>>5460778
for me it's more just that dumb women tend to be more fun than more intelligent ones... the smarter a chick is the more likely she is to be uptight and serious and just... nope
whereas with guys when a guy is dumb it doesn't usually translate into them being fun to be around to make up for it...
ignorance can be fixed though yeah, so i get that, but i mean just straight up like no logic there whatsoever kinda dumb... i don't have any desire to really teach someone anything though, i'd rather just have a good time...
but i think my taste is also strongly affected by the fact that i'm in a relationship, and have been since before i even graduated hs + it's still going with the idea that we're going to continue with it... and it's open, but like... as far as real relationships go i'm good and don't desire another (if it somehow came up that's different) so no one i meet on the side is gonna really matter past their ability to be interesting for however long they're interesting... certain things (like intelligence) matter significantly less when there's no monogamy or desire to spend my life with someone you know?
i get where you're coming from though, and i think i'd feel a little different if i was single
>>5460782
that's fucked up, bet you're never doing that again...
i never use shared towels unless it was my s/o who used it and we showered together... i just don't trust people to not be gross...
>>5460824
I think that's probably why I'm drawn to that type of person honestly, I'd consider myself pretty easy going but I'm not really the stereotypical fun type and a bit of a homebody so having someone that is also into that works well for me. (Not that intelligence means you aren't fun or a homebody of course, but that usually follows the stereotype of the "intelligent / bookish" type).
Agh I understand that, I'm single as of right now but not really actively trying, though when I do I definitely look for someone I could have a decently long relationship with (even if it's a year or two), so I have to try and look for things like intelligence or hobbies because if there's too much conflicting personality traits going on I know it wouldn't last more than a few weeks which I'm not particularly into.
>>5460422
>How many of you want to get bottom surgery?
I want to really badly, but not until technology advances and we don't have just an almost non-functional tube of a cock as the only option. On the other hand, having a straight bf (we got together before I realized I was FtM) makes thinking about having a dick feel inadequate
>If you don't want to get it would you be alright with using a strap-on during sex?
You have no idea how much I wanna do this. But again, husbando isn't interested in butt stuff, and I'm too embarrassed to ask him to blow a fake dick strapped to my hips
>How many of you are into women? Is the ratio of straight/gay/bi the same as with cis people?
I'm into women, kinda, but not that much, really. I wouldn't do with a woman all the things I'd do with a man
While we're at it, what are the chances of someone changing their sexuality after taking hormones? The thought of it makes me really nervous
>>5460871
idk that i'd say i'm necessarily the stereotypical fun type, but i like a girl that's willing to get wasted and pass out on the beach all night, or isn't afraid to do dumb shit even if people are around... i prefer people who are more extroverted than i am usually, just cuz i'm sorta in between with that...
yeah i can see that when you're looking for relationships cuz then things like that become way more important... though i'll be honest i'm always confused and intimidated by people who come at shit with this plan in their head about shit being an investment from the beginning... pretty much nothing scares me off more desu... like even with my s/o when he first said he was in love with me, i actually turned him down cuz even without him saying it i knew me dating him was gonna be a long term thing and i found it all pretty terrifying... i got over that and asked him out a couple of months later once i realized if i didn't i was gonna lose him and regret it... but committment has always sorta made me feel sick... i think that's why monogamy gets me, like i can be totally monogamous for long stretches of time, but if i'm told i don't have the option of ever having someone else then i can't do it... cuz then i feel too restricted by it
oddly enough though the relationship thing is my biggest issue with guys... like with girls i tend to find ones where we click, but i'm not taking them serious and regardless of their feelings they know i'm a bad long term option and it's all just light and fun and i enjoy that... but nearly every time a guy shows interest or likes me it comes with all this serious relationship heavy talk that makes me nauseous... like i never want to hear "i wanna wake up to you every morning" right away, or "i want to be with you for years" cuz that's a lot of pressure and expectations and something i'm never gonna give them anyway... so it's just immediately off-putting for me, and it's a constant with guys
